Fifteen years old is a very strange age, people call this time after the student called half a big boy, the meaning is clearly there, is half an adult, this time of the person on everything began to understand, but do not quite understand, curious about everything, such as sex, for example, women and men, the first time after the morning after the spermatozoa, I went to the field to work in the field of work in a listless manner, sitting on the field rest, and my land next to the Yin Lao Si came over and lent me a fire to smoke a dry cigarette, he is three years older than me, has been married for a long time, just a few months ago to hold on to a son, usually we have a good relationship, so I was confused and uneasy to get up in the morning when I found a strange situation told him, he listened to it and laughed loudly, and then in the curling green smoke, told me about to do a real man of all things, that moment my shock is indescribable, the original in the morality and chastity of the hidden world, actually is the world of morality and chastity. The world hidden behind morality and chastity was actually like this, that there was such a thing in this world, so wonderful that it could make one lose one’s mind and all thoughts, I began to recall everything from last night’s dream, and yes, the sensation was so mind-blowing that I could only feel the blood racing around my body, and my pubic eyelashes involuntarily bulged, bulging out from my crotch, stubbornly wanting to burst through the rough pants that bound it, Yin Old Four discovered my abnormality, smiled and knocked on the pole of my cunt eyelashes with a tobacco poker, got up and left!
I sat alone in the field until dusk, and only then slowly carried the hoe back home, my mother was preparing dinner, saw me look unsettled, and asked me what had happened, I vaguely cope with the past, stretching out my arms and legs on the bed to rest, my mother tiptoeing on the ground, busy in and out of the summer, was soaked in sweat, her shirt clearly outlined the outline of her full breasts, as she walks and slightly quivering, I suddenly realized for the first time that she was not just my mother, she was a woman, her body suddenly became a very strong. Watching her slightly bloated waist and hips twisting under the wrapping of her pants, I suddenly realized for the first time that she was not only my mother, she was a woman, her body suddenly became a very strong attraction in an instant, so that my eyes stayed on her for a long time and did not want to move away, I remembered the things that Lao Si had told me during the day, and remembered the strange noises that I heard countless nights, could it be that she and my father did things like this in the darkness? I remembered the things Lao Si had told me during the day, remembering the countless strange sounds I had heard in the night. I couldn’t restrain myself from imagining everything that happened in that darkness!
This question was soon answered, the night hastily eat dinner, poor people can not afford to light a lamp, had to go to bed early, a bed, sleeping three people, I lie on the bed, tossing and turning can not sleep, feel as if I am waiting for something, but do not know exactly what to wait for, the time gradually passes, I began to sleepy, confused, chaotic, slowly sinking into a dream, and suddenly, I heard my father whispered Suddenly, I heard my father whisper, “Is Bao Wa asleep?” I a jolt, awake, busy pretending to snore, “asleep, are snoring!” Speaking is mother, father “Oh”, after a moment, the darkness issued a slight commotion, as if the rats in the scurrying, father’s breathing suddenly became heavy, “Save your energy, tomorrow we have to work!” Mother said to father, suddenly I heard her humming and gasping softly, I opened my eyes kozo, the weak moonlight penetrated through the windowpane, I saw two blurred silhouettes overlapping in the darkness, tumbling, casting blue shadows on the wall, I could even tell that mother was at the bottom, and father was at the top, her sturdy and powerful arms pressed against mother, one hand grasped mother’s breasts, as if kneading a ball of dough, and mother’s body was wrapped around father’s, her legs unknown to me, her body was like a snake. Wrapped in the father body, legs unashamedly wide open, the inside of the fat field exposed to the outside of the sky, the father in the ground plowing, each fall hoe are deeply planing into the …… The sound of the commotion is getting louder and louder, and the two people’s breathing is getting more and more rapid, mother could not restrain the low cry out: “pro brother! …… pro hanzi …… day sister good to live …… sister does not live …… to die ……” father gasped, made the noise can be lifted off the roof, I actually clearly heard the skin and flesh collision of the popping sound! Mother desperately holding her voice, throat issued a crying voice: “ah …… ah …… brother …… pinch me here! …… give me a rub …… pro brother … good brother …… give sister a rub … …ah…ah …… ah …… big stick stabbed sister to death …… stabbed …… inwards Stabbing …… ah …… ah ……”
I’m going crazy: this is my mother! This is my mother! This is coming from my own mother, who hardly ever talks to other men in the village! So slutty, so slutty, so shameless! The feeling of hot blood on the ground in the daytime returned once again, the cuntal lobe jumped out from the crotch of my pocket, swollen and uncomfortable, I held it in my hand, and found that it was much bigger than usual, much thicker, much harder, and hot to the touch, I don’t know what kind of power drove me, I subconsciously stroked it several times, and then suddenly the feeling that I had never experienced before came from the bottom to the top, and it was like a cone that went straight up to the top of my head, and it slammed violently into My heart, I all of a sudden crazy set up, yes, this is the feeling of last night’s dream, like a bird in the sky free flight galloping, but also as if immersed in a river flowing with hot water with the current, this is what I was waiting for! The father got even more hard, the mother could not even speak, just intermittent grunts and screams, legs in the kang stomping, kicked off the broken quilt, the father of the quilt into a ball, pad in the mother’s waist below the mother’s fat white buttocks cushion high, a hand from the between the legs into, the mother wanted to use her hands to push away: “Do not … … … don’t gouge there …… dirty ……” father shook off her hand, stubbornly into the place, suddenly she let out a scream, through the roof tiles, straight out of the night sky, no longer care! I can hear, she let go of her voice howling up, like a bitch in heat, legs up, the soles of the feet rushing to the sky, arms around the father’s neck, the father like a pile driving his prick hard into her body, throat cackling, I set up their own cunts, the hand also accelerated, dizzy, the whole person like in a dream, but clearly know that it’s not a dream, I want to stop, but the hand does not listen to the call, but more and more fast, as if a little more and more quickly, as if a little more and more quickly. On the contrary, the more I get faster and faster, as if a large car without a driver, is running wildly towards the cliff, finally fell off the cliff unstoppably …… The moment of collapse came, a huge wave of pleasure came, I completely drowned in the testicles, a tremor, I shivered a little bit, the semen from the body of the surging spray, sprayed all over the quilt is a sticky piece of …… At this moment, I was in the middle of the night, I was in the middle of the night. At this moment, suddenly father muffled roar, mother defiantly shouted up: “Do not pull out …… wait for me …… “The father tried his best to continue, finally, not long after, mother also got done! Two people hugged together, stiff, trembling, the darkness resounded teeth clenched together the sound of cackling …… slowly, they went limp, mother from underneath the quilt to pull out, the two people tightly covered ……
After the climax is tired, the initial wave of excitement after the past, the mind will be immersed in a thick sleep, I am weak, in the quilt, close your eyes to lie down, only to realize that has been sweating, was about to go to sleep, and suddenly heard the voice of mother and father to talk to, “brother, your body is not as good as it used to be, you are tired of the day to support the boat, let us from now on the night a few times less day, your body and bones to be tight! Your health is very important!” “Water, I’m not afraid, I’m afraid that you can’t stand it, thirty like a wolf, forty like a tiger, fifty like a tiger, fifty can suck earth, you’ll want it more than before, can I stand by and watch you suffer?” “What am I afraid of suffering? You are alone outside in the wind and rain, the suffering is big, we ran out so many years, how much suffering to support such a family, if you have a body what …… how can I live? Alas, that day, if I did not have to pester you to make the father saw, the father will not be alive angry death …… “Mother whimpered,” do not cry, water, do not cry, that thing does not blame you, complaining about me, is that I first forced you to, twenty years, why do you still want to not be able to do so? I’m a big animal, my own brother has been in love with my own sister, which family’s father will not die of anger, it’s been more than twenty years, we will soon meet our parents in the ground, when the time comes to go down to the frying pan or pull out the tongue I’ll take the blame for you, go to sleep, don’t think about it!” “No, I should take the responsibility for you, that day while parents are not there, I deliberately changed into good clothes to seduce you to let you day, pro sister seduced pro brother, I am more shameless than Pan Jinlian, brother, you must take care of your body and bones, and when I have to go down when I go down first, and ask for mercy with the king of hell …… “Mother’s voice stopped, as if the father covered her mouth with his hand, “Do not say this, sleep, the days are still long, Bao Wa has not yet married daughter-in-law, we have to wait to see the grandchildren before we go, okay?” “Mother did not say, may be nodded, the room quieted down, not long after the father’s even snoring, sandwiched between the mother’s nostrils, together and down, as if the husband sings and the woman follows ……
I didn’t come back to my senses for a long time, and what was revealed in their reply made me wake up from the shock only when the sky turned white: my parents, they were actually brother and sister! This fact gave me the same impact as the first time I learned about men and women, my parents, they are a pair of incest brother and sister, and I, is the product of incest! I never slept again, the next day the whole day, I was like sleepwalking, down to work, dry dry will stop on the hoe frozen there, thinking of everything that happened in the night, thinking of the words of mother and father – “pro-brother day pro-sister” “pro sister seduced pro brother”…… the next few days, every day so, I can not accept the fact that my parents in my eyes as if a lot of strangers, they are no longer the former strict father and mother, but like a pair of adulterers and adulteresses, full of their night entangled in the head! In my eyes, they are no longer a strict father and mother, but like a pair of adulterers, all I can think of is their blurred nude bodies entangled together at night, although they are no different from the past, but their words and deeds have become unspeakably strange in my eyes, and every day, my bedtime is still very early, but I fall asleep more and more later and later, waiting to eavesdrop on the passions of my father and my mother, of course, not every day, but each time I hear it, I am unusually excited, and the pleasure I get when I masturbate is much more intense than usual, and I don’t know why. I don’t know why, perhaps I was born as a product of incest has a keen sense of empathy and identification with the act of incest, I began to pay attention to Mother’s every move, Mother’s body like all women of this age, especially tits and buttocks, she works and walks caused by every tits and buttocks trembling will bring me visual stimulation, my mind often floats out of this picture: Mother stripped naked, a snow-white flesh dazzling in front of my eyes. Flesh dazzling in front of my eyes wiggling her tits and ass, soon, mother felt my strange – due to long-term tension and sleep deprivation caused by trance, dark face, perhaps she has guessed that I heard their room, but did not know that I heard something more secret, she began to talk to dad should give me a daughter-in-law!
After the harvest that fall, my parents began to arrange a marriage for me, and the matchmaker swore on the edge of the bed that she would take care of it, but the poor family’s daughter-in-law was not so good! After running all over the countryside, finally in the winter, said a family would like to marry the girl, is 30 miles away from a village, the girl is not bad, but also able to work, and the most important thing is not to ask for too much dowry, drank the betrothal wine, agreed to the New Year’s Eve to do wedding, since then, the weather is one day colder than the day, the Yellow River on the freeze, Dad can not go out to support the boat, and Mother at home! Preparing for my wedding, dad propped up the boat for more than twenty years, more or less save a little money, but used to do the wedding, still stretched to the limit, dad had to scramble to borrow money, in order to borrow a little bit of money to run dozens of miles of the road, even so, to the time after the eighth day of the month, there is still a sum of money did not fall, and this money is no matter how to get out of it, dad anxious to worry about dozens of hair, in order to this money anxiety, running around, but the result is that the money is the best way to make money, but it is the most important thing is that we have a lot of money, so we can do it. One day he went out and didn’t come back for the whole night, my mother and I couldn’t rest assured, fearing that something might have happened to him, we sat on the kang and waited for my father for the whole night without closing our eyes, he came back in the morning, with a dirty head and dark circles under his eyes, but his face was full of joy, my mother greeted him, patted the dust on his clothes, and asked him with concern where he had been for the whole night, my father shivered and touched a small bag of money out of his arms. Do shivering to touch out a cloth bag to, layer by layer to open, and so lift the last layer of the time, my mother and I in front of our eyes suddenly bright, “Jade embellishments!” Mother exclaimed, good, father’s hand in the cloth bag is wrapped in a piece of silver jade embellishment, “his father, where did you get it?” Mother asked eagerly, “You didn’t do anything to hurt the world, did you?” Father proudly rewrapped the jade embellishment and handed it to Mother, unable to contain his joy, he said, “What do you think, we can’t do anything harmful even if we are poor, do you know how this fast jade embellishment came about? I won it at Boss Qiao’s house, one night, a piece of jade, a piece of jade!” Mother held that piece of jade embellishment, hands kept trembling, Qiao Boss is a famous dilettante, his family is a gambling den, every day there are many gamblers there all night long wild gambling, losing their fortunes in one night is not a few, and often some people lose to bet on the house to bet on the land to bet on their wives, I did not think that has always been a simple and hard-working father will go to the casino, and even will win, the mother’s face, but not how much joy, the jade embellishments after the receipt of the father said. Said: “his father, we really can not get money, and there to say, I see they are sensible people, not too difficult for us, this Joe old everyone, or do not go, in case of loss, that ……” father waved his hand to interrupt the head of her words, said: “I see the right, and will win,” he said. “I see the right, can not lose, our family is poor, marry this face can not lose face!” Mother still want to say something, but the father has gone into the house on the bed fell asleep ……
For several nights in a row, father came back at dawn with all the weariness in his heart, the cloth bag in his arms with one or two jade embellishments, the look of sorrow swept away from his face, every day excitedly counting with his mother how much he still lacked, and a few days to get it all together, as if life had steeply become incomparably better, that kind of happy expression was something that I had never seen before in the past fifteen years, but on the seventh morning, when father came back, his freezing His lips were purple, and as soon as he entered the door, he rushed to the stove and squatted down shivering and roasting the fire, and the old sheepskin jacket on his body did not know where it had gone, and his mother hurriedly added firewood to the stove and carried a quilt to put around his father, and it took a long time for his father to get over the pain, “What’s the matter with you, his father? Where is your fur coat?” Mother asked anxiously, “lost ……” father drank half a ladle of hot water and spat out these two words in frustration, and never spoke again, father warmed up and then fell on the bed, slept for a whole day, mother called him to eat he did not eat, to the time of sunset, father climbed up from the bed, sullen face into the arms of the bed. When the sun went down, Dad got up from the bed, put two pieces of cold bread into his pocket with a sullen face, and went out again, and Mother stopped him at the door: “His father, don’t go, I’ve seen enough money, and the money won by playing money doesn’t last long, so how can you win it every day?” I also followed the mother to stop the father, said: “Dad, tomorrow I go to talk to the Lan Cao family, let them grace grace ……” sentence is not finished, the father roared: “You little brat know what the hell!” Reaching out to push me away from the door to go, mother went forward to drag him an arm, was he threw aside, a stagger fell in my arms, father did not look back out of the door, disappeared in the vast night ……
I hugged my mother, her head leaning against my strong chest, for the first time I had a man’s innate desire to protect a woman, although this woman is my mother, but she is a woman first, this desire makes me just want to hold her like this, let her lean against me, the longer the better, she didn’t say a word, she was just staring blankly at the door, the tears gradually came out of her eyes and crawled all over her face, the sky was finally dark, I helped my mother into the house, no matter how I tried to persuade her, she just didn’t speak. Helping mother into the house, mother sitting on the bed, no matter how I persuade, she just do not speak, fifteen years, her brother, her husband never spare her a hit, scold her a sentence, you can think of how much she was hurt this time, I look at the mother is not to persuade the over, they want to go to the old man of the family to drag the father hard back, mother dead set on not letting me go, said: “Let your father go, eat a loss, learn a good boy, and then you will have to go back to the house. Let your father go, to suffer a loss, learn a good lesson, not to suffer a loss, he will never turn back, this is a good thing!” That night, the father lost again, came back and robbed the mother that year from her mother’s family brought out the only jewelry, ready to give the new daughter-in-law’s silver ring to change the wine, drunk, this is the first time in my life to see him drink, woke up after the father rummage through the closet to find out the last of the mother’s hidden money to go to the casino, the mother had hoped that the father could eat the loss of a lesson, and did not hard to stop him, but she was wrong!
This day I went out to borrow some rice for the pot, came back to see my mother lying on the kang moaning, bleeding from the corner of the mouth, tears of pain, obviously beaten by the father, I hurriedly put down the rice, on the kang and climbed to the side of my mother, just want to say something, my mother a hand tightly grabbed my hand, she was in pain, she would like to find something to hold, so that it can be psychologically relieved of the pain, perhaps she was unconscious, but for me, the moment my two hands touch each other, but as if struck by lightning, my hand trembled and said: “Let mother hold for a while! At that moment, it was as if I was struck by lightning, my hand trembled, mother groaned and said: “Let mother hold it for a while!” Suddenly, their day and night thinking of the woman as their own as a dependency, a man’s pride and sense of responsibility came to life, I used both hands to hold the mother’s hand, as if that is the mother’s entire body was held in the palm of my hand, with two hands tightly protected, the tighter the grip, the more safe the mother, until dark, the mother only slowed down the strength to let go of my hand, struggling to say: “Bao Wa! I said: “Bao Wa, give my mother to boil some water, a compress, my mother’s body is very painful!” I answered, not much time to boil a pot of boiling water, into a wooden pot, placed on the pot in front of the kang, mother let me turn my back to the face, took off their own clothes, only a red bib, I turned my face, saw my mother’s nearly half-naked body and her real breasts and fat buttocks, could not help but freeze, mother saw me looking straight at her, as if she realized what, her face was red, and was busy on the kang, so that I hurry to give her a hot compress with a hand towel, I put the towel on, and then I put the towel on, I put the towel on. Hand towel hot compress, I wet the towel, wrung out, on the mother’s body bruises on the green and black, hand inadvertently touched the mother’s armpits near the tits of the place, the mother shivered, the two legs gently rubbed a few times, I noticed the mother’s reaction, the towel cooled the towel change, I deliberately try the place, the mother’s body was again a tremor, there is no wound, it is not possible to be painful, the only possibility is that the mother’s Body in the long time in the hunger and thirst, has become unusually sensitive, this discovery makes me feel a wave of inexplicable excitement, the third time to change the towel, I excused the dressing wound, boldly unlocked the mother’s bib in the back of the strap, mother’s head deviated, seems to want to say something, finally still silent, mother’s back is exposed in front of me, my hands come from the smooth and heterosexual stimulation of the feeling of my heart beating more than wildly, a tingle in the chest, mother’s back is exposed in front of me, my hands come from the smooth and heterosexual stimulation of my heart beating wildly , my chest was tingling, and Niang’s body became hot under my hands, not only because of the
For the dressing of a hot towel, I suppressed my urge to further action, with a hot towel to the mother finished dressing the wound, tied up the bib, cleaned up, then blew the lamp to sleep, this night, mother and I did not sleep well, from the mother’s side of the from time to time came a soft, long sigh ……
My psychology, mother do not know feel no, but since that day she will often let me give her hot compresses, time is getting longer and longer, from the back, to the arms, to the thighs, mother although still beaten, but no longer like before in tears, father’s addiction to alcohol and gambling more and more, and sometimes he can win some money back, but more often is to lose, in order to pay back the gambling debt and alcohol debt, father almost sold all the things in the family, to the March of this year, the family has been all alone. In March of this year, the family has been a family of four, this time the Yellow River has been thawed, but the father did not have a little to go to the boat to earn money, and I did not go down to the ground to accumulate fertilizer and turn over the land for the spring plowing preparations, still in the gambling and wine struggle, this night, I came back to the ground, just into the yard, I heard my mother’s cries, I screamed bad, put down the hoe rushed into the house, only to see the father carrying a bag of cornmeal on the shoulder, to go out to the mother in the back of the dead pull him, crying Mother was behind him, pulling him back, crying: “You sold the grain, what are we going to eat, brother!” Hearing this brother, father’s body shook, how many past events came to mind, stopped in his tracks, I took the opportunity to go up and snatch the cornmeal, put it back to the original place, stood to the side of the mother, father’s face muscles twitching, a moment flashed countless expressions, I looked at his face: dark, thin, tired, old, full of wrinkles, stubbled mustache, eye sockets sunken, I suddenly felt and the distance from this person is very far away, as if this is not my father, but a stranger I have never known. I suddenly felt very far away from this man, as if this was not my father, but a stranger I never knew. Dad stood there for a while, suddenly stomped his feet, sighed heavily, rushed to the front of the kang and pulled the only remaining quilt, rolled it into a roll and held it under his arm and walked out, I was shocked, went up to stop him and said: “Dad, you sold the quilt, how can you let us sleep at night?” My father glared at me and said, “It’s not winter, why do you need a quilt? Get out of the way!” I got anxious and said, “Dad, stop gambling, let’s live a good life, you support the boat and I farm, and feed my mother well, our family is already in such a state, if you continue to gamble, our family can’t live!” Dad was even more furious, roared: “you a nuisance goods, all day nuisance me, I can not win, back to beat you this little bastard ……” said the hard charge towards the outside, I went forward to pull his arm back to pull back, dad backhanded a punch in my face, my mind a dizzy spell! I have a dizzy mind, the long pent-up anger burst out, according to the father’s stomach is a foot, the father staggered, almost fell, screaming and cursing, threw away the quilt, pounced on me and I tore up, mother screamed, rushed to the middle of the two of us want to pull us apart, but a woman’s strength, want to separate the two men who fought the red-eyed, simply a dream, she did so as a result of the chaos of the father punched her in the jaw, she did not say anything fainted to the ground, I did not say anything. She fainted without saying a word, I was shocked, let go of father to see the mother’s injuries, father took the opportunity to kick me in the back, kicked me down on the mother’s side, rolled up the quilt on the ground and ran out of the door, I could not catch up with the father, endured the pain and carried mother to the kang, gave her a bowl of hot water, and pinched her, father snatched away the quilt, I had to put a piece of tattered clothes over her … …After a short while, when I finished scrubbing, lying on the bed of the mother “hmm”, spit out a breath, body movement, opened her eyes, I rushed over, lifted her head, put the broken ceramic bowl to her mouth, so that she drank, mother shook her head, pushed the bowl away, blew out the oil lamp, the darkness, she said. “Go to sleep!”
I was lying on the cold bed, the broken mat without mattress relentlessly sucking away every trace of heat from my body, I remembered the quilt, it gave off a musty smell of old age, not because my mother was too lazy to take it apart and wash it, but it could not be taken apart and washed, as long as it was in the water, it would inevitably be rotten, although it was old and worn out, although moldy, but after all, it is a bed of cotton quilts, in the middle of the night of the spring cold, I put all the clothes on my body, hugged into a ball, shivering in the cold wind leaking in from all sides of the broken house, several times I fell asleep, several times I woke up freezing, I could even hear my teeth grating. I hugged myself into a ball, shivering in the cold wind that leaked in from all sides of the broken house, falling asleep several times, waking up several times, and I could even hear the sound of my own teeth grating, and my own teeth were not the only ones in the room, I could clearly hear the sound of teeth from the other end of the bed, and my mother was cold, and couldn’t sleep, and in the sound of her teeth, there was also a low whimpering sound, and it wasn’t just because of the cold, but my mother’s cries The cat’s claws scratched my heart into a strip, making me so upset that I wanted to tear my own chest open, I didn’t want to listen to Niang cry anymore, because then my heart would really break, I lifted off the clothes on my body and crawled toward the darkness of the other side of the kang, “Bao Wa, aren’t you asleep?” Mother stopped crying when she heard the noise from this side, “Mother, are you cold?” I replied, “Mother isn’t cold, you should go to sleep, you still have to go down to the field tomorrow!” “Mother, I’ll come to you, I’m afraid you’ll catch a cold, I’m young and have strong firepower, we’ll not be cold if we squeeze together!” I said on the one hand, one side has climbed over half of the bed, put the pillow to lie down next to mother’s pillow, a warm woman’s body aroma comes to my face, mother moved to the side, stopped sobbing, put the clothes on my body to cover a few more, mother’s body heat through the clothes to my body, my body suddenly had a hot air, this heat stirred up my desire to fall asleep, surging up, I do not realize that I fell asleep in a daze! ……
After an unknown period of time, as if I felt something arching in my arms, suddenly startled, open my eyes around is still dark, but the feeling in my arms is more and more real, soft, warm a body, arching in my arms, but also kept to compact! I suddenly realized that I was in my own bed, then this body, must be my mother! I could tell that she had given me all her clothes to cover me, but she herself was freezing to death, cold and sleepy, her consciousness was already blurred, and when she felt a living person with a hot body beside her, she instinctively came over to me, trying to warm herself, while simply forgetting that this was her son! My heart suddenly jumped, in a flash my mind turned over countless thoughts, should I remind her? Then this soft, warm body would have to leave my arms, no, absolutely not! What I should do is to hold on a little tighter! I stretched out an arm and wrapped Niang’s body into my own embrace a little tighter, but to my surprise, Niang actually stretched out an arm and hugged me as well! As if a stone stirred up a thousand waves, my psychological defense immediately collapsed, mother in my arms gently breathing, body in my arms squirming, like a warm jade “brother, brother ……” mother mumbled dreamily, I know she is my father, I almost can’t hold on, will be wrong, I will be wrong, I will be wrong, I will be wrong. I almost could not hold out, will be wrong, and mother into this good, but deep down, there seems to be a trace of reason is telling me, can not do this! It cried out to me, “If you do something with your mother as your father, she will regret it when she is sober, and the only way for her not to regret it is for her to be sober enough to realize that she is accomplishing something good with you! Because if sober she does things with you, it means she really loves you, her own son, as a man!” Yes, I’m a man too, so why should I use another man’s name to make the woman I love happy?”