The “happy girl” on the advertisement is so beautiful! But in reality, I was so miserable and pitiful. When I was young, I would have been regarded as a “woman with no dreams at all”, but I had lost all my hopes and dreams ten years ago.
My mother and I were manipulated by that very ominous fate.
I think a lot of people know about winter in Hokkaido, because everyone loves snow, snow festivals, that silver-white world. However, the cold locks people in, and I can’t let go, probably because I was born in Hokkaido!
My family is on the outskirts of S. City, and I live with my mother. After my father died in a car accident when I was in kindergarten, my mother raised me on her own, and because of the vast amount of land she owns, my mother built an apartment next to the nearby university and rented it out to college students, and after my father’s death, we lived off the rent.
Since I was a child without a father, I felt lonely, so I was withdrawn, and my teachers at school would always say things like, “Always hiding at home,” “Nervous,” “Can’t make friends,” and so on. “Although my mother often told me to get along well with boys, I couldn’t accept it and developed later than ordinary girls.
There was only one brother I wanted to be with. It was the spring of the sixth grade when a new group of college students came to live in the apartment, and one of them, Yanagida, was tall and thin, very much like his mother, with a clean face, the kind of young man who was born into a rich family in Tokyo.
Brother Yanagida used to teach me my homework, he didn’t always scold me while telling me to be obedient like the teachers at school, he kindly held my hand and then taught me, which made me feel very happy.
“Will? Ye sister said …….” That’s Yanagida-brother’s mantra, and even the biggest headache of math calculations, as soon as I hear such gentle words from him after that, I immediately don’t hate math calculations.
Perhaps it was because I was extremely eager for a father’s love! I often frolicked with Brother Yanagida.
As a matter of fact, my mother moved to S city right after she separated from a certain man and that’s why she married her father who was involved in a traffic accident himself, and that man who separated from my mother was Yanagida’s brother’s father.
Therefore, Yanagida-brother and I can be said to be half-brothers and half-sisters.
The apartment building was built more or less with the sponsorship of Brother Bangta’s father, and his mother wanted him to come and live here because she knew that Brother Yanagida was her son.
Only brother Yanagida and I didn’t know the secret.
The retribution for the immorality of my own father’s actions felt like it would befall us, so when I heard the whole story from my parents afterward, I wasn’t surprised at all.
However, at that time, she didn’t know about her mother’s antecedents either, and just had a single-minded love for the gentle Yanagida brother.
That’s what I heard from my mother afterward, and it was at this time that it occurred to me that we would have had horrible memories of sibling inbreeding and adultery in the past.
Of course, I was very uncomfortable with the fact that I had a disgusting, lewd relationship with Yanagida-san and other things.
When my mother was young, she fell in love with Yanagida’s brother’s father while working as a waitress at a furniture music department in Shinjuku, resulting in the birth of Yanagida’s brother.
The other party is a man with a family background, no pro is just a low status waiter. The two, if you use the ancient word to describe, it is the most hidden from others, secret rendezvous. However, the result is still hard to escape the fate of forced separation.
Even so, mother and Yanagida brother’s father lived a sweet life for seven years.
I used to ride Yanagida-brother like a horse, jumping around the room and occasionally riding on top of his shoulders like a child.
“Ye sister is such a child, so happy?”
I was honest enough to tell him that I wasn’t happy about it, which made him feel bad.
But, for Yanagida-brother I was honest with him about everything.
Honestly, I just love him.
The precocious girls in my class were saying that they “liked a certain boy” and “wanted to kiss a certain boy,” but I felt proud to say that I knew in my heart that “I like Yanagida-bi, who is a college student. “
At that time I was secretly in love with Yanagida brother, he is not only handsome, and his mind is good, if I want to marry someone, I must marry Yanagida brother …..
Therefore, when Brother Yanagida had to go back to Tokyo during the summer vacation of his freshman year, I was literally huffing and puffing and crying.
It was as if he would never come back, with the same sadness as when he lost his father.
“Ye sister don’t give brother Yanagida a hard time because he’ll be back soon.”
Mother scolded me.
“I’ll be right back come September, and what kind of gift does Ye Sister want me to buy for you?”
I can’t answer that. I don’t want anything.
“Just get you the panda’s rag doll,”
“……..”
I just kept crying and screaming, “Don’t go, don’t go!”
August ends at ……….
Brother Yanagida is back, and his boyfriend and girlfriend duo are back with him, said to be his best friends from his high school days, as if it’s the first time they all planned a trip to Hokkaido.
I saw the girl with an “aha”.
Because I immediately thought it might be Yanagida’s brother’s girlfriend and regretted not getting a good look at the girl’s face.
“Sister Ye, this is Mr. xx and this is Miss xx. By the way this Sister Ye is the landlord’s daughter girl, she is now in the sixth grade, when I say girlfriend in Sapporo I am referring to this Sister Ye.”
Brother Yanagida and his friends everyone laughed and his mother laughed loudly together.
But I kept my mouth shut and didn’t show my feelings, so maybe I should have just said, “I hate it!” I probably should have said “I hate it!
However, she was also afraid of being scolded by her mother and thought that the girl would return to Tokyo sooner or later anyway, so she kept quiet.
At dusk on the day Yanagida’s brother’s friend went back, I went to Yanagida’s brother’s room to look for him since I still had a lot of summer vacation homework to do.
Yanagida’s brother was sleeping in a room full of quilts and very dirty.
Beer bottles, and glasses of finished whiskey littered the room, and for the first time I understood that distinctive smell of a man’s room.
“Ahhhh, Ye sister …. I’m so sorry, please wait, I’ll clean up the room ……..”
With a hobbling pace, Yanagida-brother began to straighten the quilt; there must have been some sake left, and as he was about to put it in the closet, he fell, lost his whole balance, and collapsed in front of me.
Ryuuta-brother and I were sandwiched like sandwiches underneath the cushion. I was initially surprised by the suddenness of the situation, but all of a sudden, I also laughed out loud at the strangeness of it.
The pressure of the padded back made me slightly uncomfortable, when, in the midst of the darkness, Brother Yanagida kissed my forehead.
“Ye sister . Ye sister is so cute ……..”
Yanagida-brother still had a slight odor of alcohol on him, so he moved his body away. Then he kept staring at my face, and those eyes full of radiant alienation are still unforgettable to this day.
I was taken aback by the actions of Yanagida-brother, who had unknowingly hugged me tightly.
“Do you like me?”
I didn’t answer “uh-huh”, I just nodded my head right away because I did like him.
Brother Yanagida kissed me on the lips, and I was well aware that it was extremely passionate.
So, he slipped his hand under my skirt, and I thought it was strange (I know about kissing, but why would I do that…). If a girl has had her first period, she can probably imagine what’s going on, but I had no idea what Yanagida-brother was doing since I didn’t know anything about that kind of thing at the time.
Brother Yanagida slipped his hand inside my panties and stroked his fingers back and forth before unbuttoning my shirt and exposing my breasts.
“Why are you doing this kind of action, Yanagida-brother?”
I pushed the quilt up and asked him.
“That’s what men and women do if they love each other.”
While Yanagida brother scratched his head with his hand and desperately tried to explain his actions, I was completely confused that a man would do this kind of action …….. to a woman if he liked it.
However, since this incident, my crush on Yanagida-brother hasn’t changed at all, I’m getting better and better at my schoolwork, and everyone around me loves me very much.
But ……… my young and innocent mind was shattered in its entirety after seeing a horrible scene in the fall of that year.
While practicing for the pre-game for the October games, I suddenly felt sick, so my teacher asked me to go home earlier to rest, so I went home in the morning.
But the entrance door was locked, and if my mother had gone out to buy something. would have hidden the key somewhere near the entrance, but I realized it wasn’t in there.
I wanted to go to Yanagida-brother’s place to play, but I didn’t feel well and wanted to lie down, so I teetered through the general-purpose opening inside and entered the house.
It was about to reach my room, and it was at this time that I initially thought it was my mother calling me, and indeed I did hear her voice, and it seemed to be in pain….
“Aaahhh” and “oooh, oooh” and it was definitely coming from the living room.
I was a little scared, but, being curious, I peeked into the living room, and through the half-open doorway, I saw my mother lying on top of Yanagida-brother, bobbing her body up and down, with neither of them wearing any clothes.
Her mother’s hair was scattered, her mother’s face falling forward and flopping backward at once.
“That feels so good, harder.”
It was painful to say to Brother Yanagida.
Brother Yanagida, on the other hand, is ……..
“Ahhhh, already, Sesshoumaru,” returned, dragging the grip of the mother’s breasts from below.
I found my knees shaking, and in my head I remembered what Brother Yanagida had once said to me
“That’s what men and women do if they love each other.”
But ……. Then, the action in front of you, the naked Yanagida brother and mother two people are in love with each other?
I became afraid.
The man he has a crush on is actually the most in love with his unrelated ……..
Although a small child, the scene, and the shock to the mind, can never be forgotten. At that time, I then left my shoulder bag at the entrance and ran back to my room. Then, alone, I shrunk down on my bed and cuddled my rag doll and went to sleep.
Seeing the shoulder bag placed at the entrance. Yanagida brother seemed to understand right away, and since then I never went to Yanagida brother’s room again, and even when I ran into him on the road, I just stroked my hair with the look of a college student saying hello to an elementary school student.
Mother still needs a man’s body so to speak! That’s why she needs Yanagida-brother’s love for the time being… no, maybe it’s possible that mother has that kind of obscene love with Yanagida-brother for the comfort of her mature flesh.
When I passed by my mother’s room door in the middle of the night trying to use the restroom, I often heard her gasping moans.
I knew that at least until my sophomore year of middle school.
The two of them continued to have that kind of intercourse.
After my menarche, I learned a lot about sex, and because of my interest, I used to spy on the two of them making love.
From time to time, I recall my mother’s mouth filling with Yanagida’s brother’s erect penis, and Yanagida’s brother burying his face between his mother’s thighs under the screen lights.
Moreover, I, who was watching the two of them making love, became excited without realizing it, and at the same time developed the habit of masturbating with my own fingers while watching the two of them making love in the same position.
Sure, I know it’s a bad habit, but ……..
Especially when her mother unbuttons Yanagida-brother’s pants and releases the big meat stick whose pulsing shoulders are throbbing, she looks very happy with a deep sigh.
“Ouch, it’s huge ……..” Said one side.
While using one hand to ask Yanagida-brother’s face to swing backward, and then, to penetrate her own anus, the extremely frantic look of her mother.
Brother Yanagida’s strange rod was becoming more and more majestic as it was rubbed against his mother’s hand, so Brother Yanagida inserted his fingers into his mother’s wet area and then began to stir it back and forth.
During this time, as soon as her mother saw that the time had come, she pulled Yanagida’s brother’s body back so that he was lying flat on his back, and removed his pants and underwear from under his feet.
Mother held in her hand has been a firm and thick Yanagida brother’s rod, so, slowly rubbing back and forth has been a blood-engorged and moist and glossy two lips.
Yanagida-brother had long been unable to resist the urge to thrust in right away, but Mother pulled it out just as she was about to insert it into the chamber. She rubbed it against the small bean-sized stalk that had a pink sheen on her slit.
Then, slid the meat cupping down again, at this time the mother was very comfortable and sighed deeply ………
At that time, seeing Yanagida-brother’s look of impatience, his whole body stiffened and tensed up, so a white sour cheese-like liquid spurted out from the tip of the rubbed rod.
The spurt of cum from the tip of that round penis was the first time I had ever seen it.
“Oops, ejaculated already ……..”
Mother said, Yanagida brother’s rod is already getting soft.
“It’s too soon, it really doesn’t work.”
Although she said that, mother seemed to be undeterred, she herself felt comfortable, right, and kept swinging her waist, finally giving up, so she wiped Yanagida-brother’s rod clean, and with both her hands as if she was rubbing them apart, she began to slowly rub it together.
At first it would feel crunchy all over, but, finally, it felt good all over.
Yanagida brother’s flaccid rod immediately raised its head with vigor. Moreover, the empowered mother then pressed her lips to the top of the rod, and when she rubbed the entire rod with her tongue, it immediately swelled up again.
“This time you have to do it so you can’t cum first.”
Mother said that while facing her ass towards Brother Yanagida in a crawling manner, a gesture that was like a dog, a gesture that one would find repulsive.
However, seeing his mother’s movements Brother Yanagida got up and went around to the back, holding the swollen rod with one hand while caressing his mother’s pale white mounds with the other, and then prepared his cock to be inserted into the crack of his mother’s ass.
However, it seems that it was the first time I inserted this part, and I didn’t know the location of my mother’s crack, and as a result, I inserted it in the wrong part.
“What are you doing, not there! ……”
Having said that. Mother reached behind her, and when she grasped Brother Yanagida’s rod, the obscene slime was so plentiful and wet, and her expression looked so comfortable as it was channeled into her vagina.
Brother Yanagida leaned his body back and wrapped both hands around both of his mother’s ass cheeks, thrusting and withdrawing his meat stick as his waist swung, the flesh of his mother’s crack curling upward as it became entangled in the meat stick.
What an obscene, disgusting sight!
Mother squinted her eyes, her whole body shaking slightly, along with her hips swinging back and forth, occasionally bucking upwards, rubbing the top of her clitoris for a moment, and conversely the more comfortable her penis felt down there, Yanagida’s brother was at the point where he couldn’t hold back.
“In that case, I’m going to cum again ……..”
He said, and hugged his mother’s back tightly. “No, be quiet and take your time.”
Mother said as she spoke and guided one of the hands holding her Yanagida brother close to her breasts while the other hand asked him to rub his clit.
“But I really can’t!”
“Gee, just a little more touching!”
Mother’s entire face cramped up as she wiggled her ass harder.
“Ah, ah ah ah, orgasm already, fantastic.”
After saying that, his whole body stiffened up at the same time. Brother Yanagida must have also shot white liquid into his mother’s body.
So, the two of them lay there in silence. Soon, as her mother sighed deeply, she picked up the toilet paper next to her, lifted her ass up, and then, pulled out her shriveled Yanagida brother’s rod and licked and wiped it clean with the toilet paper.
Seeing the two of them at this point in time caused great confusion in my young mind, and besides, my mother knew that Yanagida’s brother was her own son, yet she had a physical relationship with him.
Also, Yanagida brother and I have promised each other our lives ………
Can there be such a thing in the world as karmic paternity when three people are in an adulterous relationship with each other?
I still to this day constantly resent myself for being so unfortunate.
If it was just me and Yanagida-brother, I would have thought I was saved, but seeing my mother and Yanagida-brother’s lewd gestures, I was in an indescribable state of mind.
Like an animal act, this is something that I fear will never be erased from my mind.
My personality remained unchanged, and for the first year after entering Tokyo Women’s University, I lived alone in a rented house outside, without much change in my life. The girls in my class were open and happy to talk about their boyfriends and about sex, but I had no interest at all.
No, the more I see the behavior of these students, the more it reminds me of the memories of my childhood when I had an impersonal and obscene “crush to destroy”.
Of course, I have boys that I like and have a crush on, even if it’s a joke! For me, there is no other man with fatherly charms but that one.
Therefore, up until now I complained about my mother, although after reaching the age of twenty, I finally became very clear about it, but I thought that perhaps it was my mother who went to seduce Yanagida-brother.
The mother who robbed me of my “crush” and even darkened my character.
How the hell am I going to forgive her in the future?
Every morning, I rode the crowded train to school, surrounded by sleepy-looking office workers boredly reading newspapers or weekly magazines.
Yanagida’s older brother should have been in those crowds as well, now that he was almost thirty, perhaps married and with children.
If you think about it, my mother has a physical relationship with her own son and is arguably my half-brother, if being a sister I can happily call him that.
“Brother ……..”
At the same time, the two of us can have a beautiful sexual relationship, and that’s such a great thing.
Especially when I saw my mother and brother Yanagida’s lewd sexual intercourse, it was true that the blood of my mother’s lechery that was kept in my body. It also began to boil up. Moreover, Yanagida-brother is mother’s real son ………
Is there such a thing in this world?
There is a saying that “Fact is better than fiction” and our mothers are a perfect example.
Anyway, it’s a fact that I have cursed, animal-ugly toxins in my blood.