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It’s been a long time… a long time… Since my childhood illness, I’ve been lying on this cold bed, and I still have a lot of dreams that I haven’t realized…
Lying on her bed, reading the novel, she became a character in the book, fantasizing that she was the heroine, living happily ever after with the hero. She really wished that she could have a boyfriend who would treat her like that, but… that’s just an unrealistic thought…
Today is my birthday, my parents spent the day with me in the hospital, my father took my picture, and even though I have a lot of tubes in my body, I’m very happy because I’ve lived another day, and as I blew out the candles and thought about what I thought about in the past, I made this wish in my heart silently…
…? Am I… dead? Why can I see myself lying in bed? But… the EKG is still beating, so I’m… right, I must be dreaming! Why don’t we go out for a walk? We don’t get many chances like this…
I came to the street, looked at the passing crowd, no one seemed to see me? Yes, I must have been out of my mind. I came to a 7-11 and saw a male clerk there. He was quite handsome, I wonder if he had a girlfriend? I wondered if he had a girlfriend. Why did I think of that? Maybe I could fulfill my wish… At 12:00, he left work and I followed him for a while to a less crowded section of the street. When I wanted to say something, I thought, “He can’t even see me…” But I couldn’t help but say something anyway…
‘Excuse me…’
He turned around and met my eyes. He… could hear… and see me!
‘That… I’m sorry to bother you so late.’
“No… no… no… no… no… but… you…” He seemed nervous, and no wonder, it was 12 o’clock in the morning “Why… why… why did you call me?” As he struggled to finish his sentence, I replied, half-jokingly, ‘Well… perhaps it’s a bit of a surprise, but would you please be my boyfriend?
“Wh… wh… what!?”
He seemed startled, and no wonder, but I was amused at his expression…”…” He didn’t say a word, his eyes kept glancing at me, and his face was getting harder and harder… I guess he found out what I was, didn’t he?
“No… no way… you…”
”Ugh… Is it still discovered? I thought I’d have a chance here…”
“ah… ah… i…”
‘I’m sorry to have disturbed your home time, bye…’
I don’t think I should have joked about him like that and caused him to be scared out of his wits, so I think I’ll drop the idea!
As I floated along, I came to the riverbank. It was so quiet and dark… and the stars in the sky were so beautiful… I’ve never seen these before… it was a real trip…
I couldn’t go back to my body, and as I stood by my parents’ side and watched them cry and ask for help, I thought, “My days are numbered, life is so short, I only have 17 years to live…” At night, I wanted to go to the embankment again to take a walk, and as I passed by a little ways, I saw the same boy from yesterday, with a boy by his side, not knowing what he was doing, but I was actually very glad to see him, and I went over to say hello to them…
“Ooohhhhhh!”
‘Ah!’ He turned around and ran over, didn’t he see me?
He passed through me, and we had visions at the same time, of a hospital… a ward… a bed with many people gathered around it. There were people looking sad, people looking chagrined… “Did you… did you show me this?”
‘Hmm… feel that?’ It was actually him who felt it.
“Why? Aren’t… ghosts always cold…” he had misgivings.
‘Hee… do you really think ghosts are all eerie and scary?’ I flashed a smile.
“Uh, no… I’m just…” he blushed, that shy look was really funny we both looked at each other, the only difference was that he was blushing like Guan Gong while I was unusually calm, why was that?
“¿… why did you pick me?” After a long time, he spoke.
”Because… you’re the first person to see that I won’t run away… so…”
“You won’t run away? I ran away so badly the first time…”
‘Oh… if you were really afraid of me, you wouldn’t have come back to me.’ Did he run away?
“… that’s true… but I was dragged here by this guy, and I have to find a way to send him back later… the thought of it is annoying… damn it!” He kicked his friend who was lying on the ground.
‘Hahaha~ You’re such a funny guy…’ I laughed, this time with a cheerful smile, he was really funny, and with him it might be possible to fulfill my wish…
“… So you’re trying to fulfill your unfinished business…”
‘Well… because this thought of mine was too persistent, it resulted in no way of ascending to heaven, and I had to keep wandering around on earth… as you see it now…’ I blurted out a reason.
“Oh… So what is your unfulfilled wish?” He asked.
‘I…’ I couldn’t say it anymore: ‘Because… I’ve never had a boyfriend… that’s why…’ I said this in a voice that no one could hear.
“No way! No wonder you came to me, we’re all in the same boat!” He said with a smile.
‘Really… but you…’ I looked at him in surprise.
“You’re trying to say it doesn’t look like it, right, and the idiot lying on the floor said the same thing.”
‘That’s great… then I… ask you one more time… can you be my boyfriend?’
“Oh…” “He seems to have some worries…
For a long time…
”… If I’m going to cause you trouble like this, then there’s no need to bother you.” I said heartily and smiled back “If I don’t promise you, will you just stay on earth like this?”
‘… I don’t know…’ I said, ‘Maybe… all the time…’
“¿… then what time do you plan to make an appointment?”
‘Huh? …’ I raised my head and looked at him with a surprised expression.
“What a time to meet! Could you not show yourself in the daytime?”
‘Really… really? You… you promise me?’ I still couldn’t believe it… “If it’s not steamed is it boiled? Decide quickly.”
‘Thank you!’ I rushed over to hug him and flung myself across his body ‘Ah… I’m sorry!
I forgot…’ I stuck my tongue out.
“No… it’s okay… you have to decide the time quickly.” He was a little embarrassed.
‘Then… how about… ten minutes after you get off work?’
“Ten minutes? Isn’t that too short?…”
‘Uh… twenty minutes then!’
“Twenty minutes? That’s still short.” He didn’t seem to get it, and really, neither did I.
‘No… because there are still people coming and going during that time. If I were to be seen… it would be very bad for you, and it wouldn’t be good to find you out too late… so I thought it would be better to meet you when you were off work, and it wouldn’t be inconvenient…”
I made a complete reply that he might understand.
(to be continued)