Finally, I got up the courage to post this, it’s my first creation, so please enlighten me.
As this article deals with incest, please bear with us if you don’t like this type of article.
(i)
‘Guess who I am’
When I was racking my brain for a perfume advertisement copy, a pair of soft and delicate hands covered my eyes from behind. I was startled and dropped the pen I was twirling in my hand and instinctively tried to stand up, then I heard that sweet and creamy voice and I knew who it was.
”Stop it Rou, what time is it now and you’re still up?” I reached out to wrench her hand away.
‘I’m not Ziaorou’
‘And who are you?’
‘Guess!’
‘I don’t want it.’
‘Aiya~~ I don’t care! You have to guess! Xiao Rou said petulantly.
”Okay then I’ll guess, you’re ~~ Vivian Chow!”
”Heehee~ No, no, no!”
”Then you’re~~ Xiao Qiang!”
‘Wrong guess again!’
‘Ha! Ha! I see you’re ~~ Apiba!”
‘Oops! What a pain in the ass! Am I that old?’
Xiao Rou pushed my head and sat on my butt on the edge of the bed, I turned around and saw her white eyes and two lips curled halfway up. The day is hot, she only covered a loose T-shirt, chest high bulging, the lower half of a pair of rounded white legs without cover, vaguely can see a small piece of white cotton fabric at the intersection of the two legs, shuffled with a pair of onion green slippers, the two legs along the edge of the bed to swing ah swing.
LOL! I marvel at how well nourished girls are these days, right? They are so well developed! Then I realized that it was too blatant for me to look at her so intently! Xiao Rou also seemed to notice that my gaze was not quite right and folded her feet together, her mouth curling even higher.
”I hate it! Where are you looking at?!’
”I’m watching ah~~ I’m watching our little Zoe grow up yo!”
Rou gave me another blank look, but a small smile appeared at the corner of her mouth.
‘So am I pretty?’
‘Pretty? Compared to you, ah, what Zhou Huimin, Xiao Qiang have become Api women!’
‘I knew little brother was the best for me’
She happily rushed up and wrapped her arms around me and gave me a peck on the cheek, and I could visibly feel two soft balls of flesh pressing against my back. A rush of heat went straight from the danda to my head. I think I must have blushed because I saw Xiao Rou with a teasing smile on her face, a pair of big black and white eyes winking and blinking impishly at me.
LOL! Stupid Zoe, she doesn’t realize how much of a turn on such a small gesture can be for a single 28 year old man!
‘That’s what you’re wearing to come over here?’ I tried to distract her.
‘It’s hot!’
‘Aren’t you afraid of being seen by others!?’
‘Other people? Is there anyone else near our house?’ Fair enough, our house is on the outskirts of a suburb, and our nearest neighbor is 80 meters away.
‘Okay, enough fooling around, I’m going back to bed, good night!’ He said and left my room without looking back.
Alas! This is Zoe, my little cousin, a pampered little princess.
We live across the street from my uncle, which is the land left behind by my grandfather, Dad and uncle did not move away after the separation of the family, the two agreed to build a separate house, but the fourth floor balcony together, so that the downstairs can be shaded in summer. (This is also the reason why Xiaorou can sneak over every day.) I’m the oldest on top of three brothers, but uncle only Xiaorou a daughter, because of the late marriage, Xiaorou and I have a full 10 years of difference.
Since she was a child, Xiao Rou has been pampered because she is the only girl in the two families, and I am the one who spoils her the most, maybe she makes me fulfill the sense of accomplishment of being a brother! Perhaps she was born too late? At that time, my brothers are not outside to study, but also by the pressure of higher education to the neurasthenia, simply do not have much time to care about her, so in addition to the aunt at home, I was her only playmate since childhood, until she began to go to school, I was instructed to take up the responsibility of the “flower protection”.
I’ve also been very competent, and whenever she’s bullied by her classmates, I’ve always been able to fix those brats up and make them cry.
In the past few years, three brothers have emigrated one after another, mom also followed the big brother to the United States, only dad because of the relationship between the factory is still often the mainland Taiwan both ends of the run, the family is almost often only I am alone in. Although Xiaorou has been spoiled since she was a child, but in addition to her love of pampering, in fact, she is also very good and sweet, these years, she is probably afraid that I am alone and lonely, right? She would always come over to my room to stir things up after she finished her studies before going back to sleep.
In my impression, Xiao Rou has always been the same little girl wearing a white basket dress, wearing an orange student cap, the first day of school, the one who pulls on people’s hands to be pampered when she sees them, I did not expect this night, I was shocked to realize that she has already grown up to become a youthful and beautiful young girl.
I looked at Xiao Rou, who was about to cross the railing, raised her legs, revealing her rounded buttocks covered by white cotton panties, and suddenly my crotch was stirring, and I hurriedly retracted my eyes, what am I doing, she’s my sister ah!
I turned my attention back to the paperwork, but couldn’t help glancing at it, and Zoe had already gone into her room with a wiggle. I straightened up my manuscript paper and called it a day! I turned out the light and was about to go to bed when the phone rang.
‘Hello, Ming Wei?’ A low, soft voice rang out from the receiver.
‘Little Feng? It’s so late? What’s the matter?’
‘……………’ the caller sobbed after a few seconds of silence.
”Little Feng! What’s wrong? Don’t cry!’
‘……………’ Little Feng just cried hard.
‘What happened? Come on, speak slowly.’
After waiting for a few minutes, Xiao Feng stopped crying and said ‘Are you free tomorrow? It’s been a long time since we’ve seen each other, would you like to meet?”
‘Okay, when?’
After making an appointment with Xiao Feng about the time and place, I lay back on the bed, thinking about Xiao Feng, my old classmate, with mixed feelings in my heart.
Xiaofeng and I are really old classmates, we have been in the same school from elementary school to university, playing together when we were young, and in high school we have always been just very talkative friends. When we went to college, we were naturally categorized as class pairs because we were often together, and we got together naturally.
Xiao Feng was not the prettiest in the department, but her figure was the most prominent, so much so that she earned the nickname of milkmaid. Although she was surrounded by bees and butterflies all day long, she seemed to be fixated on me and didn’t show any color to other suitors.
At that time, I thought, this life is her, there is no hurry; on the one hand, we all love literature, the heart of the idea is that love should be beautiful and pure without a trace of impurities, so four years down the road, in addition to holding hands, kissing, cuddling in addition to, but also did not how.
After graduation, I went into the advertising agency, she went into a magazine, the two are busy, the occasional meeting is a hasty meal, talk about work, the days are long, always feel that it seems to be able to talk about fewer and fewer topics, coupled with each other will be fully focused on the work of the heart want to make a good result.
So gradually, the feelings seem to be getting lighter and lighter, the last time we met was more than half a month ago, vaguely heard her talk about someone chasing her, right? I am not very concerned, since the university these years all the way down, I almost decided to get married is sooner or later, right? Just this phone call is a little bit of no head, forget it, tomorrow, then say it!
(ii)
When I entered the restaurant, I saw at a glance Xiao Feng sitting alone with a thoughtful look on her face, I walked over and did so, waking her up in her contemplation.
‘Anything?’
‘………….’ She stopped talking again.
‘What’s wrong, you look weird?’
Xiao Feng slowly and methodically took out a wedding invitation from her purse, I took it and opened it while thinking, I haven’t heard of any of my classmates or friends getting married recently, right? When I opened it, the names of Xiao Feng and a man I didn’t recognize were printed on it. I looked up sharply and looked at Xiao Feng incredulously.
”I…I’m getting married” whispered Feng.
‘Open what…’ I realized I was being surprisingly loud and hastily lowered the volume.
‘Are you kidding me?!’
‘……..’ Kaede said slyly.
”I’m also conflicted, but Ming Wei, have you noticed that since graduation, the feelings between us have faded a lot, and I’ve been hesitant about whether or not I should continue ….”
‘That’s because we’re all busy!’ I interrupted her.
”I know, I know you’ve always wanted to be successful above work, but, but Ming Wei, I’m not too young, my family has been urging me to get married, and he… really treats me well, I have no way ….”
‘You could have talked to me!’
‘I’ve said it more than once, but you don’t seem to care, I doubt you really care about our relationship ……’
‘I care, Kaede, I swear I really do ….’
‘It’s too late’ Feng slowly shook his head ‘I… I’m pregnant ….. The family also knows …… Ming Wei, it’s too late, neither of us can turn back ….’
‘Who?’ I heard my throat struggle to make a sound, but started to get dizzy.
‘It’s our boss’s youngest son I told you about …………’
The next I can no longer hear what Xiao Feng is saying, only to see her deliberately dressed up red lips one by one, I feel a heavenly …………. spin.
I don’t know how I got home, when I woke up, I was already in my own bed, out of the corner of my eye, I saw that Xiao Rou was mopping the floor. Beside the desk are scattered manuscripts and books, I want to turn around, but I feel that my whole body to the scattered as if I can not use a little strength, bitter and dry mouth headache, can not help but groan.
When Zoe heard my voice, she dropped the mop she was holding and walked over to my bed, looking down at me.
‘Brother, you’re awake?’
‘Me, what’s wrong with me?’ I asked her blankly.
”You’re still asking!” Xiao Rou crossed her arms and drummed her cheeks ”You know what? You got drunk last night, you cried and cried, you threw up all over the place, you were so dirty, and…you yelled and screamed at me, you were so mean.”
‘Really? I’m sorry, Zoe, I can’t even remember.’
‘You’re forgetting pretty fast, Uncle is getting pissed off at you, says you’ve never been like this before, you must have made a bad friend.’
”Zoe, can I have a glass of water?”
‘No way!’
Zoe said this but left the bed and picked up the water on the desk, apparently prepared long ago.
‘Uncle wants you to call him when you wake up, what’s wrong with you?’
‘You don’t have to go to class today, do you?’
‘It’s Sunday, what class? I think you’re drunk,’ he said handing water in front of my eyes.
I wanted to get up, but I didn’t have any strength at all. Xiao Rou sighed and held my head and fed me water, and as I rested on her soft body, the shadow of Xiao Feng floated in my mind.
After drinking the water, Zoe brought her face to my eyes again and
‘Say! What exactly happened?’
”Zoe, I’m so tired, let me rest for a while, okay?”
‘No way! You must say it clearly!’
”Ugh ～～～～!” I let out a long sigh ”Little Feng is getting married ….”
”Sister Xiaofeng? Isn’t that great?” Xiao Rou had a puzzled look on her face.
I smiled bitterly and said, ”Little Feng is getting married, and the groom isn’t me”
‘How is that possible?’ Zoe’s eyes widened ‘Why?’
‘I don’t know.’
”How can Little Feng-san be like this!”
‘It’s not her fault, it’s all me, I’ve neglected her too much’
‘Whoops! Poor brother, you must be heartbroken.’
Zoe took my head into her soft arms, her long hair brushing against my face. Alas! How good it would be if Zoe was replaced with Feng at this point.
After Xiao Feng got married, I bet more wholeheartedly on my work in order to escape the pain in my heart, and at night, I had to use alcohol to anesthetize myself, while Xiao Rou still came over to my room every night, and served me to fall asleep before leaving with a sigh in my drunken hazy night.
Several times I seemed to see Xiao Feng’s shadow in her, and I almost thought of her as Xiao Feng’s incarnation, but when I rubbed my eyes to see clearly that she was my youthful, beautiful, and petulant little sister, I pushed her away and rushed into the bathroom to vomit lifelessly.
That night, I was still drunk, stumbled back to the room, Ziaorou lying on the desk asleep, I closed the door, hiccuped a full of the smell of alcohol, narrowly pinched her nose. When I saw Zoe slowly open her eyes, I sat back on the bed and smiled at her.
Suddenly, Zoe got up and tackled me to the bed.
‘Xiaorou! What are you doing?’ Instead, I was sobered up by her move ”Get up!”
I picked up Zoe, but I saw two lines of tears hanging on her cheeks.
‘Brother, don’t be like this, okay?’
‘What’s wrong!?’
”Brother, do you know, I’m so sad when you’re like this”
”Xiaorou, good Xiaorou, don’t cry, don’t cry! Brother is fine!’
”Don’t lie to me, Xiao Rou is not a child, I know that you’ve been abusing yourself after Sister Xiaofeng got married, you wouldn’t drink like this before, it hurts my heart to see you sad like this, you know?”
Xiao Rou said and took a step back, took a deep breath and said ”Brother, I’ve been thinking about this for a long time, since Sister Xiaofeng can’t love you anymore, let Xiao Rou love you properly!”
She slowly raised her hands and began to unbutton her nightgown, and I saw her chest gradually open up to reveal her white bra. All of my wine had woken up and
I hurriedly grabbed her hand ”Zoe, what are you doing?”
”Brother, Xiaorou likes you, I ….”
I reached out and covered her lips ‘Brother likes you too! But I’m your brother then! Do you realize what you’re doing?’
‘Of course I know, I’m 18, do you still think I’m a child?’
Xiao Rou broke away from my hand and hugged me tightly, I felt her young, soft and elastic breasts pressing against my chest, and my nose smelled a gush of girlish body odor, I felt my sanity collapsing little by little, while my crotch raised its head little by little, and I was almost about to put my palms on her breasts, but I pushed her away and took a deep breath.
”Xiao Rou, listen to me, this is not going to work, we’re brother and sister, right, brother likes you a lot, really, I really like my pretty and sweet little sister, but that’s not going to work ……”
‘I knew it.’
Zoe pushed me away hard.
”I know you don’t like me at all, you’re only so nice to me because I’m your sister, so you put up with my pranks and the nonsense I do to you, you know? I would do that because I want you to pay more attention to me. I’ve always liked you since I was a kid, don’t you know that? You like Sister Feng, but does Sister Feng like you? She’s still married to someone else. Can she care about you like I do?”
After Ziaorou finished speaking, she ran out of my room without looking back, and I couldn’t pull her back in time, so I could only crumple down to the edge of the bed, murmuring ‘Ziaorou, it’s not true, it’s not like that.’
(iii)
I hadn’t been home for nearly two weeks, I was really afraid to face Rou again, I was afraid to see that pair of eyes full of resentment when she left that night. During this period of time, I ran to the hotel every day, venting out my bitterness amongst those unrecognizable warblers and swallows.
My boss obviously sensed that something was wrong with me and dropped the line ‘I don’t know what happened to you, maybe you’re too tired, go take a vacation and come back,’ so I took a very tame half-month’s vacation.
That night, I was still drinking and partying in the hotel, when suddenly the CALL machine rang. I looked at it, it was a call from home. Dad had gone to the mainland the day before yesterday, and only Zoe would CALL me, so something must be up!
Driving back to the house in a hurry, Xiao Rou sat alone in the living room fuming. Seeing me who pushed the door in panic, she stood up and said:
‘My mom and dad went to the mainland to see the factory, and I’m the only one at home for the past two days, I’m so scared, I know my brother hates me, but …. I’m really scared …..’
Looking at her pathetic appearance, I couldn’t help but walk forward and hug her ”Xiaorou, I’m sorry, it’s all my fault!”
Xiaorou lifted her face in my arms ”Brother, kiss me!”
I looked at her bright big eyes with a layer of tears, and in my nose came that unique fragrance, a burst of wine up, my sanity completely disintegrated ………….
I kissed away the tears on Zoe’s cheeks, and she slowly closed her eyes as I tenderly pressed my lips against her warm, wet, soft lips. She in turn returns my more passionate kisses.
I put one hand gently on her breast and rubbed it slowly and softly, while my other hand encircled her boneless waist and lowered her gently onto the couch. I opened her slightly opened lips with my tongue and searched for her, the two tongues tangled in the tightly pressed mouth.
Both of my hands were restlessly roaming her body, I could feel her frantic heartbeat through her bra and blouse into my warm palms, I slowly ripped her blouse open, inside was a white bra, and I caressed her breasts through the bra.
”Mmm~~” Xiao Rou’s nostrils exhaled a hot breath, she kept her eyes closed, which deepened my desire. I left Xiao Rou’s lips and slowly undid her bra, what was presented in front of me was a pair of youthful girl’s small and delicate breasts, the two tiny nipples on the pink areola seemed to be calling out to me, Xiao Rou’s skin was so white and clean, you could see the fine veins densely covered on her breasts.
I almost looked dumbfounded. Seeing that I didn’t move for half a day, Xiao Rou slowly opened her eyes and gently called out ‘Brother?’
”Xiao Rou, you’re so beautiful” I looked at such a beautiful and touching girl in front of my eyes, long forgetting that she was my cousin with whom I had a blood relationship.
‘Brother, I love you! From a long, long time ago.’
‘Zoe, me too’ I kissed her on the lips again, and softly rubbed my palms over her breasts, the
Her breasts were not large enough to fill her hands, but they were full of elasticity. My lips followed her jaw, neck, chest and licked her cleavage, after I attacked her nipples along Xiao Rou’s protruding peaks, she twisted her body uneasily, and her breath in her nose became more and more urgent, my tongue deftly flicked her nipples up and down and then drew circles on her areolas from big to small, she couldn’t help but cry out when I gently took her nipples, which were swollen and hardened with excitement, in my teeth.
‘ah ～～～～’
My tongue continued to search downward, sliding over her abdomen, her belly button, and both hands smoothly backed down her skirt as Zoe clenched her legs tightly.
”Brother, I’m so scared” Zoe suddenly said this, but I had long since lost track of what she meant by this, lust had long since overwhelmed me.
‘Zoe, don’t be afraid, come on, relax’
I gently pulled Zoe’s legs apart, and I saw that the triangle that loomed in front of my eyes from time to time had gradually rendered a thin halo of water.
Xiao Rou shyly flipped her body over the past, in front of my eyes were again those two pieces of pink buttocks that were always covered by panties, I suddenly grabbed those two lumps of flesh and frantically kissed and bit them.
Rou said anxiously:
”Brother, be gentle, you’re biting me so hard!”
So I pulled her panties off with all my might and flipped her over, facing me head on, and when I saw Zoe’s triangle of sparse pubic hair, I had gone crazy.
I quickly stripped my clothes, only a pair of panties, leaned over the body of Ziaorou madly kissed her beautiful inch of skin, my penis in Ziaorou’s round and soft thighs rubbing back and forth, the original has long been hard it is even more up to make me uncomfortable, I sucked Ziaorou’s nipples hard, she seemed to be crazy, only a hard soft whine.
”Brother, brother~”
I grabbed Zoe’s hand and put it on my cock and Zoe let out a soft whimper:
”Brother, hello~”
Following that, a layer of shyness was added to her already slightly flushed face.
”Zoe, are you scared?”
‘No, I love my brother, I’m not afraid.’
I simply took off my underwear and the two of us were already naked against each other, I once again guided Zoe’s hand to my penis and taught her to rub it back and forth.
Zoe’s palm was soft and warm, I could just feel the blood inside my penis about to break out, Zoe seemed to feel the strong change in her hand, opened her eyes to sneak a peek and closed them tightly again.
‘Brother, you’re so hard and hot!’
”That’s because Ziaorou is so attractive!”
‘I feel so itchy inside, so strange, I can’t tell you, my whole body is weird’
I leaned over and kissed her gently, all the way from the breasts, navel, belly, to the root of her thighs that mysterious meeting place. Will Xiaorou tightly clamped legs open, pink aperture has gurgling water, and the deep closed palace door exudes a demonic heat, I can not help but put my mouth up, Xiaorou uneasy wriggling body.
‘Ah ….. Brother, what a strange feeling …..’
My fingers opened the doorway, and before my eyes was the most beautiful picture in the world, the most delicate, mysterious, untouched place of a young girl, and I stretched out my tongue to lick back and forth gently and slowly.
‘ah ……….’
Suddenly Xiao Rou lost her voice and screamed out, her hips lifted upwards and twisted fiercely, her two smooth thighs clamped tightly around my neck. I looked up and forward, Xiao Rou slightly opened her lips, nostrils flaring violently gasping for breath, and her white and tender breasts trembled along with her undulating chest, forming a wave.
I couldn’t hold back any longer, I picked up Zoe with all my might, letting her wrap her legs around my waist, and walked towards the room, my cock poking Zoe’s buttock cleavage one by one with each step, and Zoe laughed out loud at the sensation.
‘Haha, that tickles!’
Her tiny breasts jolted again in waves with the giggles, and I couldn’t help but reach out and take half of them hard in my mouth again, my tongue sweeping furiously over the already engorged and hardened nipples.
‘ah …….’
Zoe’s head stayed tilted back, her dark, soft, fine hair swaying behind her.
(Ahh …… so good, so good ….)
It was easy to walk to the room, I placed Zoe on the bed and stepped back to carefully admire her statue-like flawless torso, Zoe shyly turned her body sideways with her back to me, trying to escape my beast-like gaze.
‘Xiaorou …..’
I sighed softly, her skin was so crystalline the lines were so perfect and there wasn’t the slightest bit of extra fat on her entire body. It was a physique that belonged uniquely to a youthful teenager. I crouched over her hungrily and spread her legs with my knees.
‘Xiao Rou …….’ I gently blew in her ear, about to attack her last line of defense.
‘Ah! Ouch!’
I was only just a little way in when Zoe frowned and her whole body muscles tightened, and I hurriedly stopped to give her a moment to catch her breath. I kissed her between her eyebrows, her earlobes, her lips, and slowly rubbed my hands up and down her back, and up and down her inner thighs.
After a while, Zoe slowly breathed a sigh of relief and her whole body relaxed, she took the initiative to kiss me and said:
‘It doesn’t matter anymore, I can ………’
I continued to suck on her little snake-like tongue as I gently and softly continued to push forward.
‘Well …….’
Zoe still couldn’t help but grunt, but was no longer stopping my movements.
Finally, I entered Xiao Rou’s body, I can feel the road ahead is small and tight, but full of warm and wet feeling, a crepe gently scraped my glans, after entering inside, I stopped slightly, on the one hand, let Xiao Rou get used to this feeling, on the other hand, also feel this feeling of being tightly surrounded properly.
‘I …. ‘I feel so up, I know, I just felt so empty and hollow, now I’m so full, this feeling ……. Good ….’
Zoe also ignored my reaction and murmured to herself. So I began to move, I tried to make each stroke gentle and slow, deeply afraid that if it was too fast Ziaorou would not be able to withstand it.
‘hmmm …… hmmm …..’
At first Xiaorou kept her lips tightly closed, gradually Xiaorou began to hum out again, so I let the action slightly accelerate and deepen. Suddenly Xiaorou took the initiative to embrace my waist, opened her mouth but could not make a sound. The original deep love look at my eyes also began to lax and lost concentration.
Then, Zoe began to squirm inside, her breathing became rapid and panicked, and my pleasure quickly climbed to its highest point with the power of that fluttering and contracting.
Finally, I let out a long breath and lay down on top of Zoe, continuing to feel her uncontrollable retraction, Zoe slowly closed her eyes and her breath eased, I left her on top of me and kissed her tenderly, caressing her breasts that rose and fell with her breath.
Gradually, we all sank into deep dreams ……….
(iv)
I pushed open the door to my home and the living room was filled with an eerie atmosphere and an unusual smell in the air.
Strange, why was the whole family there? My three brothers and my mom came home at some point, my aunt and uncle were also there, and with the sound of me opening the door, everyone’s eyes shot towards me, and I saw that those eyes were filled with anger, contempt, despair, and disdain, as if a sharp sword was going to pierce me through the chest.
‘What’s going on?’ I asked them in disbelief.
”Ming Wei!” Auntie stood up and walked to me ”How could you do this, Xiaorou is your sister, you, how could you do such a thing?”
I looked over to Xiao Rou, she was wearing a bathrobe, from the time I entered the door, she had been sitting on the stairway with a smirk on her face, at this time, she walked towards me and undid the sash of her bathrobe, and I was shocked to see that she wasn’t even wearing half a strand of clothing on the inside.
”Brother, I’m pregnant! Look, it’s the fruit of our love!
I looked at where her hand was resting, oh my god! When did Xiao Rou’s stomach bulge, holding up her originally smooth belly like a small hill.
‘This …. I ….’ My tongue felt like it was in a dead knot and I couldn’t get a word out.
‘What kind of world is this!’ Auntie exclaimed, glaring at me through gritted teeth
”You know Xiao Rou is our heart and soul, since we were young we asked you to take more care of her, but we didn’t ask you to make her belly bigger, you, you’re the devil, you’re an animal …….”
‘…….’
I desperately wanted to explain something, but all I could do was shake my head in fear and look at everyone in the room, Auntie had been constantly crying out to the heavens, Mom was just silently sobbing, and Dad was constantly shaking his head and sighing, mouthing the words
‘Sins, sins.’
At that moment, the three brothers surrounded me and forced me to ask ”Xiaorou is our sister, by what right do you possess her all by yourself? Who do you think you are? If you want to be the fourth in line, you should be the fourth in line too!”
Xiao Rou smiled and asked me what I was going to name my little baby. I felt that this scene was too chaotic and ridiculous, I turned to escape from the living room, but I stepped on the ground ……….
I sat up from the bed with a loud bang, shocked to realize that it was a dream, while gasping violently, while examining the room around, only I was alone, when I saw the messy sheets and a small puddle of coagulated blood stains on the top of the I suddenly remembered last night’s everything, thinking about the party’s dream, the heart suddenly welled up infinite remorse and self-reproach.
‘Oh my god! What did I do to Rou? What am I going to do? What to do?’
‘Brother? Are you awake?’ Xiao Rou’s voice sounded outside the door, I was startled
”If you’re awake, get up and eat breakfast!”
I stayed in bed for a long time, deciding to face it all, and after thinking of what to say, freshened up and pushed the door open, when Zoe suddenly appeared from beside me and gave me a kiss on the cheek
‘Lazy bastard, sleeping for so long!’
I fixed my eyes on Zoe, who was dressed in her unusual housecoat and apron, and had tied her long hair into a ponytail, and had a clean and fresh look on her face.
‘What are you looking at? Ziaorou pushed me, ‘You can’t get enough of it every day, can you? Let’s go! Let’s go for breakfast!
She pushed me into the dining room, and I was dumbfounded to see what was on the table: baklava and fritters, fried dumplings, poached eggs, and a pot of skinny congee with eggs. Ziaorou pressed me down on a chair, and neatly organized the meal.
”These are all your favorite foods, right? The burritos and fritters were bought, but I made the rest, oh!”
‘You…’ I could hardly believe my ears ‘you can do this?’
Xiaorou had a look on her face (you only realized it today) ”I knew you still regarded me as a little girl who can only be pampered, I can do a lot more!”
Putting a bowl of steaming congee in front of me, Xiaorou slowly walked to the opposite side of me and sat down, looking at her strange walking posture I couldn’t help but ask her ‘What’s wrong with you? What’s wrong with you?
Xiao Rou’s pinkish-white face flushed with a layer of redness, even her ears reddened as she lowered her head and whispered ”People… People are still in pain there…but ……”
Then he looked up at me again with a happy smile on his face ‘But you’ll get used to it later, right?’
Later? Geez! I looked at the wisps of white smoke rising from the bowl in front of me and struggled to think of how to say this
‘Eat it quickly! It won’t taste good if it gets cold!’
I picked up the bowl and took a bite, it was so tasteless, ‘Is it good? Will it be too salty?’ Looking at my expressionless face, Xiaorou asked with concern
‘I don’t think so. I’ve just tried it several times ……’ she muttered to herself and took a bite of her own bowl ‘I think it’s okay, if you think it’s too salty, I’ll put less salt in next time!’
Oh, my God! She’s treating her husband exactly like a little wife, how can I put words in her mouth? I really don’t want to break her heart.
‘Brother? What are you thinking?’
‘Me? I was thinking about the company, what did you say?’
”So annoying, not concentrating at all! I said I’ve taken the day off today to rest at home for a day, will you take the day off to accompany me too?”
”Maybe not? There’s a very important meeting today, so I’ll be back early, okay?’
”Hmmm~~” Xiao Rou bites her pinky finger and inclines her head to think for a moment ”Okay! I’ve already made up my mind, from today onwards, I won’t be capricious anymore, so be a good boy and go to work, what do you want to eat tonight? I’ll prepare it.
Ugh~~! I’m in big trouble.
‘Zoe ….. I …. I think …. I have something I want to say to you…’ I stuttered trying to organize what I was going to say
”Mom, dad and uncle won’t know!” Xiao Rou suddenly looked solemn ”Don’t worry, I won’t tell anyone, it’s a little secret between us, as long as I can be as happy as I am now every day, I’ll be satisfied and happy.”
‘But ………..’
‘Hurry up and eat! It’s going to be late!’ The smile on Xiaorou’s face disappeared and she ate the porridge in small bites, I only dared to keep shouting in my heart ‘Xiaorou, I’m sorry, I’m sorry …………… …..’
I like to avoid the plague like out the door, in fact, today there is no meeting to open, I’m still on vacation, all day, I like a wandering soul like wandering in the noisy streets, I can not think, as long as the thought of Xiaorou, a heart will be tangled up in a panic, I really do not want to hurt her heart, but do not say that, the harm will only be greater, all day long, I’ve been in the contradiction in the struggle, until the day darkened the streets of neon lights, I still can not make up my mind, I’m still not sure, I’ve been in the streets, I’m still not sure. I still can’t make up my mind.
When I got home, the house was filled with the smell of food, and the sound of spatulas crashing came from the kitchen, I paced to the kitchen, Xiao Rou was sweating and busy, when she turned around and saw me, she was shocked
‘You’re a pain in the ass! You came back without making a sound, you scared me,’ she made a gesture to hit me with a spatula, and I begged for forgiveness in a hurry.
‘Go wash your hands, it’s time to eat!’
After the meal, we sat together in the living room to watch TV, Zoe leaned on my shoulder, both of us were mindless of the plot of the TV, each of us thinking about our own mind.
”Brother, do you remember Guo Qingru?” Xiao Rou broke the silence.
I thought about it, it was an unfamiliar name, and I shook my head.
‘He’s my country’s youngest classmate! Do you remember the time you beat him up so badly for me that his mother came to complain and got you beaten up by your uncle?’
I remember, that was the only time in my life I was beaten up by my father, that time as usual, I went to the national primary school next to the school after class to pick up Xiao Rou home but I saw her surrounded by two or three boys, helplessly crying, those boys also clapped their hands and made fun of her ‘crybaby drink cold water ……. ‘
One of them even reached out to lift Xiao Rou’s skirt and said ‘Wow! It’s white! Take it off and give it to me as a souvenir’ and then turned to his companion and said ‘I heard that the holes in the girls’ place are meant to hold the boys’ dicks! Do you think so?
He kept chasing after Xiao Rou, cornered her and said, ‘Let me try it, okay?’ I was furious, I went over to him and punched him in the face as hard as I could, he fell down with his nose covered, the other two scattered, I went over and kicked him two more times before pulling Xiaorou home, I was very happy to see him, I was so happy to see him.
It did not take long for the boy’s mother to my home to ask questions, I heard that his nose was broken by me, Dad asked me why I hit people, I just said that he bullied Ziaorou should be hit, Dad asked me how he bullied Ziaorou, but I refused to say, his mother has been yelling that she must give her an explanation, or else she will be suing the school to go, Dad first promised that she would be responsible for all the medical expenses, and then to make sure that I would not tell the reason after I gave her an explanation, and I stayed in bed with that kid for three days.
”How could I forget” I laughed and said ”So that brat is called Guo Qingru?”
”Ha! You’ve done him so much harm and you still don’t know his name, huh?’
‘Actually, I was too impulsive’
”Not at all! You did it because you saw me being bullied and wanted to protect me ah! From that time on, the whole class knew that I had a powerful brother, and no one dared to bully me anymore!”
Xiao Rou said gently, ‘Also from that time, my brother’s shadow has been in my heart …….. I once …. I once swore that I would be good to my brother for the rest of my life, and I also hoped that my brother would always be able to be so good to me. I often watched serials on TV that said that in order to capture a man’s heart you have to capture his stomach first, so I learned to cook a lot of my brother’s favorite dishes with my mom, and my mom kept asking me why I wanted to learn this, but I didn’t dare to say it …….. ‘
LOL~~! I really don’t know whether to cry, or laugh?
”Silly Xiaorou, I pinched her nose, I’m your brother, of course I’ll be good to you for the rest of your life!”
”But that’s not enough, Zoe hopes… Hope…’
Her voice trailed off, as if it were a mosquito.
‘I so wish you could be as good to me as you were last night, Zoe feels so happy and contented ……’
I mentally slapped myself in the face, it was all the alcohol.
For the next few days, I could only submit to Zoe and be her secret husband.
My aunt would sometimes smile when she saw how keen she was on household chores and say, ‘That’s good, if you practice more, you won’t be criticized by your in-laws for not knowing how to do household chores when you get married in the future.
I could only laugh bitterly. I had been worried about the aftermath of that night without any safety measures, and one day I couldn’t help but ask Rou:
‘That ….. of yours Did that one come?’
‘What that?’ Zoe was confused by my question
‘That’s the one …. Good friend …. That big …… ugh! Did you get your period?
Xiaorou was stunned, her face flushed red: ”Hate, why are you asking me this?”
‘I’m …. Last time ….’
‘Good girl, don’t be afraid, I’m normal.’
I feel like a fool.
Often, when Xiao Rou came over late at night, she would always intentionally or unintentionally provoke my desire, and I knew clearly that if I continued like this, one day, the world of the two people, and even these two homes, would be destroyed.
But when Xiaorou tenderly kissed me, when she undid the restraints on her body one by one in front of my eyes, when I saw her increasingly mature and plump body, when my hands gently slid over her alabaster skin, her youthful firm breasts, her pink and young valley, and when I frantically moved in and out of her body, my sanity floated and sank in waves of lust and eventually drowned.
I felt a demon inside me, watching coldly from the sidelines as I sank, and at the peak of each pleasure it seemed I could hear him snorting contemptuously. Day after day I waited in inner torment to collapse.
(v)
‘RICHARD, outside looking oh!’
I was gawking at a bunch of swimsuit photos, ‘Okay, don’t look at them! Don’t look, they won’t jump out at you if you keep looking! There’s a living, breathing beauty out there, and she’s giving away a drag queen, go take a look!’
I wasn’t the least bit interested in such a joke, and as I slowly paced to the door of the office, I froze.
”Little Feng?!”
”Hi! It’s been a long time!”
Feng wore sunglasses and carried a chubby, doll-like little girl with fluffy curly hair in the crook of his arm:
”Rong Rong is a good boy, call uncle”
The little girl cowered shyly in her mother’s arms.
‘How old?’ I teased the child.
‘Three years old, the day I told you it was her in my belly.’
It’s been more than three years, and time has gone by pretty fast. I didn’t even go to her wedding in the first place, and then, I haven’t been in touch since.
‘What made you think of coming over to me?’
‘Just passing by, thought I’d say it’s been a while, wondered if you were still here?’
People coming and going in the company eyed us curiously as I pulled Feng.
‘Come on, buy you a cup of coffee, got a minute?’
After sitting down, I just took a closer look at Xiao Feng, wanting to see how much she has changed over the years, suddenly I saw the corners of her mouth bruised a piece of her hand also put on several pieces of OK bandage, I think I know why she wears sunglasses.
‘What’s going on? These injuries?’
‘Nothing!’ She bristled ‘Accidentally bumped into it.’
‘Accidental bumps don’t hit like this, he hit you?’
She said with a twitch of her nose and a sucked in breath.
‘I’m sorry to let an old friend see this’
‘We’re not just old friends’ I corrected her.
”Ugh ～～～～～～” she sighed long and hard ”sometimes in retrospect, quite regretful”
I couldn’t catch a break, and the two of them awkwardly stirred their respective cups of coffee.
‘Mommy!’ Rong called out softly, bringing us back to reality.
‘Time to go back’ she picked up the baby, ‘Sorry to make you buy a meal today, you didn’t move, did you?’
I shook my head and watched her get into a cab and take off, I can’t describe the feeling in my heart, and continued to go back to the office in a daze.
(vi)
It was another night of heaven and earth, and Zoe asked me with a slight gasp of incomprehension.
‘Brother, why do you wear two condoms every time?’
‘It’s called infallibility’ I guess that’s all I have left, the only conscience I have, right? I was really afraid that night’s nightmare would one day become real.
”Brother” Xiao Rou said quietly ”I think you’ve been unhappy, is Xiao Rou not doing enough? I’m too dull aren’t I? I’ve seen that kind of videotape, if you want that, I …… I can do it too ………’
‘Silly,’ I said, catching her nipple and pulling on it ‘Don’t get any ideas!’
‘But I always feel like you’re afraid of something, otherwise, why do you wear two condoms?’
‘Firstly, it would be safer, and secondly, wouldn’t you be more comfortable if I felt slower and longer this way?’
‘So annoying, talking like I’m a pornographer’
Zoe pinched my bottom and got up to dress:
‘I’m going back to bed, lately my mom has been saying that I’ve been running here all day and I haven’t been studying’
Wear good clothes, Xiaorou gave me a deep kiss ‘to think of me oh’ like to part forever, Xiaorou three steps a turn back to go, I do not want to get up, looking at the ceiling daze, this time the phone rang, alas! It’s the director again, tomorrow there is an important customer to come to the meeting, must be nagging a half a day, I deliberately let it ring half a day before picking up the microphone in a slow and methodical manner.
”Ming Wei?” Oh my god, it’s Little Feng.
”Yes, I am, Feng? What’s wrong?”
”Oooh …….” Xiao Feng cried ‘He ……. He hit me again.’
‘What’s going on?’
‘He, he’s having an affair, and he brought that woman home today, and when I argued with him, he hit me ……….’
‘Where are you now?’
”I ran out, now I’m in front of the community, Ming Wei, are you free now? I don’t have any money with me and I don’t know where to go?”
‘Okay, I’ll come right away, wait for me.’
It was midnight when I settled Kaede in the hotel, and with tomorrow on my mind, I got up to say goodbye to Kaede.
‘……….’ Xiao Feng grabbed the corner of my shirt ”Ming Wei, stay with me a little longer, okay?”
With a slight hesitation, I sat down, and Kaede leaned toward me.
‘Can you hug me?’ I hesitated and reached out to take her into my arms, she said quietly ‘You used to just kind of hug me’
I stroked her hair and she had a strange aroma, ‘Have you never thought of going further before?’
‘I ……..’
‘Your heartbeat has gotten faster, just like before.’
‘I do want to, but it’s all because I’m afraid you’ll get angry.’
”Fool, you have too many concerns, no wonder you can’t get married now. Then …… do you want to now?”
I replied with silence instead, Xiao Feng raised her head and looked at me softly, I looked at her carefully, she had changed a little, her face that used to be slightly too thin had a little more of the plumpness of a mature young woman.
‘Come, Ming Wei, let’s go back in time tonight.’
She took my hand and placed it on her chest, the rapid rhythm of her heartbeat reaching my palm as I lowered my head to kiss her, he softly scented tongue coming forward to search for mine as I increased the force of my palm.
‘Hmm~’
She grunted and left my body to stand up.
‘Remember when the boys used to call me Nana?’ I nodded ‘Before, you only dared to touch them through your clothes, now, you can have them.’
Xiao Feng said and took off her blouse, reached down and unhooked her bra, a pair of snow-white plump breasts jumped out in front of my eyes, hanging like two grapefruits in front of her chest, her nipples slightly upward, Xiao Feng held them herself, weighing them as if they were weights, and a wave swept out in front of my eyes.
‘They’ve sagged a bit since I gave birth to Rong Rong, it’s a shame you can’t see them as firm as they used to be.’
She proudly raised her chest towards me, demonstrating as if, her two breasts were shaking and bouncing, because of breastfeeding, right? Her areola nipples were darker in color, and her nipples were bigger, not as tender and pink as Xiao Rou’s, but with more mature charms, and now they were shaking in front of my eyes as if they were calling out to me, ‘Come on, come and possess me!
I leaned over and buried my face between Xiao Feng’s deep cleavage, greedily breathing in the gusts of sweet and creamy milky scent, and firmly grasping this pair of huge breasts, which were famous inside and outside the department back then, with both of my hands, then fell down on the bed.
My hand drew circles on her breast over and over again, gently tweaking her nipple.
‘Ah!’ She vibrated, her nipples immediately hardened, I pinched them with my thumb and forefinger, rubbing them gently and softly, and Feng reached down and took hold of my crotch and
”Ah! So restless’ Kaede smiled cheekily ‘I used to want to see what it really looked like’
‘You’d want to, too?’
‘Don’t you know that even young girls get pregnant?’
Why don’t I know? Zoe is a case in point.
‘Then you can have a good look now.’
Without saying a word, Feng unzipped his zipper and pulled out my long angsty cock, rubbing it over and over.
‘Well? Still satisfied?’ I remembered when Zoe walked for three whole days to get back to normal, and was a bit conceited about my size.
‘You flunked common sense! You don’t have to be big to make a woman comfortable, women are about context and atmosphere’
Kaede gulped ”But I still like the bigger ones.”
She helped me get my shirt and pants off and I rolled over on top of her and kissed her hard, such a woman to master for one song, I was surprised that I couldn’t get a firm grip on her breasts, my lips slid down to her breasts and took turns licking both nipples.
‘Ahhhh~~’ Kaede moaned ‘You can, you can lick them together.’
‘Together?’ I immediately got over it and squeezed my breasts together as if they were in the center, her nipples were actually able to rest together, and I took both nipples in one breath and sucked on them hard.
‘So comfortable’ Kaede gasped and the color of her areolas and nipples darkened even more as they engorged with excitement, I went to Kaede’s lower half and pulled her pants off, through her silk panties I could visibly see her thick and dark pubic hair, I licked her through her panties as Kaede rubbed her nipples.
‘Hmmm ~~ ah ~~ put the …. Take off her …. Panties off,’ I pulled her panties off, the crystalline love juice had already flooded, I pushed aside the grass and sought out the source of this living water, gently sucking and licking it.
”Ah ～～～～” she screamed out, her whole body shaking, her smooth and delicate legs curving back and forth, rubbing against my penis, I just felt the pleasure rising, suddenly she said:
”Ming Wei, come on, I can’t take it anymore”
I got up against her and she spread her own thighs and clamped them around my waist pressing forward, so I slid in.
”Ah~~Ming Wei, you’re great, so comfortable~~” Honestly speaking, Xiao Feng wasn’t as tight as Xiao Rou’s, but her reaction excited me more, I didn’t care about her feelings, I just kept moving one after another.
‘Mmmm~~aah~~’ Her voice was getting louder and her breathing was getting more and more rapid, and within a few minutes, I was cumming inside her.
After lying down for a while, I got up and went to the bathroom to take a shower, the door opened with a yelp, Xiao Feng stepped into the bathtub naked and hugged me from behind, two hot meatballs pressed against my back, I turned her around and wrapped my arms around her from behind her back, letting the strong jets of water from the rosette head drench her body, Xiao Feng’s body was covered in droplets of water, which appeared to be crystal clear in the light, I kissed her earlobes, her snow-white neck, and both of my hands lovingly rubbed her breasts.
”Ah~~”
Kaede let out a long breath.
‘It’s so cozy, you know? It’s been a long time since I’ve …. , since she’s been keeping a woman on the outside, and I’ve almost forgotten what it feels like.’
Feng squirmed uneasily under my caresses, her plump white buttocks rubbing continuously against my cock.
”Ming Wei.”
Kaede breathed back into my ear.
‘I …. I’d like to do it again, is that okay?’
Tonight has been two times, I really want to invigorate the lack of energy, just came in when I glanced at the table, has been almost three o’clock, the heart straight thinking about the meeting in the morning, Xiaofeng see me hesitant, then squatted down, holding my penis, stretching out his tongue gently licked, and then the whole mouth into the force of the sucking, I feel a numbness of the lower body, the whole body’s blood gradually to the crotch to focus on the work of not a moment, I will be a column of the sky! I felt an itch in my lower body, and my blood gradually concentrated in my crotch, and in a while, I was in full swing:
‘Look, it’s nodding its head yes!’
My cock twitched up and down from the intense pleasure.
Kaede spread the towel on the floor and gestured for me to lie down as she straddled me and leaned down to lick my ear:
‘You don’t need to move, I’ll make you comfortable.’
Said her lips and tongue slowly, from my forehead gently traced over every inch of my body, and then with her nipple from the soles of her feet all the way to my face, I stuck out my tongue to lick it, but Feng wiggled her huge breasts from side to side, teasing me, and then she squatted down against my face, I sucked and licked her mysterious triangle while she rubbed her clitoris against the tip of my nose.
Within moments I could smell a faint fishy odor, as she became more and more aroused she sat down more and more deeply and finally pressed down on me with almost her whole body, I felt breathless and slapped her hips hard before she got off of me, I grumbled as I wiped my hand off the lewdness that was running around my nose and lips:
‘You want to smother me?’
Kaede whispered in my ear:
‘If you die under a lewd cave, you can be a ghost, can’t you?’
I almost couldn’t believe my ears, how could that literary girl who opened and closed her mouth Wenjun Zijian say such obscene words back then.
Feng, however, didn’t give me time to think, and rubbed her body all over my body with the soap she had applied to it, and I could feel her hardening nipples, and hairy bottom sliding up and down my body, before she came to my crotch, cupping her plump breasts and clamping them around my cock and stroking it up and down.
My not-so-short cock was nearly extinguished in the waves of her tits, all I could see was the glans appearing in her cleavage one at a time as she lathered it up, her pussy grinding around on my knees as I jacked them up to push back harder against her.
”Ah~~”
Her breathing grew ragged and she couldn’t help but grunt.
‘I can’t stand it.’
Feng quickly straddled me and grabbed my cock and sat down, bobbing up and down in a near frenzy.
‘Ah …. Ah ….’
Her breasts shook so violently with her movements that I really wondered if I would be thrown off her body, so I held those restless breasts in my hands and softly rubbed her nipples, which seemed to make her even more excited as her movements became wilder and wilder.
After a short interval, she finally stopped moving and lay on top of me, panting violently, and I felt her body begin to contract with wild regularity, reaching out to caress her smooth back.
Feng suddenly said:
‘Why are you still hard? Come on, look at me!’
Said it and grabbed my penis stuffed into the mouth sucking and licking up, not a moment, I felt a lower body by the twins, I want to pull out, Xiaofeng but firmly grasped me, more intense sleeve, I finally as a thousand horses galloped into her mouth ………..
(vii)
In the next few days, Xiao Feng often come to me, after telling me about her unfortunate marriage, she went to bed to fight, Xiao Feng’s sexual orientation seems to be more and more intense, I sometimes even wonder if she has a masochistic tendency, and a few times, in order to provoke my anger, she even swung her fist and hit me in the eyes, perhaps subconsciously to take revenge for her betrayal, right?
I responded to her thirst passionately, leaving a trail of intense sex on her snow-white flesh. I wanted to use this as a way to distract myself from the guilt I felt towards Zoe, but in the end, I couldn’t escape.
Sensing my evasive attitude, Rou finally couldn’t help but ask me:
‘Brother, do you have a girlfriend?’
‘No! Why would you ask that?’
‘You’ve changed lately, I think, becoming less inclined to talk to me and often coming home late.’
‘I’ve been busy lately!’
”Liar, you used to be busy too! Otherwise let me ask you, what kind of panties did I wear the last time we had sex?’
‘This ……’
I really forgot.
‘That time? You’re not wearing any panties!’
‘It’s not funny, I knew you weren’t paying attention to me, and you said I was more mature and sexy in that, you forgot yourself.’
‘Alright! I’ll apologize to you, next time I’ll make notes and write down the colors and styles of the underwear you wear every day, okay? My little panty princess.’
I reached out to coax her, but she broke away from my embrace.
‘Brother, promise me you won’t break my heart, okay?’
After saying that, I left without looking back, I fell headlong on the bed, feeling so tired and exhausted, but not at all sleepy, the things that had happened in this period of time, scene by scene like a walkie-talkie swam and floated in front of my eyes, I remembered Xiao Rou’s sometimes naïve, true and affectionate face, remembered Xiao Feng’s mournful and sad face that complained about her unfortunate marriage, and remembered the relationship between me and them. I was shocked to realize, how could I have gotten myself into this state?
The most heartbreaking thing for me was Ziaorou, I was suffering from the torment of sin, but at the same time I was having carnal relations with her without any resistance, I couldn’t help but ask myself, did I really love Ziaorou? I couldn’t help but ask myself, “Do I really love Ziaorou? Or am I just indulging in her youthful body like the first bloom of a bud, indulging in that kind of soul-crushing flavor when I shot into Ziaorou’s body?
I can’t bear to reject her feelings, do I love her, or do I hurt her? I heard a voice in my mind saying to myself, I can’t go on like this, it’s better to hurt her now than to ruin her, I have to make an immediate end, otherwise I’ll spend my whole life in remorse.
The next day, I made it a point to come home early. There was a faint candlelight coming from the kitchen, and Zoe’s face was piled with smiles when she saw me.
”Brother, I’m sorry, I was too unreasonable last night, so today I’ve prepared a romantic candlelight dinner to make amends to you, and there’s also a special gift after dinner!”
I took a deep breath as Zoe wore the little dress she wore to last year’s Christmas Ball, with light makeup on her face:
”Ziaorou, come, sit down, I have something to tell you”
‘Brother, what happened? You look terrible.’
”Xiao Rou, I’ve been thinking about this matter for a long, long time, and I’ve never known how to say it, and I know that if I say it I’ll definitely break your heart, and I’m very reluctant to do so, but I can’t help but say it ……….”
‘Brother, you ……..’
Zoe looked at me uneasily.
”Don’t interrupt me, Xiao Rou, let me finish in one breath, we can’t go on like this, it’s not right, we’re brother and sister, we’re related by blood, no matter if it’s morality and propriety, or our hearts, they won’t allow us to do this. I’m sorry that my attitude has been hesitant, and I’m even more sorry for violating your body, Xiaorou, I’m really, really sorry, I don’t know what I have to do to make up for the harm I’ve done to you ……….”
‘Brother, don’t leave me.’
A layer of watery light clouded Zoe’s eyes, and I almost backed away when I saw the thin watery light gradually nimbly knit into teardrops rolling out of her eyes.
”Zoe, are you listening to me.”
‘I don’t want to hear it.’
Zoe covered her ears and kept shaking her head.
”Ziaorou, calm down, think about it, this will only ruin your future, you will always have to get married in the future, you will have to marry someone.”
‘I don’t want to hear, I don’t want to think, I don’t want to get married and marry, I just want now.’
”Zoe, don’t be like this.”
‘You don’t even love me, do you? Why did you lie to me? Why treat me so well? Why spoil me so much, love me so much, say so many nice things to me? And why …. Why do you want to …. and sleep with me?’
‘Good girl Zoe, I love you, I do, since we were both little, I swear, but it’s not the same ….’
‘Say no more.’
Rou suddenly raised her head and stared at me with wide eyes, clenching her teeth and saying one word:
”Do you still think I’m a child? I’m going to be a junior next year, do you think I’m still the same crybaby, pouting little girl who can’t grow up? Do you know how disgusting it is for me to pretend to be innocent and cute when I’m this old? But I’m willing to do this, because then you will love me to spoil me, I like the feeling of being spoiled by you to be loved by you, you know? Do you think I don’t know that we are brother and sister, and I can’t fall in love with you, can’t have sex with you, can’t live with you for the rest of my life? But I just can’t do it! Why did you have to say it? Why did you have to ruin my beautiful dream for the past few years? If you don’t love me, why are you so nice to me? If you didn’t help me, I wouldn’t have been raped! You let me fall in love with you, but you don’t let me love you, why are you so cruel? It’s all because of you, I hate you, I never want to see you again.”
Xiao Rou finished, turned around and ran out the door, when in the doorway was tossed by the skirt, the whole person fell out, I rushed up to try to help her up, but she shook off my hand and cried and ran back home, I chased after her:
‘Xiaorou …..’
Into the living room of her house only to see Xiao Rou carrying the hem of the skirt, snow-white calves under a pair of silver high-heeled shoes disappeared in the corner of the stairs, the uncle stretched out his head from the newspaper to ask:
‘What’s wrong?’
Auntie, on the other hand, focused on the plot of the serial without looking up:
”Quarreling again? Xiao Rou is a willful child, letting me and your uncle spoil her, you as a brother should let her be more tolerant, don’t get on her bad side.”
I coyly retreated, back to the kitchen, I crumpled into a chair, the candlelight on the table still swaying lightly, I felt a tingling pain blowing out the candle flame from the cupboard out of a bottle of wine, open the cork desperately pouring down my throat, pouring most of the bottle, I felt a fiery churning in my stomach, stumbling into the bathroom and vomiting into the toilet bowl life-threateningly.
I have not seen Xiaorou for more than ten days, she seems to deliberately avoid the time I go in and out of the house, and I can not drum up the courage to see her, this is good, I really do not know how to face her again, but the bitterness of the heart grows with each passing day, the alcohol can no longer dilute the hatred I have for myself, I looked for Xiaofeng to come out.
As soon as Feng entered the hotel room and just brought the door with her, I excitedly pounced on her on the bed and roughly removed the clothes from her body.
”Ming Wei, have you been drinking?”
I ignored her, and after ripping off her panties, I entered her hard.
”Ming Wei, wait, I haven’t ….”
Kaede anxiously tried to block my offense as I held her firmly down.
”Ming Wei, please, I’m still dry, slow down, don’t push so hard, I’m hurting!”
I couldn’t hear clearly what Xiao Feng was saying, I had already fallen into a world of madness, at this moment I just wanted to exert myself to let out a forceful stream of long suppressed emotions, at the same time I was about to reach the peak, Xiao Feng’s face that was twisted because of the pain but gradually turned into the heartbroken expression of Xiao Rou’s that night when she left in despair, I was lost in my thoughts and screamed.
‘Xiaorou ………..’
‘Zoe?’
Kaede froze for a moment and sat up quickly away from my body as if on fire, my still hard cock popping out of her, a white cloudy liquid arcing comically through the air and spilling straight onto the sheets between us.
‘Zoe? You called your cousin’s name while we were having sex? You …. You fucked her? You fucked your sister?’
When Feng saw me sitting on my knees on the bed in a daze, he understood everything in a flash.
‘You fucked your sister, you actually fucked your sister, you . You. Shameless brute!’
A wave of anger surfaced on Feng’s face, and with a wave of her hand she gave me a crisp slap, getting up and wearing the panties that I had almost ripped to shreds.
‘Hahaha …….’
I laughed maniacally as Kaede stopped moving to look at me in disbelief.
‘What are you laughing at?’
‘That’s right, I’m the shameless brute, I fucked my sister.’
I said out loud.
‘And what about you? What are you? You have a husband, you have children and yet you come to me and ask me to fuck you, what are you?’
‘I ….’
I forced myself in front of her and countered her mercilessly.
‘You big pervert, telling me to beat you, pinch you, bite you, have the bruises on your tits cleared up yet? You bitch that only fucks, what do you know? I don’t want to be your sex machine anymore, goodbye!’
After saying that I used the fastest speed in my life to get dressed and walked out of the room, and as I entered the elevator, Xiao Feng’s mournful cries were vaguely heard from the room.
”Ming Wei, don’t leave me”
(viii)
I cowered woodenly on a bench in the park, the faint morning sunlight spilling through the sparse foliage all around me, the bursts of birdsong that seemed to speak of the beauty of the world, the curious and wary glances I received from those who came and went for early morning exercise, but none of that mattered to me.
My head is in a mess, but I don’t know what I’m thinking about, all kinds of images are interlaced and disordered in my mind, at one time it’s the figure of Ziaorou in the kitchen, suddenly it’s back to the time when Ziaorou was just born and I looked at the crying, wrinkled face in the nursery through the glass window with excitement and curiosity, and at one time it’s the appearance of Ziaorou’s first day at school.
Then Xiao Rou turned into Xiao Feng, we walked hand in hand together on the way out of school I turned around and viciously said to her you bitch, goodbye, suddenly Xiao Rou mourned and said don’t ever see me again, but Xiao Feng pulled me by my coat and asked me not to leave her.
It was an early morning in July, but I felt my whole body shivering, I would go crazy if I kept this up, and I decided to get out of here.
Hong Kong’s branch has a legacy, for a while no one wants to go, I volunteered, the boss also agreed, to deal with some trivial matters, I hurriedly packed my bags, with infinite remorse to leave Taiwan, I did not tell anyone, only in the late night before I left, I came to the door of Xiaorou’s room, and stuffed in a letter.
Tonight, I have mixed feelings, I don’t know how to express the remorse and apology in my heart, you said, you don’t want to see me again, so I left, left Taiwan, went far away, so it’s good for you, it’s good for me, I really don’t know how to face you again.
Don’t be sad, don’t cry, every single one of your tears will gather into an ocean and drown me in every uneasy dream I have in the future.
I can’t pray for your understanding for hurting you, because I will never, ever forgive myself, and I hope that my leaving will take all the hurt away and leave you with a new space.
I think distance and time will be good healers, and in the near future, I hope you will be able to come out of this and welcome your young and bright future wholeheartedly.
One day, you will meet a boy who spoils you and loves you more, and you will spend every sweet day with him, and you will gradually forget me, and my image, my everything, will eventually become a vague, hazy impression in the deepest part of your heart, and in the night when you sleep peacefully, there won’t be any remnants of my irresponsible bastard brother’s memories. I am happy to see this result.
I’ve always, always wanted you to live this life happily and wonderfully, as I promised myself when I first saw you, but I can’t fulfill it anymore. In the future, I can no longer follow you around to love you, pamper you, and beat up those bad guys who bully you, but I know there will be someone who will gladly take over my task. But before the prince appears, you have to be brave, be strong, as you said, next year are junior big girl it!
I have to go, with a thousand reluctance, my feelings are conflicted, my steps are hesitant, but, I don’t want to say goodbye, I will be praying for you every day going forward!
When I arrived in Hong Kong, I only gave news to my father in the mainland, I deliberately avoided everything about Taiwan, in the company, I am a person without a past, I never mentioned to anyone about the past, anything outside of work.
However, like being cursed, the past scenes followed me like ghosts, appearing like ghosts in every silent night and after every laugh I had. Later, there was a chance that I simply emigrated to England, I thought the farther away I was, the fainter my memories might be, but it was not to be, so the doctor warned me that if I continued to drink, my brain nerves would be overrun by alcohol, and I would become an idiot, and my neighbors called me a weird orientalist.
I avoided every phone call from home, so I got the news from the answering machine that Zoe was in love, married, pregnant and had a baby, and I felt a twinge of comfort, yet a little regret, if only Zoe had told me all this from her own mouth, but instead I hadn’t heard his sweet, loving voice since the night Zoe stormed out of my house.
My father asked me on the answering machine if I was going to die in a foreign land. I drank the last drop of wine in my glass and answered maybe?
final chapter
Through the glass window, I can see the distant city lights shrouded in a thin layer of misty, yes, I think about this season of this city is the town of the day with a gentle spring rain, the air hostess is cordial one by one urged all the passengers to fasten their seat belts, out of the blue my thoughts and fly far, far away.
‘Sir, the plane is landing, please fasten your seatbelt.’
The air hostess threw a sweet smile, whispered to pull me back to reality, the plane made a big turn in the air, and landed smoothly on the wide and long runway, slowly sliding to the tarmac, the lights of the airport in the water mist rendered a circle of magnificent colors, my heart was suddenly apprehensive, and I hated to see the captain turn the plane around to re-take off, but this is ultimately impossible, I am bewildered with the crowd stepped out of the door. The crowd stepped out of the door, a strong wind unique to airports mixed with rain will blow me a stagger, I stabilized my body, raised his eyes to look around, ah!
Taiwan, I finally came back, a whole decade ago, and I once again set foot on this land that fills my memories with hurt, regret and reluctance.
Last week my older brother called to tell me that my uncle had been hit by a tow truck a few days ago on his way home from a social function and had become a vegetable.
”I don’t know what the hell is wrong with you that you don’t want to go back to Taiwan, but this time, you should at least come back to take a look, Xiaorou’s eyes are almost crying!”
So I hastily packed my bags and caught an airbus to my hometown.
I hitchhiked to the hospital in the dark, late at night on the highway without many vehicles, the driver pursed his lips, concentrating on Mercedes-Benz, the streetlights and shadows of the trees quickly flying behind, the whole world is only the tires sliding across the wet pavement and the wipers swept back and forth against the windshield of the monotonous sound of the world, I quickly fell into a deep meditation, the past ten years, it seems that the purpose of my life is to bear the torment of the past, when I walk in the noisy streets when I lay alone in a cold bed. When I walk on the noisy streets, when I lie alone in the cold bed.
When I was awake, when I dreamed, the past, which I didn’t want to remember, swirled around in my mind all the time, endlessly. A braking sound woke me up, it was time to arrive at the hospital, I had deliberately chosen to come late at night so that I could perhaps avoid many inquiries and a certain someone, right? That’s what I thought.
I stepped hesitantly and moved slowly towards the ward, calculating in my mind who I would see later, what questions they would ask and how I should answer them, I opened the door and breathed a sigh of relief, the only person in the room was my aunt who was lying on the bed and pretending to sleep, I gently brought the door with me, but I still woke her up.
She looked up at me, squinting her puffy eyes quizzically.
”Auntie, I’m Ming Wei La! I’m back!
‘Ming Wei? Why are you here now, have you gone home yet?”
”No, I just got off the plane and came straight here to see my uncle first.”
‘Ugh! What else is there to see? It’s still the same.’
The aunt said helplessly, slowly approaching her uncle’s ear.
”Jia Fu, Ming Wei has come back to see you! Do you remember Ming Wei? Little Wei! The little Wei who used to fight with others for Ziaorou when she was little! Did you hear that?’
I came along for the ride.
”Uncle, I’m Xiaowei! I’m back, you have to get well soon!’
My uncle’s index finger suddenly twitched a few times, and I looked at my aunt in disbelief, but she said with an expressionless face.
”The doctor said it’s a simple reflex action, nothing meaningful, sometimes his whole body will twitch non-stop, alas! Seeing him live in such pain, it would be better to go earlier, so as not to have to suffer all this torture.”
My aunt looked at me fixedly.
‘Why are you so thin? You don’t even know how to take care of yourself outside! You! You’ve been gone for ten years, and you’re not doing well. Although your three brothers have emigrated, they at least come back once or twice a year, unlike you. Every time your mom comes back, she always talks about you with a tear in her nose, have you gotten married yet?
I shook my head.
‘What’s wrong with you? I really don’t understand you young people, I still remember you had a fight with Xiaorou before you left, whether it was because of this that you left I don’t know, ask Xiaorou she also refused to say, only said she was sorry for you, alas! It’s just a kid’s fight, what’s the big deal? Is it worth it?
I didn’t chime in, asking hesitantly.
‘Little …. Is Xiao Rou okay?’
‘Alas! After you left, she did not talk to us for a long time, often temper tantrums, and then a little better after a long time. Later graduated, fell in love and got married, gave birth to a small baby quite cute, living is a replica of her when she was a child, you have to arrive earlier will be able to see, I rushed her back to rest, tomorrow morning to come over again.”
I think I’ve got what I want to know, the aunt rambled on about all the things that happened after Xiao Rou’s marriage, it sounded like it was a happy little family, a loving couple, a cute and well-behaved daughter, I felt comforted but also a little frustrated, as the window grew brighter.
I got up and said, ‘I should get back.’
”Alas! I haven’t been back for so long, it’s time to go back and see your mom and dad!”
‘I’m going back to London.’
‘What?!’
The aunt stood up with an open hand.
‘You just got back and you’re leaving again?’
‘I have some very important things to take care of over there, I’ll be back again soon when I’m done, early morning flight, I should go now.’
My aunt didn’t keep me, and I stopped a cab to catch a ride to the airport; the sky looked especially clean after the rain, though it had still been cloudy, and I rolled down the window, letting the fresh air blow against my tired face.
I wasn’t trying to catch a flight, the ticket was for the night, I was just trying to escape what I was about to face, although I had anticipated all the possible scenes before I came back, and at the end of the day, I escaped, it was pouring again outside, I paced the halls a couple of times, and feeling really exhausted, I sat down in a chair and dozed off.
Soon I fell back into a deep dream.
‘Ming Wei? Ming Wei?’
Someone shouted at me, I slowly opened my eyes, in front of me was a young young woman, round face, a pair of big watery eyes clear and bright, coiled up in a bun will be that beautiful face set off even more clear, I almost bounced out of my seat
”Xiao, Xiao Rou!!!”
‘Brother! Sure enough, it’s you!’
Zoe smiled.
”Mom told me you came back last night and left again in a hurry early in the morning, so I thought I’d rush over and take my chances, and sure enough I was right, you didn’t have much of a plane to catch at all, you’re just avoiding it once again!”
Zoe straightens up and picks up the baby doll beside her, I look outside and the rain has stopped.
‘The rain has stopped’
I spoke in a marginal way, trying to wash away the embarrassment I felt in my mind at a scene like this, which had long exceeded my expectations.
‘Yeah! I don’t know why this year? It’s raining especially much.’
I reached out and picked up the little doll, and Xiao Rou walked out side by side, the little doll softly pressed her face against my shoulder, no one spoke along the way, I struggled to organize the chaos in my mind, while Xiao Rou lowered her head and didn’t know what to think about again, and when we walked to the corner of the airport building, suddenly the two of them opened their mouths at the same time:
‘You …..’
This seems to be a situation that used to happen all the time, and both of them laughed as I said:
‘You first.’
”No way, I’ve always been the one to speak first since I was a kid, this time it’s your turn to speak first!”
‘I just wanted to ask, are you doing well?’
‘Ha! I was going to ask that too, but I guess I don’t have to, look at you, you’re so thin! You’re not even taking care of yourself.’
Zoe gently stroked my temples and I had the urge to reach out and hold her.
‘What about you?’
‘I’m fine! Mom told you, I got married and had this little brat.’
Zoe reached out and pinched her daughter’s nose, and the little girl ate and giggled, ducking into my arms:
‘He …. ‘He’s nice to me, spoils me, pampers me, like… Like you used to.’
‘Zoe.’
I finally couldn’t resist holding her hand, it was still so soft.
‘I’m sorry.’
”What is there to be sorry for? It’s not your fault, it’s all because I was too willful that I caused you to live such a miserable life. Brother, the one who should say sorry is me.”
Another layer of watery light rose in Xiao Rou’s eyes.
”Zoe, don’t say that”
”Alas! Sometimes when I think about it, it’s really the creation of the world.’
Perhaps feeling my inner excitement, the child squirmed uneasily in my arms as Zoe took over.
‘All forgotten, come and call uncle, do you know her name?’
‘Uncle’
The tender child’s voice, sweet and cloying, reminded me of when Xiao Rou first opened her mouth about my brother when I was a child.
‘Good boy, what’s his name?’
‘My name is Nian Wei.’
I looked at Zoe in disbelief and she lowered her head.
‘I thought, thought you really won’t come back to Taiwan again in this lifetime, brother, sometimes I would hate you, I hate that you are so selfish, you just left without saying a word,, causing me to have so many things to say to you, you went to grieve and be sad all by yourself, not even leaving me the slightest chance to let me share the burden.’
I don’t know where a piece of cotton wool drifted from, and I reached out to hold it firmly in my length, as Zoe said as if she had a point:
‘Brother, let it go! Why do you have to hold on to it so tightly? We all have a long future ahead of us, don’t we?’
A shrill airplane sound cut across the sky, and Zoe’s thin voice came through:
‘Brother, promise me that whether you come back or not, you’ll take care of yourself and have a good life, okay?’
Zoe snapped up her umbrella.
It took me a moment to realize that the overcast sky, at some point, was drizzling again.
postscript
I’m finally done writing, and I suddenly have the feeling that I’m about to run out of steam, I’m so tired! Just a quick shout out to all those who have created something before me, it really isn’t that easy to create something.
For those of you who like it heavy, perhaps this one is slightly too light; for one thing, I’m deliberately trying to compare different writing styles, and for another, I’ve found that it’s so much fun to read other people’s work that it’s a slight handicap to write it from my own hands.
Whether you like it or not, I thank you for reading this to the end!