Although I lost my parents at an early age, God was kind to me and gave me a tall and handsome body. The labor in the orphanage made me develop a strong and well-proportioned body, and my naturally deep eyes seem to be able to see through everything in a woman. Since I was still in school, many girls’ eyes have often darted around my body, and even female teachers like to stare at my embarrassed face in class. Sometimes, in order to avoid embarrassment, I always try to sit in a corner far away from the podium, but I still can’t escape the women’s eager gaze. But due to the strict management of the orphanage, I was never seduced by those eager women until I became an adult and joined the workforce.
Based on my personal situation, the orphanage placed me in a bar as a waitress, and since then, I have been around women. All kinds of women, old, young; slim, plump; tall, short; unmarried, married were my clients. I don’t remember their individual characteristics, but what they all had in common was – slutty! These women would stare at my face for several seconds every time they passed me, and often pointed at me when they were drinking. In order to get close to me, they often intentionally throw chopsticks on the floor, knock over wine glasses, break plates, and ask me to come over to take care of it, and then just stare at my face. More than half of the women would also take the opportunity to eat my tofu, often touching my firm thighs and strong arms, and some of them even took the opportunity of standing up to hug me and rub my back with their ample breasts. Many women took advantage of my pouring drinks for them to inquire about me, asking me where I lived and my contact information. All of their hungry and thirsty behavior told me that the most important characteristic of women is – slutty!
But the first woman who seduced me into bed was not my customer, but my boss, the lobby manager, a flirtatious woman in her late thirties.
One Phoenix Bar is a large French-style wine bar located on Hengshan Road, Shanghai’s cultural and leisure street. There are about a dozen staffs in the whole bar, among which there are about seven or eight receptionists in the front hall, two men and the rest are women. The interior of the bar is luxuriously decorated, with a strong French flavor. Reception guests are generally dressed in fashionable and noble ladies and clothes corner solemn and generous gentleman, mainland Chinese people, followed by Hong Kong and Taiwan people and rib people, and occasionally there are Europe and the United States people patronize. Every day there are about one hundred guests, mainly in the afternoon and evening, especially after eight o’clock guests are most concentrated.
Phoenix, the lobby manager of the wine bar, is a medium-sized boutique woman with a pointed chin, a pair of large eyes with flowing waves, a pretty melon face, and clear skin, which makes her look very flirtatious. With that set of dark blue work clothes, professional smile, flavorful in the midst of a kind of demure, unforgettable to the touch. Probably she is very understanding and sympathetic to my origin, I went to the wine bar in the first few days, she took special care of me, like a kindly elder, from food and clothing to the life of the work and rest are arranged for me in a neat and tidy manner. She was the first woman I knew and contacted since I entered society, and for an orphan with no relatives, she was not only my boss, but also like my mother. Although I didn’t have a clear concept of motherhood, her gentle greetings and concerned gazes always made me feel a special warmth. No matter how eager her gaze was, I took it as a pure form of care.
In those first days when I left the orphanage where I had lived for more than ten years, she did give me a special and trustworthy bond that made me feel more beautiful and loved than ever before, and filled me with hope and faith in the world. Regardless of what has happened since then, I feel that she is one of the most beautiful and important women in my life. Until today, I still often think of her soft greetings and silent glances.
It wasn’t until two weeks after I arrived at the bar, it was storming that afternoon, there wasn’t a single customer, and everyone was resting. I sat on a stool in the living room with a couple of waiters and chatted while the managers went back to their own break rooms on the fourth floor to rest.
Phoenix gently walked up to me and said, “Xiao Qiang, how are you doing here at the wine bar lately, anything you’re not used to?” Her beautiful eyes stared at my face like a loving mother.
I replied sharply, “Yes, well, it’s quite nice, but I haven’t-not quite gotten used to it yet.”
It was my first time out of the orphanage and my first time working in the community, so naturally I couldn’t get used to it all at once.
“Oh? Not adapting ah, if you need help you can ask for it.” Phoenix said gently.
“Oh no, no, no, no, I’ll be fine in a while.” I lowered my head to hide my shyness. I still felt embarrassed to be stared at by a beautiful woman, even though it was my boss and elder.
Phoenix swept a glance at the several waiters around her and said with a smile, “Sorry to mention it, why don’t you come upstairs with me and we’ll talk alone.” There was an irresistible majesty in her gentle words, after all, she was my superior.
As we walked down the stairs together, Phoenix turned back to me, “Why don’t you just come into my break room, the office is crowded, and you’re still embarrassed.”
I agreed with a red face. It was true that I was not quite used to being questioned by my superiors in front of many people, just as I was questioned and criticized by my teachers in school classes. The reason I blushed was not a premonition of what was going to happen, but an instinct, an embarrassment and shyness of being alone with a beautiful strange woman.
With that I went back to her lounge with Phoenix.
“It’s hot, close the door, I’ll turn on the air conditioning.” Once I was inside, Phoenix said softly, her tone even gentler. Two years later I looked back on her words at that time and thought it should be considered playing coy, a major advantageous item for Shanghai women.
I let out an enunciation and slammed the door shut in the process. It was still muggy, despite the torrential rain outside.
The lounge wasn’t big, other than a bed it was a dresser and a stool. I stood with my head down, frozen against the door, red-faced.
“Don’t be embarrassed, make yourself at home, you’re 18,” Phoenix smiled, “come and sit, just on the bed, the stool is too small to sit on.”
I looked down at the short stool on the side, I did feel uncomfortable sitting on it, such a stupid big man, maybe it collapsed, plus, I used to use the bed as a stool when I was in the orphanage, I sat on the bed when I was fine. I wear support once, then slowly sat on Phoenix’s bed. The bed wasn’t big, but it was softer, much better than the wooden plank bed I had in the orphanage.
“Do you want some water?” Phoenix said as she took off her outside coveralls, “I’ll pour it for you, it’s hot as hell!”
“Oh, no, no, no, thank you Phoenix-sis.” I was so nervous that I actually said one more word sis.
Phoenix looked back at me and let out a flutter of laughter, “Don’t be nervous, we’re on our own!” She hung up her clothes on one side and sat down next to me.
A scent of perfume mixed with the sound of well-proportioned breathing came from her, perhaps because she had just come upstairs, her breathing was louder. I felt a rush of heat, the first time I was this close to a mature and beautiful woman, so shy that I even held my breath. I lowered my head and swept her next to me with my afterglow, just in time to touch her bulging breasts, the first twisted button of her white shirt was already undone, and you could see the white and delicate skin of her chest. My heart beat faster and a basilisk swooned.
“Xiao Qiang, from now on, this is your home, I’m your sister, if you have anything, just say it.” Phoenix said gently while turning around, facing me squarely, and using one hand to ruffle my collar, “Look, the collar isn’t even done!” She said poutingly, leaning her upper body over, her plump and bouncy breasts leaning tightly against my arm, and I blushed.
Her hand fiddling with the collar of my coat smoothly rested on my shoulder, and her mouth came up to say softly, “Is your sister good to you?”
I was at a loss for words and nodded my head in confusion.
“Do you think your sister is pretty?”
I gave another panicked nod.
“Do you like your sister?”
I suddenly realized something and replied sharply, “Like hell, you’re a good sister, my sister!” Even though I was beginning to have a hazy realization, I still wasn’t quite sure what this gentle and caring boss and elder was about to do to me, so I had to tell her vaguely that she was the sister, my sister!
But Phoenix had already opened her two hands to floor my body, she herself turned around while attempting to turn my body around, I felt her slender arms were tightly wrapped around me, and her red lips were coming towards me. My heart was thumping, my mouth was dry, and I didn’t have the slightest power to resist. No! I should say that there was no sense of resistance at all. Despite my previous inexperience, 18 years of experience had given me an early knowledge of men and women, and I knew what was going to happen. It was wonderful, the books said so! Besides, this was a beautiful woman, a gentle woman, a caring woman, and although I had always thought of her as a boss and an elder, I never lost sight of her beauty! There must be something else beyond respect, admiration, and admiration, and it was that something that made me unresisting. Although it had never come into play before, it must have swayed my behavior whenever the time was right! In retrospect, the truth is that men are sometimes much more vulnerable than women, and a clever woman can always grasp at something to conquer a man.
I felt that I had been pressed to the bed by this seductive woman, her lips had gagged me, I felt her touching my chest, unbuttoning my shirt,, I was in ecstasy, slowly, unconsciously, my hands wrapped around her soft body, touching her back, her bosoms, pressing her underneath,, the storm got even more violent.
For a long time, for a long time,,. II Finally, everything calmed down.
“Xiao Qiang, you’re amazing, I love you!” Phoenix said tenderly as she lay on the bed.
I remained red-faced and silent, the pleasure still flooding my body, driving away the fear and confusion in my mind.
I’m a man now! I thought, although I was conquered by a woman, who can be sure she wasn’t conquered by me?
“Is Sister cute? Do you love your sister?” She asked again softly.
“Eh, cute, sis is so nice.” I replied with a red face.
I did like this woman at the time, even though she tricked me into bed. But I couldn’t find any other word to describe her, because I rarely used to say flattering things to women, or talk to them at all. The word I often heard people say was -slutty, but women seemed to get angry when they heard that word, though often with a smile. I didn’t dare to say it, even though I thought of the word in my mind, thought of her as a slut, but I didn’t say it, I was afraid she’d get angry, so I had to say she was so nice.
“Eh, let’s go out, call me if you need anything, the storm has stopped, so maybe we’re about to get a visitor.”
I followed Phoenix with my head down, still red-faced. But I knew that I was no longer just her man, I was still her man now, and she was my woman, a woman who had once made me a man.
Since then, my life has changed significantly because I’m a man now.
For the next few days, I kept reminiscing about my affair with Phoenix, thinking about her moans and wildness. For a strong and spirited young man of eighteen, once he tastes sex, the flames of desire are sure to blaze. Whenever I saw Phoenix’s pretty face and trailing body, I would get all hot and bothered. But Phoenix didn’t seem to take that matter to heart, and didn’t look for me for many days. She was still as usual, flirtatious but demure.
Although Phoenix was still treating me as usual, I had already read her soft greetings and silent glances, which were not only a pure care, but also an implied desire, which was enough to turn a dignified supervisor and a loving elder into a “slutty” woman.
I also gradually read the eyes of the female customers and understood why they often stared at my face and why they always liked to call me over to help them change chopsticks or plates. When I was in school, although I also knew that women liked my handsome face, I didn’t care about what was implied in their eager gazes, or that they were more innocent schoolgirls who didn’t have the same kind of fluttering springiness that the female customers had. And now, I began to think that when a mature woman stares at a handsome young man in awe, her heart must be filled with longing.
With the increase in the number of days of work in the bar, I gradually get used to the female customers of the judgment, fish in troubled waters. But I am still a shallow experience of serious men, or simply say is still a simple big children, for the judgment I often turn a deaf ear, for their frequent fall waves, I also ignore, for touching the thighs and other small action I also do not care. Only when they hugged my waist, with their breasts grinding my back, I will look back at them, with a professional smile, gently remind them to avoid them to make more hot action. That would have seriously interfered with my work, as their teasing would have stimulated my reproductive system, which was in a sensitive state, and I was just too embarrassed to walk around with protruding suit pants on top.
Before that incident, I had always paid little attention to the girls in the bar from the perspective of the opposite sex, and although I was aware of the differences between the sexes, it was seldom from the perspective of sex. However, since then, I gradually realized that the women around me were a whole different kind of animal, their faces, bodies, voices, curves and even every move had an inexplicable attraction to me, and this attraction made me more sensitive to the opposite sex around me, and more like to stay with the opposite sex, especially the beautiful women, I no longer only paid attention to their faces and identities, but observed more of their figures and I no longer just pay attention to their faces and status, but more to their figures and curves, and more to the parts of a woman that stick out and protrude. Whenever I notice these parts of a woman’s body, I look pleasured and excited. I knew that there was a desire in my heart.
The days seemed to be calm again, yet I kept thinking of rekindling my last passion with Phoenix. I paid more and more attention to Phoenix’s every move and smile, always wishing to be alone with her. On the Mondays when she was on vacation, I always felt especially lost and bored. Every night at 10:30 pm, when she came home, I always felt a tinge of loss.
I think maybe I’m in love with her.
Then Phoenix didn’t seem to create opportunities for me, and although sometimes she would walk through the stairwell alone, there didn’t seem to be any hint or request that I follow. Although several times I attempted to follow her and find an opportunity to talk to her, I was not brave enough to express my desire, and at most I just went up to her and said hello. Phoenix didn’t seem to perceive my thoughts either, and continued to respond as gently as usual. As the days increased, my desire grew stronger and stronger, while the disappointment grew heavier and heavier. Three until two weeks later on a Monday, that day my turn on vacation. In the morning, I was bored lying in bed, my mind filled with Phoenix’s figure and our crazy scene, and my mind calculating how I can relive my old love with the lovely Phoenix. Until after 10 o’clock, colleagues have gone on duty, the phone suddenly rang. The voice on the other end of the phone is from the woman I think about day and night, I suddenly remembered that today is also Phoenix’s vacation. I couldn’t hide my excitement, my hands were trembling as I grabbed the phone. What was even more exciting was that Sister Phoenix asked me to go out and meet her!
My entire being was instantly energized, and I hurriedly changed into my most decent clothes and ran over towards the location Phoenix had mentioned. Along the way I felt as if I was in a dream, and kept pinching my arm to verify whether it was real or not. Until I saw the flavorful Phoenix standing in front of me, I believed it to be true.
Phoenix first led me to the roadside store to buy some food, and then took me to a set of units in front. Opened the door and went in, I suddenly realized that it was a family’s residence, and wondered in my heart, did Phoenix just bring me to her house as a guest?
Just when I was doubly disappointed, Phoenix had jumped into my arms and wrapped her hands tightly around my waist.
I only heard Phoenix say quietly, “Finally together again!”
“Hold me tight, I’m yours.”
I couldn’t help but open my arms and hug the warm, soft creature in front of me, yet the doubts in my mind didn’t go away.
“Is this your house? Phoenix.”
“Yeah, what’s wrong?” Seeing that I didn’t make any further moves, Phoenix naturally raised her head to look at me, a girlish innocence and naivety surprisingly surfacing on her pretty face.
My heart couldn’t help but naturally speed up my physical response. I felt my bottom filling with blood.
“Oh, nothing, I-, are you alone in your house?” I asked, still skeptical, wrapping my arms around her slender waist.
“Oh, right now it is, my husband is away on business and won’t be back until a couple days.”
“Don’t you have kids?”
“Yes, it’s seven years old, her grandmother has it!”
My hanging heart was finally released. For me, who was new to the world, fornicating in someone’s house was indeed a great adventure.
Doubts were followed by a rush that swept through my body, and although I didn’t have much experience, I had learned to caress a woman’s body, especially her soft breasts. This kind of touch brings me not only the pleasure of my hands, but also the stimulation brought by the woman’s gasp. I couldn’t help but kiss Phoenix, one hand powerfully wrapping around her back, one hand attacking her puffy breasts.
I felt Phoenix’s two hands clasp my back and keep stroking it. After a breathless, frenzied kiss, we were both gasping for air.
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The madness was followed by a short nap, and I was half lying on the bed, enjoying the afterglow of what had just happened. Phoenix was lying on top of me, like a docile she-cat. Do you miss your sister?”
“Think, I’ve always-all-” I suddenly didn’t know how to say it.
“What’s wrong with all of it?” Phoenix laughed, “Miss me, why don’t you look for me?”
“I… I’m looking for-I wouldn’t dare.” I stammered.
“Don’t dare? Afraid of your sister, is she treating you badly?” Phoenix teasingly giggled, while paddling my body with her hand.
“Afraid? I’m not afraid! Phoenix is mine.” I sensed the change in Phoenix’s tone, and after two crazy times, I had closed the psychological distance with her.
“You’re so good at taking advantage!” Phoenix said as she shifted her body and pressed her plump breasts against my thighs.
Feeling a strong urge to do so again, I reached out to hold Phoenix’s shoulders and went to kiss her vermilion lips.
“Don’t worry, take a shower and eat something first, aren’t you hungry?” Phoenix tilted her head and pushed me away with one hand.
I suddenly realized that my stomach was empty and it was already time for lunch. I let out an enunciation and reluctantly got out of bed.
When I came out of the shower, I found Phoenix in her pajamas getting food on the dining room table, which had a huge pile of food on it.
“Pick your own food, I’m going to take a shower.”
“Yeah, go ahead and wash up.” I watched Phoenix get into the shower and started wolfing it down. This was indeed a physically demanding activity, I thought.
By the time I was half full, Phoenix came out of there in a towel. With a charming smile, she quietly looked at the doorway of the restaurant for a while, then came over and sat on my side and started eating.
“En, so hungry!” Phoenix said delicately, “Is it good?”
“Yummy.” I glanced at her next to me, “You’re beautiful! Phoenix.”
“You really know how to make your sister happy!” Phoenix said with a delicate smile as she ate.
I suddenly had a feeling of home, a very subtle and cozy feeling, but one that created a strong desire in me.
How nice it would be if she was my woman forever! I thought.
Even though I grew up without a home and never knew what a home felt like growing up, I knew that a home was a house with my closest and favorite people in it and that we could live together as if we were sitting down to dinner.
Watching Phoenix happily eating, the corners of my eyes were surprisingly a little moist, and I unknowingly stared at this woman beside me in a daze.
“What’s wrong? Xiao Qiang?” Phoenix noticed the change in me.
I came to my senses in a flash. “Oh, it’s nothing, it’s nothing, you’re so cute, Phoenix.” I couldn’t help myself.
“Cute?” Phoenix laughed out loud, “Sister is old.”
“Sister doesn’t age at all, sister will always be the prettiest.” I said in all seriousness.
Phoenix seemed to notice my expression, collected her laughter and said gently, “Eat something, Xiao Qiang.”
I lowered my head, and after a silence, I suddenly asked firmly, “Sister, if it’s possible, can we be together forever?”
I don’t know what I mean by possible, I just have a strong desire to get the answer behind it.
Phoenix seemed to realize something, did not make a sound, and ate in silence.
“Do you like me? Do you love me?” I pressed again.
“I like you, Xiao Qiang.” Phoenix said softly, “Don’t ask too many questions, you’re still young.”
“Little? Don’t we have love? I love you, Phoenix.”
“Love? Is it love? Make love. Sometimes making love is just making love.” Phoenix’s voice was low, both like an answer and a mumble.
Phoenix’s words made me feel doubly lost, and for a while I was so sad that I couldn’t speak, sitting there in a daze.
Noticing the change in my mood, Phoenix gently grabbed my hand and said gently, “Xiao Qiang, in fact, my sister really likes you, it’s just that my sister is already married and you still don’t know anything about it, in the future, you will slowly know what love is.”
Phoenix’s comfort turned my mood around, and I giggled, “I’ll always like you.” Obediently, I grabbed Phoenix’s hand that was comforting me and extended it up my arm.
Phoenix moved her hand away and nudged my nose, pouting, “Little pervert, you’re the one who’s in a hurry, there’s still a long time to go! Are you full?”
“Full ah, eat a lot.” I seemed to have forgotten the unpleasantness of earlier and replaced it with an instinctive desire.
Throughout the afternoon, we kept going crazy until both of us were exhausted and sprawled out on the bed. We fell into a deep sleep, and when I woke up, I realized that Phoenix was no longer in bed.
I got dressed and walked out of the bedroom to find Phoenix cooking in the kitchen. Seeing how busy and dedicated she was, I was especially touched. I quietly walked over and gently embraced her from behind. Phoenix was startled, turned around to see that it was me, then laughed: “Wake up ah? Little pervert, let go, I’m going to cook vegetables, you go watch TV first.”
I kissed her from behind and reluctantly walked to the living room, turning on the TV to see that it was nine o’clock.
Soon Phoenix called me over to help start the meal. It was an awesome feeling to hear her yelling at me to go over and serve the food.
We sat together and slowly ate our dinner, surprisingly not saying much. It wasn’t until it was almost over that Phoenix spoke up, “Xiao Qiang, you won’t blame your sister for teaching you badly, will you?”
“How come? My sister is so nice to me.” I said with a smile.
“I’ll look for you sometime in the future, and at the bar we’ll be the same as before.” Phoenix said in all seriousness.
“Eh, I know, I won’t let anyone know.” I replied dryly.
“You should go back after dinner, you have to work tomorrow!” Phoenix said softly.
A hint of disappointment swept through me and I reluctantly nodded.
After dinner, it was already past ten o’clock, and I argued that I wanted to help her clear the table. Phoenix said no, she was enough for one person and told me to go back to the dormitory early.
Phoenix walked me downstairs and told me to be careful on my way. I nodded and kissed her again before reluctantly leaving Phoenix’s home with a mixture of pleasure, fatigue and loss. The four days went on as usual, and Phoenix hadn’t changed much, still being my majestic boss and loving elder. Only the desire in my heart grew with each passing day, I became more and more interested in paying attention to the women around me, young and beautiful women in fact. Whenever I had free time, I would think of the time I spent with Phoenix. However for a long time after that, we were never together. Strong desire and realistic loneliness made me gradually realize that although Phoenix could occasionally go crazy with me, she was not my woman. To her, our meeting might be an extra extra meal, irrelevant.
I had to find another staple and she didn’t have to.
As time passed, I gradually faded away from my infatuation with Phoenix, yet my desire did not diminish at all. I am more and more prone to fantasize about women, especially those beautiful and sexy female customers. Even if it was just a one-sided encounter, it would give me a strong urge. At this time, I thought, making love may be making love, as Phoenix said.
Gradually, I stopped wanting to be only with Phoenix every day, and began to shift my attention to other people, from customers to colleagues at the bar, and I felt that I was just becoming a womanizer. Once a man’s exclusivity is broken, he becomes a hungry sex maniac, with only naked desire left. This desire is enough to make a few people become unscrupulous, unscrupulous sex fiends. But for most people, morality, conscience and reason beyond desire are enough to control their behavior. So many people, even if they are very horny, still show a kind of peace and indifference. Desire is nothing more than a demon bound by layers of chains and closed in the depths of the mind. Only when certain conditions weaken the control of the shackles or strengthen the power of the devil, desire will explode with amazing power, enough to make a person lost and crazy.
As for me, the shackles come not only from morality, conscience and reason, but also from experience and strength. For an orphan with nothing to fall back on, controlling oneself is always a most important law of survival. So beyond the strong desires, remains a humble, obedient, simple and calm me.
The days went by and the bar work was simple and regular. Seven of us waiters took turns on duty and took turns on vacation, and about one or two of us took turns on vacation every day. If there were fewer customers, sometimes there were more people on vacation, and the actual number of waiters in the parlor was usually five or six. The day of each man’s vacation varies; I usually take Tuesdays, Wednesdays, or Mondays.
Of the seven, only Yimin and I were men, the other five were girls, and except for me, who was a Shanghainese who grew up in an orphanage in Shanghai, the others were laborers from other provinces. Yimin was an honest man, from Anhui province, and average looking. His vacations were always staggered with mine because there had to be at least one male waiter in the living room, so the one who was on vacation at the same time as me had to be a sister from a foreign province. Of the five, two are from Jiangxi and the others are from Jiangsu. The five girls were all okay looking, with Comet Li being the prettiest, Xiao Hong being the most lively, Chen Shan and Zhou Yue being honest and not talking much at all, and Yu Min being the most straightforward and fiery in character. In addition to Xiao Hong and my age about the same, the others are two or three years older than me, and into the bar time than me, the shortest Chen Shan also came to nearly a year, the longest Zhou Yue has been here for four years.