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I’m not sure what I was in for when I wrote this, it just felt a little impulsive. Also, I have not been in a very good mood lately, so that may have had something to do with it. However, I emphasize that the hallmark of my writing is truthfulness. Of course, all the names are code names, which is a kind of respect, after all, I did not get the consent of the other party of course, the other party will never agree.
In fact, I am well educated, graduated from a major university, and have my own purpose in life. However, since I was a child, I felt that I cared about girls and that feeling was very strong. Now I realize that I am one of those men who have a strong desire. So, briefly, I will disclose my sexual history otherwise, some of which I have forgotten.
The reason I say sexual history, not sexual history, is because I feel that sex and love are only pleasurable when they are connected together, otherwise, there is panic and no desire. I had mastered masturbation on my own by the time I was in my first year or 5th grade, it was a natural instinct. Then I told my best friend Q about it and he started to enjoy it.
In those days, nothing yellow was visible to everyone, and people wore clothes as if the ancient colors were worse than ancient. Once I saw a copy of Engel’s “The Fountain” in a calendar at home and was instantly amazed; I secretly tore it out and hid it inside my school bag to show my friends, who were also thrilled.
Another time, the two of us went to peek at a movie, a foreign acrobatic set. The foreign actresses all wore three-pointed performances, so we were excited and there were very few people, so we decided to masturbate. However, Q wanted us to do it to each other, which I refused because I felt awkward with my penis in a man’s hand don’t get me wrong, we are both typically hetero and Q has more intense desires than I do.
At that time, I felt that his penis was very big and he could ejaculate, which made me feel heartfelt. There is also a little book, I remember called “Wu Zetian”, there is a page of a man kneeling in front of the Empress Wu, the drawing of the ass is very big, which makes me feel very excited, so I often that this book in the barn (the house of miscellaneous things), imitating the man kneeling on the ground masturbation. Now I know that it was caused by the worship of the opposite sex.
Then our family moved to the city and I never stopped masturbating, but it caused me a great deal of psychological burden, always feeling degraded, and feeling physically damaged. I recorded in my diary that I was going to kill the S, i.e. masturbate. But each time, it wouldn’t last long.
By the time I got to high school, I was fascinated by the opposite sex and sexual organs, mostly because there weren’t any books on the subject at that time.
In my sophomore year of high school, some sexually popularized books appeared. I secretly bought them, and what surprised me was that women’s vulvas were hairy, whereas I used to think that women’s were pink and smooth, and with hair, it felt a little nasty and dirty. Still, I was very curious to know what a real person’s organ looked like.
I used to run into the women’s restroom, while no one was there or at night of course, and masturbate quickly in there, it was exciting.
But after each time, I deeply regretted it and felt dirty and shameless, so I had some withdrawn tendencies.
Once, I went to the women’s restroom of a flat on vacation, only to be discovered by a guard who pretended to send me to the Public Security Bureau while I cried in fear. As a result, he spared me after I knelt down and handed over all my money.
That spurred me on so much that for a long time I was scared to death that the school and parents would find out.
In my senior year of high school, I fell in love early. It was with a class study bad, but very quiet and lovely beautiful girl Y, I was crazy obsessed with her, to the point that often do not go to class. Fortunately, my foundation is very good, and people are also very smart, so still successfully admitted to the J University of a national class of key universities.
At that time, I wanted to know what her pussy looked like, but we were both so shy that we kissed for the first time, just a little touch. Later, Y promised to show me her pussy after the college entrance exam, so I was extremely looking forward to the entrance exam, and the level of anticipation made my parents very happy.
After the college entrance exam, finally one day we were alone in her house, I removed her panties, she closed her eyes, I looked carefully, only to be surprised to find that the original woman’s pussy is long between the legs, from the outside can not be seen Previously, I always thought that it was on the surface. But we never had sex, because her sister and future brother-in-law went to the hospital because of the secret taste and was known by her parents. Her parents were both head honchos in the city, so they were furious and disciplined her harshly, so none of us continued.
By my freshman year of college, for some reason Y and I broke up. And college wasn’t as good as I thought it would be mainly because I didn’t like to study and my grades were poor, so I had some low self-esteem. At this time, I know sorority dormitory L, a very high IQ traditional girl, she is very white, relatively beautiful, a little short, about 160, some gurgling. To be honest, among all my girlfriends, the one I gave the least amount of affection to and hurt the most is L. Now I think about it, I really feel very sorry for her, very much!
We had sex after just over 2 months, it was my first time and it was amazing when I put it in, but she didn’t bleed. I asked her about it and she didn’t say – I’m still open when it comes to chastity. Her breasts are small and not fully developed.
At that time, I was in a bad mood, often pulling up the bed curtains in the dormitory, and having sex while the students in the same room were studying.
Inexperienced and not knowing how to use contraception, she ended up getting pregnant and we all panicked and later went to the hospital to abort it. It affected her psychologically, but fortunately she was exceptionally nice and all her classmates loved her, so she had the dignity and confidence to continue.
Since I’m interested in all intercourse and she’s basically not opposed to it, we try oral sex.
Her pussy was very clean, washed daily and had a nice smell. Usually she lies on her back with her legs as far apart as possible and I kneel in front of her and lick her clit with my tongue.
Her orgasms came slowly, usually taking more than 10 minutes, and when they came, her belly would gather up – caused by her abdominal muscles – and she would tremble, and then she would lie there all weak, with no energy left to even speak. Then we discovered a new method that was even more exciting. I lay on my back, her legs kneeling on either side of my head, and we reversed, with her front resting on the small of my back. This way, her pussy door was fully bloomed in front of me, and I could move it in a greater range of motion as I tongued it, which often pressed her pussy against my mouth and nose as she reacted and couldn’t control herself, which was intensely stimulating for both of us.
But at that time, I always thought it was the result of my long-term masturbation that caused me to be unable to give her an orgasm with my penis, so I had a big shadow in my psyche. Luckily, the kind-hearted her never blamed me.
In my sophomore year of college, I started to be a big hit because I was very talented – in music and sports – and I was also open in my studies, so I was notable for that. We formed a band, the keyboard player is a girl in our junior class D. The first time I saw her I especially like, she is very beautiful, 165 , not skinny but also not fat. Doll face, especially attractive, write this article I can still imagine the scene, I was instantly fascinated by her.
And then I started pursuing her, and we started a very painful relationship – for more than half a year. Because, L didn’t want to be dumped by me and I felt ashamed of her, I gave in whenever she cried. A few days ago, watching A Sigh of Relief really struck a chord with me – it’s so exhausting. Running between two girls every day, telling different lies, the pain far outweighs the pleasure, but it’s impossible to part with it.
My first time with D was about a month after we met, I think, once in the hallway, lights out for bed already. We were chatting in the corner of the corridor, getting happier and happier. Then I hugged her, and after kissing and touching we both felt something. d’s breasts are very big, much bigger than the average girl’s, because her family has been pampering her since she was a child, and her nutrition is very good. The white, round breasts felt good in my hands.
Then I couldn’t resist pulling her jeans open and slipping my hand inside while her eyes were closed and she didn’t resist, so I pulled her pants down to just below her knees. Her pubic hair was thick and her pussy lips were very thick and her pussy was very wet. I pulled my cock out of the zipper of my pants and then half squatted down, spread her legs and put it in very smoothly.
She was breathing hard, but soon I was going to cum and I shot it out. From that point on, we were deeply in love. And then L and I finally broke up for good, and with D we stayed in love for 4 years.
The first 2 years were really very happy, we were both very popular and the talk of the school. We also had sex a lot, and by this time, we were aware of birth control, but we still had one accidental miscarriage.
Fast forward to graduation, because I’m not good at studying, so D is very worried about me, and she is the kind of girl who is very blunt, often bluntly criticizing me, so I don’t know the direction, and slowly we often fight, and it’s very intense.
A year after I started working, I finally made progress in the company and my income was higher. But our love was deteriorating; D also graduated, and she was determined to marry me, while I wanted to go further, and sometimes I was very coping with her, resulting in more arguments.
One time, I was on a business trip in T-city for almost six months, a very grueling and boring writing process. By November, people were going home on vacation, and I didn’t want to go back to see her. She came and our company rented a nice house in T-City, just the two of us. And I hadn’t had sex in a long time, so we were both into it. We did it 12 times in less than two days and it was really exhausting.
We put a mattress in front of the big mirror and made love in various positions in front of it. I preferred her on her knees and me thrusting from behind, her big, white ass turned me on so much that I kept slapping her ass with my hand while she made grunting noises, which turned me on very much. At one point she allowed me to penetrate her anus with a condom on, but apparently she was in a lot of pain and I pulled out quickly.
Then I fell in love with one of my coworkers, X. I can say that this is the only girl who made me think about getting married. x is 163 tall and not very pretty – she’s a bit dark, but she has a lot of character.
A head of hair so flowing it could be advertised, not very tall but a very sexy body, breasts just the right size without drooping, hips mixed and rounded without collapsing, and long slender legs.
The first time I saw her I was attracted by her temperament, generous, innocent and not pretentious. Later there was an opportunity in S city we traveled together, we all stayed in the hotel. One weekend, colleagues went home, leaving only the two of us. Originally, she was going back to her father’s birthday, but it just so happened that her father went to Beijing, so we were created.
On the bed we stripped naked, her sexy body was a huge turn on for me and she was great at cuddling and catching warmth, her deft tongue wandering in and out of my mouth. She kept insisting that I not put my penis in, and I didn’t insist.
Later, I used oral sex to stimulate her. At first, she found it hard – itchy, but I persisted. After about 10 minutes, all of a sudden she screamed, loudly, and her whole body scrunched up in a ball, almost choking – she got an orgasm. Later, she said that was the first time she had ever had an orgasm from the opposite sex – she was the first girl to reveal to me that she had a habit of masturbating – and that it was never again as intense and memorable as that one.
Later, I asked her to let me put it in, and she was afraid of the pain because her pelvis seemed to be narrower – we later found out that both her pelvis and vagina were perfectly suited to me. I was curious to see what it would be like when the penis was put in, so I asked her to stand and crouch on the edge of the bed while I stood behind her. But, since it was her first time having sex and she was nervous, it didn’t go in for quite a while. Later, I placed her on her back on the bed, with her legs standing on both tests of my hipbones, and placed my penis by the opening of my vagina. As a result of a long time without stimulation, the penis has a little erection is not firm, but, just very smooth put in.
Once inside, it immediately became rock hard, and she immediately felt up and sore as I slowly pumped it. Probably as a result of regular stimulation since childhood, the length of my penis is normal 13 to 15 , I once measured it, but it is thicker than average – I compared it with a good friend of mine.
Finally I ejaculated while her legs were sore. There was no bleeding, and she told me that she had once had a tumor inside her vagina, but that it had since healed without surgery, and that it had probably been ruptured during the examination.
Then we had sex a lot, and it was a real treat because her body was very slim, with rounded hips and long proportioned legs, so it was very sexy. So one thing I liked to do was for her to lie flat on her back on the bed while I knelt next to her back (not on top of her) and then slap her mixed round buttocks with my hand and mouth insulting words or gently smack her back and buttocks with a belt, scolding her to put her buttocks up, which she would do slowly and fearfully.
Her waist collapsed low, and then she slowly spread her legs under my lash, so that a perfect pussy door was fully revealed to me. I then pressed my whole face up against it, feeling the warm pussy lips and hair rubbing against it. Then I licked her pussy all over, abusing her when she was very excited, and she would say sexy things like “Brother, please fuck me!” , “Little sister can’t take it anymore, put your cock in my slave girl!” “My breasts belong to my brother, and my vagina and labia grow for him.” … stimulated by these words, I would enter her from behind in a half-crouch and then hit her buttocks with my hands, calling her names such as “slut”. Sometimes, I could put one leg on her hip so that I could feel like riding on it, which was very exciting.
Another time, we got so into it that I put a lap chair in front of the mirror, and then she knelt on it, sideways to the mirror, while I entered her pussy from behind, and she fought to bring her hips up and her waist down so that I could clearly see in and out. Also, it was very exciting to be able to see the whole look inside the mirror while she screamed shrilly and said her self-slutty words.
Later, we tried oral sex on me and she matured quickly. I remember that once she came to Beijing to see me, and in the hotel where she was staying, we had one of the most exciting oral sex sessions. She knelt above me, her back to me, and took my cock in her mouth while her pussy door blossomed just in front of me and I licked at her. With that, I quickly reached my orgasm. It was a moment to remember for the rest of my life as I fought to hit her ass and the cum all shot into her mouth.
In pornography, I often read that women swallow men’s semen, and in my personal experience, semen is hard to swallow and has a pea-like odor that makes it hard to swallow.
Later, we broke up for some reasons, which made me very sad. Because, I thought she fit my criteria for a wife. But, things went against .
Then later, I got a little cynical. I think it had something to do with X’s breakup. In the meantime, I traveled frequently for business. The class of our business trips is relatively high, usually can stay in more than 3 stars, so that kind of place often have harassing phone calls. Sometimes, I just call some ladies. Once upon a time, I would call a lady whenever I traveled. However, I am quite picky, often change around, can’t settle.
The few times I was impressed were in City X. City X is a tourist city, so it’s very open in that regard, and the girls on that side of the world are very pretty and taller than those in Sichuan – I don’t like short girls, they have to be at least 161 or more.
Once, in a nightclub, I wasn’t in a good mood, and none of the girls were to my liking. Later, my mom found a girl named Du Juan, who was the best-looking girl I’ve ever seen. Height 173 , 18 years old, long hair shoulders, very beautiful, and more than the quiet – I hate that kind of old oil chicken, once up to set in.
Of course, she was very expensive. She said she wanted to go to Guangzhou to take the modeling test, but her family didn’t have any money, and she wanted to go there after she made 10 or 20 thousand dollars. We had sex on the couch later, she was very thin, her breasts were not fully developed yet, she was in great pain and kept muffling her grunts.
After doing so, she sat there for a long time without making a sound, and I comforted her, and she waved her hand. At that time, I really wanted her to go to Beijing and bag her. However, reason eventually prevailed. Later, she gave me her pager, and the next time I called her, she had already gone to Guangzhou.
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One time I was bored in city X, and it just so happened that there was a dating hotline on the radio, so I made a few calls. I should say that I am more articulate but not hypocritical, so it’s easier to get girls to like me.
There was a girl I met with, she was very average looking, I didn’t have any feelings for her, and after a meal I wanted to part with it. However, it was obvious that she was very innocent, probably because there were usually no boys like her, and she liked me very much.
We then went to the hotel where I was staying and after talking for a while, I hugged her and she was nervous but didn’t resist. Later, I took off her clothes and my clothes, she did not make a sound. At this point, I got a little conscience and said, “You can refuse now.” But she still didn’t make a sound.
I then put my penis in and it was very difficult, she was so tight there, it was very painful and she was sweating. Later, I bought her pills to take afterward and she cried and I felt guilty. After that, I didn’t really date the more traditional girls because they would be in pain.
Later on, surfing the net a lot. A good friend of mine had a huge crush on a girl BLUES in Sioux City, they met and he was mesmerized by her. Supposedly, she was very pretty and had a strong and intelligent personality. I was curious, and happened to meet online one day, and we chatted especially well, as we both loved literature and music, and hated each other. It went on for a long time and we found that we liked each other a lot.
Her home is in Xinjiang, and her family was not very happy when she was a child, so her personality is special, and people who can’t get along with her don’t want to get close to her. On the Mid-Autumn Festival in 1999, I called her and asked her if she wanted me to accompany her. I was just trying to make a joke to comfort her, but she said, “You can come.” I thought about it and said, “Okay, I’ll book a flight for the afternoon.” She said, “I’m just kidding.” I said, “We have to meet sooner or later.” She was silent for a while and said, “I’ll wait for you.”
When I arrived in Suzhou, it was already more than 9 o’clock in the evening, and I finally met her. She is not very beautiful kind, that is obviously very personalized, 166, body type is very good, wearing a very casual clothing.
We went to a restaurant and had a couple beers and then went back to where she lives. Her place was a mess, and you could tell she didn’t do much housework. There was only one mattress, and I said, “You sleep, I’ll sleep on the floor.” She didn’t say anything and closed her eyes as soon as she lay down on the bed. I said, “You need to take off your clothes to sleep.” She didn’t say anything, so I helped her undress.
Her breasts were medium sized, but her nipple was sunken. I went to kiss it and it got hard and popped right out. I took off our clothes and started fucking. Her pussy was tough, probably because she had been an athlete.
In the beginning, we were quick both times, probably because I hadn’t had sex for a longer period of time. In the middle of the night, I got an erection again and started a new lovemaking session. This time, it took a long time. I used penetration from behind, she was on her knees, and she was very loud, so much so that I was a little afraid of disturbing the public. It’s still fresh in my mind, she was so blunt and COOL, unapologetic and without artifice.
Later in life, I met a woman, W, at the airport when she accompanied some foreigners on a business trip to Shanghai. She looked a lot like Liu Xuan (gymnast), but prettier, with a slightly hooked nose, slightly thicker lips and a clear lip line, in short, a sexy kind of person. I struck up a conversation with her and talked for a while. She was from Jiangsu, working in Beijing, and left each other a phone number. Later we met once, no contact, probably because she thought I was not handsome enough.
At a later date, she came on the phone and said she quit her job because her supervisor was trying to harass her. It just so happened that she was close to where I lived, so I took the time to go there. She had put on some weight, but still looked so sexy, and my instincts told me a woman like that was one of those with a lot of desire.
At that point, maybe she was more lonely and empty too. Under my harassment, we made love, she clung to my back, screwed my hips, eyes closed, moaning loudly.
That was the first time I made a woman get an orgasm by having sex. In novels, you often read about how to make sex with a teenage girl or a virgin to make her get an orgasm, but in my experience, it’s very difficult for you to make a sexually inexperienced girl get an orgasm, so those novels are purely farting to deceive the readers and self-congratulate.
W had a sexual experience, she had a boyfriend before and they had sex a lot. So, she was very into it and after 10 minutes she orgasmed and then deflated. I must admit, it was my first time having sex with a fatter woman, but it was really comfortable. Later, we did it a few more times. But W went to Guangzhou soon after, and we both knew that wasn’t going to happen, so we just went along with it and parted ways.
In 2000, I met my current girlfriend, G. G is very, very pretty, a star-level pretty, the prettiest of anyone I know, and is recognized as pretty, she is often harassed by the road to courtship, 165, figure straight, legs long. But G is very introverted and shy, and the stranger does not talk. It took a lot of effort for me to pursue her, because she was always being courted, but she ignored them all, including me.
Later, she said she started liking me because I played the piano and sang to her, and she was mesmerized by my singing – in fact, to put it boldly, I’m supposed to be above some of the so-called singers, so I only listen to the powerhouse singers. But it was many months before we slept together, and there was a bit of semi-coercion – she allowed me to touch her pussy, but not to have sex.
But, that time I couldn’t resist, she was wearing a pair of jeans, so I stood at the edge of the bed and pulled her pants down her back, then her legs were in the air, so that I pushed my cock in, she was in pain and kept struggling, but, it was done.
Then we rented a house and had sex every night. g was very sexy but shy, she never let me turn on the lights to watch and never said things that I thought were sexy, oral sex be damned. This somewhat affected my level of commitment to the sex, but overall it was fine, she never turned me down.
Later, I met an online friend, Q, and we maintained a sexual relationship for a while. She is a great singer, and I belong to the same level. So we appreciated each other.Q168 , taller, better figure. But the skin on her face is a bit rough, she said she is using a kind of medicine, so her face has a bitter flavor.
I was the first man she had sex with. Previously, she had a boyfriend who broke up after 5 years together, which hit her very hard. Later, she moved out of the house by herself, probably because of her personality.
Q was very classy, one of those big girl types, and she definitely didn’t expect me to sleep with her.
Because we had a great time singing that day, she hadn’t had that much fun in a long time. Later, I offered to sit at her place and she hesitantly agreed. At her place we talked for a long time and bared our souls to each other.
Later, it was already after 12 o’clock, so she couldn’t let me go and said, “I have a double bed here, so let’s sleep on it.” We lay down and turned off the light.
To be honest, I definitely didn’t mean to fuck her at first, I just felt attracted to her, so I never left without even touching her hand. As soon as the light was closed, I felt her get a little cold and held her hand, and later took her into my arms – it was instinctive. Later we stripped off our clothes, and her pussy was so damp that she put my cock in smoothly. She was in pain and gouged my back so tightly that I literally couldn’t twitch.
She said that her old boyfriend was impotent, but she didn’t care, and once he opened her hymen with his finger and bled a lot. I guess that’s one of the reasons her boyfriend broke up with her – men with impotence have low self-esteem. She was also outspoken about the fact that she masturbates, it’s instinctive. But she’s very clean, so every time she masturbates it’s on the outside of her shorts, not touching her pubic area.
After half an hour, we made love again, and this time, we both got an orgasm – I later found out that it takes a process for a woman to get an orgasm. For example, women with a strong libido and those who masturbate are easy to get an orgasm, while the average woman has to wait until she has adapted for a long time before she can get one. Moreover, some women never get an orgasm in their whole life, which is how sad it is! The root cause is traditional thinking about sex.
She was so excited and amazed by the orgasm that she hugged me tightly and said, “It’s so nice to have an orgasm!” I also feel very happy – the purpose of sex is so: you happy, so I am happy.
The next day, she called, said her abdomen hurt for a day, I said: “At first it’s like this, get used to it.” She sighed and said: “When I get used to it, you may be gone, then how should I psychologically bear this second time?” I was also silent.
Overall, I have no shortage of women around me, except for those who have to be paid – we’re just equals. They’re all so sweet and kind, yet they can hurt so deeply. In fact, I definitely didn’t go for just sex with every girl I was with, but every breakup caused a lot of damage to the other person.
Not to mention the psychological problems, physically they feel that they are no longer chaste, which is the tragedy of traditional consciousness!
For sex, I really love the feeling of putting it in for the first time, so magically, two people are connected. To this day, I’m still very enamored with every initial time.
That day, listening to the song of tree: “That laughter reminds me of those flowers of mine, quietly blooming for me in every corner of my life, I used to think that I would be by her side forever, but now they have all left in the sea of people…”, I cried.
I love them! Happy them!