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My sister is five years older than me. When I was in college, she was already working for a foreign company, and she rented a small one-story apartment on Roosevelt Road in Taipei City to live alone, and she didn’t marry until I graduated from college.
Since I had just entered graduate school at a university in Taipei, my family asked me to move in with my sister in order to save money and to be close to the school, and because the apartment was not far from the school, I had a good location.
People say “elder brother as father, elder sister as mother”, since I was small, my sister has been extremely pampering things, lack of money on the body is not good to look for parents, as long as the sister will be looking for money to hand, the most troublesome clothing line of adolescence, my sister will also carefully help me take care of the proper, even the love of the various difficulties, my sister knows, but also with the experience of the past, to be answered one by one. I was able to get the answers to all the questions and problems of love.
While she was working away from home, she never forgot about my younger brother. Every Sunday she would come home to talk to my parents, watch a movie or go to a restaurant with me, and ask me about my studies and relationship status.
I love my sister’s savvy look, her omnipotence, and the exuberance that flows from her svelte frame.
She always wore well-fitting suits and sleek high heels, walking down the street with me by her arm, laughing like a silver bell and counting all the ways of life in the workplace, who used her connections to get promoted to manager, who made a pass at her, and who always spoke in a big yellow accent.
Even though those things are far away from me, I always listen with interest.
I haven’t had a girlfriend since my first relationship in high school ended. To the general public, college should be a time for male-female relationships to flourish, but I have turned in a blank answer sheet, not even a woman to hold hands with on the street, and successfully entering graduate school is considered a “loss of the east, but gained” additional gains.
It’s not that I’m a bad-looking woman or a poor chaser, it’s just that I don’t want to, I can’t find a better woman than my sister, I can’t help comparing the women around me with my sister, comparing their sharpness of speech? I can’t help but compare the women around me with my sister, compare their sharpness of speech, their special taste in colors, clothes or even utensils and pictures, and also compare the warmth they bring to me when they are all smiles.
The first relationship ended the same way, just because I was criticized a few times by her for wearing a goose-yellow turtleneck sweater my sister bought me, “So girly! Like a girl!” She said that, and I never asked her out again.
Criticizing me is fine, but criticizing my sister is not, especially because of what she has done for me, and I have always thought that it would be better to go out on the street with my sister rather than with her.
I didn’t realize I was in love with my sister until after I studied in college and really learned about love.
Falling in love with one’s sister is not allowed in the world, quite a taboo love. So I can only hold back the love in my heart, only a few times a week in the phone contact, through the South and North of the world gossip a little comfort to borrow the feelings of admiration.
And I can not let my sister to pry into my heart, but also to avoid mentioning their own love life, even if my sister will sometimes care to ask a few words, I always muddle through, or make up a woman out of thin air, so as to cope with my sister’s cross-examination.
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Moving to Taipei to live with my sister made me jump for half a month. Although I was about to face a heavy workload in graduate school, the thought of being with my sister day and night and sharing her life was a joy that overwhelmed everything.
When I entered the apartment on the first day, my sister had already decorated my room with a warm coverlet, a large half-walled bookcase, a computer, a log desk, and brightly colored faux oil paintings on the walls, which was a lot of work, and even a few woolen coats in the closet.
My sister said, “It’s cold in Taipei, so I’ll buy it all for you first.”
I saw my sister standing with her boyfriend and felt a little jealous.
My sister’s boyfriend, Ajie, said, “Xiao Xin has never been so kind to me, knowing that you are moving here, I have become a hard laborer, a week ago, it was hard to move these wooden furniture in, and these days, she also wants me to go with her to buy coats, God knows how hard it is to buy winter coats in the fall, and I ran to a number of places!”
“And she never even gave me a tie.” He grumbled.
The weather is just a little cooler, buy winter clothes really early, think of my sister’s love for me, my jealousy immediately dissipated.
I took care of my luggage and accompanied Kit and my sister to dine out. Since we hadn’t met for a long time, my sister and I had a lot to talk about, she asked me about the exam results and the new school, and I also asked my sister about her acquaintance with Kit and whether she was happy with her job, and my sister held my arm along the way, making it seem as if we were a couple.
After dinner Ajay drove us back and left, I went into my room and continued my unfinished business, arranging the clothes and books in my luggage and positioning them one by one.
Just in the small drawer of the closet, I found that my sister had carefully bought several pairs of even underwear and socks, all neatly folded together.
As I examined them one by one, they were all the snug-fitting boxers I was used to wearing, with not much fabric but a tight fit that covered my manhood, and the colors were mostly in the neutral palette I favored, which my sister had long ago shaped into my own personal and unique likes and dislikes.
A wave of warmth passed through me, laced with a strong component of love.
Sister! My beloved sister, you have not neglected even the most intimate parts of a man’s life, just as my heart for you never spares your every move.
I shouted to my sister, who lived in the next room, “Thank you, sister!” Sister did not respond, I do not know whether they did not hear, or do not know what I thanked her.
I sweated the day away, tidied up my room, and then went into the bathroom to rinse off the stench of my sweaty body. I chose a new black tank top and gray panties that my sister had purchased for me to change into, and throughout the night I seemed to feel the warmth of my sister’s body around me.
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For the first few days, my sister commuted to work as usual, while I took advantage of the gap before the start of the school year to look around for some of my classmates who were studying or developing their careers in Taipei, and to get in touch with them.
Every day back home, my sister has prepared a table of rich meals waiting for me, she in high school has learned to cook a handful of good food, in nowadays women are generally negligent of household chores, sister’s handiwork is rare.
Before leaving for work, my sister would ask me if I was coming home, if not, she would just go out for a quick snack, while I loved the two of us world with my sister and would mostly force myself to be home by six o’clock.
“Whoever marries my sister must have been blessed in a previous life, she can make money and cooks well, there’s no place to find this kind of woman.” When I ate the dishes cooked by my sister, I would praise her a few times.
“Yeah? When I get married, there’ll be no one to cook it for you!”
“Yes! If I could find a second sister… no! A woman with the likeness and virtues of a sister, I would marry her.”
“Is Sister really that good?”
“There is! It’s hard to describe my sister’s good pen and ink, and even more so with words!”
“Then Sister will cook for you for the rest of your life, and after we get married, we’ll live together… oh… no! We’ll live next door to each other, and whenever you’re hungry, you can bring your family over to eat your sister’s cooking, okay?”
“Good! I’m afraid that I won’t be able to find a woman as good as my sister to marry, and will be a bachelor for the rest of my life, then I’ll be deadbeat and rely on my sister’s house!”
In fact, what I’d like to say in my heart is that instead of living next door to the two, we could just live together, and I could eat good food and see the woman I love, day after day, year after year, and can I say that?
“What do you think of Kit?” I asked my sister.
“Plain and simple, and no special feeling, a girl is single outside, if there is no man to help take care of it, to help fix the car when it breaks down, to help carry the appliances when you buy them, to change the light bulbs, to fix the plumbing, it can’t be done, so my sister had to hand one over as well.”
“I see that Kit loves you very much! He does everything you say.”
“Well! You know again, he’s really nice, but I lack a feeling for him, a passion for love, I can go a whole week without thinking about him until he shows up in front of my office, is that a relationship? I know it’s not, so I have no intention of marrying him.”
“But Sister is almost thirty, so sooner or later she still has to marry?”
My sister was silent for a while, and only after a long time did she ask quietly, “Are you in such a hurry to marry my sister off? Can’t you change a light bulb or fix a pipe for your sister, do you have to get someone else to do it?”
“It’s okay… just…” my heart was pounding, and there were so many things in my mind that I couldn’t say.
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One day I came home late, and as soon as I walked in the door, I saw my sister crouching in the bathroom with her hair pulled back, scrubbing clothes.
Her pink neck was white and flawless, oozing with fine sweat stains, and I sneaked a kiss on it from behind, causing her to jump in shock.
Sister pouted: “Why are you sneaking around like a thief, didn’t you say you’d be back at ten o’clock?”
“I’m afraid that my sister is alone in the house is dangerous, the wine also did not drink I first skipped!” This day is a college reunion, I told my sister about ten o’clock or so before closing, I did not expect the meal is over, the guys yell to go to the hotel, I’m not interested, driving back to the residence.
“How do you wash it by hand? Isn’t there a washing machine?”
“Some cotton garments are less likely to get out of shape if you wash them by hand, and they don’t wash well in the washing machine, so it’s weird to wear them!” My sister replied back to me, her small hands still rubbing.
I saw that the soaking wet clothes included a few of my shirts, pants, and even my yellow stained panties, which were mixed and tangled with my sister’s tiny lace-rimmed panties.
I asked, “Sister! Aren’t my clothes in the bucket in my room? I’m going to wash them myself.”
“Sister helped you organize your room and saw the dirty clothes and washed them all together, I don’t know what day I’ll have to wait for you to wash them, you’re so lazy!”
“But… but that’s a man’s underwear…” I blushed as I saw that the underwear my sister was rubbing with her small hands was also mine, and that there were yellowish stains on the inseam of the pants, which were bodily fluids secreted by my own sex organs.
“Why? Are you afraid that I’ll touch your panties? I don’t mind being dirty…” My sister’s face flushed red, but she didn’t stop.
“I’m… I’m sorry! Otherwise, I’ll help too.” I took a bench and sat down next to my sister, grabbing one of her small panties and rubbing it like she did.
That is a pink and white silk panties, the back is semi-transparent, pants gear part of the skeleton of many rose flowers, shining pink luster, the texture is quite detailed, I spread out the inside of the scrubbing light stains, think this is my sister’s private parts left traces of the panties do not feel swollen a few points.
Her sister blushed and laughed shyly, “No, please! It’s dirty…”
“It’s not like I mind getting dirty! On the contrary, I love washing it to death!” I used my sister’s words back at her, she scolded her for being obnoxious and didn’t know what to do, and the two of us siblings just red-facedly washed all the laundry.
All I could see during the process was her shy face so brightly colored that I almost forgot she was my sister. I wanted to take her into my arms, to press my skin against hers, to touch her body with my hot cock, my erect penis showing my carnal desire for her, but I wondered if she was as hot as I was in her tight shorts.
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Since I had to spend half of my second year of graduate school on writing my dissertation, my first year of graduate school was much heavier than my university days, and I was only just familiarizing myself with the environment and facilities of my new school, and soon enough, the exams and presentations that followed were already making me very busy.
Towards the end of the year, I had to submit a report on consumer behavior in the market, which contained the actual data of the market survey, and I roughly estimated that at least one hundred valid questionnaires must be obtained in order to be sufficient. Taking advantage of the gap, I drew up the questionnaire content, and planned to spare one day of my vacation to conduct it randomly on the streets of Taipei.
In order to ease the burden of the day, I took out five of them to trouble my sister to bring them to the company to get help from my colleagues, and she asked for the time of handing in the papers and agreed to do it very quickly.
Since it will not be due in class until next Thursday, I figure that as long as I get the results on Sunday, and with four days of analyzing, organizing and typing, it will not be difficult to complete it by then.
If my sister can help to share half of the work, maybe it won’t take half a day to finish the questionnaire that day, and we’ll still have extra time to watch a movie or go trekking or something, my sister loves me, she’ll definitely agree.
I was still busy with my schoolwork, and in order to return home early and spend more time with my sister, I made good use of every minute and second at school, so that I could return home and spend time with my sister easily and without any burdens.
I remember that it was a Thursday night, I was busy until after eight o’clock when I left the research laboratory. The sky was drizzling and the climate was a bit wet and cold, so I rode my motorcycle along Roosevelt Road without a raincoat for the sake of convenience. I was riding along Roosevelt Road without a raincoat for the sake of convenience. A few raindrops formed a halo in front of my glasses, and my vision was poor, so I did not dare to ride fast, but only dared to follow the motorcycle lane.
The temperature is not low, but the humidity brings coldness, especially the night wind adds a little chill, I will neck into the turtleneck sweater, thinking of my sister at home, I can not help but surge a little warmth.
My sister must have eaten out before she came home, right? She must have showered, then changed into a silky two-piece robe and gathered up her bare feet to watch TV, and she must have roamed about, noting the time as she sipped her fruit tea, perhaps with a strong musky scent wafting from her half-damp hair.
I laughed as I rode, because I remembered the scene of washing her panties that day. My sister’s panties were so smooth and lovely, if they were on her, they would be so charming that people would not be able to take their eyes off of them, and the shyness that she had at that time, was it just a case of sibling embarrassment? In my hand, I was holding a fabric that was tightly fitted to her private parts 24 hours a day, didn’t she feel that it carried ambiguous hints of male and female sexuality?
The red light was on! I stopped at the intersection in the downtown area of the Commons, where there was a lot of people and cars at eight o’clock out, and cars were parked on the road and people were hiding under the riding floors.
Colorful umbrellas formed a sea of flowers, almost drowning out the crowd of people, I moved forward with the tide of traffic after the green light, vaguely, I seemed to see my sister in the crowd.
I cut close to the curb to look down into the damp ride… was the woman with the dark hair, blue woolen jacket, and pitch black tight pants my sister? Yes! It was Sis! That rounded, firm, narrow ass must be Sis, what is she doing on the street on such a cold, wet night?
Parking the car on the side of the road, I looked at my sister from afar. Holding a stack of white paper, she accosted passers-by one by one, most of them shook their hands and ignored her, a few stopped, exchanged a few words and then left, and she still did not stop asking questions one by one.
I walked forward a few steps, saw my sister’s hair wet, forehead bangs into a clockwork, and light blue sweater in several places haloed into the sea blue, suddenly, my nose sour up, I shouted at my sister: “sister!”
When my sister heard that, she waved to me and still talked to the passerby in front of her, and I went up to her and asked her, “Sister! What are you doing?” She gave an apologetic look to the passers-by in front of her, and returned to me: “I didn’t see it!
Help you do the questionnaire ah!” The white paper in my hand typed with lines of Song font, is not exactly the questionnaire I designed!
“You… you… if you don’t stay at home on such a cold night, how can you go out on the road and hand out questionnaires, how can I bear it…” I was heartbroken and angry, I snatched the questionnaire out of her hand, and pulled her by the hand in order to leave.
“I wanted to say that I have the evening free, so why don’t I help you finish…” she mumbled as she let me pull her hard. I didn’t wait for her to finish and interrupted her loudly: “You don’t know how much this hurts me, from now on, I’ll take care of my own affairs without you!”
“Are you angry? I wanted to say that if we finish this first, you can go out with me on Saturday and Sunday!” Like a child who had made a mistake, my sister followed me obediently.
I couldn’t help but tear up when I heard my sister say that, Sister! Why are you so kind to me? Why do you let me drown in your tenderness? Aren’t you afraid I’ll get addicted and never return? Or do you love me as I love you? I want to hiss and scream and just hold my sister close and tell her not to spoil me by doting on me, that would make me misunderstand!
I walked for a long time with my thoughts running wild, and my sister suddenly asked me, “Brother! You walk blindly, where are you going?” I looked around and couldn’t help but be dumbfounded, “Yeah! Where am I going?” My sister snorted.
With a smile, he took my hand and walked back, “Silly! The car is this way!”
Although the rain is getting heavier and heavier, but with my sister beside me, I do not feel cold at all. After a few steps, my sister snuggled into my arms and said softly, “Don’t be angry!” I beeped, back to her: “Who is angry?”
Isn’t that so? If you know my heart you know I’m not angry, I’m heartbroken!
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My sister and I have maintained a love affair, although I suspect that my sister is also mixed with male and female feelings for me, but I can not say anything to test, because no matter what the answer is, it is the same result that I can not bear.
I love my sister, my sister also loves me, the two people love should be the blessing of the good fortune, but the object of the change into a sister and brother will become the world can not tolerate the sinful fate. And once I misunderstood my sister’s feelings and mistook affection for love, what I got in return was incomparable sadness.
Instead of being sad or carrying the charge of incest, just go with the flow.
Until one day I accompanied my professor and seniors for a drink to celebrate his 60th birthday, I drank so much that night that I almost found it difficult to even walk, and when my sister called me on my cell phone, I could only vaguely ask her to come over and pick me up because I just couldn’t even ride my bike anymore.
As soon as my sister arrived I was paralyzed in the back seat of the car, and as the car lurched I threw up all over the car and my body. Vaguely I heard my sister complaining frequently, asking me to drink less, saying that it made her heart sad.
I woke up again I was back in my room, I felt like I was sleeping in a warm cloud with a hot stream of air traveling over me, I opened my eyes and saw my sister.
My sister was holding me in her arms was looking down and wiping my body with a hot towel, she was so focused that she didn’t realize that I was awake, and by the touch coming from my skin I knew that I was naked, my entire naked torso all next to my sister’s arms.
I didn’t dare to open my eyes for fear that she would be embarrassed if she knew I was awake, only to feel the hot towel sliding over my armpits, over my belly, even my penis and scrotum, and finally she gently parted my legs and carefully wiped my groin.
Through my sister’s silk pajamas, I could feel my sister’s rapid breathing, her delicate body rolling like fire, her heart was dry, her lust was racing, stroking the naked body of a mature man, how could my sister’s body and mind jump out of the way?
Thinking of myself without a piece of clothing exposed in front of my sister’s eyes, and she is carefully and gently for me to wipe the filth on the body, the heart flies, my prick even leisurely stand up, I feel embarrassed, even more do not dare to open their eyes.
Sister probably also realized, a delicate body shook, to see that I did not open my eyes, she softly called a few words: “Ah sound! Ah Sheng! Are you awake?” Violent heartbeat beat my arms.
I didn’t open my eyes, my sister, after a long period of time, suddenly gently held my penis and said quietly: “Drunk and still so bad, scared me to death! If you wake up, I really do not know how to live with myself?” That warm little hand firmly hold penis, slippery and greasy, the more comfortable I feel penis more straight, really want to jump up and hold sister into the arms, no longer care what incest? What kind of love?
Sister held for a long time, gasping only gradually calmed down, and suddenly she sighed: “Alas! Can I tell you that I love you? Oh, my God! You’re my brother, my own brother… I… what should I do?”
I feel the eye frame hot, heart warm, I finally know my sister is love me, not the love of sister and brother, is the love of men and women, a sister can be for the younger brother to wipe every inch of the skin, even the private parts, the anus do not think that early beyond the siblings should be affection, is a sincere and profound love.
With elation I fell asleep again. With all the alcohol I had consumed, pretending to be asleep could easily turn into real sleep, except that it was better to be asleep, and there were some things I had to think about without letting embarrassment, awkwardness, or mania stop me from loving my sister.
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Now that I know how my sister feels about me, how do I let her know my heart?
The next few days I fell into the biggest dilemma in my life, I would like to instantly confide in my sister, but I’m afraid that the sudden confession of love will blow a pool of spring water, so that my sister will run away in a hurry, all things need to be prepared, but the bottom line of the preparation and where is it? All things need to be prepared, but where is the bottom line of preparation? Is it just a matter of agonizing day after day?
The worst part is that every day when I face my beloved, I know that she loves me and I love her, but I can’t do anything further, and the deliberately suppressed desire is like a time bomb in my body, which will explode, disintegrate, and fall apart someday.
My form is human, my heart slowly morphing into a beast.
Sister became prone to blushing! An ambiguous atmosphere formed between the two. She still cooked a four-course meal every day, but I came home on time. After dinner, as usual, my sister took a bath first and then nestled in the sofa to watch TV, while I spent less time reading and became more interested in watching my sister.
The beast that was taking shape in my heart gradually drove me to commit shameful acts.
I started showering right after my sister and then moving around in front of her in my narrow boxers and sweatshirt, sometimes sitting across from her and staring at her, sometimes right next to her so that my thighs were pressed against her pink legs.
I am tempting my sister, and my sister is not tempting me, before she dresses like this I do not dare to think about it more, it is considered a lightweight, now I know that she is also deeply in love with me, and I think of her as a young woman, then her seductive look of a half exposed spring shirt and a slightly smelling jade body is definitely seducing me.
The devouring beast hides in our hearts, forcing us to walk on both ends of the steel rope, and if we are not careful, we will be burned to the ground!
With a woman’s eyes to see sister, she is beautiful! The beauty of people’s blood, the beauty of people’s heart beating wildly, I sat in front of my sister can see her thin straps within the pajamas crystal shoulders and round breasts, although only half, but pink soul-stirring, the soft fabric a little careless, honey dates like nipples are out of the blue.
Sister preferred to shrink the legs holding the knees to watch TV, she must be intentional, this position of knee-length skirt how to pull can not cover the garden full of color, although wearing panties, but that close to the pantyhose with cloth streamlined, wrapped around the narrow pussy more obscene.
My sister wouldn’t be unaware of my reaction, every time I saw the nice grooves outlined by those narrow mounds of flesh, my panties would bulge full, like a swollen mass of meat sausage plummeting out of my crotch, causing people to drool, and she would actually be able to talk to me, in a slow, methodical manner, with a full blush on her face.
I always admit defeat and hide back in my room, beating the meat sausage back into shape with both hands.
Finally once I couldn’t hold back, the blazing fire of lust burned out my reason, the hideous beast tore through my soul, I turned around and hugged my sister, my chest pressed against her soft breasts, my cock resting against the middle of the deep gully.
I desperately gasped for breath, my sister’s fireball-like body kept bouncing, she stopped in my arms for a moment, and gently asked me: “Brother! What’s wrong?” I wasn’t ready and dropped a line: “Sister smells good! So beautiful!”
Just hurry and escape to your room!
I know my sister is waiting for me to show my cards! If I treat her as a woman, it is only right that a man should take the initiative and stop letting his sister dictate everything, and as for the uncertain future of the two of them and the world’s accusations and guilt for incest, it is more important for me to take the blame, whereas if I run away from it, she will still be my sister.
I won’t run away from a man’s burden, I love my sister dearly and want more than anything to give her gentle, strong arms, I’m just not ready for that yet.
In the following days, I avoided my sister, sometimes working late into the night in the research lab, sometimes shushing her for a few moments and then hurriedly ducking back to my room.
My sister knew my inner conflict, because her inner struggle was in no way inferior to mine, but she still spoke to me with concern when she saw me, her tone was as usual, but the look of concern was hidden, and I knew that she regarded this problem as a test of our love, and used it as a preventive injection for the sufferings that would come later on.
Love from a young age to start brewing, but blossomed in adulthood, it’s true or false without inquiry, overflowing in the heart of my sister and I. However, it’s true or false, but can only be judged by the shallow but the binary division to be, the real branches and leaves flourish, a lifetime, the false is dreaming of like sorghum, often buried in the heart of the.
For both of us, it’s kind of a no-fail choice. The fire pit is deeper, so jump or not, it’s up to me!
I know that the biggest problem in front of me is the conflict and deconstruction of family relations caused by sibling love, that involves the obstruction of elders, the lashing of social opinion and the genetic abnormality of the offspring, and that inbreeding is prone to give birth to imbeciles is a fact that has been confirmed by both examples and medical theories, and that all people will blame and spit at me for this reason.
But I love my sister! Without my sister, I may never want to get married. How can I get an heir? What’s more, with my sister I could adopt orphans and raise and nurture them with complete love, and I wouldn’t dream of having a prosperous family in the future!
As for the way our parents and society look at us, there is only one way out, and that is to run away! Run away to a poor country, to a foreign country, and who will know we’re siblings?
But can I? Will my sister be willing? How would my parents feel if they lost both their children?
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One weekend morning in December, while my sister was at work and I was at home catching up on a report, the doorbell rang and I pushed the door open to see that it was Kit, so I invited him to sit in the living room.
“Sister isn’t in! It’s chapel today and she has to work.” I brewed a cup of coffee for Kit.
“No! I’m coming for you!”
“Looking for me? What can I do for you?” I wondered.
“Xin has rarely dated me since you moved here! Ask her if she has a new boyfriend and she won’t even tell me, can you tell me?” Ajay lit a cigarette, his eyes a little forlorn.
“No, I don’t think so! She stays home on holidays, she shouldn’t have time for a new boyfriend!”
“But I see that she’s been glowing lately and smiling a lot more, so I have to wonder if there’s something happy going on in your family lately. That’s why she’s so happy.”
“No! Well… it’s probably because I came over to keep her company and tell her jokes that she’s gotten prettier and prettier!”
“Well! That’s right! Then I misunderstood her, in fact, Xiao Xin she is really a gentle and virtuous girl, not only good-looking, good mind, the most rare is that she has a sense of family, who wants to marry her is really not in vain, but she is to me if the other way around, I love to ignore, I really do not know how to do what she would like.”
Ajay sighed.
“That much I understand! Even I, as a brother, can’t feel her heart.” Yes! I can’t figure out why my sister loves me as her brother.
“I’ve never seen an older sister love her younger brother so much, and sometimes I think you’re her man, and I’m her sidekick.” Seeing that I was silent, he then added: “You know what? I’ve known her for more than half a year, and most of our conversations were about you, from when she took you to the stream to hunt for oysters when you were little and you’d follow her with a wash basin, to the time you stole a neighbor’s mango for her and got beaten up by your father, to the time you got into an accident with a motorcycle, and you protected her with your body, and got bruises, and she didn’t get hurt at all… She talked about so many things, and now I probably know more about your childhood than you do! I probably know more about your childhood than you do.”
I listened to the heart of the sweet, but also unable to speak, he looked at me and sighed: “Alas! Sometimes really think she is for you to live, she must shop in the men’s department, not to buy for me, is to buy for you, it’s not easy for her to take clothes in my body, but it is to estimate your size, to the fun place, she will carefully note down the location, the details of the next time to bring you a piece of it, once she insisted that I stand in line to help her to buy tickets to the Ricky Martin concert, I lined up for a morning, thought she wanted me to go with her, not realizing that the ticket was for you, I was angry with her, she said that I was small-minded, but I did not think that I would not be able to buy tickets. I didn’t realize that the tickets were for you. When I got angry with her, she told me that I was being petty, that I was angry with my own brother, and I… I didn’t know what to do!”
Frowning, he spat out a cigarette: “I sometimes envy you, have all the love of Xiaoxin, if I were you, even if I let me take the charge of incest, but also with all the life to love her, after all, she is how rare a woman ah!” Seeing my face red and white uncertainty, he hastened to explain: “I just casually said, how can I be you, and how can you love your own sister.”
I thought he had guessed the unusual feelings between my sister and me, and jumped inwardly, but fortunately he was just making up his own mind, and I couldn’t help but smile and say, “It’s okay! Maybe you’re not trying hard enough, as long as you put in more effort, I believe that the iron will also be moved!”
“Yes heh! It’s better this way, it’s just that I always feel that you are my greatest enemy, and with you in the world, it’s impossible for Xin to love me, do I have to kill you… hahaha… kill you… hahahahaha…” Seeing that I didn’t laugh, he had to laugh in self-deprecation.
I didn’t know what to say to that, so I just smiled bitterly at him.
The atmosphere suddenly became a bit strange, he realized that he had misspoken, and hurriedly got up to apologize: “I’m sorry! I said the wrong thing! Because I am really too jealous of you, like your sister so much love you, you must be good to her, she is not young, how much youth can be delayed.” Said a meaningful look at me and left.
“She is not young; how much more youth can she delay?” These thirteen words were like throwing a huge stone in the lake of my heart, setting off waves in the sky that lingered and lingered for a long time. I knew that he meant that I should not dominate my sister’s love for too long, leaving room for other men to pursue her, but I remembered that my sister was approaching her thirtieth birthday, and how much time she still had left to waste with me.
She can live for me, why can’t I live for him, and her waiting no doubt shows that she has long ago disregarded everything. Even greater storms and waves! With my sister by my side, I have no regrets in this life.
This was the moment I finally made up my mind.
（９）
It was getting close to Christmas and I decided to spill my guts to my sister on Christmas Eve, special things have to be done on special days, that will make the memories even more memorable.
“Sister! Got a date for Christmas Eve?” I asked my sister as I sat on the couch with her watching TV one night, and I deliberately sat close to her.
“Jay asked me out for dinner and dancing, do you want to come along?”
“Wouldn’t that be one more light bulb, a weird eyesore!” The light bulb I was referring to was Ajay.
“No! You’re the fun one. Don’t you ever go out with girls?”
“Yes! I was thinking of asking…” I looked at my sister wistfully.
My sister said with slight disappointment, “Oh… I don’t know if I’ll go out with Jie, but maybe I’ll stay home and watch TV.”
I grabbed my sister’s hand and said verbatim, “Sis! The person I want to ask is you, I wonder if you can leave the time for me.”
Sister was stunned for a moment, then said with a delicate smile: “Ask me out? You’ve grown so big and still stick so tightly to your sister, no wonder you can’t get a girlfriend.”
I looked straight into my sister’s dark eyes and said with a straight face, “Sister! I’ve been thinking about it for a long time, if there is a woman worth my effort to arrange a program for her, it is sister, other girls, I might as well stay home and watch TV.” After a pause, I sincerely asked: “Can you let me accompany you, just me and you!”
For a while my sister could not speak, her face blossomed with joyful smiles, but the bottom of her eyes showed a hesitant look, I know that she is at war in her heart, swinging on the edge of morality and love, I didn’t rush her, but only held her tightly.
Noisy TV sets couldn’t suppress our violent heartbeats back then.
“You say, how should I politely refuse Ajie is better.” After a long time, my sister finally spoke, and although she didn’t say it explicitly, the implication of her words couldn’t be clearer.
I didn’t answer because I knew that my sister had always handled this sort of thing well.
（１０）
Although I used to go out with my sister all the time, I didn’t know what my sister had in mind at that time, and only thought that she loved me very much, so I hid my love for her, and limited myself to behaviors within the norms of sister-brother etiquette. On this date with my sister, I hope that the two of us can have the intimacy of lovers, the romance of lovers, and most importantly, I want this night to be a new milestone in the sibling relationship.
I booked the Christmas dinner at the hotel, conceptualized the route for the night tour, and I even reserved ninety-nine roses, specifying that they must be delivered to the hotel on Christmas Eve.
It was hard to look forward to the arrival of Christmas Day, and in the night I first took a shower, put on neat clothes, and drove my sister’s car out to wash it, and when I came back, my sister was already dressed up, and when she came out of her room, the whole living room was almost brightened up.
My sister put a lot of effort into dressing up, wearing a black turtleneck, a silver jacket, a kilt, white boots, and a silver face, making her look playful, cute, and full of Christmas spirit.
“Not cold?” I asked my sister with a smile as I saw that both of her pink legs were exposed.
“Will you let me get cold?” My sister fished out her purse, took my hand and headed out the door.
It’s not too cold on a warm day, and we’ve even seen fashionable girls on the street wearing belly-baring dresses that don’t smell like midwinter at all.
The Christmas dinner was quite delicious, my sister ate more than usual, and there was a piano and violin player playing a familiar love song, which I usually find pleasing to the ear, but on this night, no matter what the song was, it seemed extra romantic to my ears.
As the waiter held a large bouquet of roses and handed them to her sister, her face beamed with happiness.
“Sister! Happy Christmas!” I said.
“Did you send me that?” Sister asked with a smile.
“If not me who else?”
“Why did you give your sister flowers for Christmas? Isn’t it a waste?”
I put the roses away on a chair and solemnly said to her, “Not at all! I’m not sending it to my sister, I’m sending it to Xiaoxin, to my favorite Xiaoxin.”
“Xin?” My sister’s eyes were a bit blank.
“Yes! It’s you, my little Xin, today I must tell you that I -love- you!” At this moment in time, I finally revealed the long-hidden feelings in my heart.
My heart was pounding so hard that time almost stopped spinning, and I knew what would follow immediately after the confession. It was worldly censure, moral scourging, and an even longer road to love. But I chose to move forward, righteously, and when the words were spoken, there was no turning back.
A look of fear appeared in my sister’s eyes: “No, no, no, no, no… I know that you love my sister, and of course my sister loves you, my brother…” I knew that she was trying to escape, and interrupting her, I blurted out: “I don’t love my sister, but I love you as a woman, just as a man loves a woman, and I want to own you! I want to own you, love you, take care of you!”
“Oh! No! It won’t do! I am a sister, and can only ever be your sister; you must forget what you have said, and my sister will pretend she has not heard it.” Sister’s face abruptly paled.
“I don’t want! Since I was a child I have adored my sister, with my sister, other women simply have no way to enter the eyes, if I say that every man has a position in his heart called the best companion, then my sister is my best companion, I love to see you laugh, see you meditate, see you focus on the incomparable dainty look, when I was studying in the university you were separated from me, I suffered for four years, if I don’t tell you today, I will definitely suffer for the rest of my life! “
“But how can you love me? How can I dare accept you? The blood relationship is indelible evidence that will oppress us for a lifetime, forcing us to breathe, and the accusations of the onlookers make us even more impermissible.” Sister said softly.
“I don’t care about any of this! All I know is that if I miss today, I won’t get another chance. Jesus! You’re almost thirty, and I’m close to twenty-four, can I stand by and watch the woman I love marry someone else without doing anything to save her? It would be nice if you found a man you loved, but I know you haven’t, Xin! Can you deny that you love me?” I clasped my sister’s small, trembling hand and looked deeply at her.
There were crystallized tears in my sister’s eyes as she lowered her head and mumbled, “So… you woke up that night?”
“Yes! I was so happy to know my sister’s heart, and from that day on, I wanted to find a chance to confess my love every day, but I was just as scared and hesitant, afraid that my sister wouldn’t have the courage to declare war on propriety with me, and also worried about how to persevere through the uncertain future. Worst of all, every day when you watched TV with me in your pajamas, I had the urge to hug you tightly, I longed for your body, I longed to be one with you, I was madly in love with you!”
“I don’t know… I didn’t mean to…”
“Do you love me?” I asked again, interrupting her.
As her pale face gradually returned to a blush, she nodded and said, “Love! But… but…”
“There’s no more buts! As long as you love me and I love you, there will be no difficulty in this world that can’t be broken through, and I’m not afraid that there will be no room for us; believe me, no matter how hard the days ahead may be, I will definitely give you endless happiness.” Holding out my hand, I waited for my sister to give me her whole life.
Sister stared at my eyes, eyes wandering through spring, summer, autumn and winter, and finally the sun drove away the cold winter, courage to overcome the Judaism, she put her small hand into my palm, said quietly: “I do not know if this is right? Is it wrong? But isn’t this what I’ve wanted for so long? To give my life to the person I love the most, and live with him for the rest of my life.” Later, the smile returned to her face, and she added with a smile, “You’re so bad! You pretended to be asleep when you woke up that day, and I was worried for days that you would bring it up, and then I would… I would be so ashamed!” She was so angry, so petulant that she no longer looked like a sister.
“Why are you so shy? You’ll have to touch it a thousand times in the future…” Before I could finish my sentence, my sister had already covered my mouth and said shyly, “Don’t say that… I’m not used to it yet!” I couldn’t say anything more as I saw the difficult shyness on my sister’s face, so I kept my head down and continued eating.
Sister-brother love suddenly becomes love between men and women, this change seems too big, so we can not help but feel raw and anxious, although there is no denying that there has been love in each other’s hearts, but the real language, on the surface, the impact of the heart is really non-trivial.
The next thing I knew, my sister and I were talking less, and the two of us were blushing at every turn.
（１１）
After the meal, my sister meekly allowed me to hold her hand into the car, and we drove along the Tanjin Highway to Jinshan, and then along the Yangjin Highway back to Yangmingshan. On the long road, we gradually adapted to our new relationship with each other, and resumed talking and laughing, which, after all, was what we had long been looking forward to in our hearts.
It was after two in the morning when we descended from Yangmingshan, which was about the time I had predicted, and without asking my sister, I pulled into the motel and swept her into the room.
I said, “I’m tired! Sleep first, tomorrow you can go up to the mountain to wash hot springs.”
Probably knowing what was coming next, my sister hung her head down, cheeks red, found a towel and went into the bathroom to take a shower while I sat on the end of the bed smoking a cigarette, my heart pounding.
That period of waiting time is full of expectation and embarrassment, the two fell into silence again, there is an ambiguous atmosphere floating, it is not easy for the two showered back to bed, I was wearing panties embracing my sister, to break the silence and asked her: “Xiao Xin! You bought my panties, but you also washed them, you know? As long as I lie quietly, always feel your hands on me.”
“Eh!” My sister answered with her head down.
“And tonight I could literally feel you in me, in flesh and blood, and it couldn’t be more real.”
Close to her ear, I whispered: “Xiao Xin! Can I? I want you today!”
Her cheeks blushed and she said hesitantly, “I’m afraid… can we just cuddle and sleep together, like when we were little…”
I knew that she was trying to escape again, afraid of being caught in a forbidden quagmire, but I did not allow her to do so, and gently pulled off her towel, revealing a pair of white breasts in all their splendor.
I took a mouthful of my erect nipple, my sister shivered and goosebumps rose on her skin, I removed my panties and held my sister naked, my cock resting between her legs.
My sister’s petite body shivered, and I took the time to say in a warm voice, “Xin! Do not deceive yourself, let the heart to decide what we do.” Penis clamped in the center of the labia majora, there is a hot breath coming out.
“Kiss me first! Give me courage, give me love.” My sister said, wrapping her pink legs around my torso and her small hands around my chest.
I’ve wanted to kiss her for a long time, ever since I was eleven or twelve years old when I learned about men and women, I’ve been looking forward to kissing my sister every day, not just a peck on the cheek, but a long, hot, wet, mouth-to-mouth kiss. My sister’s nips were so small and perky that I always fantasized about what it would be like inside, and now I finally got my wish.
The taste is sweet, smooth and creamy, I kissed for a long time until my sister’s body is hot, weak, and my penis has been sharpened, ready to go. Separate the two lips, I told my sister: “Now let me take a good look at my love, I want to see every part of her body, as familiar as her own body.”
“Don’t! People will be embarrassed!” My sister said coyly. I gently pushed her away and carefully admired her wonderful body, while she was afraid of being bashful and fished out a pillow to cover her face.
Sister’s body is as soft as boneless, her whole body is uniformly milk-colored, without a trace of the sun’s ravages after, her breasts are small and erect, her waist is thin and taut, especially her pair of pink legs, long and straight, perfectly jointed and tenoned on her rounded buttocks, outlining a beautiful arc.
Her pubic hair was fine and thick, covering half of her pussy, and as I gently lifted my legs, a pair of full-fleshed mounds appeared in front of me, with brown labia barricading the bright red walls of flesh in the center, both of which were glistening with love juice.
“Don’t keep looking! This is so strange…” came her slurred voice from the bottom of the pillow.
“How can I remember what it looks like if I don’t look at it first?” Not only did I look, but I reached my mouth over and just ran it along the gradually bulging pussy lips, sucking on the lustful juices that were growing with each passing moment.
My sister’s body jumped again and begged for mercy, “Ah! Don’t do this… it’s dirty… come… come and hug me…”
I sucked for a moment, emotion because I realized that this is my sister’s private parts and extreme exuberance, I want to early into this dream of the wonderful hole, but also afraid of too early into the desecration of this sacred moment, after all, can make love with my sister I have been through how much difficulty. In the miserable green four years of college, how much time I think of my sister so that the fire of desire must be with the help of cold water to get rid of the fire of desire, how much time I was eager to sister can appear in front of the eyes and can not be as I wish, so I use the hard study to dispel the thoughts, through self-blame to repress the fire of desire, and today, what have become the past, my sister’s body in front of my eyes to me to carry out.
I left hot tears in my eyes as my tongue desperately searched my sister’s pussy for the youth that had died too early, youth that would never return, but my sister loved me, so what was the harm in losing it?
With my wanton sucking, my sister kept twisting her body, and a dull moan came out from the end of her nose. Originally, she would still evade me, gradually she gave up struggling and pushed up her waist to meet me, her wet and sticky love juices souped up her pussy lips and shone with a lustful light.
“Oh… good brother… you’ve made me so horny… so horny… I can’t believe how much I’ve missed you… how much I want you to fuck me… oh… brother… fuck me… fuck me… even if the sky may fall… I want you to fuck me…” Sis pushed the pillow away from me, and looked up at me with her beautiful, rippling eyes.
My penis was already tingling, and the fire in my belly was burning with desire. Grabbing my sister’s pink legs, I pushed my glans between her slimy labia, and in a flash, two large labia wrapped around my penis, and a wonderful suction spread through my nerves. I leaned back and let out a soft roar: “Even if there’s no tomorrow, I can’t stop fucking my sister… oh… my good sister… “The slippery pussy allowed my penis to enter halfway, and the sensation of pleasure soon filled my crotch.
“Ah… brother… come in a little more… to the deepest part of me… yes… push against me… let me know that you’re inside me… ah… it’s so comfortable… ah… my good husband… fuck me… fuck my sister… fuck your slutty wife!” My sister wrapped her legs tightly around me, allowing me to penetrate the deepest part of my vagina.
I pushed against the warm cushion of flesh of my cervix and gasped as I hugged my sister’s hot body, who slipped a tear and said shyly, “Now I’m not your sister anymore, I’m your wife, your slutty wife, and I’m never going to look back because I’ve waited too long for this moment!”
“Come on! Brother! Compensate me for the nine years you’ve neglected me! Make love once a week, at least 400 times in nine years, and you can’t miss me even once…” My sister pushed up her buttocks shyly, and her pussy began to rock as she took the rod in her mouth.
“Oh… why… why nine years… and not ten?” As the sweet sensation hit me, I held her firm ass at the waist and pushed my penis forward, asking her with a gasp in my mouth.
“Ah… good… good brother, don’t you know that… Sister started to fall in love with you… oh… in the car accident… nine years ago… ah… ah… ah… it was so comfortable… that time when you suffered multiple fractures… and I was fine… by the bedside… well… I knew that I couldn’t stay away from you for the rest of my life… ah… ah… ah… “My sister told me in a broken voice, holding back her pleasure.
That year the car accident I was fifteen years old, my sister was twenty years old, is studying in college, in the truck with the collision after we fell to the side of the road, I instinctively hugged my sister tightly, rolled a lot of circles, and finally a serious fracture of the arms and legs in the hospital for a month, perhaps the moment of crisis in order to reveal the heart of the true love, subconsciously, without hesitation, I do not know that the heart of the secret leaked out.
“Yes! I… I’ve secretly loved you for a long time… since high school… since I was a teenager… I’ve always wanted to hold you… to protect you… and even more so to fuck you… just like this, in and out of you… oh… sis… I want to do this… I want to make your most lascivious love juices flow all over my entire penis… oh…” I thrust rapidly, my penis embedding itself in the luscious red flesh of the inner walls of my vagina, in and out. The shaft of my penis was already covered with a layer of sticky water.
“Oh… ah… it’s so numb… it pushes against my sister… I dream of your body… ah… it’s your chicken… your cock… you’re using it so vigorously to make my sister… to make it hurt… to make it unbearable for my sister… that’s how it is… ah ooohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! ” My sister arched her body hysterically, dripping with sweat and panting, her small hands spreading her jade stocks wide open to meet my onslaught.
I clutched the beautiful ass I had longed for and pumped furiously, my thighs wet with lust, my scrotum pounding against my labia, and the air was filled with the lustful “pop, pop, pop” sounds of my bottom kissing. I was in a state of ecstasy, my lust was at its peak, and as I leaned in and bit my sister’s erect nipples, I pushed my cock as hard as I could to the very front of my pussy.
“Oooh… ah… brother’s cock is so big… ah… ah… ah… it’s so good… sister can’t take it anymore… ah… um… no more… ah… no more… sister can’t control it… omg… it’s going to fly… fly!” My sister’s beauty was babbling, her vagina was tightening, and a cold sweat was seeping out of her pinkish-white skin.
Sprinting, swelling, bursting, shooting… Finally, there was an endless stream of relief, a stream of endless streams, as if I had fallen into the clouds, or as if I had soared to the highest level of bliss, and a single stone instantly caused ripples to spread all over the lake, engulfing me in no time at all.
I embraced my sister in my arms, a hot torrent knocked on my penis, seeping out along the seam of the tightly joined lower body, my sister seemed to pass out, her hair was messy, her body was red, and her face was filled with a happy smile, and
After a long time, I whispered in my sister’s ear and asked, “Xiao Xin! Do you know where I like you the most?” Sister starry-eyed half-open, weakly shook his head, I said: “is now grabbing my things!”
“What is it?”
I shook it twice and laughed, “It’s your ass!”
“Don’t… don’t move! It’s sour!” My sister hurriedly stopped me by holding my buttocks.
“You know what? Since you went to college you always like to wear skirts, your ass is round and curvy, small and smart, it’s so fascinating, I don’t even dare to look at it, just looking at it makes me think, so I don’t even dare to walk behind you when I go out for fear of getting a nosebleed!”
Sister “snort” a laugh, pushed away from my body and turned around, the ass is slashing against me, just see her eyes like silk looking at me, said: “How? I want to seduce you, charm you, how?” Firm buttocks trembling, the fork of the paste water, white cum flowed all over the lower body.
How can I stand this temptation, hungry tiger pouncing on sheep generally I bullied, the whole night I did it with my sister four times.
（１２）
The next day pushed open the door of the room, I did not expect that Ajay was sitting on the edge of the flower table, his eyes covered with red silk, tired, should be a night without sleep.
When he saw us, he rushed up to him and said angrily, “You… how could you two do such a thing? That day I was just talking, but I didn’t realize… I didn’t realize…”
Sister just saw Ajay, her pink face abruptly turned white, she opened her mouth and lost her voice: “Why are you here?”
The little hand holding me trembled frequently.
“You canceled yesterday’s date and I was so upset, I asked you why and you wouldn’t tell me, the more I thought about it, the more I was upset, so I waited outside your house last night and followed you the whole night. I knew Sheng was next to you, but I couldn’t understand why you would abandon me for a younger brother. Boyfriends and younger brothers can co-exist at the same time! It wasn’t until you guys went into the motel that I realized it.” Ajay said despondently.
“Don’t you know the consequences of sister-brother adultery? That is an incestuous behavior that is forbidden by law and the world, and it will give birth to an idiot son!” Taking a heavy breath, he added: “Xiao Xin! Although you did this kind of thing, but I still love you as before, you don’t have to be stupid anymore, hurry up and pull back, as a moment of confusion, as long as you come back, I won’t mind anything!” Stretching out his hand, he said with great difficulty, “Think of it as a nightmare!”
I hold my sister’s hand tightly, feel her from excitement to calm, snuggled into my arms, she resolutely said: “Ajie! You know my love for my brother! That is love, not affection, I have been waiting for him since childhood, ready to be his woman, and now it is not easy for me to get what I want, and each other deeply in love, are you not willing to see me find the man I love, get the real happiness?”
“That won’t be happy!”
“No! As long as the two hearts belong to each other, that’s happiness! Ajay! It’s just a matter of time! Bless us! You’re in good condition, you can surely find a better woman.”
Ajay stood in a daze, his hands clenched, his face looked puzzled. After a long time, he let go of his fists and said quietly, “Fine! I give you my blessing, but… but where can I find a woman as good as you?” Before he finished speaking, he disappeared at the end of the tunnel.
“Yoho… Sister..! I love you so much!”
I picked up my sister and spun her around in the garden under the winter sun, my sister’s long hair flew apart into beads and pearls, and her kilt blossomed into a stream of clouds, and flowers, beads and pearls, and streams of clouds all swirled around in the bottom of my eyes, and even though I can’t find a woman as good as you are, you are right here by my side.
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