My mom’s name is Su Hui is 45 years old, she was 40 years old then, and she has been struggling in education for 28 years so far, and is now the executive vice principal of a middle school.
In the eyes of most men, mom is not the kind of beauty that makes people’s eyes light up, but it is very showy and durable, belonging to the kind of the more you open the more flavor, and as far as I know, mom is a sensible, polite woman in the eyes of many men.
Mom’s height is very ordinary 161cm, weight now 110 pounds, breasts are not proud 81.2cm, a little slightly sagging, but feel very good, no obvious flare, so cleavage is still very obvious; waist 56cm is still relatively slim; hip circumference is very good 88.6cm, not out of shape, very firm, very smooth.
I feel that the most beautiful thing about my mom’s body is her skin, white but not silky, very smooth and delicate, and although she is 45 years old, it is still very hydrated and elastic.
My name is Jia Yunfan this year 25 years old, that year 20 years old. Although my mother is a teacher, to me since childhood discipline is very strict, I am also very obedient, but perhaps my IQ is not high it, academic performance has not been particularly good, after graduating from junior high school, I am fed up with the intense academic life, after and mom’s strong confrontation, I did not go to high school, but to the secondary school.
I graduated from secondary school at the age of 18, and thanks to the help of my aunt, who was then the deputy secretary of the county party committee, I got into a good career job. In my family, of course, there was my father, who was a good man, at least in terms of career, and whom I still idolize and aim for.
Father has a strong love of work, Dad’s earliest project office in our county, as soon as I heard the name, I know, is the county specializing in pulling strings to find a project, all day running around the country, and later, was promoted to become the director of the county office in the province, the year before last, it was sent to Beijing as the director of the Office of the Beijing Office. It is because he is always busy working outside, only to fulfill the love of my mother and me.
Mom is a very polite woman, she never novel depicted that unrestrained, even now we have had a 5-year relationship, we face each other naked when she is very enthusiastic, even if we are now very harmonious sex she will not be too loose, and not as the novels of those mothers, en ah ah ah, full of obscene language, because no matter how she always has an identity is a mother.
Of course, as my relationship with my mom deepened, she was encouraged by me to be willing to try as many new and fresh tricks as possible that I liked, such as: stockings, oral sex, in the car, in the field, and reading forums with me.
In my experience with my mom, once a woman has had her way with you and you’ve come into her heart, she’ll be very accommodating and will be willing to go out of her way to be there for you, and that’s what happened with my mom.
I and my mom’s love, and the majority of novels depicted are not the same, not that beautiful, romantic, I feel that I and my mom’s love is very down-to-earth, in addition to the beginning of the time each other are still a little bit of constraints and concerns, as normal couples slowly grind, the same as the development of feelings.
Nowadays, as long as Dad is not at home, Mom and I live as a couple, with warm snuggles, sweet flirting, quarrels over trivial things, gambling and cold war, and of course, there is no lack of passionate and fiery bed sports.
If you also want to love with your mom, then please do not rush to seek their own satisfaction and force your mom to do something she is not comfortable with, what you need to do is to take your time, slowly and politely guiding her, rather than forcing her, or I think it is a harm to mom.
To be honest, before my mother and I had our first intimate encounter due to an accident, I had never even thought of incest, and it was even more unlikely that my mother would ever think of it, although I had kept a lot of diary entries at that time, but they were all just everyday random thoughts.
It was on the eighth day of our first intimate encounter that I really began to record our story, writing it after I had slowly recovered from my panic. So exactly how my mother and I began is not something I want to rewrite since there is no record of it, and I want to keep the diary as original as possible. I’ll just give you a brief introduction.
I remember very clearly that time was July 5, 2004, my mother got the position that should have been hers long ago as she wished – the executive vice principal, which made her very happy and excited, even did not notice that her son was emotionally upset, because I fell out of love the day before.
That night she and her colleagues to celebrate back already some drunkenness, and I was drinking alone, perhaps she really drunk, see me drinking without nagging me, but continue to speak cheerfully colleagues how to congratulate her, unconsciously, the more she said the more excited, also began to pour the wine to drink, we began to drink, and finally, everything is dark, so now she and I can not recall, in the end, how did it come to bed. We were so excited that she began to pour wine and drink it.
The next day I woke up with a scream. When I opened my eyes, all I could see was the back of my mom running out of the bedroom naked and clutching a towel, and when I realized what was going on, my mind went blank.
I sat frozen in bed for a long time before I got up, found clothes in the living room to put on, and hurriedly fled the house. I later learned that that was the day my mom hid in the bathroom with a towel blanket and cried all day.
After that it was 74 days of us living without words, meaning that although we were at home, neither of us would look at each other, much less talk, both consciously avoiding each other as much as possible, and the atmosphere in the house was nothing but depressing and awkward.
This is the first time I and my mom, and now I have been very sorry, is not at all recall our first time in the end is like. As for how my mom and I came together, the process is very complicated, I do not want to deliberately write, the diary published it, but because of the reasons stated above, not coherent Oh, please forgive me!
Starting tomorrow, I will slowly publish the journals that are available to the public one by one, (updating every two to three days) The journals are long and short, some are two or three pages long and some are only a few sentences long, if they are long I will only publish one at a time, if they are short I will publish two to three.
Monday, September 19, 2005 23:33 Overcast
It happened again today. Oh, my God, what am I going to do? How could this happen? No wonder a few days ago, Mom took a leave of absence to rest at home for three days, no wonder the past few days Mom’s face is even more difficult to see, the clothes are not how to wash, and even the meal is not how to do, no wonder the night before last I saw her crying in the bedroom again.
Last night continued to insomnia, headache in the morning, called the unit called in sick, asshole Zhang director and said strange words, said I always take time off for a period of time, he a bastard how would know my pain ah, the old bastard one.
I didn’t get up until after 10:00, my mom was long gone to work, I took out a piece of bread from the fridge that was all that was left to eat, and casually threw the plastic bag into the trash, my eyes subconsciously swept the trash, and it was with this one glance that I saw something that I recognized because I had bought it for my ex-girlfriend – the box of the abortion pills.
My heart was in my throat, I reached out with a trembling hand and picked it up, wanting to make sure that, yes, this was the mifepristone tablet, the box was empty of aluminum composite panels, except for the instruction booklet and the crumpled up paper, and the hospital’s diagnosis: 2nd trimester of pregnancy.
My mind raced in extreme fear: Dad hadn’t been back in 4 months, it couldn’t be Dad’s, another man’s? Impossible, I know how mom is.
2 months, it was July, oh my God, was it, was it mine? I felt my lips trembling and sat down helplessly. I was really scared and didn’t know what to do. God was just teasing me, just that one time, still drunk, and not knowing how it happened, letting mom have it.
I do not know how long I sat on the ground, only wooden back to my room, lying on the bed eyes staring at the ceiling, the brain will be blank, a moment and chaos into the hemp, do not know what to think.
At noon mom still did not come back, I know she is avoiding me, do not want to face me. In the afternoon, I slowly from the panic out, began to think about what to do in the end, there have been two voices in the head fighting, one is to continue to play deaf and dumb, as nothing knows, to avoid what happened; one is brave, face their own mistakes, take good care of mom.
In the afternoon after my mom came back, I secretly looked at her, her face is still very ugly, although I have not experienced, but I know that we here the woman abortion is called a small month, it is very hurtful to the body, usually after the abortion are required to bed rest for 2 weeks, but also can not stick to the cold water, can not be strenuous and to supplement the nutrients.
Looking at my mom’s tired look and pale face, I felt so guilty and heartbroken. But until now it’s already past 11:00 p.m. and I still can’t make up my mind. Am I a coward? I don’t have any opinion at all.
What the hell am I supposed to do?
Tuesday, September 20, 2005 22:54 Overcast
Compared to yesterday, my mind has cleared up a lot and my heart is no longer blocked like a stone. Because I finally took a step forward today, and finally faced myself, my mom, and the thing that shouldn’t have happened.
Yesterday night is still insomnia, the mind has been repeating two questions, one is to continue to escape, but brave to face. Without looking at my watch, and not knowing exactly what time it was, I made up my mind, after which I fell asleep without realizing it.
In the morning I phone did not call to the unit, still did not go to work, and so my mother went to work, I opened the computer, searched the Internet for post-abortion precautions and nutritional supplements, and began to calculate in my heart, how to take care of my mother.
I cleaned the house first. It seems that my mom is really weak, because she used to be a very tidy person, but the house has basically been unorganized for the past two weeks.
After the room was cleaned, I went out to make purchases as I intended: casserole, eggs, stupid chicken (domesticated chicken), goji berries, jujubes, brown sugar, warm water bag, etc. When I got home at noon, I ate a packet of instant noodles hastily and started to stew chicken soup according to the nutritional recipes on the Internet.
Whole chicken, wolfberries, jujubes, star anise, peppercorns, ginger, arithmetic, cooking wine together into the casserole, high heat to boil, and then turned to a low fire slowly stewed, enough to stew for four hours, smelling the pungent aroma and oil nourishing chicken soup floating on the bright red wolfberries and jujubes, my heart is also warmed up.
In the afternoon my heart is still very uneasy, because I do not know whether my mother can forgive me, can accept my care, and if she does not accept me what to do? But already happened had to be hard on it.
Mom arrived home at almost 7:00 p.m., and when she came back, she still immediately went back to her bedroom and closed the door. I warmed up a bowl of chicken soup and pressed my uneasy heart to knock on the door of my mom’s room, but she didn’t respond in any way.
I momentarily do not know whether to enter or go, hesitated for a moment I tried the door lock and did not lock, I gritted my teeth and opened the door and walked in. Lying on the bed of the mother may not have thought that I will be in the case of her did not respond to their own open the door in, looked up at me a glance, and then rolled over to lie down with their backs to me.
I took a deep breath and walked over to my mom’s bedside with the chicken soup and said, “Mom, I know you’re angry and sad, but you’re not in good health right now, so you have to take care of yourself… I’ve made you some chicken soup, so will you drink some?”
Today their school leadership team to visit. During the period, Principal Liu asked mom got what disease, mom froze for a moment did not answer up, I rushed to say that mom got acute gastritis, the doctor said that mom’s body weak to rest more.
Luckily, they didn’t ask any more questions and just made polite remarks.
So close ah, all because I did not think in advance, or lack of social experience ah, in the future must pay attention. But after I answered, I saw my mom glanced at me, her gaze was less indifferent, as if a little bit of praise, I also counted the pending crime.
Today and wash the clothes, the past few days washed the clothes twice I realized, wash the clothes is not simply to the washing machine and threw a good thing, or very hard, my wrists are rubbing the red, encountered laundry detergent water Zla La with pain, before really do not know to sympathize with the mother, the future should be changed.
Wednesday, September 28, 2005 23:06 Sunny
Mom’s face is getting better and better, this morning also got up and cleaned the room, but still and I do not have anything to say, noon meal, I did not bring the meal into her bedroom, but put on the table, I called her to eat when she said she was not hungry, wait for me to eat myself before she went to the dining room to eat, it seems that mom still feel unable to face me ah, this kind of day do not know when it can be the end of the day. In agony …… Saturday, October 1, 2005 23:11 Cloudy
Today is a vacation, but I didn’t sleep in like before, I got up early, cleaned my room and made breakfast. When I went to get my mom’s clothes to wash, she didn’t stop me like she did the last few times, but she still didn’t see her underwear, so I guess she’s still very squeamish about it, never mind, I’d be really embarrassed if I did let her do it.
In the morning mom didn’t continue to stay in her bedroom, she went to the living room and watched TV all morning, and when I poured her hot water, this time she caught it in her hand and said thank you, instead of taking it when I put it on the table like she did all the time before.
At noon when Dad called back, I first picked up, he said to accompany a ministry of the leadership of a family to play in Xinjiang, vacation will not come, asked the family okay, I do not know how to answer, can only perfunctorily said there is nothing, and then Dad let the mother to answer the phone, my heart is in my throat, okay mom did not say anything, just I heard the tone of the mother is a little unsteady.
When mom put down the phone and turned around to see the side of my nervous look, did not say anything, just sighed and left, and my hands are already all sweaty. It seems that mom decided to hide that thing, I should be happy or sad ah?
Wednesday, October 5, 2005 21:23 Sunny
Today’s weather is good, I see my mom changed clothes to go out in the afternoon, I asked her to do what, she said to go out to get some air. I want to join her, she said she wanted to walk alone, it will be fine. But I still followed her out the door, she walked in front of me in the back to maintain a distance of three or four meters to follow her, she did not say anything.
The road ran into an acquaintance, I saw my mom’s long-lost smile, but I think that was faked, they simply exchanged a few pleasantries, after which my mom called me to say together, let others look at it and think how it is.
In this way, we walk breathlessly, every time I cross the street a few steps quickly waved to block a car, mom see in the eyes, but there is no indication. In the drugstore I saw my mom bought a few bottles of blood tonic medicine, hey, or I was careless ah, only know to give her nutrition but did not think to buy some tonic medicine, really stupid! In the future, we must be careful, good care of mom, to make up for their own mistakes.
Friday, October 7, 2005 21:50 Sunny
In the afternoon and mom went out again, this time I did not keep my distance from mom, she did not say anything, I still cross the street for her to block a car, when going up the stairs will tell her to be careful.
When I passed a food market, I saw my mom go to the stall selling fish to ask the price, my mom used to love fish very much, I think my mom wanted to eat fish, I said, “Mom you can’t eat fish now.” Mom froze, blushed and looked at me and walked away.
Later, mom turned to the park, in a small dirt slope on the lawn, I also sat next to but a meter away. Mom looked at the face of the sitting for a long time, do not know what to think.
Then the wind, I reminded her of the wind, go home, but mom ignored me, and sat for half an hour, mom suddenly said, “Let’s go, go back.” This is a long time since the first time the mother took the initiative to talk to me, I was excited for a while, the mother also seems to see my excitement, the gaze seems to be much softer, but still did not say anything.
Back home already 6 o’clock, I began to make dinner, millet porridge, tomato scrambled eggs, mom loves to eat green vegetables and tofu, at noon I went out to buy braised pork ribs did not eat also warmed up hot.
This time when I called my mom for dinner, she finally ate with me and my heart was really happy.
At dinner, mom suddenly said, “don’t use your hands to pick the scabies on your face, it will leave a scar.” When I heard my mom’s words, I felt so warm in my heart that I almost cried out with my eyes.
Mom looked at me and said, “Well, lose dinner, it’s all in the past, don’t think about it.” Although my mom was still expressionless when she spoke, I was so touched and happy.
After dinner mom did not immediately go back to the bedroom, but sat in the living room to watch TV, I washed the dishes, cleaned up the kitchen and dining room to go back to the bedroom when my mother called me, I did it across from my mother, she said, “Let’s talk about it.” I was nervous again in my heart and sat down in a very formal manner.
Mom said: “I thought for a long time, that thing can not say in the end is who’s fault, to say the wrong we are wrong, and now say what, pursue what is useless, since it has happened, let it pass, we are still a family, after all, can not always be that thing oppressed, and in the future, who should not mention that thing, and even more so to any other person to mention it as a nightmare, right. Just think of it as a nightmare. You should not feel too guilty, tomorrow the vacation will be over, you go to work, this period of time you take too much leave, do not cause bad influence in the unit. I’m fine now, don’t worry. However, you are not allowed to drink from now on.” I listened to my mom’s words, and my heart was much more at ease and said, “Mom, thank you for forgiving me, I surely won’t tell anyone about it, and I won’t drink again, I’ll go to work properly, but let me take care of you, after all, it hasn’t even been a month yet, and your body is still weak, and I’m at least a little bit responsible for what I’ve done.” I wanted to continue.
Mom heard me say a little negative responsibility, face a red hard to say: “you negative what responsibility ah, is that you should be negative? You can afford it?”
I immediately realized that I had said the wrong thing and hurried to explain, but when I was nervous, I became even more incoherent I stammered, “No…I didn’t mean that…I…I was just saying that I wanted to…I wanted to share some of the house…chores for you. …chores.” Mom actually laughed out loud as she watched me stutter, but then it returned. I actually saw mom laugh, my nervousness relaxed, I continued, “I now realize how hard you used to work, dad is not at home, you do housework every day, I did not help a little, I just want to share a little for you in the future, so you do not let you work that hard again.”
Mom looked at me for a moment and said, “You are willing to do housework I have no problem, you are also this big, it should exercise exercise, just do not think that much, I have thought about it, you go, go to bed early, tomorrow it should be at work.” I nodded and got up and went back to the bedroom, mom went into the bathroom, listening to the sound should be in the shower. Did mom really want to get over it? Can we really go back to the way we were before? Everything is still unknown!
Saturday, October 8, 2005 21:50 Sunny
Today, even though it’s Saturday, I still have to go to work because I took a 7-day National Day vacation, and I have to make up for it this Saturday and Sunday. Mom also went to work in the morning without listening to me, and although she’s much better, and her face is a little less pale and a little more bloody, I’m still quite worried.
That disgusting director Zhang, as soon as I went to work, he called me to criticize a meal, saying that I have no business to take a leave of absence, and in the future to take a leave of absence must be handed over to him in person for approval. This old bastard has been looking at me in a bad light, and did not give face to my aunt and father, so I am very angry.
In the afternoon buddy called me to go out at night to get together, I refused, or early, back home, the chicken stew bought yesterday, although the work, or to ensure that the mother every night can drink a bowl of chicken soup or bone broth, in my opinion, there is nothing more important than letting the mother’s body as soon as possible to recover.
Night mom soup actually praised me, said I did not think I would stew soup cooking, just the taste is not good.
Oh, I’m quite happy to hear that. I hope everything is going to be okay.
Monday, October 17, 2005 22:36 Sunny
Today dad came back, said to come back to get a project demonstration program, to the State Planning Commission report, only at home to eat dinner to the provincial airport, dad seems to come back every time especially nervous.
Dad’s return, really made me nervous for a while, although mom said all would not mention that to anyone, but I was still very worried about dad see what, well dad came in a hurry, and left in a hurry, I also as much as possible to keep calm, mom seems to be starting to a little bit of nervousness outside, everything is not bad, very calm, want to usual dad came back like, cooking, asking, nagging, dissatisfaction.
Today I finally saw the old mom, but she was to dad. Although we both said we don’t think about that anymore, but after all, it really happened, and refused to be able to really forget all about it so quickly, and I think maybe for the rest of my life it’s impossible to really forget.
Although, my mom and I already have a conversation, she will also do housework with me, but after all, not as close as before, hey, when can we go back to the past state of my life with my mom ah.
Wednesday, October 26, 2005 23:06 Sunny
Today and a few buddies went out to eat, I did not drink a little wine, promised the mother words are sure to do, a few of them kept persuading, said I’m not enough brother, but also said how I suddenly changed, do not drink how to call the man.
These really can not be helped, are playing together since childhood to the age of good brothers, but I just can not drink, said to the sky I still two words “do not drink”. I not only promised my mom, but also swore that I would never drink. I’m not sure how much I’m going to be able to do this, but I’m sure I’ll be able to do it.
Just come back, mom watching TV in the living room, see me back intentionally observed me for a while, must be to see if I have been drinking, I in order to prove themselves, intentionally do the sofa next to her to see the TV, mom see I have not been drinking, did not say anything, watched a little TV, went back to the room.
Overall this section of my relationship with my mother and some easing, after a month of recuperation mom’s body has recovered almost, at least the face has not seen pale, my heart finally also put down a lot, but I will still go home every day to do chores, mom now no longer want to avoid me that way, but also with me to do do the chores, but every time I wash the clothes are I grabbed to wash, after all, just a month, or not let her stick to the cold water good. I’m not going to let her stick to the cold water.
In the evening, my mother will not always be bored in the house, sometimes with me to watch TV, sometimes as before to the neighborhood plaza dancing, walking, and I followed her every time, she did not object.
Eat my cooking, will also praise my handiwork has improved, see my laundry, will also care to let me rest for a while and then dry, the smile on the face is also slowly more up. So, today, a few of them called to say get together, I did not decline, after all, they have asked me many times, before every time I have shirked, and then go really can not be brothers.
Wednesday, November 2, 2005 23:34 Overcast
Today’s weather suddenly turned cold, when I went out to buy breakfast in the morning, I froze enough, and a funny thing happened when I asked my mom to put on more clothes during dinner. When I was eating breakfast, I thought about the cold weather and looked up to my mom and said, “Mom, it’s cold today put on more clothes.”
Just as the mouth opened to say it mom chimed in, “It’s cold today, wear more.” Both spoke at the same time and said the same thing, so we both laughed when the words came out. All day today I want to laugh when I think of this scene, not because I think it’s funny, but from the bottom of my heart, because I care about my mom at the same time, my mom is starting to get back to caring about me, so I’m really happy!
Tuesday, December 20, 2005 22:50 Sunny
This morning the sky is very cloudy, 10:00 a.m. began to snow, the afternoon snow has not stopped, the ground snow has been very enough, I thought of my mother went out in the morning without an umbrella, so I went home early, took the umbrella to their school to pick her up, the road to see the street store bought gloves quite good, I picked a pair of good to give my mother.
When I got to my mom’s school, they were just about to get out of school, but my mom was still in a meeting, so I waited in front of her office for a long time, freezing my ass off.
The second thing is that my mom and I actually made a drunken mess, and that one time actually made my mom pregnant, which is a fantasy, but it really happened to me.
I’ve spent the last six months in fear and guilt, and although my mom said she forgave me and said we’d forget about it with each other, I knew in my heart that neither of us could do anything to forget.
But perhaps time can really dilute together, with the passage of time, my relationship with my mom from the freezing point is slowly warming up. And I feel that I am because of this experience and matured a lot, I can already deeply understand the mother this many years of hard work and not easy, but also began to understand the mother this many years of loneliness and loneliness, know to sympathize with the mother, to help the mother, take care of the mother.
I am no longer an all day only know and fox dog friends with food and drink, go home to the computer, the TV chain turn of the asshole boy, I know what is the responsibility, what is the understanding.
A new year is here, keep up the good work, take good care of your mom, work hard, get me and my mom back in the past as soon as possible, and minimize the impact of that incident on me and my mom as much as possible. Cheer up!
Sunday, February 12, 2006 Lantern Festival 20:36 Clear
Today is the annual Lantern Festival, other people’s families are reunited, but my father and let mom unhappy. Spring Festival on the fourth day of the new year dad left again, said to take advantage of the New Year with the county deputy governor in charge of the project, to have relations with the leader of the family to pay tribute to the New Year, said to come back to spend the Lantern Festival with us, but at noon to call to say that there is something to not come back. Mom had a fight with him on the phone and has been unhappy ever since.
To be honest, before mom is not like this, this young years, dad all day running outside was rarely home, slowly official more and more big, home time is less, but mom rarely lose her temper, at most is nagging nagging nagging, but since that happened, I feel like mom has changed, especially hope that dad at home, every time dad breaks the promise, mom will be especially angry, will fight with dad and will be crying. .
At dinner, I had words to talk to my mom to try to make it easier for her, but she didn’t seem to appreciate it, and returned the conversation without a word and went back to her bedroom to rest after dinner. Alas! Looking at my mom’s annoyed look my mood is also very low, this Lantern Festival over the very bad.
Friday, February 24, 2006 21:05 Sunny
This morning, my mom complimented me on my handiwork during dinner, so I was in a good mood all day today, but when I got home in the evening, as soon as I opened the door, I saw my dad at home, both my dad and mom were sitting on the couch, my dad was frowning tightly while my mom was crying, and when she saw that I was coming back my mom got up and went back to the bedroom.
My heart was in my throat… Dad didn’t know about that, did he? What was I supposed to do? Would it help if I explained that I didn’t do it on purpose? I froze in the doorway with a drum beating in my heart.
Dad looked at me and said, “What’s wrong with Siu Fan? Why don’t you come in ah?” Listen to Dad this asked, I heart of the stone fell to the ground, it seems, Dad does not know, thank God, but how mom cried it? I thought in my heart and mouth perfunctory dad said: “Dad, when did you come back?” Dad said: “Last night in the provincial city under the plane, just back in the morning.” Said also into the bedroom, I sat in the living room and listened to the ears.
After a while, I heard mom crying that dad, regardless of the family, do not come back a few times a year, come back once always less than a day on the go, said that dad did not have her in mind, as well as the divorce forget it, and then dad closed the door to the room, vaguely heard mom crying, specifically said what some of the hearing is not clear, just after I heard dad said that next month when their anniversary will be sure to come back.
After a while dad came out of the room, to the kitchen ding dong ding dong cooking, done after he called me that the night still have to rush to the provincial capital, tomorrow morning to take the plane back to Beijing, let me at home to listen well, work well, do not always know to play, to help my mother to do something, and then briefly asked some of the situation of my work.
Then he went back into mom’s bedroom, and mom seemed to have stopped crying, and I heard dad say he really had to go, and the driver was waiting downstairs. Mom ignored him, and when dad left mom didn’t even come out to see him off.
Dad left after a while, I went to Mom’s bedroom to call her dinner, Mom saw me come in turned around and wiped her tears, organized her hair, before coming out to eat. During the meal, I advised Mom that Dad is really busy at work, I heard in the unit that there are three projects in the county are waiting for the approval of the State Planning Commission, so that Mom do not blame Dad.
Mom heard my words glared at me did not say anything, hastily ate a little rice back to the bedroom. I did not dare to say anything, washed the dishes to write a diary. Dad is also, and then busy, it is not easy to come back once, at least stop at home for two days ah, so that mom this sad, alas!
Wednesday, March 8, 2006 21:05 Sunny
Today is March 8 Women’s Day, I hate shopping in the afternoon, but I made an exception to go shopping, and shopping for an afternoon, think about it is quite incredible. In fact, the purpose of my shopping is very simple, want to buy a gift for mom, because today is her holiday.
After much weighing and picking, I ended up buying my mom a sarong because we have a sandy spring here and many women like to wear a silk scarf.
The silk scarf pattern is simple, with black polka dots on top of a white background, and I think my mom often wears more professional clothes, so this pattern must look generous rather than elegant with it.
When mom came back in the evening, I’ve done a good job of cooking, eating, I gave the sarong to mom, mom received the gift although did not say anything, but I can see, she was particularly happy, took in the hands of look and look, touch and touch and said: “son grew up is not the same, much stronger than your father, with him all his life did not send me a gift.”
I asked my mom to put it on to see, she thought for a moment, and skillfully put it around her neck and tied a beautiful knot, it really fits, and she praised me for my good eye, and my heart was also happy. My mom’s happiness is my greatest hope. I’ll try my best!
Friday, March 31, 2006 23:17 Overcast
The 25th was dad and mom’s wedding anniversary, but dad didn’t keep his promise, mom got up in the morning and was very upset, in the morning dad called back, mom seemed especially angry, kept arguing loudly on the phone, and even talked about divorce, finally mom said in a very loud voice, “You’d better never come back.” And then slammed the phone down.
At noon I cooked, went to the bedroom to call mom for dinner, but mom did not open the door for me, I heard the room has been laughing crying, I’m so heartbroken, and in my heart I can not help but blame the father does not keep his word, do not know the heart of the mother.
Looking at the meal I was not in the mood to eat, do in the living room looking at the TV, waiting for mom to get well, I do not know that I changed all the channels N times, mom finally opened the door to the room, I rushed to get up to persuade my mother not to be angry, after all, dad is busy working, let her eat some dinner first, but mom said she was fine do not need to be in charge of me, and then changed his shoes to go out, I rushed to go with the door.
Mom soon came back to the same park where she meditated last time, still the same lawn on the dirt slope, still in the same position, sitting motionless, thinking. And I was still sitting a meter away from her to keep her company.
After a long time, my mom asked me, “Xiaofan, if your father and I get divorced, who will you follow?” I was so surprised to hear my mom’s words that I didn’t know how to answer. Mom saw that I did not answer and said: “Humph, I knew it, you and your father are a gang, you go, I do not need your company.”
I thought for a moment and said, “Mom, I don’t want you and dad to divorce, but no matter what, I will always stand with mom.” Mom heard my words, did not say anything else, stared at me for a while, and then turned his head silent.
March our weather here is still very cold, sitting there for a long time, I feel cold hands and feet up, see my mother only wearing a half-large windbreaker, I persuade my mother to go home, but my mother shook her head and refused, I have no choice but to say go home to give her that dress, so that she waited for me to rush to the home, but wait for me to take the clothes back when my mother is already nowhere to be found.
I looked all over the park did not find her, it was already dark, I had to go home and so on. 9 o’clock when my mother came back, the lips have been frozen blue, I rushed to give her a bowl of hot soup, but my mother did not drink it, back to the bedroom door closed and went to sleep.
The next morning at 9:00 a.m. mom is not up, I called her a few times she did not answer, I pushed open the door and called a few times, but mom did not respond, I feel wrong, close to look at the mother flower is still asleep, but the face is very red, I used my hand to touch his forehead is very hot, I began to call again, mom only laboriously really open the eyes, a small voice to agree with me, I rushed to call the 120.
When I got to the hospital, the doctor said that my mom had suffered from wind chill, which triggered a lung infection. Fever-reducing injections, fluids, ice packs, until the afternoon mom’s fever went down, I hung in the throat of the heart slowly fell to the ground.
The day before yesterday and yesterday I was inseparable from my mother’s bedside, serving tea and water, hot towels in the morning to wipe her hands and face, and in the evening to give her water to wash her feet, meals, I always feed her a spoonful of spoonfuls, at first she looked at the hospital room there are other patients are still embarrassed, but never argued with me, so I had to let me take care of the careful care of the.
Next to the patient and their families are on the mother said she has a this good son, real blessed, the beginning of the mother listened to the humble perfunctory two sentences, and then mom’s other people say again, she is not in the excuses, but will smile and look at me, make my face hot.
Today, my mother’s health is much better, the morning also went to the hospital yard for a while, she said in the afternoon that she was not used to the smell of the hospital and the noise of people coming and going in the wards, and strongly requested to be discharged from the hospital to come home to rest, I really have no choice but to agree.
In the evening, I made a good meal in the kitchen, I am ready to put on the table when I turned around and saw mom leaning in the kitchen door is looking at me. I froze with two hands on the dish, four eyes relative mom also flabbergasted for a moment, face slightly red, did not say anything to come over from my hand to take the dish to the table.
During dinner mom said: “Xiaofan, thank you for taking care of me these days, mom’s heart is very touched, you are now really grown up, gotta jerk mom is very happy, mom is already fine, these days you are also very tired, don’t worry about me, a moment to eat and take a rest earlier, if you are also tired and sick, mom will really have no reliance.” Hearing my mom’s words, my heart warmed up, mom actually took me as a dependence, so happy! I said: “Mom, I’m not tired, now the most important thing is to make your body well, you can rest assured, I’m so young, this thing can’t tire me, dad is not here, he said let me take good care of you. Otherwise dad will clean me up when he comes back.”
I want to so as easy as possible words, dissolve the gap between mom and mom, but mom seems not to appreciate, listening to me talk about dad, face sunk and said: “You don’t speak for him, this is so many years I still don’t know it, his heart in addition to the work of the time when there has been this family, there has been you, there has been me, dinner.” See quite a good atmosphere was disrupted by my sentence, I can not say anything else. Alas, a while ago for that guilty, worried about mom, now it is not easy to get well, and have to worry about the relationship between dad and mom, really enough to suffer.
Eat dinner home, quite far from home, I said a taxi, but my mother insisted on a walk, but also said that this period of time I have been raised fat, to exercise to reduce weight loss, I see my mother is quite high, I had to carry a big bag to obey chanting.
Tired! Yes it’s quite tiring, but also happy that everything is getting better and better.
Tuesday, May 16, 2006 21:17 Sunny
After a week of hard work, finally help friends to get that thing done, although let him spend some money, but things finally smooth solution, but I owe a lot of favors in the unit, my friend in order to thank me, gave me two sets of neighboring cities of a scenic resort a full set of tickets, said tickets and inside the entertainment program including accommodation and food and beverage all-inclusive, said that let me take my girlfriend to go and play, he still does not know that I have long ago bye bye with my girlfriend.
Lol, I don’t know if I deserve it or not? Oh. At night I told my mom about it, asked my mom if she was interested in going to relax and relax, my mom said to think about it, after dinner my mom said she heard that the scenic area is quite good, if there is no one to go with me, she can accompany me to take a look.
After discussion, we decided to take a day off on Friday and leave, so that we can take the bus back on Sunday afternoon. “The old rush” is quite good enough, although he is a friend of a friend, usually not many opportunities to meet, but this time I did for him, these two sets of tickets are not considered a bribe, right? Oh.
Sunday, May 21, 2006 21:17 Light Rain
Things in the world are also really love with things, originally thought that with the restoration of the relationship between my mom and I, can let us slowly from that incident, but who knows this time to go out but let me and my mom’s relationship qualitatively changed, this change makes me surprise and also makes me terrified.
The day before yesterday, my mother and I went to the scenic resort to play as planned, I specifically borrowed a car from a friend, although I do not drive much, the road is still a little nervous, but with the car driving in the mountains on the highway, around the green mountains and green water is really refreshing, there is also on the way to my mother looked particularly happy, like a child, kept pointing out the scenery along the way, but also from time to time to me to hand over the water, wipe the sweat.
My mood felt especially relaxed by my mom and the scenery. All the way is very smooth, more than three hours we arrived at the resort. Surrounded by mountains in the resort built very chic, inside is all the strange stone bamboo forest, live in all the wooden villas, inside clean and tidy, decorated with warmth and elegance.
But there is a problem, is because it is a set of tickets, the resort only provides a set of rooms, the room has two 1 m 5 beds, I think of that thing feels inappropriate, I want to ask the attendant to think of a way to can not open another set, even if it is added money, but the mother does not seem to care, said there is a free of charge do not live, and then shell out a waste of money, insisted on refusing to re-open the room, I have no choice but to live with my mother.
After lunch, we began to play in the scenic area, the scenery is really good, bamboo forests, majestic waterfalls, babbling brooks clear to the bottom, all of which made my mother exceptionally excited, as if back to her youth, took off her shoes to catch fish in the brooks, and bought the local people with bamboo made of clay water pistols and I played water fights.
Previously quite timid mother to play rafting, actually not afraid, from the high downward rushing excitedly shouting, picturesque scenery and relaxed and happy atmosphere so that my mother and I completely forget all the troubles, play a particularly happy.
Of course every time my mom showered and changed at night, I had the good sense to go out early and turn around so she wouldn’t get the wrong idea or remember the incident, so it was all okay.
Yesterday afternoon, my mother and I went to climb the highest mountain in the scenic area, the day of May has been a little hot, almost to the top of the mountain when the mother’s stamina is obviously a little bit out of support, I persuade my mother to go back to it, but my mother said that how can it be difficult to climb a large part of it, can not give up halfway.
We drank some water, rested for a while ready to continue to climb, but I walked a few steps to see my mom has not yet got up, was about to ask her but heard her speak first: “Xiaofan, mom is almost dead tired, can not stand up, you do not pull mom a little.”
The sultry tone of voice made me freeze, but mom stared at me looking at the hand out, I had to walk back to reach out and pull my mom’s hand to pull her up, see my mom up I wanted to let go, but my mom didn’t seem to let go of her hand, and didn’t look at me, holding my hand upward.
I had to continue to pull her together to climb up the mountain road, there are few people on the mountain road, the mountain is very quiet, only a few birdsong and occasional wind blowing through the trees and bamboo forests occurring clattering sound, my mother and I did not say anything, holding hands and burying their heads to the top of the mountain.
Arrived at the top of the mountain hand, I do not know whether it is hot or tired, my mom and I palms are already all sweaty. Mom’s slender fingers and delicate skin made my heart pounding, I feel my own wrong, hurriedly let go of my mother’s hand to sit under a tree and keep drinking water, my mother silently looked at me for a while, but also found a rock and sat down, eyes looking down the mountain and launched a flabbergasted.
The top of the mountain has a little cool wind, and I remembered what just happened, remembered to hold my mom’s hand feeling, my head is still straight sweat. My mother and I sat under a tree, a sitting on the rocks, who did not speak, after a while, the original dozen people on the mountaintop one after another are down, leaving only my mother and I, my mother walked to the top of the observation deck holding the guardrail to look at a while, told me to go over.
Mom said, “Have you ever seen the Titanic?”
“I’ve seen it. What’s wrong?”
“You still remember that classic pose of the hero and heroine on the bow of the boat in it, I have always wanted to be able to stand on the bow of the boat and learn it one day, but unfortunately I don’t have the chance to take a boat ride, look at this place like the bow of a boat? Below all the bamboo sea, how beautiful, you help mom to fulfill this wish, okay?” Said I felt mom’s face a little slightly red glanced at me, then stood by the parapet and stretched out her arms.
After listening to my mom’s words my heart began to pound again, my mind searching for my mom’s words, what does she really mean ah? Just let me help her fulfill her wish to imitate the movie?
While I was thinking nervously, mom turned her head and said, “What’s the matter Xiaofan, don’t want to help me?” I hurriedly fixed my mind and said, “No ah.”
“Come on then, stand behind me and hold my waist.”
I remember I was especially nervous, my outstretched hand was a little shaky, but I finally held onto my mom’s waist, the soft feeling made me almost impulsive, but I didn’t dare to think about it too much, and the sweat on my head kept pouring down.
Mom stood for a moment and said, “Close your eyes and listen to the wind in your ears.” I subconsciously according to mom’s words, closed my eyes, but only feel the heat of mom’s body from the hands, simply can not hear the sound of the wind, so that my hands trembled even more.
I am trying to suppress my own feelings is the mom and said: “How beautiful ah, if there is a camera to take pictures now, can be saved forever, really want to always be like this.” Mom’s words let my mind as played a lightning general, mom’s words in the end what does it mean ah, this is definitely not a simple moment because of the beauty of the scenery triggered by the sigh, the meaning of these words …… just when I was terrified of thinking, mom turned her head to look at me, smiled and said: “think what it is! , little fool, well down the hill.”
I hurriedly retracted God, barely smiled and said ah, let go of the hand holding the mother’s waist, mom smiled and did not say anything, walked down the hill, I rushed to catch up with her behind.
Along the way mom hummed in front of the song also like a child kept bouncing along, from time to time to pick up one or two pieces of fallen on the ground bamboo leaves and wildflowers, and finally actually used the roadside grass and wildflowers tied a wreath to wear on the head, but also asked me if it looks good?
But I have been in the back of the heart of the seven up and down nonsense, sometimes remembering mom’s hands, a moment to think of mom’s waist, ears also kept ringing mom’s words just now.
The sky has unpredictable clouds this sentence is really very reasonable, just now the sky is still very good, go to the waist of the mountain, it began to wind up, but also from the east pressure over many clouds, mom said to rain, we hurried to speed up the pace to the mountains, rush can just walk to the foot of the mountain, the downpour of rain on the rain, I do not think about it take off the T-shirt, cover my head and my mother, pulling her to run to the resort.
It was hard to run back to the room, my mom and I have also been drenched into a soup chicken, due to running too fast, my mom and I closed the door, we are tired against the wall breathing heavily, and even the strength to go inside the room.
After a moment’s rest, I noticed that my mom’s hair, which had been coiled at the back of her head, had been dislodged by the rain, and that her white T-shirt was clinging tightly to her body, with the shapes of her breasts unapologetically on display, her pale yellow bra looking especially clear, while I was naked because I’d taken off my T-shirt, and the rain was pouring down on me nonstop.
Mom and I glanced at each other, Mom seemed to notice my eyes and looked down to see herself, her face slightly flushed turning her face to the side. I immediately averted my gaze from mom’s chest and said, “Mom, you hurry up and take a shower to change your clothes, I’ll wait for you outside.” Speaking turned around and was about to open the door.
My hand had just gripped the lock of the door when my mom wrapped her arms around me from behind, my body stiffened, my mind went blank and I was frozen in place while my mom hugged me tightly and pressed her head against my back feeling her sob.
After a while to hear the mother cried: “Xiaofan, thank you for this year to take care of mom, mom is so touched, you know? Mom has never been a man who cared so much, cared for. Your father you know, he only career and work, all day long think about is how to promote, never care about our family, mom this many years of bitterness and loneliness you know? I don’t even have a person I can complain to. It is your care for me for a long time so that I found the feeling of being a woman, someone’s heart, someone cares about really happy, last year’s incident you remember, the beginning of the time I was particularly painful, I feel that I can not live, but now I am grateful for that, if not that how would you be so considerate, this heartache I. I am a woman, I desire to be a woman, I want to be a woman, I want to be a woman. I am a woman, I long to be cared for, let people in the heart, I also have loneliness and loneliness, you can understand me? Mom is not a bad woman, or I have long been sorry for your father, but now I really rely on you, want you to love and care for you, want you to love. If I hated that thing before, now I don’t resent it at all, I don’t regret it at all, do you understand mom?” Mom said as she cried.
Although a little bit of words a little bit messy, but every word is touching my nerves, her words I certainly understand, I feel my heart beating faster and faster, was rained out cold body, began to feel from the mother’s body body warmth, back I do not know whether it is the mother’s tears or just now the rain, but I do not know how to answer the mother, can only let the mother hugged to let her sobbed on my back.
After a while, mom saw that I didn’t answer her and didn’t react in any way, slowly let go of her hand and walked to her room, climbed on the bed and continued to cry. I stood dumbfounded for a while longer, looked out the door, the rain was still falling heavily, I ran to a small pavilion in the bamboo forest not far away, thinking over and over again about mom’s words.
Mom is very hard, mom this many years of what I have witnessed, but also know, I almost from childhood to adulthood are mom with, dad rarely go home, the home of the big and small things have mom worry, big and small jobs are mom a person to do.
Mom surface euphemistic, but inside is a strong person, she has never talked to others about these, but I remember many times mom alone with me to see other families stroll in the park, other couples intimate walk will always show a trace of despair.
Yes, mom is a woman, women are eager to be loved, loved, but she really rarely got from dad, these few times when I gave her gifts, she was happy to see, mom is actually a small woman, also yearning for romance, yearning to be spoiled.
Mom heard me say that I also love her, did not wait for me to finish my sentence, covered my mouth with her hand, cowering in my arms and said: “Stop, in fact, I also contradicted, I also scolded myself should not have such an attachment to you, but your care and concern for me really makes me so touched, I feel so happy, so warm, you do not understand as a woman’s desire for caring and loving, you should know that Mom’s personality, although I am a woman, but as long as I think good things even if it is wrong, I do not regret. In fact, I also thought for a long time before I dared to say to you, I think well, since we have had a male and female experience, I don’t care what, even if there is a retribution, but also mom’s fault, let me alone to bear, I just want to be able to let you continue to care for me well, understand me, take care of me, love me, so that I can do a real woman, do a happy woman.” After saying that, she looked up at me and asked, “Okay?” I listened to my mom’s confession, once again was shocked, my mom’s firmness made my heart as if it was turning over, feeling like a man who is actually inferior to my mom, it’s really a wimp.
I looked at my mom’s face that still had tear stains, it made me feel immense pity, my body felt the softness and warmth of my mom’s body, and I felt myself start to heat up as well, with a bit of a dry mouth feeling, I said as I hugged my mom:
“Mom, I’m sorry I’m such a loser for making you so sad, I love you too, I’ll care for you and love you as much as you want I’ll always love you.”
Mom listened to my words and also hugged me tightly, slowly our mutual body temperature began to heat up, I felt my mom’s breasts close to my chest, my hand involuntarily began to gently caress on my mom’s back.
The room was quiet for a moment, as if I could hear my mom and I’s heartbeat. My mom and I hugged for a long time, gradually my still a little nervous heart calmed down, the confusion of the brain is also much clearer, slowly my mother’s body odor let my body began to stir up, my lower body gradually swelling, my brain a hot and reckless to hold up my mother’s face and kissed her lips deeply, my mother and I began a new relationship.
Unconsciously my mom and I both became naked, I just felt that in front of me was a snow-white plump carcass, so that my desire burst out at once, my mind was blank, all of a sudden pounced on it, and kept kissing and caressing, and finally entered her body, and after a burst of sharp impacts, I rolled down from my mom’s body and lay on the bed in a sweaty state.
Roof lights make my eyes nothing to see, mom also lying where gasping for breath, slowly my mother and I breathing have calmed down, my brain just returned to normal, I asked mom: “Mom, you really do not regret it?”
Mom rolled over on her side and leaned her head against mine and wrapped her arms around me and said, “As long as you love me with all your heart, I have no regrets. Even if the heavens strike me down I’ve been happy.”
I was so touched by my mom’s words that I reached out and held her close in my arms, feeling the warmth. Neither of us spoke again, and slowly my mom and I both fell asleep. Woke up with a start, I saw my mom is still in the crook of my arm has also woken up, eyes staring straight at the ceiling, I asked her what happened? She did not answer me to ask me: “Xiaofan, you will not think that I am very cheap, a mom but initiative and son like this?” I also turned sideways to face her and said: “Mom, I absolutely do not have such an idea, I grew up thinking that you are the world’s most kind mother is also the best woman, I’m not small now, I understand the loneliness of your heart also know that people’s normal physiological needs, although in the eyes of other people we are not right, but I know that you are because of like me, I also like you, you in my heart will always be the the best.”
Mom has been looking at me to listen to me finished, her tears flowed out again, I think it is the mother listened to my words touched, it is intentional to tease her, said: “Mom how do you cry again, are so big people, this love to cry, crying this long today, eyes like a peach, look at my heart ache, you want to cry again I also want to cry again, why don’t we just don’t go to sleep tonight, open a painful cry conference well. “
Mom was really amused by my words. She wiped her tears and said with a smile, “I won’t cry anymore, I can’t wait to be happy with you in the future, I’ll never cry again.”
At this moment I feel the bed underneath me is wet, I let go of mom to sit up, see the bed is wet a big piece, only to remember that mom back to the room wearing soaked clothes on the bed climbed on the bed and cried, in addition to the later I am also wearing soaked pants, long ago the bed is wet, just now because of nervousness and excitement did not feel it.
Mom also just sensed something was wrong looked at it and said, “Yikes, it’s dirty.” Mom hurriedly jumped out of bed.
The movement caused her breasts to flutter, and my eyes couldn’t help but be drawn up to them, Mom felt my eyes and realized she was still naked.
Blushed and picked up a pillowcase from the other bed, covered my breasts and said no one is allowed to come in, and fled into the bathroom, hearing the sound of rushing water inside, I slowly calmed down and sat down on the couch and thought back to the things that had happened to my mom and I that day, surprised and feeling a little bit of trepidation and stress.
Surprised that I did not expect to have a mother again, and later can have her for a long time, feeling that things happen too suddenly, the change is too fast and mom’s decisive and resolute, scared to feel a little sorry for the father, the pressure is how to take better care of mom, care for mom, so that mom’s happiness.
Mom after the bath wearing pajamas out, I also took a shower, because a bed has been wet, my mother and I squeezed in the other bed cuddling, we did not have sex again, is to hold each other, caressing, enjoying the strong love and cozy atmosphere, pouring out each other’s heart slowly fall asleep.
Early this morning, I woke up when my mom was not in the room, I was a little nervous, I do not know if my mom really regret? I quickly dressed to go out to look for her, finally in the resort on an open-air balcony to see her, mom’s hand on the railing to face the sun looking into the distance, I was apprehensive to walk to her side, mom turned her head to see me to see the face of a little red, and then turned back to stare ahead.
I nervously asked, “Mom, what’s wrong with you?”
Mom heard me speak in a wrong voice, as if she understood my thoughts smiled and said, “Nothing, I came out to see the sunrise, don’t you think the sunrise is the most beautiful? Especially the sunshine after the rain, from the time I made up my mind to set aside the dark clouds, I am ready to meet the new sun, I will not regret.” I could hear the meaning in my mom’s words, she was just too embarrassed to say it explicitly, but it was clearly implied to me that she had no regrets, and my apprehensive heart fell again. Relaxed I also held the railing and said, “Mom, I have always thought that you are a very euphemistic woman, I did not expect that it is still a firm, decisive woman.” Mom blushed and said, “Elegant or decisive or are women, women have a soft side, are eager to rely on.”
“Mom, you can rest assured that in the future I am your dependence, will not let you suffer.” Mom heard my words did not say anything, looked deeply at me and smiled and said, “Let’s go, mom is hungry.” After breakfast, mom and lost the early morning on the balcony of that calm, and became a lively and lovely little girl, we chased in the bamboo forest in the mountains, playing. Another made up a garland pestered me to put it on her, and I no longer have the previous day’s nervousness and contradictions, put the garland on her and also in her cheek a kiss, scared mom nervously look around to see if there is no one, and then shyly warned me that I can never be like this outside.
After lunch, we embarked on the road home, along the way, my mother kept talking about all the beautiful sights she had seen in the past few days, sighing that this was the most relaxing and happiest day she had had in years.
Looking at my mom’s happy face, some of my original worries slowly disappeared. Thinking back to last night when I was intimate with my mom, I suddenly realized a problem, a very serious problem. I braked sharply and pulled the car over to the side of the road, because mom was not prepared for the body jerked forward, almost touching the front windshield.
Mom was startled to see me nervous look hurriedly asked: “What’s wrong, Xiaofan?” I do not know what to say. I do not know what to say, mom anxious: “Xiaofan, what happened, you speak ah, do not scare mom ah.”
I drummed up the courage to ask in a low voice: “Mom, yesterday we that, you will not get pregnant again, right?” Mom heard me ask this, the face of a red, twisted over to look at the front and said: “You only think about it now ah, what did you do at that time went?”
I answered her nervously, “When, at that time I was too impulsive, I’m sorry mom, it’s all my fault.” Mom was my nervous look and stuttering words amused, and turned his head and gave me a glance and said: “Well, do not be nervous these days all right, do not think about it properly driving, just scared me to death.” Listen to this mother said I was relieved, stupid smile and continue to drive.
Night to home has been more than 9 o’clock, are feeling very tired, each took a bath and ate something hastily, mom went back to the room, in the case of her no invitation, I do not know whether to go to her room to sleep, had to go back to their own rooms, lying on the bed tossing and turning and can not fall asleep, the brain recalled yesterday’s everything that happened, as if in a dream, do not know how my mother and I will be the future of the development of all things are I don’t know what will happen to me and my mom in the future, everything is unknown, but it’s so nice to have my mom.
It’s almost 2:00 a.m. and I’ve never written this long of a diary before.
Tuesday, May 23, 2006 20:05 Sunny
Yesterday during the day my heart has been very confused, because mom’s behavior really makes me puzzled. Since my mom and I have been skin to skin, husband and wife, my mom’s attitude towards me should have changed, but when I got up in the morning, my mom complimented me on the delicious meal I made, and then rushed off to work without any intimacy or feeling of attachment.
In my imagination, and mom since there is a substantial intimate contact, between us in addition to mother and son should have a lover-like intimate feeling, even if not as read in the pornographic novels of those episodes, but also should be very close to it. Although I now know that mom will not regret having sex with me, but for what there is no lover-like feeling? But I don’t dare to ask her directly, so this kind of confusion agonized me for a day.
I came home at night, mom has been home, is busy in the kitchen. I’m going to help, but she kicked me out and said: “Okay, a big man home all day in the kitchen to do what ah, before is my body is not good, now I’m fine, these things you don’t care about it, go out.” I said, “Mom, I said to take good care of you heartache you ah.” Mom said again, “I know you have this heart is enough, want you to take care of me heartache me is not let you cook for me every day, I want to have a heartache I care about my heart to do rely on, not a chef, listen to the words out.” Said pushed me out of the kitchen, I had to go back to the living room to turn on the TV. I was in the living room when I heard my mom humming a song while cooking, it seemed like she was still in a good mood.
Eating time mom told me about her unit, who who who and students parents quarrel, the parents have found her, have to let her give the results; who who who in the school check the lesson plan to last year’s lesson plan to pretend to be something. Mom’s talk of pleasure, I also listened with great interest.
When the meal is almost finished, mom asked me: “Xiaofan, I tell you these you will not be annoyed?” I said: “Not annoyed ah, how could I be annoyed it, never heard you give me these before, quite interesting ah.” I said: “not annoyed ah, how would I be annoyed it, never heard you tell me these before, quite interesting ah.” Mom listened to the grudging said: “Alas, before I just and your father you say, he said annoyed, said these things and he has nothing to do, in fact, I do not want to nagging, just want to work on some of the things that do not go well to the closest people, so that to vent a little.”
I said, “Mom, from now on you can tell me anything you want, I’m always willing to listen, I love to hear whatever you have to say.”
“Really? Don’t be a novelty for a while, it’ll be just like your dad in time.” I said, “Mom, really, I love it whenever you want to say it, I swear.” Mom laughed heartily at that and said, “It’s still good to be a little sailor.”
After dinner, I grabbed the dishes from my mom and washed them. We watched TV together for a while and then mom went to her room. I wanted to go in with her but I didn’t dare to take the risk as my mom didn’t say anything. I was conflicted in my mind not knowing whether to go into my mom’s room, I really wanted to be close to my mom again, but I didn’t wait for her to invite me. 10:00 pm, I just couldn’t sit still, and drummed up the courage to push the door into my mom’s bedroom.
Mom has fallen asleep, I gently walked to the mother’s bedside, the mother turned her back to me on her side, I gently called her twice, but the mother did not respond, I thought she was asleep, although I would like to drill into her quilt, but still do not dare to think for a while had no choice but to go back to it.
I had just turned around to take two steps when I heard mom say in a very small voice, “I thought you weren’t going to come in?” I turned around in surprise, mom was already sitting up with her head down and her two hands broken against each other, but I could still tell her face was red. I said, “I was afraid to come in if you didn’t.” Mom looked up and glared at me and said, “Idiot, did you ask me to take the initiative and say I’d let you come.” I immediately understood that mom was actually embarrassed, I can really be stupid enough. I smiled stupidly and immediately went over to the bed and jumped on the bed to hold mom, mom struggled to push me while saying, “Oops, don’t be anxious ah, just now know that watching TV outside, won’t go to wash ah, go to take a shower to go.” I just remembered that mom is a very clean person, awkwardly smiled and let go of mom, rushed into the bathroom to take a shower. When I entered mom’s room again wearing only my underwear, the main light had already been turned off, leaving only the small pink light above the bed, the room was cozy.
Mom at the moment has even head into the quilt, I lifted the quilt also into it, just now mom on the pajamas are no longer, only wearing a bra and panties lying with eyes closed, I do not know whether it is the light or shyness mom’s face flushed.
I immediately embraced her smooth and warm body and kissed her face and mouth. Mom’s body stiffened for a few moments before she too held me tightly and kissed me, and soon after my hands roamed over her body mom’s bra and panties came off, and mom’s breath caught and a slight humming sound came from her nose.
Mom sensed my reaction and change and reached out and nudged me and said, “You weren’t convinced when I told you you were careless before, now you regret it, the black bag in the idiot’s nightstand.” I craned my head to look at my mom who was also looking at me, watching me look at her her face seemed to redden even more closing her eyes again.
I quickly opened the drawer of the nightstand, the black plastic bag there are two boxes of condoms, or Jieshoupang, mom quite willing to spend money, or mom careful, and it seems that mom has long been ready to make out with me.
My heart a burst of excitement, open the box to tear off a, turn around and pounced on mom, but just now the tension and regret so that my big cock has shriveled up, no matter how to kiss on mom, how to touch, mom has been tossed by me panting, but my big cock has been hard not to get up, but the more anxious the more can not be, and finally I had no choice but to come down from the mother body again, angry straight whack the bed.
Mom also felt that I am not right, look at my anxious look, said: “you ah is too anxious too careless, don’t worry it must be you just too nervous, a moment will be good.” Said mom to me leaned close to my body, side leaning his head in my arm, a hand caressing my chest.
This is still the first time my mom took the initiative to touch me, the urgent fire in my heart immediately disappeared, and I felt that my mom’s hand slipped through the place are itchy and comfortable. I see mom’s eyes closed, face red, but her hand has not stopped, slowly touched the root of my thighs, where after groping, mom a lowered her head and buried her face in the nest of my arm, her hand gripped my big cock.
I felt the softness and heat coming from my mom’s hand and my brain got hot and my big cock got hard all of a sudden, seemingly even harder than it had been earlier. Mom felt me get hard and gripped it hard and retracted her hand.
I know that mom is still shy, but already can not care that much, while the iron is hot rolled over and up to tear open the condom package on the belt, leaned over and climbed on the mother’s body, separated her legs with a hand holding a large cock against the mother’s lower body, the mother’s lower body has been very wet, so I was very smooth Zi’s voice went in. Mom’s body tightened, her brow furrowed slightly, she grunted through her nose, opened her eyes and glared at me and closed them again.
I climbed on the mother’s body hard in and out of the mother’s body, with my movements, the mother also tightly embraced me, the two legs are very open, the mouth did not like the movie and novels written in the ah ah ah ah, more not fast ah, hard ah, I can not do what, just with the big cock in and out of the rhythmic issue of “hissing …. …….hmmm …… hiss …… hmmm” sound.
Sounds although not as exciting as in movies and novels, but in my ears as heavenly music, let me more excited. Soon mom has a characteristic moan is getting louder and louder up, two hands keep grasping the bed sheet, I do not know how many times my big cock in and out of the mother’s body, how long, mom’s body stiff, hand hard to grasp the flyer, long hissing …… a sound, the body of a soft hips stopped upward lifting action.
I knew that my mom had an orgasm and accelerated my movements, finally a stream of semen rushed out and shot into my mom’s body, no, it should be into the condom. At this moment I realized that my body was already all sweaty.
I got down from my mom’s body and lay on the bed, gasping for air, seeing my mom’s eyes slightly closed and her breasts heaving, her face flushed and beads of sweat seeping from her forehead, that lazy and powerless look was so endearing.
I reached over and wiped the sweat from her forehead and gave her a soft kiss on the cheek. Mom opened her eyes and looked at me shyly, and turned on her side to get into my arms and hug me as well. Neither of us spoke again, holding each other, smelling mom’s body odor, listening to each other’s heartbeat, the room was quiet.
My heartbeat slowly returned to its usual rate as I rubbed my mom’s back with one hand and said, “Mom, are you comfortable?” Mom’s face was still buried in my arms, didn’t answer screwed on my back without saying anything. I pouted and asked, “Mom, tell me, are you comfortable?” Mom screwed me again and still didn’t say anything but nodded her head twice while buried in my arms.
I knew mom was shy and didn’t tease her anymore. Holding her hair in my mouth, my hand caressed her smooth back, feeling the softness and smoothness of mom’s body. Mom like an obedient child, obediently curled up in my arms, my heart as happy as a flower.
I thought that although I had already had three skin-to-skin encounters with my mom, the first one was drunk and now I don’t even know how it happened, and the second one was as impulsive and unusual at the resort as this one, and I hadn’t even carefully appreciated my mom’s body.
I let go of my hold on mom and lifted the covers so that she was lying flat on her back, mom didn’t know what I was going to do and let me manipulate her with her eyes closed. My eyes scanned my mom’s body, and I realized that she was really beautiful. Her skin was clear and smooth, with no obvious scars.
Although already 40 years old, but the body is still very flexible; breast area is not very large, slightly sagging, but did not affect the cleavage, nipple is not big, areola is also very small, about a dollar coin that big, the color is a little darker into maroon.
The stomach was fairly flat without very visible flab, the pubic hair wasn’t lush but dark, not large in size but quite regular in length, the legs weren’t bloated they were firm, the calves were very thin, and the toes were painted with a light pink nail polish that I’d never noticed before.
She found me looking at her body red-faced and said: “Look at what ah, not allowed to look at me like this.” said want to pull the quilt cover. Said want to pull the quilt cover, how would I give up such a good opportunity to pull the quilt does not let her cover, mom tugged hard a few times did not tug, shyly covered her face with her hands.
I wanted to part my mom’s legs to take a closer look at her lower body, but she clamped her legs in with force, and I said, “Mom, you’re so beautiful, let me see you, please.” I said in a petulant tone while I parted her legs with one push, and mom’s lower body was finally exposed to my eyes.
Mom hurriedly dropped her hands covering her face and put them on her lower body to cover it, I continued to pull her hands away and braced my arm on her legs to keep her from closing them, Mom struggled unsuccessfully for a few moments and covered her face again and didn’t move.
Mom’s pubic hair is not lush but it extends to the sides of her pussy, her labia are not thick but also maroon in color, there is still liquid on it from earlier, I gently separate her labia with my hand, it is pink and bright inside, her clitoris is very small, I don’t know if it will get bigger when she is excited.
As my hand touched her labia and clitoris, mom’s ass began to tremble slightly, and clear liquid began to secrete inside again, I couldn’t help but want to kiss it with my mouth, but I just lowered my head and my lips just touched mom’s lower body.
Mom sat up all of a sudden and said, “Oops, you do what ah, dirty dead where, you also kiss ah.” I looked up and said with a smile, “How could it be dirty, mom’s body where is the cleanest.” Mom stared at me and said, “Really, that is where you can kiss?” It seems that mom has never had oral sex, I said, “Mom, you are too beautiful, I just want to kiss, want to kiss every part of your body, in fact, other people are kissing here, this is called oral sex, only the most loving people like this, you let me kiss it.” Said I pushed her to lie down, and without saying so, I lowered my head and kissed her.
Mom was off guard for a moment, and when she tried to clench her legs again, my tongue had already licked her pussy lips, and Mom’s body jerked, her mouth hissed, and her legs stopped pushing as I licked at her pussy lips for a moment, my tongue picking them apart and licking at the tender flesh inside.
Mom’s whole body began to tremble, wriggling her ass, her mouth hissing…mmmm…hissing…mmmm again, soon mom’s originally tiny clitoris became a little bit bigger, my tongue soon found it, mom’s body twisted even harder, one hand kept gripping the bedsheets, one hand gripped my hair, and her moans got louder, I worked my tongue hard on mom’s clit, from which a large amount of liquid kept gushing out.
I began to work my tongue inside mom, stirring it around in her cunt, my nose rubbing right up against her clit, and it wasn’t long before mom’s body went limp in a fit of violent trembling and writhing, and I got up and lay on my side in contentment, my hands caressing her breasts.
Mom gasped for breath for a moment opened her eyes slightly and glared at me, twisted my arm and said, “Bad boy, where did you learn this? It’s killing me.”
I laughed and said, “I learned it in the movie, people are like this, you have to have oral sex before every time, is it comfortable?” Mom did not have a good mood red face said, “comfortable or not comfortable do not need you tube.” After saying that, she buried her head in my chest again.
Look at mom’s shy look I’m so happy, feel especially beautiful, was already hard up the big cock and rose up the pain, I came to mom’s ear and said, “Mom, you’re so beautiful, I still want to line?” Mom did not speak, buried in my arms head shook.
I took mom’s hand and put it on my big cock, mom tried to retract it but my hand held it down, she tried to retract it a few times with force without success and finally just had to hold it. I said, “Mom, I really want it, give it to me.” Mom still didn’t say anything nor did she nod or shake her head, she just gloved my big cock. I really can’t help it, I got up and got another condom, quickly put it on, a rolled over and pressed against her, mom didn’t struggle, slightly spread her thighs, let my big cock smoothly aligned with her lower body, I didn’t have an impulse this time, and slowly squeezed my big cock into mom’s lower body.
Mom’s lower body was already a wet mess, and the moment my big cock was all the way in, Mom’s hands tightened around me, her legs spread wide apart, her mouth hissed, and I didn’t just pound away like the first couple of times, letting my big cock slowly go in and out, getting a good feel for the depths of Mom’s body.
Mom still closed her eyes nose softly humming, slowly her hips still gently twisting and lifting to match my movements, I experienced the benefits of a mature woman, unlike that girlfriend of mine before, although she was very open, every time we were excited, but she did not know how to cooperate.
After a few hundred slow in and out interchanges, I couldn’t hold back my body’s desires and started to pick up the pace, and mom’s moans started to change, turning into the distinctive hissing…mmmm…, and instead of gripping the sheets again, both hands clung to me, clawing at my back, and her hips wriggled and lifted even more, and the ten-minute sprints made both mom and I s breathing was ragged and fast, and in the end both mom and I climaxed in a shudder.
I climbed on top of my mom gasping for breath, rested enough I got off her, reached down and removed the condom still on my big cock and threw it under the bed, suddenly I thought of a question and crawled up to her ear and whispered, “Mom, when did you buy the condom ah?”
Mom shy her face became red, wooing a cry drilled into my arms, pinching my meat stopped for a while before saying, “I still do not know you ah, careless, and embarrassed to give you say let you buy, afternoon after work to the drugstore to buy.”
I gave her a kiss on the hair, held her breasts and said, “It’s better to be a mom, I know I’m careless and I’ll be sure to change from now on.”
Mom got out of my arms at that point and looked up with a red face and said, “Tell you what, from now on these things are yours, and don’t come to me if you forget.”
Mom and I held each other and caressed and exchanged words. I learned that the reason Mom didn’t have an IUD was because she always had inflammation after having one before, and then she got a certificate from the hospital and submitted it to the Family Planning Commission before she didn’t have another IUD. Also learned that mom really hadn’t had oral sex before. Finally mom fell asleep on my arm.
When I woke up this morning, my mom was still sleeping, and my arm was sore and sleepy from her pillow all night, but I couldn’t bear to call my mom when she was sleeping so beautifully, and I let her pillow it through the soreness.
The wall clock in the living room rang 7 when mom woke up, opened her eyes to see I was also looking at her blush and said: “look what ah?”
I didn’t answer her positively just stared at her and said, “Mom, you’re beautiful.” Mom’s face turned even redder with shame. I look at my mother woke up and hurriedly drew back the arm, the arm is already numb and sore, my mother looked at me frowning and rubbing the arm, realized the pillow my arm has been a night, but also reached out and rubbed my arm and said: “Really, it is very sleepy, how do you not take it out early ah.” I said: “I see you sleep that fragrant, do not want to disturb you, I’m fine, the activity is good.” Mom heard stared at me for half a day, and arch into my arms, rubbing my arms and said: “Xiaofan, you are really good, mom out of this step is right, the night I will never be afraid.” Hearing my mom’s praise I was overjoyed and said, “Mom, don’t worry, I’ll let you sleep on my pillow every day from now on.” Mom hugged me tightly once again. We cuddled in bed until almost 8 o’clock before we got up and hurried to work.
All day today I’ve been immersed in warm memories with my mom, it feels really wonderful, my big cock can’t help but get hard just thinking about her wonderful body and unique moans. I won’t hesitate later, I will run to mom’s room after writing my diary. Come on, take good care of mom, love her, make her happy, happy!
From the bathroom out, I chased after my mother to gift, but my mother said: “anxious what ah, said to give you will certainly give, you wash, I have not washed it, cooking a sweaty hard to die, first let me take a bath and then give you, you first rest a while.” Said and pushed me into my room, closed the door and went out to take a shower.
(Note: Because of that time my clothes were in my mom’s closet and my dad came back and saw them, I switched with my mom to sleep in my room just in case.)
I had to hold back my curiosity and lay in bed and wait. After about fifteen minutes, mom finally pushed her way in, and when I saw her, I was stunned. Mom’s hair, which was usually coiled at the back of her head, had fallen over her shoulders, and she was wearing the very same black halter nightgown that I had bought her earlier and she wasn’t wearing.
The black material makes mom’s skin look more pink and white, because it is a halter nightgown, open chest is very low, and mom is not wearing a bra inside, half of her breasts are exposed, deep cleavage is exposed, through the thin gauze material can even see her hidden nipples, short skirt can only cover mom’s hips, snow-white thighs look particularly dazzling, mom’s lower body wearing the matching Black thong pants, vaguely can see mom’s pubic hair.
Mom’s appearance is even more adorable, red face shows a little uncomfortable look, eyes will glance at me and immediately move away, a moment and then glance at me. After a while, see me staring stupidly at her, shyly whispered: “good?”
I kept nodding my head in a rush and said, “Good looking, good looking, so good looking, mom you’re so beautiful, so sexy.” With that I pounced on her.
Mom, however, avoided me, pushed me to sit on the bed and said: “Xiaofan, mom thought a lot of these days, mom finally know your love for me, but also understand my feelings for you, in mom’s heart you are already mom’s man, is my dependence, you know? Before mom will still feel shy, think women should be reserved, after mom will give you my heart and body without reservation, as long as you like mom what all to you, what all willing, okay?”
I just wanted to open my mouth to speak but mom covered my mouth with her hand and continued, “You don’t have to say anything, mom understands your heart for me, mom is going to give you a special gift today and one that you’ve been wanting for a long time, don’t move and let me.” After saying that mom pushed me to let me lie on the bed, then she leaned down and started kissing me, kissing my mouth, face, nose, eyes and ears.
Slowly slowly kissing my way down my neck, my chest, and when it came to my two tiny boob beans, sensations I’d never felt before turned me on, tickling me, not just where my lips and tongue reached, but all over my body.
After slowly hovering over my boob beans for a moment, she continued to kiss her way down, sliding her tongue over my stomach and continuing down, by now my big cock was pushing the top of my panties up, when mom kissed the edge of my panties at the small of my back while lightly caressing the protruding part of my panties with her hand.
Mom lifted her head and said in an almost shaky voice, “Sailor, Mom is giving you the gift now, the one you’ve always wanted, okay?” After saying that, her hand pulled the only remaining panties on my body downward, and I cooperated by lifting my ass, and they were smoothly removed by Mom.
Mom paused for a few moments, her hand gently gripped her big cock that had long been too aroused to be hard, and gently sheathed and fiddled with it, and soon I felt my glans being surrounded by a warm, wet space, as mom took my big cock in her mouth. As mom had said, this was the moment I had been waiting for, the one I had wanted for so long.
At this moment I felt as if I were floating in the sky, and I was completely mesmerized. But soon I was roused by a pain. Mom was after all giving oral sex for the first time, and her teeth inevitably hung onto my big cock, and although it hurt a little, I didn’t stop her, but enjoyed it instead. Because mom finally took a step for me that she never wanted to take before.
However, as mom’s mouth kept going up and down my big cock, her teeth were giving me pain more frequently, and soon mom seemed to realize this as she shyly said, “Siu Fan, is it that mom is not doing a good job? Did I hurt you?”
I stroked her hair and said, “No, mom, very comfortable, really.” Mom didn’t say anything else and continued to suck me off, but instead of holding my big cock in her mouth and working it up and down, she kept licking my cock and glans back and forth with her tongue, and licking both of my balls from time to time. The sensation made my big cock even more excited and harder.
Soon I noticed my mom’s movements slowing down and would occasionally rub both cheeks with her hands. I knew mom’s mouth must be tired. I sat up and gently lifted her head, kissed her deeply on the lips, and with both hands pulled down the suspenders of her nightgown quickly climbed up to the peaks of her ample breasts and gently kneaded them.
I kissed and caressed my mom’s breasts while slowly laying her flat on the bed, and by now she was panting from my tactics, enjoying my caresses and kisses with her eyes closed, at my mercy.
I smoothly curled my tongue around her nipple and began to kiss and lick it, one hand already inside her tiny thong to feel her tidal surge of wetness. Soon I was no longer satisfied with lingering on her nipples and moved down the line, gr kissing her bottom through her silk panties. I flicked the washed out band of pants aside with my hand and my tongue quickly sought out my mom’s clit, sweeping it around gently.
Mom’s soft humming immediately turned into a distinctive moan, “Hiss… hiss… mmm… hiss… mmm… hiss… mmm…” and her hips began to lift and lower back and forth erratically as a stream of fluid poured out of her. …” and her hips began to lift and lower irregularly twisting back and forth as a stream of fluid gushed out of her mom’s body.
Not a moment’s effort, mom’s legs suddenly tightly clamped my head, mouth long: “hiss ……” a sound, the hips forcefully upward, a large share of liquid from the vagina gushing out, the body slightly shuddered and trembled after the high raised hips feebly let go! After a slight shock and tremor in her body, her lifted hips were helplessly released, and her legs that were tightly clamped around me also relaxed, and I knew that my mom had already had an orgasm.
I gently pulled down mom’s panties, separated her legs, and pushed my big cock, which had long since risen and hurt, into mom’s body. Mom once again hissed …… a sound, eyebrows slightly wrinkled, opened her eyes and said to me, “Xiaofan, a little lighter.” And then closed her eyes, both hands upstretched tightly gripped the pillow, legs spread outward some more, let me gallop up in her body.
This night mom’s body bush in place in front of me completely blossomed, we repeatedly make love, do it to embrace each other to rest and talk, have to jerk and then make love again. My semen three times filled her lower body, if not mom said really too tired, tomorrow still have to work, the fourth and even the fifth time will continue.
When I got up this morning, there was a patch on the bedsheet that I didn’t know if it was mom’s runny fluid or my cum, and when I pointed to the marks on the bedsheet for mom to see, she blushed and said with a petulant upturned face, “Otherwise it’s not you that made it happen.”
Looking at my mom’s flushed cheeks and listening to her first time that dainty upside down tone, my heart was crushed, my mom was actually pampering herself in front of me. So happy! I got up in a hurry in the morning and had my first kiss goodbye with mom on my way out the door at work, and when I came back from work just now, mom came out of the kitchen to hug me. Life just keeps getting better and better.
I did not expect an accidental birthday congratulations, but became a mindless willow into a shade, so that the mother completely abandoned the reserve to open the knot, completely and utterly the real body and mind are dedicated to me, perhaps it is God’s will, huh, so happy. Today my heart all day as if soaked in honey. Do not write, the hand is sore, but also to find an oral sex film, the night so that mom to learn, this is last night I discussed with her.