youthful memories


(1)

It’s already mid-autumn, the moon is full, and I’m alone in another country.

I lit up a cigarette, took a deep drag and exhaled lightly, watching the light smoke float by in front of my eyes, and then sighed. There is no purpose, no sadness or happiness, there is, perhaps, just inexplicable feelings.

Beside me, there is no one I love.

When I was a child, my mother asked someone to tell my fortune, and he said, “If your son is well managed, he’s a talented man; if he’s not, he’ll be a super bad guy. And he’s very popular with women…”

“Nonsense!” I blushed as a teenager.

“Perhaps there is a little truth in his math.” As an adult, listening to my mom retell this passage, I said.

I can’t remember when the desire for women began, it seems to be in junior high school, the class transferred to a girl named Fan Wei, is a typical melon face, looks very white and quiet, eyes are big, speak fine, voice pure and clear, the first time I heard her speak inexplicably feel very kind, the voice straight to my heart, which makes me very like to be with her! I have been looking at her face and eyes occasionally, and the sunlight gives off a soft luster, and I get lost in my thoughts for a long time.

At that time, our classmates may have seen a little something, intentionally or unintentionally will say something about her to me, so I know that she is a professor’s daughter, there is an older sister, she and I were born in 1972, the rat, and so on and so forth. But at that time, I was a naughty student in the eyes of teachers, refused to work hard, and my grades were not good, but her grades were very good, as in that era of the supremacy of the college entrance examination, of course, I was a little inferior. This crush lasted until I graduated from junior high school and surprisingly got into a major high school and ended. Even today when I see her, I still think of her in my heart, but of course I’ve chosen to give it up because she’s already married.

Two years after graduation, I made a whole lot of friends, and we had a lot of happy days together. my knowledge of the opposite sex originated with my senior brother, whom I call Cao. it was in the winter of 1996, when I traveled with him to Neijiang City on business. We agreed to leave in the afternoon. At 3:00, Cao drove his car and we left from Chengdu.

On the way, Cao said: “Ajie ah, there is nothing to play in Neijiang, I brought two friends in Jianyang together, okay?” I said, “Yes!”

The car soon arrived in Janyang, at a garden entrance, a tall girl waved at us, she had a coffee-colored leather jacket on top and I can’t remember what was underneath, just that she had a nice smile.

Cao said to her first: “Kiki, introduce me, this is my senior brother, Jie.” Then he said to me, “This is Kiki.” I said blankly, “Hello.” Cao pulled her aside and talked for a while, I couldn’t hear what he said.

After 10 minutes, and came a girl, very young, very sunny kind, a cowboy outfit, not tall, smiled two dimples, slightly will reveal white small tiger teeth, skin is the kind of white type, in short, is the first glance, I think she is very beautiful. She called Xiao Li.

We chatted a few words and got in the car and set off, the two girls sat in the backseat, laughing and joking along the way, I could see that Cao was very familiar with Xiaoqi and kept telling her jokes, Xiao Li was also very active, but most of the time it was the two of us who listened to the two of them laughing and joking, and the 100 kilometers arrived without realizing it. But maybe it’s my feeling, I always feel that Xiao Li’s sight is often on me.

After getting off the bus, the director of the local bureau, the secretary and the director of the Department of Finance and Accounting are waiting at the entrance of the Neijiang Hotel, we are going to set up one of their project investment, of course, we have to be a little more enthusiastic. After a polite talk, the arrangement of accommodation, write a good two rooms, two girls a, I and Cao a, and then dinner. Cao brother with the local people said, two girls are his cousin and cousin’s classmates, I do not know whether it is true or not.

Dinner in Neijiang at that time the best of a Chinese restaurant, the local hot and lively to a lot of people, taking turns to toast our wine, we as young people are not good to sit still, after all, are well-known local figures, so one to another, I drank a daze, two girls or not, so after the end, we are walking crooked.

Helping each other back to the hotel, on the fourth floor, I entered the room on the bed, a moment, Cao brother came in: “Ajie ah, discuss.” I said in a daze: “What ah?”

“That’s right, Xiaoqi and I are going to stay together, and it’s too late to get a room. One of you is a little brother, the other is a little sister, why don’t you just squeeze us in for one night, please!” Before I could react, he went out again.

After a while, Xiaoqi said “what is this ah, please fulfill” and so on, while the small Li pulled in, I really admire her, the other hand also brought the small Li’s bag! Xiaoqi closed the door and left, leaving the two of us you look at me, I look at you for a long time, really do not know what to do, the scene is a bit awkward.

After a while, I only fear over God, said to Xiao Li: “Forget it, you do not see them that way, anyway, there is no discussion. It’s late, you can’t bear to let me stay in the aisle, I can’t let you stay there either, just let it be, tomorrow then find them to settle the score is not too late.”

In the light, Rei’s face turned bright red and she looked embarrassed: “So… you don’t feel inconvenienced, do you?”

“Well, as long as you won’t, I won’t.” By this time I was pretty much ready for bed.

“It won’t bother you if I watch a little TV before I rest, will it?” She asked.

“No problem.”

The TV was a blur of snowflakes. I opened my eyes and she was sitting on the other bed, watching with her hands in her lap. All of a sudden at once, the room went dark, the power went out, and she let out a low yelp.

Neijiang winter is very cold, air conditioning due to power outages do not work, I began to feel the coolness. I thought to myself: How can Xiao Li stand it? Side ear, she did not fall asleep, in the bed to turn around.

“Take my quilt.” I said as I threw my quilt over, thinking that I would have to be a hero in this situation today.

“How about that!” She threw it back at me.

After a while of this back and forth, I got impatient and blurted out, “Then why don’t we just sleep together?”

She didn’t say anything and was silent for a while, and I was regretting that I might have said the wrong thing when a very soft body leaned gently against mine.

“Uh…” I didn’t say anything, and a wave of heat suddenly surged up from my heart as I reached out and hugged her.

(2)

My heart began to wander, ashamed that knowledge of the opposite sex had been limited to imagination until this point, and I hugged her fearfully, yet not knowing what would come next.

Time seems to be frozen, quietly sniffing the fragrance of her hair, my mind suddenly remembered a “no one whispered in the middle of the night, this time no sound is better than sound”.

May be afraid to press my hand numb, or may be want to do something to change this situation, Xiao Li to the outside of the body a little bit, my hand holding her suddenly touched a mass of round warm peaks, I can not help but open my hand, grasp this strange but the whole body soft feeling, I seem to hear her let out a soft sigh, like a sigh, but also like a gasp.

Every cell in my body was sensitized, clearly felt her body a little trembling, but the part of her that was against me was glowing with heat, and this heat, burned my mind, and on this there was no longer any calmness in my thoughts, there was only one idea, wanting to hold her tightly, to stick close to her, and I defiantly turned my body sideways, and climbed up to the peaks of those protruding rounded breasts with both of my hands.

Through her dress, I began to fondle her breasts, from top to bottom, from left to right, as I naturally made circles. At this point, it suddenly occurred to me, out of place, that such a thing as instinct does exist, and that it enabled me to embark on one of the most primitive, yet beautiful, physical journeys of mankind without having to learn it, and in the years to come, I came to realize, with deep appreciation, just how important instinct is to us.

Rei squirmed uncomfortably, but didn’t fight back particularly firmly. In fact, some part of my body rose up to the point of pain and heat, and I pressed harder and tighter against her body, and my hands began to rub more substantially and vigorously, feeling the curve of her buttocks in my lower body, smooth and slightly raised and resilient.

I pressed my face to the heel of her ear, my exhaled breath blew up the hair around her ear, soft hair fluttered against my face, her face was smooth but hot and I heard her gasp. Suddenly she turned her head and our lips touched, both froze for a moment before they connected tightly.

I slurped her, long, long, long, long, long, long, long, long, long, long, long, long, long, and happy. Slowly, I began to flick her clenched teeth with the tip of my tongue, and she squirmed in my arms, and somehow she had clamped her two elastic thighs around my right leg and rubbed it, and her teeth slowly loosened, and the tip of my tongue dug in all at once, and touched her slippery tongue, and Rei’s whole body shuddered dramatically, and she was so happy to see her. shuddered dramatically, and she turned around and hugged me for dear life, and the two of us tangled our tongues together, sucking, intertwining, flicking and slurping. sucking, intertwining, flicking and slurping.

I pressed my lower body against her, rubbing my left hand over her back, my right hand burrowed upwards from her hips into her dress, and on the smooth back I felt the clasps of her bra, a simple clasp-linking principle, and without thinking I gave a tug with my middle finger and a squeeze with my forefinger, and a pair of them were freed. I ran my hand back up to her breasts again, and a pair of them had popped out proudly. I ran my hand down between her legs again, wet and tight with only a warmth. She kissed me, not objecting to my aggression, submitting to it.

We both kept touching each other, and before we knew it, I don’t know if it was our own effort or the other person’s help, but somehow we were already naked and hugging each other. I didn’t know how to relieve the tight rise that plagued my whole body, and she held me back and leaned back, and I crushed her underneath me. My kisses landed haphazardly on her breasts, neck, and the end of her face while between her parted legs.

My surging penis rushed up and down, but could never find the source of entry. With a low, throaty smile, Xiao Li held my hand and guided me, and with her guidance, the glans finally found its former home, and with only the slightest contact, a warm, wet sensation came over me, and it was already time for me to push forward, and with a hard thrust, my penis sank deep into a warm nest. At the same time, Rei let out a long “ah…” from her throat, and with her hands clasping my back tightly, her legs clamping down on my waist, and the sudden increase in the tight grip in my vagina, I took a deep breath, and began the first real impact of my life.

I should say that my first fight with the opposite sex wasn’t perfect, one could even say it was short lived, in fact I only went back and forth for a few minutes, but a first time is a first time, and there are countless first times in a person’s life, and I’m sure that everyone remembers the sensation of first time sex very well, and I’m no exception.

To this day I can still vividly recall, every time I entered and withdrew, my glans was clenched, sucked and rubbed, each stroke brought me unspeakable pleasure, not long after, a wave of urine rapidly extended down my spine, when it reached my glans, I couldn’t control it any longer, I could feel my glans skyrocketed and hardened painfully, I frantically plunged in hard and held Xiao Li fiercely, a beastly growl came out of my throat, sending my accumulated 24 years of virgin sperm deep into Xiao Li’s body, I was so happy that I could no longer control it. Animalistic growl came out of my throat, spurting my virgin sperm that had been stored up for 24 years towards the depths of Xiao Li’s body. At the same time, Xiao Li’s body deep a spasm, legs clamped me hard and then loosened, hands will be my back down, her face active and tightly pressed against my chest. We stayed in that position, our minds a blank.

When we relaxed, naturally, Xiaoli kissed me: “You’re great!” Her hand is still stroking me, not a few minutes, I was erect, this time we are no longer simply a woman under the man on the sex, I hold her on top of my body, up into her, and then, I turned her back so that she knelt, from the back of her white ass pressed hard impact on her, she did not know why, but just flattered me, I do not know what to call in the mouth.

Because it was the second time, I was particularly long-lasting, really screwed her orgasm after orgasm, finally I dragged her to the edge of the bed, spread her legs with my hands, really rushed in, when I ejaculated, she moaned loudly, and I think every man from the first floor to the fourth floor who was not asleep, would have an erection when they heard her voice.

That night, having tasted sex for the first time, I made love to her almost all night, and in the morning we came again, and I was feeling a little hard in the loins.

Thankfully, Rei is not a woman of pleasure, and from the beginning, she didn’t care about money at all.

In later days, Cao told me, Xiaoli is a very persistent, soft on the outside and tough on the inside girl, that time with me, she just broke up with her boyfriend of two years, no wonder that day she got drunk and would be that crazy, may be the spirit of bitterness for too long, it just so happens that I do not look bad, but also more considerate, so it triggered the passion of her it.

Unfortunately, we weren’t able to continue our story, and I won’t go into the details of why here, but she had written me a birthday card, which is kind of a footnote to our situation!

“This sentiment can be recalled, but it was already lost at the time.”

At that time, I could never have imagined that in the future I would have so many and rich experiences in the field of emotions, and I can take comfort in the fact that I have not played the role of a relationship cheater, which is also worthy of a scale in my own heart.

In any case, I’ll never forget that girl Rei that I had for the first time for real.

(3)

“Life must be enjoyed to the fullest, don’t let the golden bottle be empty against the moon.”

I am destined to have a lot of socializing in my job, and I often drink passively. The above sentence used to be my favorite one, I like that kind of see all the sad and happy things in life, drink a little drink to solve a thousand years. But what I didn’t expect is that my work has made me a person who often drinks and often gets drunk. Whenever I pick up a glass of wine in helplessness, I always think of this sentence in my mind, only that it is active, but life is often passive, and the realm is more than 10,000 miles apart!

After I came back from Neijiang, I often played with Cao, he is a very broad relationship, through him, I have made a large number of fun into the nature of the friends, such as Ah Ma, Chen fat, and so on, we are the love of the people, the age of the same, similar interests, so a hit, as long as there is time to get together to play.

I forgot to introduce myself last time, I, here, am called Ajay (of course, on the Internet it’s “when it’s not true, it’s not true”).

^_^)! ^_^), not tall, 168, often called 170, this is due to this side of the girl special hard, the 170 below the call crippled, so have to protect themselves a bit, anyway, two centimeters only, the general eye is not so accurate, I guess not see it, haha!

I’m kind of a combination of personalities, maybe varied, and it’s really hard to describe myself.

So often sometimes you do things that you can’t understand yourself in hindsight.

In July of ’94, I went to Aba Prefecture with a team from the design institute to conduct a site inspection of the project.

Aba Prefecture, a place full of beautiful scenery, where the famous Jiuzhaigou, Huanglong and Hongyuan Prairie are located. It is a Tibetan and Qiang Autonomous Prefecture with colorful folk customs and legends.

We got up early and set off, through Dujiangyan, out of the whirlpool, through Yingxiu, along the Minjiang River up. Leaving the hustle and bustle of the city, people’s mood is beginning to relax, even the sky seems to become more and more clear, the mountains are craggy even the sky, the water is crystal clear, all the way I look at the right and the left, how can not see enough. Unconsciously, Wenchuan arrived.

It is said that the three kingdoms, Ma Chao returned to Shu, Zhu Geliang for the prevention of Qiang rebellion, specially let its town Wenchuan, this place is indeed dangerous, in the two mountains between a piece of impact on the river state was built, is the entrance to the western Sichuan throat. Due to geographical transportation, it has been no good development, so still see a lot of very primitive things, such as Qiangzhai.

Our first stop was resting in Wenchuan.

After writing down the hotel, we followed the locals who came to pick us up to see the site, a few old comrades walked in front of us, with their hands behind their backs, pacing forward, I watched their backs from behind, suddenly remembered the penguins, and couldn’t help but smile.

“What’s so funny?” A nice female voice rang in his ears.

I was startled and turned my head sideways, an apple red face broke into my eyes, it was Yue Yang.

“What do you do so loud ah, afraid I can not hear?” I know she is the design institute’s cultivation object, people look delicate and lovely, character open Lang, bias and work hard, outstanding achievements. Of course is when the red power, to wind wind, rain rain. All the way she is the object of jokes, I am looking forward to the scenery outside the car, basically ignore her.

“Look, does it look like a penguin?” She asked me quietly, pointing ahead.

(4)

I laughed happily, the original strangeness in my heart for her gone.

“Comrade!”

“What comrade?”

“Same feeling comrade.”

She smiled back happily, mischievously, glancing sideways at me in a wintry way! My heart moved inexplicably.

“Well, Yue Yang is very pretty, why didn’t I have this feeling before?”

“Count into this kind of comrade ah, want to shake hands?”

“Good!” She graciously extended her hand and I shook it, it was soft and still felt tender and ambiguous, and my heart inexplicably skipped a beat again.

We walked shoulder to shoulder. The destination was a small hill, at the entrance to the county, where we proposed to acquire 10 acres of land to build a machine shop. Looking at the desolate hill, I frowned, what a hell of a place! I thought, with a negative thought already in my mind.

“This place doesn’t work?” Yue Yang sensed my disapproval from the side.

“Well, the amount of earthwork is too much, and the utilities are not working, transportation is okay, but what about business, we can’t possibly fix two buildings for them, it’s too much of a pitch, not  counting.” I said my concerns in one breath.

“This place is in bad condition, but it’s sandwiched between two mountains and facing the Min River. Also, it’s really not easy to find land.” Yue Yang began to put in a good word for the locality. She was well aware of my weight, although she was a junior soldier, but due to her cautiousness, the boss adopted more and rejected less of what I said.

“So what do you say?” I wanted to see what she thought, mostly to see if she was as quick to react as others had said.

“Well… I think the large amount of earthwork is not a problem, but we can make use of the difference in elevation and design it flexibly, referring to the Qiang village we saw on the road, and make a hammock-style design, with the lower part as the business and the upper part as the engine room, which saves on the cost of construction. The front of the site is the county government to repair, they want to move over, then certainly large units and departments should follow. Here, this is the main direction of our business development. It will take 2-3 years for them to move here, and it will take exactly 2 years for us to complete the construction, so a year to train the crossing is just the right amount of time to…” she rattled on, while I stared at the line of her beautiful lips.

Hmm, if… if I could just kiss it, I bet it would be very soft, very smooth, very tender… “Are you listening or not?” I looked back, and Yue Yang’s eyes were wide open.

“Listening, listening, good, good, good point.” I blurted out in panic.

“So you agree?” She turned her anger into joy, an expectant look on her face. If the project went up thanks to her efforts, she would certainly be a great success again.

I sobered right up, how could I just promise? “We’ll look into it.”

Disappointment was in the air.

I suddenly felt uneasy. It’s not easy for a girl to make a living. Besides, what she said was not unreasonable, so why should I be so stubborn?

“Hey, don’t look at me like that, okay? Everything is negotiable!” I softened my tone.

“Really?”

“Really!!!” Alas, it looks like I’m going to make the age-old mistake of being a hero again, too.

After lunch, I suddenly wanted to go out for a walk, but Yue Yang also insisted on going. In fact, this is my personal habit, when there is a good view, I like to sit alone or just walk around, what is she doing here? Trouble!

I grimly accompanied her to the Minjiang River not far from the hotel. Walked through a street, look at the direction, looking for a small alley to drill into, walk through to the river, and then upstream a few hundred meters, turn a corner, the hotel, the houses have been invisible, there is no one. I set my feet and took a deep breath.

Riverside stones are all the flash floods washed down, some oddly large as a house, some strange shape like a beast, more have been in the thousands of miles to run on the way to collide with each other, grinding into a small gravel, or large or small, scattered between the boulders, here is just a lazy bend, the river slowed down the speed of radical running here, the sound of the water ahead of the rumbling, here silent, the breeze, the face of the cool, the bank of the reeds gently with the wind. I can’t help but be energized.

As far as the eye can see, the water of the Minjiang River is blue, and the mountains on both sides are green. What a beautiful scenery!

I looked at a long time lost in thought, next to Yue Yang may also be the first time to see such a beautiful scenery, surprisingly did not noisy me.

5 meters from the shore there is a roughly cylindrical stone, the afternoon sun shines right on it, surrounded by jagged water, I moved in my heart, turned back and asked Yue Yang: “See that stone? Want to go up and sit?”

“Yeah, I was just thinking the same thing!” She smiles brightly in the sunlight. I felt a desire to hug her and hurriedly shook my head off the insecure thought.

Look is very close, but if you really want to go up, you have to jump two steps to reach the river, and then you have to step on the water only to show the head of the stones to walk 5 meters, and then climb up. It is easy to say, but not easy to do, if you are not careful, you may also fall into the water, although the water does not seem to be too deep without great danger, but this can be down from the plateau snow mountain water, even in this hot season, if you fall down, will be the whole body of the blood will be frozen.

It’s not hard for me, a ping pong player in college, I jumped off the first level with a light leap, and Yue Yang can be a bit of a misfit.

Yue Yang was wearing a short-sleeved white T shirt and a lily skirt printed with light flowers that was just a few centimeters above the knee, revealing a small section of white and smooth-lined calves. She looked downward, hesitant. I raised my head, the shape of the lining was vaguely visible, and I unnaturally raised my hand to signal her : “Not too high, jump, I’ll catch you.”

She finally closed her eyes and jumped down! With an “ah”, I grabbed her firmly by the waist. Because of the forward momentum, her body was very tightly pressed against me, and her hands pressed my shoulders haphazardly. I felt the softness of her and the elasticity of her waist, and my hands couldn’t help but add another point of force, and my lower body suddenly reacted. She probably felt it, her face became red all of a sudden, but she didn’t get angry, and whispered me: “You’re bad!”

I think those of you who have had sexual experience would probably agree that if a woman says “you’re bad” to a man in a very light, soft and flirty tone of voice, her true intention is never rejection.

(to be continued)