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At different stages of life, the same person may have different loves and hates for the same thing. I remember once upon a time I loved the color blue, the blue sky, the blue sea, the blue racket, the blue letterhead, and the blue shirt.

Lynn couldn’t help but ask me why. I replied, “Blue represents calmness, ease, purity, depth, and a hint of melancholy, I like these feelings, don’t you?” Lynn laughed, “But I always think it’s too solid.” Her eyes fall on my shirt and she adds a word languidly, “Flirty.” I remember I was depressed all afternoon over Lynn’s use of such a word to describe the color blue, she scrunched up her feet and reclined lazily in a hanging chair, clutching a magazine and flipping through it, and I looked downstairs in silence at the cars and people coming and going, I was so young then, and I had such a luxury of time and mood.

One year, we used to spend a lot of time like this at the coffee house.

II. Flattery in the virtual

I am relatively early to use the Internet, because the unit has a computer, and can access the Internet, when there is no broadband, open a picture is to take half a day, but a few of us in the section are scrambling to play, in addition to play even a little bit of graphic type is not even the text of the mud, most go to the chat room blind chat.

I am most interested in an internal literary network to wander, with the blue shirt of the screen name has posted dozens of small articles, six months down, has been quite popular, but also mixed a moderator to play.

There was another one on that literary board called Mei’er, who was slightly literate, often posting little poems and words, and occasionally a couple of novels, and so popular that she seemed to be above me.

Talented people have always cherished each other, and we got along quite well. We ran into each other in a chat room one lunchtime, and we had a good chat, and I said you should change your name.

“What’s the best thing to change?” She asked.

“Flattery.” I’ve never met anyone, but I’ve never felt like that’s a better name for her from always.

“Okay, I’ll be called Flirty from now on.” She typed over quickly, not asking why.

Since then, her screen name has been changed to Flirty, and her popularity has grown, with more than a dozen people swooning over her online, I’m afraid.

I said should I be thanked for the evocative name.

Flirty said, “How do I thank you? Give you a photo or let you buy dinner?” I said, “You want me to thank you and I have to buy you dinner?” Charmaine said, “Do you know how many people want to buy me dinner? It’s a big favor.” I said, “Let’s wait until next time, I’m broke for the month and I’m living off of the fall.” Charming returned, “Alas, what a poor child, then I will make an exception and let you also play the fall wind.” Early had imagined her, but at that time I was passionately in love with Lin, the crooked idea in my heart just flashed, and politely refused: “This opportunity to save, when no one is willing to let me play the autumn wind, and then go to you.” “Bah, expired, this lady never waits for anyone!!!” Remember that she used three exclamation points, revealing some layer of old anger.

Three, only one relationship

I’ve been in a relationship with Lynn for five or six years, and although I was determined to marry her as my wife the moment I first met her, I could never say “I love you”.

For no other reason than lack of confidence.

Year by year Lynn grows up and the men that surround her become more and more exciting.

And I did not develop, work smoothly, sometimes published in newspapers and magazines, not poor, but not rich.

Lynn changes from year to year, every year is very different from last year, she likes to have a flavorful life, all the most popular and pioneering things will be very natural, very well suited to her, but I do not think she is vulgar, on the contrary, I feel more of a kind of femininity.

Lynn’s bones its very very traditional, remember she said, “Only fall in love once in this life.” I got nervous: “One relationship? First love is often the most blind, what if you run into an unsuitable one?” “So before falling in love I will carefully consider, once started, no matter good or bad, to start from the beginning to the end, unless …… it is he does not want me.” She said seriously.

I can’t imagine that there are still such girls in today’s city, and since then I’ve been in a state of panic, fearing that if I’m not careful, the love of my life will be taken by someone who is the first to go.

But I still can’t say those three words.

Four. First love gone

Day by day, the most worrying thing finally happened, Lynn went to night school, studying the hottest business management at that time, every time you go to school, there is a big shark driving the boy responsible for transportation.

“His name is Nan and he loves to tell jokes.” Lynn told me that he was mentioned from time to time in conversations after that, saying that his family was in real estate.

I was burning inside out, and for the first time one delirious night I foolishly stood in front of Lynn’s house and watched the boy drive her back.

The two stood in the doorway and talked for twenty-three and a half minutes, which was just a snap of the fingers when I was playing all night on the Internet in the mud, a moment that seemed to me as if I had been waiting for a long, long, long, long, long, long entire century.

Didn’t see them kiss, but in the darkness I was already sure that Lynn’s first love was gone.

V. Decadence

A man’s decadence has a tremendous power to kill some women.

For six months I spent nights and nights with alcohol, charmed a dozen girls and women, nothing but decadence, real and complete decadence.

Seeing less and less of Lynn, her personal maid Ru Ru failed to ask me out a few times, so she asked me to go out through Ka Sung.

I can’t say no to Jia Cheng, he is a buddy from childhood to play, we talk about everything, close, and even write each other colorful text to play look, with paper and pen, at that time do not know there is a Yuan Yuan online, there is no Wuji, not to mention the wind and the moon, the coastline and the lambs.

At that time, there was only a motorcycle, often I drove Ru Ru, Jia Cheng drove Lin, climbing mountains and island karaoke, it seems to be happy, but Lin and I became more and more polite, more and more strange.

Lynn grew to know how ridiculous I was, and at one point couldn’t help but say, “That’s weird, why do you keep messing with women who already have boyfriends?” Frowning, the look seemed a little disdainful.

I just drank with a green face, my heart dirty and aching, “I even fucked a married woman, none of your business!”

VI. Dating

There is a small talented girl in the system called Jing Jin, clear-eyed, because of the many suitors and opened a small column in the evening paper and high-minded and proud, usually do not pay much attention to me, but recently it is always hush-hush ambiguous: “so haggard, fell out of love?” I know that she has a fixed marriage of the section chief boyfriend, evil smile, said: “really is the embroidered heart eyes carry on, you want to give me to do psychological counseling it? Are you going to counsel me, or are you going to give up your life?” Jing Jin did not smoke or fire: “Neither is interested, twenty-nine nights of the reunion, you come or not?” I said, “No, there are too many leaders, so I have to nod my head and bow once.” Since stepping into this unit, I have not participated in the Spring Festival reunion every year.

Jing Jin said, “This year, there is a lottery, the first class is a trip for two to Thailand.” At that time, Thailand tour is still a very new thing, a few big heads had a circle in the name of economic investigation back, frothing at the mouth to talk about the sirens more beautiful and more colorful, the little pawns like us to salivate.

But I still can’t get excited, at least there are three women who can go to bed about that night: “Even the luck is never good, buy lottery even an unranked prize has never won, besides, one less to come, you will have one more chance to win the lottery, this is not good?” Jing Jin suddenly said, “I have a program, don’t you want to watch it? Don’t I usually hear you guys yelling about it all the time.” I stared at Jane, wondering what exactly she was up to, and smiled obscenely and said, “A lap dance? I’ll come if it’s me.” Jing Jin seemed to blush a little and actually said, “Naked, come or not as you wish!” Dropping this turned around and left.

My crotch is hot, this kind of usually demure woman waves really have a different flavor.

VII. Dancing girls

Sure enough, Jing Jin and a few of the girls dancing with her all looked dainty under the gorgeous lights.

They look like they are only wrapped in a big red cloth, bare one side of the snow shoulder a white arm, the other trailing a long sleeve, graceful waist, swaying, I can’t remember the name of the dance is “full of Xia Tian” or “colorful Xia Fei”.

For the dance, I can be said to know nothing about it, after watching half a day did not understand what they are actually showing, only to enjoy a fast and happy to see an eye-catching jade arm swaying dance, their masters are the system of ladies and flowers, usually difficult to show.

After this dance, there was nothing more to keep me interested, and I sat in the corner, bored, waiting for one last raffle.

A few dancing girls unloaded their costumes and carried big bags from the small door beside the stage, and a group of horny men in the system naturally followed them, the powder on their faces hadn’t been completely washed off, and their eyebrows and eyes were as picturesque as peach blossoms.

Jing Jin and a girl came this way, actually stood in front of me, beautiful eyes wandering around, said: “No chairs?” I was busy moving two chairs over, and Jing Jin pointed to the girl beside her, “Li Jia, from the xxx Finance Section.” But did not introduce me to her.

I nodded, Li Jia whispered, “Hello.” Although there are still remnants of makeup on her face to cover up, but I always feel that she is blushing, do not feel more look at two eyes, this girl is actually not timid, the corners of the mouth hung a smile, the eyes do not blink to look at me.

Jing Jin suddenly said in a Mandarin movie accent, “What’s the matter, love at first sight?” Although my skin is famously thick in the unit, I was also a little burned by this sudden crazy talk, and immediately retaliated with a random, “Little Jane, don’t be jealous, I’ll accompany you to have a midnight snack later.” Jing Jin responded without even thinking, “Well, go to Hai Jing and make a reservation.” I was caught off guard and realized for the first time that this girl turned out to be so powerful.

Lijia sat down sweetly and quietly watched the program.

VIII. Winning

The CALL machine shook, I went to the office to return the call, and it was Ling Ling urging to get over there.

I went back to the multi-purpose hall to look for Jing Jin and handed her the lottery ticket, “I’m leaving first, help me match the lottery later, if you win, we’ll all share the prize, don’t swallow it all then.” Jing Jin didn’t take it and said with a glare, “Didn’t we agree to have a midnight snack together?” I smiled cheekily, “Are you really going to Sea Crystal?” Jing Jin said exasperatedly, “I made a reservation, ask Li Jia!” Li Jia looked at me, noncommittal.

I was stunned, then I realized that what she just said was not a joke, so I had to say, “A friend made a date, some other day even treat to make amends.” Jing Jin’s face caged in frost: “No way! If you go, you’ll turn your face away, don’t go to my place to copy things in the future.” I sat down with a bitter smile, resentfully masturbating in my heart, “If you don’t go, don’t you think these two beauties can’t hold up against a little slut?” Looking askance at the two delicate faces like flowers and jade thinking about it.

The chaotic hall quieted down as the grand prize was shaken, and the number one head of the system was asked to come up to the stage for the drawing, where he fished out a folded rolled up root from the shaker box, unfolded it to look at it carefully, and read a few numbers out loud.

I only took one look at the two end codes of the pair of prize rolls and knew that I had no chance of winning, and smiled at Jing Jin, “Don’t tell me you won.” Jing Jin crooked her red-colored mouth and tore the prize paper in half.

The big head read off the winning numbers again, and the hall buzzed low as the crowd swam around to see who the lucky winner was.

I also looked around, heard a soft call next to me, turned my head to see Li Jia hanging his head and looking at the hands of the prize paper does not move, Jing Jin put his head over, immediately screamed with joy: “won won! You’ve won!” Snow-white long arms raised high, shaking and shouting toward the stage: “Over here, over here!” As if she was the one who won the lottery.

IX. Flirty in Reality

Not yet arrived at the sea crystal, my beautiful idea is broken, it turns out that the same go in addition to Jing Jin’s section chief fiancé, there are several pairs of lovebirds colleagues in the unit.

Drinking beer and eating good food while overlooking the sea view through the glass windows at Haijing is indeed a very enjoyable thing to do.

The caller in my waist kept on vibrating, I didn’t have a cell phone at that time, and I was too lazy to return the call, so I simply turned off the phone when I was tired of it.

Li Jia sat next to me, helped me scoop up a bowl of soup, and said sweetly, “The market is really good, it’s your girlfriend, right?” I thought about Lynn and couldn’t help but get frustrated, “No, she doesn’t call me anymore.” Li Jia squinted at me, “Did you two have a fight?” I shook my head, “No.” It would be a luxury if Lynn would fight with me.

Li Jia bit the tip of the chopsticks and suddenly asked, “How much do you love each other?” I was filled with bitterness, and it took me a while to answer, “There is no love, only I love her, she does not love me, we did not start.” Lijia froze for a moment and laughed, “Unrequited love? You would be like that?” I looked at her laugh and said without a smile, “Can’t I? Why wouldn’t I be like that?” Li Jia smiled prettily, revealing her white teeth, “Because you’re usually always spirited, as if you always have a ton of girls throwing themselves at you.” I wondered, “I’m always in a good mood? How do you know?” Her face flushed slightly, and the curved corners of her mouth felt sweet, “In that article ‘Sighs of This Life’, there’s a heartless Lynn, it’s written about her, isn’t it?” I suddenly realized, “You’re Flattery!” Li Jia looked at me with a smile and said, “Feel like it?” Technically, she didn’t belong to the flirty type, but rather the clean and sweet one, but I knew I wouldn’t be wrong because the online flirty had once plowed through me discussing the Lynn in that article.

“I can’t believe you’re this sentimental.” Charming looked at me with a smirk.

I found it very harsh and returned her not-so-light words, “I’m not, don’t listen to a few sentences and take them out of context.” Flirty called, “Oops, wrong word, should be called a one-timer.” Still a playful and lighthearted look.

I finally old shame into anger: “also do not call people, called the saint of love, you are really lucky, only one in a thousand hundred called you to touch, do you want me to also love you a deep time?” Charming lowered her head to drink soup, the corner of the eye of the black beads slipped me, said with a smile: “There is not bad ah, sent to the door still do not want it? However, whether or not to appreciate it is my business.” I looked at her in a daze, and in my heart I weighed the level of this sweet girl’s goblin.

She wiped her mouth with a napkin, looked up at me and said, “Tell you what, I never win the lottery either, and as soon as I met you tonight, I somehow hit the jackpot, I think ……” She paused for a moment, a faint blush floating on her face and continued: “My luck in this life is coming.” I suddenly felt something came to visit, this six months is not strange, a few bring me this feeling of the girl or woman results in bad luck.

X. Peach Blossom Luck

At noon the next day, Jing Jin came to the phone with a lazy voice.

I interrogated her as I masturbated to the scented shoulders of that comforter, “You’ve come to my door, what happened last night? Quickly confess to avoid beating!” Jing Jin said: “Your kid’s peach blossom luck, the little girl do not know where the devil, spring heart, a while ago when rehearsal dance, know that I’m with you a section of the whole day pestered to ask questions, and later also made a fuss to me to introduce you know.” I’m a little bit proud: “Make fun of you to say kiss?” Jing Jin scolded, “Say your head! I said what’s so good about you, but she’s just obsessed. Anyway, I’ve introduced you to her, so behave yourself, and if you dare to do anything wrong, I’ll cut you off!” “Cut you” was popular at the time of the vicious words, girls gnashing their teeth to say this sentence always call the man’s heart a sudden, I told her serious up: “Hey, blame me blame me, natural charm is difficult to self-abandonment carry on, but! I can’t afford to mess with it, but I can’t hide from it. I won’t see her in the future.” “What’s so beautiful! She’s not only pretty, but she’s also a good-looking girl now. People are not only beautiful, and now has a deputy section level, the future looks bright, the old man is the city retired official, your kid a few lifetimes of accumulation of virtues before letting people take a look! This trip does not grasp you counted in vain.” Since Lin’s first love disappeared, I already know that this life is in vain.

XI. Drunk

It went quickly with Flattery, without much deliberate effort, and she kissed her on the second date.

But this girl is not as eager as Jing Jin described, if I don’t look for her, she doesn’t look for me, and often doesn’t contact me for ten days and half a month.

Jing Jin is enthusiastic, and her section chief boyfriend asked us to go out for tea a few times, every chance to pour soup in my ear, such as look at the conditions of other people how good and good, you kid where to match up and so on.

My self-esteem, I can not help but fight back, taunting her: “Don’t be so boneless, just invited you to Thailand to play once, and came back to always help talk, as if you and other people once upon a time is not much good.” As a result, she scolded me and refused to let me go to her place to make copies of documents, for which I had to pay the price of running up the stairs nearly ten times a day.

Seeing Lynn became less and less frequent, and I was royally drunk more and more often.

I forget what wine bar I was at, Flirty suddenly CALLED me one night, called and heard her ask quietly, “Where?” I said my name and asked if she was coming.

Flattery says nothing is wrong, just talk on the phone and forget about it.

I said yes, and after talking for I don’t know how long, with my heart pounding, I told her, “Wait, come back after you throw up.” As I was being carried out of the restroom, I was confused and saw Flattery.

A couple buddies helped her get me into a cab and told the driver my address.

The address is a unit of the second-hand houses, located in the old downtown area of the city lights, downstairs, large and small hair salons all over the place, was called by his buddies “Chicken Island”, dedicated to ghosts and ghosts after the rest of the feet with parents usually do not live in this side of the day, God only knows how to Flattery that night, I got drunk on the sixth floor of the mud.

I lay dizzily on the sofa, and heard her whisper in my ear, “I have no strength, can you get yourself into bed?” I only moved, from time to time wanting to vomit, it was a strange state, my mind both seemingly confused and awake, knowing that she was applying a hot towel to my forehead, knowing that she was feeding me boiled water, knowing that she was mopping the floor, knowing that she was in the bathroom taking a shower ……’

Twelve. Do you love me?

The first thing I saw when I woke up was the wall clock, the hour hand pointing to five in the morning. Then I saw the quilt on my body, and then I saw Charming curled up at the other end of the sofa, a blanket draped over her body, revealing underneath a slim, delicate line of a beautiful foot, whose color was as white as jade, you could see the faint green veins on the upper side of the toenails painted with even rose color, the bottom of the toes to the palm of the foot is tender red, as if reminding people that this is not a piece of artifacts.

It took no effort to recall the sight clearly, and I remember being stunned for a long, long time, until I heard Flattery say, “How are you?” Only then did I realize she was awake too.

I pulled her over to me, put the covers around her, and kissed her.

Flattery shook her head and said it smelled.

My arm felt her resistance wasn’t resolute, so I didn’t pause.

Sure enough she struggled only slightly and then went limp into a ball.

We kissed, parted, and kissed again, back and forth, feeling each other’s slipperiness, teasing and ardor, as I thought about the foot I’d just seen and began to caress her body.

Charming gasped and pressed her hand feebly against mine, wondering if she was hesitating to say no.

As my face felt her hot snort, my palms plunged downward, through the heavy obstruction, and my fingertips traced the soft hairs to touch a bit of slippery tenderness.

Charming let out a “wink” and put both hands on my hand.

The middle finger can still move slightly, the fingertips greedily feel that little bit of strange and delicate, I know that women can only surrender at this point, I thought she was just dying.

Charming suddenly asked, “Do you love me?”

XIII. Pain

“Do you love me?” Not only Flirty had asked, but at the time I always thought it was a trap, and whenever a woman or girl asked that, I was on guard and my spirits were high.

“Do you love me?” Charming asked again softly, her eyes full of soft flirtation.

My arousal was half extinguished, and Lynn’s face damn near floated before my eyes.

Flattery’s limp body began to stiffen, gazing at me without looking away.

I grew lax and Flattery’s hands released as I pulled my hands out of her panties.

“You still love her don’t you?” Flattery asked after a long silence.

When I was a kid, a little scolding from my parents could make me bawl, but since middle school, the function of tears seems to have disappeared. I remember that once I was left alone, surrounded and beaten up on the road by a gang of long-time hostile bad boys, and I lost almost half of my life, but I didn’t shed even half a tear.

But this moment made me cry again.

It was like going back to my tender childhood, my face buried in my knees in painful mourning, silent and uncontrollable.

Charming hugged me from behind and was silent.

I told her about Lynn, about the stories that had been told, from the day we met, from the early hours of the morning until dawn.

Fourteen. Half heaven, half hell.

After that night, I didn’t meet with Flattery for half a year. In the online chat room, each other only light greeting greetings, and can not be like the old days as the sea and sky to talk freely.

On my birthday, I was fidgety and put off appointments with Ya, Ling Ling, Xianer, Yuan Yuan and whoever else.

After meeting Lynn, we showed up for each other’s birthdays every year.

But time has changed, will Lynn remain the same this year?

The phone rings again, this time it’s RuRu, asking if she’s free to come over, saying that she and Lynn are at the water’s edge, I think.

I saw Lynn again, and she and Ru-Ru brought a cupcake, a beautifully wrapped gift box.

They clapped their hands and sang my birthday song for me, and I think I must have been jealous of all the men in the wine bar at the time.

Blowing out the candles, I unwrapped the gift box, which turned out to be a light blue shirt with a small card attached in Lynn’s handwriting: Happy Birthday, Dear Little Tian Tian.

“Hey, always like blue, it’s so solid, no choice but to pick a lighter color for you.” Lynn said with a smile as she looked at the bright blue shirt I was wearing.

For the first half of that afternoon, I was happy as hell.

It was like we were back in the old days, with me softly whispering, Lynn smiling, and Ru-Ru running to the bar to play dice with someone, much to my surprise and delight.

Lynn used her fingertips to point at her own face, looked at me and said, “Take care of your rest, yo, you’re still staying up late all the time, aren’t you? So thin.” At that moment I was so impulsive that I almost reached out my hand to hold her catkin, and in my heart I vaguely felt that the boy called Nan was finished.

But good things are always perishable.

At 4:30, Lynn said she had to leave first: “Ru Ru will accompany you.” I was surprised: “Why so early?” Lynn said, “I have to work the afternoon shift, from 5:00 to 10:00 p.m., miserable.” I asked her where she worked now.

She said the name of a real estate company.

I was a bit familiar with my ears, and after thinking carefully, I fiercely remembered that I had heard Lynn say before that the kid named Nan’s family was in real estate.

In an instant, I fell from heaven to hell.

XV. Old Shame

After Lynn left, there were a thousand questions in my mind that I wanted to ask RuRu, but I couldn’t ask them, I didn’t want to ask them. Even the job is in that kid’s family, what else can I comfort myself with.

RuRu stares at me, watching me drink, and says, “I’m leaving if you keep this up.” I waved my hand, “Bye.” Ru Ru sighed and said something meaningful, “I can’t imagine you’re so unproductive! I used to think that you were very brilliant, very focused, and very persistent, but I was wrong about everything.” Unfortunately, at that time only as a humiliating words, I form like a fire spewing words: “Who do you think you are psychiatrist saint or mother of God I not only have no talent I am also shameless and lecherous slept with a hundred women you actually but qiong yao see too much self-pity self-pity self-pity self-pity and self-love childish and ignorant you have talent you have talent you won’t be with another heartless greed for riches forgetful woman You would not be following another heartless, greedy, ungrateful and ungrateful woman like a personal maid!” Ru Ru’s face flushed red, one hand grabbed the cup on the table, next to the cup there was leftover cake.

I stared at her fiercely, “Try pouring it on me.” I had seen her slamming a kid with yogurt in the face, and I had to be vocal just in case.

RuRu grabbed her satchel and walked out without looking back.

Sixteen. Goodbye.

Borrowing from the cheesy trope of the traditional love story, it was pouring rain, and I was sitting in a cab, blankly unable to see farther, blankly unsure of where I was going.

When we got to the intersection, the driver asked for directions again.

I had a feeling of watering, and as I held it in I suddenly remembered Flattery and how she had hugged me from behind that early morning.

Running from the car into the small mall below her, he pulled up the phone.

Is her father’s voice, asked me which one, perhaps the official did a long time, although the tone of voice is calm, but gives a person a sense of majesty.

I said my name was Yoneda, and even though it was Sunday, I was really worried at that moment that Flattery wasn’t home.

Charmaine gave a shaky “hello” on the other side of the phone, followed by a slight gasp.

I said, “Come down and wait a minute.” After only half a minute, I saw Flirty, shuffling down the stairs in a pair of clear plastic red slippers, a patch scraped on her knee, the bright blood shocking against her snow-white skin.

I looked at her having knees and asked, “What’s going on?” Charming face has a faint blush, “Nothing, accidentally touched it.” For a moment we were all out of words, she looked at me, her beautiful eyes contained the color of inquiry.

I said, “It’s my birthday today, will you walk with me?” Flattery was a bit surprised, “Your birthday?” Then she nodded and said, “I’ll go get an umbrella and change my clothes on the way.” Only then did I notice that she was wearing a nightgown, with large red polka dots on a white background, a very doll-like style.

Charming ran upstairs and soon re-came down, changing her body into a lavender floral dress, with an extra umbrella in her hand, her feet still shuffling in those red slippers, smiling faintly at me, “Let’s go.” We played the umbrella, slowly walking along the street, not much to say, the rain sometimes heavy and sometimes small.

Passing a drugstore, I went in and bought cotton swabs, gauze, and salve, and made a simple bandage for her knee on the porch.

Flattery looked at me quietly, reaching out to gently stroke my hair.

We continued to walk aimlessly forward, unknowingly out of a long distance, Flattery slowly close to me, holding my arm to snuggle in the side of my arms.

But I damn rambling, if this moment snuggled in the side is Lynn, that will be a kind of what kind of happiness …… violently, I chagrin shocked: why do I still think of her so much, why do I still want to think of her so much.

It’s always easier to forget what you hate, and I started trying to make Self hate Lynn.

Flattery suddenly pointed across the road to the park and said, “Want to go in? The road is full of cars, so if you’re not careful, you’ll give dirty water a splash.” I nodded, unable to recall the last time I’d been in the park.

XVII. Dancing in the Rain

The rain was getting heavier and heavier, there was a smoky curtain of rain all around us, and it was as if we were the only two left in the huge park.

Flattery kicked the water on the ground and smiled, “I can’t imagine that rainy days have this benefit, it’s like we have the whole park to ourselves.” We stood by the lake, looking at the famous bridge in the smoky rain and the countless ripples splashed by the dense rain on the lake surface.

Charming sighed and said, “It’s so beautiful, if it wasn’t raining today, if you hadn’t come to me today, you wouldn’t have been able to see such a beautiful view.” I always erase the Lin in my mind, violently shook his head, disheveled muffled grunts said, “so hard, so hard, flattery you can let me live fast?” Charming stunned look at me, eyes full of undecomposable complexity, first thick and then light, finally replaced by a watery tenderness, softly said, “Let’s dance, every time I’m unhappy I will dance, jumping will make me feel better.” I shook my head and said, “I won’t.” “I’ll teach you, it’s easy.” Charming said as she squatted down to take off both of our shoes, neatly placed under a tree, without saying a word she put one of my arms around her waist, hand in hand with a dance, first from the most basic slow four steps to start with, the steps are both slow and small, I’m not a big fan of the game but I’m not so big that I’m stepping on her feet yet, slowly I relaxed.

We held our umbrellas and danced around the lake in the smoky rain. The depressed me finally grew comfortable, and the cool wind blew into the umbrellas, refreshing the air.

For the first time, I found that the original not put on makeup flattery is so beautiful and pleasant, looking at her two petals tender as gelatinous lips, the heart gave birth to an impulse to kiss.

Charming nose gently and softly humming the tune, beautiful eyes seem to close and open, out of the blue, I later realized that this is a dance will be intoxicated girl.

Unintentionally looking down, I saw her pair of glistening white jade-like feet, which were dancing seductively on the turquoise grass, cutting up waves of clear rainwater.

It was a beautiful scene that I will never forget.

Flirty’s floral dress and my bright blue shirt had long since gotten wet from the rain and were cold against my skin, but each felt the tantalizing fire of the other’s body, and at the bottom of the umbrella, we kissed again.

Eighteen. Because I love you.

For dinner, we asked for red wine.

Charming only had one drink with me, and her face was as beautiful as the evening sun, her eyes watery and obviously not a big drinker.

“Why the sudden visit?” She swiped a glance at me as she shook the wine in her glass.

I half lied, “Because, suddenly I missed you.” Flirty said, “You guys broke up?” I asked, “Who?” “Lynn.” “What’s a breakup if it didn’t start?” I drained my glass, desperately hating Lynn inside.

“But you still care about her don’t you?” I was filled with annoyance, “Why do you keep bringing her up?” Flattery stared at me, “Because it’s important to me.” I gruffed up, “It’s none of your business, thank you for caring, are you done eating yet, I’ll take you back!” Charming hung her head, revealing a sliver of her snow-smooth white neck.

I softly said, “I’m sorry.” Charming looked up with tears in her eyes, “It’s got something to do with me, it’s got something to do with me for the rest of my life, because I love you, I love you deeply, and I’ve been thinking about you every second of every day for the past six months.”

XIX. Burning

Charmaine came back to Chicken Island with me and insisted on buying a cake to celebrate my birthday.

We listened to music and ate cake on the couch, lingering and kissing from time to time, with a certain understanding that we would not speak of Lynn all night long, as if we were afraid that we might be suddenly awakened from a beautiful dream.

Growing to the point of love, I stroked her hot body and said, “Call home.” Flirt shook her head and said in an inaudible voice, “Calling home would be forbidden.” I asked, “Not afraid of your father’s scolding?” I couldn’t help but ask thinking about her father’s voice.

Charming said, “Go back tomorrow and say that you will sleep at your colleague’s house, in fact, mom and dad don’t care much about me, grandma is the one who scolds me a lot, in the future you have to be filial to her.” She shyly glanced at me, her eyes hazy.

Not daring to think about the meaning of her words, at that moment just begging for something special and intense to fill my empty heart, I burned this tantalizing girl with my lips and hands.

Flattery warbled and bit my ear and gasped, “You go take a shower.” I didn’t care about her, still wantonly going up and down, “I want it now.” Flattery whimpered, her body so soft that it seemed as if her bones had been drained.

I slipped my hand underneath the dress and touched her through the inner quilt, and what I touched was already a slippery mass, unlike any other woman’s, very thick to the touch.

As my fingers dug through the edge of my panties, Flirt suddenly became excited, circling my neck with her arms and kissing me passionately, frequently swimming her slippery tongue into my mouth and letting me suck on it to my heart’s content.

Burning her, and inflaming my own lust, I lifted her sheath and removed a cute little pink panty from under her dress, then freed my hands to unzip my pants as I continued to kiss her.

Flirt realized what was about to happen and said to me in a daze, “Not here, not too …… hasty …… not …… to go inside. ” She pointed down to the bedroom.

But I was already so burned out with lust that I actually didn’t hear her, and without any further ado, I lifted the hem of her skirt up high, pushed her legs apart with both hands, and with only a hasty squint at that tantalizing spot, I pressed my furious stem, which was as erect as a pestle, against the delicacy.

Charming gave me a sultry look, and her pretty eyes slowly closed.

The head of my rod felt that it was already sufficiently moist, who knew that only a little forceful thrust, I heard her cry out, a very scary sound.

I paused stiffly and asked her what was wrong.

Charming actually had teardrops seeping out of the corners of her eyes, and said one word in a small whisper, “It hurts.” My scalp suddenly went a little numb: “Is this your first time?” Charming pouted, “Of course, why do you ask!” Her pretty face swelled scarlet, a look of urgency, shame and injustice.

I froze in front of the couch in a half-crouch, half-kneeling position.

Twenty. If you ask, masturbate.

Maybe it’s because of all the ridiculousness in the past six months, I don’t have half a concept of virginity in my head anymore.

Xian’er is just a college sophomore in school, looks as pure as water, when I held the greatest hope for her, but the results also disappointed me the most, do love, her proficiency is not inferior to the wind and dust years of Aya, from which I indifferent to the word that makes men’s hearts flutter.

Charming winks like silk murmur, “I do not know today your birthday, did not prepare a gift, only this for you, open or not happy?” My hesitation was easily crushed by her flattery, and I suddenly picked her up from the sofa and walked into the bedroom.

Charming hooked her arms around my neck, kissing my chest and arm muscles along the way, her body as soft as a crisp.

I laid Flattery gently on the bed, stripped her in three strokes, turned on the bedside lamp, and buried my face in the center of her legs.

Charming shy to use the quilt to cover her own head, smothered inside the voice trembled very badly: “Do not turn on the light, do not look.” I smelled a faint flavor, like musk not fragrant, say fishy not stinky, there is no vocabulary that can be described, fiercely feel dry mouth, a hundred veins, the heart gives birth to a strong desire to see a full before picking.

The color of everything there is very light, delicate as if blown, can’t use my hands, only with my tongue to explore the secret, every time before I can see clearly, the shy petals have already reclosed, licked and sucked away the nectar that interferes with the line of sight, and soon there is a thin layer of dew re-covered, my eyes have already come very close, but I never see that most precious thing of Charming, I remembered that only a kind of tender and inexpressible pink, a color never seen in reality again. Pink, a color never seen again in reality.

Charming reached up and grabbed my hair, her nose a silky whisper, her soft, smooth, snowy legs pressed against my face from both sides.

The nectar in the petals suddenly increased, and I was already as hard as iron, so I couldn’t hold it any longer, and climbed up and pressed myself against the tender, wet mass again.

Fluttershy tensed almost spasmodically, her nails clawing at my arm with a sharp, spicy pain, and suddenly whispered quietly, “Get something for the pad.” I didn’t react for a moment.

Flattery ripped the blue shirt off me and blushed as she tucked it under her snowy stock.

I realized that she wanted to leave a little memento for this night, and in my heart, I dared not to be reckless in the slightest, and against the budding flower, I carefully tested the strength that should be used.

Previously, I had never had the experience of picking first buds.

Charming wailed and eeped and hummed softly, screaming her heart out, and I suddenly wondered what I should answer this time if she asked again if she loved her.

Damn Lynn suddenly ghosted to the surface again, causing me to almost go soft.

The front end touched something, seemingly tough and tender, hooped the head of the rod burst of crispness, in this burning desire to kill, Lynn’s shadow but always lingering, I disheveled to myself, “If you ask, then masturbate.” But this time, Flattery didn’t ask.

XXI. A flirty first night

Flirt grunted low and softly, “It’s so hard.” I ask if it hurts, she shakes her head and I ask again, “Do you want to continue?” I regretted asking afterward.

Luckily, Charming nodded, so I fired again, both fiercely and violently, and the moment I broke through, somehow an inexplicable fear suddenly arose in my heart.

Charming “calling”, the upper half of the body arched up, originally grasping my arms hands suddenly changed to grasp my shoulders, mouth trembling cries, a sound more than the sound of the heart: “Well …… hmm … … pain …… pain …… good pain!” My two shoulders hot sharp pain, the bottom of the sudden into a narrow incomparable place, in addition to a trace of slippery, 99 percent of the feeling is tight, very very tight, tight almost want to shoot out, tempted me to continue to continue to push deep, can not stop.

Charming small mouth opened wide, tightly closed beautiful eyes like a nightmare.

Until I couldn’t go any further, I held her with compassion and asked, “How did it go?” “Did it go in?” She actually asked.

I froze and nodded, unable to resist a quiet swipe down, something that big as a root, couldn’t I feel it?

Charming said in a daze, “I don’t know what’s wrong, my lips are numb.” A look of fragrant souls wanting to be melted, the white and greasy puffy breasts were sweaty.

Thinking that she is also numb underneath 80-90%, I can’t hold her without softly coaxing in a low voice: “Don’t be nervous, you relax, relax and it’ll be fine.” Charming hooked my neck, want me to kiss her.

I kissed her and began to slowly shove, actually pulled her entire lower body, although very laborious, but the heart is incomparable soul, six months, the first time I have such a fresh feeling.

I don’t know what Charming felt, but the inside of my mouth kept touching her slippery tongue that swam over to me, passionately entwining with me.

I was thrusting with difficulty and soon felt like I was going to cum, probably less than a hundred strokes, a far cry from my longest lasting, but I wasn’t ashamed in the least, Flattery’s entanglements were just too tight.

Charming nose issued a silky charming sound, two tender breasts along with the body up and down charming rocking, pretty face colorful like painted fat, perhaps infected by my more and more intense movements, she suddenly bit my ear and said: “From today onwards, Jiajia is Tian Tian’s.” I was so excited that I could not help but see that pair of tantalizing feet out of the corner of my eye, I couldn’t help but catch them and hang them on my shoulders, feeling them shaking and trembling on the side of my face, my ejaculation was getting clearer and clearer, and I hesitated to pull them out of her body.

Charming inside suddenly muddy up, pumping suddenly smooth a little bit, ejaculation is imminent, I know that can not be greedy down, get it wrong, is to put a lifetime of self shackles.

But in the split second of pulling out, I felt being tightly clamped by Charming, and my will to escape suddenly collapsed, I cupped her crispy stock hard with both my hands, and instead, I pushed in as far as I could, injecting deeply into that narrow, tight, slippery, hot space.

Jet a few breaths, charming and shy face, snowy tender skin, pointy beautiful breasts, and that pair of soul-stealing pink feet, instant as lightning like in the mind one by one swept through, zoomed in, so that my soul erosion and pain.

XXII. Fear

Charming took my blue shirt and rummaged through it, at the third button to find a smear of blood, she seemed a little lost, her face hot against my chest, “Just like this was taken by you, so unwilling it.” Voice seems to contain a hint of resentment.

I lazily said, “You regret?” She suppressed her head and looked at me tenderly and said, “It’s useless to regret, will you cherish it?” I was silenced, and suddenly understood why I was afraid at the moment of the breakthrough.

I woke up near dawn and saw Flattery playing with her self hand, I asked her if it still hurt.

Flirty replies, “Ouch.” Shy and flirty look at me.

I’m gonna turn on the light and help her look at the wound.

Flattery just deadpanned and hugged me and said it didn’t hurt.

I asked in her ear again, “Was that comfortable?” Charmaine smiled and said, “I didn’t feel anything.” Seeing me staring at her, she even added, “Really.” A look of contempt and frivolity.

My ego took a big hit, so I kissed her and touched her breasts and buttocks, “Then I’ll make up for it, and this time I’ll make you fly to the sky.” Charmaine shook her head no and I caught her at the end of the bed.

Each Monday was particularly busy with work, but we each called back to the office and took the day off.

XXIII. Designation

After the night of the pinup, Flirty called me husband and wanted me to call her wife.

I refused, vague answer: “are working in the organization, other people heard the impact of how bad, I’m still fine, you a yellow girl will suffer.” “The yellow flower girl is long gone!” Charming willow eyebrows raised glaring at me, finally gave in: “Then no one when you call.” “It’s not good either, calling smoothly, what if I miss my mouth in front of others?” I had a roguish look on my face.

Flattery kicked me hard in the calf and ignored me for days on end.

I still drank, and I still had a good time every night, and I still fooled around with Ling Ling, Aya, and Xian Er.

I get off work at 11:30 a.m. and don’t go to work until 3:00 p.m. The lunch break is quite long, and I usually don’t go home, and after lunch at the office I either play cards or go online to play with mud.

The door suddenly pushed open, and Jing Jin poked her head in and gave a rude “hello”, “Go to my side.” I was busy helping a MM with her equipment, so I didn’t even look back as I juggled with her, “What are you doing? You miss your brother?” Jing Jin said, “yas, but it’s not me, it’s Jia Jia.” I saw Charming in Jing Jin’s office, she was wearing a white seven-minute sleeve blouse, a water blue knee-length skirt, revealing a section of the soft lines of the leg belly, and then underneath is a pair of black high-heeled sandals, lined with a pair of feet white shaking incomparably titillating, at the time, this outfit in the stagnant water of a pool of the system can be regarded as the most provocative.

She plays with the computer and only talks to Jing Jin, leaving me on the sidelines as if I’m transparent.

“Why didn’t you talk to me again when you found me?” I sat down beside her, my nose catching a faint scent that smelled like both perfume and body skin, and my heart swam.

“Who’s looking for you? I’m here to see Jane Jane.” Charming was sitting down to look through the internal pages.

I asked towards Jing Jin, “Wasn’t she the one who told you to look for me?” Jing Jin’s face was expressionless, “She told me not to look for you.”

Twenty-four. You call me wife.

I played tricks with Flattery, and Jing Jin didn’t have the good sense to hold back for a while, politely bombarding us with, “Hasn’t Jia Jia never been to your office? Take her for a tour.” I remembered that there were unseemly things in the drawer and said, “What’s there to visit? The air conditioning over there is not good, it always stays cool, so it’s nice to hold it here.” Charming also said, “I’m not going.” Jing Jin is really reluctant to continue to be a light gun: “Then make yourself at home, I’m sleepy, lie down for a while to go, you guys call me at 2:30.” I know that she often sleeps in the unit at noon, and the inner room is equipped with a very comfortable bunk.

Charmaine was busy pulling her, “It’s so easy to come over, so you’re not going to accompany me? Don’t go!” I snatched Flattery’s hand back, “Why are you so unreasonable, you won’t let me sleep when I’m sleepy?

Isn’t it good to have me with you?” He waved his hand at Jing Jin and said, “You go, you go, I’m here, I’ll call you at 2:30 sharp.” Jing Jin instructed, “Keep your voice down, I’m sick of people making noise when I’m sleeping.” He walked into the inner room and closed the door behind him.

Flattery still refused to ignore me, her eyes staring straight at the screen.

I looked from her hair to the bottom, “Never seen you in a blue dress.” The color blue always makes me feel relaxed, comfortable & happy.

“Hmph, we only met a few times?” “Always want not quantity but quality ……,” I said meaningfully and freshly shamelessly, “We have not seen much, but always in the leap in sublimation.” Charming face floated a faint blush: “Sublimation ends here, there will be no more!” Her flirtatious teasing heart, I could not help but put my hand quietly on her leg: “Wearing this at work, not afraid of being eaten by someone Ice Cream ah.” “Dirtbag.” She grunted, and actually didn’t slap my hand away.

I touched her, “It shrunk this high as soon as I sat down.” Charming suddenly turns around and raises her voice, “What do you care, I like it.” A pair of beautiful eyes opened round to look at me.

I glared at her solemnly.

After a half-long time, flattery finally could not help but smile sweetly: “Nervous about what, my section is basically all female, only an old man, children are in high school.” I exclaimed exaggeratedly: “Aiya aiya, this kind of old man tends to be the most dangerous it, think about it, the yellow face of the family has long been as flat as a water well, like you this kind of small hot chick is exactly the target of their drooling, be careful of the day to give you a play of the office of the wolf and so on.” “Nasty! You’re the office wolf or something.” Goosebumps rose on her legs from my touch, and she remembered to smack my hand, “Don’t touch me.” I hugged her instead, “How long has it been since you’ve kissed? Forget what it’s like, right?” Bringing my mouth towards her face.

Charming’s cicatrizes swung from side to side, very uncooperative, “I haven’t forgotten, it stinks!” I forcefully immobilized her head, finally locking her sandalwood mouth and covering it with a burst of hard kisses.

Charming went from struggling to relieved, from relieved to enthusiastic, as her pink arms wrapped around my stomach.

I sucked on the slippery tongue she sent her way, my palms caressing over the soft, piquant peaks of my tumescence.

When I let go Flattery was already flushed and panting, “Have you missed me in the last few days?” Of course I said yes.

“Then why didn’t you come to me?” “I thought you wouldn’t ignore me?” She got angry again, “You won’t look for me if I ignore you? Never look for me again?” “No way, I’ll look for you when you’re a little less angry.” I coaxed and went back down to touch her legs.

Flirt stared at me and said, “Don’t lie to me, I know you won’t, I know what kind of person you are.” I grinned and said, “Try next time then.” Running my hand upward, I probed into her aqua blue dress.

“When are you going to my house?” She asked suddenly.

I panicked, “To your house? Yeah, I was planning to bribe your grandma.” Charmaine’s face loosened up, and she said in a low voice, “You can come this Sunday, my parents are going to sh to see my great aunt next week, and it may take more than a month before they come back.” I suddenly understood how she was willing to put down her face to find me, and vaguely responded, “Well, I hope I don’t have to work overtime by then, what does your grandma like?” Charming gave a low moan and wooed, “No more fooling around, let’s discuss something serious.” Instead, my hand went even wilder, “You tell me you tell me.” Through the panties to touch a soft mass of richness above… charming pouting white me, efforts to say, “My grandmother favorite know how to be polite young people, but the ear is a little back, then you must scream louder.” I nodded my head, and heard her continue, “Grandma usually quite likes to eat the Vegetarian Cake from Jing Xin Ju, why don’t you buy a box and bring it with you, do you know where Jing Xin Ju is?” I absentmindedly agreed, “Don’t worry, I’ll bring two boxes then.” I looked down to see my hand stirring in her watery blue skirt, and my heart fluttered.

Flirt looked at her own dress and then at me and gasped, “Why do you always like the color blue?” I replied, “I don’t know, it just looks comfortable.” Thinking of Lynn once described – frivolous, the heart can not help but a burst of anger: “More than frivolous, I’m also raunchy and slutty!” Charming plopped over and said quietly with light waves flowing, “You know what? People are wearing it specially for you today.” I felt a hot current running from somewhere straight to the bottom of my belly, and my rod rapidly swelled.

Flattery said, “What time can you leave? Go over and pick me up and go to the movies tonight.” I said, “No, go to my house.” Flattery swooned and whispered, “As you wish.” The petite body abruptly trembled lightly.

I felt a sliver of something slippery come up and couldn’t resist slamming two fingers into her panties.

Charming nose sound like silk, hands feebly catch my hand through the skirt, whispered, “Don’t, have said to go to your house at night.” I put her in my arms, my mouth in the center of her ear: “Can’t stand it, let me hurt a little first.” Charming stunned, shook her head sharply, not even letting her hand touch it, fought to break free from my arm, bent over to straighten and flatten her skirt, straightened up and scraped her face with her fingers, showing me a look of mischievous smugness.

I was a burst of extreme sadness, looking at charming hair and shirt when the provocative appearance, but also the fire of desire, fierce a hand and pulled her over, fiery embrace, whispered: “This time will not be anyone to come, accompany me.” Charming arms tightly clasped in front of the chest, tense face glaring at me: “Are you stupid? I’m not as crazy as you are.” I kissed her ears and face and neck in a series of kisses, pushing and coaxing both softly and hard, Charmaine’s nostrils were burning, but she was still adamant that she wouldn’t do it.

I suddenly unbuttoned my pants, pulled out my angry pestle covered with bulging veins from my crotch, and brought it in front of her, whispering softly, “Good Charming, just once!” Charming looked at my baby with a haze on her face, and her body gradually went limp.

Thinking she’d agreed, I went ahead and clicked the lock on the inside of the door, walked over to Jing Jin’s desk, swept away the clutter of pens, paper, and folders from the glass surface with one hand, and picked up Flirt and pressed it down onto it.

I was about to lift up that tantalizingly unattractive aqua blue skirt, but Flattery pressed it tightly again and suddenly said, “You called me.” I was dumbfounded: “What?” “You call me wife.” Charming stared at me, resolute expression at the moment on her face is actually a different kind of charming.

XXV. The Price of Pinning

My head was huge and I groaned in pain.

“It’s okay if you don’t scream, let me up.” Flattery had no room to turn around.

I squinted at her snow-smooth legs exposed from the bottom of the aqua blue skirt, the tender shoots of feet wearing black high-heeled sandals, finally surrendered: “Wife.” Charming’s body shook, her steely gaze gradually lost, her hands let go of her skirt, interlocked on the back of my neck, said in a soul-stirring voice, “I love you, husband.” I lifted Flattery’s aqua blue skirt, removed the lace panties inside, and pressed my furiously erect member against her wet, mushy petals, pushing forward.

Charming raised her white, creamy, snowy neck, a thin white gold necklace fell out of her collar and hung glittering on her chin, and she covered her self-satisfied mouth with her hand as I stepped forward.

I pushed hard and warily as deep as I could, pushing her pink stock over the edge of the table and into the center of it, Flattery still extremely tight.

The taste was like traveling through a thin fish intestine, slippery and narrow, reminding me of the naming of the so-called famous organs on a woman’s body in ancient books, and I couldn’t help but admire the ancient analogies.

The office was silent, the only sounds left were the humming air conditioner and Flattery’s low grunts that she was desperately trying to hold back.

XXVI. Ridiculousness at the desk

After a diligent opening plea, Flattery made me feel smooth for the first time, the bottom of the pretty flower flooding with slippery, creamy fen semen that greatly lessened the effects of the narrow tightness.

Jing Jin in the inner room to sleep, outside is the passage, this eighty generation of the construction of the old building decoration simple and rough, each room sound insulation effect is poor amazing, usually as long as in the inside gently cough a cough, outside the people passing by will be able to clearly hear, in this kind of environment to steal the sex, there is a kind of thrilling stimulation, I want to be like a fire blazing, the charming two legs high up on the shoulders, one after another fierce and fierce! I was worried that she might not be able to hold back the sound, but also longed to make her scream.

Charming is also very emotional, pretty face red as if to spit fire, delicate body spasmodic like can not stop writhing, mouth dead biting the stomach of the hand, perhaps because of the nervousness of the heart, underneath appears more narrow tight.

I gasped and unbuttoned Flattery’s shirt, pushing her bra up to her neck, and two obviously erect nipples popped out, taking on a soft reddish color that Aya and Ling Ling didn’t have in them.

Maybe Charming often dance reason, two jade breasts shape is extremely beautiful, not only has a delicate like satin skin texture, but also can peak like a mountain range, along with my rushing momentum titillating swaying, this same, in addition to Lynn, met all the women in the side, there is no which one and she is not as good as.

I was quickly getting the feeling that I couldn’t control it, and to ease up a bit, I flipped Flattery the whole way over again, angling up and down from the back to pick at the jabs.

Charming lay on her back on the cool glass surface of the desk, her body being pushed higher and higher by me, her two legs in black high-heeled sandals standing on tiptoe, her aqua-blue skirt lifted up high above her brute waist, revealing two flaps of powdered, doughnut-like white stock, alluringly tilted up at an angle that made her blood run cold.

Every time I went deeper, Charming’s body trembled delicately, and the nectar at the bottom of the flower had been stirred over and over again, and had now become as sticky as gelatin, and wolfishly coated a piece of the east and west underneath us.

Charming suddenly backhanded to push me, a timid look as if she couldn’t bear it, her snow-white waist muscles strangely tightened and tensed, and a deep groove appeared in the center.

I’ve never seen Charming in this situation, so I stopped my tidal wave of attack for a while, and lowered my voice to her ear to ask, “What’s wrong?” Who knew that her hand pushing me turned into pulling again, lustfully squeezing out an inaudible sentence from the bottom of her throat.

Unsure of what to do, I only acted on her signal and renewed my vigorous jab.

Charming tugged and pulled in quick succession, causing me to have trouble controlling myself and picking at it in a big way.

Abruptly heard her forgetful scream, her body shaking like a pendulum, eyes also rolled white, the corners of the mouth and drool out, this is the first time I saw charming orgasm, quite a scary look.

In less than half a minute’s time, charming from extreme taut state abruptly into extreme soft state, I just feel a piece of the bottom of the wet and slippery warm heat, in the top of the open her in a flash, fiercely see the bottom of the glass surface more than a liquid rushed through the traces, and later realized that charming beauty through the time will have a little incontinence.

I was so excited that my thrusts were getting smoother and smoother, and for a man, a woman’s orgasm is one of the most soul-stirring rewards of all.

Every inch of Charming’s skin seemed to become incredibly sensitive, and wherever I kissed, goosebumps floated up, stimulating every sympathetic nerve of the man’s body on his snow-white body.

Looked at the shrug, suddenly felt unable to endure, a round of fast as the ground thrusting, sent itself to the peak of the most beautiful, the outbreak of the moment, I looked down and sox her pair of white feet wearing black high-heeled sandals, pouring all the strength of the whole body to the front of the sudden.

Flattery seemed to yelp a little, remembering that she slid halfway forward as I pushed her, and several miscellaneous items on her desk crashed to the floor in a crowded heap, one of them a damn glass paste jar that made a startling shattering sound in the quiet of the office in the late afternoon.

I know that the big thing is not good, but that moment is unstoppable, still dead hold Charming painfully spray… Suddenly heard a low cry, Charming and I looked up, saw the opposite room door has been opened, a drowsy-faced Jing Jin, in the doorway staring at us with jaws agape.

It was only two or three seconds, but it seemed so long as Jing Jin slammed the door heavily with a red face.

Charming was so ashamed that she couldn’t stand it, one of her pink fists weakly recoiled behind her and whacked me, “It’s all you it’s all you, it’s killing me.” I stifled a low grunt: “wife, clamp me.” Yi still pressed her injection endlessly.

Perhaps it was the titillatingly lewd words that incinerated away the flirtatious shyness, she shivered a little, her petite body curdled and clamped tightly around me, and she hummed softly and tremulously, “Not afraid, not afraid, husband not afraid.” She words do not mean, but there is a soul-crushing effect.

Ever since that ridiculous noon, every time I saw Jing Jin, a kind of shameless fawning smile appeared on my face.

Twenty-seven. Just for sex.

What’s said can’t be undone.

After the pleasure, I had a deep feeling that I was trapped, and I couldn’t help reminding myself that I must be extra cautious when I was with this little vixen, Charmaine, in the future.

I met Flirty’s family, her dad wasn’t as intimidating as I thought he would be, her grandma was very kind and didn’t even ask me too many questions, it was just her mom who was conversely intimidating and always felt like she was silently watching me from any angle.

During the time that Flattery’s parents went to sh, I at first only spent the occasional night at her house, and then I stayed at her house almost the whole week, as if I were a newlywed.

Flattery was very involved and helped me buy a whole set of toiletries.

I got scared and offered to go back to my own house one night, on the grounds that it was a bad influence to have people from her dad’s flat upstairs and downstairs.

Charming, however, was full of concern and said, “I’m not afraid, what are you afraid of, and when we get married, any gossip will naturally dissipate.” I was terrified, that night impotence.

Flattery finally compromised and let me go home to stay, but she followed me, brought a couple sets of pajamas, asked me for the key to my room, and went and punched herself a new set.

Sunday, I slept in until 9:30, and after going to the bathroom I saw Flattery busy with something in the kitchen.

“And your grandmother doesn’t care about you anymore? How did you get past her?” I asked.

“I told her business trip to gz.” Flattery, concentrating on her own business, added, “I often had to go to GZ on business trips the year before last and last year, and the longest time was more than a month, so Grandma didn’t suspect anything.” I look at the stove on the big and small several jade bright aluminum new pots, can not help but ask: “I do not seem to have such a beautiful pot here, right?” “I bought them, a set of five, they work great, I have a set at home.” She practically made herself at home.

My heart was in a state of panic and annoyance, I changed the topic, “It smells so good, what are you making?” “Milk stewed papaya, very nutritious, yesterday from the book, you go lie down for a while, get ready to call you.” Charming intimated.

I’m still sleepy from last night’s almost all-night mania again, “Hoo hoo, even so happy oh.” Flirty Huma: “Good to know, in love with me?” As she said this, she poured a carton of milk into the skillet.

I stalled.

Flattery turned her head and said with a forced smile, “Not yet? Then feel free to say something, even if it coaxes me.” I remained silent.

“You said you loved me.” She stopped what she was doing and said in a commanding tone.

I turned pale and my mouth tightened.

Charming gazed at me for a long time, then suddenly exclaimed, “You won’t even say it, you don’t love me, you don’t love me at all, you’re only with me because you want to make love!” I thought carefully, determined to take advantage of this to make her sober, shamelessly said, “It seems so, when did I ever say I love you?” Charming grabbed the pot on the stove and slammed it down on me.

I was shocked, rushed to dodge, if not in good hands, I was afraid to immediately make a mess, the aluminum nest smashed into the wall, milk splattered everywhere.

I face green, was about to report to the front with a few slaps, fiercely saw Flattery’s jade hand touched the handle of the pressure cooker lid, panicked and swooped over to hug her.

Charming crazy like struggling, hands and feet and also added the mouth, not paying attention to be her in the arm bite, that is cut and dried by no means mercifully a bite, the pain of the heart trembled she still refused to let go, I only had to make a disgraceful means of abuse, one of her slender arm forcefully twisted back behind the back, and hard to shove into the bathroom, and then scurried out the door, listening to the strange woman hissed and cried: “Don’t come back! You never come back! I’ll see if you come back!” Then there was a horrible cracking noise, and when I went back half a month later, I realized that Flattery had smashed the TV in the living room.

I fled downstairs in a state of disarray, shuffling down the street in my pajamas and slippers, and somehow, there was an inexplicable sense of relief in my heart.

I walked in the crowd like a zombie following the waves, carefully analyzed myself, and finally came to a heartless conclusion: “Yes, I’m with Charming but for sex, just for that pair of soul-stealing little feet.” I didn’t even have a penny on me, so I had to borrow the phone in the hair salon to call Aya, summoning her with a magnetic voice: “Ya Ya, I miss you, come pick me up.”

XXVIII. The Curse of the Wine Bar

For half a month, I didn’t go back to Chicken Island or to my parents’ house, where Aya had a small house in the wine bar for temporary shelter.

Jing Jin asked me to go to a new wine bar next to her office at noon one day without her section chief boyfriend.

“Does this count as our first date?” I said with a smirk, knowing that she was here for Flirty 90% of the time.

“You guys really broke up?” Jing Jin stared at me.

“Well.” I nodded.

“Why?” Jing Jin asked again.

“No reason.” I didn’t feel the need to explain to her.

Jing Jin suddenly cursed bitterly, “I’ve never seen such a nasty, shameless, shameless stinking man like you!” Her voice was only slightly raised, but it was enough to attract attention in the wine bar, where there was only soft and gentle music.

I said in a bad mood, “Take it easy, it seems like it’s none of your business what I do with Charming, right?” Jing Jin gritted her teeth and raised her voice a few more points, “How is it none of my business? I’m the one who introduced her to you! You know how she is! If you don’t love her, why do you still …… sleep with her!” The waiters walking back and forth stood far away and no longer approached our table.

I said: “sleep and love are two different things, I and charming consensual, who did not rape anyone is not it? Moreover,……,” drank a mouthful of wine and added: “Now is the world of equality between men and women, it is not certain who took advantage of who.” Jing Jin gas knot, apricot eyes rounded willow eyebrows erected, a thousand years witch-like from the cherry mouth spit out the most vicious mantra: “You should go to death, die immediately, out of the door was hit by a car to death, eating was choking on a bone to death, soak in the bar was choking on alcohol to death!” I coughed violently, hurriedly put the glass down, surprised at the power of her curse, out of the corner of my eye so and so saw the people in the wine bar are in the sidelong glance, worried about staying any longer I do not know what kind of embarrassment will come out, so pretended to be dashing: “well, I will go to death, so that you two happy.” I got up and left, but Jing Jin chased after me in a few steps and poured a glass of lemon juice on my face like those evil women in the movies.

I burst into a rage and returned the slap with a backhand that sent her stumbling.

Jing Jin looked at me in surprise as she stroked her face, her eyes filled with tears as if she couldn’t comprehend what was happening.

I coldly gazed at the redness rising on her face, “Trying to play it cool, but unfortunately I’ve never been a compassionate person.” Jing Jin huffed and ran out.

I left afterward with an iron face, getting into a cab before remembering that I hadn’t paid the bill for the wine bar that had left a curse on me and hadn’t been there since.

Twenty-nine. Time flows like water.

Half a month later, I moved back to Chicken Island from Aya’s bar and called Ling Ling to help clean up the mess.

I’ve only seen Flattery a couple of times in the three years or so since then, two or three times at the system’s gala, and once on the field of a business competition, from a distance, without speaking.

As which broken throat sang: not that I do not understand, just that the world is changing fast. More and more private cars on the road, the price of cell phones from the beginning of the 40,000 or so down to a few thousand to a few hundred dollars, almost manually a unit has moved, from a six-storey old building into eighteen-and-a-half-storey building with three elevators.

During this time, I met Zhou Han, who helped publish a few books that most people wouldn’t read, and introduced me to a radio program, hosting a warm hour every Wednesday night dedicated to coaxing obsessed men and women. I bought a car, a used Honda Accord, and planned to buy a larger house to live with my parents.

I still drank, waiting for that curse of choking on wine, and waking up drunk in the night, thinking about Lynn most of the time, and occasionally Flattery, with my eyes inexplicably moist.

Thirty, for wanting more

Meetings with Lynn were few and far between, but kept each other present for every birthday.

On Lynn’s birthday, I shaved and cut my hair, as if I were a child on New Year’s Day, and changed into a newly bought coat, fearing that she would find it too eye-catching, dark blue.

Call and ask Lynn where he is.

Lynn did not answer, thought for a while and said, “Or the old place.” The old place is a famous coffee house, there are dozens of chain stores in China, the name has the most rhythmic “language” word, the common mark is that each set up a very casual rattan hanging chairs, once a certain year, Lin and I had the luxury of throwing many precious time in the vain there.

Lynn actually came alone, still beautiful in a pink and purple cardigan with long sleeves and a long brown tweed skirt underneath.

I found it rare and couldn’t help but ask, “Where’s Ru Ru?” Early Ru Ru and I had long since made up, and she certainly wasn’t not coming because of the unpleasantness of two years ago.

“I didn’t call her.” Lynn looked at me and added, “Should I call her?” “Don’t.” I was too busy saying, happy with a little nagging feeling that Ru-Ru was like a shadow of Lynn, and on occasions like this, it was rare that she wasn’t in one piece.

Lynn looked lazy, thanked me for having the florist deliver the flowers to her house, and said with an ouch, “How many years has it been? Let me do the math.” I’m not too sure, I just remember the first time I sent flowers, Lynn’s fifteenth birthday, and every year since then, as usual, a dozen, which must be her favorite jade-colored lilies.

We actually chatted about the old days, as giddy as a pair of dying old men, and Lynn’s laughter grew, and I actually felt slightly tipsy as I watched her drink her coffee.

After chatting from 3:30 p.m. to dinner, Lynn looked at the menu and suddenly said, “How about some wine?” I was shocked and delighted, because Lynn has never been a drunkard, and I remembered that she once refused to drink a drop of alcohol after she drank a small glass of beer at a party and suddenly fainted when we took a group photo.

When Lynn took a small sip of wine, her face became as delicate as a peach blossom, and her beautiful eyes were filled with water.

I asked, “You know how to drink?” Lynn shook her head, “Remembering what you said about talking, that you feel best when you’re three times drunk, that you’ll feel a touch of floating wonderment, I’ve always wanted to try it.” That was the enchantment that was fed to her when she was coaxing her to drink once upon a time, when Lynn only smiled and didn’t fall for it, I asked, “Then why didn’t you try it until today?” “Because it’s more tempting.” Lynn’s cell phone rang from time to time, always interrupting us at the most crucial moments, and I stared at it in annoyance as Lynn answered the last call and turned it off with a smile.

Thirty-one. Once upon a time, once upon a time.

Lynn obviously drunk, more and more words, counting our former trivia, actually even remembered a certain unlucky day: “xx month x, that day can really be a ghost slapped in the back of the head, I broke a new pair of pants it.” I was surprised and confused for a while, accompanied by her babbling, a cup after a cup of wine.

Lynn murmured and suddenly asked, “How drunk do I look to you?” I casually replied, “Three points.” Lynn smiled and said, “Is that what it feels like? The heart is beating so hard.” She touched her face and caressed her breasts, raising her hands and feet to reveal an unspeakably beautiful and provocative charm.

I stared in disbelief.

Lynn touched my gaze, a slight smile, humbly actually also eyes do not slightly blink.

For ten seconds, twenty seconds, maybe a minute, we looked at each other in silence, blissfully unaware of where we were.

Maybe because of the wine or something, I dared to look at Lynn like that for the first time.

Lynn spoke first, smiling, “What’s wrong? Little Tian Tian.” Little Tian Tian, she hasn’t called me that for a long time.

The blood in my veins surged up and I said something I couldn’t believe to myself, “Let me kiss you.” Lynn smiled flirtatiously and shook her head, when in fact she should have been called flirtatious.

The first step had already been taken, I was no longer afraid, and reached out my hand to hold her catkin, “Just for a moment.” Lynn’s body seemed to be slightly shaken, did not retract her hand, just still shook her head and smiled:

“Alcohol is indeed no good, always coaxing people to do bad things.” I practically begged her, “Come here.” Lynn suddenly asked, “Have you ever done anything bad?” Judah sat steady.

I hated her, “There are a lot of them, which one do you mean?” Lynn stared at me, “Sneaking loved ones while someone is drunk.” My jaw dropped and I was sweating, my memory flew back in a flash to the day Lynn passed out during that photo shoot, and I was the one who helped her back to her room.

“Ever? That one time.” Lynn was still staring at me.

She had a smirk on her face and I was defeated, “No.” “Really no? Although I can’t even move my fingers when I’m drunk, but …… but the brain is clear.” Lynn’s eyes burned.

A foul feeling of profanity, nesting and shame filled my heart and I said feebly, “No, I wanted to that day, but didn’t.” Lynn let out an “Ow” and withdrew her hand from my grasp.

Surely it didn’t work out, surely it wouldn’t work out, surely the constant low self-esteem wasn’t unwarranted, I was devastated.

Lynn waved and asked the waiter for a cup of tea, turned back to me and said faintly, “I have a boyfriend.” I hung my head, “I know, that Nan.” Lynn “Huh?” She looked at me strangely for a while before saying, “What makes you think it’s him?” I replied, “Even the job is his, only a fool wouldn’t understand.” Lynn looked at me for a while, and laughed softly, “Is he the only one in the world who does real estate? The company I was working for at the time was run by my brother, and it was just starting out, and there wasn’t enough manpower, so I was asked to help.” I was shocked: “You said the boyfriend is not him?” Lynn said, “No, he had hoped it was, and was always good to me, but I wasn’t right for him, and he quit two years ago, and never even started.” My voice trembled a little, “Did you just say you have a boyfriend?” Lynn nodded, “His name is Xu Dong, I met him last year, he works at a TV station.” I was dumbfounded, this guy had seen on TV, hosting a fashion show specializing in real estate and home decoration, 1 meter eight or so in stature, a head of shoulder-length hair, cool and handsome a few can catch up with the four heavenly kings who were red at that time.

Lynn looked at me and continued, “We’ve been in a relationship for about six months now, and this morning he asked me to marry him.” I was thunderstruck and asked offhand, “You said yes?” Lynn turned her head to look away and said, “I want to say yes.” I actually screamed crossly, “That’s not okay! No way! No yes!” Lynn looked at me strangely, “Why not? He’s good to me, not just any good, and …… do you remember what I used to say?” I was in a cold sweat.

Lynn’s eyes seemed red and she said softly, “Once you start, for better or for worse, you have to start at the beginning and finish at the end.” I didn’t go home that night, and I had a wild ride in the car with Han until dawn.

Thirty-two. Rascals and demons.

This is supposed to be flirty story, why does it keep involving other people, ugh, I’ll be sure to stay awake for the rest of it.

Coincidentally, Flattery, I and two other colleagues as a representative of the city of a system of business competitions in the company, we first to the gz report, and then with other cities and counties of the same system of competitions with the contestants transferred to the bl county of a large training center for a month of learning and selection for three months after the national system of business competitions in preparation for the national competition.

Flattery and I greeted each other flatly, laughing and joking the whole way, and no one could tell we’d ever had a story.

The training center is located in the famous tourist area known as the first mountain in Lingnan, with beautiful scenery, comfortable environment and good conditions for food and accommodation.

My seat was not far from Flattery, and I was often distracted in class, except for my habitual rambling, my eyes occasionally slipping to her back without realizing it.

Fluttershy’s hair was grown longer, tied casually in a purple flowered scarf, her waist seemed thinner, and her clothing was much simpler, often a light colored dress that made her look chic.

Most of the time, we avoid bumping into each other, and when we can’t, we just greet each other blandly, and then one of us always looks for an excuse to leave first.

The study program is organized in a relaxed manner and the multi-purpose hall is open every night so that all the participants can go and karaoke or dance there as much as they want.

Flattery studied very hard, as if she was aiming for those six places in the competition. We were contestants in the same city, our rooms were next to each other, and every night when I went out and passed by her door, I always saw her staying in her room to revise her homework.

It seems to be the second weekend of the small gala, Flattery in the organizers of the arrangement to perform a single dance, Mongolian or Tibetan style, immediately charmed a piece of male students, and since then she has no peace of mind, every night was dragged to the multi-purpose hall to dance.

One night I sat in the corner to watch the flattery, she from beginning to end have been asked to dance, even a visit to the guidance of the vice department level old man grabbed with her dance, the butt almost can not touch a few chairs, the gz sister beside me vinegar sour: “I heard that she is the main branch level?” “Seems to be deputy section level, not quite sure.” At that time I did not know she was promoted.

“Don’t you know her? You guys are from the same city.” “There are so many people in the system, where can I know them all.” I only look at Flattery’s feet, she’s wearing a pair of black high-heeled sandals, although the style is different from before, but still seductive.

“She’s a famous flower in your place.” MM gave me a look of a bit of disbelief.

“Famous flower?” I found the epithet a bit harsh, so I said, “She’s a pretty good dancer, and often performs at the gala, but it doesn’t count as any more than a famous flower, I guess.” Charming toenails are clean flesh color, I remember that she used to always like to put on a light rose color, trance, thoughts suddenly flew back to the piece of turquoise blue moistened tender grass on the ground …… “Hmph, always with the leadership to dance, no wonder so young as the head of the section, called her famous flower is true to its name. ” MM stared at the dance floor flattery, can not help but sinister and viciously spit out a sentence.

My heart suddenly jumped like a fountain, and after thinking quietly for a while, I suddenly said to mm, “You know, there’s a flavor when you talk.” mm stunned: “what?” I looked at her with affection, with a magnetic voice said: “a very confident and connotative flavor, so that people do not know to go to the fine feeling of fine taste, you usually must like to read, right?” mm face slightly halo, eyes brightly look at me, smiling haughtily: “not now, do not have the energy and time, used to go to college when I like to read some of the so-called masterpieces, in fact, did not read the whole, only to pick some of the flavor of the passages.” The next night I asked her to take a walk together, along the quiet and uninhabited mountain road out of the far, kissed her on the way back.

MM gasped, “Do you have a girlfriend?” Without waiting for me to answer, she continued, “I guess I must have one, why do you still want to do this?” I looked up at the moon and replied with a sigh, “There are many accidents in human life, some of them can be grasped, some of them are hard to help, no matter whether they are right or wrong, sensible or impulsive, when we grow old, these things are the most precious memories that enrich our life.” The fourth day was a weeknight, I took her back to gz by car, ate a meal of sashimi, listened to half a symphony in that famous xh concert hall, and got a room in some old four-star hotel along the river road.

MM was nervous and begged me to let her escape, saying she actually had a boyfriend.

Before dawn I coaxed her into posing again, oral sex, and even forced anal sex, developing her prodigal and shameless nature completely.

The next day I left two hundred dollars on my nightstand and took my own bus back to the training center.

That night, mm face green to find the room, the two hundred dollars slammed in my face, the voice of the stern asked: “What is the meaning of this.” I lie on the bed lazily said: “even this self-awareness are not? Then I will tell you the truth, you have bad breath, intolerable kind, so I had to escape back, from the morning has been vomiting until now, alas, I really don’t know how your boyfriend usually suffer, if I am lucky enough to run into in the future, I really want to ask him to learn from the heart.” MM’s face flushed red and white, words like “rascal” and “devil” erupted from her mouth, and she hit me with a cup and a travel bag, turned and ran out.

There was a group of trainees gathered around the doorway, and in the blink of an eye as I closed the door, I saw Flattery calmly watching me from across the room.

Thirty-three. One more bite.

Oops, how did I get off on a tangent, I promise to write only flirty below.

Selection test day I got up late, panicked, I do not know the arrangement of the examination room, is four classrooms between the indecision, charming out of the toilet, pointing out that I should go into the classroom, in that split second, the heart actually gave birth to a kind of desire to kiss the strong impulse.

A month of study and selection soon came to an end, the province’s system of business masters, our city’s four players no one can be shortlisted for the national tournament.

The last day of the training center to organize a tour, in the Yoyuanquanchong frolicking, Charming sprained her foot, the original delicate as a bamboo shoot neck swollen with peaches, that place there is no sedan chair, a few male trainees scrambled to apply for a back to carry her.

Fluttershy all but politely declined, trudging down the hill with the assistance of a female cadet, probably in pain and bloodless.

Looking at her delicate trembling back, suddenly remembered that night in front of her mournful tears, I silently crossed the crowd, without any explanation to carry her on the body.

Flattery didn’t struggle or say anything, just stiffened on my back.

I looked calm in the face of others’ amazement.

At a steep incline, Flattery finally went limp, her arms slowly wrapping around my neck and burying her face in my shoulder.

I was walking briskly when I felt a sudden sharp pain in my shoulder, and with a slight side of my face, I saw Flattery sneaking up on me, like the time she bit me two years ago, biting me indulgently, biting me hard, and then there was a drop, and a drop, and another full teardrop dropping into the collar of my shirt, warmly moisturizing my neck.

Thirty-four. Make love instead of love.

Soon after returning to st, we moved in together, flattery do not want to go to my “chicken island”, in the old city to find a one-bedroom, one-bathroom house, the house is very old, the rent is also very low, as long as 480 yuan per month.

The landlord, Sister Li, politely stated that it would be best if she could pay a quarter’s rent up front, and Flirty actually said, “I can pay you back a year’s rent up front, but there is one condition, and that is that we are allowed to make changes to your house during the renovation.” Sister Li was so busy that she agreed that the renovation would only give her old house a new look, which would do no harm at all.

I was adamantly against it, implying that Flattery was just a temporary transition and wouldn’t be rented for that long.

Charming couldn’t argue with me, so she had to say to Sister Li that she would discuss it later.

A month later, we moved in, the original dilapidated house has been renovated to see half of the original appearance, not only the location of the kitchen and toilet each other, and even the direction of the two windows in the bedroom has been changed.

“Originally that side wasn’t well lit and it was facing someone else’s balcony, so it was changed.” Flattery explained.

“It’s just for temporary use, what’s the point of going to all this trouble, do you want to spend the rest of your life in this place?” I saw that there was also a new powder blue bathtub in the bathroom.

“Once the money is out, someone will naturally rush to do the job for you, it’s not like it’s a lot of work, and you have to live one day at a time to make it a good one.” Flattery took my arm and said seriously.

“How is Sister Li willing to let such a big fuss, did you give her a year’s rent?” Charming smiled and looked at me, a long time before answering: “Don’t you care, anyway, you don’t need to pay for it.” After settling down, in addition to work trips, we are like glue inseparable, together with the food shopping and cooking, shopping, watching movies, beach walks, but making love is the largest proportion of our lives in the most important content.

As if afraid of suddenly waking up from a beautiful dream, there are some things we don’t talk about, we don’t tell each other, like Lynn and the topic of love or not.

We make love instead of love.

XXXV. Revisited

We’re crazy sometimes, without restraint.

One weeknight, Flirty went to bed early, spread out a big bag of stuff, and urged me, who had just gotten out of the shower, “Come on, look what I bought today.” I looked for my blow dryer, topless, squinted, and said, “Wanna open a grocery store? The house is piled up with no room.” Flirty pouted, “Talking about people without looking, there’s a lot of your favorite food.” I sat down to floor her waist, “Well, wife is good, wife is so nice, what other good stuff?” Since the office after that ridiculous, I have immunity to the word “wife”, can easily call out.

“Look.” She rummages through her things and pulls out a new, unopened shirt, bright blue, and looks at me with interest.

“The style is new.” Mentally, I remembered Lynn’s comment about the color blue.

“Like it?” “Love it.” I mouthed the words, suddenly realizing I didn’t like the color blue much anymore.

“I knew my husband liked the color blue best, so try it on.” She unwrapped the package and carefully pulled out the tacks on her coat.

“How about you? What do you think of the color blue?” “I like it too, it’s spirited and brilliant.” Charming shakes out her shirt and helps me put it on, looks left and right, smiles and says, “Blue really suits my husband.” I remembered something and took her into my arms, “By the way, I’ve lost one of my shirts, and I’ve looked for it a couple of times without finding it.” “Who told you to keep losing it, which one?” “That one, the one you padded under your ass that time and it was sticky with blood.” I whispered in her ear.

Charming’s pink ears turned red and she said delicately, “I threw it away!” I put my hand on her waist, “Don’t lie, where is it? Take it out and let me relive it.” Flirt smiled and said, “Really threw it away.” I said, “Looks like you won’t confess without torture!” The hand placed on her waist was slightly hardened, where it was her dead center.

Charming giggled out, desperately struggled a few times, then drunken shrimp-like crispy in a ball, pumping and trembling, “I’m going to look for it, quickly stop ah.” So I let her go: “Be honest, naturally you will suffer less.” Charming spit: “really rascal.” Get out of bed to open the closet, in the bottom drawer rummage for half a day, only to dilly-dally to turn out a neatly folded blue shirt to, holding stick me next to sit down.

I unfolded to see, in the third button to find a trace of aged Chu red, really is the former blood-stained war clothes: “You brought it home is it?” Charming face in front of my chest, hot as a burn: “do not bring back, I’m afraid that early you take as a rag.” In addition to the blood stained place, other places are washed clean and ironed flat and neat, I deeply appreciate the strong feelings of flattery, the heart can not help but quietly sigh: “really is the creation of people, so good to Lin, she was indifferent, to flattery is less than one ten thousandth of Lin, she is such a cherished heart, God is not fair, too unfair.” Charming looked up at me with shy eyes, “I thought you had forgotten about it, a big bad guy who doesn’t cherish it when he’s had his hands on it!” I know I am this kind of bad guy, full of guilt and apologies, hanging his head to kiss her, a long kiss.

This night we were very emotional and did everything.

I kissed every inch of Flattery’s body, melting her into a watery mess, touching the sticky, gooey stuff everywhere on the quilt, on the pillowcase, on the sheets.

We split in and out, Flirty striking every pose I wanted to see and changing outfit after outfit I wanted to see.

We tangled from the bed to the floor, frolicked from the front of the closet to the desk, and, with both of Flirt’s tantalizingly beautiful feet high on my shoulders, I asked her if she remembered that afternoon pin-up.

Charming nudged my chest with her fingertips, panting and grunting, “Office Wolf!” A huge stream of slippery nectar erupted violently from under the flower, a flow that had never been seen before.

I lewdly said in the heart of her ear, “Guess if Jing Jin got a good look at my thing? I’m afraid such a big baby tickles her to death.” Charming gave a cry, scolded me for being nasty, and taunted, “Stinky! Maybe other people’s section chief husbands are even better than yours!” Jing Jin had gotten married half a year ago.

“No way!” I fought a round of hard pokes and jabs that killed Flattery’s muscles and bones, and my mind was tingling with desire for her to find that blue dress from back in the day.

Charming said long ago not to wear, put at home did not bring over, only octopus like tightly wrapped around me, want me to stop.

Annoyed, I untied Flirty’s arms from around her neck and threw her down to find a blue denim skirt in the closet as a replacement and a pair of black high heels in an attempt to recreate the scene.

Flattery said next time, and lay on the desk lazily refusing to move, so I was good only to help her put on her shoes myself, and carry her up to change her dress again.

Flattery let herself be manipulated, nibbling on my ear and murmuring, rambling on about how good that burst was earlier, how she almost came, blaming me for being nosy and breaking the feeling.

With a pang of pinning, I plunged back into the tenderness and pumped and shook, promising to send her flying this time.

Charming couldn’t stop wooing and yelping, obliviously begging me to go deeper.

I desperately tried to move forward, but I couldn’t do what I wanted because my denim skirt was too narrow and my flirty legs couldn’t spread.

“Badass, you badass!” Charming thought I was teasing her, and her two shoe-clad feet stomped on my chest.

“The skirt is too narrow.” I gasped.

Charming was in a hurry, her legs on the computer, arching her buttocks and taking off her skirt in a wanton and provocative manner.

I let her remove her skirt and couldn’t wait to get back in for the kill, one shot without bottoming out.

The denim skirt wrapped around Flirty’s ankles, and she arched her back and stretched her arms out to pick it off, but half-heartedly failed to get it off.

I looked over my shoulder and realized that her pink and tender calves waving in front of her were extremely beautiful, and I let it all out.

Charming was lost in thought for a while, busy staring at her body to bear it, and when my strength passed, she immediately threw punches, raining blows on my chest, and pouted, “Next time, I’ll never wear it for you to see!” I coaxed and comforted, with a finger to make up for her.

Thirty-six. Lust is like a tidal wave.

We shared the bathroom, Flirty still raging with lust, coating her petite body with body lotion and teasing me with her petite body.

I slowly re-masturbated and pushed her head further down as she licked and kissed the bib.

Charming refused and pouted, “No, it’s dirty.” After living together, she has kissed me almost all over my body, only this last bit left.

I coaxed and enticed her, bending over and whispering a promise in her ear, “Lick it, I’ll make you beautiful later.” Charming still shook her head, rubbing my rod pouted, “Kissing here is not good enough?” I softly whispered again, “Good wife, good wife.” It was a tried and true killer for her.

Charming’s face was full of blush, and she silently applied the body lotion there, then helped me carefully clean it with her hands, and then rinsed it with water, until I was provoked into resisting pressing her head, and only then did she close her eyes and put her tantalizing mouth on it.

I leaned back against the wall with my body wooden, spreading my legs and enjoying myself, looking down from time to time to see the half of Flattery’s pretty face peeking out from underneath.

Charming was reluctant at first, just timidly flirty and delicate, but after hearing my thick gasps and muffled grunts, she finally let go completely, not only sucking enthusiastically with the hood of her lips, but her tongue worked its way in against the inside.

It was more than a carnal sensation, there was a spiritual fulfillment.

I had an erection that seemed stronger than any I’d ever had before, and with giddy excitement, I pulled Flirt up, pinned her down on the edge of the tub, and took a shot at the tender shell.

Perhaps the bathroom always felt secluded, and Flattery hummed loudly, occasionally chirping out the usually rare irenic words, “Hold me.” “That’s nice.” “It feels good.” “So deep.” This time I was persistent.

Charming body more and more taut, two tantalizing snow-white feet in the light blue tiles can not stop ravaging, mouth began to encourage me: “hold on, hold on a little longer.” I probed into the front of the hand to caress the charming breasts, expecting to make her faster beauty, like coaxing a child like a soft voice to comfort: “Do not worry, can still be a long time.” Charming, however, did not hear, still repeatedly called me, voice has brought a hint of crying.

Though she always said, “It’s just fine,” she stayed tight for a long time, until I was so sore in the pit of my leg that I could hardly stand it.

The woman’s outburst is extremely difficult, is often unattainable, although I think Kung Fu is good, but in the countless times of pleasure with charming, to send her to the top of the time but only a few as early as the morning. Physical strength gradually under the support, so and so see her two petals can not shake the beauty of the stock, the heart of a sudden inspiration, spit saliva on the finger, quietly probe into her heart.

This move really worked, and Flattery, who was wandering around the mountainside, was finally sent to the peak by me, her delicate body spasmed unexpectedly, and it seemed that every inch of her skin was trembling.

I could clearly feel the regular, violent tightening within her flower path, the fleshy shaft was hooped and gripped to the point of ejaculation, and a large bubble of piss-like hot liquid ran out, pattering all over me, and continuing to snake down, converging in a murky puddle on the light blue tiles.

I pressed hard on Flirty’s waist and stock, nestled her into a weird ball, underneath the root of the spelling deep, before ejaculation, the front end became unusually sensitive, I do not know what occasionally touched something, seemingly nothing, tender as a chirp.

It was a wonderful feeling, and I was soon in a rout, mentally remembering this strange pose I had stumbled upon.

XXXVII. The Rape Game

In the middle of the night and pinned again, we slept until noon the next day to get up, I wanted to go out to eat, but on the verge of both of them are lazy, Flattery went to the kitchen to make noodles, I want her to wear only bibs.

Charming pouted and said, “Soon to be turned into a slut by you.” I thought of Aya and said to her, “You’re at best a little wannabe who’s just starting to learn the ropes, but you’ll have to go through a lot more training to become a slut.” Flirt couldn’t find any eggs in the fridge and asked me to go downstairs to get some, “Pick up some strawberries when you see them.” “I’ll ring the doorbell three times when I get back, but don’t open the door until then, just in case one of the sex fiends comes in and rapes you.” I looked at her, not without worry.

Charmaine said, “I’m going to open the door, I’ll open the door for anyone who rings the doorbell, who told you to make people dress like this!” I came back with eggs and strawberries, rang the doorbell three times, and as soon as I entered the door, I hugged Flattery and screamed, “Rape! Rape!” Charmaine closed her eyes and pressed up, “What the hell are you screaming for! Where did you get such an earthy lecher, my husband went out to buy something, you come on.” I glared at her, “I’m sure you have what it takes to develop into a slut, didn’t you get enough after feeding you three times yesterday?” Charming took the eggs into the kitchen and actually said, “Half-starved, three meals yesterday, two were fast food and only one counted as a proper meal.” My face burned slightly, and I followed into the kitchen to watch her busy, gradually even my body got hot.

Charming body only tied a bib with white dots on a pink background, bare shoulders, snow back, pink stock, beautiful legs are not a precious heavenly object.

I scrutinized the state of activity of every part of her body, shaking the keychain in my hand, the keyring a cheerful cartoon pig, “Did you change this? Where’s the original dice?” “No good? You don’t think it’s cute?” Charming asked, when she stood up straight, a clear groove could be seen in the center of her waist behind her, and Ka Sung, who had actually banged a hundred women, had commented, “A woman with that kind of figure is superb.” “Too children, give me back the dice.” The two new female interns in the unit laughed at how I used such a keychain and suggested I give them the cartoon pig.

“There’s a little light bulb inside, it lights up when you pinch the pig’s belly, it’s too dark for this staircase and there’s no streetlights, so you can come back at night and use it for lighting.” Flattery said seriously.

I didn’t think so, “No need! I’m a big man, I’m still afraid of this darkness.” “This is just the boar, there is another sow in my place, a pair, you have to use it even if you don’t need it.” Charming said as she added eggs to the pot.

“What kind of logic is that?” I asked knowingly.

Flattery turned to look at me and simply said, “No logic, if you don’t use it, you won’t sleep with you.” I can’t imagine hearing such words from Flattery’s mouth, I stare at her, stare so hard she blushes, and violently arch my head into her puffy breasts, “I’ll use it, I’ll use it, now the boar wants the sow to sleep!” She giggled, “Not now, the sow’s belly is starving.” After eating the noodles, Flattery washes the dishes and I feed her strawberries on the side.

A drop of red-colored berry juice fell into her bib, and I lifted it up and sucked it in my mouth.

Charming giggled foodily, “Stop it.” The pink bud wiggled movingly on the side of my face, tantalizing my tongue to follow it.

She twisted and flashed up, laughing and screaming, “Be careful I’ll break the bowl, stop it!” I use my hands to hold two rich jade peaks, tongue in the bud around the circle, where the tender as silk membrane.

Charming gasped softly, “Go ahead and take a shower, I’ll be done soon.” My naughty heart suddenly rose, “No! Your husband will be back later.” Charmaine stared at me and said, “Then you run, my husband is very powerful, no one in the unit wants to mess with it.” I kneaded my hand harder and my voice turned into a provincial boy’s accent, “It’s so hard to come in, you want me to leave after a scare?” Charming bit back a laugh, “If you don’t run I’m going to yell for someone!” I actually grabbed the kitchen knife from the wall hanging and put it on her neck, and said fiercely, “If you squeak, I’ll chop you to death!” Charming stunned face, whispered, “Do not play this, careful to cut ah.” The sharp edge of the knife stimulated her snowy neck floated a layer of fine goose bumps.

I drank, “Who’s playing with you? Laozi risked jail to play with you?” Charming looked at me in a daze for a while, and mumbled timidly, “Then what …… do you want?” “I want to rape you!” I pretended to be the thug who broke into the house and put her on the dishwasher to rape her.

Flattery understood and struggled desperately, calling me a rogue pervert.

I pressed hard, thrusting viciously, watching her tantalizing feet flop uncontrollably at her sides, “Why are you dressed like that? Aren’t you afraid of people like me!” Charming grunted: “It’s my husband who wants it, he’s a big pervert!” I stabbed her deeply, and rubbed her peak with one hand, and said, “Your waist is so thin, but your boobs are so big?” Charming delicately said, “I have studied dancing, of course my figure is good, don’t touch me!” The two charming reddish nipples arched up asymmetrically.

Even though she was cooperative, I always felt it wasn’t quite right, so I probed my other hand into her flowery creek and rubbed my thumb fiercely on the tiny tender pea, taking the opportunity to spit out what I normally couldn’t say, “Do you usually masturbate? Why is the little thing so red!” Charming immediately couldn’t stand it, and her delicate body twisted around, “I don’t …… lighten up ah! Pain! It hurts!” Even said again:

“No more games!” I forcefully argued her arm: “I’m not your husband, who with you pity, obediently next to the old man, pissed off the old man, later will come to a first rape and then kill!” Charming bitter face, eyes actually red, grudgingly staring at me, a pathetic look.

I was as excited as hell, with a hint of rape, pumping faster and faster, snapping like a starburst.

Charming, I don’t know if she was infected by me or not, began to gasp, and the bottom of her flower got a little wetter, and much of the goo was brought out from the depths, and the clear water that had built up in the washbasin gradually became cloudy.

I was very durable from last night’s excessive partying, and Flattery moaned delicately, her arms wrapping around my neck.

I said lewdly, “Why did you come to hug a pervert who is raping you?” Charming’s beautiful eyes were hazy, half silent, just still hugging me tightly.

I took Flattery out of the confined dishwashing sink and flattened her out on the stovetop and continued to ravish her profusely, finally sending her over the top again.

I asked in her ear as the urge to cum was imminent, “Is it safe today?” Charming face is as red as fire, and water seems to drip out of her eyes: “That there is such a gentlemanly sex demon, unlike!” The hands and feet did not show the slightest sign of relaxation.

I lost my mind for a moment and impaled myself as far as I could, spurting as fast as I could in her extremely slippery depths.

We showered and lay back in bed.

Charming crispy into a ball, as if in my arms murmured uncontrollably: “really good, really good, actually so play me, really want to come again.” My body is weak, is completely weak, and she joked: “so like a wolf like a tiger, I’m afraid that after another ten years, twenty years I will not be able to lift, then you do not regret oh.” Charming said in a daze, “Can there be ten years, twenty years? I only ask for three years, three years is enough.” After saying this, her face changed and she opened her eyes to look at me.

I looked at her stunned and creeped out.

Some kind of sign popped out of the pin cold and quietly.

Thirty-eight. Incorrigible.

In less than six months, two storms have risen between us.

One time was when Flattery picked up a thong in my car, I don’t know if it belonged to Lingling, Aya or Zhou Han.

I thought it had to be over again, but Flattery only chilled out with me for a couple days without storming out.

The other time was when Zhou Han said he wanted to help me read the manuscript and visit my new nest, but they ended up fooling around while drinking and were caught in bed by Flattery who came back from work.

Charming made a mad scene, “I know you have been fooling around outside, but don’t use my bed, why do you want to use my bed!” And threatened to go to the newspaper to find Zhou Han’s leader, to go to the city hall to find Zhou Han’s husband.

I also threatened her that if she went for one of them, we were totally screwed.

Perhaps Flirt realized that I was hopeless, and after the storm, we remained together, her lack of ambition still obsessed with my virtual tenderness, while I shamelessly continued to enjoy her fascinating flesh.

I know it may not be fair, but the world is never fair, God is never fair.

Thirty-nine. Back to ancient times.

Flattery is good with computers, and one weekend dug up all the stuff I had hidden on my computer and sat at my computer desk laughing her ass off.

Past a look, the original is those made-up articles of the wind and moon, I said it is very funny, Confucius day “food and color sex also”, these are reflecting the nature of people carry on.

Charming is still laughing more than, not enough breath to say, “No, the great talent’s article, the little girl will not dare to disrespect, just …… just how is there also a Jing Jinle here?” I rarely blush in front of Flattery, this time counts once. In our several brothers exchanged articles, in order to devote to write, there is a series of all the female characters name with the side of the woman’s real name, Jing Jin such a hot beauty naturally difficult to escape the claws of my masturbation.

Charming hugged her knees and smiled and asked, “That’s pretty good writing, is it okay if I copy it and show it to her?” I said okay, I’ll kill you before she kills me.

To cover up the embarrassment and prove that I wasn’t the only one who did this, I instantly helped her find Won Won and KISS, before there was any knowledge of Wuji, before there was a wind and moon, lambs and coastlines.

Flattery happily read them all afternoon and asked if any of them were written by me.

Seeing that she didn’t make a fuss, I pointed to one of Yuan Yuan’s recommendations that day and bragged, “How’s that? Your husband’s writing is top-notch, isn’t it? Just writing anything is outstanding.” Charming nodded her head and chimed in, “Yes, yes, yes, a great talent is a great talent, I will definitely read it.” After reading for a while, she suddenly asked me what “philandering” was.

I say it’s a beautiful metaphorical penmanship that stands in for something or other in a woman.

Charming looked and asked again, “Can I touch it? You write so comfortably in there, how come I don’t feel anything at all?” My face burned, told her that this is the classical writing, not necessarily in line with reality, Jin Ping Mei, Yu Putuan so written, do not believe to see.

Charming was like listening to me talking about heavenly books, asking questions from time to time, each question was as big as a bucket, what is called a jade clam? Is there really a penis? Why is a woman’s orgasm called throwing?

I’m starting to regret why I bared my soul with her.

That night’s lovemaking, Flirtatious was now learning, and suddenly she delicately exclaimed, “I’m going to lose it!” As it turned out, she didn’t lose it, I lost it.

It’s another birthday, and Flattery is eating out with me.

The phone kept ringing, mostly warbling except for a few buddies, and I flirted with them recklessly in front of Flirty, but my heart slowly sank: none of them were from Lynn.

Married, maybe?

After dinner, I asked, “Bounce? Karaoke or a bar? There’s a midget at the Baja who specializes in love songs, should we go?” Maybe because I was lazy, Flirty said, “Why don’t we go home?” I nodded immediately, a very tired feeling.

Charming drove, I reclined in the side seat and closed my eyes in meditation, “Now that I’m married, I can’t say anything about coming to celebrate my birthday, and seeing each other twice a year may be the end of the road, maybe I’ll never see each other again in this lifetime.” After a moment of faint sadness, I have been as if my heart had stopped.

When I got out of the bathroom after my shower, it was dark inside the living room and I called, “Flattery! Flattery! What the hell?” Charmaine answered from the bedroom, “Come and get me.” I pushed the door to go in, but not immediately freeze, the bedroom did not turn on the lights, a large red lantern hanging above the bed, rendering a red gauze tent, the tent Chen horizontal a satin-clothed beauty wearing tide embroidery, beautiful eyes look forward to, smiling wryly, is not Charming who is.

For a moment, it was a fantastic feeling of going back to ancient times.

I lifted the tent and got into bed, carefully admiring Charming who had coiled up her long hair, “Little goblin, you really have a lot of tricks up your sleeve.” Charming smiled like a flower, “Do you like it, Mr. Lang?” “Where did you buy this outfit?” I looked in from the lapel of her chest and was pleasantly surprised to find an aqua-green belly-band inside.

Charming rolled over and changed to another provocative position, “My second aunt is in an embroidery factory, I asked her to help me make it, she said it’s for the show, does it look good?” I sincerely marveled, “Beautiful as heaven.” Never on the ancient beauty has a special complex, for which wrote a series of masturbation articles, I can not imagine Flattery tonight let me really appreciate a time.

“Who’s beautiful?” “My little flirt.” For a moment I wondered what she was up to.

“Nope, it’s ancient times, you should call me Maiden.” Charming said mischievously.

I laughed up, “Mother, is this our wedding night?” When I finished speaking, I cursed myself in my heart for being tongue-tied.

Charming’s body shook, her eyes brightly looked at me, and she sat up with a cry, stopping and hugging me, “What did you say?” “I said you’re as beautiful as heaven.” I hurriedly diverted her attention.

“Not that one, the one at the end.” Flattery said, staring at me.

“A moment of springtime is worth a thousand dollars, and we are determined not to waste a minute!” I went up and down, intent on crisping her down as fast as I could.

Charming gently sighed, arms around my neck, said quietly: “Don’t worry, I won’t want you to marry me, you give me three years, as long as three years of my life even if happy.” Think of her painstakingly all kinds of preparation, but for a fight I’m happy today, the heart suddenly have a burst of never had an impulse: “Forget it, in this life with this little leprechaun married it.”

Forty. So happiness is so close to me

My cell phone rang at that exact moment, Flattery pulled my hand, but I hesitated, but I got out of bed and pulled it out of my pants pocket, only skimming the caller ID for a second, my heart jumped wildly, it was the number that haunted me, it was Lynn.

I picked up and fed in a shaky voice.

Lynn said quietly over there, “Can you come out?” I squinted at Flattery in the tent, who was gazing at me.

“Go where?” I blurted out.

“Still there, come whenever you want, I’ll be there tonight.” Lynn had never talked to me like that before, and I froze, wanting to ask again, but the phone had hung up.

“What happened to her?” I tensed up and started to change.

Flattery asked in a shaky voice, “You’re going out?” “Sorry.” I never said that to her.

“Is it Lynn?” Fluttershy asked again dolefully.

“Uh-huh.” I was moving faster and faster and was soon dressed and pushing out the door, not daring to look at her again.

I saw Lynn again, a bottle of red wine and a glass in front of her, her face red as blood.

As soon as I sat down, I smelled alcohol, and when I picked up the bottle, I was filled with amazement that half of the wine inside was already missing:

“Why are you drinking so much, you’ll get drunk!” She has a track record of getting royally drunk on half a beer.

“Drunk is drunk.” Lynn responded lazily.

“What happened?” “……,” Lynn half-answered.

“Had a fight with him?” I was hot with anxiety.

Lynn finally looked me square in the eye and gazed.

I stared at her in awe, the girl was the most beautiful at all times, including her current lost look.

“You live together?” Lynn asked suddenly.

A trace of timidity actually grew in my heart, and I asked rhetorically, “Who told you that?” “Jia Cheng, today.” Lynn said fiercely through clenched teeth.

I’ve never seen her look like this before and mumbled, “Well, what’s wrong?” Lynn’s chest rose and fell violently, and she suddenly lost her voice in mourning, “Then give it back to me! Then give it back!” I was confused, “Don’t cry, don’t cry, give you back what?” Out of the corner of my eye, I saw the people around me looking over.

“Give me back what you took! What you took that day when you were drunk!” Lynn crossed her arms and braced herself on the table, burying her face in the crook of her arm and shuddering.

My whole body is numb, sweating profusely, my thoughts are confused, “So you know.” “If I didn’t know, you wouldn’t say anything for the rest of your life, would you?” “I couldn’t help myself that day.” I did not say sorry, this time any guilt apology are obviously so pale and powerless.

Lynn cried so hard that she convulsed, I got up and sat beside her, massaging her undershirt with my hand, “Don’t cry, don’t cry anymore, I’ll do whatever you want me to do, that is, it’s no problem if you want me to go to my death right away.” My heart aches as if it were broken and I regret it, if she told me to die right now, I would do it painfully.

I can’t believe I made Lynn so miserable.

“Why did you do that?” Lynn asked, lifting her delicate face full of remnants of tears.

“I love you because I love you.” I finally said it, as a relief.

“Not in love now are you?” Lynn stared at me.

“Love, I still love you deeply, always have.” As I said this, my eyes filled with warmth and my beautiful Lynn blurred.

“Then why did you go and live with someone else?” Lynn said softly.

“Because you don’t love me.” I replied breathlessly.

“You stupid! You’re so stupid!” Lynn’s pink fists rained down on my chest, her petite body leaning into my arms.

“I’m stupid?” “If I didn’t love you, why did I give it to you that day? Why didn’t I sue you afterward? Why show up every year on your birthday?” Tear after tear welled up on Lynn’s face and hung all over her face.

Great joy and happiness welled up from my heart, I was so shocked and happy that my voice trembled, “Then why do you only see me a couple times a year, and why did you say last time that you wanted to say yes to someone’s marriage proposal?” “Because you like the color blue, you’re frivolous, you’re flamboyant, I want to wait for you to mature, I’ve rejected countless men’s advances, and rejected three men’s marriage proposals, all to wait for you, last time I said that because I hope you can mature faster, I agreed with you early on, and later reminded you: once you start, no matter how good or bad it is, you have to start from the beginning to the end. I thought we had a tacit understanding, I thought we were unspoken, but you …… you forgot all of this! You went to live with someone else!” Lynn cried scolding in pain.

I was dumbfounded, it turned out that happiness had always been so close to me, it turned out that my love for Lynn had started a long, long time ago.

Forty-one. Leave.

The next morning, I went back to the rental house.

As soon as she opened the door, she saw Flattery, who hadn’t gone to work and was still wearing that beautiful tide-embroidered satin dress, sitting in the living room sofa and staring, her hair matted and haggard, with only the lipstick she wore last night still bright.

I put a few papers and a couple of floppy disks from the computer desk into my briefcase before going into the bedroom to gather my clothes.

Flattery followed me in smoke-like, leaning against the door and asking softly, “You’re leaving?” I nodded and continued stuffing clothes into my suitcase, seeing that a couple of them were the assorted blue shirts that Flattery had helped me buy over the past six months, and took them out again, placing them on the bed.

Flattery added, “You’re not taking these with you?” I said, “No.” I tried to be euphemistic, but it didn’t come out. I looked around to make sure there was nothing else I should take with me, so I locked up my suitcase, walked past her, grabbed my briefcase in the living room, and was about to open the door to go out, when I heard Flattery scream, “Wait!” My heart skipped a beat and I turned to look at her silently.

Fluttershy said, “Hold on, it’ll be quick.” Darting off into the kitchen.

After a few minutes, I still didn’t see her come out, so I got a little impatient, “I’m leaving.” Flirt came out with a bowl of something and said, “Well, well, you haven’t eaten anything this morning, have you? Drink this bowl of milk before you go.” I frowned, how can I still enjoy her tenderness at this time? Just said, “No, I have to rush to the unit, I’ll order takeout then.” Turned around and left.

Flattery held out a hand to pull me in, “How long can it take to drink a bowl of milk? It’s not good for you to keep skipping in the morning.” Refusing to tangle with her one more time, I wrenched my arm and heard Flattery let out a soft whimper, followed by the cracking sound of the bowl crashing to the ground.

I turned around and saw that the bowl had been smashed to powder, the milk splattered all over the floor, and two shelled hard-boiled eggs rolled out of the way.

Fluttershy was stunned for a moment, slowly crouching down to pick up the pieces.

I was over the moon, but figured I mustn’t be a mother-in-law at this point, so I pushed open the door to my room and walked out.

To the downstairs, did not see Charming chase, do not know why, stood there for a while to stay, and then turned to go up the stairs, in the doorway quietly probe into, saw her still picking up debris, the hands have been cut to blood, the face is still muddled as if they do not know.

My heart flinched and I almost wanted to run the house and go in, but in the end I held back, because I knew that if I took this step back in, I was afraid that I would never be able to leave it.

Forty-two. The lover is gone.

I took my annual vacation and went with Lynn to some famous island for over half a month.

Every day was simple, nothing more than holding hands to watch the sunrise and sunset, blowing the sea breeze, taking walks, writing poems, and we had one of the happiest times in our lives.

But good things never last, and on the third day after returning to the st, Lynn made a trip home and has been moping ever since.

When I repeatedly asked, Lynn always responded vaguely, and we were even more in love than ever.

I, however, felt vaguely bad and was always on edge.

After a month of this, Lynn suddenly told me one night that she was leaving to go sh her brother’s branch to help out, long term, maybe never to return.

I almost deflated and asked her what the real reason was, and I didn’t believe it was for work reasons.

Lynn only insisted, “Really, that’s the reason, I’ve wanted to go to SH for a long time.” I weakly wept in front of her, begging her not to go, telling her that this would be the end of me, for good.

Lynn kissed away my tears and urged me not to be disheveled again under any circumstances, no matter what, or she would be very sad.

On the day I saw the plane off, half an hour before takeoff, Lynn suddenly said to me, “You know what? Li Jia loves you very, very much, the day you left she cut her vein, if the door was not left open just as an upstairs neighbor passed by, she may not be in this world, you should cherish her, and now she is still waiting for you in the cozy little nest you once had.” I was furious: “You are so great! Our love can’t stand up to a childish pity, to give me as a consolation to others, this is our agreement? Is this the promise we made when we were young? I won’t forgive you. I won’t forgive you for the rest of my life! You don’t think I’ll listen to your ridiculous arrangement!” Lynn entered the ticket checker as her tears fell.

The plane flew away.

I suddenly realized that I could have been happy in this life, but I had killed it with my own decadence.

Forty-three. Blue passes.

I rushed up to my former nest like a madman, and Flattery, shocked and delighted, actually asked, “What brings you …… here?” I hated her hypocrisy and started smashing things, the phone, the stereo, the TV, the refrigerator and the microwave, yelling at her, “What did you go and tell Lynn? You like to cut your veins don’t you? Well, we’ll cut it together, or we’ll jump from here together, and we’ll be together, forever! Don’t you want to be with me!” Charming cried, “I didn’t go to her, she came here to see me on her own, I only told her the story of how we used to be, saying that I only wanted you for three years without telling her a single lie, don’t believe me, go and ask her to come and confront me face to face.” I was furious, “I’ll go invite her? She’s gone and will never come back! You’re asking me to invite her?

Where am I going to hire her?” With nothing left to wrestle with in the living room, I stormed back into the bedroom in search of something new to vent on, yanking open the closet, pulling such as a blue shirt of various styles, and finding a pair of clippers to rip as I went.

Charming grabbed up and hugged my arm, crying, “Don’t cut, please don’t cut.” I saw that she cared, and cut even more painfully, a thousand strands of blue rags flying in all directions from the air.

Charming suddenly screamed, “This one can’t be cut!” Hands clasped my arms in a death grip.

I squinted at the third button and saw a dark shade of Chu red, sneered, and broke through the middle with a cut.

Flattery shivered as if it was flesh on her body I was cutting, and suddenly said, “Don’t cut it, I’ll never pester you again! Really.” I stopped my hand and gazed at her coldly.

Charming mournfully knelt on the ground, holding those blue rags tightly in her arms, sobbing uncontrollably, “You’re so cruel, you’re so cruel, since you don’t love me at all, why did you come to me that day? Why did you carry me that day?” I finally calmed down, dropped the clippings, and saw her climb up against the wall, her mouth still mumbling:

“It’s not fair, it’s really not fair.” I said faintly, “It’s never fair, it’s never fair in this world, God is never fair.” With an almost cold amusement in my heart, my head went out the door without looking back, down the stairs, and out of the way.

I knew that the blue phase of this life had finally passed, Flattery had lost me, and I had lost Lynn.

Forty-four. The Last Flirt.

A year passed quickly, I worked like a rock, wrote articles, seldom drank, did not go to the wind, and basically broke contact with Lingling, Aya, Xian’er, and Yuan Yuan.

Occasionally, late at night, no one will receive a phone call, caller ID is a strange cell phone number, and then I got used to it, connecting the phone and do not ask who it is, but just silent with each other dry, quiet and listen to each other’s soft breathing.

I hope it’s Lynn.

During this time, instead, I had more contact with Ru Ru, who blabbed whenever I saw her, and occasionally went dancing, listening to songs or clubbing together, and I wanted to get Rin’s news from her.

Ru Ru always kept her mouth shut, and when I pushed her, she hummed a song I forgot: “If there is a time in your life, there will be a time; if there is no time in your life, don’t force yourself to do it.” One night in a disco, we were shaking our heads on the dance floor, and Ru Ru suddenly pointed in a certain direction and told me to look.

It took me a lot of effort to recognize one of them from the crowd as Charmaine, who had cut her long hair, which I was proud of, and dyed it a very provocative rose color, rose lip gloss, a black tank top, her breasts pointed so that people could tell that she wasn’t wearing a bra, and a short leather skirt underneath, with the only thing that was still true to her was a pair of black high-heeled sandals, which she was throwing around in an extremely seductive and sluttish dance amongst the gang of bad boys. The only thing that’s left is a pair of black sandals that still have their original color.

I watched in awe for a few moments to see Flattery take a break from the ring, her body pressed affectionately against a kid in a bright blue top.

Ru Ru said, “It’s Nige’s circle.” When I recognized it carefully, I knew that RuRu was not wrong, and I couldn’t help but feel a wave of revulsion, that circle of people with all five drugs, just that small role is worse than the former me, the legend is that they robbed, chopped people, took drugs, and had group sex.

The kid in blue lights Flattery’s cigarette for him, and Flattery kisses him like no one else is watching.

I suddenly walked towards her and RuRu tried to pull but didn’t.

A couple of lousy guys eyed me warily, and Flattery saw them, exhaled a smoke ring, and told them, “My friend.” I said to Flattery, “Chatty, over there.” Pointing to the bardai.

Charming actually looked at the blue-clothed kid, who looked at me, with a sharp gaze and shady eyes, and a frivolous and uninhibited look.

I looked at him faintly and saw him nod slowly.

Flattery went with me to sit at the bartender, asked for a dubolgalant, took a drag on her cigarette, and gracefully rested her fragrant cheeks in one hand as she waited for me to speak.

I took a look at her hair and couldn’t help but say, “It’s ugly as hell, like a doghouse.” Charming glanced at me and said, “It’s none of your business if it’s ugly or not?” Eyes glanced toward the boy, said, “He likes it.” “Don’t hang out with these guys, you’ll suffer.” A pang of anxiety ran through me.

“Thanks, what else?” Stunned, I just felt tasteless, realizing that Flattery had become a complete stranger.

I went back to my seat, “How was it?” RuRu asked.

“It was only two conversations, only two conversations.” I was filled with depression.

Kisaragi added, “That kid’s eyes are awesome.” “Awesome my ass! Fake, there is no content inside, the blue color has long been out of date, and now still wearing a wobbly, the whole hall on him is the most eye-catching, play cool and no taste.” I don’t know how to spit out so much at once like a fire, and there was an overwhelming feeling of complexity in my heart: Flattery had fallen.

RuRu took a sip of her wine, looked at me and said, “Do you want to hear my sentiments?” I don’t think she can have any high opinion, “Whatever.” “To be honest, that kid actually looks like you, like the old you, it’s almost like he’s from the same mold, and Flattery, she looks like that Aya, the one you used to have.” That was the last time I saw Flattery.

Forty-five. Thanks to you.

A new number added to my qq one day with the name Field Breeze.

We knew each other at first sight, and every time we chatted late at night, I poured out my thoughts of Lynn to her, while she asked me about my life, my work, the changes in this seaside city I was in, and encouraged me when I was down.

One day routine meeting, the system briefing has a brief: the system xx unit finance section chief Li Mou (female) use their position, embezzlement, misappropriation of public funds 246. 50,000 yuan, has been arrested by the public security organs.

I found Jing Jin and asked, she was already the mother of a two year old boy, her temperament had become gentle and generous, and she had long been relieved of my roughness back then, “Yes, it was Li Jia.” “What does she need so much money for?” “I heard that she raised a little rotten kid for his drug addiction.” “How many years will she get?” “I’m not sure, I heard that her dad is running around, so I guess it’ll be a lesser sentence.” Thinking of that flowery and charming girl with a bright future a few years ago, I can’t help but feel sad.

Jing Jin looked at me, suddenly said faintly: “To say a word of politeness, Li Jia’s today, half is thanks to you.” Forty-six, God is fair to me and Tianyuan Breeze developed to talk about nothing, a day a emai, love to the thick of it and even net intercourse, one night she suddenly asked: “Do not want to think of your Lin?” I said I want to, want to heartbreak.

Lynn then returned to this beautiful seaside city, we are back together again, each other have a kind of once upon a time the feeling of the sea, I let her everything, serious life, thinking that this time there is no longer anything can separate us.

But such godly days lasted only six months, maybe God got jealous, or maybe it was time for me to pay my debt, and the world-shattering catastrophe took Lynn without a second thought, not even letting me see her for the last time.

I’ve only been drinking for half a month, remembering what Lynn used to say about not being disheveled for too long.

I really got better, continued to live peacefully, worked, wrote articles, wrote about three dozen articles about Lynn, coaxed a lot of tears from people I knew or didn’t know, and used the article fees to sponsor a fourteen year old poor girl, taking care of her schooling and living expenses from junior high school to college.

One fall, organizing Lynn’s things, but inadvertently found a set of keys, the keychain is a cartoon pig with a small light bulb, I suddenly had an impulse to go to Tuping Lane that night, to find Sister Li, before I could say anything, she asked: “How come it has been a long time since I have seen you two come over? Did you buy a new house?” Took out a stack of utility bills to ask me to reimbursement, the number is very small, are the bottom of the meter fee.

I was surprised, “The house hasn’t been rented to someone else?” Sister Li was also surprised and said, “How can I rent it to someone else? Your wife has paid three years’ rent in advance, and even though she hasn’t seen you come over, she doesn’t dare to touch your house, what if something is missing?” Three years! I pressed the things that are about to come out of my eyes and flew up the stairs, trembling hand half a day to open the door lock.

Everything in the house was so familiar, all the things were still neatly arranged according to the old habits, just covered with a thin layer of dust.

Like an old man returning to his former home many years ago, I looked east and felt west, and found a cardboard box on the bedside table in the bedroom that hadn’t been there before, with a note taped to it: “Spurned by the king, deplored by the concubine, once entwined, by the ground of ruthlessness.” It was unsigned, but the beautiful script made me instantly recognize whose handwriting it was.

It took all my strength to open the box, and trembling, I took out what was inside; it was a couple of shirts-blue pieces of cloth that had once been broken into a thousand pieces, blue shirts that had been reconnected with a thousand stitches, blue shirts that had taken I don’t know how much spirit and energy to re-sew together.

I burst into tears and mourned silently, finding a hint of darker chukkas at the third button of one of the pieces, knowing that the blue stage that cuts through this life is what Flattery cherishes the most.

Downstairs, Sister Li asked me if I do not continue to rent, face rather ugly, said there have been other people want to rent, were rejected by her, said the remaining months of rent can be refunded half back to me.

I said I’d rent it, and I’d have to come over to stay once in a while, and then come back at the end of the year to pay next year’s rent, so maybe I’d rent it for a long, long time.

I took my annual leave and went all the way to that famous prison in the north of the province to complete the formalities to visit Flattery. The prison authorities told me that the application was approved, but she refused to see you.

That night, on the bumpy long-distance bus, I dreamed of flattery in the bathroom panicked beauty mask on the face to wash off, in my arms pouting, said: “I never want you to see my ugly.” Since then, every night when the silence, the former lingering tenderness will come to find me, that is a kind of do not know is the grace of love feelings, that is a kind of desire to die of soul, that is a kind of five inside like burning torment, whenever the tears from the dream to wake up, whenever looking at the mirror in the increasingly haggard face, I know, the rest of the day is not too much.

Suddenly, I have come to realize that God is actually fair, and whoever takes advantage of the situation will eventually have to pay back, and not only will he have to pay back, but he will also have to add interest.

God, your design is really ingenious, letting me get Lynn after a lot of hard work, and then telling me to lose her in the blink of an eye, this is indeed the most cruel punishment, but I admit it.

When I went to see Lin, I said to her: “In addition to you, now I often think of Flattery, you know, I owe her too much, be good, don’t be angry, don’t take too long, I will go to accompany you.” Blue shirt, no matter what it stands for, no matter whether it is cut or not shredded, no matter whether I like it or not, in this life, after all, I have worn.

Met her on a Saturday night. Remember it was late. She was at an internet cafe all night. I couldn’t sleep either (a person immersed in sexual misery). I saw her avatar on QQ was still on. So I sent a description of sex without any good intentions. After a while, she returned a message back. She said I was so bad. By this time I was already excited. The reason was self-explanatory. So I argued for her opinion and videoed her. In the video she gave me the first impression of a pure little girl. Feeling is not bad.

We chatted all night in QQ, and she told me briefly about her situation. She is a junior in a teacher’s college in this region. It is very close to my dormitory. They are required to live on campus. Friday, and can go home on Saturday. Her family is also in the city and close to my dorm. One can think of my dorm as a middle point. Her school and home were on either side. It was four or five o’clock when we got off the line and we exchanged phone numbers.

The next afternoon, Sunday afternoon. She came to the Internet again. We chatted for a while and I asked her to come to my house to play. Because she had to study late. She had to go back to school at five o’clock. So didn’t come over. The time was too short and I didn’t go to look for her. Suiran is very close.

On Monday, we exchanged a few texts.

Tuesday, Blank

Wednesday, Blank

On Thursday, I got a text from her. I didn’t know what day of the week it was at the time. She said she was on vacation tomorrow. I just remembered. Tomorrow is Friday. That means. We can meet tomorrow. Excited~!

On Friday, I went out to run some errands. Didn’t get back until the evening. We had been texting in between. I offered to meet up with her. She said she’s a materialistic girl. It would cost me a lot of money if we dated. I wrote back and said I’d be happy if you helped me spend all my money. (Do you believe this? Later, she said that you can give me three hundred dollars tonight. (Speaking psychologically. When I received this message, my mood immediately changed from sunny to cloudy. It gave me the feeling as if she was out to sell. But at this time my mind is thinking. If she is a virgin. I’ll do it for three hundred dollars. This is not expensive. I’ve never met a virgin in my life. If not. Get her a room. I’ll go myself. It’s no big loss.) After making up my mind, I gave her two words back. Okay. Soon she wrote back and said she admired me. Finally we made an appointment for seven o’clock. Meet in front of an Internet cafe called Meteor.

I haven’t eaten anything after a busy day. Wanted to go get something to eat. Got an older woman to come out and eat McDonald’s with me. (A couple years older than me.) After we ate we went our separate ways. I had a pair of wings and a cup of fries, but wasn’t full. Walked to the Hui Min Restaurant in front of me and had another bowl of beef noodle. Sorry about that. I ate a bit too much. I’m sorry. While I was eating the noodles, she called and said she was done. I asked her if she had eaten, she said not yet. She asked me if I had eaten, I said I was eating. She said, “I’m going to eat first,” she said. I said, I finished eating, call you.

When I was about to walk to that cyber city, I called her phone number and she said she would wait for me at the entrance. When I got to the entrance of the cyber city, she was walking towards me from a supermarket across the street. My first impression was that of a little girl, but she had dyed her hair corn-colored. And permed. Gave it a pretty chic look.

That night on QQ. I asked her if she had ever had any sexual experience. She said no. No boyfriend either. I was very excited. It can’t be that I met a virgin.

Her name is Rain. She looked unnatural when we met. It was already dark. According to her own description. She was blushing. I didn’t notice. Oh. She is not tall, maybe one meter five or so. Very petite (but not thin). Already has obvious physical features. Casually not big. But when you see her breasts, you’ll know she’s a woman. Heh. She’s wearing a purple sweater. Dark blue jeans. Hair draped over her shoulders, dressed maturely, though not quite attached to her age and that petite face.

I asked her, have you eaten yet? She said not yet. I said, let’s go eat first then. So we went into a small restaurant next door. We went in and took a look. It was all full down there. And, I felt like everyone around me was looking at me. Panic set in. Maybe I was too nervous. Because she’s only nineteen. I’m twenty-five. Wearing glasses, I look like a college student. （Luckily, there are still rooms upstairs. We went upstairs. It was just the two of us. She ordered two dishes. One duck, one tofu. Before the food was served, we were chatting upstairs. The atmosphere was a bit depressing. It’s our first time meeting. And she’s very small. I didn’t know what to talk to her about. Where to start. (I haven’t really met any little girls, and I’m not really good at finding things to talk about.) I just felt that she was very nervous and her hands were always messing with the purple sweater she was wearing. After a while. I have nothing to do, I keep smoking the cigarette in my hand. One after another. (What I remember most clearly is that she kept drinking water there, drinking five or six glasses. Probably because she was nervous.) The food came up. She began to eat, because I ate a very full also did not accompany her, politely pinch a mouthful of food. She answered a phone call. It seemed to be a friend asking her to go out, but she didn’t go. Then my phone also rang, it was a classmate calling from his hometown. What a relief. I was worried that I had nothing to talk about. After answering the phone, I looked at it. Twelve minutes. By this time she had also finished eating. She came downstairs. I paid the bill. Asked her where to play. She said, let’s go to the Internet. Fainted~! We went into Meteor Internet City again.

Into the Internet cafe, I went to buy two two-dollar card, began to surf the Internet. She sat behind me, we each chat a QQ, the card soon ran out, I bought two more. This has been more than ten o’clock. She said to me, the dormitory is closed, can not go back. Let me accompany her on the overnight. I said that you will go to my house later. Then she did not reply (the above is said in QQ) she said more than ten o’clock, can not go back to the dormitory, which gave me a great psychological implication. I’m not sure if I’m going to be able to do that.

It was almost twelve. The card was finished again and I told her let’s go. She followed me out of the Internet cafe. She went straight in the direction of my house. On the way, I saw her look behind, twice. It made me nervous, fearing that I would be followed by someone. I also look behind from time to time. There is a guest house of the Construction Bank near my house, which is in very good condition. In the past, I used to bring my friends to stay there. In order not to have any accidents, I still decided to take her to get a room. When I got to the downstairs of the guesthouse, I said to her, “I’ll go get you a room. The conditions here are not bad. She didn’t say anything, just followed me.

Got to the main desk. I told the attendant to get a double room. She tells me there’s only one 7-0-4 left and it’s a triple. Holy shit. I’ve never stayed on the seventh floor before. I had no choice. I had to open it. Took the room card. We went upstairs. She was still following me. Took me a lot of effort. Finally climbed up to the seventh floor. Into the room. I turned on the TV. Then the curtains were pulled down. Sitting down for a bit, she asked me?

Aren’t you going back? ~! Khan 。。。。

“I’ll talk to you for a while. I’ll leave in a minute.”

Start watching TV.

Ripped useless for a while. It’s already late. My cell phone is dead. It’s always giving off an alarm tone. Turn off the phone~! There’s no time to turn off my thoughts at this point.

Probably watched an hour or so of TV. I suggested. Let’s lie on the bed and watch it. She agreed. I lay down on the bed on the window side, and after a while. She also lay down. But it was the bed in the center. At this point. I suggested again. Let’s talk for a while. She agreed. So turned off the TV.

Here are our classic dialogues 🙂

“What year are you?”

“Eighty-seven.”

“Ever had a boyfriend before?”

“Turned in, last year, as a student councilor at XX College.”

“Why did you guys break up?”

“He’s too good to me and listens to me on everything. I feel pressured. It’s because he’s too good to me.” (Here, I’d like to discuss this question with the general public. Why do women treat men who are good to them with a cold shoulder? Men who treat them badly, who abandon them. Let them heartbroken. Instead, they will be in love. I hope the general public will discuss this together. (Thank you.)

“Does your family care if you get a boyfriend now?”

“They don’t care as long as they don’t delay their studies.”

“What do you guys usually do together?”

“Conversing in English, he’s studying English too that’s how we met in the English group.”

“You guys haven’t had that experience?”

“No! It’s just that he’ll make some really over-the-top gestures when no one’s around. But, when I get angry

And he’ll stop.”

“Have you ever kissed?”

“Take over~!”

　The TV and the lights had been turned off by me. The room was dark. She was lying on the bed, covered with a blanket and her face was letting the blanket block it. So the facial expression couldn’t be seen.

“The feeling is indescribable. It’s amazing.”

“Isn’t it drifting?”

uncommunicative

“So you haven’t had any experience with this?”

“Yes, it was when I was a sophomore in college because I was so innocent and didn’t know anything. There was a male classmate and I played well together. There was a class reunion that day, and he was drinking, and everyone was in my dorm. After a while everyone left, only the two of us, he said he was in a bad mood, let me accompany him. So I stayed. Who knew the nightmare had begun and I was defiled by him.”

Hearing that touched me a lot. I didn’t realize that eighteen or nineteen year olds could do such things. I didn’t even know what menstruation was when I was that age.

So I asked her very much with a skeptical tone, and she said that in Liuzhou, 18 or 19 boys are already very mature. (Is it true? There is no Liuzhou netizen ah, give me to say. You eighteen ninety-nine is not everything will be?)

“When I think about that night now, I get scared. Just want to cry. But now that I think about it, it’s nothing.”

“Don’t always think the worst, it’s just that I tasted the forbidden fruit earlier than the other girls,” was all that could be said to comfort her.

“The girls in our dorm room used to talk about their boyfriends talking too much when they couldn’t sleep at night.”

I wondered, what kind of world is this? Is it really socially progressive? Nineteen year old girls are discussing their sex lives in their dorm rooms. Can there still be virgins? You can’t touch a virgin in this life! ~

“And how do you react when they say that? Sometimes I run out. And sometimes I want to. In the summer, when you can’t sleep at night and everyone is wearing very little. That’s what they talk about. In the summer I only wear a nightgown. I like to sleep in the nude, when I’m at home in my own room, I sleep in the nude.” Hearing this, my brother has been a little bit unable to hold his breath (it seems that all girls are like this nowadays, and I’m still wearing a pair of pants~!)

“Well, you can sleep naked now, too.”

Silence again.

“Well, do you want to?”

“I want to, but the thought of that night scares me. What did you think of that one?”

“Sex is sacred and wonderful~!”

“Do you want to?”

“I want to.”

“So do you want to now?”

Silence again.

“Do you mind if I come over?”

Remain silent.

Asked again, still silent.

“A silent answer?”

Or is it silence?

By now I had pressed myself and sat up from the bed. Standing up and sitting down again, standing up and

Sit down. After a fierce mental struggle, lust finally overcame reason and went to her

Bedside. Lifted the covers over her and got in.”

As soon as I got under the covers, I unfolded my arms, placing one arm under her neck. The other arm rested on her body, which, at this point, was facing me, lying on her side. I could feel her body trembling at the moment. I knew she was excited and scared at the moment. So I talked to her again. To distract her. Trying not to let the shadow of her former self, affect her. I wanted to bring her out of that shadow. Maybe because of that, as I held her, I didn’t have any erotic urges. It was mentally honest. I asked her, are you afraid? She said yes. I went on to say, “Don’t be afraid, it will get better later.

After talking for a while, she was calming down and her body wasn’t shaking anymore. I then began, the action.

I ran my fingers lightly over her back and neck a few times and she reacted in a big way. Made a humming noise. It was so arousing. After a bit of foreplay, she was finally won over. Then it was all over.

Maybe it’s because I haven’t touched a woman in a long time. And the fact that she was really tight there, it took half a day’s work to get in. It didn’t take more than a few strokes for me to gush out.

It’s like, girls are extra horny when they first do it, and she wanted me four or five times that night. I can’t even remember. All I remember is that as soon as I opened my eyes, I saw her expectant gaze. She didn’t want to have sex with me. She wanted to kill me! ~

The first time, I put my subs outside her. When it was over, she asked if I would get pregnant and I said no. Later. Simply, nothing.

This sleep lasted until noon. The front desk called to say that there would be an increase after twelve, so I hurriedly got up and filled a shower. Checked out of the room with her. Prepared to eat lunch together, and then so I could send her back to school.

I passed a drugstore and I told her to wait for me while I went in and bought a box of Yukon. (This job is the one I focus on the most, whether it’s with a former girlfriend or whatever. I never skimp on the ten dollars. Because. It concerns the rest of my life. I don’t want to spend it in fear)

After dinner, I sent her back to school. There’s a supermarket near the school. The same supermarket she walked out of when we met. I went in with her and bought some snacks and fruits for girls. After we finished paying, we walked out of the supermarket, and I said to her, “I won’t see you off” (one reason is that I don’t want to be too publicized, after all, it’s not a good thing to do. Another reason is that I don’t want to know her too well. Because, I don’t have much feeling for her. Do not want to get too close) At this time, I handed the box of medicine to her. When I left, she asked me to call her.

In the afternoon, I got a couple more texts from her. The text messages began like this. Dear** At this point I had fainted. Immediately recognized the seriousness of the situation. I sent a message back. Do you like me? Soon the other side replied, not “like” is “love” ！！！！！ At this time my brain is blank. In fact, this matter, from the beginning to the end. I am deeply for their own form. Repent. A small girl, so easy to deliver themselves to me. This love, how can I afford ah. But what can I say to her? I also wondered if it was because of her first taste of forbidden fruit that she turned her excitement and thirst for sex into emotion. Transformed into emotion. It makes me anxious.

After a while, she messaged again and said, can I stay with you tonight? I replied, I’m tired and want to rest early. She replied, I won’t disturb you at night, I just want to be with you. I replied, I don’t want to go out, I want to rest at home. She replied again, I won’t disturb you, I just want to be with you. No way. I had to agree with the meaning. She asked me to meet her at eight o’clock, not in front of the Meteor Internet cafe. I don’t see it. (Is there any lesbian ah. Can you help me analyze. What is her mentality? I’m looking forward to it!)

I showed up at eight o’clock on time in front of the internet cafe. She was already waiting there. She said, let’s go on the Internet first. On an hour, on the Internet for a while, we went back to the last time the guest house, said the guest house, in fact, the conditions are very good. Should have three-star standard. CCB’s, let’s think about it, it shouldn’t be wrong.

She really didn’t argue with me this time, but I couldn’t restrain myself. The onslaught began. And she got into it, too. She said to me, “If you do that, I’m going to want it all later. I didn’t respond to her.

We did it twice this night, both for a long time. We did it again in the morning when we woke up and we both worked well together.

Around eleven o’clock we all took a shower. Got dressed and went our separate ways, I didn’t see her off.

She messaged me when she got back and said she had arrived at school. After a while asked if I had eaten yet. Got another message from her at 4 or 5 pm. Asking why I didn’t bring her to my house. I said that my house was too messy. (Of course, on the one hand, the house is really too messy, I think, friends should also be able to imagine a single male dormitory will be a kind of situation. Another reason is that I haven’t had the courage to think about letting her come home. For fear of burdening a responsibility. To leave myself a way out.)

She said, it’s okay I’ll clean it for you. I said, don’t you have class tomorrow and you have a late study session today. She said, I just want to come to your house. I’ll take a vacation later. I agreed to take her home after a fierce mental struggle. Because there was really no reason not to bring her back.

It was about five or six o’clock when she asked me to pick her up in front of the Internet cafe. I arrived as promised. Today she wore a white white dress, a black skirt, a pair of small black leather boots. Looks more and more pure and lovely. She told me. This is her mom bought for her. Her school are this kind of lady clothes. It’s all bought by mom. She doesn’t like to wear it. I told her. This is what suits you. And complimented, you are very beautiful today ah. She said, “I’m beautiful every day,” in a petulant voice. I immediately admitted that I was wrong.

You’re pretty every day, but even prettier today. That’s a big hit with her.

When I finally arrived home, I asked her if it was too much of a mess. She still took care of my feelings and answered, no. That statement, I’m sure of.

She was against her will. She went on the internet for a while and it was almost twelve before we rested. My poor little single bed. Today finally can open meat, he also has not smelled a woman for a long time. after ML. After the ML, I had a good night’s sleep. She woke up at six in the morning. Because at 7:30 to study. I’m still awake. She touched my DD and I realized she was already wet. I immediately got into the fight though. It was very spoiled. Halfway done, she said, I have to go or I won’t be late. Ugh, had to let little DD resign herself to her fate. She asked me to walk her downstairs and I slouched on the bed and pretended to be tired. Refused to walk her. She went downstairs by herself and it was raining outside at some point. She returned to get an umbrella. I don’t want to sleep anymore, I got up. Then I went to the computer.

Started my creation, which is the opening paragraph.

This incident happened this past Saturday.

She sent me a text the day before yesterday. Said to come, I returned is let her study hard. She sent one back saying, I want to come out but I can’t come out yet, why are you in such a hurry, do you not like me. I did not return. Stayed a while, she sent another said, if you do not like to say straight, stuffed in the heart is quite difficult. I really don’t know how to answer her. Now every day she will give me now message, the beginning is either called darling, or called husband. Today, she even asked me if I miss her. I’m not sure if I’m going to be able to get a good deal on this, but I’m sure I’ll be able to. I said I am her man, can not touch other women. I just now, I am now a married man. The problem is quite serious 。。。。。。

I got another text from her today that read. Honey, I can’t get out right now, can you pay my phone bill? I can’t get out now. Can I give it to you when I get out? I didn’t reply. After a while, to go out to do business. Walked to the familiar phone bill pay point. (There was an unfinished story here, too.) I paid her 50 dollars for her phone bill. Then I went on my way.

At the end of the night, she sent me a message that said this.

“Dear ‘fool’, I love you! Love you-not for helping me pay my bills, but love you for being ‘silent’. Love you for not being silent or doing anything.”

I only replied with the word “swoon”.

“Don’t faint, don’t dislike people who take credit, you didn’t tell me did you?”

“As long as you’re happy.”

“That’s nice! I’ve been reading. Have you eaten?”

“No, don’t mind me you go about your business.”

She texted again a little after nine.

“Good night darling, sweet dreams 。。。。”

“Good dreams.”

“But I can’t sleep right now, are you on the internet?”

“Yes.”

“So you’ll talk with me?”

“Okay.”

“What kind of girls do you like?”

“I don’t know” is the mental phrase, I really can’t figure out what kind of love I want, what kind of girl. I’ve been at a loss.

“Oh… I’m going to bed, good night!”

On Thursday, she messaged me and said she was supposed to get her period today, but it hadn’t come yet. It was very irritating. I thought it might be because of the pills. But I was still a little nervous, afraid that something would go wrong. On Friday afternoon, she sent me another message saying she wanted to see me. I began to beat the drums again, thinking, “I don’t think I’ve come yet,” she said.

In the evening, we still met in front of that internet cafe. (Seems like I haven’t described her carefully until now, so I’ll fill in the details now.) She is about one meter five tall, weighs about ninety pounds, is very small, the body is also very proportional, is a little short. A head of long hair, which she had capriciously dyed chestnut and permed, and underneath it was a face full of childishness. Her face was slightly round, and her skin color was slightly darker (making it feel awkward and mismatched, if it was shawl hair it would have looked very ladylike) Actually she wasn’t pretty, but she wasn’t ugly either. Wearing a white sweater on top, outside is a purple coat (the kind that was very popular last year).

Underneath he wore a pair of blue and white checkered pants. It was a very flattering kind. On her feet, she wore a pair of casual white flat-heeled leather shoes, portraying her small figure with a woman’s unique curvature as well. At a glance, it gave people a very pure and clean feeling. We walked together from the Internet cafe on the bridge (Internet cafe in the bridge below), walking on the bridge, I watched behind her graceful steps, and saw the river flowing slowly into the distance, the distant point of light. And slowly blowing the river wind, this scene, let me suddenly have a kind of want to take care of the side of this tender little girl’s impulse.

There were no words along the way. We got to the other side of the bridge and I suggested walking off the bridge to sit by the river. When we got to the river, I reached out and spread a plastic bag in my hand underneath her. I could tell this made her happy. I looked at her with great tenderness. She asked me shyly, why do you keep looking at me ah? I replied, you are especially beautiful today. She asked me again, isn’t every day beautiful? I still answered, today is going to be more beautiful than every day. She turned her head away after hearing that. Looked at the river and stopped talking. Until then I asked her, looking for me what, she said, just want to see me. I asked her didn’t you say your friend didn’t visit you?

She realized after half a day that it had only come today. When it reached her, she didn’t move. Still looking at the river. Waited a few more minutes I lied to her and said. There’s something on your face, don’t move. I help you look. She turned her head. Four eyes met. She burrowed into my arms. And so, I don’t know how long it was before she straightened up (my butt was sore from sitting). I didn’t realize it was almost eleven o’clock. I said to her, let’s go back. She said no, she still wants to sit. She liked the feeling. In fact, I also quite like, but. It is indeed a little late, the lights on the bridge have gone out. At my insistence, she finally agreed to go home with me.

On the way back, she was holding my hand the whole way back.

When we got home, after washing up, we laid down on the bed. Because I know she is not convenient today, also want to sleep honestly, but, not a moment, she can not stay up. She said she wanted to, grabbed my hand, and put it on her small breast. I said, this will be infected, not good. She said, “It’s only the unhygienic who get infections. I bathe every day. Unable to resist her temptation, I finally gave in. Luckily, I still have the original TT I bought. Oh. However. My bed sheet, still a piece of crimson. With the fact that it was only done once, but the quality is still very high. She said she had three orgasms. （Shit. I realize I’m getting better at this. Haha! ~Haha! ~~!)

Of the three days of the weekend. It was basically spent like this. Once during the day, once at night. More than one affects the quality. Also tired.

Sunday night, I accompanied her to the grocery store to buy, some food, her snacks for the week, and she didn’t spend much. More than fifty dollars, the same as last week. And then there’s that fifty rounds for the phone bill. None of us mentioned it again.

We met up again on the weekend of SSE. Two more crazy days together. But I can’t find the feeling of that night at the river anymore. I guess I’m a selfish, selfish man. Now I can be sure that I really don’t like her and I’m not right for her. I think it’s time for us to end it. These days she also sent me a few messages I did not reply. I think, let this thing so quietly past it. Originally, I have to find just a kind of stimulation. After the passion, there is nothing. Let it all go away.

But a single man, how to solve his physical problems. In fact, the physical or secondary, who can understand a man in the soul of loneliness. In fact, men are also very fragile animals. Especially a man in a foreign land.

On Friday afternoon, I went down to the countryside to run some errands. Contact business. Finished the business and was riding back in the car. Suddenly I got a call from her. She asked me where I was and I said I was on my way home. She told me to call her when I got home.

Putting the phone down, I sent her a message.

“I want to give you a parting gift, what do you want?”

“Gifts are waived, and by the way, if I have one in the meantime, just promise to take charge, no would be best, thanks”

“You really don’t want anything?”

“Then you send me a bottle of water, huh?”

I fell into a contemplation of not immense guilt and didn’t reply to the message again

I got another text from her when I got home.

“Will you give me whatever gift I ask for?”

“Yes, as long as it’s not too much.”

“Of course. I’ll call you when I’m ready.”

“What do you mean?”

“Nothing ya, I just want a gift that isn’t too much.”

In the evening, around seven o’clock. She called and said she was waiting for me at that internet cafe. Told me to hurry over. Of course I was wandering the streets. I told her I’d have to wait an hour. About eight or nine o’clock like I came to the Internet cafe. I went in and saw her chatting with QQ, and I didn’t know how to talk to her, so I did it on the second chair on her left. We are separated by a little girl. She never saw me. Until after twenty minutes or so she sent me a message.

“When are you coming over? I have to go back to school later.”

“I’ll sit next to you.”

That’s when she looked to her left and right and realized I was sitting there. After another moment, she turned the machine off. And told me to go.

She walked in front of me and I followed behind her like a little child who had made a mistake. She went up to the bridge and I followed, during which time we did not say a word.

Walking to the middle of the bridge, she stopped. Turned around and said.

“Well, here it is.”

I stopped dead in my tracks.

“Just here, give me one last hug, that’s not too much to ask” I said nothing and took her in my arms with both hands. It was only a minute or so before she broke free from my embrace and walked straight away without looking back.

It was as if I had broken a bottle of flavor in my heart. I can’t tell you what kind of flavor it is, anyway, it’s particularly unpleasant. I stood there, looking at the slowly flowing river. Only after a few minutes did I come back to my senses. Toward home. Walked for a while, I played a motorcycle. Almost home when the phone rang, I looked at her call. I answered the phone because I couldn’t hear much in the car. I got off and paid the money and got out of the car. But I could hear that she was crying on the phone.

“Can you give me a reason? Can you tell me why? Is it just an inappropriate sentence? I want you to give me a reason.”

I was silent for a long time before I answered her

“I’ll like you as I would a sister, but I won’t fall in love with you.”

After a few seconds “Okay, I got it.”

Without waiting for me to speak again, she hung up the phone already. Those few short minutes shook me again and deeper. My nose was a little sore. Sitting on the stone steps next to the road, I re-examined and realized myself, and I knew that I had deeply hurt a little girl. I began to despise myself.