She is 82 years old, that year I 24, she was 20 years old, we met by chance, she is very beautiful, we from the initial acquaintance to gradually familiar with, she was born beautiful, very beautiful, long hair, the body is also very good, belong to the kind of warm and soft girl.
To be honest we met really by chance, mainly because she stepped on my foot on the bus. At that time, I had to go to the market to buy clothes in order to attend a classmate’s wedding, and coincidentally we were going to the same place to buy things, and she was going there for the same purpose. As a result, we went there together, and slowly, we became familiar and became friends.
Don’t get me wrong, she and I are very good regular friends of sorts.
Maybe it was because I treated her like my little sister and instead of trying desperately to please her like the other boys, I gained favor, so she and I had something to talk about instead. She’s a girl who grew up in a single-parent home, very independent and individualistic.
To be honest, I don’t like girlfriends younger than me, I’ve had a few girlfriends in the past, the smallest is only less than 1 year younger than me, she once asked me, why don’t you like me, I said, I like you ah, don’t like how to be friends. She laughed, you do not want to chase me, not gay, I hit her head, said I do not like minors, our relationship continues to develop, into a good friend without words. I was also wondering why I didn’t like her, she had a good body and was pretty, but I just wasn’t interested.
Is there something wrong with me? No, I have a reaction when I watch porn. A lot of boys chased after her, and I became her shield. She doesn’t like them, and she’s not sure what kind of boys she likes. Girls who grow up in single-parent families must have weird ideas.
We had a lot of fun and happiness together, and I took extra care of her, maybe because she was a single parent, and I guess there must be some mental shades of single parenting, so I took extra care of her.
I don’t have a girlfriend, my house is very messy, she often comes to help me clean up, when she is upset, she also likes to come to my place to surf the Internet, one day, she came to me, she cried, I asked him why, she said she had a fight with her mom.
I used to ask her very little about her family for fear of hurting her, mind you single parents are afraid to ask family questions, these topics are very sensitive, she told me about her family, she didn’t know who her dad was, her mom had her when she was 17 years old with her boyfriend at the time, when both her mom and her boyfriend were still kids, so you can imagine.
At that time that just reform and open up the era, this is a big thing, her mother then insisted on this child, and was forced to drop out of school, the boy was also disciplined, and then went to another city, never to be seen again, her mother could only give birth to the child herself, and then started to work at a young age, there is no formal job, at that time, her maternal grandparents also hated her mother, but after all, it is their own daughter, and finally help her set up a small stall to sell things.
It may also be ironic that the people who went to sea in the early years of their heads were instead all doing well, while those who were in factories at the time were instead all facing layoffs, and her mom should have been better off after years of struggling, but after all, she had to raise a child without much money, but her family was doing well, as her grandparents disowned her and refused to pay child support.
Later, when her mom was a little older than she is now, her grandparents gradually passed away, and her mom raised her on her own, knowing that her mom wasn’t very old at the time. I was touched and thought her mom was great.
I’ve forgotten what I asked her at that time, and I don’t remember why she fought with her mom at that time, but I do remember that she was very sad, and she felt that she shouldn’t have fought with her mom, and she felt sorry for her mom, and I persuaded her for a long time, and slowly persuaded her, and I told her to call and apologize to her mom, and then I’m going to send her home.
That was the first time I went to her house, in fact I didn’t go in, I just sent it to the door, mainly because it was very late that day, plus after all, you can’t just bring a boy home. She was knocking on the door, and to avoid any misunderstanding I didn’t show up, and of course I didn’t see her mom, but I heard her mom’s voice, “Back.”
The next day, she was very happy and came to me, she and her mom made up, of course the initiative to apologize played a big role, because her mom did not expect to take the initiative to apologize, in fact, I was wondering, single-parent children are very stubborn, very rarely will take the initiative to put down.
She said her mom wondered how that happened too, and when pressed she confided in my existence, I laughed and asked her if you weren’t afraid of your mom asking you, surely your mom must have thought I was a boy chasing you.
She told me that her mom really pressed her for a long time, but she wasn’t afraid, we didn’t have anything per se, so of course she wasn’t afraid, but it did take a long time to explain, and it was good that it worked out.
Then what, I asked her, mom said that since there was such a nice boy, she could invite him over for dinner, and I laughed and said, I’m afraid it’s not your mom’s idea, it’s more like yours.
You guessed it, she said, but mom agreed. Will you go, she asked.
Of course I’m going, I’m going, I’m going, I’m going, I’m going, I’m going, I’m going, I’m going, I’m going, I’m going, I’m going, I’m going.
“My mom cooks very well.” “Then I’m going to go even more”, so I went to buy things, ready to go to her home, she did not want me to buy things, but I said, the first time, buy some fruit, after all, I’m a guest, although it is not a boyfriend and girlfriend to meet, but to buy some fruit is very normal ah, but you received my fruit, I want to double to eat back.
And so we laughed and prepared to go to her house for dinner the next day. Never in my wildest dreams did I think that this ordinary chance to be a guest at my friend’s house would become a turning point in my life.
I walked into her house, it was big, not too luxurious, put the fruits on top of the table, her mom came out from inside the kitchen, the first thing I felt when I saw her mom, was that it was beautiful, long hair, like a waterfall, arched eyebrows, to be honest I’m not very good at describing people’s looks, but I knew that it was the prettiest woman I’ve ever seen.
In fact, I was prepared, because she said that her mother was even more beautiful than her, she inherited her mother’s appearance, but I was still more surprised, her mother is very well maintained, although her mother is only 16 years older than her, but after all, it is more than 30 years of age, but it looks like her older sister, and the body is very good, almost 170 years old, only half a head shorter than me, a light green dress, the voice is also soft, very charming and temperamental.
Her mom also froze a little when she saw me, but quickly smiled, You are the Xiao Qiang that Xiao Xue said, right. I said, yes, I am Xiao Qiang, said here, I also froze, everyone laughed at once. That day’s party was very cordial, we talked a lot, her mother and we do not see the age difference at all, the guests and hosts have a good time, and asked me to come and play sometime when I left. That’s how she and I met for the first time, but instead of calling her by her first name, I called her aunt.
Anything with the first time, there will be a second, third, fourth, we are the same, after going to the snow’s home once, probably because this time to get along is still more successful it, snow more trust me, slowly I went again, slowly go to her home more often, some times her mother at home, some times no longer, but because go more, even if her mother is not at home, I go is more assured, of course. The other boys are definitely not allowed, her mom can’t even be at home, let alone not at all.
Of course, when her other friends knew about my treatment, they would also object, but when they saw Snow’s mouth pouting, they all dared not speak, who would offend the girl they were chasing, wouldn’t that be asking for trouble, but luckily, at least the boys chasing her were used to my presence and no longer looked at me angrily, and it was even more unwise to offend her brother.
I became the only person who could go in and out of her house. Since I was also on my own, I slowly went to her house more often, and don’t think I went to see her mom, but the real reason was mainly to rub it in.
Of course, there’s no such thing as a free lunch, and my payment was to clean the room because her mom wouldn’t let me do the dishes, so I helped her mom clean the room. Maybe boys do fewer chores, or maybe it was the exercise of living alone that got me to do my chores pretty well, and I got a commendation from her mom.
Sunday, she is going to buy clothes, ready and high school reunion with the picnic with, about me to go together, mainly because there is a boy must follow to go, with me, the boy to change the difficult to retreat, but we miscalculated, the boy saw me to follow, no way, she called her mother on, only to scare off the boy.
The three of us together out of the house when the boy also hid far away from watching, since out, go together, although not necessarily to buy, anyway, are out, so sex to shop. Originally just buy a casual pants for the snow on the good, the results of the day saw a lot of favorite clothes, so we shopped for a day, fortunately, I buy their own clothes often shopping, or else sure to be exhausted, may be the snow rarely and mother to buy things together, mother and daughter shopped very happy, shopping a lot of shopping malls, of course, try on the clothes of the time to ask for my opinion, after all, the vision of the man and the woman is different! The first thing you need to do is to ask me for my opinion on the clothes you’re trying on.
Snow and her mother is really born clothes rack, wear what all look good, her mother also bought a few dresses, very sensual, (not sexy), very personalized, very taste, of course, I can not help but praise, not compliments, is a sincere praise, women like to praise it. Shopping is so over, very happy, the evening is not less than a big meal, who let her mom do the dishes so delicious.
She went on a trip, over a week, and I can’t figure out if all trips that don’t go with a tour group are longer, maybe there’s no time limit.
I went to Snow’s house again the day she left, and to be honest I was too embarrassed to go when Snow wasn’t home.
Snow is the morning to go, then her mother and I send snow away, and then go back with her mother, just his mother that day is also nothing, go back to the road, the two people chatting, in passing, asked me to go to lunch where to eat, I said I do not know, so her mother said to go to the home to eat it, it was only out of courtesy of people to say that I also excused a little bit, but at that time, really do not know where to eat, and casually said good.
As a result, her mother to go to the mall to buy food, I just reflected, busy said no, but the inconsistency of the answer to make me also embarrassed, her mother of course is to insist, after all, I started to say to go. Go to buy vegetables, said to buy vegetables, but you know, the supermarket is originally a vegetable area, there is also a clothing area, clothing on the woman will always have the attraction, the results in the clothing area to linger, also, just a few days ago, may not have been strolling through the addictive, and then come on, of course, shopping to try on the clothes, and then try it.
Two people, her mom trying on dresses, and me, of course, being the counsellor.
I did not expect, a stroll to noon, how to do, the food has not been bought, so we decided to eat outside, eat what does not matter, the important thing is to eat without having to buy food, the ultimate purpose of our shopping is not there, how to do, after a discussion, the ultimate purpose of the reconfirmation of the purchase of food, the evening to her home for dinner, the purchase of food can not be used so much time, then continue to shop in the afternoon, the time is wasted.
In this way, we set off again after the meal, killed to specialize in buying clothes clothing a street, an afternoon, and finally managed to buy a lot of clothes, this period there is not happy, and now I do not know how to get, some of the sale of clothes actually do not allow to try on, there is no fitting room, her mother is also worrying about it, I said the big thing is to go home to try on the clothes of the likes of the clothes to overcome all, bought, now the business, really a learning one, several pieces are There is no test.
We finally went grocery shopping after making a bunch of purchases, and to reward me for shopping with her, her mom bought a lot of groceries, so much so that I just said Auntie doesn’t have to.
In the evening, when we arrived at Snow’s house, we started cooking, I came to play, we ate and talked and drank a little bit, but don’t get me wrong, only a little bit, nothing special happened, just a lot of chatting, her mom, although I call her aunt, but only 12 years older than me ah, we don’t have a generation gap yet.
We chatted while we ate, and then after the meal, maybe her mom didn’t have any friends she could talk to more, we talked late, until about 11:00 or so, talking about everything, the sky, the sky, the sky, the sky, the sky, the sky, the sky, from the ideals of life, to the TV commercials.
“Auntie, I should go, it’s too late, thank you for dinner”, “Thank you for what, you also accompanied me to buy a lot of things, ah, the clothes have not tried it”, “then try it now”, words As soon as the words came out of my mouth I regretted it, how can I let my friend’s mom change her clothes at home in the middle of the night, it is obvious that she changed them for me.
Luckily, her mom only hesitated for less than a second before saying yes.
Then said you wait a moment to change. Her mother a set of change, really beautiful, I can not help but praise, but also gave a lot of advice, clothes and skirts pants are bought separately, but also different collocation, the result is that the non-stop collocation of interchangeable, may be I’m not a single praise, but gave advice, so we began to discuss the collocation of clothes, there is an idea, then go to change out, and then discuss, and found that the clothes in some places are not cool, for example, the waist in the Thin point, change.
Of course, just change the small place, after all, not to do the clothes, but after the change really better look, now I think, look at the woman change clothes really can not just praise, appropriate to give advice is the best. I did not expect a try is to try to more than 2 o’clock.
Two people are tired, I want to go, but it is very late, her mother said no just here, I do not know how, originally people are polite, I actually nodded, so her mother went to her room, I was on the couch, a night of no words until dawn.
I got up in the morning only to find that her mother has gone to make breakfast, see me said you woke up, I blushed, feel a little ashamed, said sorry aunt, I’m too sleepy, so get up late, her mother smiled, said nothing, eat breakfast, asked me something, I said nothing, “Yesterday, there is a piece of clothing does not fit, today a little while to return it”. I said yes.
Accompanying her mom to return her clothes, which of course turned out to be another day of shopping, just two days in a row, and basically I was worn out, and after cheating my way through another meal I went home.
May be accompanied by her mother shopping for clothes, may be accompanied by her mother to chat, may be my impression is not bad, so, slowly and snow and her mother gradually familiar with, sometimes back to her home to eat, I like to watch sci-fi blockbusters, her mother also like, I have always been very strange, how the women will also like science fiction, especially women in their thirties, but the snow does not like, because of the snow’s family home theater I often rent movies to her house to watch, snow will watch a couple of eyes and then hide in the room to surf the Internet, leaving me and her mother two people to watch, after watching will also comment, comments will also be for the plot of the understanding of the debate.
There are times when Yuki isn’t around and I go to see a big movie. Her mom doesn’t like to go to the movie theater, she likes to be at home, supposedly because the reason is that she can see what she doesn’t understand and pause to think about it, and then watch it when she’s figured it out… I’m giddy.
Maybe it’s because my shopping performance is okay, there are times when I will accompany her mom to go shopping to buy things, in fact, the main thing is that I will give opinions, of course, quite a lot of them are opposing opinions, in fact, I just say what I really think.
You know, shopping with women if you can put forward a lot of pertinent opinions, especially different opinions, will be more attractive, they will think about your ideas, daughters and mothers often think the same way, so I think the two of them why they are not always shopping together is the reason why, the family would like to go together, it is not the same as a person shopping, but I am different ah, belonging to the outsiders ah, there are another The idea of ah, can be discussed ah, so, slowly, they like to shop with me, but not the two of them to go.
To be honest, I’m still relatively popular, many of my former classmates parents like me, of course, including female classmates, I used to go to school when I would go to classmates’ homes to play, it was small, male classmates to female classmates’ homes will be suspected of early love, I would never, maybe I look safe? Anyway, I was shamed by my classmates as ugly, of course, I think they were jealous.
Same with Yuki, gaining her mom’s trust probably had something to do with my performance, or maybe it had something to do with her mom’s shopping conversation. I feel like I’m getting closer to Snow’s family. The days go by, we are living, and so is Yuki. There are still a lot of people who go after Yuki, and Yuki still rejects them.
However, Snow ran into a tail that she couldn’t get rid of. That boy is rich, in fact, his dad is rich, often driving a car to pick up snow, a 20-year-old girl, still in college, every day there are a lot of people to pick her up, classmates have been strange, but, driving to or let people talk about, in fact, snow does not like him, think that driving his dad’s car is some kind of playboy look, he Zhang’s let a person look at a person feel very flirtatious, but on the snow is really persevering.
Every day to find snow, snow refused him many times, but unfortunately snow students like him, always willing to go, but also pull snow together, snow really can not help it, come to me, begging me to block the arrow, I was very surprised, said how not to say earlier, snow said I was very busy at work, it is not good to bother me, it is really not good to come, I told the snow, no problem, I went to pick her up every day, the snow said no, one time on the line, I am also very busy at work, I said No need, I resigned, snow is very surprised, asked me what happened, I said is that I found the boss and the secretary of the secret, he opened me, but the good thing is that I left when I gave me a large sum of money to cover the mouth, I said, I’m not a despicable person, I would have been upset that the boss to go, I did not think that when I left when he actually gave me a large envelope, I received also dare not want, but he insisted on giving me, I have to be, I told the snow. Tomorrow I’ll come to you.
After school when I went to the snow’s school, this is not my first time to go, but no one knows me, because there are too many boys, each will go to remember who is who, but this time the snow’s classmates know me, I am directly into the snow dormitory, there is no boy dares to be so bold, in fact, it is not afraid, the main fear of messing with the snow, she was angry very powerful, into the dormitory to see the snow was angry, I was very surprised, what is the matter, I Walked over, snow classmates are looking at me with the eyes of the dead, in the snow temper when the boys walked in to find her will die a very bad death, I sat down next to the snow and asked her what happened.
Turns out, is a boy chasing the snow, make too much noise, the boy also has a girlfriend, the girlfriend is dying to get over to the snow to make trouble, make the teacher know, as if the snow how to that boy, as a result, the teacher thinks it is the snow to steal the girl’s boyfriend, the snow is very hateful of other people wrongly accused her, so is angry.
Seeing me come, got up and said, “Go, go home.” Snow is in the school has a dormitory, the university are required to live in, but because of snow’s school is not strict, in addition to snow’s home in the city, so not always in the dormitory to live, there are times to go home, there are times in the dormitory. Snow and I walked out, the rich kid is still waiting at the door, holding a cigarette roll.
When he saw Snow he came over to say hello, but when he saw me behind him, he froze for a moment, mostly because I was holding something for Snow. Snow saw him and called back to me, “You hurry up and go,” and took my arm.
The kid dropped his cigarette when he saw Snow’s movements, Snow went over and introduced me as her boyfriend, the kid looked at me in disbelief and then became jealous looking.
Stuttering and asking Snow, how do you have a boyfriend, Snow said that she never said that she did not have a boyfriend. If the eyes can kill, I am afraid that I would have already broken into pieces.
After holding back for a long time, said a “where are you”, I said where I have to not important, the important thing is that I am the snow’s boyfriend, I heard that you are chasing the snow, I came to see what kind of character to chase my girlfriend, the boy said you have what to do snow’s boyfriend, and then I pretended to be strange, I said, I when the snow’s boyfriend, as if it does not have anything to do with you! Well, thank you for worrying, just mind your own business, I hope you won’t bother Snow again.
Turned back, took the snow’s shoulders, said: “Go, go home, I and your mother said, today you will go to live, your mother at home waiting for us to go back to eat it”, I said this sentence, the boy heard, I have met the snow’s parents, shocked, I’m afraid I did not think that has come to the point of meeting the parents, jealousy look heavier, looked Fast madness. I ignored her and walked away with my arm around Snow.
I said, let’s go, to eat, snow asked me, not home, I said I look for you before I called your mom, she has a party today is not at home, just now I angry at that boy it, snow laughed, said I really ghost head.
I said let’s go, we go out to eat, by the way, shopping, to eliminate the anger. After dinner, we wandered aimlessly in the street, chatting about the snow school things, I said, you are almost graduated how so many boys chase a, snow said, how do I know, I said that today you really angry, snow said she is not afraid of anything else, before not no boys have made a fuss, the key is to graduate soon, for fear of making a fuss affects the diploma.
More abominable that boy saw the teacher is afraid, nothing to say, make wrongful snow, it is not easy to explain clearly, but also get a bellyful of gas. I said, explain clearly on it. Snow on the problem of boys is a headache, I said, who let you beautiful, boys will certainly chase.
Snow said, “Zhang beautiful must be someone like it”, “of course, most boys like beautiful girls, you’re beautiful, but no boyfriend, no one to chase strange, or you find a boyfriend to get”, snow said, “today you come, I do not have a boyfriend it, should be much better in the future”, “should be”, snow suddenly winked and asked me, “do you like me”, “you like me? You came, I do not have a boyfriend, should be much better in the future”, “should be it”, snow suddenly winked and asked me, “do you like me”, I said like, do not like how to be a friend, snow said not that kind of like, is the like of male and female friends. like, is a boyfriend and girlfriend like, I said I do not know, but look at her like a little sister.
But now I’m afraid I can’t, snow asked how, I said I’m your boyfriend, I now want to say not all can’t, after I can trouble, snow said “or you chase me?”, I looked at the snow “not it”, snow said: “We are also very good relationship ah”, I look at the snow: “Do you like me? I looked at the snow “not it”, snow said: “Our relationship is also very good ah”, I look at the snow: “Do you like me”, “I do not know, should be regarded as like it, or do we have to do? I don’t know. I think it’s kind of like it. Why don’t we go out and see what happens?” I laughed. I laughed and said, “I’m afraid I’m not a very nice person,” “But you’re my friend. A very reassuring friend.”
After we finished speaking neither of us said anything else and walked in silence, thinking over and over again about what we had just said… Do I like snow? I do not know. Almost half an hour, we just walked, walked, did not say anything, walked through all the commercial streets, towards the bus station to go home, take the bus to the opposite side of the road, we crossed the road, I said to the snow, “Let’s go out to see it”, the snow look at me, smiled, “Okay “.
Snow and I started dating, but we do not have other male and female friends like that, intimate action, the most is to pull the hand, take the shoulder, or at night when I walk away from a simple hug. Not because we do not want to, just see each other like their own good friends, all do not have much feeling.
We’re still the same as usual, only more caring about each other, her mom knows about us being together, it’s about school, it’s a leak, it’s not really a leak, it’s just a tell, I don’t know what she and her mom said about it, anyway, she said it, and her mom didn’t say anything about it, but I feel like I’ve been treated better, it’s probably caused by the further development of the relationship.
I don’t have a job right now, her mom knew about it and asked me to go to her company, in fact, her mom’s company recently ran into some difficulties, the best salesman was poached by a rival company, I didn’t have a job anyway, so I went over there.
Helping her mom along, I worked hard because of my relationship with Yuki, and because I’m close to Yuki’s mom as well, I worked even harder, it’s like helping out for a friend’s company, surely you have to work hard right?
In the evenings after work I often went over to Snow’s house for dinner and then back home, sometimes accompanying her mom to the grocery store and then coming home together.
At night there are times when they will discuss the company’s affairs together, too late, I sleep on the sofa, her mother gave me specially bought a quilt and a pillow, and dental appliances, there are times when I sleep in the snow home to be useful. In this way, half a year has passed, the company slowly to ease up, snow is also to graduate, snow has been living in the school to prepare for graduation, anyway, go home also do not want to participate in the discussion of the company’s affairs, in the school to prepare for graduation.
My contact with the snow gradually less and less, and did not feel anything, although it is a boyfriend and girlfriend, but I’m afraid it is more of a name, there is nothing practical. On the contrary, her mother and I have more contact, usually work leisure, go shopping together, buy things, dinner together at night, slowly become more familiar, buy things I will also give a lot of advice as a counselor, we often talk about, talk about work, talk about ideals.
It’s funny, isn’t it? It’s naive to talk about ideals with someone 12 years older than you.
That day, her mother and I together to talk about a big customer, very happy, continuously stayed up a few days and nights, finally the plan is done, signed the contract, we are very happy, the evening, at home together for dinner, but also drank wine, although I do not like to drink, but happy, drink, her mother is very capable of drinking, but may be because of the fatigue plus excitement, but also a little drunk, we sat on the couch while drinking and chatting, slowly the topic The topic slowly turned to snow.
Talked about many, many things, a woman, in that kind of era, 16 years old to fight on their own, gossip around people, parents do not understand, relatives despise, that kind of pain is the onlookers can not understand, they like the person and cowardly to run away, the blow is incomparable, I understand her very well.
One person held on for so many years, she was just over 36 years old, ah, all the glorious age has passed away unknowingly, we talked about love, her mother no longer dared to love, a time of bitterness accompanied by a lifetime, no matter how it is a fatal blow, I talked about the history of my feelings, slowly, she wept, I also wept, she turned into a painful cry, I patted her next to the shoulder, slowly turned into hugging her, she wept well sad, 20 years of pain seemed to explode all at once, crying in pain on my shoulder.
That night we didn’t have anything like what was written in the novel, we didn’t have anything that shouldn’t have happened, we didn’t even know when we fell asleep, but we did both sleep on the couch, and when we woke up in the morning, she was on top of me, and we seemed to wake up at the same time, and we were both so embarrassed, that we separated all of a sudden, and she went back to her room to go wash up, and I froze on the couch.
After a while she came out, dressed up and very energetic, and said she was going shopping, so we did.
Walked out only to find that my beard forgot to shave, I said forget it, let’s go. We shopped a lot of places, and then went to buy clothes, the result may be that I look older, try clothes out of the sales clerk said look at your girlfriend how good-looking, sir, you also buy a set of men’s clothes, we were very embarrassed, but did not say anything, paid the money on the way out of the sales clerk also said, you are welcome to come often.
When I got home, it was time to watch her change again.
Our relationship seemed to suddenly become awkward, I suddenly felt awkward calling her aunt, so I just stopped calling her and just said what I needed to say without addressing her.
In the evening, I stayed there for dinner, and when I left, she walked me out the door, her first time ever, and we talked at the door for a long time more before we left.
In this way, we seemed to become friends without words, nothing often go shopping and chatting, I did not call her aunt again.
Ling, I call her, my girlfriend’s mother, I don’t know when I became like and Ling together, like and her chat, like and her shopping, she is very mature, very elegant, I don’t deny that I have an Oedipal complex, but that man does not have it, the mature woman will give themselves a lot of care and security, men also need a sense of security, she is very young, is only 12 years older than me, the years give her too much pressure, in fact, she did not have the opportunity to go young, when she cried as if to release the pain held in the heart of 20 years is applicable to women. She is young, only 12 years older than me, and the years have put too much pressure on her. In fact, she didn’t have the chance to be young when she cried as if she had released the pain she had held in her heart for 20 years, and the emotional impact on her appearance is applicable to women.
She never told anyone about her past, not even Yuki, but she told me, and we got closer, became good friends without words, yes good friends, only good friends can share each other’s joys and pains, and truly trust each other.
She trusts me so that I can know her inner world.
She will be very rejuvenated in front of me at times, plus she is very beautiful, there are times when she looks like she is in her 20s, and even looks like she is like Snow’s sister, I know, she needs to be young, because it has never been young, and there are times when we go out on the street, and she will even be happy like a little girl, and I remember one time when I said to her, look at you know, like a little girl privy to it, and don’t be naughty, and she froze, and I knew that I had said the wrong thing. She froze, I know I said the wrong thing, being very embarrassed, but she said, yes, I have not been a little girl, not naughty.
I don’t know where I got the courage to go over to her, take her hand and say, ” Let’s be young for once today,” and, pulling her up, I ran.
Panting, we ran across several streets with people looking at us strangely, rushed into a discotheque and twerked like crazy, and in the middle of the night, when we were out of our madness, panting loudly, and walking down the road, she looked at me and said, “Thank you, I’ve never had so much fun”, and I laughed and smiled, and said: “You’ve never been naughty either”, and she laughed, flirtatiously.
We walked slowly, crossing the street when she looked at the car unconsciously pulling my arm, and then let go very embarrassed, this time I have passed, she let go of my arm when two steps behind, maybe really coincidentally, there is a car driving, the middle of the night, the car is very fast, I pulled her a bit, avoided the car, she was about to fall down, I support her, she fell in my arms, we can feel each other’s heartbeat, we were very stiff, do not dare to move, I forced out a sentence “too dangerous, you’re okay”, she looked up at my eyes, we both face close, even can feel the heartbeat, we both looked at my eyes, we both face close, we can feel the heartbeat. We were very stiff, do not dare to move, I force out a sentence “too dangerous, you’re okay”, she looked up at my eyes, we two face close to each other, and even feel each other’s breath, slowly, I want to lean on her, she also closed her eyes, we kissed.
A long time, a long time, the two of us lips parted, I’m in a big breath, Ling is also, because this kiss is too shocking for us, since my last girlfriend mercilessly abandoned me after 2 years, I thought my heart was dead, even with snow, but also brother and sister friends more than feelings, although I am a boyfriend and girlfriend with snow, but, I feel as if that is no one can do boyfriend and girlfriend to find a person Charge the feeling, more and snow is brother and sister, there is no real feelings of, although we also pull the hand and take the shoulder, but also just so.
And Rei was different, the feeling she gave me was from the heart, the kiss shook my body and mind, I felt my eyes couldn’t help but black out, my heart seemed to jump out of my body, I couldn’t control my movements, my body was stiffening.
What about Ling, she is the same, later I asked her, what she felt at that time, she told me, at that time, it felt, the sun is black, the palace collapsed, the body does not have any strength, their hearts can not support their already exhausted body, Ling leaned in my arms, the rapid rise and fall of the chest, 20 years, 20 years of suffering, 20 years of youth, a heart without love and without hate, numbness of the living 20 years, the heart. In that moment, in that kiss, melted, melted by me.
Rei cried, trying her hardest not to cry out, but I could feel her sadness in her shaking shoulders.
I panicked, I panicked, I lifted her face, looked into Rei’s tear-filled eyes, and she looked into mine, and gently, I kissed her face, a little bit, drying Rei’s tears.
I feel like I’m going to say something, but, wanting to say something, I don’t know what I’m going to say, to comfort her, or to say I love her, I don’t know.
Full of herself, Ling stopped crying and looked at me with some embarrassment. Finally, I said, let’s go home, and Ling nodded gently.
I hugged her, and she hugged me, and together we walked towards the house, slowly, Ling’s head leaned on my shoulder, and we walked slowly on the road like this, neither of us said anything, and I felt as if Ling was going to say something as well, but neither of us knew how we should say it, and so neither of us said anything, and we just walked quietly, enjoying the silence of the passage. We embraced each other on the road for a long time, and arrived at Ling’s house.
How I wished this road would never end, but it was at Ling’s house. At the door, Ling said softly, Thank you.
Head very low. Then, flew up the stairs. And I, foolishly, stood downstairs for a long time …… walking home in a daze.
I lost sleep that night ……
The next day, I went to Ling’s house, in fact, I do not know what I went to do, when I walked to the door, when I was going to knock on the door, my hand stopped in the air, I want to knock on the door or not, Ling will look like what will become between us, I do not know, do not dare to think about it, hesitated for a long time, I finally knocked on it.
The door quickly opened, it was Ling, Ling wearing, casual blouse, a little bit of laziness, so beautiful, saw me, her eyes lit up, but immediately embarrassed down the head. We stood awkwardly in the doorway, after a while, Ling said softly, come in. I walked in woodenly.
We were on the couch, neither of us knowing what to say, and there was an awkwardness in the air. “Are you “”””` okay?” , I stammered, “Eh”, “Did you sleep well yesterday?”, “Eh”, I didn’t even know what to say. After a while, my stomach grumbled, Ling laughed, I also laughed, the atmosphere seems to be much lighter, Ling said, “I’m going to cook for you,” “Good,” I said, Ling’s face a little red, went to the kitchen.
I walked into the kitchen and watched Rei go about her business there, slowly, I watched in fascination.
“Hey”, Ling woke me up, “what are you looking at”, “looking at you”, another moment of embarrassment, “let’s eat “, “good”, that meal, in order to ease the atmosphere, but also in order to lift my own embarrassment, I told a lot of jokes, amusing Ling kept laughing.
We had such a good time, and when we were done, I said, today, I’ll help you with the dishes. “Okay,” Ling nodded.
We were doing the dishes, Rei was watching me do the dishes to be exact, her gaze was full of love, I could feel it, I looked at her and smiled. Neither of us spoke. After I finished washing the dishes, I walked towards Ling who was leaning against the door, and her gaze was infatuated. We looked at each other, not knowing what to say. Slowly, I took Ling’s hand. Ling was a bit overwhelmed, and so was I.
Just like that, we held each other’s hands and looked into each other’s eyes, and I could feel the love in her gaze, and she could feel mine.
We hugged, just quietly. It was tight. I could even feel the curves of the body, every part of it. “I love you,” I said, and I said it. It’s a phrase I’ve long forgotten how to pronounce. But now, I say it. I say “I love you” to her.
“No,” Rei pushed me away.
“What’s wrong,” I looked at her in surprise, and suddenly, it dawned on me that
“It’s snow,” I said.
“I’m sorry,” Rei said, “I’m sorry, I’m” `I can’t love you, we can’t be together.'”
“Why?”
“You’re Yuki’s boyfriend.”
“But Yuki and I aren’t in that kind of love, and you know it.”
“But …… I’m sorry.”
I was silent, and so was she. I was conflicted inside.
I took Ling’s hand and held up Ling’s face, “Look into my eyes. You and I are mature people, we both know what we are doing, 20 years, have you ever loved, you love me right, you can’t lie to yourself, you know exactly what I have with Yuki, and you know we don’t have anything.
I also know it’s hard for us to face the snow, but if we go running away just because of that, we’ll regret it for the rest of our lives. “
“But I’m 12 years older than you”, “Yes, but we are the same attribute right? Isn’t it God’s will?” “But I’m your aunt ah”, “you are the mother of snow only, the little dragon lady is also Yang’s aunt ah, you are not the little dragon lady, I’m not Yang, but we can not be together ah, you so pay attention to this name ah, if you are my aunt, then I tell you, auntie, I love you! “I shouted out.
Rei was surprised, she hadn’t expected me to be so courageous all of a sudden.
“I’m an old woman with a daughter,” “So what, you’re not old, you’re not young, don’t you want to find true love, don’t you want a man’s shoulder to lean on.”
I said, “Call me, Ling, call me by my name”, I shouted out, hearing me call her by her name, Ling’s body unnaturally trembled, “Keung”, Ling obediently called me, “From today you call me Keung, and I call you Ling, you say that you are my aunt, fine, you’re my aunt, but Ling, you’re also my girlfriend”, Ling was confused, she was breathing heavily and didn’t know what to do.
“Give me time, Jon, give me time to face it okay, don’t force me”, “Ling, I won’t force you, but I hope you won’t tie up your feelings, open your heart, I’ll wait for you”. I hugged Ling tightly, and slowly, I felt Ling’s hands also hugging me tightly. At that moment, I felt that our feelings wanted to burst out of the dike, our bodies embraced each other, and our hearts were also close together.
We kept talking that day, but none of it was about our feelings for each other, because I knew that it was almost impossible to get Ling to accept me all at once, and that love couldn’t be rushed.
After all, it’s been 20 years, and Rei already barely knows what love is, or even if she can’t love, I try my best to find some lighter topics, things that don’t have anything to do with our relationship, but are relevant to our lives, after all, even though we know each other, if we’re going to be lovers, we’re going to need to not only know about each other, but also about each other’s lives. Not to mention that the difference in age between Rei and I made it even more important for her to understand.
We kept chatting, I gave him will be my childhood, about my family, about my happy and unhappy, about my life experience, but I did not talk about my previous feelings, I think it’s better not to be too hasty, after all, to give each other a certain amount of time to consider the consideration and space to consider. We chatted like this, I was constantly using my words to make Ling happy.
I know that there are still big gaps between us, but I am confident that these gaps will be narrowed. Age is nothing, and don’t movies and TV shows often play different ages together.
Rei suddenly felt dark inside the house and realized that it was getting late and we had been talking all day without realizing it.
“Yikes, it’s getting dark.”
“Yeah, it’s so late.”
“We talked so much we lost track of time.”
“Well, isn’t that just as well, it’s time for dinner straight after the chat.”
Rei laughed “Poverty, are you hungry?”
“No”.
“That ……”.
“Let’s go out for a stroll,” I suggested, and Rei agreed.
We’re going out to the night market. Ling’s going to change. “Don’t change. Just go.”
“No, I’ll change?”
“Fine,” I said indifferently, and a moment later, Rei changed her clothes.
When Ling came out I was brightened up, Ling was dressed very young, in fact Ling herself looks very young, usually Ling dresses mature and sassy even though she is very young because of her work, but tonight it was different, Ling was dressed very small, she almost looked younger than me, I was so happy, I knew that Ling was getting close to me, by dressing young she was trying to get as close as she could, and I was so happy.
That night we went out shopping and had a great time, Rei was bouncing around like a little girl, and it was as if I saw her 20 years ago, not as if, but as she was 20 years ago, because her life was suspended from 20 years ago.
We had so much fun holding hands and going to different night markets, even running to a night market in another section of the city far away.
We went for snacks and bought some very cheap but pretty little things and didn’t enjoy ourselves until the night market had all broken up.
On the way home Ling looked at me, “I’m happy, thank you.”
“So do you like me, Rei?”
Rei didn’t say anything, “What’s wrong Rei, look at me and tell me do you like me?”
I pressed the question to her, and after a long time, “Eh,” Rei’s head couldn’t have been lower, “Will you be my girlfriend?”
“Eh,” I was so happy, I felt my whole body swell with cells, Rei was my girlfriend now.
I lifted up Ling’s face and looked into her eyes, Ling looked back at me with some embarrassment, what kind of eyes were those, ravaged by age and fate, already fatigued, I suddenly held Ling tightly in my arms.
I didn’t say anything, but I knew that Ling could feel my thoughts, because Ling leaned into me, her body trembling, and I suddenly felt that my shoulders were so heavy, not just the weight of Ling’s body, but that I had a responsibility on them from now on, a responsibility that had to make a woman happy, a responsibility that had to support a family.
My shoulder was wet as I rubbed Ling’s back and whispered, cry, don’t be stingy with your tears because if you miss today, you won’t have the chance to cry again in the future because I’m by your side and you will always be happy.
Rei’s body was trembling terribly, but she just didn’t make a sound, and I knew she was holding back.
After a long, long time, Rei pushed me away and looked at me, her face all teary, she smiled, looked at me and said, “Thank you.”
“Let’s go home” I said, “Eh”, and I took her hand and went home.
Snow did not go home, at school, into the room door, she did not turn on the light, I did not, the door slowly closed behind us, I watched the corridor light in the doorway gradually become weaker, “tent”, the room fell into a dark, the room was very silent, quiet you can hear our breathing, Ling’s breathing became rapid, I was also, not how, we hugged each other, kissing each other like crazy, I was tearing at Ling’s clothes, Ling was doing the same, we went from the living room to the bedroom, kissing each other non-stop, tearing at each other’s clothes non-stop, yes, tearing, we were both going crazy until neither of us had any clothes on us.
I pressed against Ling and fell back onto the bed, and the moment I fell onto the bed, my arm hit, and the pain sobered me up, and for some reason, my arousal was suddenly gone, and my movements stiffened while Ling was still writhing beneath me.
Slowly Rei felt me stop, she looked at me, it was dark in the room but I knew she was looking at me, I held her tightly in my arms and kissed her heavily, Rei started to cater to me again, we were kissing, it was a deep kiss, our tongues were entwined.
A long time, lips parted, Ling’s body was on fire, I knew what we both wanted, I still held her, “Ling, I love you”, “En”, “Do you want to give it to me? Ling”, “En”, “Thank you”, I held her, Ling held me tightly, still catering to me, “Don’t move, just let me hold you like this, I know your heart belongs to me, thank you! “
I didn’t want Ling that night, I knew that Ling was mine, she was mine, her body would be given to me, but I didn’t want Ling that night, I don’t know why, our naked bodies were entwined tightly, but we didn’t do anything but hug and kiss! Nothing!