I still remember fondly the pale face of my beautiful wife, in her hospital bed after giving birth to Jiayi fourteen years ago.
Ming detailed …… I don’t think I can do it …….
She said with a bitter but feeble smile as she cradled the newly born and still bloodied Jiayi.
Beside her, I had long since been quite useless in crying, knowing only to clutch my wife’s hand, and not caring whether it was tears or snot that flowed down my face; in short, it was a mess.
You won’t, you won’t! Didn’t you promise to take me and Jiayi on a trip to Zhimen, to let him soak in your favorite hot springs with you? I’m sorry …… Ming detailed, this promise, it seems that I can …… not fulfill …… it.
She strained, her eyelids drooping.
I took a deep breath and grabbed the nurse who had been standing behind me for a long time and yelled, “There must be a way to save her, there must be! Think of something, please! The nurse was stunned by my impulsiveness, and helplessly called out to the doctor standing aside.
However, that doctor did not stop my move, just put his hand on my shoulder and said, Mr. Liu …… I understand your pain, please calm down …….
Calm down? How the fuck do you tell me to calm down! I said angrily, a throw away the nurse, turned back and ran back to the bed: Ling, do not sleep, you must not fall asleep ah! Ming detailed …… I am so tired …… really tired …… she said, I clearly feel ── my beautiful wife’s fire of life is little by little extinguished.
Ling, Ling! Don’t leave me! My eyes had long been blurred by tears, but despite this, I didn’t dare to wipe them away, because I was really afraid of my wife leaving before my eyes.
Details …… Promise me one thing …….
You say it, you say it! I’ll promise you anything, please …… don’t leave me …….
Keeping Jiayi …… smiling …… is the same …… as …… you did for me.
I promise you! I promise you …… don’t close your eyes! Ling, Ling! I felt that his hand had gradually lost its strength, his fingers were powerless and loosened, and I fell into the abyss of despair …….
Rei, answer me, please …….
I rocked her slightly, hoping that she would give me a little response.
But I didn’t get this tiny bit of hope that I wanted.
All I could do was cry, over and over, letting the tears wash over my face, letting my nose run indecently into my mouth.
My condolences, Mr. Liu. ……
The doctor said with a sigh as he patted me on the shoulder and looked at the EKG that became a horizontal line.
Are you good enough to be a fucking doctor? I fucked! I angrily grabbed the doctor and blasted my fist into his face so hard that he fell aside and spat out two or three teeth that I had broken hard.
Just then, my sister also barged in from outside the room and pulled me to a halt: Brother! What are you doing? Don’t be like this! Don’t stop me, let go of me! Brother, brother! Have you had enough? Suddenly a very powerful impact with an ear-splitting roar hit me hard in the face, instantly causing me to blink, spinning twice and tumbling to the ground, knocking over many medical instruments along with it.
I rubbed my swollen cheek and glared at my angry dad.
Calm down. How old are you? You still want to make things worse, don’t you? I sat on the ground with hatred, thinking of my wife’s face before she died, and wiping away the tears that kept falling.
I’m sorry, my son was unintelligent and I will re-subsidize the cost of compensation to you and your hospital.
Dad bowed toward the doctor, who stood up and just frowned and shook his head …….
From there, however, it was the beginning of the agony …….
After that incident, that hospital ruthlessly took me to court, and although I only lost some money after the victim’s sympathy, the psychological trauma was hard to be pacified by it.
I skipped many weeks of work, and my supervisor, aware of the predicament I was in, just helped me carry a multitude of jobs and told me to stay home and recuperate.
But it’s only a temporary solution, and then I’ll have to face the same old life – I know that very well.
However, now I really can’t get up the energy, and even my daughter, I have left it to Mom and Dad to raise, what as a father and other responsibilities I do not want to care at all, contact with the sun is too much trouble.
So I simply quit my job very sorry to my supervisor and barely got by on my meager savings.
Eight years have passed so quietly …… These eight years but I feel as if I have spent a lifetime.
Life is so meaningless, why do I have to keep living like this?
Character I [change] bell …….
The phone rang beside me, and I stared at it for a moment, ignoring it and just continuing to cower my body in the corner of a room that was probably only five pings in size.
It was already the sixth call, coming fast and furious, and ringing again as soon as it was cut off.
I don’t want to care which one is so urgent, even if the end of the world is coming I just take it for granted.
Bell …….
This is the seventh call …… Doesn’t it bother anyone who calls? I just want to spend the rest of my life like this …… Anyway, by the time my existence is completely gone, I won’t have the motivation to keep living anymore.
Even the landlord downstairs can’t wait for me to die.
The complaint letters and rent reminders stuffed in the …… mailbox told me so.
Bell …….
Eighth pass.
I simply unplugged the phone line and continued the dark space that belonged to me alone.
The noise finally stopped, never to be heard again, never to disturb my long dead soul.
Bell …….
Huh? Didn’t I unplug the phone line a long time ago? Why is there still this ringing sound? I slowly raised my head, and after confirming that the phone line was indeed unplugged, I retreated into the corner again.
It’s an illusion, right? ………
Knock knock …….
Damn stupid son, open the door for me right now! That was Dad’s voice …… It seems that trouble has really gotten into the house.
Please, leave me alone …… Just let me go like this and I won’t disturb anyone …….
Your daughter is already eight years old, eight years old! You still want to turn him into a roadside orphan like this don’t you? After Huiling left you just discarded the relics he left behind? Upon hearing that, my mind again conjured up the days when Ling used to knit her brows and smile and live happily with me, causing my tears to fall unheeded again.
I don’t care.
What kind of father leaves his daughter with her parents? I’m leaving first, so just let your daughter be buried here with you! Shortly after, the sound of a sharp engine start came from downstairs.
I also didn’t realize that Dad was really that cruel to leave his granddaughter here like that.
True …… trouble.
Should I bother with her? There are so many abandoned children in the world anyway, and the landlord will surely take Jiayi to a shelter after seeing her, right?
Homey …… Homey ……? Keeping Jiayi …… smiling …… is just like …… you did to me …….
Ling …….
Remembering my promise to Wheeling, I let out a long sigh and wiped the tears from my face before turning on the lights (I hadn’t turned the fluorescent lights back on again since four years ago), and it took a while for my eyes to adjust to the sudden brightness.
Through the doorway, a small figure could be vaguely seen sitting in front of it.
I was just about to open the door when suddenly I saw a man with a disheveled head and dull eyes through the mirror that hung over the door.
Touching my hair, I couldn’t believe that this was what I looked like.
Looking back at the room, there were empty wine bottles, noodle bowls, and cans everywhere, and there was a foul odor emanating from it.
Forget it …… Anyway, this kind of life will continue again after I get Jia Yi settled …….
With that thought in mind, I opened the door helplessly and slowly.
The little girl outside the door had a white face and white skin, which looked even more crystal clear under the fluorescent light from above, making me look at her for a while.
Yet it was her little face that was able to arouse my interest to stand still and even squint my eyes to scrutinize it.
That goose egg like small round face, big eyes, with a bit of coffee color hair and long hair cape soft hairstyle, lime green small dress …… how to look exactly the same as the shrunken Huiling ah …….
Did Dad and Mom …… deliberately make Jia Yi like this? Thinking of the past, I felt a twinge of nostalgia again, but my facetious personality made me force back the tears.
Jiayi seemed to be frightened by the sight of me as well.
Just stood frozen in the doorway, clutching the bear-shaped rag doll in his arms, both eyes staring straight into mine.
That’s when I remembered how bad I looked myself.
Jia Yi ……? I called softly.
Originally, I had intended to use cold colloquialisms, so that she would not have the slightest feeling for me, so that I could easily send her to the shelter and send my troubles away in the process; however, I did not realize that these two such innocent words would be spoken with such tenderness that even I felt like vomiting, even when I was speaking to Hye-ryong, who was not so gentle.
Dad …… Dad ……? Jiayi tried to call out as well, the fear-filled tones not hidden in the slightest, and brought back the charisma I had intended to do.
However, I knew that if I took Jia Yi to the shelter in this condition, I might even be arrested as a pervert who abducted and changed children, just causing more trouble.
Why don’t you go in and sit down for a while. Later, Daddy will take you somewhere.
After saying that, I finally regained the coldness I wanted.
Wow …… oh …….
Jiayi is actually very obedient and submissive.
After responding, he stepped into the room, but frowned.
Dad …… Stinky …….
Ka-yi couldn’t seem to stand the stench after smelling it, and put down her bear doll, pinching her nose and fanning herself in front of it with her other little hand.
This reaction had been expected, so I just walked into the bathroom, grabbed my long unused razor, and started working on my long unorganized face.
Oh, that’s okay. We’re leaving later anyway.
While splashing water on my face, I said coldly.
Dad …… Where are we going? Jia Yi’s voice came from the living room, which made me can’t help but OS in my mind: why is this brat asking so much? Going to a place where lots of kids who will play with you.
I regretted it just as soon as I said it.
Because the razor had long since been unused for so long that the blade had dulled off, allowing me to accidentally cut into my own skin, it looked like it must have bled quite a bit going down.
I frowned and grabbed the replacement blades next to me, only to realize that those were pretty much rusted out as well, so I had to endure the pain and continue to deal with it with the dulled razor.
The sound of plastic bags suddenly started coming from the living room and I wondered what the brat was doing.
While my room is really full of junk, it’s not so bad that I can’t find a place to sit.
Forget it …… There’s nothing important anyway, the only thing that matters is only on the computer, Huiling’s picture.
After dealing with the beard, a long time had actually passed and I had scraped myself so badly from the blade that several drops of blood had even trickled down my chin.
But no amount of pain was worse than the wound in my heart that had opened up when I lost Wheeling, so I simply didn’t bother to deal with it and just let it drip down.
Then again …… is all about dealing with hair.
She was about to turn on the water from the rosette, when suddenly Jiayi’s figure appeared from the bathroom doorway, straining to drag a very large bag toward the door, wondering what game she was playing.
I was so busy that I was sweating profusely and even my clothes were half wet.
Is it necessary ……? Then again …… is there such a big bag of stuff in my room? I thought as I rinsed water through my hair.
But it was only a short time before I realized that I had long been too lazy to think, and that a lot of common sense had been forgotten as a result, to the point of being a bit of a precursor to Alzheimer’s disease.
Well …… the water rushes to the wound and it really hurts.
Ahh! Dad, why is it red? What kind of stupid question is this brat …… asking again.
My eyes are too waterlogged to open now, and I don’t know what the hell Jia Yi is doing right now.
Daddy’s washing his hair. Go play with yours. Later.
Dad …… Can I help? …… Whatever.
…… Whatever.
The pain from the cuts on my face and the pain in my eyes made it literally impossible for me to open my eyes as some of the water mixed with blood washed into them.
To be honest, it’s a bit difficult for me to finish washing my hair, so it’s okay if this little doll wants to help and let him try.
Any worse, it won’t affect my next plans anyway.
A pair of small, soft, warm hands held the lower edge of my face, also touching my wound inadvertently, causing me to frown, yet she seemed self-conscious as well and moved away hastily.
And carefully pressed my jaw down where it wasn’t injured.
I knew it was because she wasn’t tall enough to touch my head and it was very difficult to do so, so I just sat down so she could rinse off without any problems.
Dad …… you have suffered a lot of injuries …… does it hurt? The question brought a cold smile to my face.
Is the pain any greater than the pain in my heart? Although I don’t blame her for Huiling’s death, I can’t change the fact that she died in childbirth because she gave birth to her.
It’s okay, you wash it quickly.
Oh …… well ……
She gently washed my grease-covered hair, which even I was sticky and disgusted by, but she didn’t feel repulsed by it at all, reminding me that in the old days, when I bathed with Whee-Ling, Whee-Ling always washed my hair with the same technique.
Could it be that this action can also be inherited? Gradually, her hand caressed my cheek, that soft and warm little hand moved me slightly, I couldn’t help but gently grab her hand as if it was Huiling’s and quietly kissed it.
And although Jiayi was shocked for a moment by my actions, yet she didn’t stop the rinsing.
It wasn’t long before my head was pretty much washed and I found a washcloth to wipe my face clean before I could open my eyes.
Seeing Jiayi widened her eyes and looked at me, seemingly seeing something strange like eyes, let me feel a burst of discomfort, I can not help but questioned: what is it, his own father looks strange? Jia Yi sniffed and hastily averted her eyes, as if a small child had made a mistake and was caught by her parents, and answered with a voice as thin as a gnat: No …… it’s just that there are really a lot of wounds on dad’s face …….
Dad, do you want to rub the medicine? Just wait a minute.
The original cut from the razor blade had been washed away by the water, but it didn’t take long for the blood to flow out again, and I didn’t think it was a good idea to keep going like this.
However, at this time, I couldn’t help but shift my eyes to Jiayi again.
This little brat is really a brat, it doesn’t matter that she’s already sweating all over herself, she can get all wet even when she’s washing my hair, can’t she even wash her hair? However, eight years old, although she is a child, but can be seen through the clothes because of the wet and close to the body, breasts and waist has been slightly molded, although it is still only budding, but can be clearly seen: when she grows up, compared to their own mother must be more than not.
I shook my head, I couldn’t figure out what the hell these thoughts were for, let alone the fact that such thoughts made no sense at all.
When I returned to my room, I looked at my room in amazement.
The table that had been piled high with instant noodles and wine glasses was transformed into a clean table, the floor was emptied of garbage, and even the clock on the wall was polished as if it were brand new.
The big bag piled up in the doorway must have been my loot from earlier, and the odor was much diminished as a result.
That …… dad …… Can I take a shower before I go out? Whatever.
I said casually, sitting down where I had been sitting and casually bandaging my wounds.
After the bandage, I was bored and turned on the TV, only to find that the fourth channel had been cut off because it hadn’t been paid for too long, so I had no choice but to turn it off.
At that moment, there was also the sound of water draining from the bathroom.
When I turned my attention to the computer, trying to pass the time with my photos, I was surprised to find that Huiling’s photo was gone! I searched and searched for a long time, but I couldn’t see the photo! Jiayi! Where did you take the picture of mom on the computer? I impulsively slammed open the bathroom door, and Jiayi was startled by my action.
Although she was only eight years old, she was also very clear about the matter of the difference between men and women, and hurriedly covered herself and turned around, looking at me in surprise.
But for this daughter whom I had never met, I paid no attention to such things at this point and just looked at her with anger.
Is that …… mom’s photo? I …… I put it on the right wall.
I sniffed and looked back, and I saw Huiling’s photo quietly pasted on the wall, looking at me with a smile on her face, only it was pasted a little low because Jiayi wasn’t tall enough.
It was inadvertently overlooked by me.
That, dad …… can you, please go out? It was then that I felt that I was out of order, yet after knowing my embarrassment, I couldn’t even pull a face in death: what, is it shameful to be seen by dad? Yes …… not …… but …….
Jiayi stuttered, but I interrupted her before he could say the next part.
What’s there to be ashamed of? Didn’t Grandpa and Grandma teach you to close the door when you take a shower? I gradually increased my tone of voice, but immediately felt regret that it wasn’t a very good demonstration.
But the …… bathroom door …… is broken.
I sniffed and looked at the lock on the door, and sure enough, even the lock had rusted quite a bit from the long humidity.
I just slapped it so hard that I actually knocked the lock off the door.
For a moment I didn’t know what I should say, in front of this little kid who was only eight years old, I, an adult who was already over thirty, was actually rendered speechless, and could only give an oh-so-embarrassed sigh and leave the bathroom.
However, not long after I left, there was a sudden scream, and Jia Yi unexpectedly rushed out without being half-repeated, and just jumped into my arms.
I frowned and tried to push her away but was unsuccessful, she was surprisingly strong.
What do what do what, what the hell? Dad …… has …… cockroaches! Shit! Cockroaches can scare you like this? How old are you? I watched as a black thing flew out of the bathroom and stuck to the wall, while Jiayi’s shrieks followed, getting louder and louder, making me feel very harsh.
In anger, I pushed her away from me with force and picked up the thesaurus on the table and slammed it heavily on the cockroach.
It’s dead, right? I said as I used toilet paper to wipe off the trail on the wall and threw it into the trash can.
Turning back around, she realized that Jiayi was sitting on the floor and crying continuously, seemingly forgetting that she hadn’t put on any clothes yet.
I looked at her body that was starting to develop, her slightly protruding breasts, and her still hairless pussy, and it was surprising that my long accumulated desires were slowly overflowing at this point, and some special changes were occurring in a certain part of her body.
Damn it, that’s my own daughter, what was I thinking? I swatted myself violently.
Dad, why …… have you been so mean to me …… wow ah …….
For a moment I didn’t know what to say before I wanted to turn my head and let her continue to cry, only to meet Huiling’s gentle eyes.
At once, the mind went blank.
What did I …… do? I made Jiayi cry? …… Cried ……? Just then, Huiling’s breathless words flashed through my mind again.
Keeping Jiayi …… smiling …… is the same …… as …… you did for me.
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I’ll be damned! What the hell did I do? Didn’t I promise Huiling? Why am I still treating Jiayi like a problem? Thinking of this, I slapped myself twice, so hard that I felt dizzy and my cheeks were burning.
Finally realizing my fault, I found my tears starting to fall again as I gently hugged the still sobbing Jiayi, letting her tears stain my dirty clothes as mine dripped onto her shoulders and still wet hair.
Jia Yi …… Dad is sorry for you …… I’m sorry, I’m sorry.
I tenderly stroked her hair and kissed her forehead.
I didn’t stop the tears from continuing to fall, and at the same time I realized why I was motivated to prolong my life.
Because all of this was supposed to fulfill Wheeling’s wish.
Dad, Dad …… wow ah ah ah …….
Jiayi continued to cry, but he grabbed my shirt tighter and tighter and tighter.
His little hands are so strong, so full of life, so tinged with hope.
This is my past with my daughter, although my mind still hasn’t managed to get over the pain of Wheeling’s death.
But we, father and daughter, were able to forget our eight years of separation and accept each other.
Jiayi is really perfect in handling household chores, maybe it’s because her mom and dad have a really good way of teaching her.
She always takes care of the mess I create without complaint and with the kindest, warmest smile to welcome me home.
Although she is only eight years old, she is also very understanding; I can’t take her to and from school because I am back to work, but she understands me as if she doesn’t blame me, which always makes my heart overflow with another kind of happy feeling.
Even so, I can’t stop smiling when I’m around Jiayi; just seeing her young face reminds me of the past.
Dad, why don’t you smile? Jiayi has grown up and is gradually preparing for her exams for junior high school.
She was very proactive and mature, always afraid that I would be distracted to worry about her studies.
Yet it was because now she looked at me while rummaging through her book bag and said.
Me? …… I did laugh, you see.
I dropped the work at hand, averted my eyes from the screen, and tried my best to squeeze out a smile of my own to show her, but it was a very heartfelt, fake smile that must have been hard to see.
Dad’s all lies. Dad’s not really smiling at all.
Jiayi pouted her mouth, and it was so cute that it gave me an urge to pick her up and kiss her all over the place.
But after the previous incident, I have been trying to suppress my deep evil desires, not daring to make any more transgressive moves.
Oh …… can’t help it, dad has a lot going on so he often gets tired …….
Before I could finish the lie I had tried so hard to squeeze out, Jiayi naively and without any modification punctured my lie ruthlessly.
Dad, are you thinking about mom? Grandma said you really love your mom.
Jiayi said as she sat beside me.
Well …… yeah.
I stroked her head as pang after pang of acidity hit my nose.
But I can’t easily show that vulnerable side in front of my own kids.
Dad, if you want to cry, you can cry in Jiayi’s arms! Just like last time when I was bullied by my classmates.
Jiayi said.
A warmth flowed through me again when I heard these words ……
Character II
After Jiayi entered fifth grade, she was bullied by her classmates because they all knew that his mother had died.
Yet, she didn’t let that stop her from telling me what she was sad about, but just bore that great sadness in her tiny body.
Until one day, when I had an occasional vacation and wanted to surprise her by picking him up from school, I was lucky enough to see the little kids gathered right next to Jiayi, abusing her with unpleasant words.
At that time, I was furious and called out and scolded the brats severely, and as a result, I made a big deal out of it, and even the school authorities intervened.
Originally, the parents of the other party wanted to prosecute me on trumped-up charges, but I bit back and warned the parents of the crime of public humiliation and assault, which are clearly stipulated in the law, and the incident slowly subsided.
But Jiayi’s heart had long been wounded at this point in time, making me blame myself, and I could only say this to Jiayi: Jiayi, if you want to cry, you can cry in your father’s arms, and your father will definitely protect you.
It always feels a little weird to hear it now in a different scenario and role reversal.
But Jiayi had no regard for my angle and privately pulled my head onto her shoulder.
Although he is tall for a child of his age, he is still only up to my chest, and pressing my head down makes my neck a little sad, but leaning on her shoulder, the warmth, the affection, and the scent that invades my sense of smell, that is exactly the same as that of Wheeling, gives me a sense of peace of mind.
My eye frames moistened at a rapid pace, and I didn’t want to deliberately stop the tears from falling like that.
I can only cover my ugly face …… by hugging Jia Yi tightly and sticking to the side of his face.
Daddy, can you tell me about Mommy? Jiayi asked as she gently patted my back with her small hand.
Well …… your mother she is very gentle Oh …… I have never quarreled with your mother since we have been together, and your mother she ah …… (slightly).
It would be more than one or two articles if this went on.
I talked a lot about my former life, and Jiayi never asked questions or interrupted from the beginning to the end, just listened …… quietly.
It feels really good to share things about my loved one with the person I love …… especially when we both love her at the same time.
In fact, as soon as Dad saw you, he thought that you and your mom really looked alike. Dad was afraid of being sad, so he originally planned to send you away at first.
I told a long time …… about Huiling and I finally decided to be brave enough to admit that I was wrong at the beginning, and I wiped away my tears and waited for my daughter s sad condemnation.
However, I did not expect Jia Yi to be so mature, in the face of this statement of mine even just smiled and shook his head, and kissed me on the cheek: I will not blame dad, I like dad the most.
At the time, I hadn’t realized how dangerous Jiayi’s comment was, and just smiled bitterly and pinched her cheeks.
Time passed swiftly, and Jiayi confirmed that she was really good at her homework, and she got into the top-ranked national high school in Kaohsiung.
She is also getting along well with her classmates, and her mature and steady mindset has made many children respect her, and even the teacher in charge of her class is surprised by this.
Once her teacher, who invited the parents to a teaching observation, was full of praise for Jiayi, and made me wear a lot of glory for it.
However, I can’t be a role model for every parent when it comes to home life. After all, with one less mom, Jiayi’s mindset is still a little off.
Because having less of a mother’s love has made her not know what is the proper reaction to having a mom.
And since most of the parents who came to observe the teaching were mothers, it felt a bit jarring to be the only outlier seeping in.
After the observation, it was time for the usual one-on-one interviews, which is the most effective way to learn about the students’ families; I had expected this, and had left the whole day free for it.
Is this Mr. Liu? Hello, I’m sure you already know that I’m JiaYi’s tutor–Lin Huazen.
The middle-aged woman who looked like she was already over 40 topped up the black-framed glasses on her face and said in a friendly manner as she gently held Jia Yi’s shoulder with her other hand.
Hello, please don’t be too formal, a general address will suffice, Jiayi will have to take care of you for the past three years.
I also extended a friendly right hand.
After shaking hands with me, Mr. Lin dismissed Jiayi to the outside of the office and suddenly said to me very directly, Mr. Liu, in that case, I won’t say any more polite words.
We’re both readers, so I’ll cut to the chase; although Jia Yi is new to school, her attitude towards learning amazes me, and her thoughtfulness and attentiveness reveals an effective parental approach to education that even my own children are not as good at.
Naturally, my nose turned up again at this comment, even though my parents were the ones who really set her personality in motion.
I was just about to say thank you, but I didn’t expect the teacher to say it again: However, in the last issue’s essay, “What I want to be in the future,” does Mr. Liu know what that child wrote? I’m sorry about that. Because of his busy schedule at work, he rarely has the chance to talk to me about school at home.
I laughed sheepishly and bitterly.
Well …… I’ve heard that your family is rather special, so this point is not strictly your fault; however, Mr. Liu, as a mentor I am obliged to convey to you that the boy’s ideas are a bit special.
There’s no need to beat around the bush, Ms. Lam. I won’t blame Jiayi for her performance at school.
Mr. Lin sniffed, walked over to his place, took out a stack of densely written manuscript paper from a drawer, and gently placed it in front of me.
I read the title, and a wave of laughter surged through me: so this little brat’s mind isn’t fully mature.
Mr. Lin, isn’t it a girl’s dream to be a happy bride? I don’t think it’s wrong for Jiayi to write that.
But that’s not the problem, please look at the inside of the second one.
Seemingly remembering the problem, Mr. Lin removed his glasses and rubbed the bridge of his nose.
Doubt made me frown, and carefully drew a second sheet of manuscript paper from it.
I only saw that Mr. Lin had carefully underlined the key passages with a red pen, but I never expected that I would be deeply shocked after seeing the passage with the red line.
My dream is to marry someone like Dad, preferably Dad himself.
My eyes swept across to the second paragraph.
My dad’s deep love for my mom was something I could relate to at a very, very young age.
I’ve heard that I also look like my mom, and hopefully I’ll be able to help my dad have a baby to replace her to fill in the happiness he’s lost.
Dad was the best to me.
Although he is often very busy at work, I don’t feel bad about it because I know that my dad loves me too, and I am the only one left in his heart besides my mom.
As I read on with these words that shocked me, before I knew it I had finished two articles.
What struck me more, however, was what was written on the last post.
As I slowly grow up, is my body becoming more and more like my mom’s? I want so much to dedicate my body to my dad one day, and I hope he’ll be happy.
Mr. Liu, may I ask if you know what the problem is? This …… This shouldn t be just a child s rambling? I casually perfunctory.
However, with the confession of these articles, I also gradually recalled that something was not right with Jia Yi lately.
Indeed, as far as father and daughter are concerned, Jiayi’s behavior seems to be a bit out of line lately; normal children know that they shouldn’t show their bodies to other people when they are young, but Jiayi seems to be doing it on purpose, often doing seductive acts that only a mature woman would do in front of my eyes, so that I can only keep working to reduce my gradually growing desires.
I hope so too.
All in all, it’s about what little kids think, so I hope you pay more attention.
Mr. Lin organized the stack of essays and took them back into his drawer.
Just then, however, I had a sudden pang of weakness for some reason.
Mr. Lin, I hope you can keep this matter a secret, I don’t want Jia Yi to be treated any differently because of this.
I said squarely.
I know. I promise I won’t upset Jiayi.
To be honest, I feel that Ms. Lin is the kind of personality that can put one’s heart at ease; if she says something, she will definitely do it.
Dad, what did the teacher say to you? Walking out the door, I saw Jiayi sitting on a low chair kicking her feet in boredom.
I touched her head and tried to squeeze out a smile and said, It’s nothing, your teacher said that you were very good and asked me to take time to spend more time with you.
So Daddy decided to take you to the beach this Saturday, okay? Wow, really? Dad is the best! Looks like it worked as expected, Jiayi smiled and dispelled my uneasy thoughts.
However, this is the beginning of the real nightmare.
Character III
As the weekend approached, I took two days off from work and drove my own car to Kluang Pi with Jia Yi and some toiletries and necessities.
This is a more remote beach, and because it is far from the crowds, there is much less trash than in the usual lively places, allowing Jiayi to freely step on the fine sand on the beach without worrying about getting hurt.
At first, Jiayi didn’t dare to come out of the B&B after changing into her swimsuit, but I dragged her out of the B&B until the sunset; I didn’t want her to miss the sunset on the beach.
But I couldn’t help but stay for a moment when I saw Jia Yi’s outfit.
It turns out that she hid from me, secretly go out with friends, with their own pocket money to buy a swimsuit, is separated from the top and bottom, and a cute little skirt, with her body is no different from a little princess, let me jokingly whistled straight, but also teased Jiayi blush with shame.
I looked at the gradually rising tide of the sea, it was already quite dangerous to swim in the water at this time, so I laid down the plastic mat and leaned against the orange sun with Jiayi.
Dad still doesn’t even smile.
Jiayi said looking at me with a pout.
Although she has grown up and has a little less cute atmosphere; I also find this expression of hers very beautiful and touching under the sunlight.
I didn’t.
Dad’s happy to be out with Jiayi.
Although I said so, a large part of my heart was still occupied by Huiling.
My personality is such that memories whether good or sad are hard to let fade away and have to be covered up that way.
Really? Well, Dad, that …… I’ve always had a wish.
Jiayi said as she suddenly grabbed my hand.
What wish? Do you want to buy something? I’ll grant you anything you want.
I looked at Jiayi, waiting for her next words.
But Jiayi just looked at me and shook her head, not continuing to say half a word, with twinkling star points in her watery eyes.
Suddenly, I remembered the article of Jiayi that I had read a few days ago, and a sense of crisis rose from my heart and began to feel very sorry for what I had just said.
But just then, a sudden voice inserted itself hard between us.
Hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey. The dead old man and the young lover are here to make people look at me very difficult ah! I turned my head back, only to see three fashionably dressed young men standing behind me, probably seventeen or eighteen years old, with a light smile that made me cringe at the sight.
Excuse me, am I interrupting? I said faintly.
The sudden appearance of those three made Jiayi jump and hurriedly hide behind me.
The leading one of the three young men walked towards me and said after looking at Jiayi, “Zhengmei, what’s the point of staying with this old man? Why don’t you go out with us? I’ll take you to many exciting places.
Will the lines of these three people also be a little too cliché ……? What’s more, I’m only in my early thirties, and many of my colleagues who are younger than me still call me young master in private, is it necessary to call me an old man? I looked at the three delinquents, it seems that they usually do not do fitness, a skinny with the firewood no different, after I stood up is still taller than their tallest person half a head, to me really not a threat.
Dead old man you are in the green what small ah? The right side of the young people play hard to say, as if they think they are more people have a better chance of winning.
I’m just seeing if you’re worthy of my daughter.
But with that statement, I’ve already shot you.
I said looking at him sarcastically.
So it’s your daughter? How old is she? The young man in the lead said.
She is not yet 15 this year.
I quietly pulled Jiayi back two steps, putting distance between us and them.
Fuck, that’s only 14, right? What’s wrong with being a fucking model already? said the young man on the right, his poorly thought out speech making me frown again.
Jia Yi, would you want to go with these people with no standards? Although I already knew the answer, I still asked on purpose.
Don’t …… I want to be with my dad.
Ka-yi was stunned by the scene and could only timidly say the answer that would satisfy me.
What the fuck is wrong with the old man? Calling me a loser? The young man cursed.
I didn’t care about him, and I started to gather up the plastic mat and the stuff on the floor.
Fuck you, even ignored me! I did not expect just at this moment that young man actually punched me in the face without saying a word, I was hit by this punch, stifled a grunt, and then backhanded to grab his arm.
Dad! Jiayi called out worriedly.
This pain, however, was suffered back when I was in the military.
That young man was no more powerful than my squad leader at the time, and I still gave my sergeant major a beating until I was discharged.
The young man had wailed out when I tightened my grip on his hand and folded it back.
Fuck, fuck! Let go! Get the fuck off me! That’s just a warning. Any more of that and I’ll be damned.
I said as I touched my punched face with my other hand and let go of his hand.
Fucking kill this old bastard! I don’t know whose order it was, but the three men immediately swarmed me and attacked me with unorganized punches and kicks.
However, what kind of strength can those three men have when they’re so skinny? It’s nothing more than a slow motion replay in my eyes.
I dodged one of the men’s fists and leaned in with my shoulder, my fist hitting him hard in the stomach, he was already crouching on the ground coughing deathly; the other tried to kick me in the waist from behind, but I grabbed his foot and lifted him upside down and flung him aside, and the rest of the man, seeing that things were not going well, dropped a couple of harsh words and fled.
I looked at the ground because of the fight and scattered things present a mess, helplessly put away the things that are not yet damaged, holding the still in fear of Jiayi towards the B&B, for a while she came back to her senses, tightly embraced my back and said: dad, just now …… is so scary… ….
Hasn’t Dad already driven them away? What are you still afraid of? I said as I gently stroked her hand.
After graduating from elementary school, Jiayi’s body had an amazing breakthrough, and now even though he had just entered junior high school, his body had already been shapely, and his soft breasts pressed against my back made me feel a wave of excitement, but then I suppressed it with reason.
I see that Jiayi s shock is not small, but I can t just stay in place and wait for those three people to bring people to seek revenge, so I have to carry Jiayi on my back and walk back to my car …….
Why don’t you go take a shower and call me when you’re done.
I turned on the TV and lay on the couch thinking about how I was going to make Jia Yi happy tomorrow.
Is it true that you can’t be in a place with too few people? Fewer people are freer, but it’s also an opportunity for those who want to take advantage of it.
I’d better take Jiayi to a more lively place tomorrow …….
As I thought of this, I took a sip of the tea brewed in my tea bag, however, the bathroom door opened at that moment, and I turned around and immediately spewed out the tea in my mouth.
Jia Yi unexpectedly not half repeated, naked standing in front of me! She was now standing in front of me without any intention of covering up, blushing, and said to me with a bit of squirming: Dad …… Can I wash with you? I looked at her already nearly flawless body, as good as the size of a small bowl of breasts, pink nipples, slender waist and mysterious private place, the cup in my hand because of surprise and fell to the ground, wet a large piece of carpet.
It was at this point that I remembered once again what Jiayi had written: I would like to give my body to my father one day, hoping that he would be happy.
There seems to be a line in my head that I can’t cross, wobbling at my feet, and I’m struggling with whether or not to cross that line.
Suddenly, I felt a thirst in my throat that made me swallow, and this action made Jiayi’s face blush as red as an apple, but she still resisted the idea of going to cover her body, letting my gaze wreak havoc on her body.
Cough! I coughed heavily, shook my head, violently shifted my attention back to the TV, and forced myself to be serious, Jia Yi, didn’t dad once have told you that you can’t just show your body to others? You’re so old now, why can’t you learn? Dad, can you please turn your head? Jia Yi’s voice sounded a little weepy at this moment.
I hesitated and looked at the ceiling.
I couldn’t help but wonder if God hadn’t tossed me around enough, before I shifted my eyes back to Jiayi’s face, just trying to control myself from looking at Jiayi’s body.
Is Jia Yi …… not beautiful? She asked, a statement that left me unsure of what to say in response, but I knew there was only one answer she wanted to hear.
…… beautiful.
Then why doesn’t Dad even want to look at Jiayi? Tears fell as she asked the question.
It’s not that I don’t want to see it, but I can’t! In my mind, I kept shouting.
Jiayi, go back to the bathroom.
We’re father and daughter. That’s impossible.
It was too much of an act for me to cover up now, so I had to take out my fatherly majesty that I had never taken out before and ordered.
However, Jiayi unexpectedly didn’t listen to me this time and just stood there, constantly wiping her tears.
Dad …… Jia Yi really good love love you …… why you don t even understand it? Honestly, I have never seen Jia Yi like this before, and I don’t know what to do when I suddenly encounter this kind of thing.
In the past, whenever Jiayi cried, I would hug her and coax her so that he could show a bright smile; nowadays I am not able to do that.
Ka-yee, listen to me, at least go put on a towel before you come out to talk, or you’ll catch a cold.
The room was blowing cold air, and Jia Yi was now naked with drops of water on her body, so I was honestly worried about her health.
This time she didn’t disobey and wiped the tears from her face before pulling a plain white bath towel from the bathroom and wrapping it around her body, but it made me feel like that wasn’t right either.
That hidden look is simply the best example of how to lure people to commit crimes.
Dad, do you remember what you told me: that you wouldn’t turn your back on me? Well, I would never lie to Jiayi.
As soon as the words were out of my mouth I knew I was done for, yet it was impossible to take them back.
Because just now on the beach I had promised something quite extraordinary.
I didn’t realize that my casual promise would cause my own daughter to catch the opportunity to threaten her.
Dad …… Jiayi also read a lot of books about that, and I also used Dad’s computer to surf the Internet …… when Dad was not there also know some some of that kind of thing.
Jiayi said.
I sniffed and tapped my temple hard.
How could I have made such a mistake? I had actually forgotten that girls and boys of Jia Yi’s age are the age when they are particularly interested in sex, and although Jia Yi was not brought up in a sound family, it is perfectly normal for her to have such desires.
And that I should have this opportunity to let her have a chance to learn about such things before I have been able to guide her? Dad …… Jia Yi’s first time, want to give you.
Jiayi said, leaning her body slowly into mine, and just as her hips sat on my thighs, the thread in my head seemed to snap in half.
I picked up Jiayi and laid her tenderly on the bed, carefully kissing her ears and neck.
And because of Jia Yi’s nervousness, her gasps turned into the perfect aphrodisiac in my ears.
She automatically unwrapped the towel from her body, revealing her pure and unadulterated body to my eyes once again without any cover.
Jia Yi …… Are you really not going to regret it? Although my desire eventually overcame reason, I still want to confirm it again.
Jiayi closed his eyes and nodded slightly as he imprinted his lips on mine, and we exchanged bodily fluids inside each other, our tongues flopping around inside each other’s mouths.
Although Jiayi didn’t have any oral skills and was slightly rusty, her efforts to cater to her were well expressed.
As the four lips parted, I could clearly see the crystalline ripples between us, and I gradually brought my own lips down and began to attack Jia Yi’s breasts.
When my tongue licked her little raisin, Jia Yi’s body shook slightly, and my other hand kept massaging her other breast, deeply afraid that the extra force would cause her pain.
Jiayi’s skin began to take on a peachy red color even as I licked it gently.
I continued my assault towards her lower body, all the way to her most mysterious zone; where it turned out to be flooded long ago.
I gently parted the two petals that were still not fully open, greedily sucked in her virgin-scented juices, and began to lick her two still-pink double petals.
Just as I teased her pink bud, Ka-yi suddenly couldn’t help but let out a moan, giving me all the more reason to press harder to please her.
However, only a short while later, her waist suddenly arched and spasmed, her hands clawed at the sheet for a while while her legs clamped down on my head, a warm stream gushed out from her private parts and sprayed on my face, and Jiayi was surprised to feel the highest peaks of her feelings for the first time in her life.
This orgasm lasted for quite some time before subsiding, and after it was over she kept gasping for breath and I found a shred of sanity.
Jia Yi …… I think …… we’d better not do this.
After all, you’re only 14 now ……
I said, raising my head, but I was surprised to find that my tone began to tremble with no force at all; I still wasn’t very good at this kind of intolerance.
No, Dad …… I’ve made up my mind, please go ahead.
Jiayi was panting, but her tone was so firm contrary to mine.
I sighed and took my clothes off slowly while watching Jia Yi’s reaction.
She did wince a little when she saw my nakedness; but as I began the act of unbuckling my belt, Jiayi hesitated for a moment, and began to actively help me with her hands with her trembling little hands, loosening the front of my pants.
This initiative also surprised me, it seems that Jiayi is also very afraid that her determination will be shaken, so she is a bit anxious, in fact, the consciousness in her heart is actually not as firm as I thought, so when she saw my last remaining line of defense, the external type of the doppelganger hidden inside, her face was a bit pale instead.
Jiayi, if you’ll be scared, just close your eyes and let Daddy do it.
I said as I folded my pants and placed them at the end of the bed.
Jia Yi sniffed and really closed her eyes, and when I took off my panties as well and lifted my own parting ready to attack, that remaining rationality still grasped the last vestige of my consciousness:Jia Yi…… you really don’t think about it anymore? Well ……
Jiayi squeezed her eyes shut and nodded.
That answer also left what was left of my sanity, and I lifted my parting and rubbed my glans against her secret cleft.
Soon, her secret place was about to dry up again, but I made it flood again.
It’s going to hurt a little bit at first …… so bear with it oooo.
I said.
Jiayi nodded again once more, while I squeezed the end of my doppelganger slightly into that narrow passage.
Well …….
Jiayi’s body trembled as he bit his lower lip, as if he was enduring the sensation of a foreign object entering.
I thought to myself: better a long pain than a short one, so I squeezed my parting in a little more again; soon the glans hit the barrier.
But I didn’t let that stop me, and with a sudden jerk, I broke through that barrier.
At the same time Jia Yi also screamed miserably, and tears flowed out of the corners of her eyes, making me look a bit heartbroken.
Jia Yi …… is it painful? I didn’t continue to push, I just let my split stay still inside, enjoying Jia Yi’s tight bondage while giving her time to get used to the feeling.
Dad …… I finally became your woman, Jia Yi is so happy …….
I had been looking at her lower pussy and lifted my head at that.
Unexpectedly at this time, Jiayi actually opened her eyes, carefully looking at our place of intercourse, where there was a trace of blood flowed down, staining a small piece of bed sheet red.
However, she who was enduring this pain was dripping but with a joyful smile, and I suddenly couldn’t stand the urge, and my waist quietly pushed up a bit, also reaching the deepest part of Jiayi’s body.
And Jiayi whimpered from that impact, sending my most primal desires surging to their highest point in an instant.
Jia Yi …… Relax.
I said, while starting to drive my doppelganger in and out of her, and although Jia Yi was prepared for it, this constant pounding made her moan uncontrollably.
And the foreplay I had done earlier had prepared her body enough that the process went very smoothly, gradually turning Jia Yi’s pain into pleasure.
Ah, ah …… dad, dad …… hmmm ah …… ah …….
Ka-yi’s constant moaning drove my movements more and more intense, and naturally I picked her up and kissed her on the lips; our lower bodies joined together, and our tongues rolled around, a double-sided onslaught that sent Ka-yi over the top again.
However, I didn’t let that stop me and still kept making my doppelganger perform in-and-out maneuvers.
Jiayi’s lower body is like a fountain of juice gushing out, wetting a large area of the bed sheet, Jiayi also because of my accelerated and rolled out the white eyes, do not know how many times to reach orgasm, and Dad, Dad …… Jiayi, Jiayi and almost there, almost there! I don’t know how many times I’ve reached orgasm, but I don’t know how many times! Suddenly Jiayi feet clamped my waist, at the same time I also have an impulse from the abdomen straight to the split, I know that I am about to ejaculate, and hurried to separate us, but I did not expect that Jiayi did not allow me to go, tightly clamped me, at the same time, her center of the flower and once again gushed out a warm stream, impact on my glans.
Roar …….
Receiving this wave of shock, I could not stand it any longer, and with a bottom roar, my glans pushed against her flower center, and just like that, I started to ejaculate with a plop, all of it into my daughter’s body.
This ejaculation lasted for quite a while, the accumulation of fourteen years was too much for even Jiayi’s tiny uterus to hold, and my ejaculated essence began to pour out along the crevice of our union, soaking a good portion of the sheets once again.
After we were done, the two of us were in each other’s arms, gasping for air constantly.
Jia Yi’s expression was filled with happiness, and her body still seemed to be twitching as she remembered the aftermath of the party.
However, I frowned at the semen that kept flowing out of her lower body and said with a bit of concern, Jia Yi, if you …… get pregnant.
I was just in the middle of my sentence when Jiayi interrupted me.
Dad …… Jiayi really want to want to help you have a child …… but I am also scared.
So I already know how to figure out when it’s safe from the top of the net.
Dad can rest assured ……
But that …… is sometimes very inaccurate.
After tuning out, I turned around and drew a couple sheets of toilet paper from the bed and carefully cleaned up the mess.
It’s okay. …… Dad.
Jiayi really loves you the most …….
Suddenly she lifted my head and placed a deep kiss towards my lips.
This time I did not dodge, and all of Jiayi’s emotions for me were conveyed through her behavior, so that my heart also felt a wave of happy feelings …….
After this? Nothing really happened.
Anyway, having cum inside her once, I simply fought with Jiayi again several times until dawn.
The owner of the B&B also probably guessed what we had done and sent us away with a vague look.
Maybe it’s because God understands our awkwardness.
That make-out session didn’t result in one more little life between us, and it made me worry for over two months for nothing.
It didn’t really have much of an impact on our lives except that Jia Yi and I were really intimate to the point of being more than father and daughter.
It’s just that since that time, I didn’t dare to gaze at Jiayi for too long in front of outsiders, for fear that the ambiguity would make outsiders suspicious.
After hearing my explanation, Jia Yi also understood the seriousness of the matter, only that she hadn’t regretted it; even so, she cooperated with me and never disclosed it to outsiders, and in front of Ms. Lin, her attitude towards me also changed to that of a normal child towards her father, which made Ms. Lin admire my way of convincing a child.
However, as soon as I get home, Jiayi will still get tired of being on top of me is all.
Gradually, time passed again in a flash, and Jiayi entered high school.
Mode also gradually began to grow from a small child into a normal teenage girl, and even though the way she treated me remained the same, that air of maturity gradually radiated out.
The dark shadow that Huiling had left in my heart had pretty much dissipated, leaving her with a satisfied smile, and Jia Yi’s happy smile.
While I still haven’t really let go and had a good laugh so far, Ka-yi can understand, and has since she was an hour old.
Dad, welcome back. Seeing me back home, Jiayi rushed up and kissed me on the cheek.
I patted her head in response.
Well …… did you have a good day? I asked as I could tell Jiayi had something to say, casually dropping my briefcase on the couch.
With the gloom of Huiling’s death out of the way, and the fact that it would hardly be my turn to worry about Jia Yi’s life, my work was smooth sailing, and the number of overtime hours worked was far less than it had been in the past.
Dad, look.
This was found in my drawer today.
Jiayi suddenly took out a pink letter from behind her back with a small heart attached to it, giving off a light fragrance.
What’s this? Looks like a love letter.
I took the letter and scrutinized it; it had been unsealed, but I still didn’t dare to read it privately without Jia Yi’s permission.
The rigid handwriting written on the letter was still faintly visible through the light.
It’s a love letter! A boy from another class gave it to me.
Jiayi said braggadociously.
Suddenly, a wave of jealousy rose in my heart, causing me to frown slightly; however, I knew very well that it was very normal for Jiayi to receive love letters at her age, and ever since Jiayi stepped into the third year of the nation, her figure and appearance had surpassed that of ordinary little girls, and there were even talent scouts trying to poach her, and even I was taken aback by this.
Therefore, I hurriedly acted as if nothing had happened, but Jiayi caught me frowning for a split second.
Dad …… are you jealous? She said with a bad smile.
No.
I left the letter casually on the table and turned on the TV.
Dad lied again, you really can’t lie at all yeah! Jia Yi sat beside me and wrapped her arms around my neck, saying intimately.
There really isn’t.
I simply moved my attention to the latest news published.
Dad, you pretend to watch TV on purpose every time you’re upset, and Jiayi already knew that.
……… Your observation is also too sharp, right? Well, let’s just say I’m jealous.
I turned off the TV coldly and tilted my head to the side.
Dad …… don t be like this! She was sitting on my lap, looking at me face to face, when she suddenly kissed me on the lips.
This kind of situation has been happening very frequently at home for a long time, so I’ve long gotten used to it and hugged Jia Yi and kissed her passionately.
After a long time, I knew that my evil desires would be aroused again if I continued like this, and in order not to make another mistake, I gently separated the two of us.
Dad, don’t worry about it.
I’m not going to say yes to that boy. I just want to be Daddy’s little woman for the rest of my life.
Jia Yi said in a seductive tone in my ear; making me love and hate this little goblin of hers, but it was not good to have an attack, so I could only gently pinch her pink cheeks as a response.
At the time, I had even come to believe that: our relationship, in fact, was just as it had always been, completely unchanged; that almost nothing could prevent our relationship from ending.
But I had overlooked one thing – she was just a young girl in the throes of love.