But in the middle of last month (March), something changed! It’s safe to say it’s thrown me and our lives out of whack! So scared! So scared that it will mess up this uneventful life and maybe even destroy a 2 1/2 year marriage! Really don’t know what to do anymore!!!!
Things happen, one night last month, my husband said he went to drink with colleagues to drink, originally he is very little rarely drink, said about 11 o’clock or so back, but I waited until more than 2 o’clock and did not see him back, to call the action to him, the phone is ringing to the voice of the jump no one answered, the heart is worried about it! Then call …… phone picked up, asked him where? But has been swallowed ……, his side is very quiet, so it must not be what drinking place it!
Suddenly I heard a female voice ask him in a lowered voice, “Is that your wife?”
I immediately asked him, “You were drinking there? Only one woman to drink with you?”
He didn’t know how to get back to me, he just said, “I’ll tell you about it when I get back!”
With that, I hung up …….
I am really very angry, tears involuntarily flow down, do not know how long to cry, anyway, crying to a daze to fall asleep, he also did not come back the whole night, to the morning 7 o’clock he called back to wake me up, said yesterday night to drink too much, and then a class of people ran to the hotel to go, drunkenly brought a lady out! Called me to forgive him, come back at night and then explain to me clearly …… and so on. I don’t want to say anything, a gas and up, and also rush to work, I just returned a sentence: “Say it! I have to change clothes for work.”
Just hang up on him!
I was really tired all day at the office that day, not from work, and I didn’t sleep well last night, but mainly because I was still very angry inside!
More than 5 o’clock, almost off duty, a sudden whim, I also go to get drunk, off duty also do not go home, a person ran to the mother of a PUB, may be more than 6 o’clock is still early! People are not a lot, ran to the corner to sit down, ordered a cup of I do not know what is the mixer, anyway, sweet and a little spicy, usually I do not drink, but I am not bad, the beer can drink about 3 to 4 bottles of it, ten minutes to drink that cup, and then a cup of …….
Probably a girl sitting dumbly at a drinking bar, a 180-something tall, early 30s foreigner slowly walked over, stood in front of me, and asked me in very pure Chinese, “Miss! Can I sit down?”
I looked at him, I don’t know if it was the alcohol? Or …… he looks really quite handsome too! Heartbeat suddenly accelerated, he looked at me just looking at him again without any indication.
“I’m sorry miss, look you’re alone, let’s talk and make friends shall we?”
I almost gasped, “Whatever, have a seat!”
He introduced himself as having lived in Taiwan for almost ten years and working as a supervisor in an American company based in Taiwan. After chatting with him, I finished my third drink and told him that I was a bit drunk and wanted to go home.
He then asked me very carefully if I had eaten my dinner when I came here so early to drink. I just remembered that I was really hungry! He then introduced me to this PUB things are good, let him treat, I ordered a guest steak, after the meal has been drinking the 5th cup of mixers again ……, really also have 8 points of drunkenness! I wanted to leave, he pulled my hand and asked me: “Anyway, it’s not ten o’clock, it’s still early! Do you want to go to my house to sit down, listen to music quietly, let go of your mood?”
(I did tell him I had a fight with my husband because I didn’t want to say too much and just told him I had a fight with my husband!)
Of course I knew what would happen if I went, but at the time I really didn’t know whether to say “yes” or “no”! I just stared at him …….
He just smiled and laughed, “Comeon, take it easy!”
His home is in the neighborhood, walking about 3 minutes to the road, the road he has been saying some of his things, but I did not listen to it ……, the head is really blank!
To his home, I sat on his sofa, he turned on the stereo broadcast a very soft jazz, and then poured a glass of red wine to me, and then sat on my right side, I feel really drunk, he suddenly embraced me, and then kissed up to my mouth! I don’t know if it was the alcohol, or the revenge mentality, I didn’t know how to react, only my heartbeat plus rapid breathing!
I don’t know how long the kiss went on, and I don’t know how long it took to get here when I was supposed to be sitting on the couch and now it became laying on the carpet, and as if it was natural that all that was left of me was a pair of little panties, he sat up and said let’s go take a shower first!
I really wanted to say “no” and not continue! But I just said, “I’ll do it myself, not together!”
Then he led me into the bathroom and washed me! I then wrapped a towel around me and came out! Sitting back on the couch, he said, “Take a break! I’ll be done soon!”
I drank a few more sips of red wine and thought whatever anyway ……, just don t think about anything, in fact, I don t know if it is the wine or the people, I am still drunk anyway, and I can not think about anything, just close my eyes and listen to the music to relax I guess.
It felt really fast, he came out with a towel wrapped around his lower body, sat back down next to me and started kissing again from his mouth, neck, chest …… he kissed me all over, his tongue was really sharp, when he kissed me on my lower body, it made me really try what an orgasm is, it was like I was incontinent!
That intense feeling of suffocating, delirium, the whole body seems to be out of control! The feeling of ‘dying and living’!
He held me very gently kissed me, but I could only gasp a blank ……, he continued to gently kiss my face …… and asked me, “Can we give him a treat?”
I looked at him and smiled a little as an answer, and he pulled back the towel around his waist, and I saw that he had an erection, and it really scared …… me a little! I said, “That’s too big for you, I’m afraid I won’t be able to stand it!”
He’s bigger than my husband’s, 3~4 times at the very least! That’s only from watching porn right! I really want to put back on my clothes and leave immediately ……, it’s so scary! He hugged me and said, “Don’t worry! I will be very gentle with you.”
He began his kissing attack …… again, and I also gave softened again, by the time he was going to insert, I really contradictory, and very afraid and eager! He slowly thrust into, a wonderful feeling of pain, not ever full, he can top my uterus every time, began to rapid thrusting action when I can only wriggle and scream.
Married for two and a half years, and every time I have sex with my husband, the longest but more than 10 minutes or so! And he did not know how many times to change the position, the original woman sex can have a few orgasms is true, more than an hour of thrusting, I climaxed 2 times, to the end of his, want to sit up, but the whole body of the powerless, feet have been trembling, and the carpet seems to have spilled a few cups of water, the most frightening is that, even on the coffee table is a large part of the wet I just sprayed … …! …!
After 2 more glasses of red wine and a bit of chatting, he left me his phone number and said he could be reached at any time, so he put me in a cab to go home, and when I got home it was almost one o’clock, and my husband looked at me and saw that I was smelling of booze, and all I said was, “I’m drunk and I don’t want to talk to you!”
I went to bed right after the shower and went to sleep, it was hard because I was so drunk and wanted to sleep, but then it was like I felt his prick keep pumping underneath me ……, probably because I kept recalling the perfect sex I had just had …….
I told myself that I could not do it again,……, a week later, and my husband is considered to be good, but when I make out with him, I always feel as if there is no pleasure at all, and I feel that my husband is very useless! It turns out that it’s always been just a child’s play! Every day I recall the feeling of orgasm on that day …….
Last Monday, I finally couldn’t take it anymore, I called him and said I just wanted to say hello and say sorry for making his house so dirty that day (of course it was an excuse), he then asked me if I was free to ask me out for dinner in the evening, (that was of course my purpose) I said yes right away, and after dinner it was just before 9:00 and he said, “Come to my house?”
I said, “I’m sorry …… for dirtying up your house last time!”
He thought for a moment and said, “Why don’t we just find a quiet place to rest!”
Of course I had no problem with it, so we went into a motel, and I even told him that I was on my safe period that day, so I could not use a condom, and I felt even more of that hot rush …… against my cervix when he ejaculated, as if each stroke poured directly into my uterus!
After more than 2 hours of fucking and him making me ‘die’ so many times, I now know what ‘dying’ feels like!
I know I can’t make the same mistake again and I must stop this relationship, but …… I’m already repulsed by making out with my husband! He can’t give me what I want! More than two years of married life, it turned out to be just as if the children play moving house wine like, before I was very easy to satisfy, but now …… let me taste what is sex, which my husband absolutely can not satisfy me! I don’t know how to be good?
I don’t want to become like a slut, and I don’t want my marriage to fall apart! But can’t forget the satisfaction of an orgasm! Now every day I use my sanity to suppress the urge to seek him out! Going crazy!!!
It’s something …… I definitely can’t tell anyone I know …… It’s really hard!!!!