*This story is for my dear J. It’s about seeing this weird world through your eyes.
Reprints are welcome, but please give credit where credit is due and please do not remove this statement.
*Chapter 1: The Naked Heart
You could say I’m as curious as a cat, my mom used to say I’d die of curiosity. I love adventures and seeing different worlds, people and things. But cats are usually very timid, so I’m used to watching everything from afar, a trait that my husband always teases me about.
With my husband’s workplace in the north and south, it’s sometimes rare to see him once a week. In addition, both work almost no travel nature, only to rely on a variety of vacations can be more opportunities to spend time together.
When I first got married I was so scared, living alone in an empty house, always hugging my pillow and crying in the middle of the night. It’s been three years since I got married, so fast.
Marriage is not really easy to maintain, and he and I were both worried about this life style when we started.
Thankfully we trusted each other, and it didn’t feel like we let time and space cut a distance between us. Every time we met, it was a frenzy, a myriad of entanglements, and my whole body became irritated at the thought.
This trust in each other is hard to create. I remember at the beginning we both had a hard time trusting each other, and the endless checking in exhausted both of us. It was actually quite a bitter road to fumble down, and it even made the marriage untenable, perhaps because it was too much love!
In the end, we got a common understanding that honesty… uh-huh! It’s honesty. The scope of honesty is quite broad among us, encompassing our inner selves, our behavior in life. In other words we were willing to reveal our deepest secrets, which is a bit like handing over a weapon to the other person and letting them handle it.
I remember our first heart-to-heart conversation. He started by telling me about his past, and I realized that there were so many things that I didn’t know. I reacted quite violently, I refused to let him recount the details, I felt angry as well as jealous.
But when it was my turn to talk, I realized there were so many things I couldn’t say. He would ask me about my first man, which he knew, but what he wanted to know was how I felt about him. Before marriage, there were actually some things that he was not aware of, and at that time, because I was not quite sure of my feelings with him, there were also things that I had done with other people at the same time. These things were hidden in my heart for a long time and I was afraid that if he knew it would jeopardize our love.
Confessing is really hard, and it took us I don’t know how many long distance calls to get used to it.
Slowly I sensed his sincerity, I knew he would still be aroused when he talked about everything in his past, but I was aware that it was all history. Then I would sometimes step into his mind and even I found I could enjoy the memories with him. Jealousy is still present occasionally, but the love has not faded and I appreciate even more that I get to have this wonderful man.
I slowly tried to divulge my past drop by drop, I was careful to say little by little and include physical feelings. At first I could sense that he reacted the same way as I did, with words that smacked of hurt, and although he said it didn’t matter, when we met for sex I noticed that he hugged me tighter.
When I finally said everything, I realized that I was more able to be honest with myself and he fully accepted the not-quite-me.
Oh, no! No, in his mind I’m complete like this, he hates masks, the two of us naked against each other.
It’s a secret that belongs to women. How do you know your love is still there? You can know it from making love. A woman is born with a pair of spiritual eyes in her heart, and she can realize the love of the other person as well as her own love during lovemaking. Of course, orgasm and pleasure are not the same as love, and I’m talking about love, not physical reactions.
The last step is freedom, giving the other person complete freedom, a freedom that is measured by holding oneself accountable.
I don’t think you would be able to stand it if your husband dumped you because another woman is smarter than you, prettier than you, has a better body than you, or even knows more tricks when it comes to sex. The only thing you can do is to keep him on a leash and keep an eye on him 24/7, but you won’t know where his heart drifted off to.
Chapter 2: The Journey
Airplanes made me uncomfortable, and although I needed to do it once or twice a month, I preferred to drive. My excuse was always that Leigh’s car was too small for me to drive, but Leigh knew that was my excuse. Now that I’m millions of meters up in the air, it’s not airsickness, it’s just nerves.
The neighboring seat was a woman, and I didn’t even have the energy to care what she looked like. All I could think about was how Leigh would have cried herself to death if the plane had fallen, and I was sure it would, although that premonition had never been accurate.
Taichung. I think it’s over Taichung! The light signal came on. All the stewardesses quickly returned to their seats and strapped in their seatbelts as the captain announced that there was turbulence ahead. Every time I fly, I pay close attention to the stewardesses, not because they are beautiful, but because I think if they are panicking, they must be screwed. Luckily, they were able to talk and laugh freely, but the ensuing jolt shattered my confidence. I had my hands in my lap, and with the sudden jolt I quickly grabbed the front seat with my hands and leaned forward.
A silvery voice rang out beside me, ‘Mr. Airsick? Would you like me to get you a paper bag?
I didn’t want to throw up, I just couldn’t speak. I think I was shaking my hand rudely to say no, I was totally unimaginative and must have been pretty messed up.
The plane settled down after about a century, and the air hostesses could be seen busy walking around on board again, half of my heart hanging in the air.
‘Mr. Rarely Seats Airplanes?’
It was a big blow to my self-esteem and I had to take a closer look at the woman. Hey! Modern woman, sunglasses, suit, laptop on her lap, the look of a strong woman.
”Wow! I sit often, I’m just not feeling well today.’
‘My last name is Liu’ the word sympathy was clearly written on her face.
”My name is Wang, and I really do fly every month, but I’m just not used to it.” I thought I’d better confess.
The plane began to descend and I hated the Little Harbor airport as I leaned my body against the back of my seat.
The plane did not land as I expected. When I got off the plane, my feet suddenly weakened, and the woman rushed to help me. The hands were long and white, and I was so happy to see them! And legs, once the plane landed all my guts are back.
Climbed with the woman, she worked in a public company as a business executive, I think! Not too detailed, I do not bother to ask clearly.
Entering the airport lobby, there was a message on my cell phone. Leigh apologized that she had to go to a social function with her old boss, an impromptu one, and would be home by twelve o’clock at night.
I look at my watch and it’s only seven. Wow! Crap, I seem to have left my house keys at work.
I started digging in my pockets. Not every hunch fails. I dialed Leigh’s cell phone for help, but… I couldn’t get a signal…
The woman was walking alongside me: ‘What’s wrong? Lost by your lover?
I shrugged helplessly: ‘It’s the wife, I’m homeless until twelve.’
‘Hee!’ The woman said with a naughty smile: ‘Let’s have dinner together, okay? I’ll let you treat me.’
Chapter 3∶12 of Passion
This week my husband went south because I’ve been busy. I actually prefer him to come down because after all, it’s so much nicer to live here, and a lot of times I go north instead and become helping him clean up the house.
One might think that the freedom I have would allow me to have many romantic affairs, which is hard to believe, but it really hasn’t happened. Wow! Maybe I should say it never really got done.
There have been a few unforgettable dates, I guess! Actually, there was only one time when I almost ended up with him, or maybe I should say ended up with him. It’s a bit vague, but it went something like this…
Had a little wine at dinner the other day with an old friend of mine from the past. Uh-huh! There had been a relationship back in the day, but it was so young that the process was barely remembered, and he was back in the country for a meeting.
Perhaps it was because of all this history that there wasn’t such a lot of distance between him and me, plus a little bit of alcohol and a breeze from Xiziwan. I drove him back to the hotel when he kissed me, kissed very naturally, evoking a trace of my memories, these lips and tongue is slightly familiar. I had planned to return home directly, but suddenly felt the emptiness of the house, I handed the car key to the parking boy, holding his hand upstairs.
Kaohsiung’s summer is very hot and humid, I asked him if I could borrow a bathroom to take a shower. In front of the mirror I took off my clothes and looked at myself to thirty body maintenance is quite good, the heart is slightly proud. Suddenly he knocked on the door and asked if he could come in. I hesitated… Tonight was meant to be a night of indulgence, wasn’t it?
”Uh-huh!” I said, ‘Wait.’
I wrapped a large bath towel around me and opened the bathroom door to pass under his armpits. He was taken aback and didn’t know what I wanted to do. I opened my purse and took out my cell phone and sat on the edge of the bed, put my middle finger between my lips and told him to be quiet and started dialing my husband’s number.
”Qiang, I just came back from having dinner with Li Zhicheng.”
‘Whoa! You’re home? Get some rest! Don’t stay up late watching TV,’ my husband said kindly.
‘No, I probably won’t be home tonight… um… I’ll call you if I get home early… are you busy tonight? What time will you go to bed?
‘I won’t be able to sleep tonight, ugh! This program has killed me.’ Hubby then said: ‘I’m glad to get your call, at least I know you love me the most, I know you’re not convenient to talk more, but you have to be careful know?
‘Hehe! I’m not a kid anymore, I know.’
Looking at him standing in the bathroom doorway with a skeptical look on his face, I smiled sweetly and got past him into the bathroom again. In front of him I untied the towel and tried the water temperature, hmmm! It’s cozy. I love these big tubs, I haven’t stayed in a hotel since our honeymoon, and I love hiding my whole body in the water.
He took off his clothes as well, a bit hastily, he used to look like this. His body is starting to get fat, but he doesn’t really remember what he used to look like, wow! It’s going on ten years now, and they were all still students then!
He was a little embarrassed by the erection of his prick, quite thick and a little longer than his husband’s. It was suddenly like a million ants crawling over my heart.
He sat across from me and suddenly I didn’t know what to say. There had been some laughing and naughty elements to the process earlier in the day, and it made me feel like I was back in my teenage years. But now I was sharing a bath with this man, and I began to shy away, my head down.
He rubs his toes gently against my thighs, the rough skin of a man bringing a firm touch that makes me start to swoon. He gets up and leans over, kissing me, down my forehead to my chest. My body begins to tremble and I clench my hands around the sides of the tub.
His hands caressed my breasts, gently stroking and moving to my lower body. Fingers stroked over my labia, but not touching the focus I so desperately needed; he was stirring me up, and I was stirred up.
I wrapped my arms around his neck, rubbing my breasts against his chest, and I could feel the rush of his breath.
He helped me up and out of the tub, and when he wasn’t paying attention he wrapped himself around me from behind, and I braced my hands on the vanity as his hands began to invade my secret garden.
My vagina was already wet, he whispered in my ear: ‘so wet, so beautiful oh! He whispered in my ear: ‘It’s so wet, it’s so beautiful!
My heart soared throughout and my ass began to unconsciously push back in anticipation of something entering. His cock rubbed against my behind and I felt out was so hard and magnificent.
He turned me around and took my hand towards the bed as he leaned back and collapsed in a large body.
What a lovely prick, the glans with an auburn sheen. I couldn’t resist taking his cock and caressing his balls with my fingertips, I loved hearing him moan. Feeling the twitching of his cock, he didn’t move, instead I caressed him with the tip of my tongue.
He rolled over and stimulated my nub with his glans, and I felt an unending flow of love juice from my pussy. I grabbed the sheets in a death grip trying to control something but still screamed out. I begged him to stop torturing me like this, I pushed my lower body up as high as I could, I wanted him to poke in and soothe my empty hole, I wanted his hot rod.
I almost fainted when he came in, and I felt my uterus start to contract as he pushed in… phone…
‘The shipment didn’t go through?’
‘Can we deal with it tomorrow?’ He signaled with his eyes for me to hold still.
”OK! You first fax the information now”
‘Number?’ He covered the microphone with his hand and cursed in a low voice
‘Bloody hell, what number is this fax anyway? Who’s going to remember?’ He tries not to leave I’m going to rummage through the hotel MENU on the lighted cabinet.
I slid my body out gently, feeling an emptiness as my cock left. But I knew the romance of the night was gone, over, luck!
It was just before one o’clock when I got home, I dialed my husband’s phone, and a surprised voice came through the microphone: ‘Leigh? Where are you? I thought you were going to call in the morning!
I told my husband the whole thing and his laughter on the other end of the phone made me a little annoyed.
‘Whatever, you have to pay me back.’ I said roguishly.
My husband comforted me on the phone and kissed me.
I undressed my entire body and placed my hand between my legs. I didn’t wash away the marks he had left on me and with the sensations I had just felt I continued my deeper penetration until my orgasm hit.
Chapter 4: Jealousy
In fact, not to talk about what socializing, but a small follower just, the boss likes to take the secretary as a vase to set off his identity. This entertainment surprisingly in less than ten o’clock on the end.
I wonder if hubby’s home yet? I don’t think so! This guy is confused, man ah!
In my mind, I started thinking about my husband living alone, hehe! Heartache and love, he is a child who never grows up. Forever dirty, not a single thing in position, only a small suite of six ping can be made like a ford pit. However, every time I enter his house, but let me excited, let me want him to embrace me.
Kick off your heels, stretch your toes, and let it free for a bit!
Turn on the stereo, pour yourself a glass of ice water, and throw your body onto the couch.
What was he doing at this moment? Anxiety started to build in my mind. Then I tried to turn away from the thought, but the thought hovered. Could he be in some woman’s arms? Hubby isn’t the type of guy who doesn’t leave the road unused, and there’s a lot that can happen in the space of a few hours.
It’s not a matter of trust, I believe he loves me and absolutely, I know it’s out of instinctive female jealousy. My mind was in turmoil, but my lower body was hot without command, I missed him so much.
Dinner is churning up in my stomach, I want to throw up, people are so sad, honey, where are you? I’m going to die. Can you hear me in another woman’s arms? Alas!
I shouldn’t think like this, I warned myself, but I hadn’t experienced anything like this before. My husband would always report his affairs in Taipei, but not like this time when I had to wait for him at home, waiting for his return. I knew it couldn’t happen, but somehow I felt abandoned, that he didn’t want me, and I began to whimper.
Soaking inside the bathtub, I tried to divert my thoughts. In the past, my husband’s stories about his sexual encounters had always turned me on, and I began to fantasize about how he made love to other people, but this time I began to feel scared. The stories used to sound like third party stories because they were far away in time and space! Now it’s so close and within reach.
The cell phone rang, I jumped out of the bathtub, and my husband’s tired voice came: ‘What time can you get home? I’m exhausted, sitting alone in McDonald’s, staring at me!
I wanted to cry, but I calmly said, ‘When are you going to stop worrying me, you idiot?
It’s been a while since I got home.’
‘You didn’t call to let me know when you got home?’
I don’t know what’s going on! I don’t know if there’s a good show going on. Come on, get your ass back here.’
Chapter 5: Confusion
When I heard her say dinner, I think my spirits came up then. Thoughtfully, I took her laptop.
‘Of course! Of course I’m invited. But I’m not familiar with Kaohsiung! What do you want to eat?” I’m a bit worried about the purse, this woman doesn’t seem to be very well fed.
‘McDonald’s, hehe! McDonald’s is fine, I’m so hungry I could have a whole chicken. But… don’t get too excited!’ She laughed a little wryly.
I’m not quite sure what she means, but I don’t think I’ll have absolutely nothing to do until at least twelve o’clock tonight, and the rest? Whatever!
She was walking next to me when we left the country, when… a man of about 40 years of age quickly greeted us, and she jumped on her with a cry of joy, and the two of them kissed as if no one else was there. Suddenly I felt a little unsure of where to put myself. It was as if I were standing on a red-hot iron plate, and my laptop suddenly became as heavy as a rock. I remembered what she had said about not getting too excited, and it made complete sense.
‘! This is my husband, his name is Chen, just call him Little Chen.” She said introducing: ‘Hubby, this is Mr. Wang’.
Her husband warmly shook my hand, as if he and I had known each other for centuries. I thought again, this old boy is four or five years older than me, call him Xiao Chen?
”Come on, Mr. Wang, I’ll treat you to Japanese food.” Seeing that he was quite sincere, he took the laptop in my hand.
‘Hubby, Mr. Wang said he’d treat me to McDonald’s! Don’t make a scene, okay?
I felt like a criminal stripped naked and standing in the arena for inspection, and had only one thought, how do I get out of this embarrassing situation?
‘Haha! Good ah! I like being a light bulb! Let’s go! My car is illegally parked outside, it’s not easy to park here, hurry up, it’ll be a problem if you get a red ticket.”
”Hubby, wait you have to be careful, Mr. Wang can faint chicken, wait spit it on you, hehe! That’s how I picked him up.’
‘No, I’m not airsick, I’m just not used to heights.’ I protested in a weak voice, which was rewarded with a loud laugh.
Dinner was really McDonald’s and she did order a whole chicken, but with her husband. The two of them seem to be in a good relationship, so good that they kind of forgot that I existed in the world. I guess I know that Chen is an architect or something, a rich and powerful person!
But this guy is pretty easy going and approachable.
‘How long will Mr. Wang be down this time?’ Her husband said
‘It’s only two days, and I have to take the first flight back to work early Monday morning.’
”Tomorrow, how about inviting Mr. Wang to our home tomorrow?” She said excitedly.
‘Of course it’s good a! Heh! Mr. Wang’s home phone number?’
When I finished my affair, Lori fell on the couch and laughed for about ten minutes! Then she said she wanted to check if I had been stealing fried chicken and giving it to someone else. We were so busy that we didn’t have time to go to bed, so I asked her to do it directly on the couch.
Chapter 6: The Myth of Mastery
It was a farmhouse on the outskirts of town, not far from the city, with a small pool. This is very common in foreign countries! At least in the movie a lot, in Taiwan this is the first time I have seen this kind of private swimming pool, this kid is some silver.
Mr. Chen answered the door dressed simply enough, a pair of shorts, sunglasses, and a blouse left open and unbuttoned, revealing a somewhat slightly bulging middle-aged belly. But it’s okay! My belly has grown quite a bit since I got out of the military, heh!
Leigh’s little Himiko is placed next door to the Mercedes-Benz, which looks a bit out of place and makes me a bit uncomfortable. But Leigh was very curious and secretly pulled me to say.
‘Wow! So rich!
I thought to myself it’s not even fucking folklore.
‘This is the insider, just call him Leigh.’ I introduced Leigh to Chen.
At that moment Chen’s wife also came out of the house and my eyes lit up. She’s wearing something easy today, a bathing suit I think! At least it shouldn’t be underwear, because the fabric is pitifully small. A loose shirt on top, should be her husband’s. Those legs, long and white legs, and breasts. Chan’s voice brought me back to reality…
”Don’t call me Mr. Chen, just call me Weicheng, don’t be too formal everyone.” Whoops! My wife’s name is Minnie.’
To be honest, I wasn’t used to getting to know each other so well so quickly, but the people were here, so I had to be tough. Minnie pulled Leigh towards the house, and within two minutes they seemed to have become good friends. Women are really strange creatures.
I was sitting under the roof with Wai Shing drinking a beer while two women were in the house doing who knows what.
‘We’ve been married for seven years, what about you?’ Weicheng continued.
‘There was a time when we had a bad relationship, when we were both very busy, especially me. Then she asked to go out to work and I was very frustrated for a while, financially she really didn’t need to work that hard.’
‘Women want to be sure of their abilities at some point, don’t they?’
‘I know, I’m not selfish. But I’ve always wanted kids, the problem is that she won’t have them, she wants a career, and she’s just starting out as a salesperson. I actually feel a bit ashamed of myself, I’d get a random friend to introduce me to a job that’s better than this.’
‘Uh-huh!’ I thought to myself, “What’s this got to do with me?
‘You know, a lot of times in order to grab performance, female salesmen will take more advantage. Minnie was coming home in the middle of the night for a while, smelling of alcohol, and she climbed to the supervisor position in just over two years. I’m not saying she only relied on that, she just wanted to prove that she didn’t need me to succeed, and the time she spent on city promotion was literally to the point of sleepless insanity.’
Weicheng laughed a little, and did not show the pained expression I expected, he continued: ”During that time, we have not been intimate for almost two years, I know she has a man, but I really love her too much.”
‘I understand.’ I thought to myself, “Why is this man telling me this? This seems a little beyond the scope of our friendship.
”Xiao Li and you seem to have a good relationship, you shouldn’t have these troubles, would you have this kind of difficulty?” Weicheng’s topic suddenly turned to me.
‘Who doesn’t have their own problems?’ I was a bit at a loss for words and blurted it out.
‘Oh! You have a similar problem amongst yourselves?’
Dying, my words meant just mind your own business, I suddenly couldn’t pick up on it and the scene was a bit awkward.
‘In fact, there are some concepts to get through, it’s good.’ Wei Cheng said with sympathy: ‘I couldn’t figure it out at that time either, and suffered for a while.’
‘Figure it out?’
I wanted to explain to Weicheng the problem that Xiaoli and I had not told him, I did not want him to have any misunderstanding about us. However, due to the weakness of the hesitation, Wei Cheng continued: ‘What is the most afraid of people? I know you’re afraid of flying! I know you are afraid of flying, why are you afraid? The crash rate of airplanes is much smaller than that of driving a car! Do you like to hitchhike?
‘Meh! One might say abhorred.’
‘Yes, all fear as well as envy comes out of your inability to control things. We are all so used to being able to control all the events around us that over time, you even wish you could control the universe. You’re supposed to go to a ball game and suddenly it rains and you feel frustrated. When you’re on an airplane, you have absolutely no control over whether you live or die, and you feel frustrated. Your wife goes out and you’re not sure if she’s sleeping with someone, you feel frustrated.’
That’s when I suddenly thought of the night Leigh went out with her classmate. After I got her call, I actually couldn’t concentrate on my work at all, I was filled with anxiety and messed up for no reason. But I didn’t say anything to Leigh, because that was our agreement, and honesty was good. But, the truth is that honesty alone doesn’t make me relieved, I still get scared and jealous.
‘You begin to face a choice, either you can take control of events or you can accept what you fear. There are some things you can master, such as the fact that you can decide that you will drive the car. But there are certain things you can’t control, like the fact that you can’t fly an airplane. At that point you can only trust the captain, but that’s hard unless you go and access the captain’s air safety record every time you fly. So you have to accept death so you won’t be afraid of flying anymore.’
‘An airplane? Hehe!’ Mandy pulled Leigh behind us at some point.
Leigh didn’t know what to say in Minnie’s ear, but only heard intermittently that… he kept pulling me… and the two of them laughed into a ball.
Leigh was wearing a back-empty bathing suit, I think it was Mandy’s! It looks so beautiful. And Mandy was wearing a two-piece bikini, not as exaggerated as the ones in the movie, but that cleavage, hey! I was starting to worry about my body’s reaction, good thing I was fully clothed.
I knew the conversation with Wai-shing had come to an end. When a woman, especially a wife, appears, a man’s right to speak is immediately taken away. The airspace for talking is under the jurisdiction of women, especially two women, and even more so, two beautiful women.
In my heart, however, I have never forgotten what Weicheng just said, and I vaguely feel that certain things have touched a certain point in my heart, but I can’t be sure.
Chapter 7: A Man’s Confession
Weisei’s eyes were on me all the time, and it was a little unnerving. I liked it here though, Mandy seemed very nice and not at all standoffish. Weisei was the same, but it was the unapologetic staring at him that made me a little sad.
‘I drank when I was young, because I was good and strong, I can actually drink very well.’ Weicheng explained: ‘But I don’t like that feeling after drinking, it’s not real and everything becomes unreal. I like to take control of my life, and drinking gives me the feeling that I can’t take control of everything.’
‘Another story to tell, hehe!’ Mandy giggled foodily.
‘It’s true, who among you would like to give up being sober and alive? Perhaps escape has a brief paralyzing effect on the mind, but I’d rather face my problems. I feel bet that every one of you has some heart trouble that you are deliberately trying to avoid.’
‘You didn’t?’ I said a little provocatively.
‘Hmm! I admit that I have, do you dare to say that you don’t?’ Wee Seng continued: ‘In this way, let’s play a game where each of us confesses the deepest troubles of our hearts. Well… it’s no good. In fact, we all know that the ruler is afraid of flying on airplanes, so it’s no fun. We have to have a rule… Let’s see… how about something sexually related?
‘Huh?’ Hubby made a sound a little surprised?
‘Good! Actually, I play this game with Wai Shing all the time! I feel very good, at least I can know what Wei Cheng is thinking all day long.” Mandy said with a smile.
Wai Shing rolled over to paw at Mandy’s tickle, and the two rolled around on the floor.
I look at my husband and wonder what secrets he has in his heart. Honesty is sometimes all talk, but how many people are really honest? Especially with themselves?
I said to Weicheng: ‘Just play! You suggested it, you say it first.’
‘Good, I need to think about it first because there are just not many secrets left, and there’s always something to say that Mandy doesn’t know yet either.’
‘For the record, I’m only talking about a thought that’s been haunting me lately.’
‘I want to see Mandy having sex with someone else.’ Weicheng’s voice was a little weak.
It was as if the air suddenly froze, no one made a sound, and then I saw Mandy looking down and sobbing.
This scene is quite embarrassing, for a moment I do not know whether to go or should go to comfort Minnie, I looked up at my husband to seek some information. At this point, Mandy suddenly raised her head and calmly said: ‘Watching your wife having sex with someone else makes you happy?’ Minnie then said to us: ‘I’m sorry, I lost my temper. This game may occasionally hurt people’s hearts, but it’s better to keep many things in the open than to keep them in the dark, isn’t it? Oh! Also, this game allows each person to question a question, and the other person must answer it without evasion.”
I feel like I should stop, this game is not very fun, who knows that my husband then said: ‘In person? Then you can withstand that kind of wife being hugged by someone’s sense of jealousy?’
”I’m sorry, I’ll answer Minnie’s first.” Weicheng whispered: ‘It was just a thought, I just explained. I’m not sure why I had this thought, I’ve thought about it over and over again. I think I wanted to see if Minnie reacted the same way in someone else’s arms as she did in mine! Would it make me happy? I don’t know, but I think I’d be excited. If making me look forward to contact with Mandy even more is considered a pleasure, hmm! Then this should be considered pleasure!”
”Also about jealousy, I’ve thought that it shouldn’t be too strong, I can’t guarantee that it’s completely absent. But I guess since everything is within control, it shouldn’t be too severe! Or maybe all the excitement comes from jealousy, if not for jealousy there would be no pleasure.”
Weisei ended his answer and I felt like everyone was looking at me waiting for me to ask a question. My mind went blank and I didn’t know what to ask.
It’s not that I don’t understand what Weisei is saying, it’s just too weird. I’ve always thought I was open enough with the Governance, but such an in-depth topic never occurred to me, and it’s just too private.
‘Are you that generous?’ I asked randomly.
”Haha!” Weicheng laughed out loud and said: ‘It’s not my problem, it’s Mandy’s problem. I think people have the right to deal with their own bodies, the essence of love is not to bind the body, but to bind each other’s hearts. Minnie can be with others as she pleases, I also have the right. It would be wonderful if I gave up that right out of love, just as Romeo and Juliet sacrificed their lives for love. And life is a big thing, sex is just a small part of love, if sex was just a game, would you not allow your husband to watch a movie?’
”About being generous? That’s depending on whether or not Minnie is going to let me in on her game.’
I tried my best to save the day: ‘The country doesn’t go to the movies.’ Then the crowd burst into laughter, and the atmosphere was less tense than it had been just a few moments before. Weicheng’s eloquence should be used in the election, I thought to myself.
‘Men first, hehe! Men should be courteous.’ Mandy said petulantly.
I also wondered what thoughts my husband had that I didn’t know about, and I turned my head to look at him. Hubby was a little pale, maybe it was the lighting! But I could sense he was nervous.
‘I… um…’ Hubby does this when he’s nervous.
‘I like to masturbate.’
There was a moment of silence, and you could sense that everyone was holding back their laughter.
‘I like to masturbate’ Hubby emphasized again.
‘That counts? I also like to masturbate ah!’ Mandy said with her tongue out.
‘I mean, I like masturbation better than sex with women.’
‘Contains Xiao Li?’ Weicheng asked.
‘Is that even a question?’ Hubby wanted to get out of it in a hurry. I actually wanted to know the answer more than anyone else, and my stomach started to tighten a little.
‘Haha! Forget I just asked.’ Wei Cheng continued.
‘Masturbation would be more comfortable than with a woman?’
‘Nah! That’s not the way to put it, eh! I should say that I feel that masturbation relaxes me.’ Hubby slowly shook off his inhibitions and said: ‘It’s not that I don’t love making love with women, making love with women is the most beautiful thing in the world. Especially, with Li can make me completely satisfied, including body, mind and soul.”
‘Thanks ooh! Hehe!’ I got a little smug inside.
‘Masturbation is a different feeling, and in masturbation the world has no limits. You can enjoy any ridiculous fantasies without having to be real to realize them. You can have any woman you couldn’t possibly get in the real world, and you can do anything that someone else decides is wrong without you having to pay the price.’
‘What do you fantasize about?’ Mandy asked rather slyly, it was too broad a question.
‘It’s… like nude pictures of celebrities, pornography, and acquaintances, meaning women you’d like to touch, but would never do so.’ Hubby lowered his head and continued: ‘The most common thing I fantasize about is that time Leigh was with someone else.’
‘You’ve been thinking about that?’ I asked, stunned, ‘You said you didn’t mind, as long as I was honest. And I was honest about the whole thing! Besides, nothing really happened that day, in a manner of speaking.’
‘I only knew some of the process of what you said that day, so the room for fantasizing about the details became infinite. I fantasized about every action between you at the time, that you might have told him you loved him at one point, and that made me tingle inside. Then I would help you explain that this is a normal verbalization during sex. It’s not just that, I often simulate the men I’ve known before, do they bring you to orgasm like I do? Do you scream differently during sex than you did when you were with me? Hubby gasped and said: ‘This kind of masturbation carries with it a certain sadness, a certain excitement, as well as a certain pleasure.’
Chapter 8: A Woman’s Confession
‘Minnie…’ Leigh looked at Minnie with pleading eyes.
‘Okay, I’ll go first.’ Mandy tilted her body flat on her back and spread her limbs as wide as possible. ‘The book says that this position allows for complete relaxation.’
‘I want to be with a woman, to be clear, I will be seduced by a woman’s body.’
‘Wow! Leigh’s reaction seemed to be a feeling… I can’t describe it… admiration? Envy? Is homosexuality now fashionable?
‘You’re so forward thinking! Do you only like to be with women?’ Leigh probably felt her slip of the tongue and looked at Weicheng with a look that begged for forgiveness.
‘Whoa! That’s okay.’ Weicheng’s voice had a bit of a bleak flavor of being hurt.
‘It’s not like that, I like men ah! Especially Wai Shing, hehe!’ Mandy rolled her whole body over and pressed on Weicheng’s back, smiling and said: ‘I don’t know, but I get excited very easily when I see a beautiful woman.’
”Heh! It’s rare for us to be in such agreement.’ Weicheng laughed out loud.
‘Whenever I was walking along the road, or when I met a beautiful woman, I would look at her more. It’s not that feeling of envy or jealousy, but a strong desire to strip her of her clothes and…”
‘What about after you peel it off?’ I asked jokingly.
‘It… I don’t know, uh! I haven’t thought about it either! Minnie began to think: ‘That’s an interesting question, I really haven’t thought about it.’
‘I had seen one of those videotapes, woman to woman. About the source of the videotape, hehe! You guys go ask Weicheng. But I don’t think that’s what I was thinking, and I can’t describe my thoughts very clearly. You know, they usually use props… to please each other.
I don’t want that, wouldn’t it be more realistic to get a man for that? What I want is probably just kissing, touching, caressing, etc.!’
‘Can I ask one more question? Thoughts on your gender role?’ I’m getting curious about this topic.
”Hmph! You’re pretending to be polite even after asking.’ Mandy made a gesture to throw a pillow at me.
‘No, I don’t think about gender. I guess I’m pretty much a standard woman! Biologically in my heart I identify myself as a woman. And the person I like to be with is that kind of standard woman, not some kind of masculine, masculine or just the opposite particularly soft woman.’
”This kind of love doesn’t seem to have anything to do with gender! I should say that I just love the female body. Uh-huh! For example, I love my own body! Sometimes when I take a bath, I’ll look at it greedily! Hehe!
”So, do you lust for Leigh?” Weicheng said as he looked at Leigh.
Leigh suddenly turned her eyes to a figurine in the foyer, obviously trying to avoid everyone’s eyes. I wondered in my mind if the answer was yes, would she feel humiliated? Would she be disappointed if the answer was no?
Looking at this in my manly mind, it is undoubtedly bizarre. I’ve always been very open-minded, I identify with homosexuals, but on the other hand I’m afraid of them. For example, I have a client who we all know has issues with his sexuality. Conceptually I don’t think he’s abnormal, but in practice I find I’m never afraid to look him in the eye.
Lesbians? Well, that’s more acceptable! At least porn is beautifully shot.
‘Will, don’t you think she’s pretty?’
‘My turn to talk.’ Leigh cut the conversation off abruptly, I knew she didn’t want to keep Minnie’s conversation going, it was embarrassing.
‘I need time to think’
‘It’s not real if you think about it too much’ Weisei began to protest.
‘I wonder what it’s like to be with two people at once?’ Leigh mumbled a little.
‘What should I do with three people? Will I be distracted?’
I guess my shock is no different than a stock market crash, what kind of weird idea is that?
‘I’m just messing with my head, don’t take it seriously.’ Leigh continued.
‘It’s okay, people have weird thoughts sometimes, it’s not a crime ah! At the same time, it doesn’t mean that you’re going to carry it out, or that it’s a goal you’re pursuing.’ Weicheng went on to say: ‘Have you fantasized about it? I mean have you ever fantasized about the whole process?
‘Yes.’ Leigh replied simply, then she said: ‘You know I’m not with Zhiguo much, when I’m alone at night, I inevitably have some fantasies, especially after talking to Zhiguo on the phone. These fantasies are not too specific, but are generally about two people! There were no details, just a feeling that made me climax very… very easily.”
I was amazed that Leigh was able to talk about the hidden things of her body with such a demeanor.
‘Do you freak out about how you feel? Honestly, I often feel ashamed of some of the thoughts I have!’ Mandy asked.
‘Whenever the pleasure wore off, I felt a deep depression, mostly because I felt sorry for Zhiguo! Leigh paused for a moment and continued, ‘After our marriage, I had a… and Zhiguo knew about it, but it didn’t really bother me too much, perhaps mainly because Zhiguo knew exactly what I was doing at the time. But this kind of fantasy was so outrageous that I didn’t even know about it, and I thought it was wrong. The problem is that I often unconsciously add characters to my fantasies, and I don’t really want to, I guess I’m a weak-willed woman!” Leigh’s tears welled up in her eye frames.
‘It’s okay, I don’t think it’s wrong.’ Although my heart was sour, I still pretended to be relaxed and said: ”Unlike Weicheng and the others, our two opinions are quite different, I prefer to be with two beautiful women!”
Leigh hit me and said, ‘Die, don’t you dare give me a try.’
‘Haha! You double standard oh!’ The whole atmosphere lightened up.
‘Heh! The story says it’s fun, really fun.’
‘Hey! You haven’t asked the question yet oh!’ Mandy pouted.
‘I give up my rights, hee!’
‘Rules, rules, I sentence you to ask the question immediately’ Wai Sung shouted.
‘Do you love me?’ I asked, looking into Leigh’s eyes.
‘Honey, you know that. You know I love you and I’m crazy about you.’
Chapter 9: The Perfect Body
Blank weekend, my husband couldn’t leave or spend time with me, and I spent the afternoon alone in the house watching boring TV.
After leaving Weicheng’s house last week, I came back with the feeling that my husband had become a bit strange. It turns out that there are still so many secrets in the hearts of two such close people.
I don’t know, the truth is I’ve got a lot of secrets of my own. Everyone is afraid of being hurt! No one wants to open up their heart and soul to anyone, not even couples, unless they are in a situation or forced to do so, and that’s something I’m starting to feel. Who wants to open themselves up first? Maybe hubby and I are both waiting for the other to make a move!
I kind of miss the conversation that night, the whole relaxation from a kind of tightness.
Thought the phone ringing with Minnie’s voice.
‘Lori, I tried calling you, afraid you were up north this week! Is Zhiguo there too?’
‘Whoops! He’s busy this week, so I have to be a good boy at home all by myself.” Hearing how smoothly Minnie addressed Zhiguo, her heart got a little stuffy.
‘So… do you want to join us for dinner? Wee-sung and I are both free too!’
‘Hmm! Okay! Where to see Ah? I’ll organize myself first.” I’m really bored out of my mind, it’s good to take a walk.
‘Let’s go and drive you! We’re going to eat Vietnamese food, and we’ll pass by Jiuru Road on the way. Okay?’
I don’t really have an appetite for Vietnamese food, but it’s nice to have someone to talk to. I spent the whole dinner just watching Wei Cheng playing jokes and making Mandy and I laugh our asses off.
‘Are you scared to be home alone? Do you want to stay at my house?” Minnie said worriedly.
‘Heh! Haven’t we been living like this for years? Hmm…’ I was a little ticked off, and after leaving this pavilion, another quiet, boring night followed.
”Ugh! What’s the phone number of the King’s office?’ Minnie dialed the number of the company directly…
‘I’m Mandy, hehe! Is it okay if we have to abduct your wife tonight?’ A hee-haw ensued and I took the phone.
‘Is it convenient? Would it be…’ Hubby was a bit worried if he kept asking people to treat him.
‘It’s okay! I think it’s okay, I’ll do it.’ I looked at Mr. and Mrs. Weicheng, and my heart ached a little, to amuse my loneliness, I was somehow going to be overdrawn this month.
The scent of last week was still there in the living room, just missing Zhiguo, and there was a bit of an empty space in my heart. There was a constant whining in my ears from Weisei, straight up talking about why I had paid for dinner in secret, heh!
The guys were chatting about each other’s work and lives in the living room, and before I knew it, it was going to be twelve o’clock, and I was so used to going to bed early that I couldn’t help yawning.
‘It’s time to rest! Want to take a look at the guest room?’ Weicheng was sharp-eyed.
‘Sorry, hehe! I didn’t mean to, I’m on vacation! It doesn’t matter if I sleep late!
‘Come on, I’ll take you to the bathroom.’ Minnie pulled me and left.
”I didn’t expect to spend the night, I didn’t bring any personal clothes, but I organized them before I left the house, it’s okay!” By this time I had already been dragged into the room by Mandy, I had to be honest about my predicament, because it was an impromptu idea, it was very embarrassing at this point.
‘Geez! You wear mine! I’ve got some brand new ones here that haven’t been unwrapped yet! But the top, hehe! You’re older than me, I noticed last week when you wore your bathing suit. It’s for sleeping at night! It doesn’t matter if you wear the top or not!” Mandy enthusiastically started rummaging through the closet, and then pushed me into the bathroom.
Come to think of it, a bath is much more comfortable, especially, hehe! What a big bathtub. BANG… a sound, and Mandy pushed the door in, holding a brand new big bath towel. I forgot to unlock the door. I thought it was good that I was still wearing my underwear!
Thinking about it, Mandy turned around and said, ‘Xiao Li, help me pull the back zipper.’
Xiao Min began to undress in front of me and try the water temperature, everything is natural so that I can’t express my unaccustomed, now say something seems to be petty. However, I have never faced with a woman like this in my life, and a woman’s body seems to be stranger to me than a man’s, and it’s still scary. I took off my bra with a little trembling, and delayed it by washing my face and removing my makeup, etc. Taking off my underwear made me struggle for a long time. Minnie got into the bathtub early, and I never dared to look at her.
”Tiana! The water is going to get cold if we don’t wash it.’ Mandy shouted.
I had to step into the tub. It was such a big tub that two people could bathe together almost without touching each other.
‘You have a beautiful body, I wish I had that, my breasts are so small.’
I pretended to be calm and looked at Mandy. She actually had a very nice figure, her breasts were not too big, but her nipples were so small and cute. There… the pubic hair was quite thick, and it floated a bit in the water. The lips of her pussy were slightly open, moving gently as if she was breathing. Inwardly, I marveled at the perfection of a woman’s body! My heart began to heat up, and I think I must have blushed.
‘You’re beautiful too ah!’ I tried to reply politely.
Minnie turned around and lay side by side with me, I slightly shrunk my body a little bit, but thinking about all women, so I didn’t hide away! She reached out and held my breasts, saying: ‘It’s so beautiful, I want to taste it!
I couldn’t speak at all, I was too shocked to even move one of my toes.
She dipped her head and kissed my nipple, nibbling gently as her tiny tongue traveled over the areola. My body softened and melted completely, I hadn’t experienced such delicate caresses.
She pulled me across the bathtub and I followed her like a man possessed towards the bed as she began to kiss me.
I wanted to resist, but my tongue met hers. Not as strong as a man’s, not as strong as a man’s body odor, but so gentle, so beautiful.
She guided my hands to her breasts and she let out a soft whimper as I touched her. I was clumsy at first, but it’s a nature thing and I soon knew how to caress and kiss her small breasts.
Her hand went to my lower back, I hadn’t felt such a delicate touch and my waist unconsciously lifted. I began to moan, my lower body bobbing along with her fingers. It was like a feather brushed against my pussy core and my orgasm gushed out like a spring.
Suddenly, I saw Wai Shing leaning on the doorway with a small smile on his face. My heart went half-cold, God! How did I forget everything? What is this? A plaything?
It should be the sudden stiffness of my body that alerted Xiao Min, she also turned around and saw Wei Cheng, I could see a sense of humiliation and anger in her eyes. Everything was still, Minnie lay beside me, trembling slightly with anger, her eyes locked with Weicheng’s. I pulled the silk blanket over my body and started to get scared. Pulling the silk quilt over my body, I started to get scared.
‘Mandy… don’t be like this.’ Wee Seng coughed and continued: ‘I love you, it doesn’t matter, nothing matters, I just want you. I can accept everything about you, no! Not accept, but I can be exactly like you. Not out of reluctance, not out of will, but very naturally we are the same heart and mind.’
The ice melted in Minnie’s eyes, and I was kind of touched in my heart. At least, I guess I’m not a premeditated victim. Mandy rolled over and kissed me, and I accepted her.
Mandy’s hand invaded my vagina and she found my pleasure in a flash. I had forgotten that there were others watching next to me, it didn’t matter, I was at the peak of my life.
I don’t know how I fell asleep, I haven’t slept this soundly for a long time. When I woke up, I realized that Mandy was on my chest, and there was no sign of Wai Shing.
Kissing Mandy lightly and putting on my robe, I quietly pushed open the bedroom door.
Mr. Wei set up at the landing window smoking a cigarette and looking at the pool. He turned around alertly and saw me, smiled and said: ‘I’m really sorry, I didn’t mean to last night.’ He had blood in his eyes, and it looked like he hadn’t slept all night.
Taking off my robe, I give him a gentle kiss on the cheek. ‘It’s okay, I know she loves you.’
Early morning skinny dipping was comfortable, something I had never tried before. When I got up, I saw Mandy naked leaning over Wei-Cheng looking at me and tilting her head back to look at Wei-Cheng.
She suddenly turned around and wrapped her arms around Weicheng, hugging him so tightly.
Chapter 10: Naked
Leigh reclined on the couch bored with changing TV channels. I remember a long time ago when there were only three TV stations and we didn’t have to be at a loss as to which one to watch. The remote control was perhaps the greatest invention of the modern era, and at the touch of a button we wandered through dozens of stations. It ended with us not being able to really focus on a particular movie, watching TV all night and getting a bunch of broken remnants.
Dropping the task at hand, Leigh makes room for me and curls up against me like a cat. She sniffs my chest like she’s trying to make some memories.
‘You know, life is so short and I’m going to be old soon.’ Leigh said calmly.
She had said similar things in the past, but in a youthful, crisis-conscious tone, but this time it was as if she were stating an existing and irrevocable fact.
‘You mean?’ I couldn’t quite figure out what Leigh was referring to.
‘I mean how old should we live to be considered just right?’
‘I don’t understand.’ Leigh’s tone worried me.
‘I don’t know how long my body can attract men. Maybe say! I don’t know how long my desire for a man’s body will last. By then maybe I’ll have to rely on injections of female hormones in order to have sex with you, and will sex make sense then?’
‘What’s that head of yours suddenly wandering about again?’
‘Let’s be honest and talk about what’s inside us! Okay?’
‘Hmm!’ I wondered what Leigh was trying to say.
‘I know you’d be jealous of me being with someone else, but why haven’t you stopped me? You know you have the power to stop me.’
‘I know, I can’t explain it all very clearly. Let’s put it this way! Or maybe it’s because I love you so much, and we’re in different situations, and we’re separated. You should have needs, shouldn’t you? That I should have cut you off from your needs? Just because of my selfish exclusivity?’
‘It’s reasonable, but not entirely convincing. I can use other methods ah! Like masturbating? Besides, I don’t have such a big need, twice a week is enough for me, and masturbating while thinking about you is just as satisfying.”
‘Maybe it’s because of the excitement? Maybe it’s because it’s selfish, because then I’ll be able to look for opportunities out there too ah!’ I was starting to get a bit overwhelmed by such inquiries.
‘Excitement I guess there is, sometimes I like to hear you tell those stories. But do you really enjoy finding women out there? Doesn’t it feel hard to chase like that?’
‘… that, uh… I admit, I honestly can’t go after anything seriously after being with you.’
‘Hey! Go into more detail.’ Leigh’s smile was treacherous.
”Heh! If a beautiful woman shows up and she happens to reveal some hints, I’ll act on it.
But if the hint had come from an error in my judgment, I would have stopped immediately. Perhaps this woman expects me to spend a lot of time and effort chasing her, and I don’t think I’d consider her worth it.’
‘You want a simple, cheap woman?’
‘You can’t say that either. I would have the pleasure of conquering a woman, a kind of ambition I guess! There’s no greater conquest than making it possible for a woman to achieve pleasure, and that’s satisfying.”
‘Contradictions! You speak paradoxically. If conquering women is your greatest ambition, then why did you let me sleep with someone else? You should have conquered me yourself.”
‘A trap?’ I’m a little messed up.
‘Hee! You explain it properly.’ Leigh said mischievously.
‘I don’t actually like it, you could say I hate it when you sleep with other people.’ I gasped as I frankly lifted my narrow mind.
‘Your relationship with someone else is going to turn me on, but at the same time it makes me dread losing you. By ache I don’t mean that you’ll have an orgasm or some physical satisfaction in it, but that I can’t be sure you’ll go missing.’ I continued, ‘I don’t want to think of you as property, but you know that’s how love is supposed to be, and that’s how I love you. I would love to display the property I have in front of people, to make them jealous, to make them envious. Even when someone doesn’t believe how precious it is, I have no objection to them touching it. Provided that it is all under my control, in case he breaks it.’
‘So, I’m just an objectified woman? A prized possession? Something for you to dazzle with?’ Leigh’s questions were starting to get more and more pointed.
‘Honey!’ I got a little anxious. ‘It’s not like that, you know.’
‘Your joy is another fulfillment for me. You are a living treasure and you need something to set you off to show your luster. To me you are unique, one of a kind in the world.’
‘You didn’t really answer me, you’re just trying to get away with flattery.’ Leigh pouted.
‘I’m telling the truth.’ I said looking at her seriously.
‘As I said, I just don’t think that this best of treasures should be buried, that she should show her light as far as it is permitted and safe to do so. Because I love her, she is equal to me rather than in a master-slave relationship. She can decide of her own free will how she should be revealed, but it is my responsibility to protect her from harm. And because I love her, maybe she’s hurt in some way, but I still don’t think it matters, she’s still unique.’
”A Q a little bit to say it! Even if this treasure belongs to someone else, I still adore her and will always love her, though I can only look at her from afar, and though she is in someone else’s hands, it doesn’t diminish my love one iota.’
Leigh dug her head into my shirt and nibbled on my nipple.
‘Your mindset when you sleep with someone?’ I asked softly, afraid that I was hurting Leigh with this sensitive question.
‘Sensuality, excitement, curiosity… hmm! Prove yourself attractive.’ Leigh spoke directly.
‘Mostly out of context, like, the few times I haven’t had things go wrong it’s been because of context, hehe!’
‘How is the context wrong?’
‘With you.’
‘With me?’ I was a little confused.
‘For example, that time when I went to Yangmingshan with someone and he touched my thighs, it occurred to me that that’s not how you caress me.’ Leigh said as she gazed up at me.
‘An alternative, an extension you know? I can’t really be with someone because the world doesn’t have someone like you. I get so lonely sometimes, I want you so much, and then some guy comes along who maybe has a little bit of you in him, like the way he moves or the way he talks. I fantasize that it’s you, and even expect him to replace you, so that you can fulfill my emptiness and insecurity in a different way. But they’re not you, no one can replace you, and most of the fantasies are completely shattered the moment the person invites me in.’
”And that Li Zhicheng thing was a different context.”
‘Another?’
”Hm! It’s a feeling of the old days, proof that the charm is still there, I suppose! You know he had it with me long ago, before marriage.’
‘The physical sensations are too blurry to remember, but since he still wants me, it might prove that I’m still as attractive as ever. Or maybe he’s married, which in turn makes me more comfortable with him! Heh!’
‘I’m actually glad I didn’t actually finish it that time. I thought about it afterward, and I wondered what my next move was going to be after I was really done? Lay on his chest? I don’t think I could do that, it was like I could have sex with him but couldn’t spend time with him afterwards.’
Leigh’s voice slowly faded as the cat spoke and was on the verge of falling asleep.
I contemplated… How did I love her? How long is life? What was the role of the body between us? I only saw everything through my own eyes. How well did I really know Leigh? How much of her mind was unknown to me? I don’t even know what she feels erotically.
All I know is that I love her, and I don’t know if just relying on that unchanging love is enough. Looking at her sleeping form, my heart began to lose its way. The world is getting more and more complicated, and I just wish my mind could be as simple as when I was a child, can I go back?
(concluded)
Author’s Postscript.
This is the final installment of the Erotica quintet, and it’s no surprise that this should be the end of my personal career in erotic literature.
Maybe I’ll revise some of the content, honestly these articles are all done in one breath, so a lot of places are not very strict. But I think I have modified should not be public, after all, the purpose of these articles just want to say something, and should be said, content revision complete just a little bit of my personal cleanliness.
This type of writing is not pleasing to the eye and should be considered inferior in erotic literature.
I appreciate the support of some of you at these times, thank you all. I hope to have the opportunity to discuss with you more on the text skills to erotic concepts, after all, I do not quite agree that people only have lust but not love, especially do not agree with the objectification of women. The main characters in the article are almost all women who are not controlled by men, and they have their own erotic thinking patterns, which I hope will not cause too much pressure on male compatriots. Heh!
Love is a vague thing.
The body is a thing of grass and straw.
I look at the world with a cold eye.
See yourself busy in its midst.
Love spots are many times created only in illusion.
It fades away when life gets in the way.
Where’s the last romance?
I would like to dedicate this article to the memory of Mr. ‘Jun Eto’.