= Young and wild, chasing butterflies and looking for flowers.
I can’t mend my broken heart.
= Happiness is a legend (1) Origin
I opened my eyes, my head was still a little groggy, fuck, too much wine yesterday. I tried to get up and realized there was someone else on top of me, a naked woman, a woman I didn’t recognize.
I’ve been like this for a long time, since my grandma died. No one’s in charge, don’t need to work, no shortage of money, just play every day, play to my heart’s content, squander my youth, and it’s pretty good.
I tried to push her away and she woke up, looking up at me with sleepy eyes, really teasing me too. I was so fired up, I didn’t care who she was, I’d fuck her first.
I opened my mouth and wrapped her small mouth around it, kissing her lips, my tongue knocking gently against her teeth, seeking another mate, we were entangled, I kissed her so deeply I could feel her choking a little, I liked that, there was a sense of conquest.
I pinned her to the bed and threw back the covers, leaving her completely exposed. I licked every inch of her, especially the tantalizing peaks of her breasts, not too big, small, delicate and flexible. I licked, sucked, and nibbled on them, and the two little cherries were already standing proud, and she started moaning as if she had lost her mind.
Downwards, I came to her forest, densely packed, shit, I don’t like girls with too much pubic hair, because too much pubic hair makes me not feel very comfortable when licking there. However, I don’t have time to shave her right now, so I’ll take what I can get.
I parted the two lips of her pussy, revealing the pink flesh inside, one after the other in a funny way. My fingers probed inside, and already the spring tide was beginning to flood. Seeing that she was already wet, I wasn’t interested in continuing to service her, as long as it wasn’t too dry inside, I could get on my horse, and it was none of my business whether she would get off or not.
She’s a sensitive girl and she experienced an orgasm not long after I started, which was nice so everyone could be satisfied.
I surged hard, sometimes slow, sometimes fast, either deep or shallow, taking it well, I was an old gun after all. She squealed a lot, but a little like a pig in a poke, so I was a little disgruntled. However, she cooperated very well, I inserted in, she upward, I back, she also back, it seems to be a veteran. Time just so fly away, I feel from the back of the initiation of a period of numbness, quickly spread to the whole body, she also felt, want to push away from me, did not push, I let myself vent in her inside. She was a little upset, “Fuck, it’s none of my business if you’re pregnant or not.
I ignored her and got up alone and went to the bathroom to clean myself up.
Feeling a little hungry, I started foraging around the room for food, there was nothing, I remembered that I used to have some snacks, cookies or something, or half a packet of uneaten dry pasta or something, how come I couldn’t find any of it? The fridge was empty except for one egg. I took the egg out, my hand shook and it fell to the floor, “Fuck!” I cursed, it looked like the only way to eat was to go out.
I went into the bedroom and she was already cleaned up and dressed. I lazily dressed and she asked me, “Where are we going now?”
I stopped and looked at her in confusion, “We?”
“Yeah, us.” She was still serious, it was funny.
I pulled a few four leaders out of my wallet and threw them in her arms, “Go wherever you like, just leave me alone.” She wanted to say something else, but I took her by the shoulders and threw her out the door, I closed the door and cursed vaguely, I smiled and ignored it, I wouldn’t have remembered who she was anyway.
Finally came out, I stretched, so cool, sunny, spring breeze. Just as I was enjoying this April show, a Xiali like a wild horse rushed over, I did not have time to avoid, like pushing the gold mountain, down like a pillar of jade fell down, head knocked on the ground, but also very painful. I quickly climbed up, the driver was already standing in front of me in horror.
“Brother, are you okay, you didn’t hit anything, did you?”
I shook my head and closed my eyes, but I didn’t see a single gold star, but I couldn’t spare him.
“Go, go to the traffic squad.” I grabbed him and was about to leave.
He fell to his knees: “Brother. No, let’s not go to the traffic department, okay? Here, here is more than a thousand dollars, you first take it, I can not go back to get it.”
Looking at him all sweaty and me doing nothing, I, surprisingly, had a soft heart and took his money, “Get lost.”
I put the money in my pocket, my hand touched a piece of paper, took it out, it was a money order, from my parents. It’s been many years, since I was thirteen years old, they went to the U.S. At first, they said that they were really busy with their experimental work, and they didn’t have time to take care of me, so they left me alone in Beijing, luckily, I had my grandma to take care of me.
When I went to college, they wanted me to go to the U.S., but my grandma was getting old and I couldn’t leave her alone, so I didn’t go. When I was a sophomore in college, my grandmother died, leaving me alone. Last year, I graduated from college and was waiting for my visa, so I didn’t go to work, but my parents sent me money every month, and I was happy with that, no one cared, and I had money, so I lived a very elegant life.
It seemed to be almost noon, so I went to the post office and was greeted by a girl who, although plainly dressed and unpowdered, was quite pretty. I made a point of going up to her and trying to strike up a conversation. Suddenly a black eye, I reached out and grabbed something, just barely stood.
I desperately tried to open my eyes as a slap came at me, and there was a jumble of gold stars flashing, and I realized that my hands were still on the girl’s breasts, which felt quite small and elastic, and shouldn’t have been touched by many people.
I was thinking blindly, she pushed me away, and when I tried to say something, she cursed “rascal” and ran away with tears in her eyes.
I looked at her back, bent down and picked up the student ID card that she dropped in a panic. I opened it and read it, “University of C, Department of Economics and Management, Ouyang Ying, Class of ’95”, I smiled, it seems that it is still a first year girl.University of C, my alma mater. There are fish, how can I not go fishing?
My nose itched a little, and when I touched it, a few drops of blood fell onto my snow-white clothes… = Sorrow born of love, terror born of love
If you are free from love, what worries you?
Mahaparinirvana sutra
= Happiness is a Legend (2) Hurtful Deaths
Looking at the spots of blood on my shirt and thinking about the car accident that had just happened, I was reminded of a series of instances, what with brain oscillations, intracranial hemorrhages, and even malignant brain tumors, and so on and so forth. I felt like my heart was panicking, my legs were weak, my breath was short, and I was dying.
I took a taxi to Haidian Hospital, registered for emergency treatment, and spent a lot of money on blood tests, urine tests, CT… I did everything I could, and tried to do everything I could not. After a long time, I sat down in front of the doctor and waited for the merciless judgment of fate.
The oldest man looked at me coldly through his thick lenses.
“Doctor, just tell me the truth, I’ll hold up.”
He slowly spat out a few words: “Young man, you are not sick.”
“Not sick?” My eyes immediately rounded: “No way! I’ve just been hit by a car, and my eyes are black, my limbs are weak, my nose is bleeding, and I’m still not sick?”
“You are indeed not sick.”
“Then why am I dizzy and weak?”
“How long has it been since you’ve eaten lad?”
“How long?” This morning was not eaten, last night, as if not eaten, yesterday afternoon forward , until the day before yesterday I have been rubbing mahjong with the beans and theirs also not eaten.
“Haven’t eaten in almost two days.”
“That’s what it is, you have low blood sugar, that’s why you’re dizzy and have weakness in your limbs.”
“I got hit by a car.”
“Don’t worry, you’re fine, other than some minor soft tissue contusions, you’re normal.”
“Then why the nosebleed?”
“Boy, it looks like you’ve been slapped.”
“How do you know?” The Great Physician is a god.
“It’s nothing, you still have palm prints on your face now. By the way, young man, drink less in the future.”
I went out of the hospital, the heart of this hate, dead girl, hit me so hard, causing me to almost be scared to death, this blood debt, I have to let you pay for blood, not blood!
I went home, changed my clothes, and went straight to the U of C.
It’s been a long time since I’ve been back to school, and nothing has changed yet. The flowers are blooming, the grass is green, and the young couples are pairing off and making love. Lonely people, in threes or fives, lumbering about.
I took a brisk step and kicked open the door of Luo Xiao’s dormitory, he is my brother in the bunk in college, graduated and stayed in school after the exchange to the Department of Economics and Management of the Youth League Committee work. When the door opened, this kid was organizing his head full of hair.
“Big brother, next time be gentle, okay?”
“What, disgruntled?”
“No, no complaints, just a little advice.”
I collapsed onto the bed, flipping through one of the magazines on his bed, mentally calculating how to blackmail the kid, unable to hide the smile at the corners of my mouth.
“Tiger, Ding Wei came back a few days ago. She’s going to marry Ma Qiang soon.”
The smile on my face froze and my heart tightened, even though I knew this was going to be the case, I didn’t want to hear the news.
“She’s okay.”
“Pretty good, and the unit values her. Tiger, she asked me how you were doing.”
“Shit, what can I do, what else can I do, not this dead look.”
“Tiger, forget it, she’s married anyway, don’t think about her.”
“And does it help that I want to? Net bullshit, I’m outta here.”
“Hey, Tiger, Tiger.”
I left the school, the heart is very depressing, should not be so. There is a phone booth on the roadside, ghostly, I dialed the phone Ding Wei far away in Shanghai, for a long time, no one answered. I hung up the phone.
It was the last six months of college, and I don’t know which master I had offended, but the department sent me to a research institute in the suburbs to do my dissertation, where I had to ride for more than an hour to get back to school. I was very reluctant, but there was nothing I could do but go. Ding Wei, like me, was also sent there, the whole department only two of us there, the rest stayed in the school.
The lab is just her and I. Originally, we were on good terms, I should say I was on good terms with all the students in the class, but since she and Ma Qiang got into a relationship, we have had very little contact, and now, it’s impossible not to have contact.
Because the experiments were boring and time-consuming, many times I was waiting for the results. I always love to talk, so I always chat with her, sometimes also occasionally tell two yellow jokes, sort of flirt with her.
There is a billiard club near the Institute, I always run to play, once she also followed, must I teach her to play. I am happy to be a master, especially for a pretty girl as a master.
At that time the weather was already hot, she wore less, I taught her by hand, at first I did not feel anything, but I accidentally touched the back of my hand on her breasts, felt soft and elastic, because it was unintentional, she did not say anything, I do not know how to get it, but intentionally or unintentionally touched a few times, her face a little red, I know that I should be more restrained. When she leaned over to hit the ball, my eyes were glued to the cleavage hidden in her neckline, and I couldn’t help myself.
From that day on, she began to shadow me and couldn’t be waved away.
Since we were riding our bikes back to school, I secretly punctured her tire. With that, she got on my bike. It was more than an hour’s ride and I had to take someone else, I was still happy to do it. I took her often afterward, only, she still belonged to Ma Qiang when we got back to school.
A couple times I purposely botched experiments on weekends so we had to start over and she wouldn’t be able to go back to her date with Marjon.
I knew I was no good, and Ma Qiang was my friend, even though he wasn’t from our department, but we always played basketball together. I tried to let myself escape but couldn’t succeed. I was stuck.
Ding Wei was the same, at first it was still me who deliberately messed up the experiment, but later I found out that she had secretly moved too.
We both like to talk, the sky’s the limit. But we didn’t cross that step. On the surface, she was still Ma Qiang’s girlfriend.
Time flew by, the experiment was almost over, I knew that she was leaving, I wanted to say that I loved her but I couldn’t. We started to fight, once she accidentally lost my samples, I yelled at her, she just cried, silently, for a long time without stopping.
That night, I lost sleep.
On our last day in the lab, we both managed to receive our paper reviews with excellence written on them from our professors at the institute. We were laughing and letting loose in the lab, and it was all over, and college was over.
Gathering my courage, I grabbed her and kissed her hard, she struggled a few times and then gave up.
That night, I brought her home.
We both collapsed on the bed, and I gazed into her eyes, with me in them. She gently closed her eyes and I, gently kissed them. Starting with her forehead, her eyes, her lips, her earlobes, her pink neck, and as I unbuttoned her shirt, I heard her gasp.
Her skin was nice, slightly pink, smooth and tender. Two white peaks, not very large, barely graspable with one hand, two delicate red nipples, standing up in my mouth. Her panting got louder.
Her belly is flat and I tickle towards her waistline and she laughs out a silvery laugh.
She struggled a bit as I removed her skirt, but unfortunately, I was a bit stronger. It wasn’t the first time I’d made love to a girl, but, this time, it was genuine.
I carefully spread her fangs and saw the pink canyon, I touched it gently and her body visibly shuddered. I parted the two gradually fattening pussy lips and found the hidden nub and licked it, making it swell. She cried out and her body twisted involuntarily as she tried to push me away, or, perhaps, she was afraid I would leave.
I watched her spring flood and listened to her moan if anything. Lifting my head, I returned to her, her face peachy red, her eyes charming as silk. I kissed her, she kissed me back, two tongues, entangled with each other, each other saliva intertwined, in her gasp, I pushed into her. I hadn’t expected this to be her first time! She was in pain, I could feel it. I was very careful, very gentle in my movements, and only when she nodded her head that she could take it, did I thrust vigorously.
S night, we didn’t stop.
The next morning, I woke up to the noise outside the building and realized that Kagome was no longer beside me, leaving only a note with a printed lipstick.
“Tiger, I do love you, but we can’t be together, you know, I’m going back to Shanghai and you’ll be leaving China. How can we be together? Tiger, I have given myself to you, as a kind of remembrance of my love for you. Goodbye, Tiger.”
We haven’t seen each other since then.
＝They say that all lovers get married.
Why the Silver River Bank Partition Double Star
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= (to be continued)