*This story is for my dear J. It’s about seeing this weird world through your eyes.
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*Chapter 1: A little bit of youth
Huijun is exactly thirty-four years old this year, which is a rather awkward age. In fact, she’s kind of good-looking, and her figure is also good. Thin draped shoulder-length hair, just small eyes so some, but wearing gold-rimmed glasses is a few points of the book atmosphere. Said her eyes are small, but but the light of the appearance of love, but the light of every time to say that she took off the glasses Mee eyes look at things when there is a few classical beauty flavor. Shang Li also loves these eyes and says they look like a hazy poem. Yes, Huijun is some classical flavor, thin body, often love to wear a wide dress, sometimes walking against the wind as if to fly up.
Huijun loves to hold her purse in front of her chest, the kind of purse that looks flat and long like a large original book, which makes her feel like she is back in college. Huijun’s books are barely enough for her to read, and she’s not exactly the type to work hard, but she does not lose out on dancing and having fun. Nostalgia for college career is not because of other, just miss that a little bit of youth, or that she knows her only advantage left these books flavor, play to the fullest.
When I read the book and did not realize the loss of youth, frankly speaking, this decade is not no one chased, just not a decent. The side of the marriage, always feel that there is a difference between some of these feelings, a feeling of love, slow days passed, never found a what love a not love, the days also mixed mixed disappeared.
To be close to thirty when was nervous for a while, leaping over the barrier is sincere to give up, decent point of the early was other women captured to go, the rest is actually some residue leftovers on the eye. Just did not expect the heart to die when it is spring rainfall red apricot blossom, men suddenly like to find the treasure like to see her. No when a are not, come when a group of group, huijun suddenly do not know how to choose.
Chapter 2: Warm Night
But Guang picked her up in a PUB, where all the single women were surrounded by people and Huijun was the only one who seemed to be an orphan. But Huijun was the only one who seemed to be orphaned. But the light home computer company as a not too small supervisor, his wife that day back to his mother’s home he mixed out to fool around, want to get a surprise what surprise what and so on, did not think so into it.
But Guang has an ordinary figure, his appearance is not handsome, overall it is average! But only light is a veteran in the love field, marriage and age did not stop him to forge ahead in the heart, is to chase women of that momentum. After the marriage of a few love are talking about the beautiful, the hosts are happy, smiling breakup, he is a middle-aged man who knows how to take the measure, about family life has never been cold, everything to get a four flat and stable.
Huijun nature is not without men and women, this era is not popular what three chastity nine martyrs, really want to chastity honestly do not have an object can be chastity. One-night stand is also considered to have experienced a few times, the rush to go also fast, the next day each other are looking at each other two no news, just venting a little bit of emotion! Speaking of venting is no better than on the vibrator to the sharp, up and down not to engage in the psychological is more sad, perhaps the figure just want to hold a sweaty real man body only.
That night, the two of them got into Yuko’s car and drove all the way to the beach in Freshwater. Yiguang is a cautious person, despite the roadside motels, he did not rush to attack and wait for the opportunity. But Huijun, who was beside him, muttered in her heart, “What’s wrong with this man? The night will be gone if he drives on.
Seaside wind blowing Huijun just set off her beautiful, but the light at once fell out of God, thought to see the goddess, at the same time up a lot of adoration of the heart. Huijun by the sea breeze blowing comfort, all of a sudden also forgot the purpose of tonight, the two walked slowly along the seaside highway.
The scattered lights on Guanyin Mountain were on, and the occasional headlights shone on the pair, making the world seem even more bleak and lonely. Yiguang was afraid that Huijun would get cold, and took off his jacket to cover her, Huijun’s heart was flooded with warmth, and even his cheeks seemed to be warmed up together.
That night was just a dream. Yikuang didn’t even touch Huijun’s hand, but he didn’t regret it in the slightest. The ghostly figure wandered around all night, and in return, he was late for work the next day and had a headache the whole day, plus the number of Huijun’s cell phone. After that, Huijun’s cell phone suddenly got busy, and her colleagues also noticed that Huijun’s smile often carried a certain mysterious ambiguity.
Chapter 3: A Familiar Feeling
Life has nothing to do with chance. After thirty-four years of loneliness, there is a sudden buzz, a buzz that surprisingly exceeds expectations.
Not a week after he met Shang Li, who is a client of the company and has a little bit of money from his ancestors! He came to the company several times to talk about things and Huijun just brushed by, and did not look at each other squarely. Huijun’s impression of Shang Li is not very good, this person is always like no one else in Huijun office smoking cigarettes, because he is a customer also had to tolerate him.
This day Huijun just did not sleep well overnight headache, smelling smoke is even more difficult, Huijun straight please Shangli out of the smoke, Shangli cheeky also out. Huijun heart some resentment, Shangli in Huijun their company arbitrary smoking has been a period of time the privilege, which rudely break the rules for Huijun heart some fear.
As soon as Huijun left the elevator after work, she was busy grabbing her cell phone and laughing with Yiguang, but she bumped into Shangli when she got to the staircase. Shang Li is deliberately waiting for Huijun, today in Huijun’s company was publicly accused of some of the anger, but he was about to have a fit when he saw Huijun suddenly stayed, how a kind of familiar feeling? This woman is so beautiful, I am blind to find out today.
Huijun was already weak, now encountered a weak heart, the face of a red up more delicate. Huijun said a random reason to hang up the phone, bowed his head and said sorry to Shang Li. Shang Li said you want to invite me to dinner to make amends, okay? Huijun all of a sudden can not say no words.
The dinner was magnificent, Huijun thought that the card will be maxed out, the heart is worried. Shang Li a glance to see Huijun heart, dishes just finished on the waiter handed a gold card to pay the bill, but also called for some wine. Now Huijun’s head is even lower, timidly asked not to be my treat? How do you pay for yourself?
The meal lasted three hours, and the scent of wine rolled through Huijun’s veins, and Huijun still felt the fire-like aroma in her bed. Huijun into the room with some hesitation, the heart vaguely thought of Yiguang, some feelings of betrayal. But with Yiguang know this week and did not talk about love this, just feel love and talk to him, and he is married. Shang Li handsome and straight, and unmarried, Huijun in the hesitation to follow the Shang Li into the hotel.
Sang Li, as his name suggests, gently unbuttoned Hui-jun’s bra, and her small breasts popped out. Huijun suddenly regretted that she didn’t wear the newly bought silk pink underwear today. Shang Li’s lips suddenly pressed on, the familiar sweet aroma of grapes came over, and the two of them kissed as if they were lifeless and fell on the bed.
Desire erupted like a volcano, and Sang-ri kissed Hui-kun’s nipples lovingly. Hui-jun had always been a bit self-conscious about her breasts, but now she was proud of them, holding her breasts up and letting the pleasure crawl all over her body.
Shang Li’s body is surprisingly smooth, prick easily close to Huijun’s body, but after going in, but feel incredibly compact, know Huijun is not often have this thing. Shang Li gently poked and moved, Huijun at first fashion can maintain reserve, not a moment can not resist the soreness of the lower body to meet up. The mouth does not dare to make a sound for fear that Shang Li lightly looked at her, but the throat is unable to stop the leakage of secret, hands also betrayed to hold tightly Shang Li, looking forward to Shang Li can be more in-depth some.
Sang-li couldn’t help himself and soon ejaculated, his semen spewed out like a long dragon, spraying Hui-kun all over. Hui-kun had never been satisfied like this, in terms of time is really short, but just satisfied, as if never satisfied like this.
Sang-li woke up suddenly from his dream, the strange woman beside him was sleeping on his arm, and her long black hair was scattered on the white pillow. For the first time, Shang Li had this warm and familiar feeling towards a woman, like his own woman. He suddenly thought of his own almost forty is not the time to have a family, and want to say of course this is still early, we are not familiar with it!
Huu-kun is roaming around fresh water with Yuko in her dreams, dreaming of the warmth of that jacket.
Chapter IV.
Huijun woke up when the day has been slightly light, beside the man sleeping breath evenly, the heart is a bit like a new woman’s happy feeling, just this happiness and have these many sneaky, can not help but sigh. Huijun got up and sat on the bed against the pillows, thinking that his life has never been so close to love, but the distance of an armpit, stretching only a hand to touch to touch, so happy, but on the contrary, it is not too true.
The man’s body is like a waxed smooth, always let a person want to touch a hand. Like a big red apple, in order to sell, stained with a few water droplets, make a crystal clear, so that people have a share of want to bite on the impulsive desire. To men, Shang Li long is a little too beautiful, men’s beautiful than women’s constant, showy face plus a few wrinkles is like adding a lot of smart charm, if the woman is called decay.
Since then to work Huijun expression more than a few points of ambiguous charm, walking posture are more than a few points of swaying, the office of the male colleagues all suddenly realized the remorse. Originally a rough skin pit scars of cantaloupe children, today broke open to emit a thick sweet, so that the whole office is also greasy.
Dates with but light fixed in the Saturday afternoon, a total of three or four hours, is like a routine, routine to receive so much warmth. For but light she has so some dispensable psychology, women’s hearts rarely put down too many men, this time Shang Li is to fill her heart of ninety percent, the remaining ten percent of the idle will be, mainly because of Shang Li Saturday afternoon fixed meeting to open.
But the light turned suddenly honest up, even his family women are surprised, thought he worked or health is not a problem, the whole person was suddenly quiet up. But the light of the woman did not read a lot of books, ten or so years old to follow the light, the beginning of the body of the enjoyment of the greedy, until the birth of a child after the body shape, the heart also turned to hang on the child. But the light of the affair she is not unaware of, just a long time noisy long habit into life.
Yiguang this time felt that he really fell in love, the feeling of love is only thinking about a person, other warblers suddenly become a noisy background, some unpleasant to see. As if heaven and earth only Huijun is a woman in general, other people live just to accompany.
Yiguang accompanied Huijun always silent, know that this time will not last long, this is the first time he seriously think about the word long. Silence than hilarious feeling longer, he did not even dare to hold Huijun’s hand a bit, for fear of touching Huijun will destroy the long, which has become a superstition.
Huijun is also greedy for this quiet every weekend afternoon, the two are used to the place is always fresh water, sometimes just sit under the big banyan tree for a whole afternoon. Huijun did not detailed end of Weiguang, mainly because Weiguang that eyes, let a person feel a kind of cold lonesome, look carefully even time to be pale up. Huijun also do not know what they are in love with, according to this kind of uninteresting date should have been cut off, but also involved in a marriage with the light. Just can’t forget that night, the coat draped over her body, this emotion in the heart of the buds, deep roots coiled a piece of land, clear and clean up not to go.
No one has ever loved Hui-kun like this in her life. This is the first time! It seems to be the only time. After that, Yiguang even walking with her one after the other, sometimes feel that this man deliberately avoiding her, do not know what he thought of his mind. But the light is obviously less physical desire, the two are always walking, tired to sit and rest a bit, sitting position is also like a good arrangement of pulling far.
But the light with the family almost rarely have that bed things, and occasionally with a sense of responsibility, to get on a back every time to get on an hour or two, that is, no that passion, can maintain a hard also counted as a miracle. His woman was also engaged in this one or two hours of socializing exhausted, but miss the premature ejaculation when weiguang teenagers. Since the two have a consensus, of course, is to be able to save is to save everyone quiet and happy, peace is blessed.
But the light is to rely on dead paychecks to live, used to engage in some flirtation hooks a month at most only one or two times, more economic problems. Usually need to vent the method is to solve their own, it is strange to say, look at the picture does not need three or two minutes to ejaculate, easy to save trouble and very convenient. In the only light fantasy I do not know how many women and he had a period of time, from the secretary of the boss to the roadside wearing a short skirt of the girl, the sky and the earth, but the light can be arbitrary, in addition to Huijun. Not try Huijun, just that time he thought of Huijun in his head when the penis is always indisputable soft down, the more fantasized Huijun look the more not, and finally even the length of the little bit of turtled up. But the light can only laugh at their own love for Huijun has transcended to the spiritual level, which makes him more and more respect Huijun, really worship her as a religion.
The only days of the week that Huu-kun didn’t think about Sang-ri were every weekend afternoon, which gave her time to catch her breath a little.
Chapter 5: Sins
Sang-li has never worried about food and clothing in his life, his family left him to run the business, although it is not too big, but in the region is also a small scale, and then left in his hands and then developed a lot. Honestly speaking, Shang Li can not be regarded as the type of second generation, he does have some unique management methods in the business. Relatively speaking, he also has such a way of running a business in his outlook on life, and he always has to be precise in everything, and not to lose out.
Marriage for Shang Li is never considered, parents have passed, brothers also have a group of wives and children, without the pressure to aspire to the freedom of unrestricted. Neither worry about money life, coupled with a long woman’s edge, specialist period there is no shortage of friends of the opposite sex. It is also because of the ease of getting women, which is less competitive feeling, the bottom of the heart to love this thing has a few points of contempt.
Huijun no matter in the posture, age are not compared to the many women that Shang Li know, but Shang Li is inexplicably hooked by Huijun soul. Shang Li that day quietly and properly analyze their own mood, with a little analysis of the stock curve chart of the research and judgment techniques, but the analysis is not a thing, the last will be all attributed to fate. Karma this thing is the most unscientific, partial business people and most believe that such vague things, regardless of feng shui life this kind of strange and chaotic God, but this group of young entrepreneurs wearing a suit and tie the chief counselor of the cause.
That day when Huijun off work Shang Li mysteriously said to take her to a place. Shang Li has always dominated everything accustomed to, Huijun also self-identified as Shang Li’s little woman, followed the drive on the highway. This drive on the drive for more than two hours, to the Taichung countryside, an unknown town, Shang Li familiar with the left and right turns to a shrine. Shang Li burned incense to Huijun to follow the worship, Huijun is what all believe and what do not believe with Shang Li, the process is very complicated, finally completed the ceremony.
Out of a middle-aged woman, a white dress, mouth reciting words like reading what poetry and so on, rhyming very fluent but can not hear a true, said also with two hands waving footsteps like a dance out of the soul. Standing next to a young man with a cigarette, and Shang Li said the Prince asked what you want to ask? Huijun grew up in the city since childhood, never seen this kind of scene, curious, but there are seven points of fear up. Shangli signaled Huijun have to ask no? Huijun was at a loss for words and pushed Shangli, who had to speak first.
Shangli pulled Huijun kneeling in front of the woman, softly asked the disciple in this life and this woman’s destiny how? The woman shuddered, hands and feet dance said a few difficult sentences actually fell back on the ground. Next to the young man said aloud to the third prince said the fate of a! Sins a!
Back in Taipei is already early in the morning, Huijun after a night of noise, the mind is echoing the sentence of sinners! The mind is restless and unable to sleep. She pushed Shang Li but couldn’t get up, Shang Li is a good sleeper. Huijun suddenly felt very lonely, put on a nightgown and sat on the sofa in the corner of the suite, reading the tranquility of fresh water.
In a haze, Huijun dreamed that she was walking quietly along the seashore of Danshui with Yikuang, the reddish sun slowly disappeared under the Guanyin Mountain, and the moon could not bear the loneliness to hang in the sky on the other side. The moon slowly sucked away the light and gave off a soft pale color, as if to freeze the panic of the heart. Suddenly the woman appeared in front of Huijun blocking the road and asked in a stern voice where the impediment was going. But I don’t know whether this evil is referring to Yiguang or myself. Yiguang held her hand and ran for his life, and slowly Yiguang transformed himself into Shang Li. Huu Gon screamed and cried, and the woman turned into a red light and pounced on him…
Shang Li desperately pushed Huijun awake. At this time it was already six in the morning, Shang Li is a believer in early to bed and early to rise in good health, half-awake by Huijun mournful cries scared up. Getting up and touching the side of no Huijun figure, and a moment did not realize that he is a night in Huijun small apartment, fixed the God only to find Huijun is in the corner of the sofa curled up crying.
A touch Huijun forehead some hot, want to sleep on the sofa overnight by the wind chill, Shang Li heartache. Settle down Huijun ate a cold medicine explained to be sure to take time off, Huijun insisted that the weekend is only a half-day shift, Shang Li fear Huijun slip to work had to accompany. Huijun in Shangli’s arms in a deep sleep, body a cold a hot, originally is not a serious illness, near noon time sweat fever also retired.
Huijun urged Shangli to go to the meeting, Shangli heart uneasy to call to inform this will not go over today. Huijun drilled his head in Shang Li’s chest, smelling him all over the smell of cigarettes, thinking how this smell of cigarettes this sweet? And remembered the time to rebuke Shang Li, then thought of that night’s affair, the heart of the whole manic heat up.
Huijun gently biting Shang Li’s glans, Shang Li helpless but can not stop excited, asked Huijun body disease is just right whether it is appropriate? Huijun smiled and said you want to be like this, this thing how to solve? Shang Li will turn her body to press on her body and said, today let me serve you!
You’re enjoying yourself.
Shang Li is afraid of hurting Huijun dare not be too rough, just slowly thrusting. This feeling is different from the past, the lust is not all of a sudden burst, but like a slow increase in temperature. Each insertion raises the temperature a little bit, raises and raises, and then boils.
Shang Li and Huijun lovemaking is to control the time, good today Huijun safety, shooting into the strong contraction felt in Huijun body, put inside and not pull out to enjoy the warm feeling. Huijun is also love Shang Li orgasm placed inside, and even more than making love, orgasm can be continued until Shang Li shrinking after the exit, continued to Shang Li after making love caress. As long as Shang Li could hold her for as long as she wanted, this orgasm could last as long as she wanted.
The afternoon air is a bit humid, Hui-jun leaned in Shang Li’s arm but thought whether Yi-kwang will be anxious about her disappearance in the afternoon? She felt uneasy. It had been a long time since the appointment, and Huu-kwan was struggling with the idea… She suddenly got up and said, “I have to go out for a while,” and rushed to the bathroom to rinse herself off without applying any make-up, leaving Sang-rae to go out like that. This was the first time that Sang-li had encountered such a situation, and he lay on the bed in a daze, forgetting to ask if he wanted to give her a ride, feeling that something important had suddenly disappeared.
At four in the afternoon, when Huu-kun saw Yew-kwang he had been sitting in front of Shin Kong Department Store for three hours.
Chapter 6: Sins
During the process of going to the appointment and waiting, Weiguang did not feel any anxiety or uneasiness, and even vaguely expected Huijun not to show up. This layer of ideas but the light himself is also puzzled, Huijun for him is obviously more important than everything, but he is looking forward to losing her.
Waiting for three hours but the light is almost no change in posture, sitting in the sitting area of the stone chairs do not move, as if it is a holy ritual, waiting for some kind of redemption. This emotion is like people waiting for the Messiah to come again, waiting for two thousand years has not been disappointed, just waiting for the loss of passion. Occasionally people will be skeptical in mind, more often than not, people will expect the birth of two thousand years ago is just a fantasy, so simply die this heart much lighter.
Seeing Huijun walking towards him, Yiguang didn’t feel any excitement or anger, but just a heavier heart. It was clear that Huijun attached great importance to this weekly meeting, and judging by the way she was gasping for breath, she must have rushed quite a bit just now.
Love in the seemingly nothing in the middle of the most painful, but also the most people full of hope or despair. The first sentence of love is the most difficult to say out, is the most sincere, after that I love you with the days slowly more than a few points of smooth talk, the longer the longer to cope with the more it becomes.
Therefore, Yiguang preferred to maintain the situation in the existing situation, he knew that this love but said clearly only waiting for the color to fade.
The two of them just sat on the stone chair and chatted without crossing paths. Huijun talked about the company’s recent situation and the trivial matters of life, and Yiguang just listened. But the light is not clear Huijun’s emotional world, just feel that Huijun should not have a boyfriend, then in that case it would be better not to ask, so as not to add another piece of despairing thoughts. Huijun originally thought that there was nothing she could not talk about with Yiguang, but she could not say anything about the rites of passage. With this kind of concern, the two of them picked some insignificant things in their conversation.
Yiguang saw that it was time to report back to the camp, and got up a bit apologetic, wanting to explain. But the light has rarely looked at Huijun carefully, at that time the sky is not yet dark, but the light saw Huijun face pale, although it is not put on powder but also not to this. Yiguang was shocked and knelt down to grab Huijun’s hand and asked what happened. Now the two four eyes meet, but light feel out Huijun hand a piece of cold, and suddenly feel their hands are not clean busy loose hands. Huijun busy said nothing, some small cold just. In fact, she knew that but the light should go home time, they urged but the light to ask him to go back do not make a dispute.
But the light went after Huijun a time there is nowhere to go, they moved a little body to sit to the position of the light just, just the stone chair has been cooled feel not but the light of the body temperature. Huijun thought that people are just like that! Just separated everything on the cool, did not leave the slightest half of the evidence. And remembered but light hold her hand feeling, because Huijun sick hand ice more appear but light of the hot, to but light feeling in addition to the warmth of the jacket on the shoulder and more a body temperature of contact.
Huijun then sat for three hours without moving, a bit of self-mutilation in the heart want to pay back, in the end is to pay back what is not clear. When she got up, the sky was spinning, and Huijun knew that the night wind had blown the fever back up again.
It was hard to make it to her home where Hui-jun passed out until the next day when she was woken up by Sang-li’s phone call.
Sang-li heard that she was sick again, and rushed to Hui-jun’s place like a madman, almost carrying her to the doctor. Now the cold has turned into pneumonia, Huijun had to lie in bed for two days without moving. In two days, Shang Li almost like a gyroscope, will Huijun service service, their own is not anywhere to go.
Sang-li has been thinking about where Hui-jun went over the weekend for the past two days. I want to ask but do not dare to ask, but also afraid to really ask something. But the bottom of the heart with a question mark, good Shang Li is a broad-minded people, things to think about also did not put on the heart, but the kind of heart at any time will lose Huijun always did not disappear.
A whole day can’t call Huijun cell phone, but the light heart began to fear. But light only know Huijun cell phone number, the other total total do not know, this juncture to go also do not know where to go to listen, can only empty since anxious. At night at home, see what is wrong. The woman is not a good to mess with, the two argued all night, but the light since the gas in the living room sleeping sofa, his woman has long been accustomed to.
That night, Yiguang dreamed of Huijun, and directly dreamed of Huijun’s hand caressing him. Yiguang hadn’t had an orgasm for over a month, and occasionally he thought it was strange, but suddenly his desire was all gone. Huijun’s hand gently rubbed Yiguang’s penis, moving up and down. Yiguang didn’t have to stop and ejaculated, suddenly woke up in a dream, look at his pants a mess, the quilt is also stained with some.
Yew Kwang got up but didn’t bother to clean up, mentally enjoying Huu Jun’s soft hands.
Chapter 7: Conquest
After the illness Huijun lost a small circle of weight, adding a few more Lin Daiyu appearance. She herself is in a trance, doing things upside down every day, and does not know what is hidden in her heart.
The boss this time to her on the contrary is deliberately defended, male colleagues also like her, just can not avoid female colleagues behind the finger pointing, said she to this age is still pretending to look like this, the women’s family originally small-minded tight.
Speaking of age, Hui-jun is a little nervous again this time, not so much nervous about wanting to get married, but unsure of how to deal with this mess at the back of her mind. On this day, Shangli secretly took out a ring after dinner and said she wanted Huijun to marry him. Hui-jun was originally happy and wanted to say yes, but suddenly the lonely figure of Yi-guang came to her mind and she was unable to reach out her hand to take the ring. The atmosphere is awkward, and the two of them sit opposite each other in the dining room, the pair of candles flickering out of the double figures seems extremely ironic.
Sang-li’s heart felt a kind of despair when he hugged Hui-jun, he thought Hui-jun was already his person, but he didn’t know that he was drifting away. This is not life or feelings, nor is it the body, but which heart, that heart in a certain location hiding a certain heart.
The two of them wrapped their arms around each other and kissed, Shang Li kissing like there was no tomorrow, his tongue exploring and penetrating wantonly, like he was trying to penetrate the whole soul. Hui-jun’s clothes were removed as if they were torn, and this provoked another kind of excitement in Hui-jun, a kind of frenzy. The men in her life were too courteous, her life lacked passion, even such a love triangle was like a swamp, sinking without a trace, sinking in a mess.
Hui-kun bit Sang-li’s nipple and Sang-li shook like he was being penetrated by electricity. Shang Li’s hand was stroking Huu Jun’s body, and Huu Jun’s lower body was already wet. Hui-kun was enjoying Sang-li’s touch, but she didn’t realize that Sang-li’s hand reached the most secret hole, and with the wetness of the love juices it penetrated without any difficulty. Huijun didn’t realize it for a moment, she only felt that all the nerves in her body were suddenly pierced through, she wanted to get rid of it, but she couldn’t get rid of Shang Li’s insistence.
It wasn’t that Hui-kun had never heard of this kind of thing, but she just never thought it would happen to her. The wild stimulation made Hui-jun forget everything, all the stimulation with some pain of bitterness, Hui-jun even will her hips like back to meet. She couldn’t tell if it was pain or pleasure, but she only knew that it was the most private place, and today she was letting Shang Li in and out of it. With a little indulgence, a little degradation, a little atonement.
It wasn’t as painful as I thought it would be when I went in, the feeling in my body was all different from making love, not that kind of pleasure, all of it. It was a different kind of feeling, one that should have been cursed by the ancestors, pleasure with destruction in it, and Hui-kun screamed uncontrollably.
It was just pleasure, no highs but all highs of orgasm, Huijun was too weak to hold her body up, not a single ounce of strength could be used. This is a captivity, Hui-kun has no ability to resist, only to endure. This is not like the usual lovemaking like can feel the love of each other flow, this is the conquest, Huijun can only be destroyed to bear this pure physical feelings.
Sang-li didn’t last long before he lay down beside Hui-jun, and Hui-jun lay helplessly, no embrace, no sustained passion afterward. Withdrawal drained away all sensation, gone, everything empty.
Huu-kun gasps and asks why. Sang Ri just doesn’t answer. Hui-jun asks if he wants to have some kind of first time with her? Sang-li simply turns his back. Hui-jun asks in vain and says nothing more, and then sees Sang-li’s shoulders twitching behind her back, and Hui-jun gets scared.
With tears in his eyes, Sang-li said why he was so afraid of marriage. It turns out that Sang-ri has had a strict upbringing since he was a child, and although his family is well-off, the discipline is never relaxed, with endless corporal punishment and humiliation. He dreams of his future family not being like that, but he knows that he has his father’s cold blood in his veins, so he gives up on having a family. All the getting in his life had to be done with force, whether it was honest effort or intrigue, in short he knew the inclusion of women he would need to take that way, that was his father’s teaching.
This is the first time he has ever had the thought of permanence, and the first time he has never been deceitful and false, while Hui-jun has given him the same thing he got from his father. When his father was dying, he shed tears and told him he was weak, and his father interrupted and told him to be strong. He couldn’t understand his father, and now he can’t really understand Hui-kun either.
Hui-kun wrapped her arms around Sang-ri helplessly; she couldn’t do anything to help. She had thoughts of Yeo-kwang on her mind, and at this point she was ashamed of her own thoughts, thinking of another lonely figure in the man she had almost decided to trust with her life.
Sang-li fell asleep in tears. Hui-kun felt the sunset of fresh water, though red and jumping and leaping, was unable to stop his fall.
Chapter 8: A Little Chance
There is no good reason to refuse, this is Huijun now the problem, Huijun thinking of thinking also feel funny. Bed also on, also can not say a not love, sincerely ask yourself is also truly love Shang Li. But all in all it is a strange feeling, a kind of indescribable strange. Huijun so agreed to Shang Li’s marriage proposal.
Shang Li is a big family, parents although gone but friends and relatives elders life is not short, these days Huijun as soon as free to accompany Shang Li around to learn to do public relations. Shang Li is a businessman, everything is handled obediently, but Huijun apparently not quite able to please these old people. The body is secondary, as long as Shang Li is willing to get a woman on the auditorium of the old man even if the pile of heart, the main Huijun is not a delicate woman, the family love is decent, Huijun thin look does not seem to be on the stage.
The busyness is not like joy, although Shang Li’s thoughtfulness has not been slightly reduced, but Huijun’s loneliness is even more serious. Huijun did not complain, discreetly handle everything as a special case, in short, even if it sucks to get a closure, a little bit indifferent look, feel like a wedding girl.
Saturday is a day belonging to Hui-jun himself, a very insistent special day. Sang-li could not understand but did not stop it, just a faint feeling of crisis in his heart, he just wanted to get married and it would be fine. Hui-jun knew in her heart that it was inappropriate to meet with Yi-kuang, and that she would be engaged in two weeks, but every weekend afternoon was the only time she had to be free and happy and uninhibited.
You can’t understand the feeling. It was always wild with Sang-ri, who loved to make Hui-kun laugh and to accompany her around. Sang-ri was always happy and lively, like flowing lava with a fiery red color. Yiguang is not bad, but with Yiguang together these days add up to say the words are not with Shang Li one night to say more words, dating time is always like a still. But the light is so light, so light that their relationship is like a piece of white rice paper, the wind blowing on the floating like.
When Huijun said I won’t come next week what he was thinking was that he was only unavailable because of his engagement, and he didn’t mean to break up. Women are smart in this regard, he said next week because of the engagement will not come, not that will not come back, leaving three points of leeway. But the light is expressionless listening, only slightly nodded his head and said I understand your difficulties, this time to make things not a turnaround.
But the light tone as if this matter has nothing to do with him. In fact, but the light heart on the bottom of the heart did not have any feeling, and even have a kind of bleak sense of relief. This love he had known is so the end, just sooner or later. But light thought, after all the love will be complete, but light know their own love is complete, when deducted Huijun is perfect.
This Saturday near noon Huijun heart began to confusion, she did not know what is wrong with her, only feel which important thing did not do. As she wandered around the silver store with Shang Li, who was excitedly looking at all kinds of jewelry, Huijun’s mood was getting more and more depressed. Huijun endured, she felt dizzy and uncomfortable, but Huijun still insisted on torturing herself to see all the silver shops. She took her time in browsing through each and every one of them in an almost fussy manner, to the point where even Sang Lee was getting a little restless, but Huu Khamlao insisted with a sense of solemnity. Time passed…
The street was bustling with people, Huijun finally finished picking out her jewelry, and the two of them stood on the street waiting for a taxi. Huijun doesn’t even have the strength to look at her watch and casually asks what time it is. Shang Li replied that it was nearly four o’clock. Huijun’s heart shook at this moment, and she suddenly realized what was on her mind. The reason for the delay is to stop herself from running to Yiguang’s heart, but she has left a little gap in this time, subconsciously giving herself this little time, this little time, the last little chance.
Chapter 9: Bewilderment
Xinguang, this noisy and peaceful place. Huijun got out of the taxi and didn’t dare to walk forward for a while, afraid that Yiguang was there, but also afraid that Yiguang was not there. After a while, Hui-kun walked towards a familiar place, where Yi-kwang’s usual stone-like figure sat alone and unsurprisingly. Suddenly, the figure of Yiguang was glowing, and Huijun felt a wave of love gushing out of her chest.
Huijun quietly walked to sit beside Yiguang, not saying a word for fear of disturbing this sacred feeling, for fear of saying a word that would give time a chance to escape. Yiguang turned his head to look at Huijun’s gaze is hot, a kind of heat that has no tomorrow, so hot that it turns from red to white, through Huijun’s soul, breaking Huijun’s heart.
Huijun boldly said that tonight to accompany me, two people know each other so far shook hands only once, all the sensory real contact is that cloak on the shoulders and that back to shake hands.
Yi-kwang lies down in frustration, and for a moment Hui-jun doesn’t realize what’s happening and why he’s stopped. Hui-jun kisses Yi-kwang and realizes that Yi-kwang doesn’t have a hard-on. Yiguang turns his back to Huijun and apologizes, saying I just can’t do it, I can’t do it with you.
Hui-kun gently strokes Yuko’s back and holds Yuko tightly. After a while, Huijun turned Yiguang’s body around, this was the first time she had taken the initiative to seduce a man, she gently explored Yiguang’s lower body. Yiguang’s prick swelled rapidly, and Hui-kun kissed down, kissing to her heart’s content, feeling that raw desire thrive in his mouth. Hui-kun lassoed, the prick twitching in his mouth, Hui-kun’s hand caressing his lower body, making vague sounds of pleasure.
Hui-kun climaxed in the midst of the writhing, biting her prick, and moving up and down in a desperate rhythm, as if she wanted to devour Yi-kwang. But Guang broke away from Hui-kun, hesitated for a moment to put Hui-kun flat to enter, clearly heard the love liquid overflow sound, Hui-kun forget to scream.
With a sense of destructive depravity, Yuko thrust with all his strength, moving the whole thing in and out with every poke, without mercy. Hui-kun’s face glowed with a kind of devilish radiance as her orgasm exploded inside her again and again, a beastly roar escaping her mouth. The lovemaking didn’t last long, but it was as if each poke brought about a destruction.
Yikuang ignored everything and ejaculated inside Huijun, he lay on top of Huijun gasping for breath. I’m so tired, I’ve never been so tired of making love, it’s as if I’ve given out all my love at once. Hui-kun gently stroked Yi-kwang’s face, carefully looked at Yi-kwang, carefully looked at, a trance suddenly startled, actually thought that looking at Shang Li.
Huijun suddenly thought of Shang Li, how she suddenly wanted to Shang Li. Fixed God looked at the man in his arms, this is also lifeless love, in the end how? It seems that Shang Li is like a loss, just because she is going to belong to Shang Li’s people.
She suddenly remembered a passage from Eileen Chang’s book “Red Roses and White Roses”… If you marry a red rose, the red one will become a smear of mosquito blood on the wall, while the white one will still be the light of the moon in front of the bed; and if you marry a white rose, the white one will be a speck of rice on the clothes, while the red one will be a vermilion sand mole on the mouth of your heart.
(concluded)