Author: Why bother?
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The main reason for starting this new article is that I was influenced by Tokiwa’s masterpiece “My Secret Girlfriend”, and because I had been reading
The Green Wedding and Girlfriends as Bridesmaids, both classics, and I’m so deep in them that I can’t help myself, the heartache and the sting of the
Exciting feelings have been nagging at me, and I’m looking forward to the good story ending they’ll have, don’t make me feel that kind of heart
It hurt, but it was out of my hands, so I held back from thinking about it and waited for the end. Meanwhile in my heart because of this
I am inspired by this feeling and have composed this article, which is of course of a limited standard, just to write about such a feeling, and at the same time to pay tribute to this
A tribute to some of the greats.
I’ve been writing for three days, and I’ve only written so many words, and it’s the first time I’ve been so attentive, the first time I’ve written as a novel, and I’ve written before
The stories are written only as purely colorful texts, written only for lust, and never checked for typos, often written wherever they come to mind.
To where, and without an overall idea, it ended up in the bottleneck it’s in today, but From Innocent to Slutty won’t be
The eunuch’s just put the pen to paper for now.
I had thought that to destroy a good image would be tragic, so should I be ruthlessly tragic
What about, it’s not up to me, I’m very emotionally affected by my writing, it depends on my mood when the time comes. The ugly daughter-in-law always
To see the in-laws, how to write their own no bottom, anyway, write all written then send it.
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April winds are like a lover’s hands, caressing one’s thoughts and making one feel a lightness when one is tired.
The tenderness of relief and pleasure, which, unfortunately, I no longer felt, was replaced by a deep inner
The pain.
I think I’ll always remember this day, April 10, 2009, an ordinary day, but also an
An extraordinary day. On this day, I lost my girlfriend of seven years and met a beautiful fine
Spirit.
Girlfriend, I should say ex-girlfriend, I don’t want to talk about her anymore, what she gave me was a deep pain. Just today.
I came back from a business trip and learned a truth that had been kept from me for so long I didn’t even want to know it.
How long has it been since I was born, I feel tired, I feel hurt, I want to avoid it, I hide from it, I just want to hide myself
Up and hidden in a corner where no one knows, letting themselves slowly age and wither.
So on this day, I sat from 6:00 p.m. until 9:00 p.m., in a place called “The Withering”.
The “Rose” bar.
I’ve been sitting here, not greeting any of my friends, I just wanted to be alone and quiet, and I’ve been drinking a lot of
I can’t remember exactly what I asked for, I actually come to the bar very infrequently and never
Come alone with a woman, because I think bars are ambiguous places that distort the meaning of alcohol and make it
No more simplicity. Screw innocence, I tell myself, I come to the bar to drink, but if there’s no
Simple things happen, so come on, I don’t turn them down anymore, stupid people do.
Finally the host seemed to look away and he said, “Have a juice, you’ve had too much to drink today.”
Really, I don’t think so, I’d just like to drink more, but seeing as how the lad sounded like he was doing me a favor too, this
It relieved my heart a little, and gave a touch of warmth to the coldness of my heart. This is a very sunny chap that
I thought he would be well rewarded and his life would be beautiful. So I drank the juice, thanked him, and
Then I struggled to get up to go to the bathroom and he tried to help me, I refused, I didn’t think I was drunk and I
Just dizzy.
I met her at the bathroom door. It’s an elf.
She wasn’t alone; a girl in a revealing dress next to her was holding her arm sideways on the back of her
lightly patted, mouth said: “to the inside, spit it out on the good, oops, told you not to drink so much, on your
What’s the good of it? It’s all in the past, well, well, I won’t talk about it.”
She was arching her back and carrying me, looking as if she were very tired and uncomfortable, with one hand over her mouth, trying to stand up straight but seemingly
Barely had that power and had to transfer most of the pressure to the girl next to her. I could tell she wanted to throw up.
But it’s all the way to the bathroom door and it won’t hold.
I saw that she was wearing a cool halter neck strapless dress, revealing her pale rounded shoulders, wrapped around in her
on it, set off a luscious, buoyant curve, and looking at it from behind, I knew she had a good figure, and that slender waist made the
One can’t help but want to hold it up, with round, firm hips, round, plump thigh roots, and despite wearing jeans, the
Wrapping up the slender, willowy legs makes for a beautiful compliment.
I don’t know why, but I had a feeling that this was a pretty girl, even though the girl next to me in the revealing dress was also very tolerable, but the
I was slightly turned off by the dress at this time, perhaps because the occasion of the bar had made me judge her
The price is not too good, I hope the girl with the bowed back is a pretty girl, otherwise such a figure is really a riotous coffin
Things.
The navel-gazing girl looked at me standing there in a daze and couldn’t help but open her mouth, “What are you looking at, haven’t you ever seen a beautiful woman before?”
I blurted out, “I haven’t seen anything so beautiful since I was a kid.” Even I was surprised at my direct honesty. ME.
I am twenty-eight years old, in the eyes of my friends, I am a silent person, not good at expressing myself, something is also hidden in the
Heart, speak and do things to stay half force, this may have something to do with my work, I am a pharmaceutical company in Shanghai, the research
researcher, I don’t really socialize with people too much, except for traveling to do development research with other companies, but there are
A few of my close friends, who know me well enough not to chill me because I’m boring, I’m quite comfortable in my own
My current situation, my superiors are also very important to me, ready to promote me to the Deputy Director of the Research Laboratory within the year, if no
With what happened today, maybe I would have stayed this content, but the girlfriend thing made me start to think about the future not that
It was so positive that I felt the future was gray. Now I’m actually praising a strange girl outright, and I know I’m this
Words aren’t for the navel-gazing girl, which may be my inner hope, I want her to be beautiful.
The girl in the revealing dress frowned lightly, but I could see that she was amused, and perhaps she misunderstood, her voice
The voice became soothing: “What are you doing, don’t come and help me!” I thought the voice
Teasing. Too bad it wasn’t the girl who said it.
I stopped gawking and rushed forward to help support my waist, a soft, warm touch coming from my hands, though separated by the
With my clothes on I still felt as if I were caressing her flesh, and it made me dizzy, it had been a long time since I had
Such a feeling now, I thanked the navel-gazing dress next to me for the opportunity and smiled at her.
I smelled a faint scent in my nose, I bet it wasn’t perfume, I used to buy my ex-girlfriends all kinds of
Perfume, I’ve been exposed to various materials in my own pharmaceutical research, and I understand that this is not a perfume odor, which would be a female
The flavor of the child itself, accentuated by a whiff of alcohol, made it special, it was seductive.
”Help help her in, she’s going to throw up.” The navel-gazer continued to instruct me, to which I was happy to serve her
Labor.
At this time the girl turned her head to look at me, let go of the pair of hands covering the mouth, these hands luxuriant as jade, warm and moist
Slender, everything was perfect. I cried out to God straight in my heart, thanking God that I hadn’t let Dreamwatch shatter, thanking God that I hadn’t
Storming the coffin, I saw a face, a classical melon face, as depicted in the cartoons, with long
A pair of bright eyes under the lashes, with watery eyes, as if they were trying to pour out something all the time, pregnant with
Yuko had a sorrow that could not be concealed, and her eyes were quite large, so that they shone clear in the dimly lighted aisle of the
Light, such as a vast expanse of blue water, people see the heart of pity. At this time she finally couldn’t help it, her hand let go of the pattering
Spit it out, and it seemed that she had indeed had a good deal to drink, and that she had spat out all the liquor but none of the dregs of the food, but some of it was
Spit on me.
I joked, “As far as that goes, looking at me makes you want to throw up?” I suddenly realized that I’m actually quite good at
teasing the girl, and she immediately giggled out at my words, and I saw her eyes curving into a moonlike, mesmerizing
But there seemed to be tears in my eyes, and I knew it was not because of my jesting, but because of the sadness that lurked in those eyes.
There are so many secrets that people want to find out. The small but firm and straight bridge of the nose is really like “cheeks with new lychee, nose with
Goose fat”, that lips without describing but red, slightly curved, like a temptation to kiss up. She smiled and said, “Heh
Meh, you look …… well, not too ugly, but ……”
”But what?”
”But ……” she didn’t finish, facing me she bent down and threw up again, which really made me snarky mind
It’s all gone, partly because she’s once again seen me throw up, and that sort of thing is so devastating. I don’t really count.
Ugly, or at least there were quite a few girls after me, but never used to be very mousy and ignored those advances.
I was so in love with my girlfriend that I was afraid of hurting her, but I didn’t expect it to end up the way it is today. On the other hand because it makes me
saw a scene that made my blood run hot, and though my head was still groggy, I was not a bad drinker, and drank this
I was just not in control of my body, and the sight in front of me made my blood run cold: the huge waves under the camisole.
The raging shore filled the dress, the opening was not too large, and a deep groove under the clear collarbone like a seductive desire, the
The upper part of those tits was exposed, white and round, with all their curves, and although they were wrapped in a bra, they seemed to be slightly
Shuddering, I couldn’t help but swallow. I’d come back from a ten-day business trip devastated, but at the moment I’d repressed it for a long time
of desire pranced up, and I couldn’t control the temptation of having such a beautiful woman in front of me, but I was quite able to refrain and
Not wanting to show my ugly face, I averted my eyes and said to the navel-gazing dress next to me, “Do you need any help? You hold her up, I’ll go
Get a sobering juice.” After saying that I went out without waiting for them to reply, and I felt my feet all relaxed and firm
Settle up.
Asked for a juice with honey at the bar and rushed back, I really didn’t want to miss the chance to meet her and
Even though we don’t know each other, even though we may just be passing through, even just looking at her I feel like coming to this wine
The bar was the right decision, fuck it, the past is the past, I want to start a new one now.
Life.
At the bathroom door, I heard the sound of flushing inside, and after a while the navel-gazing dress helped her out and
Her face was wet, and she looked as if she had just washed it, and her bangs on her forehead were partly stuck to her face, and a few drops of water made her
There is a different kind of beauty.
”You really took the sober one, didn’t you? If you don’t have anything to offer, you’re either an adulterer or a thief… Say, what’s your intention?” Showing off your navel.
Pretend to make fun of me on purpose.
”When you see a beautiful woman, every man will offer some solicitude.” Suddenly I think I’ve changed. I’m starting to
Grease, no more repressing myself, I’m going to take the initiative to express myself, and that feels like something I haven’t had before.
”Hmph, bring it on!” Said the navel-gazing dress and took the juice from my hand, vaguely throwing an eyebrow at me.
I’m not interested in you, I turned my head to look at her, and she gave me a small smile, and I felt the world suddenly light up for a few moments, the
Bent Moon’s eyes are so beautiful, I can’t put it into words. “Thanks …… don’t mind her, she’s …… such a
temper.” She broke off and finished, her voice as wonderful as a yellow warbler’s, soft and mesmerizing, perhaps the first
For impression’s sake, I just thought it sounded good.
She hesitated, taking the juice from the navel-gazing hand and taking a sip down.
I looked at her cautiously and carefully, my good feelings grew again, and I blurted out, “What do I call you guys, beautiful?”
The navel dress is not reserved, directly answered me: “My surname is Liu, single name Xiang, call me Xianger on the line …… she
Well, it’s Ling Coco ……” “Xiang, don’t say it!” She rushed to stop it, but it was too late, the fast-talking Lou
The navel-gazing had revealed her name, and she felt a little frustrated, angry, helpless, as if she’d been spied on in her privacy, and
As well as a bit of shyness, that expression was just adorable, wrinkling my little nose and giving me the urge to pinch it. That’s all.
I know the elf’s name, and for the first time, I think this navel-gazing outfit called Liu Xiang actually looks pretty good. ME.
Decided to show my appreciation, albeit in passing.
”Can I buy you guys dinner?” It was the first time I had launched such a direct and obvious attack on a girl, even if the face
Never had one with a former ex-girlfriend either, so maybe that’s one of the reasons she left me.
”No, I don’t have an appetite, my head is so dizzy, let’s go back Xiang’er?” This girl called Ling Coco could see the
My motives, and the fear that Liu Xiang was full of it, politely but also too obviously rejected my offer. I couldn’t help but
Feeling a pang of frustration, but more aroused, I became more interested in her, I wanted to possess her, to own her, to
Protect her, love her!
Liu Xiang hesitates a bit, but still says, “Next time, I have a mission today.” She looked at me, a pair of
Crafty eyes seem to want to see through my mind, Liang long very serious word by word said: “I… we can… letter
Any of you?” Looking into her eyes, I nodded sincerely, “Yes.” Then asked, “What’s the
Can I be of service? By all means, as long as it’s within my power, of course.”
”Xiang’er, I can go back by myself!” Coco Ling voiced her opinion once again, leaning against the bathroom door
mouth of the wall, and the weakness was a source of sudden pity, and I was a little ashamed, for the bit of cowardice within me, the
It turns out that Liu Xiang just asked me to send Ling Coco, but I emphasized beforehand that it needed to be within my ability, so it’s really…
…ugh.
”Tell me your name first, and tell me your phone number.” Liu Xiang directly ignored Ling Coco’s comments and asked the
I opened my mouth. I was quick to tell her my number, and she pulled out her own cell phone and tried dialing it, hearing my pocket
The ringtone in it was very satisfying, and I could see that she was very careful. I patted my chest and assured, “Don’t worry, I, Lu Wenmao, am a
Pure people, people who are free from low tastes. As you can see from my name, we are a family of poets and writers, de
Modern Youth by Houze ……”
”Okay, okay, don’t blow it, I’m telling you, if you dare to do anything untoward to Coco, beware of dying without a
Buried!” Liu Xiang’s threat didn’t kill me, but Ling Coco heard my boasting revealing that pure
Pure smile, I stayed for a little while busy reaction: “sent to where? I’ll do whatever you want in heaven and on earth, and I’ll do whatever you want in
What not to say!” “I’ll be damned, you’re the underground, no more, I’ve got to get busy, it’s been a long delay, the mission is still
Got to do it yet! Coco’s all yours, remember, be honest!”
”Don’t worry don’t worry, we won’t go underground, where to?” I nodded my head with a full smile on my face, I realized that I seemed to be
Almost a few years younger, back to those youthful years, full of talk to attract the attention of girls.
”Just drop her off at the front door of the medical school, and I’ll call my sisters to take her in.”
”Oh, I’m familiar with this place, no problem.” Without further ado, I picked up Ling Coco, even though she started to still
She yelled at me to go on her own, but already half-drunk, she couldn’t wring out my half-forced kindness. I put my right hand around her waist to support her.
The softness of the touch once again made my heart flutter, and I accidentally touched the back of my hand to another mass of soft flesh, which I knew of course was the
What, I could feel her body shaking slightly as she twisted her head to look at me, what was in those eyes?
Is it shyness? Is it confusion? Is it warning? Or encouragement? I couldn’t tell, except that they were mesmerizing eyes. I avoided
He opened her special part and assisted her out of the noisy bar in a very decent manner.
Stepping out of the door, the clamor in his ears was instantly removed, and a chill with the breath of late spring blew in his face, making the
The sparsely populated street was even more silent and cold. I hurriedly put my jacket, which I hadn’t yet had time to put on, on her.
Phi, she mumbled no no no, but was finally forced to accept my semi-compulsive kindness. “Go straight back to the
?” I asked.
Her eyes seemed a little confused and she looked at me toward for my opinion. “Go back then, TAXI!”
I yelled at the cab on the other side of the road.
”Forget it.” She shook her head, and the long hair that rested on her shoulders swung reluctantly with it, as if resisting her master’s
of the decision, “Don’t want to go anywhere, don’t want to go back to school.”
”Just take a casual walk then! Why don’t you find a place to sit for a while? I know a cafe with a nice ambience.”
”Okay? …… Okay!” She asked as if she were asking herself and as if she were asking herself, and finally gave the answer herself.
”Go to ‘This Tune Coffee’!” I said to my brother as I helped her into the car. This process had me looking once again at
to the view of her chest as she lowered herself.
The cabbie obviously didn’t know where this cafe was located, so I pointed it out and five minutes later we were there.
Yeah, it’s a smaller cafe, a buddy of mine owns it, and I’ve given the interior design decorations
Lots of opinions, even the name was mine. My buddy saw it when I went in and his eyes lit up and I saw him
With a wolf-like gleam in his eye, he was too busy to exit, “My friend, find a quieter spot.”
”It’s this time of the day, everywhere is quiet.” At the end he winked at me meaningfully, “You kid
Good, I can’t see that you’re not hiding anything!” “Don’t talk nonsense, go and do your job!” My friend’s name is Chen Jianjun.
People are actually not bad, just a little mouth flowery, seduced a lot of girls, but not long to feel tired, and then
He said that his realm was “to pass through the chaotic flowers without a single leaf sticking to his body”, and repeatedly instigated and taught me to teach him.
He said that if I don’t have more fun, I’ll regret it when I’m old and gray. It turned out to be what he said.
Prophecy.
I found a favorite spot. I used to come here with Yang Yuxing not infrequently, but now the old man has gone and there’s a new man.
But I am the victim. Yang Yuxing is my ex-girlfriend, and she used to drag me here, saying that love has to be
romantic, and always read me as too rigid and unemotional in my life. I have no way to refute this, because I feel like I really am
Such a person, just do not like her every time the checkout greedy a little cheap, on the pretext of friends, Chen Jianjun, on the other hand, smiles
Hip said nothing nothing nothing should be. Forget it, don’t mention her, it’s all in the past, the beauty in front of you is more important.
”Coco, can I call you that? Drink something?” “You called it all, and you’re asking …… Whatever.
A glass of plain water will do.” She had sobered up considerably, but was still a little disoriented, her eyes slightly drooping, her long
The eyelashes are particularly attractive.
”A milk tea, plain, and a coffee, any kind, no sugar.” I told Waiter
Says.
”Why did you ask me for milk tea? Why the original flavor again? I want my plain water.” She pouted at the
It’s such a good look, ugh, I’m really a little worried I’m going to fall in love with her.
”How can you come to a coffee house and drink plain water, usually beautiful women drink milk tea. As for why original flavor
of it, because I think you’re the original flavor, so you’re entitled to drink it, and the average person can’t drink that flavor.”
I praised her explicitly and implicitly, and the flavor of this pursuit made me feel so good that I even had a cathartic thrill of great
It’s probably been repressed for too long.
”Giggle …… bullshit, you’re so slick, how many girls have you fooled with that?” She laughed her ass off.
but slightly less frivolous, and my eyes dared not linger on her, the bulge of nakedness under that halter was too much of an eyesore to
I was afraid of revealing my inner fox’s tail, so I hastily averted my eyes, and for a moment I could not stop talking, “No, that was said before
Just said it to one person.”
”Who? Girlfriend or wife?” She seized the opportunity to press the issue, and the lovely provocation in those eyes defeated me
Come to the front and be honest.
”Ex-girlfriend, but it all ended a few hours ago, ashes and smoke, if you don’t mind
I’d like a cigarette if I could ……”
”Why are you so impolite, not gentleman enough, look here ……” she craned her head to see, “Oh, it only
It’s just the two of us, so make yourself at home! Don’t say you know me if you get kicked out.” “When you say that, it means we
Already, nice to meet you, Coco Ling-san!” I held out my hand to her, and she smiled as she slapped it away and
That felt slippery. I pulled out a cigarette, lit it up, took a drag, exhaled, and felt my body relax.
“Don’t worry, this coffee house is my friend’s business, most of the design in you is my idea, you see this skeleton
Empty cupcakes? And the name of this coffee house, I came up with it. How about that? Are you starting to worship me?
Say it, don’t hold it in and feel bad.”
”No wonder ……” she drifted off, with derision, then laughed, “no wonder there aren’t many guests in this house
People, as it turns out!”
”Come on, what time is it, it’s almost eleven!”
”It’s just tacky, tacky, tacky, tacky, tacky, tacky, tacky, tacky, tacky, tacky, tacky, tacky, tacky, anyway.”
”Well, don’t say it, ah, save me some self-respect.” She laughed like a child in triumph and
Showing a mouthful of small white teeth. “Coco, you’re beautiful, and even more so when you smile! Really.” In a tone that left no room for doubt
Says.
She laughed again at this, her crescent eyes narrowed, her long lashes fluttering, and the woman, however much
Older ages always love to be coaxed and praised, as I know all too well at the moment. The smile didn’t last long as the face turned
Grimly, he sighed. “Coco, if there’s something sad, just say it, it’ll be better if you say it, it’s meant to be
Falling Man, we wouldn’t have met if we hadn’t gotten drunk in a bar because we were sad.
This is God’s opportunity for us to get to know each other, and God has sent me to be your audience.”
The next thing I learned from her account was that she was now a junior in college and had a boyfriend from the same school that she had been dating for a year.
But today at the grocery store she saw him holding hands with another girl very intimately joking and joking, and she rushed up to confront him about it.
She was also humiliated by the girl, who told her that she was a thing of the past and to stop embarrassing herself with her nonsense. And the boyfriend went so far as to
One assured her that it was definitely in the past tense, and when she asked why, he said that because he couldn’t get anything out of her, and that she was only
It’s not much fun pretending to be an innocent girl all the time, and then she asked Liu Xiang, who works part-time in a bar, to buy her a drink.
Drunk, the latter goes without saying.
I was saddened to hear that love in college is not always pure and beautiful, filled with all kinds of purposes and desires.
How many people say break up on graduation day. I briefly told my story and she listened with great concentration and attention, resting her hand on the
With my chin in my mouth and a deeper furrow squeezing out of my chest, I was really afraid that my eyes would be caught by her, so I had to take a sip of the
That least favorite beer iced coffee.
”So that’s how it is, then she’s not worth it, you’re quite good, barely handsome, and talkative
Well, it’s barely a sense of humor, and the temperament, which I haven’t found yet, is actually smoking in the coffee room, huh? No manners.”
”Really, that’s a high enough rating, I’m honestly terrified, it’s so much better than looking at me and wanting to throw up.”
She giggled again, the most she’d laughed since meeting her.
”Hey, give me a cigarette, I’ll try something.”
”Better not, smoking is bad for a girl’s skin.”
”So you’re still smoking in front of me? Give or take? Say something.”
I had to give her one, I really didn’t want to disobey her just after we met, and I wanted to see something as pure and beautiful as this.
What it’s like to be a female smoker.
”Suck less or you’ll choke.” Lighting it for her, she choked before I finished my sentence. “Ahem, sh
What’s with the smell, why do you men like to smoke this stuff?”
”Manly, not for women to smoke, don’t smoke it, give it to me.” I snatched it away from her, and she did not insist any longer, the
I inhaled a mouthful and said “En, there is a woman’s flavor.” When she heard that, her face instantly red, eyes a little dodge.
Slightly lowered his head, the way …… I can not express in words that beauty, such as the sentence “the tenderness of a lowered head.
Like the shyness of a water lotus flower that does not beat the cool wind.”
We were silent for the next few moments, and the atmosphere was a little awkward, and I couldn’t help feeling remorseful for my abruptness in
If you leave an impression of frivolity, it’s over. I say let’s go, back to the house, or it’ll be tomorrow.
Out of the door, was about to take a taxi to send her back, she hesitantly opened her mouth, “I don’t want to go back today …… time
It’s too late between now and the school should be closed already.” “Okay then, find you a place to stay for the night.”
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Postscript: this is the first chapter, nearly 7,000 words, and it hasn’t even begun to get to the passionate part yet, a word of warning beforehand, this
It’s NTR, or cuckold writing.