passionate about sb.

*♪ This story is pure fiction ♪

I met her by chance, and looking back on it years later, I still find it amazing… I was still a junior high school student and was about to take my final exams. My family had high expectations for me, and wanted me to go on to university rather than a technical school, as I had thought. In order for me to read a little more in the morning when I could remember, my parents woke me up early every day and busied themselves with preparing breakfast for me (a big bowl of jujube rice and two scrambled eggs that were said to be good for the brain), as well as making sure I didn’t doze off again as they rushed in to fetch my things. They both worked in factories and worked very hard all day long. Perhaps because they were so eager to see their son grow up, they often had to see me out of the house before they started to freshen up, eat, and rush out with their bicycles…

Since the beginning of the school year, I’ve been taking the bus to and from school and home, which isn’t a very long distance, for fear of getting into trouble on the way to school on my bike. Since I started to study in the morning, my daily departure time has been delayed by almost half an hour, so it’s also the time for commuters to take the bus, and I’m often squeezed like a pancake when I get on the bus.

Anyone who belongs to the “bus family” knows that when you show up at the station at the same time every day, you will always find some déjà vu faces appearing right on time. Those who are good at socializing will also take advantage of the waiting time to chat with their “bus friends” for a while. It was at that time that I began to notice her, because she was a very sociable person, and when she talked loudly and laughed, she looked as if no one else was there. I am very resistant to people like her, perhaps that age is unique to the student gas and reserve, always feel that such a woman is either “bitchy” or “uneducated”.

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But as time went on, I realized that I began to like her a little bit inexplicably. Not that kind of liking, of course, but some days she didn’t come on the bus for some reason, and I was as upset as if I had forgotten something. I also began to like her loud voice and laugh, think the world if all the people like her so bright it is good! After the  hope of getting close to her secretly arose, I often deliberately approached her side, making a distant look at how the bus has not yet come. Once when I was quietly watching her, I saw that her shoelace was loose and I wanted to say something to her, but just as I was hesitating and stuttering in a voice even smaller than a mosquito’s, “Auntie…”, another person around me had already jumped in front of me and said loudly, “Ms. Chou, your shoelace is loose! Your shoelace is loose!”

So I knew her last name was Zhou, and she was a teacher. Later, I learned from a few other people’s “secret conversations” that she was originally a ballet instructor in a song and dance troupe, and because of a car accident that injured her back, she had to give up ballet dancing and changed to teach the elderly in a senior university to dance social dances. She did not come to the day of the car, is because and these older people learning to dance together to participate in the new store opening show or something.

One day, the school sent our graduating class students to the physical examination, because the blood test, so early in the morning on an empty stomach to the hospital. Just got off the bus, I looked up and saw in front of the registration office in the middle of the queue, there is a person’s back is so familiar, fixed his eyes to see that is not exactly Mr. Zhou?

On the way up, I was secretly regretting that I wouldn’t be able to hear her tell the jokes about the elderly dance students today, but I never expected to see her in the hospital. As soon as our noisy group of students entered the door, people in the waiting hall turned to look at us. However, Ms. Zhou seemed to be talking energetically about something to the people in the row in front of her, and didn’t look in our direction. I felt sorry in my heart because I was even ready to greet her by making a show of both recognizing her and not recognizing her at the same time. At that moment the person she was talking to noticed us, stopped talking, and turned her head to look over her shoulder at us, and with that, Ms. Zhou also turned around, and in a flash, my line of sight happened to meet hers! I looked straight at her, she seemed to be stunned, and then smiled, and nodded, as if to say hello to me, and then turned back to talk to someone. My heart was in a frenzy: I wondered if she really saw me?

At this time, the teacher greeted us to line up quickly, my eyes were blocked by the heads swaying in front of me, and I could vaguely see Mr. Zhou looking back at me once again. As for me, I don’t know how, but my heart was beating very, very hard, until the time of the electrocardiogram, the doctor said: “This child, I told you to relax, why don’t you understand it!”

The next day I left the house early in the morning on the pretext that I had to go to school early for a mock test, and hurriedly ran all the way to the station. I didn’t get into any of the several cars that drove by, and one of the drivers was kind enough to honk his horn at me as I stared at him. But that day, until those familiar faces have arrived, Mr. Zhou still did not appear.

I didn’t see her for the next few days, and I began to worry that she would never take the bus again. Then I heard from an old lady who had taken dance lessons from her that Ms. Zhou had sent her sick son back to her mother’s house overseas and was afraid she wouldn’t be able to come back until a few days later. I can see that everyone here misses her. These past few days have been particularly long, and my heart has been filled with a subtle mixture of hope and disappointment. Several times I’ve calculated how much time I have left to wait for the next bus, and even hoped that she’d show up after the people she usually talks to have left, so she’d realize that I’m not like the people she talks to. But when I had to get on the bus and she still didn’t appear from the direction she usually came from, I felt a sudden wave of loss, and then I wished that I was on the bus going home, so that I could look forward to the next morning… Half a month later, she finally came back. She was still beaming, and there was no sign of the anxiety that comes with a sick child. Only when people asked her kindly about her child did a cloud pass over her face, but it was only a flicker, and then she would voluntarily change the subject. At that time, I used to listen to her with my ears open, and often laughed secretly at the funny parts of her stories. Although I tried my best not to let her find out, she still saw me a few times. Once, she even laughed louder when she saw me pretending to rub my neck, but actually laughing.

Her laugh… it’s very beautiful…

The date of the HKCEE was approaching. Mom and Dad’s worries are getting worse every day, and they even offered to send me to school every day. But how can I  mean it in my heart? I said that my classmates would gossip if they saw me, but my parents said that it doesn’t matter, let them laugh; I also said that the teacher would write “poor self-care skills” on the conduct comment, perhaps this is a reasonable explanation, my parents and a thousand times urged and instructed once again the safety and study hard and so on after the words will stop.

Ever since I started going to school, I have been looking forward to the time passing by and the summer coming soon. When the robins chirped, it meant that the two-month summer vacation would not be far away. But that year, except for the hour I spent every morning memorizing English texts, I wished that time would go slower and slower. My parents had already chosen a “good public school” far away from home for me, and were already borrowing money from friends and family to send me to a private school with good teachers and high tuition in case I didn’t get in. Although I knew and appreciated from the bottom of my heart that my parents had worked hard for me, I was still worried that the day would come too soon: I wouldn’t be able to wait for the bus anymore.

This year, however, the summer came especially early, still in early June, and the rising sun would cast a driving heat. In the middle of the night it often poured down rain, stopping and stopping, and continuing until dawn. In the season of frequent thunderstorms, many people carry rain gear with them when they go out, regardless of whether it is going to rain or not. And I was afraid of bringing an umbrella on a sunny day to be laughed at by my classmates, and even less  intended to add some more weight to my already heavy schoolbag. In order to persuade my parents not to force themselves, I often when my mom is ready to put the umbrella into my schoolbag, not caring about the yolk of the sandwich egg from the corners of the mouth, I rushed to say a piece of textbook learned from the agricultural proverbs, said look at the clouds will know that it will not rain.

Mom couldn’t bear to see me, so she talked to Dad and told him that the school wasn’t far from home, so he could send me there. I was so proud of myself that I convinced them with the knowledge I learned from the textbooks. Unfortunately, the weather was not as favorable as I thought it would be. Once, shortly after I left the house, a heavy rain came down unexpectedly.

The rain seemed to hit the earth and the pedestrians with great force, so I hurriedly pressed the bulging bag behind me and ran to the bus shelter. But when I got there, the small pavilion was already crowded, and it looked like there were a lot of people who could read the weather as well as I could. So I had to hold my bag over my head so that my hair, which I had been combing carefully while carrying my books, wouldn’t get wet and messed up. As I looked around, I saw the first and most unforgettable scene of my life…

Mr. Chow is waving at me!

The rain was getting heavier and heavier and at the height of the traffic rush, vehicles and people traveling in the rain were practically squirming on the road. The buses didn’t come for a long time, and many people could not help cursing the people and the sky. But I felt like I was bathing in the bright spring light, and thought again how spectacular the city streetscape created by this pouring rain with dark clouds and gusty winds was! Standing side by side with Ms. Zhou under the umbrella, smelling the wind and rain with a faint burst of the ethereal fragrance emanating from her, my heart really almost jumped out of my throat!

At this time, I’m probably the only person in the world who wants the rain to wash away the road. Teacher Chou was also getting a little anxious, and while holding her umbrella, she looked over her shoulder in the direction of the bus. At that very moment, the back of my head touched her chest, and oh my God… a dense, thrilling sensation ran from my stoma to the soles of my feet, almost stopping my pounding heart in its tracks!

She realized that I was exposed outside the umbrella, some apologetic smile to me, very casually, but also like a kind of indescribable tenderness like wiping my head of water droplets. And I still seem to be immersed in that just less than a second of contact, almost a little lost in thought, only vaguely heard her asking me: “Where do you go to school ah?”

But I answered the question, blurted out my name. She was dumbfounded for a moment, but didn’t repeat the question, smilingly adding, “Oh, Wei, which word is it?”

So I told her which word it was, and where I went to school. In the wind and rain who did not pay attention to this big and small we are talking about what, Zhou teacher is not like the usual customary loud voice to talk to me, I think her voice is so soft, so comfortable, more so that my heart produced a kind of want to rely on, want to get close to her  hope, but unfortunately I really have been at a loss for words, do not know how to take the initiative to say something. Just as we asked and answered words, the bus opened, has been waiting for the passengers flocked, we are in the position just to be the first to get on the bus, I saw two side by side of the empty seat, I would like to say hello to the teacher to sit down together, but there is a young man wearing a T-Shirt to sit down first. Mr. Zhou also saw, nudging me to sit on the other one, but I did not want to sit alone in my heart! There was an old lady who wasn’t too old by my side, so I gave her my seat. Teacher Zhou looked at me with wide eyes, deliberately made a look of surprise, and pursed lips and nodded vigorously, making an expression of approval.

I still stood beside Mr. Zhou, and although I didn’t speak again, I was filled with excitement and satisfaction.

The car drove slowly, often braking because of stops ahead, and with the crowded cars, I often lost my center of gravity, leaning almost all the way into Teacher Zhou’s arms, and she was often thrown to my side by the inertia of the vehicle restarting. A few of the not-so-tempered ones began to scold the driver for not knowing how to drive, but in my heart I secretly wished for a few more brakes like that, because Teacher Zhou and I were getting closer and closer to each other, and had almost been pressed together!

At that time, I wasn’t very tall, and the top of my head only reached the temples of Ms. Zhou’s ears, while she was an entertainer and was very tall. At first, I was just surrounded by the joy of being so close to her and had no idea what was going on, but gradually I felt that a certain part of my body seemed to be changing drastically, and every time I came into physical contact, the small of my back slammed into her thighs, and my bottom turned out to be… even though it was through my pants, I was afraid that she would know that I… I tried to shrink instinctively, but I didn’t realize that a I didn’t realize that a sharp stop would cause me and her to collide again!

Teacher Zhou seemed to sense something, I didn’t dare to look at her squarely, and out of the corner of my eye I saw her lower her head a bit and look at me again. However, she did not say anything, nor did she move away some distance. At this time, the vehicle began to stop, behind her a middle-aged man with a large bag is ready to get off, probably squeezing her, she leaned a little closer to my side, so that my entire lower body close to her hips, so that I was both embarrassed and aroused!

I don’t remember how I said goodbye to her or how I got off the bus, but I just felt like running away and jumping off the bus. But that night, I masturbated for the first time… Although many of my classmates were already looking for girlfriends at that time, and rumors about who had already been with whom were circulating in the classroom, for me, my first feeling for the opposite sex came from someone much older than me, and it was so strong and uncontrollable! Even when I was staring at my textbook, I often saw that unforgettable scene in front of my eyes. I began to fantasize about it, and although it was still full of the tenderness and simplicity of the first days of my life, it was enough to make me lock the door to my room and go to bed as soon as I couldn’t stand it any longer… But… the pressure from the exams and from my family was getting stronger and stronger, and the day came when I was praying countless times inside my heart, “Slow down, slow down again! Luckily, my grades weren’t too bad, and even though I didn’t do well in one subject, I was finally accepted to a “good public school”. My parents were so happy that they rewarded me with a 10-day vacation and took me on a trip. Although it was a place I had wanted to go, I couldn’t forget the figure that had been haunting me all these days: if I didn’t try to get close to her, even if I had to talk to her once more, I would never have the chance to do so in my life. So I purposely declined my parents’ kind offer in a very understanding tone, saying that I’d rather keep the money and use it when I went to college. My mom and dad heard me say this when the tears can not stop falling, said as long as I put forward the request to come, they will certainly meet my  expectations. I said I want to participate in my alma mater to run a swimming training class, to train their bodies better. Dad was happy to tell Mommy not to cry, and he always had this tone of voice: “What’s the point of crying happily? Xiaowei means to train your body so that you can study harder, why are you so sad?” Mom’s shoulders jerked even more, and she held me in her arms as if she were crying or laughing…

The swimming training course lasted for a month and a half, and all the exercises were scheduled in the morning to avoid heat stroke for some of the weaker participants. Of course, I wanted to join the program because I had heard about it beforehand. However, the school’s swimming pool was very small, so the program was only open to students. Luckily, I didn’t do too badly this time, and the school felt honored, so when I asked the director of training to participate, he said yes. After I called my dad and informed him, I went to meet up with some of my old friends who were going their separate ways. When I got home in the evening, a brand-new, stylish sweatshirt was already on my bedside.

There’s always an indescribable feeling of self-importance when you go out on the street in your new clothes, although unless you’re a sassy girl, people won’t notice you to anyone. On this day I made a point of combing my head into a hairstyle that looked good on me, and walked briskly towards the station. I had been waiting for the bus for almost half a year in this place, and even though I didn’t speak, I had gotten to know some of the older passengers quite well. I was in such a good mood that I couldn’t help but smile and greet them from afar. When I approached, one of them teasingly laughed at me and said, “Oh, Mr. Ouyang, where are you going to have fun today?”

At that time, the TV was playing a movie by Jin Yong, in which a flower thief was called “Ouyang Ke”. Of course I knew he was teasing me, but I didn’t bother to reply, I just laughed and stood waiting for the bus… “Why isn’t he here yet…?”

I suddenly felt funny standing in the sun looking left and right, and the moisturizer in my hair seemed to have solidified, sticking to my forehead. Just when I wanted to turn around and stand in the shade, I saw her walking towards me, still smiling. Again, I suddenly felt so dumb that I just looked in the direction she usually walked, but I didn’t realize that she was walking out of the store behind me. Teacher Zhou was carrying a large bag of watery raisins in her hand, looking like she had just bought them from the store. She walked up to me and was about to open her mouth to talk to me, but she didn’t expect that person to say: “Yo! What a big seed! Mr. Zhou today with which lover to go on a date ah!”

Upon hearing this, Mr. Zhou turned his head and smiled, returning a sentence: ”A dog’s mouth can’t spit out like teeth! With whom? With you!” The words just fell, the surrounding people “boom” all laughed. The man saw that the fun was lost, also echoed the dry laugh a few times and did not squeak. Teacher Zhou turned to me and asked: “Finished? How did you do?”

“Uh, okay.” I nodded, but in my mind I didn’t know what to say, even though I’d thought of so many things to say to her somehow the night before.

“Have some raisins, they’re so sweet.” Mr. Zhou pulled a large bunch of raisins out of a plastic bag.

“No, no, no, no…” I was busy pushing with my hand, but when I pushed on her hand, I immediately felt an electric shock in my heart and pulled my hand back.

“Eat, don’t be polite!” Mr. Zhou put the raisin in my hand: “I bought it for my son.”

“Oh… then… thank you, Ms. Chou!” I was busy thanking her.

At that moment, the man somehow got the energy back and said to me, “What are you thanking me for? Say ‘thank you mom’! Ha ha ha!”

Everyone laughed again. Mr. Zhou saw that I did not know how to talk back, and casually picked a seed toward the man made to throw the appearance, the man saw the situation to hide, Mr. Zhou closed his hand, loudly scolded with a laugh: “What do you want to do? I can’t? I love him too much to…” As soon as I said “What about you?”, the raisin in my hand cracked on the man’s forehead!

Everyone laughed so hard at that man’s sorry state that Teacher Chou laughed too, and I couldn’t help but burst out laughing too. I felt that her laughter was really the most beautiful sound in the world, and she was really the most beautiful person in the world…

Stopped laughing, Mr. Zhou noticed that I was carrying swim trunks and a swim cap in a plastic bag in my hand, and asked, “Going swimming?”

“Yes!” With the episode just now, my tone of voice has become easier, and speak much louder. Somehow, I thought of her son, and asked like an adult, “How is your child?”

Teacher Zhou gathered her hand around her hairline and replied with a smile, “Much better, picked up.”

While talking, a bus stopped, and everyone got on the bus in twos and threes. There weren’t too many people in the bus, so I sat down with Ms. Zhou graciously, eating a raisin while talking to her happily, and it almost turned into me asking her questions and her answering them along the way. However, how could she know that I was deliberately asking questions like a series of cannonballs, because I was really afraid of wasting the time that I had been looking forward to, and there were still a lot of things that I hadn’t said!

When I got to the station and was about to get up, Mr. Zhou asked, “When do you have time to play at my place?

My boy’s been pestering me all day to find him a companion!”

When I heard that, I couldn’t have asked for more! I answered, “Yes, yes! Yes!” But before I could ask how to get there, the car stopped…

As I watched the bus drive her away, I stared blankly at the thongs in my hands, and then at my swimming gear… I quickly took all the hats and such out of the plastic bag, put the thongs in it, and tied it up in a knot, and then ran into the janitor’s office and asked the janitor to find a compartment where I usually kept my newspapers, and then slowly walked through the building to the swimming pool. Hear there came “flopping flopping” sound of diving, I thought: fortunately I thought in time, otherwise these a few raisins will not be grabbed by you all the strange!

After swimming, I saw that the time was still early, so I rushed back home. From the notebook pressed in the bottom of his drawer to pull out a few usually saved pocket money, and hurried to the station, just as a bus came, so I immediately sat on it. In fact, when I was swimming, I didn’t even listen to what the coach said about the essentials of swimming, I was always thinking about how to remind Mr. Zhou not to forget to invite me to be a guest. I have to admit that I sometimes have a lot of ideas, and I thought of buying a toy to give to her son, so that I could remind her.

After buying toys back home is close to noon. Mommy had already made lunch and was waiting for me. When she saw me coming back with a robot cat and a bunch of grapes, she asked me where I had been. I replied that after swimming and went to a classmate’s home, toys are borrowed back to play, the grapes are classmates mommy let me take with me to eat on the way out. Mommy smiled and greeted me while eating quickly, while shaking her head and said I really big not up, but also to play with toys.

Of course, I gave the toy back the next day, and the rest of the raisins stayed in the refrigerator for five days before I finished them…

The coach had something to do and was unable to get away, so the training class was suspended for three days! When I heard this news from the assistant teacher, I immediately called Ms. Chow and asked her if I could go to her house. Ms. Chow said, “I can’t do it on that day, can I do it the next day?” There was no such thing! I said yes. When I put down the phone, I took a long breath and realized that I was sweating all over my chest and back!

In the afternoon, I had already made an appointment with a classmate to go to the movies, but when I was about to go out, I suddenly didn’t want to go, thinking that I didn’t care about him, the big thing was to say that something was wrong at home and I couldn’t come out, so I’d ask him to watch it later. Taking off the clothes I just changed into, I sat in front of the window alone, with Mr. Zhou’s face in front of me. Unconsciously, my body began to feel a little strange again, and it seemed to feel that the room was getting hotter and hotter, and I could even feel the sweat dripping down from my chin, and flowing along my chest to my stomach. I was sitting less than an arm’s length away from the fan, but I didn’t seem to have the energy or inclination to turn it on.

Without realizing it, my hand went down to my bottom, and the image of Ms. Chou in front of me gradually became hazy… what did she look like?

When we met at the station the next day, she saw that I was still carrying a bag of swim gear, so she laughed, gently slapped the back of my head, and whispered, “You little brat!”

I have never felt as fresh as I did on this bus, as if I were a child going out of town for the first time. Watching the scenery out of the bus window going backwards, especially when the bus had already passed the school gate and I didn’t have to get off, I felt that the world was just too wonderful! But when I pulled my eyes back from the car window and smiled at her, I was distracted by my own ramblings from the day before.

Mr. Zhou’s home was located behind a high-rise apartment building, a beautiful Western-style single-story house. Although the paint on the exterior walls had begun to peel, when I went inside, I found that it was still very new and clean, and it was more than twice as big as my own home.

I was sitting on the sofa in the living room, looking around at the furnishings in the house, when Mr. Zhou led his son into the house from the backyard. This is a about seven, eight years younger than me, but a look at the physical condition is known to be very weak boy, although the face is a child, but I am still a little shy, only said: “Hi”, considered to be greeted. The child is also a little shy look at me smile, smile up look very much like Mr. Zhou. Teacher Zhou saw the two of us silly standing still, then said to her son: “This is what I always tell you brother Xiaowei.” She also told me that her son’s name was Chen Chen. Chen Chen showed me his room and toys, while Ms. Zhou prepared snacks and cold drinks in the kitchen. I saw that the robot cat I had given him was placed in a very high and conspicuous place, and it looked like Chen Chen couldn’t put it up there. I thought to myself: did she put it there on purpose? And it looked like she often mentioned me in front of my son!

At that moment, Ms. Zhou came in to greet us and went to eat, and at some point she had changed into a very loose, very long T-Shirt and a pair of shorts with fat pants, revealing two long, smooth, beautiful legs. My eyes lingered on her legs and my mind went back to that time when I was clinging to her on the bus. However, Ms. Zhou didn’t notice that my gaze was different, but on the contrary, Chen Chen, the little elf, noticed my eyes, and took advantage of the fact that Ms. Zhou turned around to give me a heavy tap on the shoulder.

I was startled and turned my head.

“Is it good?” He asked in a low voice in my ear. The question was followed by a wicked grin at me that was actually filled with a derisive look.

“What are you guys talking about that’s so secretive?” Teacher Zhou turned around and handed me a piece of watermelon and asked with a smile.

“Heh heh heh heh…” Chenchen had a straw in his mouth and was breaking his foot with one hand.

“No, nothing… Chen said he wanted to…” I subconsciously tried to cover it up.

“Mommy, Brother Wei says Mommy’s legs look great!”

Aaaah! How could this kid say such a thing? My head exploded and I felt my neck turn red: “I didn’t say that…”

Teacher Zhou glared at Chen Chen with her mouth agape: “Don’t talk nonsense!” Then she gave me an angry look and said, as if explaining to me but also as if relieving me, “Mom is a dancer, so of course her legs must look good!” As she said this, she looked a little embarrassed, and an imperceptible blush passed over her face… I couldn’t say anything, so I just munched on the watermelon. Mr. Chow laughed again, but I was already eating the rind of the watermelon…

After sitting on the ground and playing video games with Chen Chen for half a day, I felt my legs getting a little sore, so I got up and walked towards the backyard patio. Chen Chen was staring at the tank he was maneuvering and asked me without looking back, “Where are you going, brother?”

“I’m going to pee.” I replied casually.

“The restroom’s on the left, you’re on your own!”

I think he’s cute. Do I need a ride? While thinking this way, my feet were moving towards the garden, and I had just seen Mr. Zhou carry a chair out.

“Not there, in the back yeah!” Chenchen called out again from behind.

“I know…” I responded casually, my person already walking up the garden steps.

Teacher Zhou was sitting on a wide wicker chair under a tree, reading a book with her head down and a cigarette in her hand, not noticing that I was standing in the distance watching her. As I watched, my eyes were drawn to something else on her body: the loose neckline of her T-Shirt slipped from her shoulders, revealing a thin black lace band on her shoulder, embedded in her white skin, appearing particularly dazzling. I knew what it was, and my heart started pounding, and a strange feeling quickly rose up inside me…

“MEOW…” A kitten appeared out of nowhere and quickly flashed past my feet.

Teacher Zhou raised her head at the sound and happened to see me staring at her in fascination. She quickly put down her feet, and pulled the collar of her shirt down on her shoulders. Smilingly asked: “Can’t sit still?”

“No, I came out to get some air…”

“Oh?” Teacher Zhou seemed to frown with some surprise, and then smiled broadly and said, “Then do you want a cigarette?”

I was puzzled, but I giggled along with him and said, “Don’t do it! I never smoke…”

“Hahahahahaha…” Mr. Zhou laughed so hard at my mute expression that he bent over: “Yes, yes, yes, yes, yes… I know, I know, I know, I know… I mean, the windows were all open, how could they be… hahahaha…”

That’s when I noticed that the doors and windows were wide open both inside and outside the house. Yeah, how could it be stuffy?

“Come, have a seat.” Elder Zhou moved his body to make way for half of the seat while the division smiled and wiped away the tears from the corners of his eyes.

I responded and hurried over. When I sat down, I suddenly realized that I was so close to her all of a sudden.

Teacher Zhou put his book on the floor and explained, “Chen Chen’s lungs were bad when he was small, so I always left the windows open when I was there.”

“Oh…” I didn’t dare to look up at her, staring at the book on the floor, and asked as if in thought, “What about Uncle?”

“Hmm?” Ms. Zhou was stunned for a moment, not expecting me to ask such a question. Then she said in a deliberately smooth tone, “I’m leaving!”

I realize I’m not very polite to ask, but I don’t know how to play the original field.

“By the way Xiao Wei, how old are you?” Teacher Zhou also looked like he couldn’t find a topic for a moment.

“Fifteen, almost sixteen. I told you!” Again, the usual fast-talking habit of children to add unnecessarily.

“Oh, yeah, yeah, yeah! I remembered. Then let me ask you, do you have a girlfriend?” Teacher Zhou deliberately asked in an ambiguous tone.

“No la!” I was also a little embarrassed and my face started to redden.

“Really? No way…” deliberately trailing off.

“Really!” I was a bit anxious and almost said “I can show you my diary if you don’t believe me”. I’m glad I didn’t say that, because I wrote a lot of things in my diary about how much I miss her.

“So you’re really Mommy’s good boy?” Ms. Zhou said as she changed her sitting position to a more casual one. I vaguely felt my knee touch something cool, and when I felt it carefully… wasn’t it Ms. Zhou’s leg?

My legs start to tremble slightly, and I wonder if it’s better to retract them, or to keep them like that? Because I’m really afraid she’ll know I’m shaking, and I’m starting to feel my throat dry and can’t help but gulp.

Teacher Zhou probably noticed my nervousness, so she got up and smiled and said she’d go get me a drink. Just then, a leaf floated down from overhead, actually wrapped in a large caterpillar, and fell right onto her chest!

“Holy shit!” Mr. Chow exclaimed in a shrill voice I had never heard before!

“What’s wrong?” I jumped up “miso” as well and looked around.

“Quickly… quickly… caterpillar… Xiaowei…” said Ms. Zhou, pointing to her chest, her voice already a little trembling.

“Huh?” I looked in the direction she was pointing and a small, thumb-thin, golden-colored caterpillar was crawling toward her collar!

“That big?” I was at a loss for words for a moment, and I actually launched into an exclamation.

“Come on! Hurry up and help me get it off!” Mr. Zhou was starting to jump around in a hurry.

“Ohhhhhh!” I responded in a rush, but where to find the tools? I hurriedly picked up the book on the floor to fan it.

“Don’t shoot like that, don’t shoot me to death! Quickly go get a chopstick!” Teacher Zhou’s voice got sharper and sharper.

It dawned on me and I turned around and ran towards the house, blurting out, “Don’t you be afraid!”

As soon as I entered the room, it occurred to me that I had no idea where I had put the chopsticks. I saw the straw sticking out of the can that Chen Chen drank from, and when I pulled it out, it had been chewed to pieces by him. I thought to myself, “I can’t worry about it, I’ll just use it!

Running back into the yard, Mr. Zhou pinched his collar with his fingers and stood there not daring to move!

“Coming coming!” I ran to her, panting, and saw that the worm was already wriggling along her collar.

How do you get this? If I’m not careful, I’ll fall in! I don’t know how to do it at once.

Mr. Chow bent down and pulled back his collar, desperately trying to keep his chest away from the bugs.

Her chest immediately caught my eye , that… that… that wasn’t… I felt more and more breathless, and simply stood still.

“Wei, what are you waiting for, get it down!”

A word of caution alerted me, and I moved a little closer, and the spot became clearer! But I could no longer think about the eye candy in front of me, and shivered as I plucked the bug off my collar.

Mr. Zhou took a long breath and slumped into his chair in exhaustion. I followed suit, still in a state of shock. Ms. Zhou looked at me as if she was aggrieved, and called out, “Xiao Wei…”

With that, she put my hand over her chest and looked at me with two tears in her eyes… I really couldn’t believe that what I saw in front of me was true, my own hand was pressed down on her chest with a deadly grip. Because I was still squeezing the straw in my hand, I formed a half-empty fist that she pressed so painfully. But my fingertips, however, clearly came from the sheer softness of her chest, and the rise and fall of that groove! With her not-yet-calmed breathing, that sheer softness and moistness became even more wandering in my fingertips, in my fingers, all the way through to between my legs!

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“Mommy! Mommy! Mommy what’s wrong with you?”

Just when I was almost paralyzed, Chen Chen’s shout came from inside the house, waking up Ms. Zhou, and instantly bringing me back to reality. She seemed to realize that she had just made a move that she hadn’t even thought of, so she quickly let go of my hand, stood up and straightened her clothes, gave me an extremely embarrassed smile, and answered loudly: “It’s okay…” as she walked quickly towards the house.

I looked at her back and then at the straw in my hand, only to realize that the straw had been crushed into a ball. But my whole hand was burning as if stung by a caterpillar… On the way home, I covered my hand almost as if I were making a bow. I didn’t know how I got into the house, and I didn’t hear what my parents said to me, as if they were asking me why I hadn’t come home for lunch. When I washed my hands, I stared at my hands for a long time, and decided not to wash them for fear that my mom would say something about me if she saw me, so I took a towel and made a rubbing motion in front of her. After dinner, on the pretext that I was tired from today’s swimming practice and wanted to take an early rest, I hid myself in my room and carefully plugged in the plug… As soon as I lay down on the bed, the image that had me so lost in thought… the black cups… the creamy breasts… the deep grooves… my own hand being pressed against them… and the sound of her heartbeat and her urgency… I was very happy to see that my hand was being pressed against her hand. “Her heartbeat and rapid breathing…

Is it because of my hand?

And… her long, slender legs… and the tiny, imperceptible pores and hairs on them… I wanted to know more, and I couldn’t help but wonder if she had the same place as that little girl who used to pee in front of the door. I even regretted that I hadn’t watched porn with my classmates last time, so I would have known…

I curled up my legs, pushed my knees together, and I moved my hands faster… Soon, I was sweating profusely…

I’m really tired, but there’s an indescribable feeling of relief… I keep thinking about what I saw during the day, wishing I could bring it back to my dreams…

The next day I got up early, but my parents weren’t up yet and it occurred to me that it was Sunday. I left a note saying that I didn’t need to save myself lunch because I had to train at the pool further away today as well. I don’t know why I was getting more and more desperate to be with Mr. Zhou, but I even dispensed with the potty break, which I had been dawdling over for half a day, and rushed over to Mr. Zhou’s house.

On Sunday, Mr. Zhou did not have to go out to teach, so I said yesterday that I would go by myself. The bus came in time, and there weren’t too many pedestrians on the road, so I flew all the way to the intersection of Mr. Zhou’s house. I darted up the last steps on the slope, and the people passing by couldn’t help but throw me looks of wonder. When I finally stood in front of the big green metal door, I took a long breath to calm myself down and pressed the doorbell.

“So early?” Teacher Zhou asked with some surprise when he saw that the visitor was me.

“Um…” I was a little embarrassed by her question and smiled embarrassedly.

She smiled back and opened the door to let me in. I saw that she was wearing a pink nightgown, not the sheer kind, but it was thin enough to reflect the fact that she wasn’t wearing any more underwear.

It looks like Ms. Zhou was woken up by me. As she walked ahead, she said that Chen Chen’s father had come to pick up the child not long after I left the day before, so she thought she could sleep in, but she didn’t expect me to come in early in the morning. When I heard that, I said, “I’m sorry…”

Ms. Zhou smiled, turned around and said “It’s okay”, and looked at me with a “soft”, no, a kind of flirtatious look. I think her hair looks better than usual, thinking of Chen Chen is not at home, the heart can not help but jump, as if they imagine things will have the opportunity to happen as if. Talking has reached the house, the window  has not been pulled open, dark, emitting the special smell of indoor air after the overnight. This scent again let me feel so intoxicated, so want to just lie in the sofa, think of those dreamlike scenarios.

“Have you had breakfast yet?” Mr. Zhou scratched his neck with a bad look. I answered honestly that I hadn’t yet. So she went into the kitchen to make breakfast. I sat alone on the sofa, feeling again that without Chen Chen around, it seemed so strange for me to appear here alone. Thinking about it, I suddenly felt very anxious, but I was too embarrassed to ask her where the restroom was. After holding it in for a while, I finally couldn’t help myself.

I was just about to get up when Mr. Zhou came over with the milk. Seeing that I was fidgeting and looking for something, she asked me what was wrong. I could only say that I wanted to use the restroom. When she heard that, she didn’t say anything, but she seemed to be saying that I was too embarrassed to say anything. She brought me to the door of the restroom, opened the door for me, and told me that the toilet paper was on the shelf next to it, and at the same time, she turned her back to let me in, and then closed the door behind her. In fact, I just wanted to pee, but when I stood in front of the toilet, I couldn’t pee. But when I stood in front of the toilet, I couldn’t pee. I was so worried about making too much noise for her to hear me, so I had to do what people do when they pour beer, which is to let the urine flow down the side of the glass. However, the more I tried to control it, the more I couldn’t aim properly, and it made a “clattering” sound instead. Why is it that the sight of her makes me feel like I’m possessed?

After a long time, when I leaned over to flush, I noticed a thin hair on the edge of the white toilet bowl! It was curved, like… My heart skipped a beat… Could it be hers?… I hadn’t grown that long yet, and Chenchen was even less likely to have it… Whose else could it be but hers?

My heart stopped beating more and more furiously, and even my breathing began to catch. I tried to flush, but my outstretched hand stuck the hair to my fingertips like a godsend! I looked at it intently and accidentally dropped it back onto the altar laid out in front of the toilet. I quickly knelt down to pick it up again, casually put it in my pocket, and then quickly opened the door to my room like a thief and flashed out of it.

Back in the living room, Mr. Zhou was drinking milk and reading the newspaper. When she saw me coming back, she pushed the plate closer to me and told me to eat it quickly. I looked at it: it was the same as the one my mom made, also with poached eggs! But this time, I didn’t feel like eating it. But I was still nervous about the fact that I had just gotten one of her “things” by chance.

After eating breakfast, Ms. Zhou changed a dress, asked me  not  mean to help her clean up. Of course I  mean it! So take out in the school and home have never had the strength to help her wipe the window. I climbed up the window sill, teacher Zhou below told me to be careful at the same time and handed over some waste newspaper, said I inserted in the pocket, so as not to have to climb up and down every time to change the paper. I said it didn’t matter, and that my own pockets were too shallow. But in reality, I was afraid that this would bring out the “treasure” in my pocket and I would lose it!

Ms. Zhou would stop and look at me for a moment every time she passed me, and I worked even harder as a result. Her hands and feet were just as sharp as her words, and in less than an hour, the whole room had been cleaned up. Looking at my sweaty appearance, she insisted that I take off my clothes and take a shower. I said no, just wash my face. She said that how can it, she has bought a set of clothes to me, want me to wear up to show her!

Really? I couldn’t believe my ears! So I quickly said, “Yes, yes, yes, yes,” forgetting even to say “thank you”. Teacher Zhou smiled, put his hands on my shoulders, and pushed me along to the restroom door. When I opened the door… my face turned red! It was because I had been a “thief” and had forgotten to flush! Before I could say I was sorry, Ms. Zhou pressed the valve and smiled as she reassured me, “It’s all right. Chen Chen always forgets to flush too.” Said, she fetched me a bar of soap, and squatted down to take out a new towel from the bottom of a cupboard. Then she went out the door, but this time only slightly closed the door, did not hear the “click” sound.

I was so happy that I didn’t even notice that the door was still open, so I started to take off my sweaty clothes and prepared to take a shower. At that moment, the door was opened from outside!

I was so shocked that I hurriedly pulled up my half-pulled panties again, and Teacher Chou was already standing in front of me with my new clothes. I felt so ashamed of myself, and Ms. Zhou was busy saying, “I’m sorry, I’m sorry…”

I’m not sure what I’m talking about. Turns out she wasn’t expecting me to move so fast at all, and was out fetching new clothes for me first!

The top of the new dress was just right, but the pants were noticeably smaller and wrapped tightly around the front and back. I couldn’t care less, I continued to wipe my wet hair on one side, and on the other side, I walked out of the bathroom to show her. But look around to find her shadow, and then look, it turns out that she just sent clothes in after, by the way, I put on the toilet lid of the clothes to take to soak into the water. As soon as I saw that she was rubbing it, I rushed over to her and told her not to wash it, saying that I washed all my own clothes. She said it didn’t matter, it was just this one time, and it wasn’t like she was washing my underwear. When I heard her say that, and when I thought about the way I had just stood there in my underwear, I felt very uneasy, so I hurriedly pressed my clothes in the water to stop her from washing them, because I was worried that she might have seen me hiding her…

Seeing that Mr. Zhou could not resist me, he smiled and said that he would let me do as I wished, then wiped his hands and went to find a plastic bag for me to wrap it up. While I was at it, I hurriedly looked in my pockets and realized that the “thing” was really gone! I was nervous for a while, but on second thought, when Mr. Zhou went out, his expression was not abnormal, and his pocket was not turned over, so he should not have seen anything. As I was thinking this way, Mrs. Zhou brought in a plastic bag, and I stuffed my clothes into it and poured the water into the sink ahead of her.

Teacher Zhou watched my every move, and angry and funny. Seeing that I had already put on my new clothes, she said, “Not bad! Good looking!” On one hand pulled my hands to the living room window to go: “Let me take a good look.” She smiled at me, as if she was indescribably happy.

I was about to say “Thank you”, but my words got stuck in my throat: what a pity, how did that… that thing get onto Ms. Zhou’s wrist?

Teacher Chou, however, was so focused on her pleasure that she didn’t notice how quickly my face changed from red to white and from white to red in that instant. She lifted my hand up, looked me up and down, and said to herself, “Hmm… the clothes are not bad, but the pants are a little too small…”

I, on the other hand, took advantage of her attention to the dress to keep my eyes glued to her wrists, wondering if I could blow on them. Or the thing fall off by itself?

“Turn back again.” Teacher Chou’s tone was filled with joy: “Turn to the left…”

Spinning around like this, my eyes looked east as she walked. When she finally realized I was staring at her body, she looked at me in disbelief and then at herself. I quickly averted my gaze and pretended nothing had happened.

“Okay!” Teacher Zhou said with satisfaction: “Do you want to watch TV? I’m going to take a shower, and then we go out to eat, okay?”

“Fine! But it’s not really necessary…” I responded, trying to be polite again.

“Kid…” Teacher Zhou gave me a loving squeeze on the cheek, and as she was pulling her hand back, she saw something stuck to her wrist, twisted it off, cupped it in her hand, and held it high in the air for a while… for about ten seconds! I stared at her hand in disbelief. Perhaps she realized what it was and made a face at me in embarrassment. I wished she’d just throw it away so I could pick it up again.

Unfortunately, she claimed it and squeezed it in her hand.

Teacher Zhou came out of the room with his own clothes, and seeing that I was still sitting there in a daze, he took a can of Coke for me and turned on the TV again. Just turned around, but then turned back as if suddenly remembering something, and unplugged the decoder from the TV. Then pursed lips, put up a finger in front of the mouth, pretended to be mysterious to me squeezed his eyes, then walked toward the bathroom.

As I watched the TV, I focused on something out of the corner of my eye: Teacher Chou spread out her clenched hand, glanced at the object in her hand, and looked back at me… Did she realize? I don’t think so

In the bathroom came the sound of “clattering” water. In fact, I know very clearly know why she just unplugged the decoder, it is afraid that I will peep at those with the third-degree movie on the fourth channel! But I don’t want to see those things, my heart surged with the urge to peep at her shower. Because just now when I was washing myself, I already noticed that under the door of the restroom is a shutter used for ventilation. But I didn’t dare to do that, what if she happened to glance there?

But my own heart was so itchy that I just couldn’t resist the desire to get close to her. Even though the TV was so loud and she in the bathroom had no idea what I was doing, I tiptoed through the bathroom and ran into her bedroom. One look and I saw the nightgown she had worn this morning sitting on her bed and it had that black bra I had seen yesterday underneath it! My senses were completely overwhelmed, and I took a deep breath of her clothes: they smelled really good…

My body swelled up so much in a flash, and I felt even more uncomfortable wrapped in my tiny pants. At that moment, I don’t know where the impulse came from, but I actually pulled down the zipper of my pants in one go, and pressed her bra underneath myself and rubbed and rubbed, feeling all the blood in my body rushing to my head!

I was unsteady on my feet, so I sat down on the bed, and then simply lay down, rubbing rapidly between my legs, rubbing…

Suddenly I heard the sound of water in the bathroom disappear, and I rolled out of bed with a start, hurriedly putting back what I had already exposed, but not bothering to zipper it up, I hurriedly put my nightgown and bra back together as they were, and ran out of her bedroom, sitting down on the couch and gasping for breath in a fearful manner.

The bathroom door opened. Ms. Zhou came out with a change of clothes. I turned my head slightly to peek at her and realized that her breasts had sunk a little lower than earlier, and thought: “It must be…” I wanted to tilt my head a little more, but she had already walked quickly into her room.

I let out a breath, thankful that I was lucky to have sharp ears. But when subconsciously I lowered my head, I was startled again by my open door! Hurriedly, I went to pull it closed, but with tiny pants and a person sunk into the couch, the zipper wouldn’t go up. I only had to look toward the door of her room again, and found that Ms. Zhou had already closed the door. Only then did I stand up, gently, as if even the sound of the zipper closing was afraid to be heard by her. Then he took another deep breath and sat back down on the couch.

“Wei! Xiao Wei!” Teacher Zhou’s shout came from the bedroom.

“Huh? I am!” I didn’t hear the shout change a bit at all.

“You come in!” Teacher Zhou shouted again. This time I heard that something was wrong.

“Coming!” I answered, got up, and pushed the door into the bedroom a few steps behind me. I thought to myself: it’s not going to be the caterpillar again, is it?

“Xiao Wei…” said Ms. Zhou, looking up with a tear-filled face.

I hurriedly walked a few steps closer and asked, “What’s wrong, Auntie?”

“What’s wrong? See for yourself!” Mr. Zhou stared hard at me and raised his hand to slam a dark mass into my face from behind himself.

When I looked at it, my head exploded and my whole head got big!

Inside the black cups, there were drops of something wet and slippery…

I hated the fact that there was a crack in the floor that I could have gotten into right away!

“You’re so nasty at such a young age!” Mr. Zhou stared at me angrily and raised his hand again, “Pah!”

My face immediately felt hot, and although my intuition told me that Mr. Zhou’s hand had withdrawn its force at the last moment, a wave of aggression, shame… rushed over me, and I couldn’t help but burst into tears!

Teacher Zhou seemed stunned by her slap, and immediately stood up, cupped my head in both hands, gently rubbed her thumbs back and forth over the area where I had been hit, and said in a grumbling voice: “I’m sorry, Wei… Auntie didn’t mean to…”

As soon as I heard that, tears fell down my face like broken beads, and my shoulders began to twitch. Seeing this, Ms. Zhou took me into her arms, lowered her head, and gently rubbed her tear-stained cheeks against mine… All of a sudden, I felt sorry for her, and that I shouldn’t have taken advantage of her absence like that… However, when I felt my chest pressed against Ms. Zhou’s breasts, the urge to do so was overwhelming, and I couldn’t help but wrap my arms around her back and hug her tightly as well! I can’t help but wrap my hands around her back and also hold her tightly in my arms.

Ms. Zhou hugged me tighter and cried harder, leaning her entire weight on my body. I couldn’t withstand her weight and took a step backwards, my heels touching the bed frame right on top of me, and my whole body collapsed onto the bed!

Teacher Zhou also followed and collapsed, and it was only then that she realized that she had held me so tightly and was pressing down on my body. She hurriedly propped herself up and sat up, both eyes still filled with tears, staring blankly at the black bra that fell at her feet.

I also sat up, a glimpse of the white translucent liquid has been reduced to a piece. Looking at Ms. Zhou’s sad appearance, I “plop” fell to my knees in front of her, tears could not help but come up again.

“Auntie, please forgive me, I deserve to die… I won’t dare next time…” I begged, sobbing.

“Xiaowei…” said Mr. Zhou, putting one hand on my beaten face and stroking it, but he couldn’t speak.

When the base of Ms. Zhou’s palm came close to my lips, I couldn’t help but pucker my lips slightly… “Auntie… Forgive…” Before I could finish my sentence, Ms. Zhou covered my mouth with her hand, and at the same time covered her face with her other hand…

I felt her hands, her palms so soft… At this point… I opened my lips slightly, and even the tip of my tongue felt the lines of her palm…

I reached out and pulled down her hand over my face, while she put mine over her face as well. At the same time… at the same time, as if saying something silently, but kissing my fingers gently… I don’t remember how she pulled me up and took me into her arms. When her cheek was pressed against mine again, she kissed the clear handprints on my face, and with a low, choked sob in her throat, she said, “Forgive me…”

And I, after all, had the audacity to kiss her on the face, and then again… Gradually, I felt her lips that kept opening and closing, and I hesitated, closed my eyes tightly, and kissed her bravely!

At that time I thought if I got another slap for this, even she beat me to death would be willing . But the crunching blow I was waiting for with my eyes tightly closed never landed on my own face. I kissed her again, and again, and she didn’t push me away, even as her lips whispered in response!

I don’t know how long this went on… until I tried to moisten her lips with the tip of my tongue, when she violently pushed me away and shook her head violently again, as if desperately trying to drive something out of her head.

I stared at her in disbelief, unable to see what she looked like behind her dark hair, holding her hand but not knowing what to do with it.

After a long time… Ms. Zhou raised her head, gathered her tousled hair in her hands, and said, somewhat shyly, with a smile that looked like she was intentionally showing me, “Go out, I want to change my clothes.”

I can’t remember how I went out to eat later that day, or how I broke up with her on the side of the road. I was in a trance and didn’t want to eat when I got home, and my parents even thought I was sick.

I was sick with a high fever and weakness and stayed in bed for a week. Although the telephone was at my bedside, I didn’t have the courage to make a call to Mr. Zhou’s home.

Later that evening, while I was inside, I suddenly heard my mom talking on the phone to someone, and it seemed to be about me. I wanted to listen more carefully, but the sound of a locomotive starting up came from outside the window, but it never left. When the sound of the locomotive finally went away, my mom came into the house and handed me a note. She said, “Your classmate’s mom called and asked why you didn’t go to her birthday party when you promised to go. I said you were sick. Here, this is their home phone number.”

I was wondering I hadn’t even promised anyone to go to any Party, right? But when I received the note, my heart almost ran out, wasn’t that the teacher I had longed for, Mr. Zhou?

I got better all of a sudden and immediately rolled over and got up and told mom that I was starving and wanted two big bowls of rice. Mom looked at me with her mouth wide open in surprise, half unable to say a word.

I’ve really got lovesickness! Now that Ms. Zhou called, it means she really isn’t mad at me anymore yeah! After dinner, I said I wanted to go out for some fresh air, ran to the phone booth in three steps, and pulled out a few coins at once and stuffed them in.

“Hello? Which one?” Sure enough, it was her.

“I’m… I’m Xiao Wei…” I said softly.

“Who is it? Can’t hear you very well, please speak up?”

“It’s me!” I cleared my throat: “I… Wei!”

“Oh! O Wei! Are you done?”

“Uh… well… I’m done…”

“Really? Didn’t your mom say you were still in bed? How did you get well so quickly?”

I just wanted to say that I knew she called, but unexpectedly Chen Chen’s voice came from the other end of the phone: “Little Brother Wei, are you well?”

“Oh! Okay… Chenchen…” I looked at the time of the call and said, “Chenchen, put Mommy on the phone, okay?”

“I’m listening!” Barely hearing the handoff call, Mr. Chow replied.

“Auntie… are you not angry with me anymore?” I can’t believe I asked such a stupid question.

There was a hesitation on the other side of the phone, and his voice was slightly different: “Not angry…”

I also heard Chen Chen’s voice speaking from the sidelines: “What’s the matter to be angry about? Who is it?”

I said, “I didn’t mean…”

Mr. Zhou laughed and said, “Stop it.”

Both sides were at a loss for words for a moment.

I called out again, “Auntie.”

“Hmm? Go ahead!”

“When can I…” I hesitated, thinking that I wasn’t angry anymore! So I continued, “When can I go again?”

“Ask you this way, anytime is fine! But the day after tomorrow Chen Chen is not in.”

“Oh… I see…” In fact, I was almost ready to say, “I’ll go the day after tomorrow. But I said, “Can I come tomorrow?”

“Yes…”

“Then…” I thought there was nothing else to do, so I said, “I’ll see you tomorrow then!”

“Okay… that’s it. Oh! Wait a minute Wei, tomorrow you’ll come straight here yourself!”

“Oh! Good good good! Auntie bye!” I hung up the phone almost as soon as I finished speaking, staring blankly at the reflection of my own figure in the glass window, not even hearing the coin that had been returned from the telephone drop to the floor.

I seemed to realize that something big was going to happen to me, and that Ms. Zhou actually missed me, and that her words in front of Mom meant that she didn’t want her to know about our relationship, and that she told me when Chen Chen wouldn’t be home!

And… so many of them… and I was already so excited that I couldn’t help but scream “wow” into the street, startling a young girl who was passing by!

While excited, I suddenly thought that I should send a gift to Mr. Zhou to express my feelings. So I hurried back home, took out all my pocket money and rushed to a nearby gift store. As soon as I entered, I saw that there were already three or four people buying things there, so I went back to the street and waited for those people to come out before re-entering. The lady in the store greeted me and asked me what I was buying, whether it was for my mom or my dad or a classmate. I shook my head at both but didn’t know what to say. The young lady looked at me, tilted her head, lowered her voice and said, “Is it for your girlfriend?”

I bit my lip and tried to say “no” but nodded with obvious embarrassment.

I finally chose a small red heart-shaped jewelry box with a chic gold pattern, very pretty. The lady said I should put something else in it, so I chose a thin, tiny, sparkling sapphire ring.

Returning home with the gift in his arms, he carefully locked it into a drawer again and fumed for a while before his ups and downs finally calmed down.

But when it was time to go to bed at night, I couldn’t help taking it out and looking at it under the lamp. Suddenly I noticed that the little card with the ring on it had a message on it, and I thought I should write one myself. What should I write? “To my aunt?” It didn’t seem very nice; “To Auntie Dearest?” “To Auntie Dearest?” was even more unorthodox. I chewed on the pen for a long time, and finally decided to write the boldest, most daring words: “I Love You!”

After writing letter by letter, I put the ring back in the box and pressed it to my chest, already having images of the next day in my head…

When I stood in front of her house, I tried to reach out and ring the doorbell a few times, but I reached back a few times. I was really worried that I would blush when I saw Ms. Zhou. Finally, I said to myself, “Smile, smile!”

I didn’t expect the door to be opened by Chen Chen, who was very happy to see me, and even happier to see me holding a gift box in my hand, probably thinking that it was for him, and said, “Mom has prepared a lot of delicious food today!”

At this time, teacher Zhou also came out from the inside, saw standing there I giggle, also smiled at me, but I think that smile actually more than one and usually different meaning. So, I put the gift with both hands, said: “Auntie, this is for you.”

“Oh? Really! What’s that? Thanks!” I could tell that Mr. Zhou was surprised.

I glanced at Chen Chen who was standing next to me and he made a weird face at me with an unhappy look on his face.

When I realized that Ms. Zhou was about to open the box, I quickly said, “Wait…”

By this time, Chen Chen had already run inside, probably really a little upset. I lowered my head and drew circles on the ground with my toes, whispering, “Wait until you’re alone.”

Teacher Chou stopped and held the gift in her arms, also saying softly, “Okay…”

After playing video games with Chen Chen for a long time, I got up and walked to the kitchen to watch Ms. Zhou cooking. As soon as she saw me go in, she spread the five fingers of her left hand, stretched them out in front of my eyes, and said, “Look, does it look good?”

It was then that I noticed she had put the ring on her ring finger.

She was wearing her ring finger! I was so happy that I couldn’t help but grin and say, “It looks good!”

Teacher Zhou smiled, bit her upper lip, and looked at me with affection, really with affection… I was so excited, but I didn’t know what to say or do… Teacher Zhou moved closer to me, put her hand on the place where I had been beaten that day, and said in a voice that was almost inaudible, “Does it still hurt?”

I shook my head silently. But Ms. Zhou had already moved her hand slowly to my lips, and her middle and index fingers gently clasped my lower lip…

I subconsciously pursed my lips and was about to say something when Mr. Zhou moved closer to me, lowered his head, placed a quick, soft kiss on my lips and said, “Thank you!”

My whole body immediately swelled up as if I were full of gas, and I almost floated… At lunchtime, Chenchen still seemed very unhappy, and Teacher Zhou and I looked at each other and smiled at me helplessly. I felt sorry for Chenchen and was about to say, “Chenchen, I’ll buy you…”

Teacher Zhou’s hand slapped my leg under the table, but didn’t take it away right away, but said to Chen Chen, “Brother Xiaowei is still studying, how can you let him buy things for you so often?”

I looked at Ms. Zhou with grateful eyes, but she didn’t look at me, she just focused on giving Chen Chen and I some food. I couldn’t help but boldly squeeze her hand on my leg, she seemed to struggle for a moment, then she intertwined her fingers with mine, and her entire palm was pressed against my leg. I could feel the wetness of her palm, and my palm was also wet… and my hand… After a while, she looked at me, then at the bowl, then at me again, signaling that how could I eat like this? I had no choice but to let go of my hand.

After lunch, Chen Chen was going to take a nap. I felt a little sleepy after helping Teacher Zhou clear the table and couldn’t help but yawn. Teacher Zhou asked me if I wanted to take a nap, and I nodded. So I followed her into the bedroom. She flipped the blanket for me and said, “You can take a nap here, and I’ll wake you up later.”

I still nodded, unsure of what I should say. Because being alone and quiet with her like this, my tiredness was all of a sudden nowhere to be seen. And, I was actually very unsettled inside. Because whereas a week ago I was sneaking into this room, right now she was the one who had tucked me in with a blanket, and on the other side of the bedpan, was hitching up that nightgown of hers!

Ms. Zhou gently closed the door to her room and walked out. I closed my eyes and tried to make myself fall asleep, afraid that I couldn’t help but masturbate here again and accidentally dirty her bed. But after a long time I couldn’t sleep, so I quietly got up and gently opened the door a crack to see what she was doing.

She’s coming my way!

I rolled over onto my bed in a hurry and pulled on the blankets to pretend I was already asleep. Just as I lay down, Ms. Zhou gently pushed the door open and came in, walking over to me, and I knew that she was leaning over me, and could feel her breath evenly brushing against my face. I wondered if she had noticed that my eyelids were trembling and I didn’t dare move a muscle. After a while, I felt her tucking me into the blankets, and then she sat down on the edge of the bed… The mattress made a slight squishing sound, followed by the sound of a drawer being opened. I opened my eyes slightly and saw that she was looking at something with her back to me. Perhaps it was because I made a noise that she turned around and saw me open my eyes. In the blink of an eye as she turned around, I saw her holding the words I had written in her hand!

I sat up in a moment of excitement and took her hands in mine. Her fingers gently rasped in my palm, and she looked at me blankly, as if she too had unspeakable words to say to me!

But she didn’t say anything, and finally… slowly closed her eyes… I… I hesitated… I don’t know if I was right, but was it a call to kiss her?

I moved over and gently touched her with my lips. She didn’t move and didn’t open her eyes; I pressed a little harder… She still didn’t move and didn’t open her eyes; I finally got up the courage to press my whole lips together!

The corners of her mouth twitched, not responding, but letting me start sucking hard and low on her lips… The deeper I kissed, the wider her mouth opened… Finally, she wrapped her arms tightly around my head, slurping stormy kisses all over my cheeks, and then finally sucked me in deeply and heavily, threading a slightly cool, deft tongue between my lips and teeth!

I suddenly felt like I’d been hit hard in the body…

Her hands tangled in the clumps of my hair, almost pulling it out. At the same time, she pressed me down, turned me on my side, slipped her hand into my sweatshirt, and stroked my chest furiously, teasing my nipples from time to time, and gradually moving downward, but when her fingers had already touched the knots of my pants, she slid them back to my chest as if dictated by something, reluctantly, and then snapped her fingernails into my shoulders, and her hot breath came in through the gap between our kisses I felt as if my body had gathered an infinite amount of strength in an instant, and my hands, which were trapped under her armpits, had already touched the contours of her breasts, which had escaped the constraints of the bra and slid freely between my hands and chest as they were squeezed tightly against me!

When I pushed my hand into her chest from between the loose buttons of her coat, all at once her whole body collapsed on the bed, allowing my hand to rub haphazardly and resolutely over her breasts, one of her nipples already standing hard and erect, sandwiched between my fingers proudly telling of its charm! The other, on the other hand, was like a tender maiden, still soft and flaccid, and when I covered it with my hand, it was again at once like a first-bloomed bud, with shyness and flirtation, spitting out its wonderful stamen in my hand!

Teacher Chou buried her head in the hollow of my shoulder, moaning slightly, sometimes frowning tightly, sometimes stretching as I pressed and rubbed… Her hands wandered over my chest, stroked up my curled legs, and had even reached into my pants, touching the edge of my underwear. But I don’t know why, but as soon as her fingers touched the bulge between my legs, she withdrew her hand as if she had been electrocuted… I unbuttoned all the buttons of her shirt, and the dazzling black bra was already turned inside out. I saw that the cups still bore the marks of that day. I knew in my heart… I knew that Ms. Zhou belonged to me, and that everything about her would be opened up for me!

As I gazed at her snow-white breasts and the dark purple nipples on them, I lifted them in my hands and was about to take the still shy one in the center of them with my lips when Ms. Chou suddenly stopped moaning and wriggling slightly, pushed me away, squeezed her open breasts with one hand, and wiped away the traces of the lip-tongue connection with one hand on my lips, saying, “No! No… The window is open, someone will see…”

Then she looked at me, who was flabbergasted with an incredibly shy look, smiled a little, turned her head and ran out of the bedroom.

That night was also dinner at Ms. Zhou’s house. It was already dark when I left her house. Ms. Zhou said she wanted to walk me down the hill, so she blessed Chen Chen to stay at home and took a flashlight to walk me out the door. We walked side by side in silence. When we reached the intersection, Ms. Zhou said she had to go back. I nodded and watched her walk back a few steps. But I could no longer restrain my impulse to rush up and hug her from behind.

Her footsteps trace slow and she also seems to be waiting for my embrace. I kissed her neck and face furiously as the two of us stumbled and moved to a corner. As soon as we entered the darkness, Ms. Zhou’s fiery lips surrounded me, the tip of her tongue sweeping over my teeth and lips before finally sucking in my tongue tightly!

My hands caressed and rubbed her chest. She defiantly pulled her shirt out of her pants, guiding my hand into it, and lifted her bra, tugging my fingers heavy on her breasts. I felt my body burning like a flame and could feel her breasts rapidly expanding and standing up in my hands!

Once again, I was in a state of demonization…

At that moment, the voices of two passersby talking approached from above us from a distance, and Mr. Zhou pulled me to dodge into a dark shadow aside. We both gasped for air, our rapid breathing hitting each other’s eardrums, feeling each other’s hearts beating strongly! Until the duo passed by on the road not far from us, I once again buried my head in Teacher Zhou’s chest, searching for those two ripe cherries with my lips. Teacher Zhou told me in a sharp voice, softly and firmly to stop, but I still held her tightly and finally sucked on that sensitive one. And with my other hand, I gently kneaded and squeezed the top of that shy… Teacher Chou leaned against the wall, looking down at me sucking on her breasts in ecstasy, and with a long sigh, she dug her fingers into my hair, gently scratching my already tingling scalp…

Finally, while I was trying to catch my breath, she quickly pulled down her bra and cupped my face in her hands. In the weak light, I could see her eyes glistening with tears… and I looked at her in the same way… “Don’t do that in the future… I’m still an aunt!” She seemed to be waiting for my reply. But before I could say anything, she once again hugged me tightly and planted a deep kiss on my forehead… I felt that I had completed my journey from boy to man from this day onwards. Although I had a hazy feeling that the pleasure was not yet at its peak, inside I still  intended to think so.

Mom and Dad remained oblivious to all this, except that Dad happened to be tidying my room for me that day and found a pair of stained panties from under my pillow that I often used to wipe up afterwards. He called me into the room and told me that this was semen, and that I shouldn’t have no willpower like that.

I nodded, and mentally decided that I wasn’t going to do the masturbation thing anymore. I was going to dedicate it all to her, to my favorite person. So, even though my daytime seizures kept me awake and I couldn’t help but satisfy the urge to squirt, I gritted my teeth and held on, even as I pressed my hand under my ass.

And tomorrow… What will happen tomorrow…?

When Ms. Zhou opened the door to greet me, I noticed that she had deliberately changed into that loose blouse, but underneath, she was wearing a pair of short-legged leggings of the kind often worn by dance artists. In this way, although the loose blouse hid the curves of her upper body, her bottom looked even more exquisite.

From the moment the door to the room closed, I felt a strong urge to embrace her body immediately. However, Ms. Zhou acted as if yesterday’s events had not happened at all, saying, “Do you want to eat, Wei?” and “Do you want to read the newspaper, Wei?”

Did she really change her mind so quickly? In my heart, for the first time, I had the thought of “How can a woman change her heart so easily?”

When she said “Xiao Wei…” again, I jumped up from the sofa, threw my arms around her shoulders and tried to kiss her on the lips. But she desperately tried to turn her head away and blocked my attempts to reach into her clothes. The two fell to the couch like a wrestling match.

Her strength, however, was greater than mine, and she escaped from my embrace in a few moments, standing in the center of the living room and shouting loudly, “Wei! I told you I’m an aunt, you can’t do this!”

I immediately felt my eyes darken, so women really are just that easy to change their minds. I felt fooled, and I couldn’t help my eyes from getting sore. I didn’t want to cry in front of her, so I twisted my head and headed for the door!

“Wei! Xiao Wei!” As soon as she saw that I was about to leave, Ms. Zhou called me from behind, and when she saw that I was ignoring her, she rushed up and blocked my way. She lifted my chin… and realized that tears were already streaming down my face.

“Ugh… this child…” Ms. Zhou sighed, looking at me with confused eyes. The confusion was more like for herself.

“Wei, don’t go…” she took my hand and led me back to the sofa, pressing me to sit down. With that, she sat down herself.

“Wei… I’m Auntie… Auntie is more than 20 years older than you. We are not allowed to be!”

I raised my head, looked at her with tearful eyes, and sobbed, “Then… then you… yesterday…”

A look of self-reproach swept across Ms. Zhou’s face and she bowed her head. In a moment, she raised her head, as if she had thought of some reason to speak.

I simply jumped into her arms and whispered my heartfelt words in her ear: “Auntie, when I grow up, you’ll marry me, okay?”

“Marry you?” As soon as Teacher Zhou lifted me up from his arms, he said with a very unexpected expression, his mouth open, “Auntie married you?”

“Yeah, you took my ring!” I said in all seriousness as I wiped the tears from the corners of my eyes.

“Xiao Wei… you…” said Ms. Zhou to herself as she took me into her arms, “You really are a little ingrate!”

I, on the other hand, not wanting to be held like a child at this point, sat back down on the couch and reached out to take her into my arms. But she seemed to be still reeling from what I had just said, and several times I couldn’t pull her back. Finally, she looked at me blankly and slowly leaned into my arms and closed her eyes.

We spent the whole morning just snuggling together, not saying anything, even forgetting about lunch…

“Xiao Wei… do you masturbate a lot?” Ms. Zhou suddenly asked me.

“I…” I thought for a moment and replied, “Not yesterday.”

Teacher Zhou face swept a trace of want to smile but did not smile expression. And then said: “too much masturbation is very easy to hurt the body, if you really like auntie, in the future, do not very many times.”

I nodded vigorously to show that I  meant to do it.

“And…” Ms. Zhou paused for a moment and looked at me: “You have to promise Auntie that when you’re with her, you can only touch each other or kiss each other on the mouth, and you can never do anything else. Can you promise?”

“Yes…” I agreed, “but…”

“But what?” Mr. Zhou was surprised.

“But you said no masturbating a lot!”

“Yeah, so what?”

I stared into her eyes and said, word for word, “I, want, to, give, you!”

Teacher Zhou was flabbergasted, she seemed to be unable to imagine how a child of my age could be so infatuated with her no matter what. Although I don’t know that when I say this, it means that  I intend to offer my virginity. But for her, it was a complete realization of how deep feelings I already held for her!

“Then…” said Ms. Cho, pausing hesitantly.

“You don’t want me?” I straightened.

“It’s not… it’s not that you don’t want to…” Ms. Chou sighed softly in my arms and continued, “It’s that you’re still young and don’t know what to do.”

“Then you can teach me!” I blurted out.

Teacher Zhou lifted herself up and looked at me as well: “Listen to Auntie, when you grow up a bit more, Auntie will do it with you, okay?”

“Grow a little? How big is that?”

“Um… eighteen, okay? On your eighteenth birthday.”

When I heard that, I thought to myself that there was no harm in waiting until I was a little older, not to mention that I was not sure how to do it. I heard people say that this kind of thing is very skillful to make a woman comfortable.

“Okay, then you can’t flip out on me!” I almost wanted to pull the trigger with her.

“No, definitely not…” Ms. Zhou rolled over in my arms and kissed my thighs.

I was so tickled by her kiss, but it felt so good. I couldn’t help but put my hand inside her shirt and caress her back.

Her panting ragged again, nipping at my skin with her teeth. A hand slid down my shorts and gently stroked my ass.

I also moved my hand to her ass, and felt that her ass was so firm, and the groove was so deep. When I wanted to touch further down the groove, Ms. Zhou pushed my hand away and at the same time leaned her head towards the small of my back.

I felt it had gotten so hard down there that it was pressed right under her chin and bouncing. Ms. Chou felt it too, and reshifted her position, crouching on my chest.

“Auntie… let me touch you here, okay?” My hand had rested on her chest.

Mr. Chow sighed and closed his eyes and nodded.

My hand went through the bra to hold one of her breasts, squeezing it gently. Gradually her nipple began to harden, bucking against my hand.

Mr. Zhou moved his body upward again and kissed me on the lips while also playing with my tiny nipples with his hands.

After kissing and caressing each other like this for a long time, Ms. Zhou put her hand inside her own clothes and pulled down her own bra, and  her full breasts immediately protruded out, looking swollen and bulging in my hands.

“You made Auntie so sad, what will you let ah Auntie do in the future?”

I stopped and told her, “I won’t change my mind.”

Hearing this, Ms. Zhou smiled and nodded. She whispered in my ear, “Eat it…”

When she finished, she got up and sat on the other couch, closing her eyes.

I leaned over her chest and teased her nipple with the tip of my tongue, taking it in and spitting it out… Even though I had never experienced anything like this before yesterday, at this moment, my intuition and Ms. Chou’s reaction were teaching me how to do it.

Her eyes were slightly closed as she leaned back on the couch. From time to time, she looked up and open at me, and then she laid back down and shook this head, letting out small sighs and moans. I was also mesmerized by the look on her face and wanted her to touch me so badly.

I was already hard as a rail down there, never felt so hard while masturbating, almost peeking out of my pants.

I finally couldn’t help myself and whispered as I kissed her ear, “Auntie, I want to touch down there.”

Ms. Zhou opened her eyes and looked at me with mesmerized eyes. Then she nodded her head and put her hand to my lower body.

I never thought that my request to masturbate would be perceived by her as a request to touch me, and she took the initiative to put her hand down. Undoing the knot of my pants, I pulled them down to my thighs, and gently put my hand on the outside of my panties and stroked: “Is this okay?”

All of a sudden I felt squashed, it was nothing like my own touch! So gentle, and so rhythmic! Her whole hand covered me, and as she moved back and forth, her fingers often even squeezed between my ass cheeks, making me feel so smooth and refreshed! I felt like I was about to squirt!

But it had been a long time, and I hadn’t even gotten to that state where my whole body would be sore and relaxed, and although I was very comfortable, I couldn’t ejaculate. At that moment I realized that Ms. Zhou’s other hand seemed to be caressing my thighs, but it didn’t seem to be caressing me, and when I raised my body to look at it, I found that Ms. Zhou’s hand was rubbing back and forth between my own legs!

Ms. Zhou’s gasps got louder and louder, even as her face contorted as if she was in pain. That’s when she stopped stroking me and slammed into my panties, grabbing my bottom while her other hand flew underneath herself, stroking as if she was trying to dig in. Suddenly a low growl of a kind I’d never heard before escaped her throat, and her whole body tensed up, her hand stopping its movement and pressing down dead center on her bottom!

Time froze for about 10 seconds before she gradually recovered and looked sleepily at me who was staring blankly at her. Then proceeded to stroke herself and me with both hands, but with much softer gestures than she had just done.

“Wei… you really are still a child…”

“I don’t… yes…” I choked a little at her touch.

“You…” she pulled her hand back from my pants as if she was tired, looked at it, and said, “You haven’t grown any hair yet!”

“Shaggy?” I think I do. It’s already grown!

Teacher Zhou looked at me full of suspicion, smiled and breathed a sigh of relief, said: “There is, but it’s not very long yet!”

I nodded my head, I still felt so sad down there. But then I asked, “Auntie, did you just ‘get there’?”

I heard this expression from my classmates, who said that girls become like this when they “arrive”.

Teacher Chou wrinkled my cheeks, nodded and said, “Yes… I’ve arrived. And you?”

“Me? I… am I there yet?”

Hearing me say this, Mr. Zhou “giggled” and laughed out loud. Then she hugged me tightly and whispered a few words.

I laughed too…

Mr. Zhou was saying, “When you grow up, the two of you can arrive together.”

At that moment, I suddenly wanted to know what Ms. Chow looked like down there. So I asked her if I could.

“Then you’re not allowed to stick it in your pants!”

I nodded my head in agreement and put my hand between her legs, feeling that the place was as soft as a breast, only with a slight depression in the center. Moreover, Ms. Zhou’s pants there were all wet, reflecting a lot of dampness.

I pulled my hand back and put it in front of my own nose to smell it, wondering what the odor was. Mr. Zhou opened my hand at once, then hugged me tighter again.

Time flies, and before you know it, it’s late August.

Whenever it was quiet at night, and I listened to the crisp ticking sound of the small alarm clock on my desk, I felt as if it were the footsteps of the new school year, and it was getting closer and closer… I went out with Ms. Zhou twice a week. As time went by, I felt Chen Chen was looking at me with more suspicion, and even made a few deliberate attempts to look disappointed in front of her mother and me, saying that I actually went to see her mom every time. I don’t know if this little elf-like child has really sensed something, so when I go every Wednesday, I usually can only really go to see her, at most I can only take advantage of the time when Chen Chen is not paying attention to quickly make out with her. Only on Saturdays or Sundays could we both tell each other how much we had missed each other over the past few days, and seek solace in each other’s bodies almost frantically – although that was also under the strict constraints of the “rules”.

So, when I saw that the de facto once-a-week appointments were not guaranteed with the start of the semester, an inexplicable melancholy rose in my heart. There was even one time when we were making out, I couldn’t help thinking about it…

“What’s wrong?” Ms. Zhou asked me gently as she lifted her face from my chest.

“Nothing…” I replied in a low voice and didn’t speak again.

“Not feeling well?” As I spoke, a soft hand was already on my forehead.

“No… nothing…” I don’t know why, but I felt upset: “I remembered.”

“What’s wrong with you?” Teacher Chou sat up, still looking at me with her characteristic gentleness: “Is it… I don’t understand why you’ve been looking at me in a bad way lately, or is it that I can’t make you…”

“No no! I don’t care! There’s nothing…” I knew what she meant. Because almost every time we made out, Ms. Zhou would have an orgasm before I did, and then she’d feel so weak that she’d lean back against my chest, whether I wanted it or not, and it was the same a few minutes ago.

“I don’t give a shit about anything, don’t you dare think that.” I sounded distinctly impatient.

After stopping for a while, Teacher Zhou looked at me with a smile on his face, and lifted the blanket on us to have a look, and just wanted to speak, but I lifted the blanket off with one hand and said angrily, “I’m not going to cover it up, it’s hot!”

Actually, the hotter one should be Ms. Zhou. Because she always wore pants, while I, for the first time, stripped off my clothes during a very crazy tangle, and since then it has become a habit as well.

At this moment, my mind and what my body was reacting to were completely different things. My body was still in a state of erection, while my heart was devoid of the desire to continue any further. As such, Teacher Zhou was confused by the scene in front of her, and she only thought that I hadn’t been satisfied yet, hence why my mind was so annoyed.

One of her hands gently gripped my lower back, rubbing it slowly. The other hand gathered me into her arms and pressed my mouth to her breast.

My uneasiness was temporarily eased by the simultaneous stimulation coming from my lower body and mouth… “Have you started to dislike me already?” Teacher Chou was stroking me, but at the same time he said something like this.

As soon as I heard that, my easily stabilized emotions were lit up again. Solely pushing her hand away, I sat up from the bed and pulled a cushion between my legs. Not a word was spoken.

Mr. Zhou sighed and put the blanket he was wearing over my legs and didn’t say anything.

After a long time, I couldn’t help but twist my head to look at her and realized that her eyes were filled with tears but they didn’t fall. My heart sank, and apologies immediately flooded my mind. But I don’t know why, when the words came to my lips, they came out completely different.

“I don’t like you? Don’t you ask yourself, when have I…” I realized that what I wanted to say was completely different from what I had in mind, but I couldn’t stop myself from saying it: “When have you not just satisfied yourself, when have you not just played with me as if you were playing with me and then thrown it away?”

Ms. Zhou turned her head and said with a quivering lip in disbelief and confusion, “I played you? Then I’m… then I’m a slut?” A sneer tugged at the corners of her mouth, and tears fell onto the back of my hand.

I couldn’t speak at the question, so I just stared at her.

“Well said…” said Ms. Zhou to herself, turning her head away.

My heart was in turmoil. I knew I had made a mistake, but I didn’t know how to apologize. At this point in time, when two people were getting closer, apologizing seemed to become more and more difficult, so I just stared at the ceiling…

The air in the room seemed to freeze, and the wall clock also insensitively intervened, making a ticking sound that disturbed me even more. My heart was in turmoil. One moment I was thinking about how to cheer her up with all the new tricks I had thought of the night before, and the next moment I was on pins and needles with the pain of my impending longing.

“Xiaowei…” Again, I don’t know how long it took, but Teacher Zhou’s voice came to my ears.

“Wei, you said I just wanted to play with you, but do you know…” Teacher Zhou’s voice was filled with pain, and after a pause, she said, “You want me, don’t you?”

I didn’t get what she meant for a second, and continued to look at her in disbelief.

She twisted her body under the blanket, as if doing something. A moment later, she reached out and pulled my hand to her chest, closed her eyes and said, “Lift it yourself…”

I suddenly realized what she had just been doing!

When I didn’t move, she opened her eyes and said, “Lift the blanket…”

I still haven’t moved…

She seemed to be enraged all of a sudden and yelled at me, “Lift it off! Hear me? I said lift!”

Her eyes filled with blood for a split second, and she roared at me as if she were a shaken lioness, while preparing herself to lift the blanket off her body!

A thought flashed through my head: It can’t be like this! It can’t be! That would mean the end of everything!

I jumped on top of her and wrestled with her, my legs pressed dead against the sides of the blanket, doing my best to keep her from baring herself to my eyes!

Gradually, everything in front of me made me so confused that I couldn’t restrain myself any longer and began to kiss her wildly, while at the same time speaking from the bottom of my heart: “Auntie, I can’t bear to leave you… really… I don’t dislike you… I’m afraid that I won’t be able to see you anytime soon…”

Teacher Zhou stopped wrestling with me and looked at me in disbelief. So I voiced my concerns… After hearing what I had to say, Mr. Zhou held me tightly in his arms for a long time, unable to speak.

After another long while, Teacher Zhou broke into a smile and said, “Okay, I said the wrong thing too. Don’t blame me, okay?”

I saw her smile and my heart swept away. Smiling, I nodded my head. Suddenly I remembered something she had just said and whispered something in her ear.

When she heard that, she almost jumped up. Spanking me on my ass, which had been bare for quite some time, she pouted, “Don’t talk nonsense, you can’t change what you said.”

I made a face and said, “Okay, okay… I didn’t say anything, okay?”

“Said it all, you’ll be punished!” A hint of mischief also appeared on Teacher Zhou’s face.

“How do you want to be punished?” I made a good aggravated face.

“Bring your hands over!” Teacher Zhou was deliberately stern.

I honestly put my hand out with my eyes closed, thinking: the most I can do is a few light smacks and a kiss at the end.

I didn’t realize… that this would be the first time in my life that…

My hand touched a thick, soft patch of grass, slightly damp with air. They curled together in a thin coil and wrapped around my fingertips…

I finally realized what they were, and although I had felt them through the barrier of fabric, when I first came into direct contact with them like this, an identical sensation, a kind of… an… penetrated my whole body with great speed.

I couldn’t help but try to reach down, because I could already feel a tiny protrusion in the middle of the grass, and then, shouldn’t it be the warm, moist… But my thoughts hadn’t yet turned into reality, or while I was still thinking this way, Teacher Chou had already pulled my hand out, and with a red face, looked at the mesmerized me… I opened my eyes, and didn’t even know what to do.

“How about this punishment?” Mr. Chow scratched my nose.

“Too short… I mean too short…”

“Heh heh…” Teacher Zhou couldn’t help but laugh, and wrapped her arms around me again, saying softly, “Wei, it’s not that Auntie doesn’t want to talk to you… but you’re really too young to put up with it right now, okay?”

I nodded my head, my heart still stirred by this unexpected delight. I couldn’t help but say, “So… let me have a look, will you?”

“Take a look? No way!” Teacher Zhou shook his head repeatedly : “Don’t give an inch, you won’t be able to help it!”

“I won’t! I can’t help it.” I swore like a curse, “I swear I won’t hold back. Besides, if you can’t help it, it’s still the same. I don’t use my hands…”

Teacher Zhou laughed again and sighed, “Do you really want to see it?”

He nodded his head as if asking himself a question: “It’s really only for watching…” He said, laying his body flat and closing his eyes tightly.

My heart is jumping to my throat, the dream is about to be shown in front of my eyes! Teacher Zhou’s hand tightly gripped the blanket and seemed to let go with great reluctance . And I… it turned out to be… I don’t know how to describe it. When everything was exposed in front of my eyes, my heart was filled with devotion as if I were paying homage. But to be honest, when I saw it, the thought flashed through my mind: How could it look so strange?

My heart was unusually calm, and I couldn’t stop staring at the area: it was really strange, and to be honest, a bit ugly. It wasn’t like a little girl’s, it was much bigger, and there was a bulge in the center… How can I describe it? I immediately thought of the caterpillar!

This is what I really felt. This is what I really felt when I first saw the genitals of the opposite sex! I’ll remember this feeling forever…

I gently spread Ms. Zhou’s legs apart a bit, and she resisted for a bit, but still loosened her legs. Thus, the whole place was displayed in front of my eyes. Perhaps because it was my first time, I searched my mind for the parts I had heard of before. Maybe that was what they called a “hole”, or maybe this was what they called a “flower core”… In any case, everything flashed through my mind, and my eyes acted like a camera, capturing everything I saw for the first time in my life in my memory and preserving it forever… Suddenly, I felt so excited inside, really excited! I felt that I would never be able to leave this woman in front of me, who had given me my first time, and I jumped in front of her, stroked her cheek with trembling fingers and said, “Auntie, I will never leave you, I will always love you! Do you… do you love me?”

I said and asked this as if Ms. Chou was the one who had given her virginity to me, and I really wanted to hear her say, “I love you” as well. But Ms. Zhou nodded and said, “You will always be in my heart…”

Then she kissed me tightly and wrapped her legs around me, and for the first time, we were both completely naked, embracing and clinging to each other…

The two of us reached orgasm together. Although I didn’t enter her, this time the friction was no longer with my hands, or rather not just with my hands, but after a passionate kiss and caress, Ms. Chou took hold of my lower body and rubbed it against her bottom, rubbing it rapidly… Her orgasm came so intensely that she finally allowed me to take control of everything there by myself, clasping her hands around me and twisting her waist against me as hard as she could. I, on the other hand, followed her example, rubbing and pressing my lower body rapidly between her protrusions and grooves… Finally, when she went limp, I exploded on top of her… The feeling between a man and a woman… it was surprisingly beautiful…

Maybe it was really a kind of love, where even the peak of love remained on the surface; maybe it was really a kind of carnal desire, where one of them never wanted to say the word “love”… For me at that time, this was very satisfying! For me at the time, it was so satisfying that I was willing to pay for it in blood… It was an extremely hot and muggy afternoon. Ms. Zhou and I were hugging each other and reading a book. The book was in her hand, and after each page, I kissed her to tell her that I had finished the page. Ms. Zhou felt that my kisses were becoming more and more frequent and dense, so she laughed and told me not to read so fast, making it difficult for her to read.

Where did I care about that much? When she said that, I just jumped on top of her and begged her for sex. At first, she resisted, but as I kissed and stroked her… she grew aroused and wrapped her arms around me…

But just as we were making out, we never expected a terrible thing to be about to happen to us!

On this day, I don’t know if it was my teasing that did it, or if Ms. Zhou needed me so badly that she had the audacity to propose a game of hide-and-seek with me. In the empty room, if I found her first, I would be on top of her later, and if I couldn’t find her, it would be the other way around. I heard of course very happy, and after she hid, but also deliberately pretend to find her appearance. Because I really liked the feeling of her on top of me, even though it was also just rubbing, but when her breasts were bouncing up and down and her soft, moist grass was rubbing against my belly, it was such a wonderful feeling… I thought to myself: “It’s almost time to surrender! It’s time to surrender… But just as I turned to walk towards the bedroom, a pair of strong hands grabbed me by the shoulders, and a laugh came from behind me…

“Hey, hey, hey! What are you looking for?”

I felt a chill down my spine for a split second and couldn’t help but look back: a guy wearing sunglasses was sneering at me!

I subconsciously asked loudly, “Who are you!”

The man pushed me back into the couch while taking off his sunglasses and said, “It’s none of your business who I am.

Tell me where that bitch is.”

I immediately realized that the visitors were here to find Teacher Zhou and instinctively shouted, “Don’t come out! There are robbers!”

“Pop!”

I was slapped so hard that I was blinded: “I’m a robber? What are you? You cheap little thing, tell me, where is your great lover? If you don’t tell me, I’ll kill you!”

Another round of punches and kicks came at me and I closed my eyes and covered my head while screaming for help!

“What are you doing here?”

I opened my eyes, only to see Mr. Zhou somehow dressed to appear in front of me and the man, and struggling to twist the man’s fist that was swung at me!

“I… ask you!” The man seemed taken aback as well, his fist raised in the air, paused, and seemed to drop it with great reluctance, shaking his jacket that was askew to one side.

“You did it!” The man glanced at me, still with a gloomy voice: “What? You can’t find a man, so you’re eating young grass?”

“It’s none of his business! What the hell do you want?” Ms. Zhou said calmly.

“Want what? I want my son!”

“Your son?” The corners of Mr. Zhou’s mouth showed mockery: “Have you ever had a son?”

“Where is he? Where have you hidden him?”

“Strange!” Teacher Zhou looked even more disdainful: “You lost your own son, what are you doing here with me?”

When that man heard that, he then grabbed my arm again: “Good! Since you won’t hand over my son, don’t blame me for taking your lover away. I think… his parents and the police will help you remember.”

Teacher Chou looked at me, then at the man… sitting on the sofa… and nodded in extreme pain, saying, “Okay… you let go of him first…”

The man let go of me. Teacher Zhou said to me, “Xiaowei, you go back first.”

I wondered how Ms. Zhou changed her name to “Xiaowei”, and I didn  t mean to leave her alone with such an uninvited guest!

“Go!” Teacher Zhou stared at me with bloodshot eyes, then pulled out a wad of money from a side purse and flung it at my feet: “Why aren’t you leaving yet? Take it!”

Looking at the unfamiliar Ms. Zhou in front of me, then at this man who seemed to have an unusual relationship with her, and then at the money at my feet… I immediately felt as if I had suffered a great deal of aggression, and yanked up my blouse and rushed out of the room!

But when I ran hard to the intersection, but suddenly feel so stupid: it must be teacher Zhou in order to protect me, so intentionally said my name wrong, so intentionally dumped the money to me as if she was recruiting male prostitutes! But what would she do now? Will that man do something to her?

The more I thought about it, the more scared I became! So I turned my head and ran back, my heart pounding, fearing that something might have happened in the few minutes since I came out. But when I got back, I realized that there was no one there…

I don’t know how I got through the last hours of my vacation, often staying by the phone alone, waiting for her voice to come through on the other end of the line.

The first time I kissed her, and then the nightmare of it, would appear in front of my eyes. When I remembered catching the caterpillar from her neckline, I could not help but smile, but when I thought about where she was now, sadness gripped my heart… A month or so had gone by, and I was already back to my studies. I often left the house early in the morning, still taking the same bus, then switching back to another one, and even going to her house after school to wait for her to show up… However, I never saw her. There was no light at her house either… Whenever it was late at night, I thought of my encounters with her and the many first times I had with her… I couldn’t help calling her name in my mind, and I couldn’t help dreaming of having sex with her… Sometimes it was hard to suppress my desire, her body was often in front of me, and her moans and cries were often echoing in my ears… But I suppressed it! I even tied my hands together with shoelaces. I didn’t want to… I didn’t want to break my promise to her…

I believed in the saying, “When you think about something, you dream about it”, so I used to think about her during class, and during breaks too… without talking, without smiling… my whole being seemed to change completely… and then… there she was…

“Wei, how are you? Missed me, huh?”

“I miss you too, thinking about the time we spent together… I know I’m important to you, and so are you to me…”

“Even though there is a huge difference between us, I want to say that… Wei, you are the best and most wonderful person I have ever met! Truly… your feelings for me, and everything you’ve given me… I want to say that I hate the fact that I can devote myself entirely to you…”

“But the truth is cruel. It forced me to leave you… for the sake of Chenchen, I had to suppress my thoughts of you… I’ve left here… I wonder if you’ll blame me for being cruel?”

“If you’re going to blame me, then you’re going to bash me in your heart!”

“But I still say, if you’re true to me, then study hard and don’t think about it, okay? I’ll always keep our promise, always.”

“That’s all. Love you… Zhou Yuerong.”

I stood in an empty station and read her letter…

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postscript

This story has been written on and off for nearly a week, and today it is finally “finished”. Please don’t be offended if I failed to live up to everyone’s encouragement by writing a bit of a “snake’s head and tail” at the end.

One of you wrote to me and asked, “Is this your first creation? I would like to say that this is not my first creation, but it is not my first time either. In the past, I have posted a few articles in Yuan Yuan, such as “The Classmate Who Raped Her Daughter” and “Red”, but I didn’t really write them after “Unfinished Business”. I’ve posted a few articles like “Rape of Daughter’s Classmate” and “Red”, but I never really wrote them after “Unfinished Business”.

I think that apart from erotic literature, which once reached its peak in the Ming and Qing Dynasties, and even saw the emergence of many famous writings by celebrities, I am afraid that today’s works on the Internet, and even some of the well-written ones, no matter whether they are fabricated or derived from allusions, have been written in a rather exquisite and perfect manner, and have won unanimous acclaim from all of us. I am afraid that the reason for this is that these works satisfy the satisfaction: the space of imagination, which is not possible in the daily life, or to put it more precisely, the satisfaction: the space of imagination of the sexual life and sexual consciousness.

That is why I think association is very important in the writing of erotic literature. A work that simply depicts sexual behavior may not necessarily be liked by everyone. On the contrary, even the depiction of male and female love in ordinary works may make people think of it. Unfortunately, for a long time now, such works seem to have fallen out of favor and have been replaced by “moaning” works.

I don’t dismiss the need for erotic literature to be sexually descriptive, and to be colorfully portrayed. But simple descriptions usually make the reader feel the same, and prevent erotic literature from achieving the status it deserves.

Many of the people who wrote to me looked like they had known Won-Won for a long time. The first time I came to this station was when the “Bump Club” was at its peak of popularity, and Yuan Yuan was also recruiting people there. Later, “Bump”

It’s down, Won Won has also shown signs of going downhill after a period of time (please forgive me for being judgmental), and many familiar names rarely show up here anymore. The reason?

I think the main reason is that the word “fresh” is gone. The ideas, the plots, and even the rare dialogues are all the same. If this continues, I think people will be less and less interested in getting pleasure from erotic literature…

In addition, “piracy” is also rampant on the Internet. Although most people repost for the purpose of sharing with others, some people who blatantly engage in “piracy” really need to be criticized. My humble article “Rape of my daughter’s classmate” was originally a synopsis of a story, and I intended to post it in Yuan Yuan first to seek your opinion.

However, the name “Giordano” was taken to another station to publish, the result is that when I wrote the first paragraph, but there are kind netizens accused me of plagiarism. The story of “Red” had a similar experience. So I didn’t want to write any more.

I believe that I share the same deep feelings of the author and many. In fact, the annoyance is not accused of a few sentences, but hard labor for the accusation at the same time, their work has become a tool for others to make money, and these articles or, ideas or, originally and “good” free of charge to enjoy.

In any case, today’s erotic literature is a game, and even the people who write it are not idlers like the Ming and Qing scholars. Therefore, here I also hope that, on the one hand, people who participate in this game get their own fun, on the other hand, I also hope that we all abide by the rules of the game.

Finally, I would like to say “sorry”. My article is really not good, and gossip a lot, please do not take offense. If you feel the same way, please write to me for advice!

Thank you!