Addendum to the Foreword.
In the future, I will be looking for friends here under the name of “Lian Po”.
Born in 1962, Lian Po studied in Keelung at a fifth college (this school has produced many celebrities in the movie industry, such as Liu Ruiqi, Fu Juan, Ying Zhiling, and Zhang Yue Li, etc.), and after graduation, he was fortunate enough to be enrolled in a certain university, and then enrolled in a certain university research institute, where he is currently engaged in the field of texting.
Later will be published in a series of essays, some written in adolescence, that is the so-called “people are not frivolous in vain” autobiographical erotic literature, in addition to self-entertainment, but also have been photocopied pinned for sale to classmates, to earn the daily necessities of pocket money; some other works, it is to be put into the community after the work of the reason for the absurdity of the love affair, written today! In addition to writing autobiographies (hehe, if possible) for future memories, there is also a slight flavor of repentance.
The other part is just a fantasy, purely for the imagination or hope of the “bad middle-aged”; in fact, after entering the middle-aged life, some subconscious thoughts are really unbearable if they are revealed! But I am willing to be loyal to the dirty side of my heart, and those who know me can understand me, right?
The following article was written for Lian Po in 1980, when he was in the third grade of the Fifth College, the scene in Keelung City, today slightly updated, but try to maintain the original appearance, after all, that was the year of the state of mind of the teenagers; and because of the prevailing “conservative” folkways, it is the less detailed description of the events in the essay, but in the atmosphere of the capture, the audience may want to try to taste. Netizens may wish to try to taste.
Keelung is rainy, when the rain falls uncontrollably, the sky is gloomy all day long, Keelung girls are sad and sentimental because of it.
Yun’er sat on the edge of my dormitory bed, her frail legs dangling in the air; the beds in the boys’ dormitory were designed to hang in the air, with four beds in each of the two rows, and each of the two beds shared an iron ladder painted red. As Yun’er slowly climbed up the iron ladder, I inadvertently saw her black student skirt revealing her white underpants. In a moment of surprise, Yun’er had already sat down and gazed back at me: “Wow! Your bed is so high!”
I nodded dumbly, a little lost in thought, Yun’er laughed: “Fool, why are you dumbfounded?”
I just pursed my lips and laughed, my ears burning with a rush of heat, then I pulled a chair and sat down with my back to Yun’er, except that the sudden swelling sensation coming from my crotch made me look unnatural as I settled down, which luckily Yun’er didn’t notice. Through the reflection of the mirror on the desk, I saw that she was slightly leaning over, her eyes looking through the window to the round, yellow moon in the night sky.
It was the night of the Mid-Autumn Festival, and also the night of the first anniversary of my acquaintance with Yun’er; I still hadn’t gone back to my hometown in a small town in the central part of China for the festival, and I should say that I didn’t have the money to be able to buy a train ticket to go home, and Yun’er said that she would accompany me to sunbathe in the moon on the condition that she would go to my dormitory because she wanted to see what the boy’s dormitory looked like in life.
“Fool, speak!” Yun’er looked up at me with a smile on her face, the moonlight embraced her face, I was dumbfounded and finally forgot to speak.
Yun’er revealed her small white teeth, like a child, narrowly looked at me: “Well, if you want to see, let’s see, whoever laughs first loses!”
I just tilted my head up and gazed at her in a daze, without the slightest distraction in my mind.
Yun’er is a Keelung City, a commercial second-year students, high school joint examination results to enter the Keelung Girls’ High School, because her father opened a sizeable rice store, hoping that his daughter can study business, so that after graduation immediately to help her parents run the family business, so Yun’er chose a commercial job, she is a well-behaved and filial daughter in the eyes of her parents, but also in my heart branded the image of a pure and pure cherub, although the students say she is my Girlfriend, in fact, to know a year, we always maintain between the seemingly no male and female feelings, each other seems to be satisfied with, or enjoy this light sweet, who is not willing to easily exceed the boundaries.
Yun’er is not the type of girl that makes people stunning; as common high school girls hairstyles, Yun’er is also stored in the soup hung like a hairstyle, hair quality is exceptionally soft and shiny, if you stay up long hair, is bound to charm a group of boys; I have always thought that Yun’er thin a little bit, may be because she often love to wear her father’s wide shirt, making Yun’er appears to be frail, but also handsome. Her palms are as soft as boneless, when secretly holding hands with her, Yun’er’s hands can often slip out in my palm. Yun’er’s lips had a healthy reddish hue; I rarely saw her licking and sucking her lips with her tongue, but Yun’er’s lips were strangely often moist; Yun’er’s… “Ugh! Fool, are you looking at me or not?” Yun Er’s call woke me up. With a slightly pouting mouth, Yun Er bestowed upon me a pair of glaring round eyes. In retrospect, I felt a strong, invisible force at that moment, perhaps it was called a “ghost’s mind”. Because I stood up and raised my right hand to Yun’er, extending my index finger and hooking it to her, signaling for her to come down.
Cloud seemed to be shocked by my look and movements as well, as she gathered her smile and looked deeper into the pupils of my eyes with hers intently. Yun’er silently and gently slid down the iron ladder and moved towards me. My still raised hand, was her soft and slightly cool small hand fist grip, my eyes in the cloud child’s black eyes, red lips between the slipping patrol, mouth but suddenly secrete a lot of saliva, want to swallow but can not swallow, soon mouth actually born burning thirst feeling, hastily put out the tongue lick and suck on the upper lip, but also saw the cloud child’s tongue tip sucking mouth.
Cloud’s small hands made a slight effort to bring my palms towards her waistline. I was hit by a strong sense of suffocation in my chest, like a thousand summer cicadas singing in my ears. An unfamiliar, hoarse voice came from my throat: “What are we doing?”
Cloud tilted her head, stared at me, and answered me softly, “We’re doing this!”
I only remember, the whole world suddenly black, dizzy brain, even like a drowning person, open mouth want to gasp, but was two pieces of soft cold lips sealed my mouth. I opened my eyes, only to see Yun Er closed eyes quietly kissing me, eyelashes slightly trembling, the fine hairs of the face clearly countable.
Oh, my God! I’m in the middle of my first kiss, when I’m unguarded.
And then close my eyes again, Yun Er’s soft face slowly shifted in my cheeks, I was not able to realize, Yun Er’s tongue had already slipped in, I was like a baby, and then I lightly contained Yun Er’s tongue, slightly sucking on it. That really screams contradictory sensations, soft and sweet between the lips, crotch sore and swollen!
I suddenly wanted to see Cloud’s look again at the moment, and opened my eyes to peer downward, but my eyes were lured away by another view.
Probably because of the clothes rubbing against each other, the second button of Yun Er’s shirt was loosened, and I saw Yun Er’s white underwear, and the cleavage squeezed out from her breasts. I was so dumbfounded that I didn’t continue to suck on Yun Er’s slippery tongue, because the sight in front of me had made my mouth open involuntarily.
Noticing my abnormality, Cloud opened her eyes to look at me, and then followed my line of sight again, realizing that her shirt was open a little, revealing her white underwear, with almost a third of her white smooth breasts.
Yun Er gently pushed me away and moved back half a step herself, but her eyes never left my face. Between the two of them, I do not know how long stayed silent, just like that staring at each other, I remember, I could not resist the leg soreness and fell on the chair, Yun Er or straight back upright, shyly opened his mouth: “Do you want to see?”
I didn’t nod or shake my head because I knew that I was getting close to going over the line with Cloud.
Yun’er fiddled with her fingers as if waiting for my answer. I wanted to open my mouth to say something, but my throat was tight and dry, and I was caught up in the conflicting emotions of “not yet seen, want to see, will see, afraid to see”.
Cloud’s white, half-exposed breasts, bathed in the yellow moonlight. Finally, I still did not nod, Yun Er like a “kind” mother, came up to hold my head, my nose is sniffing against Yun Er’s breasts, a heat rash powder fragrance straight into the nose, I greedily sucked Yun Er slightly exposed breasts, the touch is very much like a water balloon that seems to have been filled with eight points, soft and elasticity; and then, then I I made a move that I myself found unbelievable, I put the loose buttons of Yun’er’s shirt and re-buttoned them.
Yun’er laughed, she ruffled my hair, and then pecked my lips again, rippling with laughter lines and said to me, “Fool, you’re such a sentimental fool!”
Sentimental fool? Cloud’s laughter made me lose my smile along with him.
It’s been three years since I came from a small town in the center of China to study in the rainy harbor in the north, but I still can’t get used to the sticky, humid air, and because of my family’s poverty, I can’t go home to visit my relatives on a regular basis, so whenever I have a long vacation, I always stay in the dormitory by myself, groping around in the east and the west, like a wandering soul, and doing nothing, and relying on instant noodles to make ends meet for my three meals.
Last year, on the night of the Mid-Autumn Festival, I met Yun Er. That night I was walking down the hill from school, leaning on the bank of the Tianliao River, when I saw a girl in a white dress squatting on the bank of the river, releasing paper boats, I think there were about a dozen of them, right? The water flowed for a while, but then the boats returned to the girl’s feet one after another. I was so dumbfounded that I couldn’t help but be curious to see what kind of trick she was doing.
Toward a closer look, it turned out that the end of each paper boat, are tied to a long nylon line for fishing, paper boats drift far away, and then she drew back, and so on and so forth, and she also played a lot of fun. Seeing me walk in, she was not afraid of life, and also handed over a nylon line for me to try. I took the thin line, couldn’t help but laugh and say, “I’ve only seen kite flying, I’ve never heard of paper boat flying!”
The maiden also laughed, and she said, “If you let it go and float away with the water, you will defile the river!”
Her words called out to me, and I looked out over the dark, fishy river, really suspecting that there was something wrong with this girl’s brain structure.
We chatted about everything, and that’s how our so-called first love affair began; or maybe it was because the impression of our first meeting was so strong that I always thought Yun Hui was very clean, so I didn’t dare to joke around in front of her, and I even counted the number of times I’d held hands on my five fingers, not to mention kissing her, or any other further acts of urumuqi…
The night of our first kiss ended with us leaning side by side against the window pane, watching the moon dim. In the year that followed, I became a better kisser, but I couldn’t find the courage to undo her buttons anymore, even though I really wanted to…
After graduating from the business school, Yun’er was admitted to a second college in Taipei, and leased to reside in Taipei, the seemingly non-existent male-female feelings gradually faded, and eventually disappeared, but Yun’er’s clean image, like a little angel, has never been displaced in my mind.
One of the postscripts: This is a real first love. After nineteen years of re-reading the old article, let me really believe that the inexplicable homesickness of the teenage strangers, but also to help me get through the spermatozoa do strange teenage hormone impulsive period; only “enlightened” Lian Po boy in the future schooling, employment career, can no longer be that pure and stupid sentimental teenager.
Postscript No. 2: When I returned to Keelung a year ago, I learned about Yun’er’s recent situation from an old friend. Yun Er is now a businesswoman active in the Grain Council and is married to a Keelung representative with a fourth-grade boy. On the day I visited Yun Er, I went with her husband to see the “Mosquito Cinema” (an open-air movie) sponsored by the municipal government. “Two Little Girls”. I couldn’t think of anything else to do with the young woman, Yun Hui… I guess it was a trick of the gods, huh? Oh…