Eight Days and Seven Nights of Xiang Daughter’s Many Loves (3)

Collection, reposting: 1999

Eight Days and Seven Nights of the Sentimental Hunan Girl (7A)

In front of my eyes gradually brightened up, there was a blur of a silhouette, why do I always dream these days? I wanted to turn over, suddenly awake, I opened my eyes, the lights in the room had been turned on, Shen Ting stood in front of me happily.

“Sleeping without closing the door.” Shen Ting said with a smile.

Was the door open? I sat up, good thing I was still fully clothed, I looked at the clock above my bed, it was after 1:00 a.m. “Why are you here?” I asked Shen Ting curiously.

“Why can’t I be here.” Shen Ting threw her bag on the bed triumphantly and sat down in the chair.

“Give me a minute, I’ll go sober up.” I ran to the restroom, the water was a little cold, when I washed my face I felt that the skin on my face was quite smooth, the alcohol had gone down completely, I looked seriously at my eyes in the mirror, it was okay, there was no blood, I remembered that I went to Phoenix with Liu Fang last night to drink with them and they hadn’t come back at such a late hour.

I smiled and came out of the bathroom, poured two cups of water, I took a cup to Shen Ting, sat opposite Shen Ting with the other cup, and examined her with a smile, she was wearing black satin-like shiny pants, thick soles, a small Mickey Mouse printed on the chest of her white jacket, her black hair just reaching her shoulders, her big beautiful eyes penetrating with smiles when she looked at people, youthful and proud of herself, I searched for her from memory a few years ago, feeling that the girl has changed more and more beautiful. I searched for her appearance from memory a few years ago, and felt that the girl has changed, and the more she has changed, the better she looks.

Shen Ting didn’t avoid my gaze at all, maybe people who have engaged in film and television are not afraid of being looked at, “Have you seen enough, just now when you were sleeping I was looking at you for a long time, it turns out that you sleep in this way, hee hee, I didn’t know before.”

I went to the window and drew back the curtains; it was quiet outside, with the occasional nocturnal returnee, and not much noise.

“Did you run over from Hexi by yourself?” I asked Shen Ting.

“Yeah,” Shen Ting pouted and said : “We didn’t finish until one o’clock, and then we had to close it up again, and there’s still a program in the morning, so I snuck out while I was having a snack.”

Her eyes were crystal bright, her lips had a soft line, and a few strands of hair fell down the side of her face.

“Why didn’t you call me before you came?” I sat beside her and gently brushed her hair behind her ear with my fingers: “I could have picked you up, it’s not safe this late, how did you know my room number?”

“Here is my home ah, and not Beijing, but also you to pick up to pick up, I went downstairs to ask you know which room you live in, the front desk know you,” Shen Ting laughed to learn the tone of the front desk lady: “‘Oh, you say that college student ah, he lives in room 716’, you are so old, people still say you are a college student it. Jiang, you’re so old, people still say you’re a college student.”

I couldn’t help but be leaked by her sense of pleasure; she looked as innocent as if she had been with me yesterday, and I felt a little uneasy to still be trusted and relied upon by her in this way after so long a separation.

The hilarity of just meeting passed, and for a while neither of us spoke, and when she looked up she saw me still looking at her, remembering something and blushing.

“Why is it so hot, did you turn the heat on?” She stood up and walked over to the air conditioning switch, fiddled with it a couple of times, then sat down on the edge of the bed, flipped through a couple of books that were sitting on the end of the bed, took off her jacket, and threw it on the chair.

She was wearing a tight black tank top, her shoulders were thin, but her breasts were very full, she did grow up, I think, we all grew up, her clothes were very trendy, the low neckline revealed a flat and straight collarbone, I read in a book that it was called “beauty bone”, the average person’s bone is curved, only the models or pretty girls are straight. I read in a book that it’s called the “beauty bone”.

She flipped through a few pages haphazardly and turned around again.

“What the heck, can’t read.” She said childishly.

I looked at her and smiled without saying a word.

“Shen Ting, are you famous yet, what movies have you done?” I refilled her water glass and chatted with her.

“I don’t want to be famous,” Shen Ting said uncaringly, “I just think it’s fun to shoot a movie.”

“What kind of match are you in this time, so formal?” I took a thirty-five out of my cigarette case and looked around for a match.

“That’s the Star of the Century,” Shen Ting jumped over and grabbed the cigarettes in my hand: “No smoking, I remember you used to smoke very little, how can you sing if your voice is broken.”

“I stopped singing a long time ago,” I looked at her, dumbfounded: “Do you think I’m still the Jiang you were back then?”

“Then I don’t care.” Shen Ting didn’t sit back down, her hand still reached over my head to press my hand that was holding the cigarette, and her body was so close to me that I smelled a faint aroma.

I suddenly felt a little disoriented, too much had happened in the last few days for me to react, I wasn’t dreaming was I. I wondered darkly if I should treat her like I used to or indulge the way I was now?

“If you don’t smoke, you don’t smoke,” I turned on my side and put the cigarette in her hand, she took it and didn’t sit back down, but leaned against me, I felt her warm breath, and her slim waist was full of elasticity, my heart softened.

“Shen Ting, you’ve grown up, but I’m getting old.” I embraced her, showing her the slight wrinkles at the corners of my eyes, and couldn’t help but feel emotional.

“Brother Jiang, you will never change in my heart.” Shen Ting hugged me with both hands, her face buried in my chest.

Something slipped gently through my heart, and in this bustling city of flamboyance and confusion, in this quiet midnight away from the red world, after years of being lost and floating, I was suddenly confronted with my own year once again, and I saw my soul dancing slowly through the air, and I had never seen it so purely joyful.

She didn’t feel the change in my thoughts, her hot cheeks pressed against my ear, “Brother Jiang, do you remember me all these years?” Her tingling mesmerized me, through the thin clothes I could clearly feel her breasts rising up, my hand slipped under her clothes, her young body was smooth and soft, I heard her breathing become rapid, the desire of the early sunrise rippled through me round after round, as if I was back in the time when it was like the sunrise.

I gently pushed her away.

“Jiang, don’t you like me?” Her hand was on my chest, slowly  looking at the scar that was a reminder of when I was in Africa last year.

“Of course I like you, I haven’t even been this nice to a girl,” I lifted her face and looked into her eyes, her shy look was unbelievable, I gently kissed her face: “If it’s really destiny, we’ll see each other again in the future, I don’t want to make a mistake in Changsha this time. ” I said with a smile.

I took her hand and walked to the window, opened the window, the cool air came to my face, the street lamps are dim tonight, the stars twinkle in the quiet sky, Shen Ting leaned close to my body, I was a little touched by the idea in my heart, I feel that I am doing the right thing, I do not have the certainty that she will be so pure all her life, but even if she will be in the future towards indulgence and degradation, I have no regrets about the tenderness and innocence of the moment, rolling in the red dust I don’t know how many chances I have to cherish, but I’m not sure how many chances I have to cherish.

If it had been a few days ago, maybe I would have done it, I felt a noticeable change in me and didn’t know what it was.

The doorbell suddenly rang, I closed the window and opened the door to my room, Liu Fang and Suya stood drunk at the door.

“There’s a woman, who’s here?” Liu Fang didn’t see Shen Ting, but caught a glimpse of her coat.

“It’s okay,” I said with a smile, “a good friend.”

“You get busy then,” Liu Fang turned away, with the righteousness of a drunkard in his tone, “I’ll go down and stay.”

“It’s a bingo, huh? Pretty boy.” Sua asked me with a grin as she had obviously had quite a bit to drink as well.

“It’s Li Ho.” Still basking in an inexplicable excitement myself, I made an over-the-top joke with her, figuring they’d know when they came in anyway.

The smile froze on Suya’s face, “Why do you care so much.” Liu Fang pulled Suya and left.

“Hey, you guys come back, it’s really okay.” They ignored me and trudged off.

I returned to my room sullenly, deeply regretting my talkativeness, “What’s wrong?” Shen Ting put down the book in her hands and asked me.

“My coworkers, who came to Changsha to play together, had to make room for both of us.” I looked at her and felt better.

Shen Tingfei reddened and didn’t say anything.

When Suya called again, I was chatting with Shen Ting about something from the past, she remembered it much better than I did, exaggerating the jokes from back then and making me laugh.

“Han Jiang, is it really Li Huo?” I answered the phone and Suya opened the door.

“No, I’m just kidding, I told you to come in, take a look,” I asked: “Where are you?”

“Don’t you joke with me, I think you’d be too much if it were Li Ho,” Suya said seriously, “Don’t you care where we are, just tell me one thing, yes or no?”

“Aiya, really convinced you, well well, who called us buddies,” I called over Shen Ting: “Come here, give this sister a hello.”

Shen Ting inexplicably came over and took the phone in a big way, “Hello sister.” She said politely.

“Good boy,” I praised Shen Ting, who poked her tongue out at me, “Don’t worry, right?” I took the phone to Suya.

“Damn! I’m not concerned about you, we still have to get along in the future, can not be too much,” Suya released the heart, smiled and scolded me: “You really fucking philandering, and cheat which little girl?”

“You don’t know,” I smiled back: “It’s not what you think, it’s a little sister of mine.”

“And sister, forget it, I don’t care about you, as long as it’s not Li Ho and us it’s okay.” Suya hung up the phone.

“Who is it?” Shen Ting asked me as she hugged me by the scruff of my arm, an old habit of hers from a few years ago.

“A sister in law, I used to be pretty good with one of her friends, and after we broke up, I was with another friend of hers, and she thought the original girl was in my room and thought it was bad that I had my foot in the door.” I explained to her, feeling that I couldn’t make it clear.

She really didn’t get it, “What a mess, why is it all so complicated ah, like whoever you like and whoever you like, if you don’t like it, just forget it! Are you guys getting old?”

I thought about it, and it’s really what she said.

Shen Ting and I chatted for a while longer, she was sleepy and lay down in my arms with her clothes on and fell asleep, I turned off the light, opened my eyes in the dark and thought about what was on my mind, and slowly fell asleep as well.

Shen Ting woke me up at seven o’clock, and she stood in front of me fully dressed and refreshed.

“Brother Jiang, I have to go, the match starts at eight.”

“Yes?” I was still awake and tried to keep my eyes open : “I’ll walk you there.” I struggled to get up.

“Aiya no need,” Shen Ting pushed me to the bed: “See how tired you are, sleep more, good boy.”

She kissed me lightly on the cheek and looked at me for a while: “The final is in Guangzhou, if I can participate in the final, I’ll come to Shenzhen to see you, okay?”

“Good,” I nodded vigorously: “you must strive to enter the final, I wish you a good result, I also glory glory.”

“No problem.” Shen Ting said with a smile.

The morning sun filtered through the cracks in the curtains and shone on her youthful, confident face.

Until noon I woke up, last night has not been undressed, the body is not very comfortable, I first took a shower, looking for a clean clothes to change, and then stood in the window and waited for Liu Fang to come over.

I belong to the general physical quality, but more energetic people, although these days every night sleep is not long, when I get up in the morning still feel very clear-headed, I opened all the windows that can be opened, moved a chair to sit in front of the window to look at the scenery, I often travel, I feel that all the hotels outside of the scenery seems to be the same, the old building roofs are scattered drying some clothes, some construction sites in the distance, erected with a tall Scaffolding, so that people seem to be able to feel the clanking sound.

The weather is rare sunny, but can not talk about the blue sky and white clouds, I suddenly remembered a few years ago in Changsha had encountered a heavy snow, that time we men and women a large group of people like children playing snowball fights, Changsha is rare snow, and now a few times to get together and apart, I do not know where everyone is doing something, I looked at the wind when the branches of the trees swayed slightly, the sunlight of the autumn gently shining on the ground, I feel very relaxed in my own heart, like I just woke up from a dream that I had been dreaming for several years, and when I look back, the ins and outs of everything are clear, and there are some things slowly awakening in the bottom of my heart, the account between Changsha and me has been settled, and I think I am here for the first time to become a real man, and I am here for the second time to become a real man.

Liu Fang came in with Zheng Fei, I was surprised, Liu Fang always surprises me.

“You two, Si, what kind of ground work?” I couldn’t think of what to ask for a moment.

“We police work, come to catch thieves work,” Zheng Fei laughed: “What are you doing bad things, the phone is not open?”

I grabbed my own cell phone and looked at it, and sure enough, it wasn’t on, it was dead and I forgot to change the battery.

Zheng Fei goes to the restroom, “What’s going on, where’s Suya? Did you two stay together last night, did something happen?”

I asked Liu Fang quietly.

“No no, she’s not that kind of person, she drank a little too much last night, we chatted some more after she called you, she was in a bad mood, I accompanied her to the Xiangjiang River, and then sent her home.”

“Yeah? I didn’t think you could sit still.” I praised Liu Fang.

“I don’t want to talk about it,” Liu Fang said honestly: “I just don’t want to play rape, how about you?

Who the hell is it?”

“What is not cool, is nothing,” I said: “But contrary to you, I do not want to be raped,” I suddenly remembered Shen Ting’s appearance, I feel that I should not talk about her like this, changed the tone of voice: “just kidding! In fact, I told you that little sister, how did you and Zheng Fei together?”

“She called in the morning and asked when we were leaving, I said tomorrow, she said she was coming over to check on us and asked why your cell phone wasn’t on, I said you were sleeping and I was downstairs fooling around, then I checked out and waited downstairs for her to come up with me, she didn’t know we slept separately last night.”

I nodded, suddenly remembering last night’s incident: “What about Zhao Rong, you didn’t go to her place last night?”

“No,” said Liu Fang chagrined: “At first it was quite good, I was going to go to her, I told her that I liked her, she asked me if I had a girlfriend, I said no, she asked me if I wanted to find a girlfriend in Changsha. I said we can play a little fun, find a girlfriend is not necessary, I don’t want to get married, I’m telling the truth.” Liu Fang was a bit aggrieved.

“I know,” I said, “but what happened?”

“Then it can’t, she is the kind of girl who has to get a promise,” Liu Fang said quite adorably: “She had to ask me to promise to love her for the rest of her life, I didn’t promise, and then she got angry and left.”

I was amused, “You can say yes.” I said.

“is can promise, I later also want to understand,” Liu Fang a little regret: “but at that time I did not think that she so serious, I think that said is also a lie, say it why, she still have to want me to say. At that time I may really drink too much, partial call this true.”

“Women are like that, you have to give them a reason.” I said, suddenly remembering Leng Jia, Wu Yu and Shen Ting, who seemed to have never asked me for any promises.

“Yeah,” Liu Fang said, a little chagrined at himself.

“I don’t know what’s going on with you this time,” I played with the lighter in my hand easily : “It’s not your usual style.”

“Damn is not and you stay long, the style has changed, become lazy to deceive people,” Liu Fang hate said: “In the future and then can not be polite with them, spent so much money to play, one also did not bubble, right, you still have money? Give me some first.”

“I’m almost done spending it too, I’ll go withdraw some from my card and give it to you in a bit,” I mentally calculated that we had both spent about the same amount over the past few days, adding up to about ten thousand dollars.

Zheng Fei came out of the restroom and Liu Fang was telling me the joke I heard from Zhao Rong last night.

“A man made a bet with a friend to do three of the bravest things,” Liu Fang watched Zheng Fei come out and spoke more vigorously: “The first was to drink ten bottles of spirits, the second was to pull out a tooth of a fierce lion, and the third was to sleep with an old and ugly old woman, and the man, in order to be a hero, agreed to do it. The man agreed to do it for the sake of heroism. Sure enough, he drank up ten bottles of wine, and then rushed to the back of the lion’s cage with the strength of the wine, and we could only hear the roar of the lion and the man’s roar and the sound of a fierce struggle, and after a while, the man finally rushed back with scales and wounds, and he looked for a pair of pliers, and stood in the doorway and shouted, ‘Where is the old woman, and I want to pull out her tooth. ‘”

Zheng Fei and I were both amused, “Poor lion.” I said.

“I’ll tell you one,” Zheng Fei also came to the interest: “One day a couple met the flying saucer, down inside a pair of aliens couple, to communicate with the earthlings, to have a wife-swapping game. At night the female earthlings and male aliens to a room, only to see that the alien that thin and small, female earthlings are very disappointed, did not expect that the male aliens pull their own left ear, longer, and then pull, and longer, until the right until, and then pull the right ear, and then thicker, and so the joy of the night. After returning, the earthling couple exchanged experiences, ‘great, I tasted such a wonderful taste for the first time,’ the hostess said: ‘How are you? The man said: ‘Boring, the female alien just kept pinching my ears all night.'”

I sat in the chair laughing breathless, Liu Fang said with a straight face: “You are slandering our male earthlings’ ability to live together as husband and wife, you know, on behalf of the male earthlings, I would like to solemnly protest to you,” said here, Liu Fang suddenly changed his tone, said playfully: “Why don’t you and I practise together? I’m going to protest on behalf of the male Earthlings.”

“You don’t stand a chance,” Zheng Fei laughed: “It’s better to practice with someone else.”

“That’s impossible,” Liu Fang looked at Zheng Fei adoringly: “I’m a cuckold, bite down on it and never let go, no matter what, I’m especially specialized.”

We laughed and fooled around for a while, Liu Fang went to take a shower and change clothes, I said I wanted to go get some money, Zheng Fei said that there is a China Merchants Bank nearby, and it takes less than ten minutes to walk.

Maybe it was the weather, I sang a little song easily as I walked out of the hotel, usually Zheng Fei and I rarely joked when we were alone together, we respected each other’s maturity.

“Han Jiang, do you remember Li Qing?”

“Remember, is she in Changsha too?” Li Qing is the first girl I met when I came to Changsha, she used to be Lin Mei and their modeling team, she was the oldest there, as if a year older than me, very foreign-looking, I remember that my first date with her was to watch “Forrest Gump” together, I boldly kissed with her in the back of the theater, it was our closest physical contact, and then broke up for reasons I can’t recall, and anyway, she was slowly estranged, now I think she may have been too much for me. estranged, now that I think about it, she may have been too much for me to understand, and then I heard that there is a very rich man to pursue her, I know Xu Bingbing after I never saw her again.

“No, she’s in Guangzhou, she went to Malaysia with a rich guy a few years ago, after she broke up with you, I think.”

“We broke up a long time ago,” I laughed: “In fact, not to talk about breaking up, we were not much of a relationship, but at that time I just came to Changsha, fewer friends, she always took me out to play, so for a while with her quite good.”

“But she talked about you a lot afterward, saying that you were a pretty pure and nice boy.” Zheng Fei said.

“Yes?” I asked lightly, “What happened then?”

“Chase her that person is indeed very rich, to her is also good, but there is a wife and children, Li Qing with him, and we rarely come and go, she is a little older than we are well, afraid that we do not understand her, she left after the phone call with me also occasionally, and then she can not stay over there, the man’s wife know it, she came back. “

“So what’s the point of going to Canton?” I asked curiously.

“In Guangzhou Institute of Foreign Languages, anyway, is to find something to do, before leaving that man gave her a sum of money, the rest of her life is not to worry about,” Zheng Fei suddenly asked me: “Do you want to remember her phone number, anyway, you are also close to her, she is now quite lonely, I do not know what happened between you, but she will call me when she is in a bad mood to talk about the past, sometimes mentioning you. I don’t know what’s going on between you two, but when she’s in a bad mood, she’ll call me to talk about the past, and sometimes she’ll mention you.”

“Yes?” I slowly recall the month I first came to Changsha, when I do not know much about men and women, a lot of kissing skills or she taught me, “No,” I said: “Anyway, next year I’ll be gone, these months are also quite busy.”

Forget it, I thought to myself, Changsha is an undeniable influence on my upbringing, but the knot that I’ve been so fascinated by for so many years has been untied, and I don’t want to dwell on some of the details.

“I thought you guys liked each other,” Zheng Fei said in surprise: “Otherwise, why does she still always think of you?”

“I may be quite like her at the beginning,” I said frankly: “but so many years later, we will certainly change it, I think she is quite smart, able to grasp their own life, but also have the courage,” I do not want to talk about it, changed the subject: “Changsha girls are quite smart, I really admire you, you have the courage to follow their own ideas to live. “Changsha girls are very smart, I really admire you, the courage to live according to their own ideas, I’ve seen a few times Lin Mei, she should be a junior now, I think she can give up the prosperity to go to the university of the hard life, it’s really not easy.”

“Is that so? I haven’t seen her for a long time, but I do have contact with Feng Zhe, and she’s quite capable, running eight hospitals a day in Guangzhou now, sort of supporting herself.”

“Why didn’t you and Sua go into business together afterward?” I felt like talking to her, so I asked a question that I had been thinking about for a long time.

“It’s not much, different views on life I guess, I think she cares too much about money.”

“Who doesn’t care about money,” I laughed, “What about you, what do you care about? I remember you used to go abroad, how is it now?”

“Still working on it, going to Beijing on the fifteenth of this month to pick up my visa, Canada.”

“Really? Maybe we can make a companion, I’m going to Canada next year, let me know when you get your visa.”

I didn’t ask her what she was doing in Canada.

I withdrew five thousand dollars from the China Merchants Bank, and Zheng Fei walked back, Liu Fang has changed clothes, a very beautiful outfit, simple style Nike shoes, white jeans, black tight jacket, looks like the whole person is heroic, Zheng Fei and I both applauded in unison.

“Go eat,” I took two thousand dollars and gave it to Liu Fang: “I’m starving.”

“You guys go ahead and eat,” Liu Fang fixes her hair in the mirror : “I have an appointment.”

“Who is it, Zhao Rong?” I smiled and asked, “Let’s go eat together.”

“Not Zhao Rong, I’m going to be alone today,” Liu Fang hummed a little tune with a strange expression, “I have a little secret in my heart that I can’t tell you…”

“Then forget it, you busy your honey to go,” I turned to ask Zheng Fei: “you have something in the afternoon, nothing we go to play tennis?”

Zheng Fei and I carried the tennis racket to go out, when I went out I saw Liu Fang excited, handsome face overflowing with masculinity, very manly charm, his face has a hint of a smile, somehow I think that smile is a little cruel.

Zheng Fei and I ate on the fifth floor of the Heihe Hall, took a taxi to the Heron Gymnasium, there were quite a lot of people playing tennis, we sat in the lounge for a while, drinking drinks while waiting for the venue, anyway, we had just finished eating, there was no rush.

We are as relaxed as a mistress of the package, incontrovertibly chatting casually, occasionally get up to move the body, in front of us there are still two sets of waiting for the venue, “to tell you a joke,” Zheng Fei said: “about the queue.”

“There is a hospital with two windows, one side is to donate blood, one side is to donate sperm, there are a lot of people in the queue, of course, donate sperm of the team are men, then suddenly ran in a girl, stood to donate sperm of the team, others thought she was the wrong queue, a kind person reminded her that you’re the wrong queue, that side of the blood, this side of the donation of sperm! The girl didn’t say anything, and pointed to her cheeks with a bulging mouth: ‘No, no.'”

When Zheng Fei and I finished playing, it was already dark, Tan Jianjun came to the phone and asked me when I was leaving, I said tomorrow, “Come to my house for dinner,” he said, “I haven’t seen you for years, and I didn’t have a good chat with you last time, and you weren’t in the country when I got married, so this time it’s time for you to come to my house to have a look. You were out of the country when I got married, so this time you can come to my home to visit.”

I sent Zheng Fei to the downstairs of her home, each other said goodbye, about often contact, I seriously thanked her again, and went to Tan Jianjun’s home. His family lives in a new residential neighborhood near Tianxinge, I got out of the cab, called him, he came down to the door of the neighborhood to pick me up upstairs.

Tan Jianjun’s home is a three-room house, decorated quite beautiful, I know Tan Jianjun quite pay attention to the quality of life, his wife is a very soft woman, looks okay, but can not talk about very beautiful, Tan Jianjun himself is a beautiful man.

His wife in the kitchen to prepare food, I want to help, was pulled out by Tan Jianjun, the table already has a few small dishes, he opened a bottle of red wine, and I sat at the table to drink slowly.

“Is your sister-in-law from Changsha?” I asked curiously.

“Yeah, don’t you think so?” Tan smiled and gave me a look.

“I think my sister-in-law is so virtuous.”

The two of us talked about a lot of things in the past, ninety-three years after graduation, I was assigned to the provincial Post and Telecommunications Administration, when I reported to the resignation procedures in passing, with a tender dream to go to the south, the lack of work experience, I bumped into walls everywhere, a go to Guangzhou to look for classmates is early in the morning, embarrassed to bother his home, I slept at the train station camping out in the middle of the night, sleepy and lack of sleep, wake up and things were stolen, pants were also cut, now I think it is ridiculous that even the shoes were changed by those thieves. Pants were also cut, and now I think of the funny thing is that even the shoes were changed by those thieves, I was wearing a pair of college bought Adidas, was replaced by a pair of Guangdong-made worn-out miscellaneous brand travel shoes, but that pair of miscellaneous shoes wearing very comfortable, I wore for a long time.

The feeling at that time can never be as easy as recalling it now, a lot of memories of fun things, when it happens is indescribable pain, the feeling of loneliness and pressure than the poverty of life is more difficult to bear, no social experience I experienced every just go out to fight the world of the people will go through all the frustrations, and finally managed to get into Zhuhai into a communications company, a salary of six hundred dollars a month, only a few days, was sent to Handan paging station to do technical support, at that time Tan Jianjun when the station manager in Handan. After a few days, I was sent to a paging station in Handan to do technical support, and at that time, Tan Jianjun was the station manager in Handan.

My ability to learn and master technology and knowledge is not to say, character also has a smart and progressive side, and are sent from Zhuhai, Tan Jianjun take care of me, and sometimes travel to Beijing are sent to me, as I enter the community after the rapid growth, as well as a variety of information exchanges between classmates in Handan stayed three months I resigned to go back to Beijing to look for a job, I still need to worry about the livelihood of me. Before I found a job in Beijing, Tan Jianjun had been spending my monthly salary from the station, perhaps he also felt that I was not always in that level, that love I have always kept in mind.

Eight Days and Seven Nights of the Sentimental Hunan Girl (7B)

Later, I finally found my correct position and direction in society, began the struggle of life, I have been in contact with Tan Jianjun, he later did some communication business, I had taken a few of the closest classmates and buddies several times to the field to help him adjust and test the machine, do not take any money, and then I went abroad, and when I came back, I knew that Tan Jianjun got married and opened a small company in Changsha.

“Han Jiang, what are your future plans?” After dinner, we sat on the balcony and chatted.

“I’m going to quit my job at the end of the year and emigrate to Canada, probably get into computer websites e-commerce or something.” I said simply.

“You’ve got it all figured out, isn’t your current job great?” Tan Jianjun asked me.

“It’s not bad, but I can’t live like this for the rest of my life ah, I’ve already paid a lot, it’s impossible to stop now.” I think Tan Jianjun understands what I mean.

“How is the environment over there in Canada, do you do skilled immigration, spend much money?” Tan Jianjun took a pack of cigarettes out of the house and asked me, “I have a friend who also wants to do it.”

“is a skilled immigrant, our profession is quite easy, do it yourself, as long as more than 9,000 yuan,” I said: “To be honest, the Canadian side of the environment is not good, too many Chinese immigrants to the past, and the profession is similar to a few of my classmates there, working, the income is not as much as I am in the country,” I paused and said: “But I do not want to go to work, that and what is the difference between the domestic. “I paused, and then said:” But I do not want to go to work, that and domestic and what difference, I want to see the world, to see if there is any opportunity to enter the mainstream society, the only way to become their own boss or read the MBA.”

“That kind of premise is first of all to have a certain economic foundation,” Tan Jianjun hit the nail on the head: “Besides, everyone’s life goals are different, some people go abroad because they don’t have the opportunity to get you like this in the country, some people like the loose living environment abroad, and you’re going over there like this, you have to be mentally prepared to encounter Frustration and failure of the psychological preparation.”

“Yes,” I said, nodding my head, “I’ve prepared myself mentally for a few more years of suffering. In fact, these past few years have been quite smooth, but there have been a lot of unspeakable difficulties, and I’ve already made up my mind about going to Canada first, but I can’t figure out what to do about the immigration prison and… “I hesitated for a moment and continued: “I actually want to learn something outside and look for some opportunities, but I still want to come back in the future. I like China, and I have full confidence in China, maybe it’s because I’ve been in Africa for too long.” I laughed.

“Now there are a lot of opportunities, and your specialty has an advantage, you should spell it out,” Tan Jianjun asked again: “What about your girlfriend, did you break up with Zhang Qing?”

“It’s a breakup,” I had a twinge in my heart and didn’t want to bring it up, “Tan Jianjun,” I said sincerely: “Whether it’s about being a human being or doing things, I’ve learned so much from you, and you’ve always been a role model for me to learn from. “

My phone rang, it was Wu Yu calling, I was very happy, I remembered that I hadn’t contacted her in the past two days, I had wanted to call her after Shenzhen to see if there was anything I could do to help her, I hadn’t planned to meet her in Changsha in the past few days, I was afraid that I would not be able to control myself, but I think it should be fine now. “You’re not working today?”

“I worked an early shift yesterday, had the afternoon off, then covered a night shift in the evening, and today is fine, I slept all morning.”

“You worked the night shift last night?” I realized something vaguely.

“Yeah, a girl came in last night and asked what room you were staying in, I told her, did you see her?”

“I saw it,” I couldn’t think of what to say, and was silent for half a day before saying, “Don’t get me wrong.”

“I didn’t misunderstand ah, misunderstand what?” Wu Yu said calmly.

I think so, what can be misunderstood, I am speechless, originally I wanted to say some words of encouragement to her, tell her that I will go back to Shenzhen will always keep in touch with her, I can help I will help, but now it is not appropriate to say, forget it, back to Shenzhen and then talk to her, anyway, tomorrow will leave.

“Wu Yu,” I said, “you don’t realize that the outside world isn’t as good as you think it is.”

“I know, I’ll work on myself.” Wu Yu didn’t say a few words before she politely hung up the phone, I thought I heard a sigh, I didn’t hear it clearly, I was stumped for a while, Tan Jianjun’s wife came out with fruits, I rushed to help.

I stayed at Tan Jianjun’s house for a long time, we talked about a lot of things, I quite enjoyed talking to Tan Jianjun, it made me feel very inspired, especially about some of the things that are going on in the society nowadays, and I was about to take my leave when Sua came to the phone.

“Where are you?” Sua asked me, “Aren’t you leaving tomorrow, and you didn’t say hello tonight, so you’re not enough of a friend.”

“No, no,” I explained to her with a smile, “I was alone at a friend’s house and I thought Liu Fang was with you.”

“No ah,” Suya asked strangely: “Liu Fang is not with you? I just called his cell phone, can not get through.”

I took Tan Jianjun’s phone and dialed Liu Fang’s cell phone, and really couldn’t get through, “What are you doing?” I asked Suya: “If it’s okay, where are we going to sit? But first said ah, I’m not for sale.”

I met Sua at the entrance of the Rolling Stones Club, which is different from Phoenix and Horton, where most of the people who come to play are kids in their mid-twenties, with edgy clothes, some deflated hair, young and childish faces, and sophisticated smoking postures, which gives a deep impression of the importance of strengthening the education of young minds.

Sua came alone, I saw her hurrying when she crossed the street, that’s how people are, once the habit of life is cured it’s hard to go back, she’s a girl who can relax, she’s used to keeping the stress to herself, she doesn’t want others to feel sorry for her.

“Big brother, ever wanted to live as a couple?” Sua she asked me in her Tianjin accent, a classic joke.

“How much?”

“Well money or not, comfortable and cozy.” Suya said to himself first laughed.

The Rolling Stones disco is far away from the bar, Suya and I sat at the bar, Suya didn’t know if she had something on her mind or what, she asked for a dozen sun beers: “I don’t know when the next time we’ll have a drink together, so I’m going to give you a farewell party.” I appreciate the cute side of Suya, the two of us are very much friends, but never involved in male and female love, there should be a kind of man like her kind of girl, I think, but I can not think of Suya in front of her favorite boy will be like.

I nodded my head to Suya and said yes, anyway, at most one drunk, it’s not like I’ve never been drunk before, I feel a little dry mouth, and ordered a cup of “gin and tonic” and drank a few sips first.

The music came from deep on the dance floor, the rhythm was distinct, I leaned against the bar and watched the girls who were leading the dance on the stage, their faces were not very clear, all I could see was their perfect bodies, they were dressed in revealing clothes, their slim waists twirling wildly to the rhythm, I probably sat too far away from them, I didn’t think I was excited at all.

“Soa, what are your future plans?” I asked as I looked at Suya who was pouring herself a drink.

“The plan then there is no, nonsense on some,” Suya made fun of my words: “is not just married, almost, can not play again.”

“Really, so what kind do you want?” I thought it was funny, it was rare to hear Sucha say something so real.

“A little money, treat me a little better,” Suya took out a Saint Laurent: “What else can it be, but it’s just older and uglier, so it’s reliable.”

“That’s not necessarily,” I picked up the lighter to give her a cigarette, in fact, I know in my heart what she said makes sense: “Lustful or not and men’s age has nothing to do with looks, some old and ugly men are even worse, especially after a little bit of money, you mean reliable is when they do not have money, and at that time is not It’s not because they don’t want to, it’s because they don’t have the money.”

“I know,” Suya inhaled deeply, pursed lips spit out a thin smoke: “I’m not talking about whether they are good or not, I am saying that the conditions of such a nearly, will find me such as even good, at least will not move to divorce, the man well, that’s the way it is, in the outside world The most fearful thing is to find only one in the outside world.”

I thought about what she said, it didn’t sound very reasonable at first, but when I savored it, it did, “So did you find it?”

“It’s not that easy to find,” Suya laughed: “Riding a donkey to find a horse.”

“Ha, so you are riding which donkey ah?” I laughed: “I’m afraid you look around, looking at a horse, go home and try or donkey.”

The dance music died down and someone came up to perform, it was a couple of seventeen or eight year old boys and girls in shiny white space suits with distinctive movement, they danced to “Everybody Dance Together” by Lobaiji, I’d seen that MTV and thought they were pretty good.

“Han Jiang, how did things end up with you and Li He and Leng Jia?” After watching the dance, Suya turned back to me and asked.

“It’s all over,” I said objectively, “Now that I think about it, they’re both good girls, and they’ve both been good to me, but it’s just that maybe they weren’t meant to be.”

“Leng Jia and you, did… did you have sex?” Suya squeezed her eyes at me, smiling and teasing me: “Did she treat you well?”

“Why do you ask,” I didn’t answer the question head on, “She’s okay with me, she started out fine, but then she just ignored me, she and Li Huo have been friends for six years after all.” I tried to be realistic and a bit sad.

“I can’t understand if you’re smart or stupid.” Sua stared at me strangely, as if trying to see through some secret.

“What’s smart and what’s stupid,” I was amused by her: “That’s something I always say to Liu Fang.”

“What happened to Liu Fang again?”

“Not much, I just think sometimes he carries a trifle of confusion, and I don’t know if it’s real or not.”

“Looks like fake confusion to me.” Sua sneered.

The singer’s performance was over as well, and the dance floor was filled with slow music as Sua and I sat leisurely, chatting like buddies.

“Han Jiang, when are you getting married?” Suya was already a little tipsy.

“I haven’t thought about it yet, I’ll have to wait until I’m famous,” I said, looking at the couples on the dance floor who were so close they probably just met tonight, “I’m looking for real love.”

“Come on, people like you still believe in love.”

“What’s wrong with people like me, you really don’t look down on us rural people, who didn’t grow up eating food?”

I said with longing, “Sometimes I really want to settle in a remote village, marry a rural girl who does not know how to read, treat her gently and teach her to read.”

I did not explain anything to her, before I may indeed be addicted to a period of time, but now I am very sober, some people take the hardships of life as an excuse to fall, and some as a motivation to get ahead, the road of feelings is also the same, there is sunshine, there is dust, there is hope, there is also a place of disappointment, and, in turn, there is a place of deception there is also sincerity, and there is a place of degradation there is good, I believe that at first, Zhang Qing also I believe that Zhang Qing did not intend to hurt me, we were still small.

We finished the dozen of beers, people say you can drink when you’re in a bad mood, I think I’m better when I’m happy instead, we went out and took a cab, I was even sober enough to pick a Fulcrum out of the many cabs, the streets were still full of people, just like the other night, except there was a crescent moon hanging in the sky, shining quietly on the street, such a beautiful night, how did I not notice it the other night?

I dropped Suya off at home, feeling still in a good mood, and on the way back to Zhongtian in a taxi I suddenly wanted to go to the bathroom, probably because I’d had too much beer, but the car was driving down the street, so I figured I’d be there in a little while anyway, so I’d just hold it in.

When I got off the bus, I threw the money to the driver and told him not to look for it, there were not many people in the lobby of the Zhongtian Hotel, I hurried through the lobby, took the elevator to the seventh floor, and anxiously pressed the doorbell of the room, Liu Fang was still in the room when I came out at noon, and the key was in his hand.

After a while I heard Liu Fang walk out and the door opened.

“Let me tell you…” Liu Fang stopped me in her pajamas and was about to talk to me, but I barged in sideways, pulling on the bathroom door: “We’ll talk about it later, I can’t hold it in…”

I was flabbergasted, Wu Yu was lying on the bed, her clothes were scattered on the chair, she was leaning against the bed with a quilt draped over her, when I looked at her she looked at me calmly as well, her face was expressionless, and I looked at her dark shining eyes, I hadn’t seen such clear eyes in a long time.

I felt myself flabbergasted for a couple of seconds and pushed the door into the bathroom, after I had calmed down I washed my face carefully with cool water, I looked shaky in the mirror, I can’t drink so much again, I thought.

I came out of the restroom, Liu Fang was still standing at the door waiting for me, “Get up early tomorrow,” the smile I practiced for years came into play at this point, I whispered to him, “I have to catch a plane at noon, I’ll go down to bed first.”

“On those verdant roads, there were many traumas, and on that old face, there was also the record of the weather, the autumn winds and the autumn rains… the words of farewell that I had to say when I was young and young, without saying goodbye… Looking back to yesterday, in front of the door of the foreign land, the hooting and hollering of the year, but the sunrise and sunset never changed, and when I looked at my father’s smile at the present moment, I didn’t know that I didn’t have words, and I let the twilight of the sunset The twilight of sunset filled my eyes…”

I went downstairs, got a room, covered my head and went to sleep.

Eight Days and Seven Nights of Xiang Daughter’s Many Loves (VIII. Finished Version)

I felt hungry when I got up in the morning, I hadn’t felt that way in a long time, and I lay in bed, quietly savoring all the reveries that hunger brings, convinced that food is the first ingredient for survival.

The phone rang, it was Liu Fang called, “Why do you live in this room number?” He said excitedly, “538, are you finally willing to admit that you are a bitch?”

“You’re the one who is a bitch, damn hands do not say hello to me,” I laughed and scolded him, the heart of the matter has been carefully put away, we are living in reality: “I’m afraid it is Wu Yu help you to check my room number, she went away?”

“Come on, come on, what do you care who checked it out, come on up here, let’s go get something to eat after we clean up, I’m feeling hungry.”

“You’re probably too physically exhausted,” I said as I put on my shoes, “I’ll just come up, I’m hungry too.”

I went upstairs to my room, Liu Fang is taking a bath, we do not have much stuff, quickly cleaned up, I was bored to turn on the TV to Hunan TV, Leng Jia is not there, I was surprised to see Shen Ting, the original is in the field interview “Star of the Century” rematch winners. Maybe it is the need of the competition, Shen Ting put on makeup on TV, looks extraordinarily beautiful, looks very happy look, she really want to go to Guangzhou to participate in the competition, I think, this little Shen Ting.

Liu Fang came out and put the restroom stuff into his bag as well, we didn’t talk much, took our luggage and room cards and went downstairs in silence, I sat on the sofa in the lobby and waited for Liu Fang to check out and check out of the room, I glanced far away from the main desk, Wu Yu wasn’t there.

Liu Fang finished the formalities over, we carry the luggage to go out, I walked while looking at the bill, because the room has been Liu Fang with a credit card settlement, I want to have a number in mind, out to play the best two people spend about the same, the difference is too much is not good, I think if Liu Fang credit card to pay too much I’ll make up for the little cash to him, I counted the discrepancy is not big, there is no relationship, but I was surprised to find that Zhongtian I was surprised to find that Zhongtian Hotel charged less money for one night, yesterday Liu Fang went downstairs and opened an extra room for some reason not counted in it. I told Liu Fang, he looked at the bill for a while, turned around and went in.

I stood in front of the door of the Zhongtian Hotel and waited for him, the weather was fine, although it was morning, it did not feel cold, there were not many pedestrians on the road, after a while, Liu Fang came out.

“Did you miscalculate?” I asked, “Did you get a refund?”

“Returned,” Liu Fang said with a smile: “really undercounted a night, that lady said a big to the good words, they are not easy, I heard Wu Yu said, in this case who settled the bill who will have to use their own money to compensate, but if it is an overcharge, can only return to the hotel.”

“How unfair.” I laughed back.

The two of us walked on the street for a while, until we got to the Wuyi intersection, Liu Fang went to the next fruit stand to buy some bananas, I saw a newspaper kiosk, and bought a copy of the reference news.

The Kentucky Fried Chicken store was clean and bright, not many people, Liu Fang and I were starving, served a large pile of things to find a seat by the window.

As I ate, I looked at the newspaper, the conflict between India and Pakistan was escalating, there was a coup in Pakistan, India was flooding, the LTTE in Sri Lanka had captured two more cities, I looked at the messy news in the newspaper and thought to myself why was there so much going on in South Asia, where I was now in charge.

“Chen Shan.” I suddenly heard Liu Fang call out.

I raised my head and followed Liu Fang’s gaze to the window, and sure enough I saw that Chen Shan was walking past the window with a man, Chen Shan was wearing the same short red dress, holding the man’s shoulders, the man didn’t look as tall as her, dressed fairly decently, with a thin face, not too big to see his age, and was talking to Chen Shan about something.

When Chen Shan turned her head she saw Liu Fang and I who were looking out, flabbergasted, she didn’t stop and walked over while answering the man’s words.

“Damn, even if married is not so, meet even a hello,” I somehow feel a burst of trouble: “Fuck.”

“Right, is to fuck, in fact, this word can express a lot of meaning, this is a realm of life, understand?” Liu Fang looked at me and said seriously : “You should correct your attitude towards life.”

“What attitude towards life, I’m just verbalizing,” I corrected him, “You think I’m like you, I’ll fuck anyone.”

“I knew you would have ideas,” Liu Fang put the last piece of chicken wing into his mouth and wiped his hands with a paper towel while slurring his words, “Tell me about it, brother will help you detoxify.”

“It’s nothing really,” I sighed as I took a big gulp of coke, “I just always thought I was pretty cold, I didn’t realize there were moments of weakness.”

“This is what you said right, the heart should be hard when hard,” Liu Fang said triumphantly: “Women’s benevolence, can only make people laugh.”

My heart immediately rose a fire, “I’m not unable to harden my heart,” I looked straight at Liu Fang, smiled and said: “I just think that some people can be casually on, some people do not need to be on just. Shen Ting came over this morning, that has been when my sister, needless to say; last night Xie Hui seduced me, I’m not interested; the day before yesterday, Wu Yu and I together, I did not move. To be on I have long been on, it’s still your turn?”

“Slowly say slowly,” Liu Fang looked at me with interest: “I know all this, what else?”

“I will never argue with you, Liu Fang,” I still looked at him, said sincerely: “We were out to play, if it is the kind of person Xie Hui, really need to engage in a little, nothing, she is also out to find excitement, even if it is Leng Jia, if she is willing to, there is no relationship, she is also very mature, she will be responsible for their own. She is also very mature, she will be responsible for herself, like Wu Yu this kind of child, surely a cheat on the hand, but then what’s the point? We do not lack this, you must have agreed to take her to Shenzhen, right?”

“You know Wu Yu that well?” Liu Fang stopped laughing and looked at me and asked.

“What do not understand, we are all over the past, you do not just know me, I see people accurate you do not know?” I feel that the atmosphere is a little hard, smiled and said: “Forget it, in fact, it’s nothing, it’s already like this, I’m also for your own good, you know? You’re not playing anymore, it’s a crime, comrade.” I patted Liu Fang’s shoulder and said regretfully.

“Don’t tell me that you haven’t cheated on girls,” Liu Fang said to me with a smile, “In fact, even without you and me, sooner or later, someone else will do so and lead them to maturity.”

“This is true, but as long as it is not in the hands of you and me, the heart will be at peace,” I nodded and said: “Of course, also divided into people, like Leng Jia, Wu Yu, such as this, treat us very true, it is best to think a little bit for their sake; as for the likes of Li Huo, there is not much meaning.”

When I think of Li Huo saying bad things about me behind my back, I get upset again: “Don’t you understand me? I’m the kind of person who is soft-hearted and motherly?”

“It’s because I know you, that’s why I feel strange,” Liu Fang stared into my eyes, his tone was very slow: “I’ve always thought that you’re joking, pretending to be confused, it’s just a game, why bother to break the windowpaper.

You don’t really think what you just said, do you?”

“After all, we are buddies ah,” I asked strangely: “These are of course my heart’s true thoughts, it is I brought you to Changsha to play, I still hide what with you. You have something to hide from me?”

“Talk about hiding it or not, since you said that, I do feel the need to talk to you, and I’m leaving anyway.”

Liu Fang silently looked at his Coke cup, silent for a while, as if for a while do not know where to start, I suddenly had a strange premonition in my heart, slowly stirring the ice in the Coke with a straw, and did not say anything, this is another habit I practiced for many years in the market, the more curious in the heart, the more on the surface does not seem to be in a hurry.

Liu Fang and silent for a while, finally opened his mouth and said: “I do not know what I said right or wrong, but as a buddy, I know how much to tell you how much, anyway, I and they are also recognized through you, with me there is nothing to do with the future I think there will not be, you know that these at least when you deal with them again to help. Don’t be nervous, it’s really nothing, everyone’s thoughts are quite normal, no one wants to intentionally lie to you or something, I think everyone may think you also understand in your heart to pretend to be confused on the surface, there’s really no need to poke through this layer of windowpaper.”

“Let’s talk about you first,” Liu Fang lowered his head and took a sip of Coke, said: “You said Li He cheated you, she cheated you what, just because she has a man? You also admit that she has a man is reasonable, she neither want your money nor your color, you have what can be cheated? You two have known each other for four years now, and everyone knows that you can’t give her anything, not name or money. She cares about you, probably just because she really likes you, does she really want you to have the honorary title of ‘confidante’?” Liu Fang said with a smile, the tone of voice is not like the usual so radical, seem very persuasive: “I can not figure out why she had to bite the no boyfriend, but I always think that she does not have any bad purpose for you, perhaps for fear that you know no longer touch her? No way,” Liu Fang said this scratched his head: “You also told me that your sexual ability in general.”

I laughed silently, knowing that he was trying to lighten the mood a bit, which was all the more reason why he had it in his mind that what he was about to say might make the atmosphere tense, and I cooperated by keeping my smile on, even shrugging easily.

“As for you to her, all of us feel that it is a bit too much, said to break into that, but I understand you,” Liu Fang suddenly some ambiguity, lowered his voice and said: “If you do not do things so absolutely, clearly break up with her, with her and Leng Jia’s relationship, you and Leng Jia is indeed very difficult to have any progress.”

“You can’t judge a gentleman’s heart with a small man’s heart,” I said, “I just hate it when people lie to me. You said she was good to me this way and that way, so why did she badmouth me to Leng Jia behind her back later on?”

“Who said anything bad about you?” Liu Fang looked at me strangely: “Li He did not say anything bad about you from beginning to end, I was there that afternoon when she and Leng Jia were talking, they thought I couldn’t understand and said a lot of heartfelt words, but in fact Changsha’s language isn’t very difficult to understand, I can understand the general meaning, but I didn’t comment on a single word, and Su Ya only listened to a few sentences and left, Li He’s very objective in her evaluation of you, and even quite good, she said you’re very filial, saying that filial people can’t be as bad as you are talented, saying that you’re talented, and that it’s not bad at all. Evaluation is very objective, and even quite good, she said you are very filial, said filial people and then bad is not bad, said you have talent, have a future, it is difficult to have a woman to grasp you, so in love with you is a thing that is both addictive and dangerous, I heard a little jealous, you think about it, you also know that in the past, Li Huo in front of her friends have always put you how good, even if it is to take into account her own face will not be Even with her own face in mind, she wouldn’t say how bad you were all of a sudden, right?”

My heart was fluttering and I could hardly contain myself, could it be that I had really misunderstood her? Impossible, “Then why did Leng Jia’s attitude change so drastically after she went to her place in the afternoon? When we parted at noon, we were still fine, and I can understand having dinner with her original boyfriend, but she didn’t call me when she got home.”

“You still do not understand, Han Jiang,” Liu Fang looked at me, said word for word: “Leng Jia’s attitude towards you the reason for the change, not at all because of Li He and what the sake of friendship, but because her boyfriend and her good, ready to marry her,” Liu Fang Looked at me do not believe the look, and said: “And that day dinner Leng Jia is not and her boyfriend a piece of food, she was with me at that time.”

“With you?” I couldn’t hide my surprised expression despite my forced composure.

“You do not want to distort,” Liu Fang said with a smile: “I have nothing to do with her, just chatting, she wants to eat together, she asked a lot of your things, in fact, she still likes you, her boyfriend this time to Changsha, is to come to join her, they had a fight in Guangzhou, Leng Jia ran away! Back, her boyfriend in fact quite like her, specially ran to find her, to take her back, in Guangzhou to marry the house are bought, originally if you do not have, Leng Jia may not hesitate to go back, they quarrel is not for what a big deal, seems to be that the man wants to Leng Jia do not shoot a TV series, in the family to stay at home or to do something else, Leng Jia does not agree, I am just because of this! I think Leng Jia’s liking for you is still genuine, not just playing around, that’s why it was difficult for her to make a decision for a while, she went to Li He to ask Li He’s opinion, and looked for me just to learn more about you.”

“And what is Li Ho’s opinion?” I felt my heart grow weak.

“Li He didn’t say any opinion, she just objectively said something about you, about herself, she said that she and you are completely over, if Leng Jia likes you, she won’t care, as for who Leng Jia chooses, she didn’t say anything, I see this matter you really wronged her, she’s not as despicable as you think, and to be honest, if these people let me choose to make friends. I will choose Li He, she is a person with their own principles, although sometimes is very realistic, but the world to put it bluntly, who is not realistic? Rather, it’s better to be realistic and understand some good, simple, rather good to deal with. Moreover, I don’t know if what I feel is accurate or not, I always feel that she cares about you and wants you to be good, but doesn’t explain it to you, it’s really hard to understand what’s in a woman’s heart, but you, this kid, is always getting lucky.”

I ignored Liu Fang’s jokes, “Since Li Huo didn’t say anything bad about me, it must be you who said it?” I put the blame on Liu Fang, hoping that he would continue.

“What the fuck did I do?” Liu Fang smiled and scolded: “When Leng Jia asked me, I said a lot of ambiguous words, but,” he hemmed and hawed and laughed twice: “Dude did say some of your truth, that’s for your own good, and I think you don’t want her to really haunt you, right? Besides, there is no need to let her hold too high expectations of you, if even the buddy said that point can not be accepted, I think you two will not be much of a mix head, it would be better to early to say early to disperse, so that you will not have trouble in the future, you don’t lose.” Liu Fang made an obscene gesture towards me.

“How the fuck do you know everything?” I said: “Why do you care so much about me, I’m not your grandfather, and then what, you separated before she said?”

“I was with her when you called her, she never answered, and when she left she said she was going to go home and think about it before she made a decision, and I don’t know what happened after that.”

“Why didn’t you tell me about any of this when you came home the other night for fuck’s sake?” I said angrily.

“Leng Jia forced me to promise not to tell you, everything is still unclear, I interfere in what strength,” Liu Fang said sincerely: “Besides, that night you are so excited, how to tell you ah, at that time if you say these are not good for anyone, really.” I calmed down, thought about it, think it is so.

“Did Leng Jia call you afterward?” Liu Fang asked me.

“We met,” I told Liu Fang about my meeting with Leng Jia that afternoon: “She answered a phone call and then left, and I kept thinking it was Li He who called.”

“No,” Liu Fang said definitely: “It must be her boyfriend in Guangzhou calling, the day before yesterday I heard Su Ya say that Leng Jia is ready to go to Guangzhou, his boyfriend compromised and agreed that she will continue to shoot TV dramas after she gets married.”

The coke had run out, I poured the rest of the ice in my glass slowly into my mouth, touching a coldness in my heart, do you believe in love? Do you believe in what she said? Do you believe in the care she showed when she bent down to tie your shoes in the cold snow? Do you believe in the shyness of the first intimate contact under the hazy moonlight? While you are teasing this society, how is this society not teasing you? You think you’re in control of everything, but whose hands are you in when you look back? You constantly challenge fate, but I only see you fail over and over again, you are just gradually maturing in its arms.

“The more people I know, the more I like dogs.” The phrase suddenly came to me and I said it.

“You’re impulsive again, aren’t you? Who do you think you are, a lover? Which girl is not good for you, or cheat you once even worse than a dog, this is not right, you also have to think about others, who encountered the matter certainly have to think about themselves first,” Liu Fang smiled at me and said: “To be honest, I really don’t understand what kind of person you are in the end, sometimes like a fox as deep as the smart, sometimes like a child as Easily excited, feelings are also, sometimes cynical and cold as iron, sometimes than 18, 9 years old but also romantic and pure love. I really think the reason you can pick up chicks is just that you’re likable in your own right, it doesn’t mean you’re much of a player, in other words, so many times it’s the chicks who fall for you, maybe it’s the people who are picking up your buddy.”

He made my heart flutter when he said that I do have AB blood.

“Like Leng Jia this matter, can not blame her at all, yes, she is more like you, should give should not give you, but she and that boyfriend for almost four years, in Guangzhou and live together, you say she is with four years of cohabitation boyfriend or with one night of fun without stability you? If I were her, I would choose the same, I believe that if it is you, you are the same, of course, you have your charm, but this charm is not reliable enough to commit to a lifetime ah, you are now unstable situation everyone understands, but I did not expect that she dealt with it so decisively, the sword cuts through the threads of love, it is really not worthy of a woman.”

“Does Suya know about all this?” I was silent for a while, suddenly remembering Suya, and asked Liu Fang.

“I’m not sure about that, but I think they’ve been friends for so many years, they should have a certain understanding of each other, as for Li He’s matter, Suya did talk to me once, she said you’re a bit paranoid, what can you give Li He? It’s been four years, she lied because it’s been four years and she still cares about just how you feel about her, she didn’t want to say anything to you about having a boyfriend because she wasn’t sure what you’d do if you found out, but that thing was a lie on her part, after all, so nobody wanted to mention it, and didn’t try to persuade you to do anything about it either.”

My mind is a mess, I know that Liu Fang’s words can not be trusted, but also can not be fully believed, but I no longer have the mood to analyze what he said which is credible, which is not credible, think about everything does not matter, true or false and what is the difference.

“Women can’t be trusted,” I said with a bitter smile, “Could it be that I’m wrong about Wu Yu too?”

“That’s not true,” Liu Fang frankly admitted: “You guessed right, I did promise to take her to Shenzhen.”

There was no longer any feeling in my heart, “Will you really take her there?” I asked as I looked at Liu Fang woodenly. “What do you say?” Liu Fang looked at me with a smile on his face, as if he thought I was a fool, and I deeply felt the same.

“In fact, I am not as bad as you think, are people with heavy feelings.” We sat for a while again, the people in the KFC chicken store gradually more and more, I faintly looked out the window, has not said anything, Liu Fang remembered something, suddenly said to me: “To be honest, Wu Yu is quite cute, bed performance is also good, I kind of really like her, even if there is no result, help each other is always possible, not to mention that she is also not necessarily willing to have a result with me. “

“That’s true,” I thought about it and then followed his words, “You don’t have a girlfriend yet anyway.”

“Pick up girls pick up into the husband, speculate in stocks speculate into shareholders, sell the building sell into the landlord,” Liu Fang laughed: “life’s three major failures, can not be touched by me, you also do not underestimate Wu Yu, I think I can not forget her for a moment, she came over at the end of the month, in fact, I had not expected to go to bed so quickly, but this has made me like her more. But it makes me like her even more.”

“You two are a good match, born for each other,” regardless of whether Liu Fang said the truth or not, I feel better, laughing and scolding him: “I do not want to listen to you pick up women’s shit, know that you have the ability to, okay.”

We sat in the Kentucky Fried Chicken restaurant until eleven o’clock or so, and then lazily carried our luggage out, the weather outside got hot, the street was quite busy, the stores were all open, I felt a little uncomfortable with my eyes, and when I passed by a drugstore, I went in to buy a bottle of eye drops.

“Han Jiang, you’re not going to take what I just told you seriously, are you?” Liu Fang said to me as he walked away.

“Of course not, it’s fine,” I happily patted his shoulder, “who’s with whom.”

“I also think it’s okay to talk to you, women, it’s not just that,” Liu Fang seems to have returned to the vulgar and confused look: “I’m almost nine years old on the forty people, a virgin has not seen.”

I looked at Liu Fang and felt as if I didn’t recognize him yet.

I and Liu Fang in the Civil Aviation Building near the cab to the airport, “Han Jiang, these days I read a lot of things about you, know some of your thoughts, I think you must be young when you are particularly pure,” on the cab, Liu Fang suddenly turned his head and asked me: “When did you become now like this? “

I smiled slightly and didn’t answer.

The car drove out of the city, once again speeding on the airport highway, looking out the window of the familiar scenery gradually far away, the feeling in my heart is indescribable, the harmonica player still lives in the empty white house, an ant raised its head, gazed at the three-dimensional space, and then lowered its head to continue its crawl, when I went up the mountain I remembered clearly the way down the mountain, but finally lost in this fascinating city.

I put down the front visor, inside is a small mirror, I silently to the mirror to give myself a few drops of eye drops, may be last night did not sleep well, the corners of the eyes at some point began to be covered with blood, I looked at the mirror in the indifference of their own pale, I suddenly remembered a lot of things in the past, a lot of things and Changsha has nothing to do with the past, I even remembered the five cafeteria fried eggs and cucumbers in the college, remembered the dusty high Second and third year of college, flying up the years, as if I saw myself pale years later, blood bloomed in my heart, “Is it two?” In the Fairytale of Autumn, Chow Yun-Fat, who runs a small restaurant on the edge of the ocean, said with a smile to Chung Chor Hung, who walked in.

I lowered the window a little and breathed in the fresh air outside the city, the suburbs were vast and far reaching, green hills and blue water in the distance, a few puffy clouds floating above my head, and the god of destiny peeking out of the sky, staring at me, leaving me nowhere to hide.

Have to force me to say it, right, years of scars in Changsha finally ripped, out of the blood and dirt inside, the pain emanating from the wound is extremely pleasant to me, well, I’ll tell you everything.

I loved someone once.

The sky is high in Beijing in October, and the red leaves of Fragrant Hill are reminiscent of the mountains. Zhang Qing, Lan Yi and I finally climbed to the top of the hill and sat down on a boulder to take a rest, and I took out mineral water from my bag and handed it to the two of them.

I just came back from Changsha, I’m in the process of resignation, according to the provisions of the one-month handover period, the work of the matter is basically dealt with, I’m waiting for the Finance Department to audit the completion of the final settlement with me, every day in the company to sit there is not much to do, the French boss and I’ve been on pretty good terms, his daughter blue the next happened to come to China to play, know that I’m familiar with Beijing, so I let me have nothing to do as a guide, Zhang Qing, a Changsha native who is studying French at Wuhan University, is about to graduate from an internship. Zhang Qing, a native of Changsha, is studying French at Wuhan University, and is about to graduate and do an internship. Her parents are high-ranking officials in Hunan’s postal and telecommunications system, and the French telecommunications company I work for asked her to come over to help in order to deepen customer relations.

That month I almost took them to play all over Beijing, the Forbidden City, the Great Wall, Tiananmen Square is a must, I also accompanied them to some very authentic places, Simatai, the ancient Great Wall of the beacon night sleep, Kang Xi grassland home of the old folks of the wild vegetables soup, the horror of the hidden vampire bar in the Chaoyang District party, the Hebei Baiyangdian water lotus, I was abroad in the formalities almost done in the foreign companies to do a year also saved up some money, on the I was full of hope for life, it is the time of the wind, blue next is a very straightforward woman, and I used to think of the French girl in my mind is very different, she attaches great importance to women’s rights, do not want others to let everything, I think she is like a tomboy, but Zhang Qing, a mouthful of fluent and melodious French, tall and well-proportioned body, fresh and handsome look, so that I am quite touched by the heart.

I don’t want to talk about the details later, anyway, we were both deeply in love, Lan Yi stayed for a month and then went back to France, before he left, he invited us to have dinner at the Diplomatic Residence outside the Jianguomen Gate, and then I sent Zhang Qing to her place, in the warm and dry singles’ dormitory, with her long silky hair standing in the center of the room, reciting Bian Zhiling’s “The Sky is on the Rooftop Over There” to me, and I kissed her for the first time on that day. On the road, people come and go. Have you ever seen a person over twenty-five years old laugh out loud while walking? I have never seen, years later I once seriously think about what circumstances can produce happiness, I very rationally thought of three: there is hope waiting for you in the future, the hand is doing something meaningful, there is a love for each other by the side of the person.

The blood is still flowing out, but I can no longer remember the details of the happiness, so I can’t describe it clearly, I have been imploring myself to forget it all these years, as one of the countless stories of flirtation, no sadness, then no joy, there is no reunion where there is a breakup, and I’d rather believe that I’ve never had any true feelings.

Before going abroad, I sent Zhang Qing back to their school, Wuhan University is very beautiful, cherry blossoms covered campus intoxicated, I often Zhang Qing and I wandered in the dusk in the faint fragrance of flowers, can not bear to leave.

I returned to Beijing after a week in Wuhan, packed a simple baggage and came to Dubai from Hong Kong, which was my first time to go abroad. When I ate McDonald’s, alone in the twilight facing the beautiful Victoria Harbor, when I was in the Middle East lonely study time occasionally to the desert sandboarding, I will think of her, once in Dubai in the deep blue and clear seaside, I came across an old man in India fishing fish overseas, I sat beside him and watched for a long time, an old man and a young man in silence and motionless, the setting sun is like a picture, before we left we chatted for a few words. “I have a girlfriend, over the sea, and I miss her.” I looked at his face etched with wrinkles and vicissitudes, and told this stranger what I felt in my heart.

A few years later I had met countless very good girls, this feeling of longing but never again, leaving a city almost forget some people, now think about it, really do not know whether it is the original Zhang Qing wonderful so that I was so obsessed with, or because of their own youthful ignorance at that time.

I studied a self-funded short course in international trade. Dubai is a free trade port similar to Hong Kong, the most beautiful city in the Middle East, and I spent most of my time reading, sometimes writing letters to Zhang Qing, from whom I never received a letter.

Half a year later I graduated back to China, I do not know whether fortunate or unfortunate, then I happened to encounter a turning point in my life in Beijing, I mean the character, I thought that the university has ended the metamorphosis period, I did not expect to encounter it at the age of twenty-four years old, I do not know whether you understand, is that a man is really towards maturity of the time I began to think about the meaning of life, the value of the self, the root cause of the life of pain and suffering, the universe of space-time, the infinite, to say very childish is it? I began to think about the meaning of life, the value of self, the root cause of life’s suffering, the universe of space and time infinite, said very childish is it, but at that time it was so, maybe it was too smooth, did not think it through, the university finished, foreign companies have done, abroad to study, I should now do what? What should I do now? What goal should I achieve in my life?

Is it worth fighting and striving for when everyone will be reduced to ashes in a few decades? What is the meaning of life anyway? There were several times when I began to think about suicide.

I opened a small store selling computers in Beijing, business is not good, the cost of going abroad and business losses almost all the money I saved, I guess I am so miserable may be because too smart and sensitive, so often go to drink, and then I realized that the reaction of my mind is not as good as it used to be, but the pain and bewilderment remain.

Soon after returning to China I went to Wuhan once, we embraced each other in front of the Cherry Garden Sansha, she was so clean that she flew up to pity me, I know she suffered from the same pain of lovesickness as me, she complained why I did not reply to her letter, I said that I did not receive it ah, life is really a big joke, even the post office is a tease.

After returning to Beijing, we often talk on the phone, and now I don’t remember what the first fight was about. Was it because I was short of money and couldn’t always go to Wuhan to see her? Was it because I was finalizing my outlook on life and my career wasn’t taking off and I was upset? Is it because all she thinks about on campus is the sex and the sex and she thinks I don’t love her anymore?

Was it because I felt gradually alienated by her lack of understanding of my pain? I was not a person with outward feelings, I would never admit to a girl’s face that I was deeply in love with her, one night I was riding the bus when I suddenly became dizzy, struggled to get off the bus, sat on the side of the road and called her to pour out my suicidal desires, she said that she had to go to the school broadcasting station to record, and that she’d call you back in a little while. “I heard her leave in a hurry on the phone, the moon in the sky was cold and clear, I cried silently.

I haven’t spoken to her about the deepest things in my heart since then, maybe it’s like that with everyone, they like to share your joys and don’t want to share your pains, even with those closest to them.

The fight had begun and never ended, we still maintained a romantic relationship, I struggled at the crossroads of life’s thoughts for so long that I was unable to think calmly to deal with things between the two of us, she slowly felt the change in me, often arguing with me on the phone to try to get my attention, I was always cold at this point and did not say anything, and in the end, she always said one sentence “Never mind you again” and end the call, but but two days, call again, the argument began again, we are both tortured by each other exhausted.

That day is what holiday, I can not remember, after a week of cold war I received her phone again, her voice was surprisingly calm: “Chen Feng,” she called my name: “I want to understand, I do not know if you still love me, I know that I am in love with you, but this love makes me suffer, I can not change your mind, you can not change me, I do not want to continue with you every time, but every time I can not help but go to you, I can no longer bear this life, it will only destroy me. I suffer, I can not change your mind, you can not change me, I do not want to continue with you every time, but every time I can not help but go to you again, I can not afford to live like this, it will only ruin my life, since I can not leave you, then I have to choose to let you leave me, I’m in Shenzhen, this vacation I came to Shenzhen to play with our teacher of the French, I live with him, that is! now, we have sex.”

“Really, this is good. You know I can not stand this kind of thing right, you really know me well,” I laughed on the phone and said: “the rivers and lakes are stormy, the youth eastward flow to go, but also know that it is difficult to get together, and do laugh at parting.” I even read her a farewell poem. Put down the phone, I was in tears.

The flowing water it took away the story of the time, changed two people, just in that sentimental and first met youth.

The struggle of thought in this year lasted nearly six months, and then how to come over I can not say, anyway, is suddenly realized, like the “mercurial swordsman merciless sword” in the Fei, in fact, everyone has this part of the thought process, just early and late, there are deep and shallow, just, life is the macroscopic meaninglessness and microcosmic significance of the countless.

I began to make plans for my life, I began to call home regularly again, I made an immigration application for Canada, and while waiting in line for approval I found myself my current job, ready to accumulate some money and experience, after hovering on the edge of life and death for so long, I found myself full of self-confidence, and many people said that I had a taste for maturity and profundity, and that since then I had always inexplicably getting lucky with peach blossoms.

When Zhang Qing went to Canada, she had just graduated and went to the French-speaking part of the country to study. She arrived in Beijing the day before her flight and called to ask me to meet her, and I agreed to do so. It was drizzling that day, and I met her in a small bar owned by a friend, to which I had often brought her during the happiest days.

She’s put on a little weight, just as I thought she would, and I don’t think of her as often as I did when we first broke up, the wounds have long since healed. I talked to her about how things were going and gave her some well wishes and encouragement, she was a little surprised, who has a suicide complex, I said, not at all. I have been transformed into a mature and attractive man, pro and difficult to offend, she has not been able to find the feeling of talking to me, want to say “goodbye is also a friend” before leaving the country? I thought to myself, “No way.

She finally relented when she was about to say goodbye, “Come to my place and stay with me for a night, okay?” Her gentle voice seemed to come from afar, very, very soft, making me feel very out of tune with the atmosphere of the evening.

“Never mind,” I said with a grin, “I just feel dirty.”

Imagining the cruelty I had felt when I said that, it was as if that cruel smile had swept across my lips again, and I felt my eyes feel a little better after the eye drops, and then I looked at myself in the mirror, still young and handsome.

I haven’t heard from Zhang Qing since then, and this time when I came to Changsha, it was the first time I tried to call her family to ask her family how she was doing, and I won’t say my name, but that’s okay, I didn’t get through anyway.

“The grass is green in spring and yellow in fall, the slanting sun sets in my hometown, the bamboo horse and the green plum are still there today, but I don’t see the little girl next door.

“I sang the children’s song happily, and looked back at Liu Fang, who was already asleep, perhaps too tired last night?

Thinking of Wu Yu, my heart suddenly heavy again, this time to Changsha, happiness and sadness, purity and degradation, trust and betrayal, love and marriage, intertwined, finally tore open my inner scars, painfully out of the inside has festered the dirty blood, life’s illusions have long been broken, I’ve been able to be strong enough to accept the growth of life, which is the only theme of life.

Wu Yu, Leng Jia, Shen Ting will have their own life, but also will experience everything we have experienced and finally mature, there is no perfect thing in the world, including love, if you believe in it, you have to believe that it’s flaws at the same time. The world a big dream, life a few degrees of autumn, think about from their own seventeen years old uprooted to Beijing to go to college, to now has been ten years, a person’s life, but also be able to have a few ten years, I can not always live in the old hints, things like now, love and hate as long as the clouds dissipate, my love affair with Changsha is finally completely unraveled, back to Shenzhen, I know that I will start a different kind of life, the prodigal son of the era has ended, and there are many meaningful things to do. There are still a lot of meaningful things to do, I will be very busy, will work very hard, if I meet a person I really like, I will cherish.

A school song was playing on the car radio, and when I heard the familiar tune and sentimental lyrics, I smiled softly and hummed along with the music: “Why do we have sorrow and happiness when there are no more cares in the world, why do we part when friends are as close as water, why do we reminisce when young people look at the future with a smile on their faces, and why do we cry when we are young and have no regrets?… “

We went into the airport and changed boarding passes, the waiting room wasn’t very crowded, I went in to the restroom to wash my face, and when I came out I found Liu Fang next to two pretty girls.

“Chen Feng,” Liu Fang introduced us: “Yang Mei, Qin Xiao.”

The two of them are very tall, dressed like a model of the new trend, Yang Mei svelte, Qin Xiao and Liu Fang chatting with the right kind of girl, it seems to be a very hot kind of girl.

“Don’t mention this to me,” I heard Liu Fang say: “I’m nine years short of forty, I’ve seen nothing.” Liu Fang was full of confidence, and I felt like everyone had changed so much in the past few days.

Yang Mei was making a call on her cell phone, the signal was bad, she could never dial out, she frowned in annoyance, I took the phone, stood up and walked a few steps, changed the angle, dialed and gave it back to her, “Mobile phone, you have to move to call.” I said with a smile.

Yang Mei smiled back, “Why?” She asked curiously, a little embarrassed.

“Why, to feed millet.” I laughed and joked with her.

“We can play cards on the plane, the plane can be big, and mahjong room, this is my phone, will come to Shenzhen must come to find me ah.” I heard Liu Fang was talking nonsense with Qin Xiao again.

We joked and laughed for a while when Liu Fang suddenly touched me, I looked back and Leng Jia and a guy were walking in from the entrance, the guy was wearing a suit, not hard to see.

“Hi Leng Jia, how are you!” Liu Fang and I smiled and greeted her.

“Huh, didn’t you guys go to Shenzhen?” Leng Jia was surprised, but there was no expression on her face other than surprise.

“We didn’t get a direct flight to Shenzhen, so we had to go to Guangzhou first, get off the plane and then take a bus to Shenzhen,”

I smiled, nodding my head in greeting with her boyfriend: “Welcome you will come to Shenzhen to play.”

We boarded the plane, the seats were far away from Qin Xiao and Leng Jia and they were all far away from each other, in the seat next to us against the aisle there was a girl, with an ordinary appearance, but quite good at dressing up, and her figure was quite plump, I sat down in the innermost seat against the window, and let Liu Fang sit in the center.

Outside, a porter’s truck was loading luggage into the airplane, and I watched in silence for a moment, the sunlight stinging my eyes a little, and I turned my head, staring ahead, smiling without saying a word.

Liu Fang is chatting with the girl on the side, suddenly remembered what, inexplicably turned his head, sincerely said to me: “In fact, you play to the wine song dashing appearance is really very general, you laugh and swear to give people the feeling of picking up girls is also nothing, you really have the charm of the time when you are extremely sedate, as you are now the same. “

The plane took off and rushed into the vast blue sky, I leaned back in my seat and gently closed my eyes, the past slowly surfaced in my mind, Zheng Fei, Chen Shan, Li He, Leng Jia, Su Ya, Wu Yu, Zhao Rong, Mei, Xie Hui, Shen Ting, Feng Zhe, Li Qing, Lin Mei, Zhang Qing, Xu Bing Bing, they surrounded me, their faces were sometimes clear, sometimes fuzzy, I was being pushed around in the crowd, with my mouth open, but I couldn’t say anything.

The plane lurched for a while and turned a corner, I suddenly felt a light in front of my eyes, the figures scattered and disappeared, I saw myself clearly, wearing a loose pretty white jacket and jeans, smiling and walking on the sunny street, a girl led me into a lane, damp and dark, in the corner of the suit stood wooden, the girl looked at the two of me standing together in surprise, tried to pull the younger me to scatter legs I didn’t move.

I woke up with a start, the little girl sitting in front of me was looking back at me curiously, her dark eyes were spotless, will you grow up to be a great beauty too? Will you go through what we went through? Outside the window you can see the sunlight reflecting off the wings of the airplane, the sense of life’s absurdity is inescapable, the vast sky we are fortunate enough to have flown over these three Hunan and four waters, the vicissitudes of the sea, human feelings and growth are so inscrutable.

Will I come back to Changsha? Is the story all over? I don’t know.

Once again, I turned to Park Young’s Dark Wisdom Lamp, a book I’ve been reading for eight days and seven nights.

= PASS Written in November 1990, Shenzhen, rain and wind.

Later words.

For those of you who enjoyed the story very much-. I have written it so trivially because the facts themselves are how it happened. For those who don’t like the story.

The story of this play, which is purely fictional, is coincidental.