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(i) Where does predestination come in?
The following is a first person account …….
On March 14, 1995, I was invited by my good friend, together by Hsinchu to Jhongli Hongmen Hotel, a door, the manager looked at three handsome, greeted, and guaranteed to recommend the top beauty to our three rare guests. Not long after, came three ladies, and even which one with which one lady are still the manager specified, due to the posture is really nothing to say, so we have no opinion, on their own with open.
The lady I was assigned to was wearing long riding boots and black shorts, revealing a thin and long thigh that was very sexy… But because of her cool face and the fact that she lit up a cigarette as soon as she entered the room, I hate it even more when girls smoke because I don’t smoke myself. I really want to check out and change to another lady, but just when I was about to open my mouth, she happened to take off her clothes, then I changed my mind, because her body is really great, so I also put off the idea of changing to a different lady, because I was really attracted by her body.
After undressing, we went into the bathroom together to rinse off, and I couldn’t help but marvel at her: ‘You have an amazing body!!!’
And she replied to me, your ‘dee-dee’ is big too yay…
Oh… I actually also embarrassed up, after washing, she helped me to dry the body, want me to go out of the bathroom first and wait for her, …..
Soon she was wrapped in a bath towel and laying on top of me. I removed the towel and kissed her peach-colored nipples. Her areolas were small and not dark at all, but her breasts were huge. …. I wanted to kiss her nipples forever. ….
I asked her: Can I kiss you on the mouth?
She laughed and said:Smells like smoke!!!!
I said: It’s okay… I kissed her mesmerizingly, my tongue kept flicking in and out of her mouth, and then I asked her: do you have a boyfriend?
She laughed and said:Breaking up ….
I said, “Will you let me be your boyfriend for an hour?
She nodded yes ……
And so it was that we made a very passionate and perfect one-time union like husband and wife, a very unforgettable one-time union. …
(Sorry I didn’t narrate the sex because I’m not writing pornography, this is a true story and it’s very touching, so if you’re looking for pornography, well, you don’t have to read any further.)
I remember that day the weather was very cold, but after more than half an hour of passion, the two of us were drenched in sweat, she was also tired and spread out on the side of the bed, gasping for breath, said you… First… Go to ….. Wash it…I… First… Rest…a little …. It’s been a long time …. I haven’t …. So …. Have …. I’m feeling it.
After the shower, we because sex together with foreplay time has been more than an hour and a half, so the manager came in and knocked on the door, urging Xiaoling (her pronoun) to hurry up, I think it must be other guests waiting, damn old , not afraid to give birth to a son with no asshole!!!!
I heart really heartache. But also helpless to say goodbye, before leaving, I asked her all what when later, she told me:Do one day, rest one day …..
Just like that, I returned home to Hsinchu with a head full of sweet sights. When I got home, I jerked off twice more thinking about her, and it felt really great.
In the past two days, always recalling the passionate images of that day’s lovemaking at all times, and thinking in my heart, I really hope to see her again, therefore, after two days, that is, March 16, 1995, I went to that hotel alone again.
I’m surprised I was a little nervous this time, lol …. I can’t believe I’m embarrassed after being such a spirited person at the mall!!!!
She smiled sweetly even when she saw it was me, ”Why didn’t you come with the artillery regiment today?”
I said …. They don’t have time …. Geez… I’m the one who misses her so much …..
We chatted and didn’t take off our clothes, just like a couple, I told her:Can you promise me not to do it, we can stop contacting each other, we can stop having sex today, I’ll pay for it!!!! (Her price was 6000 dollars)
She kept quiet and seemed to have a hard time talking, originally she was going to take off …. I told her …. You think about it a little more ….. But she still couldn’t promise me anything, only telling me she would do it less.
And just to encourage her, I really didn’t have sex with her that time, I just talked, because I liked her from the bottom of my heart.
Just after chatting until the manager called to rush, she got up to leave, I took the money to her, and after she kissed me deeply, she left me ……..
From that day on, I explained to the manager, as long as Siu Ling has come to work, call me on the action phone, I want to find her again, in fact, I am also very contradictory, on the one hand, I hope that she will never go to work in the hotel, on the other hand, I hope very much that there is a message from her, because I did not ask her for a phone or a pager, and I do not even know her real name …..
And so it all seemed to pass in waiting, she really didn’t go through with it yay!!!! And I wish her the best of luck deeply, as much as I would love to meet her again.
In this way, two weeks passed, this day the company was having a meeting at 1:30 p.m. ……….
Suddenly, my cell phone rang, it was the hotel manager calling… Ah Zhang! Your Siu Ling is finally here!!!! Can you come now? Because she can only stay until four o’clock, I said yes…I’ll be right there.
I also can not care will drive to the half, immediately from Hsinchu fast car to fly to Zhongli, all the way, my heart is really excited, finally can see her again!!!!
(ii) Planting Love in the Springtime
The following is told in the first person ……… I am the best friend of the hero ……
Preface.
The first episode was rushed online, so the two main characters were not introduced. The male lead: a man who knows his own personality and is quite persistent in his feelings. He is also quite confident in himself, his own conditions are not bad, when he met the heroine, he was the head of a company, it is also considered to start from scratch, at the time only 28 years old, and because of the many times in the newspaper to express their views, and often in the local media in Hsinchu, so at that time it is also considered to be half of the public figure, originally intended to participate in the end of this year’s election of the municipal councilor to open the career in politics, but in this one or two years less face, it seems that they have been I’ve given up on the idea.
Heroine: sixty years times, 163 cm 47 kg, three circumference 36, 22, 33 really should be big big should be small small!!!! Snow-white skin, tender as a baby, face a bit like Chen Hsiao-hsuan, long hair, likes to play the piano, read Akagawa Jiro’s deduction novels, Crayon Shin-chan, smoke heavily, sometimes have the habit of taking sleeping pills, Taoyuan people, the appearance of cold, ruthless, but in fact, the heart is very soft.
Hates men, doesn’t like sex, and has twelve guys around her at the same time when the hero pursues her. Loves cleanliness, likes to do housework …… likes coffee and has good taste.
The second episode of the story begins ……… The following is told in the first person …. I’m the hero’s best friend!!!! …It’s really not me…whoops ….
After two weeks of waiting, April 2, 1995 finally received a call from the hotel manager, the meeting was temporarily postponed to 5:00 p.m., just on the highway, I thought to myself, how to talk to her in the meeting? How to persuade her? Why is she here again? Today, we must ask her to contact the way, otherwise this kind of day is very difficult to get through ……
I must find a way to help her get out of a place like that!!!! Because I know that I have fallen in love with her !!!!!!!!!
Once again, I went to room ‘512’ to wait for her, and I kept reviewing the conversation I would have later. …… Time was passing by in minutes and seconds, but it felt as if it was so slow that I could catch it in my hands. …… …….
Suddenly a knock on the door, I was thinking of me startled, she came, came with a smile on her face, she was dressed in a white dress lady dress, ……… vaguely can be seen in the body of the extraordinary, really do not want to think of her as in this kind of place to work girls.
‘I heard from the manager that you’ve been looking for me so hard that you called within a few days …….’ ……
I didn’t wait for him to finish, I couldn’t help but hug her and kiss her passionately, the previous review of the conversation has long been thrown out of the sky We were like a long time lovers dry fire, kissing each other at the same time, very tacit understanding, can’t wait to remove each other’s clothes, like in the fire line of the big action, Clint Eastwick to the heroine Renee Russell’s bedroom scene, while kissing passionately while walking to the edge of the bed, clothes off! all over the floor, it was hard to stop, she wiped the lipstick off my face and I said I had just washed there (it’s a basic respect for women to keep it clean because of the oral sex.) So it’s clean, and you’re new here and haven’t done it yet, so I don’t think we need to shower first.
It was another very passionate time, especially when I saw her side profile and moving curves from the reflection of the mirror, together with the sound of her voice, it still impressed me so much that I think I can’t forget it for the rest of my life.
Because it is a door to start making love, coupled with less customers in the afternoon time, so we have a lot of time to chat today, I asked her in the past few days it was hard not to come, how come today again? She said in fact these days her father in Changgeng surgery, she went there to take care of her father, and the manager day and night to call the pager to ask me to come to work, so I have time this afternoon came, later at five o’clock still have to go to change shifts with mom.
I asked her to consider going out with me and she said do you mind if I can smoke?
I shook my head and kissed and gagged her…
I don’t have a good temper ….
I shook my head again and kissed her gagging her to show I didn’t mind …..
I talk to a lot of boys ………….
She told a few of her shortcomings, and I always used the same action to show that I was willing and able to accept it, as long as she never did it again …….
She promised me she’d think about it.
Before she left, she gave me the pager number and her name, and I gave her my business card.
Her name is He Yu Lin, and I know that’s not his real name because she still has to protect herself because I can tell she’s someone who has been in a big disaster before, so she’s a little bit nervous, and therefore many times her eyes have the look of a scared bird.
I want her to take care of herself and she wants the next time we meet to not be in this place, the next time we meet will be a date!!!!
It was really great ….. I went back to Hsinchu with full of excitement to continue my unfinished meeting.
After a few days, I call her almost every day, but did not return, and did not go to work, until a week later, one night she called, she said he is now in Jhongli, the manager next to, can not speak for too long, she asked me if I was looking for her a lot of days, she said that the pager has been placed in the hotel this side of the past few days, the day of April 2, I forgot to bring it back, so I do not know to return the call, but also today came to know that I have to look for her! I told her to meet, she said that tomorrow, no work and father out of the hospital, we made an appointment in front of Zhongli New Far East, I want her to wear a little more pure, the more simple the better, do not have to make up and lipstick, the more natural the better.
Missed her even more after hanging up the phone!!!! It was ok to miss her before but not know where she was, now I know she’s there and probably doing that with someone else later ……
I don’t want it, I don’t want it, I don’t want it, …….. How can I stand it, it’s eleven o’clock, I immediately got up and changed to go, I bought a can of coffee along the way, that’s what she said last time we chatted, when she saw me, the first thing she said was, didn’t we agree never to meet here? Why are you here again? What happened?
I told her…I missed her…and couldn’t sleep so I had to come running …..
We drank the coffee I bought, she bought me her snacks, and just like that, we started to linger ……
Can you feel it? It really felt like a couple. She’s a very kind person, and halfway through sex, I suddenly told her… ‘Xiaoling, I love you!’ …..
She also stopped moving when she heard me, and after a few seconds of looking at each other, it seemed like nothing needed to be said ….
Because it’s a shared feeling, it’s just that I’m the one telling it …….
Then hugged and kissed me tightly ……….
When the whole process is close to three-quarters of the time, I found that her expression seems to be very painful, as if the stomach is very painful look, I will stop the piston movement, the condom will be removed, (here just also answer d × × a netizen a question, I have to wear a condom, and it is she reminded me to wear.)
After removing it I did my own break and she asked me why I was jerking off on my own.
I said I couldn’t bear to see you in pain. What the hell happened to you?
It turned out that her stomach problem had flared up again. In fact, I could tell from the 10-centimeter-long surgical scar on her belly that she must have had a serious illness, which made my heart ache for her even more.
After I finished, it was already about one o’clock, I invited her to go for a night tour, chatting, hoping that she rested tonight, she agreed, and arranged to meet at Zhongli New Far East in twenty minutes, she asked me to guess the color of her car, and I guessed, she drove a white March, which accompanied us to accumulate a lot of memories later on.
I waited at the appointed place, twenty minutes passed ……. Thirty minutes…forty minutes…. I was afraid that she wouldn’t show up and that she was cheating on me. …. Really, finally, around two o’clock her car showed up. She even apologized after she got in my car, because there came a man covered in tattoos and no one dared to do it, so she had to take it.
I’m sorry to hear that. Is your stomach better now? Do you want to buy some medicine? She carries …. with her everywhere. It’s standard equipment for people with gastrointestinal problems!
We went all the way to the back of the Mingxin Technical College, a place in Hsinchu that is quite famous for its night view ………… Tiande Hall, and we chatted about everything ……. But always feel that she has a full of vicissitudes, but can not say the feeling, she said that she would come out with me because my eyes and her ex-boyfriend is very similar, so when the first look at me is very impressive, the difference is that my eyes do not have the kind of murderous aura of her ex-boyfriend! Turns out her ex-boyfriend was a hooligan.
We would naturally kiss each other, like a couple who had known each other for a long time, and it didn’t feel at all like we had only known each other for less than a month.
Soon, the daybreak, I drove her car in her back to Chungli, on the way back to Chungli, she leaned on me, look at her face serene, I know that is her long-lost days of ease, I made up my mind to get her out of the misery. I told her, in the future, when I call you to leave ‘512’ number, it means that I am saying to you: ‘I love you’, usually people use ‘520’, but because we met many times in 512 room, so we use it as our tacit understanding! It is also used as a memento.
Call me when you get home, okay? Let me know you’re home, and she said, ‘That’s the way to go, because you care about me.’
When I drove to Xinzhutou Qianxi Bridge, she called to tell me that she was safely home and asked me to take a rest before going to work. Don’t forget the date tomorrow afternoon!!!! Bye bye ……… that’s it ……… this is the
Our first date.
The next morning I called her and we were chatting happily when her pager rang and the code number left was 512, the problem is that only she and I know this code number! But I was talking to her on the phone!!! It couldn’t have been me…she didn’t know how to explain to me that someone had called her but the number was a code number that only she and I knew the meaning of!
Oh…of course I typed it!!!! How could anyone else know that code name!!! Oh, …. So she was scared… She’s afraid that I’ll misunderstand her and tell her our secret code name. …..
Look at her momentarily speechless …. I thought it was so funny…lol… Then I told her it was me …… and she laughed with relief …. What a relief!!!!
She asked me to say …. Am I not talking on the phone? How can I call a pager? Because she knew there was only one phone in my house at the time ….. I’m sorry …… I’m calling from a cell phone!!!! Hahaha ……….
But she’s happy about it. …. Because it’s like saying “Iloveyou” indirectly.
….. Make her feel quite cozy and romantic ….
The expected afternoon date finally came, I went to buy a bouquet of flowers and put it in the back seat, while she hurriedly finished her piano tutoring and took a taxi from Taoyuan is to Jhongli.
We went to see Crisis in Chief, and after the movie, and it was getting dark, I was going to give her the flowers in the parking lot before I had to drive the car out, and just as I said wait a minute, and turned around to the back to get the bouquet, she gently leaned over to me and whispered in my ear, ”I did see it when I got in the car this afternoon yay!!!!!!!!”
Oh my god ….. I’m so sorry, it’s so embarrassing!!!!
I wanted to give her a surprise said ……. Still keep thinking people don’t know, I can’t help but hug and kiss her ….. Because she looks really cute!!!!!
We went to sing at a Windsor Castle KTV on East Central Road, and that’s where I first heard the song “New Love”.
After leaving the karaoke bar, she told me she wanted to buy a CD, but it was too late, so she stopped.
It was already twelve o’clock at that time, I really didn’t want to say goodbye to her so early, but it was so late, there was really no place to go, and she hadn’t proposed anything, the car wandered aimlessly, I didn’t dare to ask to spend the night with her because I was afraid that she would misunderstand that I came here for the sake of ‘sex’, and when I was about to propose to drive her home, she opened her mouth and said: ‘Look, there’s a motel! ‘Look, there’s a motel over there!!!’
In fact, people who live in Zhongli know that the Middle East Ring Road is full of motels, and I don’t know how many of them I passed along the way …. I know she didn’t want to go home as much as I did. But I’m really embarrassed, why? You’ll know if you read on!!!!
Came to the motel entrance, :’Would you like to rest or stay?’ ……
I actually turned to her and asked: ‘Want a break or a place to stay?’ …..
Oh, my God! I’m such a hick! What kind of guy asks a girl on the spot about something like this? ……….
So she turned her head less than happily as she said, ‘How should I know, don’t ask me!’
That’s when I realized that I really shouldn’t have asked her about it in front of the waitress, maybe I did it out of respect, but what would people think of her that way? No wonder she minded …..
But when I went in she told me, really beat you, you really haven’t gone out to get a room with a lady? ….
Oh…and it’s really dirt!!!!!
Maybe it’s the quiet atmosphere of the night that makes people more unguarded …. She narrated her past, her family opened a rubber factory in Xinzhuang, originally a good family, three years ago because of the stock plunge, coupled with the management of the financial mother was cheated nearly 20 million, the family was facing disintegration and collapse, a hooligan pursued her for a long time, she has not dumped him, but because of this family change, the man took the initiative to help her family to recover the money, the result is that 10 million was recovered, although it is unable to solve the predicament, but at least it has been a great favor. Although it can not completely solve the dilemma, but at least it has been a great favor, and therefore, she was halfway under the hooligan’s girlfriend, after she and the man back to Taipei Songshan, was placed under house arrest, she was not allowed to go home, not allowed to act alone, and move to beat her, forcing her to get pregnant, good in the man’s sister secretly buy birth control pills to her to eat, so as not to get pregnant!
She said she was just like a dog, not even the power to watch TV to turn the channel, she had also escaped to go, but were caught back, and even once in front of the police screamed for help but still stood by and watched her being taken by a few men, so she hated the police, and often locked up inside the mountains, she was also broken elbow joints of both hands, her nose was also broken, she described it as being broken by a baseball bat, when she Fainted from the pain, when the doctor chucked out the broken nose bone piece by piece, it really hurt!!!!
The open scar on her stomach, on the other hand, was the result of the man thinking her stomach pain was fake, so he didn’t believe it was real until she was in so much pain that she was going crazy, and then she was rushed to the emergency room, but it was bad enough that she had to be operated on.
A whole year, maybe it’s considered debt repayment ….. What she said…
That’s how she spent the year being seen as forbidden.
A nice girl, in her twenties, just cut enough scars in her heart to ruin her life!!!!! She said her ex-boyfriend was like the devil in her heart!!!! Even after more than a year, she still often wakes up in nightmares.
Ever since she escaped, she vowed never to trust anyone or have a boyfriend again, so the fact that she told me in no uncertain terms that she was allowed to have boyfriend/girlfriend relationships but not boyfriend/girlfriend bondage was a big enough accommodation for me!
Other men aren’t so lucky, and in future episodes it will be mentioned how the guys who pursued her got blown away by her!!!!
Speaking, the time is also very late, we went to take a shower together and went to sleep, I did not touch her that day, because that is not the purpose I want to be with her, but I was up all night, my heart is very sad, very for her heartache, I can not sleep at all, I have been thinking back to the scene of her abuse …. I didn’t dare to open my eyes ….. And so the day dawned ………….
P.S It’s now 4:30am, my fever has gone down today but my throat can’t speak, forgive me for not being able to finish it all at once, but I will let you all read the whole thing as soon as possible, I still have four hours before I have to go to work, I hope that my feelings can gain your understanding and encouragement, then I will be very thankful. As for those netizens who don’t believe that this story is true, I advise you not to read it. Those who despise call girls are even less qualified to read it!!!! I’m not encouraging people to laugh at the poor, but everyone has different encounters with everyone trying to survive, and the cheap ones certainly do! But if you treat everyone in the same field or dark corner the same, then you are too short-sighted, that’s you!Alcoholic…. Still looking backward on purpose! That’s you! You’re still pretending? I was really saddened by your post in the sex section of Jiao Tong University’s Information Technology Station! I hope you can change your mind about them a little bit, or else, don’t read my story! I don’t want you to read it and look like it’s upsetting you, then I’ll feel very sorry for you. ……. .OK?
(III) Marriage is fixed in March when the plum blossoms and the stars align
Preface.
Also some people say that many boards can see it, so they begin to doubt the authenticity of this story, in fact, crosspost is a last resort ….. Originally I only post in the sex board and friend board but a few users responded that the letter was chopped on their station and asked to be put on other related boards because different board owners may not have the same style. …… That’s the reason why I posted the other related boards together when the second episode was published. ………….. Can you understand? Once again: there is nothing strange under the sun…not to mention that there are quite a few of these …… I’ve already received letters from three users who said that they themselves were in the same situation ….. I can’t help it if you’re skeptical ….
Episode 3 The Story Begins ………
The following is told in first person …. I’m the hero’s best friend!!!! …It’s really not me…I wish it was me!!!
Oh…the heroine is so cute… Oooh…I don’t know if I’ll ever have this chance to say that in my life… Heh…
The day dawned, and I spent the whole night in heartache, sighing, and mourning her past, looking at her peacefully, it was hard to imagine how she had survived the previous days, and in my heart, I really wished that I could stop her from enduring days of flesh and blood forever. …
Although it was almost noon, I couldn’t bear to call her until she opened her eyes and naturally hugged me when she asked me how I was in the same position as last night before going to bed. You didn’t sleep, did you? (Because I was half sitting beside her with a pillow behind my back.)
I couldn’t help but cry, I said I couldn’t sleep, I just wanted to kill that bastard as soon as I imagined all the abuse you were subjected to. …. I really regret why I met you so late, I couldn’t help you through the hard times and let you be ruined by that sick person…
She comforted me…saying…that’s all in the past…I’m free and doing fine the way I am!
Oh, my God. …. Is that a good name?
I’d rather I didn’t get the chance to know you who I love in my heart than this life of selling your flesh now!!!! I thought to myself …. I want to use love to touch her, step by step to correct her life, protect her through this life, no longer let her suffer those torments …..
I hadn’t slept all night and I didn’t feel tired at all driving in her gentle company…I’m going to drive her home…I’m so excited in my heart because I can feel that our distance is getting shorter and shorter ….
Didn’t she say she wanted to buy a CD last night? When we drove to a CD store across from Lai Lai Department Store on Zhongshan East Road in Taoyuan City, she asked me to wait for her for a while, and…
As soon as you get on the bus,…come on…this Sandy Lam CD is for you ….
Wow! So the CD she wanted to buy last night was a gift for me …. I’m so touched. …. That’s Sandy Lam’s “Scars” album ….
A really great CD.
The car came to N0.4 of Ming Shi Yuan on Ziqiang Road. Those of you who live in Taoyuan should know that it’s across the street from Qingxi National High School, and it was in this apartment building that most of my memories with her began.
She wanted me to go in her home with her…
As soon as I walked in the door…I saw two movie posters hanging on the wall…one of Mel Gibson’s In This Life…and one of Keanu Levy’s Defenders ….
But I don’t think she’d be the one to buy either of those posters (because I can tell she hates men), instead there’s a poster of Madonna lying on a bed completely naked and with a cigarette in her mouth with a look of disdain I’m sure she bought it …. Because that more or less reveals her current state of mind…
Living room with a white sofa set …. TV with a small stereo …. A small refrigerator …. Coming to her room… There is a piano in her room… The family photo on the desk attracted me to pick it up and look at it… On the desk, there is also a writing brush, so it is obvious that she usually has the habit of writing with a brush.
She is alone with a close friend’s sister ‘Evening Qin’ to share this four-room high-class apartment…if it is a normal income…I’m afraid that she can’t afford to rent it ….
Alas …. Looks like the difficulty of the task has deepened *because it’s hard to change spending habits too…
When she played a couple of tunes for me, she asked me to sit next to her, and as I listened, I got up and walked behind her because I was crying…
I didn’t want to dampen her spirits, and in my mind I wondered why such a nice girl was so unfairly put through all that!!!!
I hugged her gently from behind . But the tears accidentally dripped onto her shoulder, she turned to look at me and said with a smile, ”Is it you who is being abused or me? Why do you need me to comfort you?… Don’t cry’…
She wiped away my tears …… and said: ‘Let’s be happy together, okay?’ ….
I made an appointment with her to meet the day after tomorrow ….. Then I said goodbye…
Before she leaves, I want her to stop going to work as much as possible …. She said she’ll see what she can do…she wants to take a break for a while too…
After I returned to Hsinchu, I didn’t stay idle either. …. I asked my best friend who is a cop to find out the name of the owner of the car by using her car number ….
My friend said, “Is it a womanizer? If so, I’ll check it out for you!
…lol…so sorry …..
I also found out the address of her old home…it’s an old family village in Turtle Mountain ….. It’s about 3 minutes away from where she lives. She didn’t stay home because she was afraid that that asshole would come to her house and take her away again …. God is blind to let people like this run rampant!!!! …..
She told me that when she ran away from home, she bought a dog named Happy, and she said to him, “I’m never trusting anyone ever again!!!
That’s why she’s always been mean to the many suitors she’s had over the past year!
This day …. I still brought a bouquet of flowers with me when I went to her house…I never used to give flowers to girls…I never thought that it would change me completely for her…
Especially me, how I used to hate seeing girls smoke! But now I’m so able to tolerate her smoking three packs of cigarettes a day and tolerate everything she does …. I know I’m sincere…
We had a great time chatting all night, singing songs and listening to her piano, the way she plays the piano is so graceful! It really made me love her more ….
But the reality of it is also on my mind…if I’m with her and people around me find out that she’s done that kind of career…what do I do?…
If my parents find out, how can I explain? If I want to go into politics in the future, will this be my Achilles’ heel?
But the persistent heart tells me that for her I can give up politics, for her I can not pay attention to the gossip of my friends, and even, I am willing to take him to live in the countryside together to do a small business, as an ordinary ordinary people can not be ordinary!
As for my parents, I’m confident that I can get them to accept her because my parents have always been very supportive of all my decisions.
I’m not someone who hasn’t been in love before, and I know I’m not so in love with her because of her looks…even if I was at first…but that doesn’t matter now …. Because I wouldn’t always want to do that with her now…
Though that has something to do with her comment that she doesn’t like sex too …. But for now, as long as I can be with her or know that she hasn’t gone to work at the hotel for another day…I’ll be very happy!!!!
So I know I’m genuinely in love with her…really…he really hasn’t even been there since she’s been dating me yay!
That day…I accompanied her to sleep after her bath, and she asked me to tell her fairy tales in her ear to help her sleep…she is usually so cool, but I didn’t realize that there is a childlike side to her too…I really like her so much!
The next day when I woke up it was close to noon, because we talked until three or four o’clock before going to bed, I rushed to call the company to explain some things, and my mobile phone is open 24 hours, so there is no urgent matter to find me.
I asked her if she didn’t exercise in the morning. Because I want to adjust her routine first, he used to work until 4 or 5 o’clock home, and then sleep until noon or afternoon, so of course they have been stuck in the night life ….
She said that sometimes early in the morning will go to climb Hutou Mountain, and then come back to sleep, I said: then I buy a set of sportswear to put on your side, in the future, if possible, I can come from Hsinchu early in the morning to accompany you to climb the mountain Oh!
She nodded ….. Smile and say yes…
Maybe she was too embarrassed to say no…why? …keep reading and you’ll see ….
This day I went to Taipei for a meeting, from the day of our first date counted to today has been the fifteenth day, the whole half a month, she really did not go to that place to work yay!
On the way up to Taipei, I called her…
She wasn’t home, so I left a message on my answering machine that I would be coming over to her side tonight, and we would go shopping for sweatshirts together then, and after a song, ended the message. Around 6pm, I got a call from her and she wanted me to come now, I was having dinner with friends and didn’t wait for my meal to be served before I excused myself, because in my mind, no one is more important than her except my parents! Even myself…when I was almost off the Taoyuan Interchange, I called to tell her if she wanted to stop by to buy a sweatshirt, it was only 8:00 now, and if she did, to wait for me downstairs…
She said:Next time…I wish I had seen you sooner ….
I was a little weirded out ….. It’s a sixth sense …. Whatever…next time is next time!
The day was particularly romantic …. She was waiting for me in a sexy dress and she asked me how tired I must be after a busy day?
She asked to bathe me, and she took a brush and carefully scrubbed every part of my body, and asked me to stay in the bathroom with her and talk to her while she bathed…
Geez…that’s like asking me to give her a nosebleed on the spot!
Her every move is etched in my mind ….. I still can’t forget, she took one of her big shirts and let me use it as pajamas…she also sprayed perfume on me…
By the way …… she likes to collect perfumes…she has so many ……
She asked me to sing to her…casually picked up an album by Cynthia Yeh …. Sing it one by one …. OMG…I can sing every single one of them!!!!
I’ve heard all of them…but more than half of them have never been sung before…
Hmmm …. Love can inspire potential! Proven here ….
When I’ve sung an entire album’s worth of songs…
She looked at me in surprise …. Said:Strange ….. How is it that men who are very good-looking don’t have much substance …. The men who have a lot of substance are not very good looking….
Wow ….. Is that a positive or a negative? Should I be happy or sad?
Oh …. I hurriedly asked her…so which one do you prefer?
She said…the latter of course! Because it’s the inside that’s permanent and the outside that’s fleeting!!!!
Well…good point, which is a relief to me …..
We started talking about the future …. She asked me if it was okay if we never got married like this.
I said… I’m an only child …. It’s a bit difficult ….. Can you promise me you won’t do it? ….. I hope to make it to my birthday next year (January 30, 1996) so I don’t have to do it …..
Wow…do you have any goals?
… Yes…I want to buy a house…and live with my parents for the rest of my life…so I don’t plan on getting married. Also, I know I probably won’t be happy in my life …. I know I did a lot of things wrong in the past, but that’s all irreparable…it’s probably impossible for me to be a proper wife and mother…it’s impossible for me to forget what happened in the past…and, I don’t want to live for too long…if it weren’t for my mom and dad, maybe I would have been long gone already. ….
But then again, I so want to have a child, but I think my body may not be able to have children …. I know there is a lot of conflict in her mind, but I have never heard her say the word conflict since I have known her!!!!
Maybe it’s deliberately hidden!!!! Like when I say the words ‘I love you’, she just writes the words ‘my heart too’ on my hand with her finger, it seems difficult to come out of her mouth ……
I said I’d marry you, and I’m not opposed to both of our parents living together, so we can take care of you and my parents at the same time! …And, if you really can’t have children, we can adopt ah! Anyway, I want to be with you forever, I’m afraid that you’ll have a bad time again The Heartache Feeling track on this album, which she said was her favorite song from her junior high school days, seems to be telling me how she’s feeling right now, doesn’t it? …
Unconsciously, with her body language, I realized her need and could no longer suppress the abstinence I had felt for so many days…
Just after a period of lingering …. She whispered: ‘Hubby…I want to…’…….
I said, ‘What did you say? What did you just call me?’ …
She was a bit embarrassed and said: ‘Everyone else has a husband ….’ …..
I heard the really good heartache, a so beautiful girl, more should have long been someone to love, …
Alas …. I let out a long sigh …. Tell her:’I’m willing …. I’m willing to be your husband, will you call me that from now on?” …..
She nodded …. And just like that…we had sex for the first time in the middle of where she lived …. She told me that the feeling of having sex this time was something she had never felt before, and that this time it was real sex for her, real sex with the person she loved ……..
When she was done, she got up naked and played the piano, over and over again ….. The eyes also became strange, and kept squinting and looking thoughtful…
I didn’t want to disturb her, I just listened to her tunes quietly.
The next morning, her roommate came back, I know that her roommate is not very favorable to her and me together from the beginning, because from her eyes to me can be seen, her roommate ….. Late Qin, only just 17 years old, but has already worked as a princess in several hotels, often changing bosses because of her bad temper and often quarreling with her coworkers.
When her roommate came back, I found her whole person changed, she told me to go away, don’t come to her in the future, because knowing her is going to be bad luck, you have to be a normal friend to come to me, otherwise, you don’t come back to bother me!!!!
I’m having a little trouble dealing with this drastic change …. I don’t know what I did wrong? But I also had to go, I was thinking, she was testing my sincerity, right? How could she have flipped so quickly? And I didn’t do anything wrong? ….
All the assumptions made me very uneasy along the way…
I kept calling her on the way home, but she just wouldn’t pick up. Well after I called multiple times she finally answered …..
‘We can’t be together!’
‘Being with me is the beginning of your disaster!’
‘I’m not a good woman, I’m rotten and cheap’
‘You’ve cost me a lot of money in the past half a month, do you know that?’
‘I’m not as good as you think?’
‘Don’t you dare try to change me!’
‘You don’t mind me now, you still will in the future!’
”None of the men in the world are good, don’t you pretend!” …
…OMG!!!! …. Why? Why? Why is it like this? How did she become a different person? No wonder she said it’s okay to hold off on the gym clothes, giving me a bad feeling in my heart …..
I felt like falling into an abyss in the face of this bolt from the blue ….. But I will never give up! I’m going to come back for her …..
I can’t watch her fall like this! Nothing is impossible, that’s my principle, I must try my best, even if it’s useless, at least I must try my best to be worthy of her!!! I can’t just leave her and let her dig her own grave!!!! …………………. Though she is determined to destroy herself !!!!!!!!
As the title says: Plums can bloom in March what can’t you and I overcome between us?
(D) My heart is engraved in your heart.
Preface.
Episode 4 The Story Begins ………
The following is a first person account …………………
I’ve never been able to accept that she’s changed so much overnight! I still remember a few days ago she took the video tape of me hosting the program home to show her family, she also said that her parents watched it and thought that I was quite popular, I knew I wasn’t a bad person, I was a good talker on TV, I should be a good match for her, she even said that her sister said with a very weird look: ‘Well… It’s very unusual!!!’
Speaking of this, she also smiled coyly, with an expression of shyness after being seen inside ……
How is it that after only a few days, she has become so callous about ending everything between us ….. Everything that was beautiful!
I was not deterred by this sudden blow, I knew that if I gave up on her, I would regret it for the rest of my life for not giving it my best shot, and I knew that the chances of missing me and meeting someone as genuine as I was to her were very slim! I still call her every day, and every day I call the pager to leave “95-0314-512″ ===> “I love you on 3/14/95”
Most of the calls were not answered by her, but by another roommate, Evening, who was always abusing me in a very rude tone, even to the point of saying the three-letter word!
Sometimes when the cursing got to the point where she couldn’t take it anymore next to me, she would snatch the phone away from Evening and tell me to stop calling! It’s not possible between us!!!!
I don’t blame Evening Star, after all, she’s still young, she went to work in a hotel at the age of seventeen, and once almost got raped by a public representative from Taoyuan County, so it’s understandable that she would be so bad-tempered and mean to people.
I tried to find out the phone number of Siau Ling’s old home in Kameyama Family Village, because almost every night she would come home for dinner to reassure her family, who, of course, had no idea what she was actually doing for work right now.
I remembered that she had told me the names of her whole family, including her parents, her brother and her sister, and I also knew that her father’s factory was in Xinzhuang. I couldn’t find her family’s phone number from 105, but luckily I found a phone number of a factory in Xinzhuang under her father’s name. I called that day, and it was answered by her father, and I intentionally said that I was looking for her brother, who, of course, wasn’t in the factory, which gave me the reason to ask for her family’s unlisted phone number.
I have one more channel to contact her. But I can’t make this call easily because I’m afraid she’ll alienate me even more if she’s worried about me accidentally letting her family know that she’s working as a call girl.
Just two days after I looked up her home phone number, the phone number for the place where she rented the house turned up empty!!!!
I was very panicked, but immediately ran to the Taoyuan Telecommunications Bureau on the same day, pretending to apply for a phone, which we knew we could request a number selection or accept the number assigned by the Bureau.
I asked the current application will be assigned the number, and then extend the front and back of each 100 as the search range, and then the current number can be selected, about more than 100 groups of numbers, also all copied up, a total of more than 300 numbers, back home to the computer to analyze, record, and try to track down, filter out her new application for a phone, of course, how careful I am, part of the still rely on luck, for example, she does not install the phone! …. But I can only try my best, I have no choice.
I call these hundreds of phones every day, there are small children, old people, men, companies, etc……. These calls are deleted one by one, each number every time you hit a record, just after a week I called thousands of calls, the range let me narrow down to the remaining two dozen, I know there is also the possibility that the real number was accidentally deleted by me I knew there was also the possibility that the real number had been accidentally deleted by me, but I was still confident that I could find it.
The big deal is to find it from scratch.
Just five days after she changed her phone number, she started calling me almost every day, but just wouldn’t give me her phone number or meet with me and would only talk to me on the phone.
I also ran to the Hongmen Hotel every two days to see if she was still there or not?
Sometimes she goes two or three times a day, sometimes she goes at one o’clock in the middle of the night, and sometimes she intentionally asks her friend to call and ask the hotel manager if she has come…
But thankfully, she hasn’t been going anymore. ….
Until one day the hotel manager called my friend to inform her that she was coming back to work!!!!
Disappointed, but immediately drove there, when the manager saw me coming (because she had told the manager that she did not want to see me again), immediately said that Siu Ling did not come, do you want me to introduce a better condition of the lady to you?
Just as I opened my mouth to speak, I saw a figure shifting and ducking in the girls’ lounge, and I said:Then let me in to choose!
The manager was adamant, and I said …. Then I’ll rest in my room and see if she’ll come later.
The manager saw that my mind was made up, so he could only follow me …….
I went into the room and hid by the door to watch the entrance and exit of the elevator, and in a few moments I noticed her tiptoeing out, looking cautious, and jerking her head up to see me watching her from a short distance away!!!!
When she saw me, she looked surprised and immediately ran down the stairs toward the safety ladder!
By this time the bodyguards from the hotel were coming up, and I realized from the menacing look in their eyes that I had to get out in a hurry too.
Just as I stepped out the door, her car was long gone ….
I know I’ve lost her …..
But, thankfully, she hasn’t been to Hongmen since, and even triggered the hotel manager to call me and threaten me, saying she’d come to Hsinchu to seek revenge!!!!
I scolded her back for being an inhumane piece of shit and making this kind of money! Watch out for the next generation!
If you want to come to Hsinchu to find me, I’ll be there anytime, I don’t believe I’ll be afraid of you in Hsinchu!!!!
Here are the three letters I wrote to her after I came home that time. I bought Jacky Cheung’s “You Love Him” when I sent the third letter.
Give her the CD of the album.
You are a very useless person, you have to use your brain to make money, not this way, do you know how many times you have to do it to reach your goal? —3500 times! What kind of lousy, unhygienic people are in a place like that? It’s so disappointing that someone as classy as you is willing to put up with it!
I must see that you stop doing this kind of thing, even if you don’t understand me for the rest of your life, and I’m sure that when your good life comes, you’ll naturally come to your senses and naturally thank me.
No matter what misunderstandings you have about me, no matter what concerns you have, it’s really too much for you to turn your back on me like this, causing me to be unmotivated and restless all day long, is it possible that if you love someone, you have to torment them like this in order for you to be able to balance it out?
No matter how rotten or cheap you think you are, in my mind you will always be the most perfect and classy woman, it’s just that you don’t want to face the real you.
Although you only call me your husband for one day, in this life, you will always be my wife and wife in my heart.
If you really don’t love me anymore, I’m willing to fuck off far away as long as you don’t do that again. (It’s painful, but it’s worth it)
Can you please think back again to the happy times we had together? The sweet and cozy feeling when I sang Ye Qianwen’s songs to you, the silly way I fried roti cakes for you, the way I thought of your past and cried with you when I was so sad, and the happy memories we had together. ………. Have you forgotten all the happy memories? Are you really so heartless to give up?
Did you forget that you said there was a lot between us that you’d never felt before?
Have you forgotten that you said it’s good luck for pigs and goats to go together?
Have you forgotten that you once said that people like me are the kind you really appreciate?
Did you forget you said you’d introduce me to your sister and her boyfriend?
Did you forget you said you had to eat to see how good my mom’s dumplings really are?
Did you forget you said you wanted me to look at houses and kill prices for you?
Did you forget you said we’d start a business together?
Did you forget you said you’d record “Deja Vu” for me?
Have you forgotten that you wrote the words “My heart is the same” on me?
Have you forgotten what we’ve agreed to call each other from now on?
Have you really forgotten everything you’ve ever said to me?
Is there any other man in the world who cares about you, who cares more about you than I do?
Why is it that after just one day, your attitude towards me has changed so much that I don’t know what to do?
I really can’t imagine a day without hearing from you.
Why give up happiness that you can grab?
When people live in the world, they can admit anything, but they cannot admit their fate!
I hope you take care of yourself before you let me come back to you.
I will wait for you, I will wait until you are willing to let me come back to you again, and please believe me that I don’t care about all the unfortunate things that have happened to you, because the torment of these past few days, the torment that has driven me almost crazy, has made me certain that you will be the one I will always love dearly in this life.
The second letter:I was in a big car accident, my car was almost totaled, but I was fine, and she was sick, so I sent her a book in the mail. A book about starting a small business.
May the book bring about a lifetime of transformation for you, and please do ask any questions you may have while reading it. And I hope you will read it with all your heart.
May your phoenix body recover soon!
The third letter:I also attached Jacky Cheung’s CD to her at the same time, and I didn’t expect the music of this CD to be the key for me to find out her phone number in the future. During these days, she still called me every two or three days, but still didn’t want to meet with me.
Are you feeling better? I wish I could see you sooner. I wonder if you’re doing well? Are you happy? In fact, I didn’t want to quarrel with Evening Harvest that day, but she spoke so harshly, and you are the only one in the world who can scold me like that. I have my own self-respect, and it’s fine for you to talk about me in any way you want, but I can’t allow it for anyone else. But I apologized to her the next day, and I promise you that I will not quarrel with her and make you feel bad in the future, and I will do it for you completely.
I believe you know in your own heart that what you need most at the moment is not money, but the genuine love and care of others, only that you have never had the courage to accept it.
On the surface you think you’ve escaped the clutches of that perverted boy, but in reality you’re completely unaware that you’re still living in its shadow, in its insatiable dream. And that’s why you’re willing to do this kind of thing to live your life. Because you will only think of comparing with the previous horrible days, now it is much better, so you can see that your mental disorder has not been cured at all, you and your psychiatrist have not cured your disease at all. Are your so-called good days still so miserable!
Why be so stupid to keep comparing the inhuman days you used to live with the days you have now! What is this if not living in the shadow of the past? Obviously there are very good days to live, obviously can be a very legitimate person, rare a person who loves you so deeply! But you have to give up all of them, and so self-degraded, spoiled their only youth, not to mention whether the parents, family, but just to themselves will not be able to answer.
I agree with you when you emphasize that you are filial, but have you ever thought that what you are doing now is simply too sorry for your father who has nurtured, loved and cultivated you since you were a child and is now seriously ill? Even if he never knows what he’s doing, will you be able to live with it forever? Can you live in a house bought with this kind of money? It’s just a house that brings together all these miserable days, and it only makes your former misery and present darkness even harder to get rid of.
Isn’t it self-deception to do something you know you will regret in the future? Please think about it again. Your father has raised you to such a high standard both internally and externally, would he be willing to let you do such a thing when you grow up? And given your father’s personality, if he found out, would his body be able to withstand it? How can you live with yourself if you are recognized outside?
I said some words that you may not want to hear, maybe you will hate me, but as long as I can make you realize in time, what is the regret! In this life, I always have to do something meaningful for you, otherwise how can I be worthy of you who once treated me with so much care. Let bygones be bygones, but don’t miss out on everything you have the chance to have now–including me! Please overcome the demons in your heart, I will be with you for the rest of your life, please cherish it!
I hope you can give me a chance, let me tell you my business experience, entrepreneurship is really not difficult, I have for the two construction companies set up experience, I also opened two companies, I believe that you start a business, should be a little help, I hope you can make use of the self-creation of the due future, you should have a day, live a dignified day, I will be by your side to continue to support you, cheering for you!
I hope to see you living a normal life soon.
Will you please turn back in time? Before it all gets very serious. Can you turn around now? These days you’ve made me suffer enough, I really don’t care about my career anymore, but if I really need to give up my career, I have no complaints or regrets, I just hope that you can figure it out earlier and listen to my advice. It doesn’t matter if I can start my career all over again.
I do not believe that you no longer love me, you are simply deceiving yourself, I know that you do not dare to face me, do not dare to let me go to the hotel there, because you are not sure that you and I together, you will not be softened by me, so you have to avoid it. I can see that in your closed heart still have my feelings exist, just contradictory antagonistic psychology, let you temporarily so treat me. I believe that this situation will not be long, I will wait patiently, although bitter, but for you, I am worth it. Who asked me to love you so much, even if you are scolded so hard to hear, but fortunately I am quite confident in myself, so do not have to go to see a psychiatrist.
I’m so to you, perhaps in your eyes, in the eyes of the evening clear, in the eyes of others is a fool, fool a, but I think everyone has his obsession with people and things, I both love you deeply, all of you, when there is a responsibility to go to you to share your worries and relief, you are wrong should be reminded of you, otherwise how to qualify to say that love you! So even if you are being treated as a fool, by you guys scolded so hard, still can face openly.
Don’t forget I still owe you the song “Fly For Love”! By the way, next time we meet, I’ll sing the new party song for you again. It’s actually quite good, but last time you asked me to sing it, I was too nervous and forgot the lyrics, so please give me another chance.
Do you still have a chance to sing for you? There’s a song called “Rosaline”, I don’t know if you’ve heard of it. It’s one of my favorite songs, and it’s been around for fifteen years, but I’m disappointed that it’s not on the karaoke menu, but I don’t think it would be too bad if I had to sing it, so I hope that I’ll have a chance to sing it for you, because, coincidentally, it’s a very appropriate song for the mood that I’m in right now.
This is also a very beautiful song with a beautiful melody, with your musical attainments, I think you will agree, but I am afraid that I will sing it badly. I hope Jacky Cheung’s “You Love Him” album can accompany you instead of me during the period of your illness, so that you can recover soon, play the song ‘Deja Vu’ for me, and go to climb Hu Tou Shan Park together.
I wish you a speedy recovery to start your own business
Let the one who loves you the most come back to you (haha! Outlaw, that’s me!)
While I was at a stalemate in checking her calls, three of the less than twenty remaining calls were always answering machines, and because of her habit of using answering machines, I paid special attention to these three calls! But in the past, she always used her words as quotes on the answering machine, but these three phones are not only music, or else it is a man’s recorded voice, until one day I called one of the phones came Jacky Cheung’s music! My heart was shaken ….. Shouldn’t I have found it, right? Then I made this phone call a priority and found a day to go to my friend’s house in Taoyuan to ask her to leave a message and ask her to call me back. …………
Although my friend said the person hung up after the wrong number ……….. But two short sentences were enough to make me sure it was her!!!!!
I’m in no hurry to let her know ….. These days, she still smugly calls and chats with me often, not realizing that her phone number has been traced to me!!!!
This day she called and said that Wan Ching was hospitalized in Chang Gung for an operation on her ear. I asked Wan Ching about her favorite flowers and ran from Hsinchu to Chang Gung right after the call to send flowers to Wan Ching in my name and hers, but I didn’t go into the ward. I was afraid of upsetting her, so I asked the nurse to pass them to her on my behalf, and I signed the card with the names of Xiaoling and her husband, wishing her a speedy recovery…. …..
On the way home, I got a call from her on her cell phone. She specifically called to thank me for sending her flowers to Evening Primrose and said that Evening Primrose would call her as soon as she received the flowers!!!!
That’s why you know so quickly ……
I could feel her touch and thought it was so worth all the hard work and commiseration to get her touch!!!!
One afternoon she called me and told me she was getting married in Kaohsiung. This sudden bolt from the blue left me speechless for a long time, I was really sad and couldn’t speak, she told me to go and find a good girl quickly in the future, she wasn’t worth it for me to pay for her so much and wait for her obsessively …….
I hung up the phone helplessly after wishing her well ….
Because I really can not speak …… had to hang up the phone, I walked helplessly into place in the balcony of the office on the ninth floor, I suddenly felt that life is very boring, looking at the distant Gu Qifeng Guan Gong statue, silently blessing the arrival of her happy life …….
An hour passed before I knew it…I kept going back to all the memories I had with her …. With tears in my eyes ….. Starting to worry about whether that guy will treat her right ……
Suddenly ….. The phone rings again and it’s her!
Hearing a slightly nasal voice, I asked if I was sad?
I didn’t say anything and that’s when she laughed out loud! She told me that she was lying to me!!!!
My heart climbed back up from the bottom ……
You’re really bad!!! You’re so bad!!! Why are you playing with me like this?!!!!
She said it won’t happen again…forgive me…
Oh, my God! Of course I’m willing to forgive you!
Then she told me that she took out her birth control device, in other words, she wasn’t going to do that kind of work anymore!
WOW!!! That’s so true, one minute it makes me sad and then it surprises me too much!!!!
I’m really ecstatic …… my first step worked!!!!
But she said she has been having abnormal bleeding for the past few days, and many signs seem to show as if she has cervical cancer, I have been very worried for her, she said she will go for another half a month before she can find out, and she doesn’t dare to let her family know, she said ….. She doesn’t want to die from this disease, it’s humiliating.
Because a lot of windbags just die of cervical cancer, I console her for being overly concerned …..
But my mind is even more anxious!!!!
Since I found out her number, I’ve always spent every day repressing the urge to call her, but knowing that she’s been bleeding abnormally now, I just couldn’t care less ……
On this day I called her who was sleeping and I could feel the look on her face when she got my call, she asked me how I found out?
I told her the process in full, and she only said faintly: ‘You really put too much effort ….. I see ….. I can never get rid of you in this life….’ …..
I told her ….. And how could I ever leave you …… I’m relieved!!!! …….. I naturally gained her understanding with my phone checking behavior.
June 2 …………. Maybe it’s because people with illnesses are more fragile! This day at noon she called me, said she wanted to see me, with me for coffee, we came to a rich and noble garden restaurant, a month and a half have not seen her much thinner, perhaps because of the relationship between the birth of a disease, but still can not affect her side of the eye figure, that day, she wore a low-cut black dress, and the snow-white skin into a strong contrast, really fascinating … … ……..
She told me she was coming to Hsinchu the day after tomorrow to look for a friend to take an item back to someone, of course I didn’t miss the opportunity to ask her to come find me after she finished her errand, she asked me to take her to that person because she wasn’t familiar with Hsinchu, so of course I was willing to do it!!!!
On June 4, we met in front of the Hsinchu Interchange, and I put my car next to the interchange, and when I got into her car, I said, ‘Which way is your friend’s place?’
She said she didn’t know ….. I said how are you going to find out?
She said:Well, why don’t you take it to him for me ……………
I said:You don’t even know anymore…how am I supposed to know?
She said whatever, the stuff is in the drawer of the car, take it out and look at it!
I picked it up ….. Oh ….. Turns out it’s a tape of my show!!!!
Turns out she came all the way here to see me today!
There was also a bottle of men’s perfume, the market price was about two thousand dollars, a very expensive bottle of perfume, I was really surprised, I couldn’t help but kiss her, and she didn’t resist.
I knew that she was back in my arms …..
Anyone who lives in Hsinchu knows that there’s really nothing to do in Hsinchu. I wandered all the way to the intersection of Xidaji Road and Beidaji Road when a procession to welcome the gods passed by, and when she saw the lively procession, she almost jumped up and down in the car with excitement! It was so cute!!!!
She said that she had never seen such a great scene before, and immediately asked me to switch to the driver’s seat, so that she could enjoy it! I deliberately drove the car to the side of the queue, so that she could see more clearly, her March is really too good to drill, I always drive a 2,000 cc car, I feel even more comfortable to drive!
When I saw her face through the window at the procession, I thought it was funny and laughed because she felt like a “city bumpkin”, probably because she was used to living in the city and was as excited as a child when she saw this kind of procession!
I said: If you like to see it, wait for the seventh month of the lunar calendar, the most lively at that time, unlike today, only seven masters and eight masters and stilt walkers, and a lot of floats Oh!
That’s how we agreed that she would come to Hsinchu to watch the fun at the Mid-Yuan Festival.
In the afternoon, I took her to a real estate pre-sale case that my company had taken, which was in Xiangshan, relatively close to the mountainous area. When the car arrived at the reception center, she was reluctant to get off the car to see my colleagues, and her eyes were very scary and she didn’t want to talk much, so I asked her what was wrong. I asked her what was wrong and she said, ‘What is it? If you’ve been held hostage in the mountains more than once before, would you still like to go to this kind of place? …….
I know that I brought her here again caused her painful memories, I do not dare to ask her what happened after she was held hostage in the mountains, I know that I would not be better to listen to, I quickly drove away from the mountains, came to the Nationality Road, “real pot coffee”, we chatted a lot, and then she suddenly asked if there is any fortune-telling in Hsinchu more spiritual, I said in the Hukou,…..
We got up and went immediately afterward.
In the process of fortune-telling, she deliberately said that she was counting for her friend, but said that it was her birthdate, and some of the results were accurate and some were not, and she specifically asked if she would get married?
The fortune teller said that in about three years, there will be a red range of stars, and she asked if that object is known now? I really for this answer pinched a cold sweat!!!! As a result, she said:Now already know each other ….. I was so relieved …..
Because the female fortune teller spoke Taiwanese Mandarin, we kept learning the way the fortune teller spoke her fortune in Taiwanese Mandarin the whole way back to Hsinchu …. ….. We laughed all the way back to Hsinchu, so much so that our stomachs hurt!
Back to Hsinchu also more than six o’clock, she came to have said seven o’clock to rush back to Taoyuan, because there is a person about to go with her to Carrefour to buy things, so I do not dare to stay long her, but when the car to drive to the exchange road parking place on the way, she saw the Empire New Elephant Building on the second floor of the Yue stack Hong Kong-style drinking tea, she proposed to go up to eat dinner together, I said that the friend of yours? She said …. She would have been less inclined to go ……
Halfway through the meal, the caller has been ringing, she borrowed my mobile phone to call back, I can hear the other party insisted on waiting until she, I see her very impatient with him to hang up the phone, she told me that this man she can not stand, often in her home downstairs, waiting for ten hours, so she really annoyed to death!
But she emphasized to me that she didn’t have that kind of relationship (boyfriend-girlfriend relationship) with him.
In my heart I think …. I’m willing to believe you, even if you don’t explain ……..
After dinner, I came to my parking place and had to say goodbye. I asked her to take care of herself on the way, and I told her thank you for this (I pointed to the videotape and said thank you for bringing it back to me in person) ……. Thank you for this (I point to the perfume she gave me) ……. Thank you for this (I gently tapped her on the head to thank her for coming to see me).
I said again, “Don’t call anyone your husband!
She replied: ‘I’ve only called two people husband …. One was that pervert …. One was you.’
I wanted to kiss it goodbye, but it was too much traffic and too bright by the interchange ….. So stop.
After I urged her to tell me as soon as possible after the physical examination report came out, I watched her go far away, looking at her in a small car, thinking about the tragic past she encountered, although her car in the line of cars, but still feel that she is so lonely …… heart is very sad.
Even when I went to see :’100,000 Miles Home’ last month …. The scene when the little girl in the little light airplane lands alone at the end at her destination reminds me of her in the little car-car, sailing alone and helplessly through the vast sea of unforgiving, treacherous people, relying on herself for everything.
Just thinking about it makes me so sad and sad inside. Always wish I could stay by her side and protect her ………… for the rest of my life.
I got a call from her on this day, and the doctor said she didn’t have cervical cancer, but couldn’t find out what it was, but at least I was relieved. I went to her place to look for her, and as we chatted, we got to the point that when she went for a second operation on her nose (because she had failed the first nose operation, and had fled home when she did the second one), she said that when she came back home, there was a piece of suture thread left outside, and her sister saw it, and thought it was a nose hair, and asked her, ‘Sister, why don’t you cut your nose hairs?’ Her sister saw it and thought it was a nose hair and asked her, ‘Sister, why don’t you cut your nose hairs when they’re so long?’ ……
She said she didn’t even dare to talk about it for fear that her family would find out …. She said she was afraid to talk about it because her family would know and worry about her. After a few days, she told me that she wanted to have her teeth done, and that sixteen of her teeth were fake, and most of them were near the outside front row, and that she would have to have them all done every one to two years, and that each time she would have to spend tens of thousands of dollars.
I asked her how that happened.
She replied I lost it all because of too many antibiotics after hours. To be honest …. I didn’t quite believe it, but she kept telling me not to take it personally and emphasized that she wasn’t lying to me.
I ran back to Hsinchu and asked the dentist about it, and the doctor said there was no such thing, which I thought was even more strange, but it doesn’t matter why …………..
I just hope that she will be able to stop suffering from other tortures in the future!!!!
I hugged her that night and told her: ‘Don’t ignore me like you did before, okay? Those days make me sad.’
She said: ‘I won’t treat you like that again …. Definitely not again….’ …
She held me tighter…so, so tight.
I told her: ‘If you don’t want us to be boyfriend and girlfriend, but I want you to think of me as a good friend. Okay?’ ……
She said: ‘You’re my best best friend and only best friend, I don’t have any other best friend I can trust.’
‘I’ll never meet anyone in my life who’ll be nicer to me than you!’
‘I’m afraid I can’t get rid of you in this life!’
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(E) Always remember the lingering by the green brook.
Preface.
Episode 5 The Story Begins ………
The following is a first person account …………………
And so, with our two hearts tied together, we began our second relationship.
The new Maplewood Garden Tea House at the intersection of Ziqiang Road and Sanmin Road is the place we go to most often. We sit over there for the whole evening or afternoon, and we have endless topics to talk about, but as pleasant as we talk, I believe that both of us still have inexplicable worries ………. about the future in our hearts.
One day, we came to a coffee house on the Jingguo Road, that day she arrived first, we have seen the peach color deal, Robert Revel gave Demi Moore that one low-cut and backless dress? She wore that day is that type of clothes, at first I did not care very much, but in my chat with her, always feel that she behind the tables of men how to have been looking at her, has been very puzzled……
Later, she offered to treat me to a Formosa steak on Zhongshan Road, but I had to drive, so I left first and she went to pay. ….. I’d like to point out that when I go out with her, she almost always pays, not because I don’t, but because she insists. …. I’m not unable to pay, maybe she is in order to not let me feel that she took me as a kaiju, so in addition to buying things to send me, and even go out are rarely let me spend money, her insistence that I have to go from, because she is very easy to lose her temper, I do not want to often provoke her anger, so it is also in accordance with her in every way.
So, who says there is no truth in windswept women? There are just fewer of them, but you can’t knock that over as truth!!!! That would be very unfair ………
To Formosa Steak after ordering dinner, I got up to the bathroom behind her, when I came back, I realized why the group of men just stared at her all the time behind her back! It turns out that her breasts are large and firm with little fabric, plus she can’t wear underwear with this kind of backless dress, so the side of her chest is half the depth of her “pecs” can be seen very clearly! In addition to the snow-white skin, even the blood vessels are clearly visible! No wonder those men look like they have a nosebleed waiting to happen!!!!
I told her to be careful when she goes out in the future. It’s okay if you go out with me, at least I will protect you and take the initiative to help you pay attention, but if you go out alone, don’t dress like this because it’s a “self-created” crisis!!!!
I tell this allusion, not to show off her figure, but to remind girls that they should be able to look at the occasion for their grooming, and to avoid bringing crisis to themselves because of what they wear, and also not to think that they are safe in their looks, and that when they meet perverts, the old woman will not be spared either!!!!
Negligence in prevention itself is sometimes a major factor in the many reasons why women are subjected to sexual violence.
We drank at all the famous coffee shops in the Taoyuan area. She liked to read horoscope reports while drinking coffee, and my interest in horoscopes was also cultivated at that time.
One day in a magazine she saw a newly published lingerie and she told me she loved that style ………
That’s right! I bought it for her the next day!!!!
I don’t know how much I can bring her, but I just hope I can bring her as much joy as I can ….. I just hope I can do my best …. To the best of my ability!!!
Even if it’s my life ….. As a last resort!!!! I really do!!!
On this day, the results of my AIDS test came back, and the truth is that I had already prepared myself for the fact that even if I got AIDS, I wouldn’t blame her!!!!
Because from the day I decided to fall in love with her, I thought about how bad I could be, and all I wanted was to be able to do everything in my power to make her life better, protect her, and stop letting her live a life without dignity in my lifetime.
We were so relieved with the test results that I told her:From now on, if you don’t have it, I sure as hell won’t!!!! ……
Meaning I would never have sex with anyone …. Except her!!!
Of course, on the one hand, it also implies that she is capable of being faithful to me as well.
In order to be by her side all the time, I even left the affairs of the company in the hands of the partners, and I went to Taoyuan to look for a job, with my experience to find a job is too simple, I was selected as a real estate agent of Xinyi Housing with very high grades, one morning, that day was Sunday, I got up and had to go to the head office of Xinyi Housing in Taipei Dunhua South Road to do the interview, I took a good bath, straightened up my appearance, put on a tie, I looked at her in her sleep, I really could not bear to wake her up. I looked at her sleeping, really can not bear to wake her, although she knew that I had to go to Taipei early the next morning, at noon said good to rush back to eat lunch together, still wrote a close note left on the bedside to her, before leaving, looking at her beautiful face, I still can not help but gently kiss her, I did not expect her eyes to open, but tightly will be my embrace, I was shocked by this sudden action! …..
I thought she had woken up from another nightmare, and as I inquired, she said:I think you look so handsome!!!! Can’t help but hug you …………
Oh …..
I really feel so warm inside!!!!!
I kissed her for a while before I reluctantly got up and headed for, oh my god …. It’s only been less than five hours ….. Just so reluctant to part ….. Oh.
When I went to the interview, because of my eloquence, speech and experience, plus I also hosted the Call in Live TV program, the clinical response is not bad, so when I interviewed, the company responsible for interviewing the supervisor was even a little embarrassed to say: it seems to be me interviewing him rather than he is interviewing me feeling.
My answers and analyses of things seemed to make the supervisor nod his head so often that he really didn’t know what to say to me that was more profound.
When I returned to Taoyuan, I told her about the interview, and the two of us had a good laugh.
However, I had to give up this job because Xinyi Housing wanted me to prioritize working at the Hsinchu store. So then we planned to start a small business together ……, which will be described later.
I very briefly recounted the three movies we’ve seen since and her reaction …..
When we watched the cartoon movie Pocahontas, I told her that I am like the officer and you are like the princess, and we are like they could never have known each other originally, but were able to have this chance to be together, and we cherish this love affair while we still have control over our destiny.
For her reluctance to admit a boyfriend and girlfriend relationship, there is only a smile and a nod ……..
After we watched Hero’s Duty, she came home and told me that she couldn’t stop having the vision of the heroine’s (his late wife’s) spirit constantly moving through the crowd as Mel Gibson was being executed!!!!
Frankly speaking, it’s not that I’m overly concerned, but I can intend that it’s a projection of the gray side of her heart, because the shadow of her past always stays in her mind and lingers, so she tends to be always in a low mood …. I’m sure it shouldn’t be hard to understand for those who are more knowledgeable about psychology.
The third movie we watched was Ultimate Detective Episode 3, and in the show there was a cigarette-chomping, cool lady killer wasn’t there? Whenever the movie played her, she couldn’t stop gushing about how cool that actress looked!!!! In fact, she’s usually that cool!!!! It’s not an exaggeration. Remember in the first episode, when I told you how I felt when I first saw her? I almost wanted to switch, remember?
In fact, she has always been very grumpy, this I must admit, I can not only describe her good side, but I think she will be like this is justifiable, after all, her past is so tragic, and because she suffered for the sake of this family, she in the family would not dare to interfere with her anything!!!! I narrated the plot of watching these three movies so that the impression of the outline of her spiritual side could be more impressive!!!!
She told me to go back to Hsinchu to take care of my career, and asked me to adapt to not contacting her every day, not having to see her every day, and encouraged me to prepare myself for my future campaign. But on the other hand, I also felt the contradiction in her expectations, because she said she didn’t want me to be the one who would be looked at differently because of her, not to mention after becoming a public figure.
I did tell her that I would change my volunteerism for her sake, but she refused and told me to make the best of it.
Although we agreed not to contact each other every day, it was replaced with her calling me every single day, and every single day around 3:00 pm she would call and ask me to go to Taoyuan for coffee.
Once when I was buying a book for her at Jinshidang Bookstore, she happened to call me on my cell phone, so we picked out her favorite book and talked on the phone while we were buying it. It was a very romantic feeling, as I picked up the book and introduced the general content to her, and then she decided whether or not to buy it, which was a very special book-buying experience.
One night, when she had to go back home for dinner and I agreed to wait for her at her place, I, being the only son in the family and having never done any housework before, on a whim tidied up her bedroom very neatly and folded the quilts like the tofu quilts used in the army.
When she came back, I know she was so moved that she didn’t even bother to move the quilt much.
She is very fond of reading Akagawa Jiro’s mystery novels and loves perfumed lilies ….
One day, she asked me to help her find a soundtrack for the movie “Scent of a Woman”, and she said that she couldn’t find it in any of the record stores. The next day, I went to all the record stores and CD rental stores in Hsinchu, and I finally found it, and that night, I bought three Akagawa Jirou mystery novels at the bookstore, and ordered a bouquet of perfumed lilies in Taoyuan, a place that she loved. That night, I bought three Akagawa Jiro mystery novels from the bookstore and ordered a bouquet of her favorite perfume lilies from Taoyuan. I gave the CDs and books to the florist to give to her, and I drove back to Hsinchu immediately.
On the cover of one of the books, I have pasted a piece of text that I printed with my computerized artwork that reads.
Sorry! I’ve run out of letters, so I won’t write about the other advantages!
I called her on the action phone on the way home and she surprised me by telling me:Thank you so much, this is the best thing I’ve seen today, all three of these things are my very favorite, thank you so much.
I told her:I’m going to prove that even though I live in Hsinchu, I’m no less effective than a suitor from the Taoyuan area!!!!
She smiled and said this she had been very sure of for a long time.
Maybe it was because my sticker was so nicely printed that she never noticed it, I couldn’t help but remind her to look at the sticker and she was surprised to say that she had thought it was part of the cover lol ……. She picked up the book and read from a…g…r. until sorry! The alphabet has been used up, so the other advantages will be left out ……..
After reading it, I told her to rebut any discrepancies or exaggerations, and I knew from her reaction that she very much agreed that I had those strengths!!!!
I told her that I actually wanted to deliver it in person, but I had to hold off on having the florist deliver it to her to get used to not having to see her every day.
Another time, at her place, she took a music magazine and told me that there was a CD of one of Mary Holiday’s albums that she didn’t know if it was still available in Taiwan because it was imported in small quantities and was really hard to find.
I told her I’d do it as soon as I could, but I couldn’t guarantee that I’d be able to get it soon. We had a bit of a rough time that night, though, and I went back to Hsinchu in a not-so-pleasant atmosphere.
The next day, I drove to Taipei and parked my car near the interchange, exchanging money for time, because parking in Taipei is hard to find, and you probably can’t run to a few places in a day if you drive there yourself, so I took a taxi to a major record store in Taipei to look for that CD.
I searched almost every major record store, some of which had never even heard of this CD, and after a full day of running around, I finally picked up this CD that wasn’t sitting on the counter at the Zhongxiao store of Taoye Music City!!!!
In the process, I spent close to two thousand dollars just on cab rides. But I’m still happy because I know I can put last night’s unpleasantness behind me and surprise her again with this CD!!!!
I drove up to her apartment and asked her to come down outside her room window with the sign of a fortune cat. ….
I’m still a little afraid to go up to her because of yesterday’s unpleasantness. I didn’t realize that she also asked me to go up with the gesture of a fortune cat ……
After a stalemate, I thought to myself, I better get up there before she changes her mind!!!!
When she saw that I had gone to great lengths to help her buy the CD she had been searching for days the next day, I knew she was really touched, and I told her that because of the fight last night, I had pushed myself to make sure I got it today so that I could have a reason to come to Taoyuan to look for you today ………..
I sometimes contact her sister privately without letting her know, just in case.
One day, my sister told me that her sister said that I was the only man who had ever convinced her of the many suitors since she was a child, and the only one who listened to what she said, and her sister even asked her, “What do you think are his flaws? Her sister even asked her, “What do you think are his flaws?” She, who has always been picky about men, actually told her sister, “I’m trying to find out his flaws!!!
Her sister told me about these things and encouraged me to make the most of it because these reactions are unprecedented for her sister!!!!
I am very hopeful that I will be her sister in law and want me to do well!!!!
Because she used to have nightmares, she was often in the habit of taking sleeping pills, and she once almost drowned in the bathtub because of them!!!!
June 26, 1995, I remember that day just Yuanshan Hotel fire, that night we were going to date, but in my car to Jhongli, she called me to apologize, because she was in a bad mood to cancel tonight’s date, of course, I do not dare to reluctance, so in the urge, I from the Jhongli Interchange to return to Hsinchu.
Just at two o’clock in the middle of the night, I received a call from her, in which she said that she could not sleep and wanted to talk to me, and that I really missed her, and then I suggested that I should go to her now, and after she had agreed, I arrived at her home as quickly as I could.
On that night, I knew she had taken sleeping pills, and averse to sex, she unknowingly did it with me …..
In the beginning, I even asked her, “You’re not having sex with me because you’re delirious from the sleeping pills, are you? If it wasn’t from your will, I’d rather not do it!
She told me:Don’t talk about these spoilers when you’re doing this kind of thing. ……
She’s sober, I suppose?
We weren’t on birth control that day, and after we were done she asked me if I wasn’t afraid she’d get pregnant.
I told her:I want you to have a baby for me. ……
In fact, she’s a huge fan of children and she’s told me before that she’d like to have a child, but she’s just worried that she’s not physically able to do so.
I think it’s June 28th!!!!
That night I spent the night on her side, she also took sleeping pills that night, but still could not sleep the whole night, and then at three o’clock in the middle of the night we went out to eat snacks and buy some snacks and medicines, perhaps the effect of the drug attack and caused the inner real her completely revealed, that night she was surprisingly gentle, all the way to hold my hand tightly, a birdie look, with the usual seemingly cool face of the she was a complete reversal of the situation!
We also bought a pregnancy test.
When I got home, I stayed with her all night completely awake because she couldn’t sleep, sometimes reading a book, sometimes getting up to play the piano, or looking for me to talk to her. Soon it was dawn …….
I mentioned to her about us having sex the night before and to my surprise she told me he really wasn’t impressed at all!!!! …….
I said wouldn’t that make me no different than raping you??!!!!
She looked at me with a very sad look and told me softly:So let’s start over now, okay?
I looked at her with skeptical eyes ….
Q: You’re not going to tell me the day after tomorrow that you don’t know what happened today, are you?
I even held my fingers up for her to guess how many there were, just to make sure she was currently sane.
She laughed and told me to stop!!!! Wanted me to lay down and she went to make me breakfast.
She brought the breakfast to the bed and fed me, it was a really great feeling, and after eating the breakfast, we finished that very pleasantly …..
The other day, when I was taking a shower, she asked to come in and talk to me, I was a little embarrassed, since I was a kid, it seems that I have not taken a shower for a girl to see, she said:We are already in this kind of relationship, what is there to be embarrassed about? ……..
Yes!
I thought to myself, “Well, why don’t you want to admit that I’m your boyfriend? ……..
Later she brushed me and scrubbed me very carefully in every place, I felt so happy, I really wish I could be with her forever, I would really give up anything for her!!!!
However, I’d like to remind netizens over here that you really have to be careful when taking sleeping pills because there’s a good chance that you don’t know what you’re doing after you take them, just like her.
And I did ask a doctor when I hosted the show and he said that too many sleeping pills can cause damage to your internal organs!!!!
She would often go to Taipei, although she removed the contraceptive device, but I would still worry that one day she could not think straight, because after all, she was not willing to tell me where she went every day, like one day, she said she went to the Regent Hotel in Taipei to meet with her friends to chat, because my name is exactly the same as a celebrity, that day the celebrity also appeared in the Regent Hotel, so she took a close look at him, and felt that he looked a little bit like me! She said she went to the Regent Hotel in Taipei to meet and chat with a friend because my name was exactly like a celebrity.
She came back and told me all about it, and frankly I was a little weirded out because I was tempted to ask her what she was doing at the Regent?
But I held back, no less than many times, with similar misgivings.
However, once when she came back from Taipei, I was relieved when she was changing her clothes because she was wearing underwear of the kind with many buttons, and I thought that it would not be possible to wear clothes that were so difficult to take off if we were going to do that kind of thing. I am talking about this mainly to express that in fact, there are a lot of answers, which we can try to find out from some clues.
Of course, it’s not that I like to be annoyed, but when I’m with her, I have to plan and mentally prepare for the worst to happen all the time!!!!
The title of each episode consists of a poem I made for her.
84/6/24 PM Briefing in Taipei
Each sentence solidly expresses what I feel inside!!!!
Because I see her insomnia like this is not a solution, for a while, we went to the opposite side of the Qingxi National Middle School every morning to play badminton, because it was just the summer vacation, so it just gave us every day sports to eight, nine o’clock, and for a while, she did maintain a period of life and work routine is very normal days, the whole person also has a lot of spirit!
She was always grateful for the changes I brought about, but, ultimately, it only lasted for a while; after all, that’s a habit that needs to be cultivated over time.
This evening, I proposed to go to the coastal highway to walk, walking, all the way to drive her March came to eight miles, from her excited eyes I know she rarely come, I looked at her, she looked at the sea ……
In that kind of sunset scene in the middle of extraordinarily romantic, especially her dress is really like a princess, she is so pure in my heart, looking at the distant crowd in the seaside play, she said it makes her think of her after hours because of a time in the Datong water park almost drowned, causing her interest in swimming, because she felt the potential water feeling is very fun!
She said:It’s also because she likes to swim that her breasts are bigger than normal girls!
Hmmm …. I’m going to make a special mention of this in the hopes that it will benefit some of you ladies out there! Don’t say I didn’t tell you how to “build your boobs”!
On the way home, she told me: people say that women in love will become beautiful, one day when I become beautiful, you remember to tell me oh! ……
I answered her and said:Actually, since we’ve been together, I’ve noticed that you’ve gotten prettier!!!! It’s just that I don’t dare to tell!!!! …… 🙂
When we got home, she said she was going to take a nap and wanted me to call her in half an hour at 7:00 sharp.
When the time came, I woke her up right on time, but she was very loud back at me:Don’t wake me up!!!! ….
I felt aggrieved at that time, so I said:I’m leaving then, you take your time to sleep!
As I walked out of my room, I heard her keep telling me not to go, not to go, but I still had to act a little bit to let her know that it’s not good for her to be in such a temper, and I even purposely opened the front door one by one so that she would think that I had already gone out, and then hid behind the curtains on the floor-to-ceiling window in the living room…and not long after that, I heard her come out of the room, and that’s when it struck me…oh, it’s done…my feet will be seen! Because the curtains were not dragged to the floor!!!!
The door to her room also closed immediately and I knew I was wearing out …..
I had to run to knock on the door, only to see her open the door, holding a cigarette, a cool face asked me: not to go? …..
Hahaha …….. It’s really weird how much I used to hate girls smoking!!!! But to be so tolerant of everything she does????! Love is really great!!!
I love to watch her play the piano because she looks the best when she plays the piano, and I’ve appreciated girls playing the piano since I met her.
One day, on a whim, she wanted to teach me how to play the piano, and of course I was willing to do so. Under her instruction, I was able to play more than seventy notes in a row in two days according to the correct beat. Of course, on the one hand, the piece wasn’t very complicated, but she said that with my speed, it was already a very fast learning experience!
One day, she was mopping the floor in the living room, and I was in her room playing the piece I had learned, and since I was already familiar with it, I began to change speeds and play it with a pianist’s gesture of enrapture, lol …… Even my posture and facial expressions were learned like a pianist’s in a performance!!!!
Just in time to indulge ……
I saw her standing in the doorway of the room, looking like she was about to get weak!!!! I knew she was defeated by my funny looks!
But that sweetness is really great and I don’t know if readers can relate ………..
Another time, I was in the car to call her on the action phone, I have been noisy to sing the Ye Qianwen’s “completely you” this song to her to listen to, she held the microphone with her neck, hands with the piano for me to accompany, so I sang this song to her to listen to, because the mood of the song and I and her between the scene is very similar to the scene, and we have always been constantly appeared! With Romantic Memories …………………..
(F) Where are the people who love each other from afar?
Preface.
Reprinted with permission.
Episode 6 The Story Begins ………
The following is a first person account …………………
During the first few episodes, I’ve been deliberately not describing the heroine in a bad way because I couldn’t bear to and knew that the reason she’s the way she is today is entirely due to her tragic past!
At that time, she had just been reborn, she knew nothing, plus she was studying Home Economics, she really knew nothing. And because of the ravages she had suffered before, she didn’t want to trust anyone, she only wanted to believe in herself and rely on herself, and her concepts and behaviors became very extreme! I wanted to make a lot of money right away, so I couldn’t think of anything else to do, so I went into that kind of business! Can you understand? There is a mentality …… is …….
Since I’ve had all the days of being ravaged and not being a human being like that by that pervert before, I might as well go get played with the kind of money I can get!!!! ….. And you can make a lot of money in a short time …….
Can you relate to this depraved state of mind?
So …. I say it’s really sad for girls who have this happen to them ………..
Because of this mindset after being abused ….. caused a serious deviation in her subsequent behavior!!!!
In fact…she’s a very classy girl ……. Loves to read…play the piano …. Doing housework ……. Makes coffee….. Listens to high class music …. Plays the violin …..
LOL. The reason I’m talking about this earlier in the episode is because I’m going to be talking a lot about her bad-tempered side in this episode, but I’m worried that readers will be turned off by it, and I’m sure she doesn’t want to be like this, so I’m talking about it earlier in the episode in hopes that you’ll be able to understand the bad side of her.
As I said I used to loathe girls smoking, and don’t smoke myself, but since I couldn’t convince her to quit, I had to give her a very pretty female lighter to try and make her look classy and elegant when she smoked.
It was the only thing I could do for her while I was helpless with her unwillingness to quit.
Once she went to a PUB in Taipei owned by one of her classmates, when a boss in the construction industry in Hsinchu came up to talk to her, she told him very clearly: ‘My boyfriend also works in Hsinchu and is in an industry that is very related to yours.’ ….
This is what she told me when she came back …. But she just won’t recognize me as her boyfriend. And, I have a strong feeling that I feel like all she’s asking for is to have such a great memory with me for the rest of her life, and when the time comes, she’ll leave me!!!! ….
This feeling… It’s always been strong! It’s in this fear.
At one point she said: ‘Next time it’s my birthday, will you get me a blue-eyed Persian cat?’ ….
Of course I was willing to do it! Because she rarely asked me for anything, and because I was always afraid in my mind that I wouldn’t have the chance to give it to her, in July, I went to all the pet stores and holiday flower markets in Hsinchu, and finally found a very cute, flat-faced and blue-eyed Persian cat.
That night I immediately drove to Taoyuan and couldn’t wait to see her surprised face. On the way there, I spoke to the cat and I said: ‘Cat ah cat …. I hope that when I’m not with my cat’s mom, you can help me keep her company. Don’t make her angry, make her happy. I’ll work hard on my career, and I hope that one day you’ll be able to attend our wedding, and I hope that one day you’ll be able to see the children that we’ve had, and that we’ll treat you as a family member, and I hope that in the future I’ll be able to help you find a wife.
Maybe the cat just left the house and isn’t adjusting?
Or maybe it understood me, it kept meowing the whole way, making me keep talking to it over and over again. When I walked into her room with the cat in a cardboard box, the cat made a sound in the box, which she was immediately attracted to: ‘There’s the sound of a cat!’ ……
I can’t wait to let it run out…
She was really surprised when she saw the cat! …..
She asked me, “Didn’t we agree to give it to her on her birthday? How come it’s six months early?
I said: ‘Because I’m afraid you’ll just ignore me again then, so I’m going to deliver it while I can!’ …
Although it seems to be a joke, it speaks to the concerns of my heart.
We were supposed to go to Taoyuan City to top a clothing boutique on Xinming Street to start a small business, but we had to stop because we couldn’t get a deal on the top letting fee.
She also once planned to move to Hsinchu to teach piano as a career, of course I really wanted her to come because I could take care of her nearby, but then because the results of the city survey and evaluation were not a good fit, so then it was dropped. I also once asked her to work as a housing salesgirl in one of my cases, but she refused because she wasn’t interested.
On this day we came back to the new Maplewood Garden for tea and conversation…before she told me something about her place being haunted…
I believe we all know that to rent a house, you must first go to see the house, when they came to see the house, the door opened, there are some unburned paper flying in the face, but because the rent is cheap, the house is big, close to home, close to the city center, all sorts of factors, but still rented, when they signed the contract, the landlord took out the previous tenant’s lease to them to copy the relevant information. She found that the previous tenant did not live for the full term of the contract signed on the days before moving out, at that time, the heart is strange, a question, only to find out that the previous two tenants did not live to the end of the contract on the withdrawal of the rent.
Also, since moving here, she has been sick a lot, often with headaches, or a bad cold or fever, and of course insomnia and nightmares were already there! But she’s had a lot of health problems since moving here. Moreover, she often felt like she was being picked up and carried to the other side of the bed in her sleep, so she got used to it over time.
Maybe these phenomena can’t be any more horrific in her eyes than what she’s experienced before …………….
One day Evening Haru got up in the middle of the night to go to the bathroom, and since there were only two girls living there, it was customary to leave the door open, but she never expected to see a figure wandering back and forth at the door of her room!
At first, Late Haru thought it was me, so she hurriedly closed the bathroom door, but the more she thought about it, the more wrong it was, because the person’s body type didn’t look like me, because I’m quite sturdy, so it was easy to recognize, and… And it was a silhouette! And, the next day, when Evening Harvest told her about this, she also asked for confirmation that I didn’t spend the night here last night, so she was sure that what Evening Harvest saw was that kind of thing.
When I heard her tell me about the many phenomena that seemed to haunt her place, I immediately took out of my wallet the amulet that had been with me for six years and gave it to her. I had begged for the amulet at the Tien Kung Temple in Hsinchu, and she gladly accepted it, and I know that the amulet has been with her ever since.
Strangely enough, I didn’t realize that all those strange phenomena in her home had really disappeared since then! Maybe it’s a blessing from heaven!
One time I spent the night over at her place and that night her mood started to get inexplicably worse again so when halfway through the night I was scolded by her and frankly I was a little baffled by the scolding so I told her that I wanted to leave ….
At that time it was two o’clock in the middle of the night, I got up and put on my clothes, walked to her again, told him that I really want to go, in fact, the heart is not hope to be able to get her to stay, but I didn’t expect her to yell: ‘want to go not fast? The first thing you need to do is to get your hands dirty. …..
After being told that by her, I figured I couldn’t leave without it, so with that, I went to my car to sleep and spent the night in it. ….
About five o’clock in the morning, the mobile phone rang, and it was her, and she actually said, ‘I was halfway to bed when I realized you weren’t with me, where have you been?’
I said, ‘You were so mean yesterday and told me to leave, so I had to run to my car to sleep!’
When she heard that she told me to hurry up and get some more sleep while there was still time.
That’s just the way she is, she’s actually very kind hearted but just can’t control her emotions sometimes. But I can understand that, and I know myself that I have to put up with a lot of things since the day I got together with her, so I don’t resent her at all. ……
Including the damage she later did to me the day before Valentine’s Day on the lunar calendar.
Many times, she will suddenly do not know what to think of things, suddenly the whole person’s mood has become very bad, this time she will be alone, lighting a cigarette sitting at the end of the bed, frowning, unwilling to speak, the face is very difficult to see, and at this time I have to be far away from her, sitting in front of the desk, waiting for …. Waiting for her to say to me: ‘What’s wrong with you? Why don’t you talk? What are you thinking about? Come over to me, will you? ….
That’s when the alarm is lifted and I can lean over to her, otherwise, if I try to question her, it often just leads to her taking it out on me and using me as a punching bag!!!! ……
And often, when I wait, I usually have to wait two or three hours before the moment of de-alerting arrives, during which time I have to sit at my desk, unable to speak, because …… I know that would only upset her more …….
Like one time I told her a joke from when I was a kid and she laughed out loud at it! Then I told another one and she laughed out loud too!!!!
But when I was about to tell a third joke from when I was a kid, she yelled, ‘Don’t tell so many at once! It’s so annoying! I was frozen in my tracks by the sudden fire!
If I hadn’t experienced it first hand, it would be really hard for me to imagine someone who is laughing so hard one second and being so mean the next!!!! The mood switches so quickly that I froze on the spot.
But that didn’t stop me from wanting to be with her! Because from the day I decided to be with her, I was mentally prepared for the worst and to face the worst.
I also asked her once, if you were a guy today, and you were asked to be with a girl like you, how long would you be able to stand it? She replied: ‘Half a day at most!!!! I wouldn’t be able to stand it…’ ……..
Evidently, she herself knew how bad her temper was.
She also said she wanted to buy a computer because she wanted to use it to write her diary, to surf the internet, and to play GAME ….. This is the main reason why I got on the Internet last January.
Because of the cats, there are cat hairs all over the house. One day she took the vacuum cleaner out, and because it had been too long since it was used, it was stuck inside, so she asked me to help her take out the dust bag, but I didn’t realize that the whole bag was rotten and broken, making it impossible to even use the vacuum cleaner.
At this point I knew she was upset because she didn’t know where to buy the dust collection bags.
I was so anxious that I immediately went home and got the phone book to look for it. As a result, under my request that I pay for the shipping costs, I went to Taoyuan to pick it up the next morning and then rushed to take it to help her put the dust collection bag together, and I even bought twenty of them, so that I could let her use it for a long time.
When I finished loading it, she was still asleep and not paying much attention to me, so I had to get up and leave, which was very upsetting for me at the time.
Just as I was about to get on the freeway, she called me and said she was sorry for just ignoring me like that, and that she offered to take me out for coffee, and that she’d get up right now to shower and get dressed if she had to. But ……. I declined.
In fact, I was not deliberately refused, but it just so happens that I have to go to Zhongli a cable TV company to apply for the program host, I was thinking, just to take advantage of this opportunity to also let her know that I also have a temper, to see if she can let her experience it, however, only to see her faint sentence: ‘Do not go even if it! Just hang up the phone …..
Frankly I regret it.
Lunar Valentine’s Day is coming up, I always hope to bring her a surprise, I have never sent flowers to my girlfriend before I met her, this time I plan to send her one thousand and one roses!
At that time, I was also hosting a program in Hsinchu, and since I had a program in Hsinchu on Valentine’s Day, I gave her the flowers in person the day before Valentine’s Day. Anyway, it doesn’t matter if it’s one day short of Valentine’s Day, because the thought is the most important thing.
Filled with excitement, I held a thousand and one roses and rang the doorbell ……. I was sure she would be happy to kiss me ….. Just the moment she opened the door, I was ready to accept her surprise, but I never expected her face to be expressionless, but instead I felt an eerie atmosphere that she was about to lose her temper!
I gently set the huge bouquet down and said, ‘Happy Valentine’s Day!’
She remained expressionless, and later, she brought me a drink, and while I drank it, she remained pensive and didn’t speak. I felt inexplicably scared, why did she, who loved flowers, not have any reaction at all, but instead gave off such a scary feeling!
When I finished my drink, she spoke, :’You can go now, I won’t see you off.’ …
I said, ‘What’s wrong?’
She said: ‘There’s nothing more to say between us! You can go back!’ …….
Of course I wasn’t willing to leave like that: ‘What’s wrong with you? Why aren’t you happy that I gave you flowers?” …….
”There’s no need to talk about it! It’s over between us anyway!”
‘You’re not leaving yet are you!’ ………..
‘I’m not leaving! How did you get to be like this?’ ……..
Maybe it was my bouquet of 1,001 roses that alerted her to the fact that she couldn’t let me go any deeper! It had to be cut off!
Because she did say she was afraid of being the downfall of my future, afraid that in the future my friends and family would recognize what she had done in the industry, afraid that in the future if we had any unpleasantness together, I would argue with her about her former industry ….
She doesn’t dare to fantasize about being with me forever, and now she has to make a clean break with me, so that she doesn’t end up being unable to extricate herself from the situation, because she originally planned to just have a good memory with me in her life! Sigh…this is the sadness of the woman of the world!!! ………
Behavior and thoughts have now become so extreme that it is no wonder she became so horrible when she saw me giving her so many roses, but instead she would not be happy at all!
‘You’re not leaving, are you? If you don’t leave, I’ll beat you up! Don’t blame me for being impolite!”
‘No! I’m not leaving, not when you’re like this.’ ….
With that, she ran to get an umbrella, ‘I’m going to give you one more chance, are you leaving or not?’ …..
”No go! If you want to fight, then fight!”
I’m sure she loves me very much because I’ve seen the way she’s dealt with other suitors too many times, and if it were anyone else she wouldn’t have had to go to such lengths to kick them out because she could have just walked away and had someone to help her look after the family anyway, but I know she’s doing this to kill me off and to stop herself from holding out any hope of anything happening between us!
‘You’re not leaving yet are you!’ …..
The first one hit me hard on the head!
I have no defense at all ….
‘Are you leaving or not!’
The umbrellas wrapped in iron bones hit me hard one after another, and while the sticks were raining down, I told her: ‘The rarest thing in the world is sincerity and truth, and now that you have it at your fingertips, why do you want to spoil it like this!’
After she heard me speak these words, she screamed hysterically: ‘Don’t say it! Don’t say it!!!’
Hit me harder and harder!!!!
At first I kept standing straight and let her hit me, but she would sometimes hit me on the head without mercy, making me have to protect my head with my left hand, which was all I could do because I knew I had to keep my life intact to keep a glimmer of hope between me and her!!!!
She said, ‘Aren’t you going to let me hit you? Why are you still protecting your head?’ ……
‘You can hit anywhere! It’s the head that you can’t, because I have to keep my life so I can continue to be by your side to protect you and take care of you!”
I told her as I was being beaten …..
My body hurts, but my heart hurts more!
It was hard to beat that umbrella until it was all twisted and falling apart and she finally stopped. ….
I was all over the place at this point!
‘Are you leaving or not?’ ……….
‘No! I’m not leaving, I don’t want to be separated from you!’ ….
‘Not going? Good! Very well, I’ll get it again!’ ……
Maybe she thought she could hit and run me? She went to the bathroom and got the mop out and proceeded to hit me again and again!
It’s not that I’m a masochist, it’s just that I already had the worst intentions of suffering any ordeal long before I had to be with her! Even if I am beaten by her like today, I am more than capable of leaving her, I am more than capable of showing that I am true to her and have no regrets!!!!
I’m so sad, I’m so sad I’m crying, I’m hugging her tightly and crying in pain ….
‘Why? Why did it turn out like this? Why did you do this to someone who was so true to you?’ ……..
‘You let go! Let go of me! …. Are you leaving or not? I’m going to beat you away!!!” …..
She broke away from me as hard as she could, continued to hit me with stick after stick, and I told her: ‘Hit it! Go ahead and hit me. …. If it’s possible for you to take out all the aggression you’ve suffered before on me, then go ahead and hit me! I’m willing to let you take it all out on me!’
‘Let all the sins make an end in me!’ ….
I said with pain …….
Occasionally, I would hear the wail of a blow to where I had been badly hit, but I knew it would not elicit her sympathy.
And so it was, and I don’t know how long it was, or how many blows …… until her hand went limp and weak, and she sprained her wrist, and then she stopped!
At this point, I also had blood on my head and spots of blood oozing out of my body onto my shirt from certain parts of my body that were more traumatized.
‘You’re not leaving yet are you? It’s okay.’ …..
She picked up the phone to call someone and she said into the phone, ‘Are you free right now? Come over here!’ …..
Since she knew some friends in the street, I thought she was probably going to call her “brothers” to get rid of me! I told her, ‘If you’re going to get someone to beat me up, I’ll fight back. I won’t let anyone beat me up! It’s just as well, I’ll take it out on them, I haven’t fought in a long time either!”
She was sitting on the sofa smoking a cigarette, because she was also very tired, and I did not even dare to sit down, and stood with fear and trembling, waiting for the “brothers” to come over.
Not long after the electric bell rang, I began to brew the will to fight, not realizing that …….. The person who came in was actually her dad!!!!
This is where she is smart, she knows that with my personality calling my brother to come won’t scare me away, and it’s unlikely that I’ll give in, but if it’s her dad coming, I’ll probably be willing to leave because I don’t want him to worry about his old man, her dad saw that bouquet of 1,001 roses on the ground, and also saw my messy look, and also threw the umbrella that was already out of shape on the side, and really couldn’t remember what had happened! She said loudly: ‘I’m telling you today in front of my father, I’ll break off my relationship with you forever! It’s clear enough, isn’t it? ……
It really breaks my heart to hear that!
In the case that she indicated that she wanted to go out with her father, of course, I was too embarrassed to continue to insist on not leaving in front of his old man, I had no choice but to step out of the door, to take the elevator home, on the way out, I solemnly apologized to his old man, but also to let him run this trip, it is really very sorry, I went into my car with full of injuries.
As soon as I got in the car, I started to cry at the top of my lungs! The whole thing broke down ….
I cried for a while before I started to set off for home, my body was hunched over and there was no way I could hit straight because it hurt and hurt! My head was dizzy and sore too!
I drove with almost my entire body on the steering wheel and I still couldn’t get my tears to stop.
I cried all the way home on the highway, occasionally letting out a loud cry! My tears filled my eyes and I was afraid to drive too fast because I couldn’t see straight ahead! Cars behind me kept honking their horns urging me on because I was going less than thirty kilometers an hour, I couldn’t drive the car faster because I was hunched over and my left arm was deformed!!!! My left arm was deformed because she hit me in the same area of my arm so many times that my arm looked like a “swollen piece of meat”! And the junction between swollen and uninjured is so obvious you can see it’s like a ladder!!!! ….
With my body full of stinging wounds, I cried all the way from Taoyuan back to my home in Hsinchu like this, I have never been in such pain, my body hurts and my heart even more so! Back home, it was more than twelve o’clock, my family also slept, I tiptoe into the house, because I was afraid of being loved by my parents to see, let them worry, when I went into the room, will be undressed to look in the mirror, I realized that I do not have a black bruise on the body of the diameter of the place is not more than ten centimeters, in particular, almost all of my back is black!
I can’t believe what I’m seeing!!!! But I still do not blame her, because I believe that she would be so cruel to cut off this love affair from the starting point is also for my own good, and, I believe that although she beat me all over the body, her own heart is also not good to go! I wrapped up the bloodstained clothes, ready to take it to the laundromat the next day, and another piece of dirty clothes, ready to take it to the mom tomorrow to wash.
It really hurts when I take a shower! It doesn’t matter if it’s cold or hot water, it hurts! I had to wipe it off. I didn’t want to show it to the doctor because the doctor would ask me how I got it. I didn’t want to talk about it, and I didn’t want anyone to ask, and I was afraid that my family would find out if I took the medicine home, so I bought my own medicine and went home to put it on.
The next day, I went to work with my body full of injuries, and still went to host the live Call in program as usual in the evening. Fortunately, I had protected my face, and there were no marks on my palms, so wearing a suit, I couldn’t tell that I was injured, except for a bit of a hunchback.
(VII) It is difficult to end the love affair.
Preface.
bbslistThe hero of that tragic story1997.4.1PM5:50So, if you have any questions while enjoying the story, you can go to the PTU QIS station and look for my good friend, who is also a person who likes to make friends and is eager to help people.
The following is a first person account …………………
Even though I was beaten so badly by her, and on the night I sent her a thousand and one roses, I don’t blame or resent her at all, and I’m sure she can’t feel any better than I do.
She once said that she would not be happy in this life, and that she wished to emigrate to a foreign country after she had made a fortune, to a place …… where no one would recognize her.
I can understand this, let’s put ourselves in her shoes, if she is really thinking of marrying me today, she will have all kinds of concerns, for example: she will be worried that my friends and relatives or neighbors will recognize that she has done that kind of work, she will be worried that people will point fingers at me behind my back! What’s more, if one of the neighbors was even her guest, plus she is a big mouth, telling the neighbors, do you think she will worry that this will harm her husband?
Of course I’m worried!
Although the chances are very low, and although I would be willing to move to a country place for her and live my life in peace, she, whose thinking has become extreme, would of course be very afraid of such a thing happening.
This kind of mentality may not be difficult to speak out to make people understand, but after all, or only a few people can think of this, and therefore, I can sympathize with her why she would be cruel enough to hurt me, because she saw the roses that I sent her, touched, but alerted to the fact that she can not let this she did not think that there will be a result of the development of the love affair further! Otherwise, she will not even be able to pull herself out of it! Instead of being together and causing me harm in the future and being the downfall of my future, it is better to cut it off now!!!! Even if I have to be beaten up like this ……
In the long run, it’s for my own good!
So I can really relate to her inner conflict and helplessness and don’t blame her at all.
Immediately after I was injured, I ordered a set of nearly seventy Akagawa Jiro’s speculative fiction novels from Crown Publishing, and I secretly drove them to her door, rang the electric bell, and left, because I didn’t want to aggravate her, and I had left a note that read.
On the other hand, the physical injury I have been trying very hard to get the opportunity to host a program in Taoyuan, although she avoided seeing me, but I hope that at least I can let her see me, so I tried to appear in her family’s TV, and then finally had the opportunity to host a program in Taoyuan, but only for a month, I do not know if she has seen it, but I have from time to time to contact with her sister, in order to know how she is doing.
Just a few days after I was injured, she and her sister went shopping to buy clothes, suddenly said: ‘people are so cheap, when you have do not know how to cherish when you have, but after the loss but always miss ……..’.
Her sister said I didn’t know at the time why her sister had come out of nowhere with that comment, but I guess the feeling would have been stronger for someone like her!
About three weeks after I was injured, it started raining in Hsinchu that afternoon, and it occurred to me that the only umbrella she had at her place had been broken not long ago because of the beating, and I was really worried that if she were to go out now, she would not get caught in the rain because of the lack of umbrellas, so I immediately bought an umbrella from Hsinchu and brought it to Taoyuan for her.
I hung my umbrella on the doorknob, still leaving a note.
Because of the host of the program, I met a professor at Tsinghua University, who has been studying Zi Wei Dou Shu for more than twenty years, he helped me to calculate her fate, I did not tell the professor anything about her before, and the result is still being calculated by him, she is a woman of the world, he said that her fate is very much and serious peach blossom robbery and will go to earn the kind of money that the general public can not earn, in fact, I had the opportunity to get acquainted with her two years ago, but if I had known two years ago, there would not have been any emotional development. In fact, I had another chance to get to know her two years ago, but if I had known her two years ago, there would have been no emotional development.
This professor was right, because two years before I met her, I was a married man, and there was no way my personality would have been moved.
Of course, while having my fortune told, I didn’t let the professor know about my divorce.
However, the professor’s advice to me was that I was not too compatible with her personality, and it was not a good idea to force it, and he also figured out that my marriage with her belonged to the category of ‘destined to be, but not to be’, and he suggested that if I could end it, I should end it earlier, because it was so destined.
One of the programs I hosted featured a psychic on the set of the show taking live CALL INs from the audience asking questions about the audience itself.
One day I asked this master about her, and he told me a lot of things that had happened between me and her, and he also told me about her profession, and he hinted to me that she would probably go back to her old profession again in a while! However, he did mention that he had a way to bring her back to me, although he spoke with great confidence, but even if this could bring her back to me I was not willing to use this method, I want her to be with me willingly and overcome the psychological obstacles, so I also politely refused the psychic’s good intentions.
I in no way mean to expound on weirdness here, and I don’t follow any religion myself, but there is actually a lot of occult science that remains unexplained by our current technology.
I don’t know why that psychic could tell so much about my past, even the things she knew about me and my ex-wife.
I don’t encourage this kind of spiritualism, but there are times when you really can’t be too hard-headed, and that’s what I’m trying to remind you of by recounting this episode.
She once warned me on the phone that if I went back to her, she would move to Taichung or even Kaohsiung! Frankly I’m really scared of her moving to another county or city because that would make her even more reckless and do things I don’t want her to do.
I begged her not to move away from Taoyuan, and only after I promised not to go looking for her did she agree not to move away for a while. This is why I still didn’t dare to go to her even after my injuries healed later. It wasn’t that I was afraid of being beaten up again, I was afraid that this would cause her to move out of her current place. Therefore, I can only secretly drive past her house and look at the window of her room. Every time I see her room on the fourth floor in the car with the light on, I feel that I am very close to her, even though I can’t see her, even though I can’t embrace her, at least this is a kind of solace for me.
Finally it didn’t take long for the phone number for her residence to become empty again! But this time I couldn’t really find out her number because she had staggered her phone application! Even her pager number was changed, her determination scared me, I was so afraid that I would never hear from her again, I could only contact her sister, I could only take my chances to call her hometown during dinner time to see if she had come back.
On the other hand, I just can’t afford to leave everything around me to go to her, because I also have to be able to keep up with the expenses of my life so I can do what I want to do.
I have bought Ye Qianwen ‘true heart’ this album to her before she moved away, I also left a note to tell her that in this period of time when we have not been able to be together, I hope she can take good care of her body, and I will also do well to cheer up and work hard on my career, and I hope that she can wait for me… …….
Maybe it was because I missed her too much, I dreamed of her almost every day or two, and I even dreamed of her having sex with someone else as well, and the torment I felt inside, who could understand? Just like that, day after day passed and I never saw her.
Finally, one day, when I arrived at her place, I was surprised to find that the air conditioning in her room had been removed!!!! I rushed to ask the building guard.
That’s right! She moved! She did move. ……..
(H) How can you bear to be outside?
After the previous episode was posted, a few of the hero’s friends and netizens recognized his true identity, but my friend did not admit it to all of them, so I’m here to apologize for that, because he’s not usually a good liar, and it’s probably better to keep some things to yourself, right? This is why the hero wants to find someone to express his heart but he doesn’t dare to do so, because in the eyes of the world, after all, most people can’t accept and understand this kind of thing of ‘looking for sex’, I think the readers should guess how the ending is, the hero doesn’t let the next one know that he has this past and he doesn’t dare to admit it. I think readers should be able to guess how it will end. Of course, if his next partner can understand his past relationship, and will not misunderstand or have a problem with the hero, he will of course admit this past to his ‘other half’. Because with his personality, he would have to deliberately hide it from his friends.
Said it was a very intolerable thing to do?
Episode 8 The Story Begins ………
The following is a first person account …………………
She really moved out …….. It overwhelms me and makes me feel like I’m on the edge of a cliff trying to get someone out, only to break my hand away and let myself fall into the abyss because she doesn’t want to drag me along with her!!!!
This feeling made me lose myself for a long time and made me have a ‘depraved mind’ like the walking dead for quite a while.
Occasionally I would call her at home, but since there are still half a year before her sister goes to college, plus attending the Normal University High School, her sister is living in Taipei for this last half semester.
Later, I learned that she lived with her sister in order to keep an eye on her sister’s studies, so I learned about her habits and routines from her sister, and I could tell that she hadn’t done any of the things that worried me before her sister went to college.
Because during that time she opened a boutique on Zhongxiao East Road near the top of the good business district, she explained that her sister could not tell me the location of the store, life is very simple, daytime rest until noon to open the store, and then go home at night to rest, and in order to urge her younger sister to study, naturally, do not often go outside.
All this from her sister. I was much more relieved.
I think, at least she has a normal job at the moment, so I’m not in a hurry to meet her, although I miss her, although I often dream about her, but I’m satisfied to know that she’s doing well, and I don’t want to disturb her and cause changes to her hard-won stability because of me, sometimes I have the impulse to go to the top of the shopping district to look for her, but I’m afraid that she might see me before I find the ‘shop’. But I was afraid that she would see me before I found the store, and I didn’t want to alert her. I don’t want to. That’s why I often give up on the idea.
I can only spend my days praying for her to be safe and well, and I’d leave her if I could just make her feel more comfortable and happy. I guess that’s what ‘true love’ is all about!
On the eve of the Lunar New Year in 1996, which also happened to be her birthday, I met up with her sister at the ‘New Maple Grove Garden’, which we used to visit frequently, for a chat.
I bought a gift box of foreign wine that was for her parents. A gift box of her favorite meat loaf, and a CD of Enya’s ‘Memories of Trees’ for her. A brush glove for pet hair, and cat and dog treats that were HAPPY for Marzise and the blue Persian cat I gave her. Also wrapped up two red packets each for her sister & her brother, prizes through and through!!!! Even though my financial situation wasn’t great at the time, I still found ways to make her feel that I cared about their whole family even the pets.
From January 19, 1996, I began to surf the Internet, I just started to hope to be able to reunite with her on the Internet, because I had heard her say that she wanted to surf the Internet, I know that my motives may be a little childish and even ridiculous, but when a person for each other regardless of everything, all the methods will be tried. Because I’m just trying to find the pipeline she is willing to communicate with me, I think with my attitude, as long as there is an opportunity, I will not let go of ….. Under the general premise that I can load it.
In this Internet more than a year, I almost seldom in social occasions, every day once off work in the Internet shuttle, perhaps a little closed, but also so that I have opened up another piece of sky on the Internet, so far I have met a lot of good friends, although most of them are younger than me, but let me have the opportunity to get to know more people of all levels. This is something I didn’t expect.
If I were the Duke of Windsor today, I’m sure I’d give up the throne for Lady Windsor, too!
I’m sure if I were the rich businessman from ‘Sparrow to Phoenix’ (played by Lee Chakir), I would never let her get away either.
Even if she has a way to run to Mars, I have a way to make my search encompass the entire galaxy!!!!
But I’m not rich, I still have to raise my parents, I have a family to carry, I can go without food but I can’t ask my family to do the same, and for her, my career had faced disintegration. Because during the period when I was courting her, my partners had in fact betrayed me because of “interests”, but I don’t blame them, because at that time they could hardly hold on, and some of them even went into debt to make ends meet.
So I don’t blame them, even though they’re all doing better than me at the moment, but at least I’ve earned righteousness and respect, and while it’s not worth it, at least I haven’t wronged anyone.
In the end, I had to personally take over all the company’s assets and liabilities alone, which was still very bad for more than a year, and my company had a very hard time to hold on to the monthly personnel, administrative overhead, and taxes that drained all of my savings from the previous few years.
But I still bite the bullet and keep going, in order to let the owners (that is, those construction companies) to keep an impression on me, what impression? What impression? That in these years of recession, I and my company have not disappeared, I am still active in this field, not shut down or go out of business!!!!
This is going to come as soon as the boom recovers and the owners will naturally think of me, a natural affirmation! Suffering through the years this is the main reason.
In the past two years, our colleagues in Hsinchu have closed down, collapsed, changed their businesses, and some of them have even fallen into debt. At present, there are probably not many advertising agencies like ours left in Hsinchu, of course, when the economy recovers, they will pop up again, but at least we are in the eyes of our clients to continue to operate, of course, the impression is different.
Because I am not a rich man, I can not leave my side of the work in the case of no income to find her, will be all the time invested in her, after all, at least I still have a family to rely on me to maintain, in this realistic consideration, coupled with the fear of finding her after the destruction of the stability of her current, so I can only be in this breakup during the period of time to cheer up for the cause of the fight, and in the future, if it is destined to get together, but also to have the money to let her have a good life! I’ll have the money to let her have a good life if we get together again in the future, won’t I? And even though I have no chance of renewing my relationship with her in this life, I still have to pull myself together for my life! Otherwise, it would be better for me to end my life sooner rather than live like a zombie.
That’s my outlook on life, I can’t say it’s always right, but at least I have a responsibility pending, to my parents, to myself, and to my future significant other, I still have to try to rise to the occasion!!!! And I’m sure she wouldn’t want to see me get so down and out because of her, would she? If that’s the case, how can I let down all the people who care about me?
The movie ‘Far From Vegas’ happened to be on during New Year’s Eve that year, and I remember when I went to see that movie, there were six of us in the party, three of whom fell asleep, two of whom ran outside halfway through the show to smoke, and me?
Halfway through the play I started to shed tears, it was a depiction of a disillusioned man who constantly paralyzes himself with alcoholism in an attempt to drink himself to chronic death, and meets a call girl in Vegas who is very devoted to him, the heroine’s past encounters are similar to those of her in real life, and the hero’s depraved state of mind also reminds me of her, so you can see her shadow in both the male and female protagonists of the movie. Her shadow can be seen in both the male and female characters in that movie. And the heroine to the hero’s sincere dedication, the kind of only to seek spiritual support and no regrets, but also see my shadow ….. It made me unable to myself for a long time, and I was really very excited in my heart.
The heroine in the play could not convince the hero to quit drinking, but one day bought a beautiful little bottle of wine to give him, so that he carries with him, this mood reminds me of when I could not convince her to quit smoking, had to buy a both beautiful and cute female lighter to her, try to make her look more temperament when smoking more taste is the same state of mind, I see here, my heart is even more excited! ………
Sometimes I call her Taoyuan home, just as she answered, she will talk to me for a while, but I can still feel that she is not willing to talk to me too much, I think in my heart, maybe she really do not have feelings for me ….
Sometimes I would sneak off to her old neighborhood to see if I could ‘meet her unannounced’.
Sometimes I would see her car and I would leave notes on the windshield wipers, leaving words of blessing and thoughts, hoping that she would feel my thoughts about her.
The days pass in disappointment after disappointment …..
I haven’t seen her since she injured me ….. Until today ….1 April 11, 1997
In April 1996, I tried to get a third girlfriend, who graduated from Tamkang University, but then broke up before she graduated due to personality differences.
But it also allowed me to have a cozy, soulful day again for a while ………
One day, she called me and asked me to help her with something because her sister had gotten into the Chung Hwa Institute of Technology in Hsinchu and she wanted me to help her sister find an apartment to live in.
At the same time, I learned that because of her brother’s military service, her parents had no one to take care of her at home, so she moved back home to Taoyuan to live, and during this period, I often called her, and learned from her sister that her boutique in Taipei seemed to have closed for business as well.
During a phone conversation, she told me that she had a boyfriend and was even pregnant for him, and was planning to get married, but then had it removed because the test results showed that the fetus might be defective!
Also since the baby was removed, just don’t consider marrying the guy yet.
I don’t know if she’s lying to me or not, but I don’t want to ask for proof, I just want her to take care of her body and stop putting herself through this.
Every time I traveled to Taipei on business, on my way back to Hsinchu, I would make a cell phone call to her in the car, hoping to have a chance to stop by and meet her when I passed through Taoyuan, but every time I was always disappointed with the answer.
Sometimes I just have to drive by her house and look at her white March for a while. Sometimes I’d look around the stores we’d visited, sometimes I’d pass by the apartment building we’d lived in and think about the past.
There was a sense of foreboding, and it always seemed as if this life was no longer meant to be renewed with her.
It wasn’t until last year, October 1996, that I realized that she even had her home phone number, which she had used for twenty years, gone blank!!!!
I think maybe it’s time for me to let go ……
I have called her sister several times on the pager and asked her to pass on a message to her sister in hopes that she would call me, but not one, never one, ever called me.
So many days have gone by, six whole months, and absolutely no word from her, and she even explained that her family must never have any contact with me!!!!
Maybe…I didn’t realize that the poem I wrote for her back then would turn out to be a prophecy between me and her!!!! And it just happens to match the plot, chapters, and progression of the story …. It fits perfectly ……. Sigh …. Maybe it was meant to be!!!!
I in the later days, every time I heard the song ‘New Loveless’, I couldn’t keep myself for a long time, because the first time I heard this song was when she sang it to me in the KTV, and up to now, sometimes when the fourth channel plays this movie, I don’t dare to watch it, because I am afraid that my mood will fall to the bottom, so as soon as I see this movie being broadcasted on TV, I immediately change the channel. So as soon as I saw this movie on TV, I changed the channel immediately.
All I can say is that I really tried my best and did right by her.
At least when my final day comes, I won’t have to regret why I didn’t try to save her and help her out of her misery in the first place.
So at first I thought to myself that if I didn’t put her out of that misery, I would feel indebted and sorry for her. At least she didn’t do anything like that for a whole year after she met me, I’m sure of that!!!!
Since you’ve done your best but still can’t get it back, you have to put it down, and you have to get your wings up!!!!
I’m not going to lose faith in love because of this. I’m a very strong person.
Courage can lead a person through the most treacherous and dire circumstances! I won’t let that make me despair about this relationship thing, and won’t let that make me afraid to give my heart again!!!!
I just want to treat my next person right now and I will only treat her better than I did my ex, no worse! Because I think it’s very rare to give genuinely, so I’d be happy I’d be happy to give genuinely …… even after enduring such hurt.
Some netizens often ask me what if I meet the heroine again in the future? If I didn’t have a girlfriend at the time, I would of course be willing to renew my relationship with her, but if I already have a new partner, there is no way I would do anything to apologize to my current girlfriend or wife.
If, one day, I hear someone say that she has left the earth, frankly, I won’t be surprised at all. It’s not that I’m cursing her death, but her temper and uncaring personality really makes me worry about her. Just like the hero in ‘Stay away from Vegas’, she is determined to destroy herself and paralyze herself.
I believe that even if one gives sincerely, there may not be a relative gain. However, I am more sure that if there is no sincere give, the other party is unlikely to be treated permanently and sincerely ……… What do you think?
However, if I were to turn back time, I would still treat her as I always have!!!! I will never regret what I did to her. Because I feel that in these days when the concept of young men and women dating is becoming more and more independent, nativist and open, I can be so to a girl truly give, I feel very proud!!!!
Of course, the act of visiting prostitutes is something I’d like to end this story with a reminder that it’s not a matter of honor, and I hope that male Internet users will keep that in mind.
Although British superstar Thu Gran also went to prostitutes and was even arrested!!!! But I’m not going to use that as a justification for my whoring behavior. This is the only thing I have to apologize for in this story to my future girlfriend and fellow women, and I hope that my soon-to-be-girlfriend will understand this.
I also hope that after reading this story you will appreciate what you have now and what you will have in the future.
Don’t discriminate against women who work in the specialty business, I believe most people would not want to let themselves go to that kind of life without dignity.
Secondly, even if you suffer a tragic accident like the one like the heroine’s past, never lose hope in life and let yourself fall! One wrong step, one wrong step!!!!
Remember, remember ………………..
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