That summer I had just jumped into my sophomore year of college, and in order to pay for my living expenses and registration fees for the next semester, I went to work for a trading company, on the one hand to learn and on the other hand to grow myself. My job was very trivial, besides being a junior, I had to be the boss’s driver. The boss treated me very well and didn’t treat me as an ordinary employee, even at night he often let me follow him, he wanted me to learn more and observe more conversations, and taught me to analyze the psychology of the shopping malls and conversations. It was a really fulfilling summer vacation.
One day, the company’s legal counselor came to the company, the boss was very happy to introduce me to her, the boss said “Jiang lawyer ah! I’d like to introduce you to one of your schoolmates, who works in my company during summer vacation.” That’s how I got to know Ms. Jiang. Later, because of the relationship between the official business she often in the company to move, I help him deal with things and he chatted with more and more opportunities to unknowingly take him as one of my IDEALITY. He is a very mature and very stylish woman, she has the wisdom to have judgment and calmness to my admiration, under the beautiful appearance there is also strong eloquence, always be able to wear the most appropriate dress, in fact, she was originally a She is a very mature and charming woman.
How I wish she would come to the office every day to give me a little more chance to be close to her. But she only came once or twice a week, and I looked forward to going to work every day. Two weeks before the end of the summer vacation, my sister said to me, “Brother, school will start soon, right? I won’t be able to see you very often. I’ll treat you to dinner after work tonight, no date?” I said, “Depends on the boss. I said, “It depends on my boss if he needs me to go out with him tonight, and I’m not used to being treated by girls.” She was a bit bored and said “Fine! I’m free and you’re busier than me”. I regretted why I didn’t say yes. I was so upset until the end of the day. At the end of the day, my boss said to me, “Ms. Jiang said she would invite you to dinner tonight. You can go ahead! There’s nothing to do at night, so I should treat my younger brother to a meal, and she’ll come over to pick you up later. I inexplicably froze there not knowing whether I was happy or nervous, only obediently said ”Yes! Thank you Wang Dong’
She picked me up that night in a red BMW 325, and we dined at Huaxin Steakhouse at the Linsen North intersection on Chang’an East Road. It was a really nice place, except for the live piano and violin playing, the waiter’s attitude was comforting, just chatting with her about everything at NTU, watching him squinting and thinking back to the old days was really beautiful. And he was really like a goddess in my mind at that time. I could only worship her.
After nine o’clock we left the restaurant, he wanted to have a crazy time as in the old college days, so it was only natural for me to be the escort. He generously gave me the keys to the car to drive, she wanted me to drive according to my customary driving style without the need to stick to the rules, so I just stepped on the gas pedal as much as possible tightly connected to the Jianguo Viaduct to the freeway connecting to the coastal highway to Ruifang to go, and then drove north through the Keelung Yehliu Jinshan and then ran to the Yangmingshan Mountain, just two hours to run the road of 150 kilometers. Although it was summer, it was still quite cold at the top of Datun Mountain. The strong wind was blowing our thin summer clothes, and without realizing it, he snuggled up to me.
Smelling her hair, accompanied by the faint scent of perfume, I was truly intoxicated, it wasn’t the womanly scent of a lady in a hotel, but a body that truly made my heart want to embrace it, and inadvertently swinging my hand boldly over her shoulder and slowly sliding it down to her waist, I embraced her – a woman seven years older than me. My nose rubbed right between her hair. I reveled in her tenderness. In my lower body filled with hot blood, in my rationality stuffed with contradictions, she and I are just schoolmates and schoolmates, we are too far apart! ………… Impossible, …… impossible …… I respect her and she respects me. Consider this just an escape from the cold wind.
Nothing happened to us that night! ……
The next day came to the company, the boss ambiguously looked at me and teased me me a bit, ‘with Ms. Jiang together have not drunk ah’? I only blushed with embarrassment. The manager was also excited and asked me where I was going. I’m a big bull! Am I a bull? Is it because I don’t understand or I think too much, my heart keeps beating without knowing what to do, I have so many fantasies but not practical, I am really drunk, although I only drank the pre-dinner wine last night, but the after-dinner contact made me deeply drunk.
The schoolmate still still comes to the company once in a while, he talks to me as usual, I can’t see what he has in mind for me, it’s me who thinks too much, alas! If this is a dream it would be so good. But that’s not a dream, I’m about to leave a week or so, sister every day to the company to deal with things, in fact, those things can be faxed or call me to explain that I can do it, she just want to teach me to deal with it personally, I’m there so stupid ah! I’m so stupid! She really doesn’t give me face, as if she’s afraid that I won’t be able to do it right. He is getting more and more intimate with me, touching my hair and patting my shoulder, and even asking me about my past love. I’m very confused about whether he’s a big sister with a little brother or teasing me emotionally.
The day before I left the boss invited the whole office to dinner to say goodbye to me, my sister also came. Usually with the boss to go out to socialize with the habit of he knows I can drink, desperately called colleagues to pour me down, joking that I have not yet reached the age of majority, later to go to the SECOND I can not go, so I pour me down everyone is convenient. Sister in the side scolded ‘you people will bully my schoolmate, Wang Dong, you are not afraid of me to the boss’s wife to report ah? Or are you not afraid of your wife too, Manager Qiu?’ That’s how they helped me to block a lot of drinks while I was still drunk as hell. So I didn’t go with them to Grand Fortune again, and my schoolmate thoughtfully sent me back to the dormitory.
I drank too much Shaoxing and had a headache that was about to explode. I kept throwing up in my schoolmate’s car, and he couldn’t bear to put me back to the NTU dormitory alone, so he took me back to his home in Section 3, Renai Road. I don’t know how she did it, helped me shower and change into a robe, and lay on her bed. I woke up in the morning when it was already ten o’clock, my schoolmate had already gone to work, one only left a note asking me to eat breakfast in the refrigerator by myself. Because I do not have a key, do not dare to leave her apartment, she is not in the office action phone is also not working, I just so withered to sit and read the newspaper to eat, and then watch TV in her home to stay for a day. Luckily he came home early that day.
She wanted to take me out to dinner again, which I refused to do because I wasn’t used to paying her, so I took him to a Korean restaurant I knew well, the highest place I could afford financially, and I couldn’t afford to spend the money I’d managed to save up for the summer too quickly. Heh! The owner knew me well enough to see that I was taking a girl to eat at his place for the first time, and he even insisted on not charging me. That’s how we ate a lot of copper barbecue and kimchi. After that I went to her house again.
I like to watch him make coffee, deftly moving the alcohol lamp and stirring the coffee powder, she drinks coffee without sugar, I still a lot of creamer and a lot of sugar. She laughed at me and said it was a waste of her aromatic coffee, all the flavor was gone. After that, she took brandy and mixed it into her coffee and asked me if I wanted to add a little bit of it, so I tried some. The coffee was finally finished, so we drank brandy and watched TV, taking small sips. Sister’s alcohol is not good, not long after the drunk, he was like that night general snuggling in my chest, I did not get drunk heart but drunk, gently stroking her hair, on the sofa we leaned so close, as if he was my lover. We are wearing a thin shirt, the touch of the skin is so clear, through her stockings caressing her calves, my hands gradually moved up to her face, rubbing her ears, looking at her eyes I forgot to take off the glasses and kissed her forehead, my lips wandered in her face, ears, tip of the nose, cheeks …… I finally kissed her lips.
I knew she wouldn’t reject me, so I boldly kissed the nape of her neck and slid downward. He took the initiative to unbutton the top button of her shirt, so I kissed the item on her chest, and my face was buried deep in her chest breathing hard. A sexual Hormone flavor just filled my brain. Her hands pulled my shirt out and reached into my chest to caress it. (I used to be a sportsman, I have bigger and stronger pecs than the average person, as well as strong shoulders.) She unzipped my shirt, so I also unzipped her blouse, and then she was left with only her bra to cover her breasts, and her obvious cleavage pinched my big nose, making it hard for me to breathe! At this point, we coincidentally helped each other to return the lower half of the clothing, she only left the bottom of the bank and bra, I also only a pair of pants. The pants were so tight that they looked like they were going to split.
She closed her eyes and waited for my next move, while I was afraid, turned around and walked into the bathroom to take a cold shower, I can not do that to the school sister, she is drunk, I fake road learned to think so, but my penis no matter how to rinse the cold water is still straight shrugged, I have no way to lie to myself, I like her I really like him. At this time, my sister but into the bathroom hugged me crying, asked me why I like her and ignore her, and I do not know, because we really have a gap. Because I’m just a sophomore, the department that I’m studying makes me feel that my future is uncertain, while my sister already has a career and property, so why should I go with him again. I am afraid of what people around me will say about me. I don’t want to be a small man, I want to be proud of myself.
I still didn’t have any aggression towards my schoolmate, so the two of us cuddled up together and slept naked for the rest of the night. That night was so long, I went to the restroom so many times to masturbate that my skin was worn out. The next morning I went to pick my classes early. Registering to play my CALL machine rang again and I was hesitant to call back.
Until the next day, I couldn’t help but give her a call. Because I really like him, if you like why bother with yourself. Her voice was a little hoarse, as if she had been crying all night. I really have unspeakable heartache, since childhood, in addition to mom, there is no one like him to me generally gentle and considerate. When I knew she was at home, I immediately rode over to look for her.
She lay in my arms and talked to me for six whole hours, from six o’clock in the evening until twelve o’clock, when we forgot that we had to eat, before we ate something at the small night market on Daan Road.
Sister he has always been strong, since childhood is not willing to lose to others, for the average boy he never look at the eye, when in the University of Taiwan when the suitors have as much as the river of crucian carp, she has always been very cold rebuffed others, she believes that women can live without a man as well as men, for men he has an extreme sense of mistrust, the first reason why men like her is always the appearance of the first reason, she does not care about the superficial material external level, she decided to She decided to live alone, not at the mercy of men. With the passage of time, a person’s life is empty and lonely, the more socializing the more he is repulsed by men, is it possible that the male nature of every man boasts? Maybe I’m still naive! She actually likes a small man with a romantic and unrestrained personality and a lack of a sense of responsibility. At first she treated me like a little brother, hoping to teach me more than books, hoping that I am not the same lack of social experience as the average college student, wanting me to have more mature thinking. Unconsciously he liked my happiness, he wanted that kind of getaway with me. But I also gradually away from the original me, I have been objectified by society, I forgot the young and frivolous. However, with her when the kind of throbbing seems to return to the year, I have a kind of reckless impulse, no matter what she is a princess or fairy and I am just a mortal, a nobody. I want to treat her well and love her for the rest of my life, and I believe that there is no other woman who can make me so moved.
After dinner back to her home, I naturally with her bath, she helped me all over the body carefully scrubbed with a loofah one by one, I have never felt so refreshed; and I did the same to help him wash every inch of his body. We were intimate and honest with each other, drying each other all over, drying each other’s hair, and we enjoyed the beauty of both of our limbs with each other, and I finally let my soul into her body. She cried, literally cried, twenty-eight years of reserve liberated in that one night, the fourth of September, a day I will never forget.
From then on, I spent almost every night in my sister’s small apartment, and it was hard for my classmates and friends to find me except for the pager. And no matter how much I play in school to get dirty, my sister will always help me to organize my body and clothes clean, how can I let her be so attentive to me? But it was impossible not to love her, I wanted to run away from her kindness to me, how I wanted her to be angry with me, I wanted to help her with something, but she had already organized the house before I got home (Oh my God! I can’t believe I thought of her apartment as home). The only thing I can give her is a nightly fuck, and she seems to always satisfy me more than I satisfy her, often with too much energy I always want her to stay with me twice a night, and sometimes in the morning I still want to linger with her for a moment longer. I was like a sex machine, and all the energy I couldn’t fully utilize on the sports field went out to her.
And so we were together for almost a semester. One night when we had enjoyed each other, she leaned back contentedly against my chest and gently stroked my sweaty forehead. She told me ‘how wonderful it would be if I could have a baby like you, I hope he is healthy and energetic and always optimistic’. I …… didn’t know what to say and just said ‘Wow’! At this time I suddenly realized that I have never done any contraceptive measures, I always thought that my sister she has to take contraceptive pills, but how come I have never seen her take it? There were no pills in the drawer that looked like birth control pills. I couldn’t take it in, I was totally unprepared to deal with a little life, what was I going to do with my baby? I was still a sophomore in college, I wasn’t even in the military yet!
Gradually I found out that she was pregnant, she no longer with me lingering, eat food tastes also began to special, and sometimes there will be dizzy vomit look. We don’t mention the pregnancy to each other, but I no longer let her do a lot of things, school clubs I also go less, every day after class to rush home to grab in front of her before she was used to do things done, I also no longer all day to make herself dirty trouble her. In this way, she and I suddenly became very cold, I do not have a lot of school things to say to her, she also will not be the daytime things to discuss with me, it seems that each other in the cold war, waiting for the first who said how to do.
I was too much of a coward to face this fact, I had to accept it in silence, while he was brave enough to quit his job at the firm, and her preparation to be a mom was all in my eyes, and I was unprepared. She went to a bunch of classes every night that she did and didn’t have, like flower arranging and cooking ……. I also gradually went back to the school dormitory to sleep, lying beside her I always want her warmth.
I went home for the winter holidays, she went to the United States for vacation, never thought she would never come back. In her letter, she told me that having a child was enough for her, that I was the only man in her life, and that she no longer wished to have another, that this was the end of our destiny, and that she did not want me to be burdened with commitments, that she should let bygones be bygones, and that she should take control of herself, and that she should not be burdened with any more memories.
How many nights I choked and cried, I still remember her warmth, a fatherless child let his mother to grow up independently, he did not know who his father is. And a man who is a father only knows that there is a child stranded in a foreign land, being bullied and scolded have to bear by themselves. Why why why why? She’d rather the child grow up like that. Why would she want me to know that such a child exists? Do I owe him a debt from a previous life or does she owe me? I’m not an irresponsible man, why does she want me to suffer in this abyss? I would treat them well for the rest of my life than for her to have to bear everything of the child alone. Maybe I have nothing now, maybe I’m not capable of anything, but I’ll have my own piece of sky one day.
Now more than three years, the child should be more than three years old, for them I still have no information. I will soon be a soldier in the gap to write down this section of the past, perhaps I went down to the army may die for the country, perhaps I worry about the sky, in short, I hope that someone knows this story, perhaps one day you will meet my old lover, perhaps you will meet my children, if you know this story, I hope to be able to tell them that I miss. I hope they can know that I have never forgotten. Maybe there is a fate that I can still renew my relationship with my sister.