Coincidentally, when I was depressed, a girl from the University of Agriculture, a small hometown I met on the train, called to introduce me to a girlfriend on the condition that I would invite the people in their dormitory to dinner. I was trying to get back at my wife, so I agreed, just hoping to find a random sister to fill the empty emotional and physical requirements.
When I saw the girl she introduced me to, I had no appetite at all, so disgusting looks, especially vulgar! However, I have at least seen the world, still laughing, not losing wit and their banter. My little hometown is very witty and talkative, and I flirted while introducing her other roommates, a girl named Qingqing caught my eye. In fact, a year ago I have seen through my small hometown Qingqing, but at that time she just entered the city, clothing and dress are too earthy, not into my eyes, now obviously a lot better, a closer look, is a beauty embryo – long hair, goose-egg face, big eyes, without powder, especially the pure and clean feeling, very let me heart.
After dinner to send them back to the dormitory, through the wine I directly call the small hometown, criticizing her blindly introduced friends to me, she panicked to explain, I generously said it’s okay, and told her that Qingqing is good, I do not know whether she likes me. In order to make up for my “hurt”, she was happy to say for us to create opportunities, immediately thought of an excuse to give the phone to Qingqing. Needless to say, Qingqing also understand what I mean, and afterward know that she liked me from the first meeting – I think I like a man, and soon the two people were chatting happily, coaxing the little girl I’m still very confident.
It happened on the evening of Sunday, October 20, the day before yesterday, I invited them to my home as guests, I live alone in a two-bedroom apartment. At about 8 o’clock they said they wanted to go back, I had already taken care of the little townspeople to leave Qingqing behind, and they really left her behind, and Qingqing also knew that I was not a bad person, so she hesitantly stayed behind.
Two people actually have nothing to do, I also want to molest her, so I found a movie to watch, it is Zhou Yunfa’s film. I turned off the lights, sitting next to her, but a smell of her hair can not help but gently with the arm into her arms, she did not refuse. She is still too small, was born in 80 years, quite honest a child, do not know what to say, just know that they like me, but also will not express. Later, I proposed to the bed to see it, she was a little embarrassed but simply do not know how to open the mouth to refuse, if a different adult woman how to pretend some. Originally really can not bear to touch her, but on the bed on some of the pressure can not help, after all, after my wife left I have not had fun making love, the accumulated energy is extremely strong. Holding her while watching a movie while trying to get an inch, at first just holding hands, even breasts are not allowed to touch, but to touch her hard not to refuse. She always slightly hard to refuse my hand, but I insisted that she gave in, so in addition to panties, I have her all off, I also stripped naked holding her.
At this point, she told me she had never done it. The implication was that she was a virgin. I thought she was joking, so I said I didn’t believe her and would try to find out. She clamped her legs very tightly and refused to let me go up. I’m already in a state of animalistic rage. I don’t have to say that I don’t believe she’s a virgin, but even if she is, I’ll still go for it.
I started kissing her neck, kissing her breasts, and my fingers began to gently rub her clitoris and labia, gradually getting a little wetter and she let her guard down, I slammed down her panties, and she instinctively cowered on the bed like a lamb. I opened her legs with both hands and pressed them against her firm but underdeveloped breasts, my cock was already in her pussy, which had never been touched by anyone else (she said afterward that she had let me do it because she trusted me completely). She was indeed a virgin, and I was a little surprised to learn that, but simply couldn’t contain my onslaught. Even though she suppressed her voice, it still sounded miserable. I have a big cock, my friends say so. So by the time my glans was even fully inside, she was already crying out in pain, and I was feeling more impeded than ever, to the point that I suspected I was in the wrong place, and that there was no way I could get in at all unless I lifted my hips up and pushed forward. As soon as I pushed, she was moved forward by the thrusts, accompanied by loud cries of pain. I was a little too proud to do so, so I stopped and rubbed her for a while. But in the end the desire wasn’t restrained, and I remounted, inserted my glans a little, ignored her pleas, and slammed it in with all my strength, and with a heartbreaking cry, her vagina accepted a man’s cock for the first time. Really tight, I quickly ejaculated, ejaculated for more than a full minute, penis jumped I do not know how many times, really exciting, I ejaculated in a completely clean, only belong to me alone! The blood on the sheets proved her innocence once again!
Over the next 20 hours she and I did it three more times, I controlled the pace and each time it was long enough, but it wasn’t until the last time that she breathed and moaned with arousal, and it made me feel accomplished. She was no longer in as much pain, and still so tight that my cock was vaguely clenched later.
I asked her why she gave me something she had treasured for 20 years if she didn’t know me very well. I was humbled by her answer, she said she didn’t know, she just felt like me, liked my manhood, wasn’t capable of turning me down, she hurt but she was willing to put up with it. I asked her if she would regret it. She lay in my arms and said: even if I don’t want her anymore, even if it ends badly for her, she doesn’t regret it!
I stroked her long hair and felt her childish breasts, not really knowing what to say.
Can I not feel guilty? Originally I wanted to find a woman to vent because of my wife’s desperation, but I didn’t expect to find such a virgin, and more importantly, she is so pure, so innocent, who can bear to hurt her? But I am bound to hurt her, she will certainly be hurt by me later, because I do not love her ！！！！！！ I have nothing but pity for her!
I have nothing in common with her, she’s just a child, I have no possibility of love with her! But I have to be responsible for her, and I can’t bear to tell her the truth until she can withstand the trauma enough.
More to make up for it, I woke up and led her shopping, she was as happy as a child, I tried to smile as easy as possible, she didn’t feel anything. I bought her an outfit from top to bottom, she said she didn’t like the look of the clothes I bought, but she wanted to wear them for me; in the evening I treated her to Kentucky Fried Chicken, and she was content.
Looking at her childish face and feeling her pure feelings, I feel really guilty, what should I do?