Beijing Stories (1)

Chapter 1

It’s been three years… Three years ago, I dreamed every night that he had come back, and I always asked in surprise and ecstasy, “Aren’t you dead? You’re not dead?” Today, three years later, I still have the same dream, but now I tell myself over and over again that it’s just a dream until I wake up.

The weather in Vancouver is so pleasant, as if there has never been a time when it was as hot and humid as Beijing, but always bright sunshine accompanied by a cool breeze. When I woke up every morning, I would wonder where I was. Looking out the window at the beautiful maple leaves swaying in the wind, and at the sleeping young woman beside me, my new wife, I sighed softly and lay back down to continue my dreamy recollections… I used to be one of the sons of a high-ranking cadre of Chinese officials, but not the uneducated type. After graduating from high school, I enrolled in the Chinese department of a major university, and by the time I was a sophomore, I had already set up a small company with my friends. After graduating from college with a small loan to build a trading company, what money to do, especially in those years with the business of Eastern Europe to do a particularly hot, five years later, relying on the relationship between his father, but also relying on their own a bit of ingenuity, there has been a company with hundreds of millions of assets, the year I was twenty-seven years old.

At that time I never thought of marriage, and even have no special fixed sexual partners, I say sexual partners, because that includes girls and boys, from freshman year I began to make girls, and my first woman in bed with me I still remember very well, she is a higher than my two years of beautiful girls, eyes are not particularly large, but the eyelashes are very black and very long, high and straight little nose, so that I have the desire to bite a bite, smile two The woman’s eyes were not particularly large, but her eyelashes were very dark and long.

Our first time was at my home in my bedroom, that day we skipped school, I first excuse to send the little nanny out, and lead her to my house. She looked very excited, we first kept kissing, and then I tried to put my hand into her clothes, she did not seem to have any reaction, still devoted and I kissed, until I held both her breasts, she only slightly frowned, while gently pushing me while vaguely said no, my heart was already beating wildly, I can not control myself, her refusal is like to give me the impetus, I also I also vaguely mumbled “I love you, I will marry you” and other nonsense, I panicked to take off her clothes, I only take off the pants, lifted her legs, and hastily sent the penis in, and even sent three or four times, always not know how to do it, and finally inserted into the vaginal opening under the help of her, but it’s a pity to go in and still don’t know how to act next, it’s all over! The girl cried, not sure if she was happy or not. The girl cried, I don’t know whether she was happy or sad. I think all girls cry the first time.

Until a year later, I have been considered experienced, only to realize that I was not even her first, I am afraid that even the third or fourth can not be said. Later I kept changing the girls around me, for me to find women is no longer a problem, the problem is how to get rid of them. My heart more or less hate these women, they are always in the end, or not I do not marry the problem and I entangled, so that I have a period of time on the woman daunted. At this time the circle of an old brother introduced me to a boy, he is singing in the concert hall, I also began another new way to play.

That was the first boy I ever hooked up with. It’s been so long that I can’t remember his name, but his face is still visible. He’s very white and quite pretty, and I heard that he’s already over twenty, older than me, but he looks like eighteen or nineteen, and his only flaw is that there are a few “youthful beans” on his face. The only flaw is a few “youthful beans” on his face. We were first in his concert hall, and I ordered his songs twice. He was quite talkative, but a little shy. After he got off work, we went to his home together. Along the way, he kept chatting with me about this and that, and I was a bit passive. I could tell that he was very attentive and seemed to be testing my reaction.

His home is not bad, is a one-room flat. Furniture is also quite a lot, but cleaned up very clean, make me think of the dirty eight people a room dormitory and their own messy “kennel”.

“My parents got it for me to use for my wedding” he told me with a smile while he kept glancing over me with his eyes.

“I’ll take a shower first, the smell of raw people in the opera house is too strong, do you want to…?”

“Later!” I sounded a little less than polite. I was really trying to hide my panic.

I didn’t realize it was harder than sleeping with a girl for the first time.

It didn’t take too long for him to come out of the bathroom, wearing only a pair of underwear, with a well-proportioned body, and I also noticed that his hair was dry. It was in those few seconds that I suddenly felt as if he had changed all of a sudden, he didn’t say another word and started to gently touch me, slowly taking my shirt off and kissing me back and forth, and his hand kept groping at my crotch. I couldn’t even breathe, but I did start to get excited.

But for some reason I was still sitting very stiffly, and as if he had noticed, he stopped, raised his head and looked at me with a soft sultry look. My God, I had never been so aroused, he stirred up all my desires and feelings: loving, loving, with an urge to conquer and even abuse, I pressed him violently to the bed and ran my hands all over him, it was young male flesh, delicate, yet elastic, not at all the softness of a woman’s feeling. He helped me out of my pants, and when tugging down my underwear, my thick, engorged, ugly contraption jumped out like a flash, and he laughed, “That big?” With that, he began to work it up and down with his mouth.

I couldn’t help but close my eyes as I kept gasping for air. It was indeed so exciting, I had asked girls to help me play like that, but they seemed to be reluctant, either sucking twice and then stopping, or their teeth actually touching my cock. He was still sucking my cock up and down while his hand worked his own cock.

“I’m going to cum.” I couldn’t help but shout.

He let go of his mouth and used his hand to work his dick up and down for me and himself at the same time. I couldn’t stand it any longer, and the cum spurted out all at once. I had never felt so good – no obligation, total enjoyment.

After a little bit of concentration, I saw his “dick” is still big, a little embarrassed, but I really do not want to give him oral sex. He did not mind very much, patiently put one of my hands on the penis slowly, one of his own hand on the anus gently rubbing, he began to get excited, the muscles of the body as if shaking up and down, accompanied by moaning like a woman. My other hand also helped him by rubbing near his anus as he desperately shook his body, moaning and gasping for air until he ejaculated.

Afterward, he told me that I was the most handsome boy he had ever been with, and that none of his other “friends” had as much fun with me, even though they had great skills. For some reason, I wasn’t happy to hear that, and I felt that I had lost my innocence to these “old” women and “old” men. I thought I should make up for the loss, and I wanted to have fun. I hold this kind of playful mentality, rely on the hands of the increasing amount of money, mixed a lot of “evening family”. Until I met Lan Yu.

Like I said, at twenty-seven, I seemed to have made a name for myself and was quite untouchable. Outside of business, I was just hanging out with friends or lovers. That morning business talk is quite smooth, noon is thinking about what to do in the evening, Liu Zheng came in, he is my general manager, deputy director of the office, we are considered to be “hair little boy”.

“Hey, I didn’t look too happy when that Russian kid left today.” He asked me with a smile as soon as he walked in the door.

“He still wants to find cheap in me,  mean not  mean to do as he wishes, on his two, hum! Hey, tonight to go to the ‘Royal Capital’ bowling, you go or not?” I asked casually.

“You’re not inviting Hao Mei? She even called me this morning to say hello.”

“Forget it, no heart, you send her a bag or something for me, and stop her from calling me all day long.”

“Hey! Tired of it again?” Liu Zheng laughed a little “Seriously, two days ago I met a kid in the ‘State Street’ there, is just this year’s examination to Beijing students, seems to be desperate look, is there any interest?”

“Come on, come on, I’m not interested in men or women right now, why do you always hook up with people who aren’t clean? It’s disgusting.” I said with a smile.

“Quite innocent really, definitely out of the loop. Just turned sixteen, got into college, and I guess is short of money. He doesn’t quite  mean to tell, anyway, is waiting for money to use.”

“Maybe it’s a scammer, a civilian laborer, right? There are a lot of such scammers in Beijing nowadays!”

Liu Zheng did not argue with me any further, and talked about the newly hired Russian interpreter who was not very honest. Liu Zheng is two years older than me, but with me in the same class. From elementary school and junior high school has been the same class, high school we are still the same school but different classes, I read the arts, he read the science, he did not have my luck when he went to college, only into a municipal teacher college, after graduation, unwilling to be a poor middle school teacher, they came to me to find a meal, I naturally will not treat my old friend, although I never need physical talent, or let him do the “General Manager’s Office “Deputy Director, nothing specific work, is my eyes and ears it, but also help me find some” fun “thing. My favorite thing about him is that although he is smart, he is not unkind. And he’s not competitive, not too jealous. In addition, he is quite decent in “that” area, but tolerates my immodesty.

“Alright, that’s it, I’ll look for you in the ‘Imperial Capital’ at night.” Liu Zheng said and tried to walk outside.

“Well… if you think that boy is really good, bring him along.”

“Okay.” Liu Zheng smiled.

“What are you going to tell him.”

“Just say it’s to accompany a Mr. Chen, anyway I’ll hint at his. 1000 bucks.”

“So cheap! But it has to be clean!”

“Don’t worry, it’s definitely a VIRGIN, I’m just afraid they still think you’re unclean.”

“Fuck you.” I cursed with a laugh.

Chapter II

I’ve always liked the bowling room at ‘Royal Capital’, it’s spacious and not too crowded, especially since I don’t see the street punks. We came to play together with Weiguo and Sister Zhang, Sister Zhang is a person of influence, we have a good relationship. She saw me look toward the door and asked.

“Waiting for who?”

“Liu Zheng, and an old brother from out of town asked me to look after his son, who just got into Beijing this year.”

“You’ve taken on quite a few things.” She chuckled.

About six or seven o’clock, Liu Zheng came, followed by a boy, from a distance, not tall and not very outstanding, I felt quite disappointed at once, and cursed Liu Zheng in my heart.

“Sister Zhang, Weiguo.” Liu Zheng greeted everyone.

The boy was standing farther away and his eyes kept looking at Liu Zheng.

“This is Mr. Chen.” Liu Zheng turned to introduce the boy and I.

“His name is Lan Yu, last name, not too much.”

“Hello!” I smiled and held out my hand.

“Hello!” Bluu shook my hand a little nervously.

Just at the moment of shaking hands, he raised his eyes to look at me with a look I shall never forget, bright eyes full of melancholy, uneasiness, and doubt. He did not smile; there was not the slightest trace of that ingratiating smile which is common to me. He was not quite white, but his face was clean and very clean-cut, his nose straight, his lips closed tightly, and he seemed to have little expression. My heart raced wildly, a rush that had been long overdue.

After all, I am no longer a brat, hastily avoided his eyes, and look behind them busy playing ball Sister Zhang, they casually asked: 🙂

“Like bowling?”

“I wouldn’t.” It sounded like a northern accent.

“Northern, right?”

“Right.”

“He probably hasn’t eaten yet.” Liu Zheng whispered to me.

“Okay, it just so happens that I haven’t eaten yet either.”

“Sister Zhang, I have something to do, I have to invite my nephew to dinner, don’t let my oldest brother scold me for mistreating my nephew when the time comes, are you guys going or not, it’s my treat.” I said loudly to them.

“Never mind, go enjoy yourself.”

I always feel that there’s something in Sister Zhang’s words. It doesn’t matter.

We drove to the ‘Country Brothers’ restaurant because it had a private room that I had.

The Chinese restaurant at ‘Heung’ is large, brightly lit and gilded, it’s the Cantonese food that’s not quite as good, but it’s always tastier than Italian or French food.

“How old are you?” I asked him as we barely spoke on the way until we sat down in the restaurant.

“Sixteen, almost seventeen.”

“How come you went to school so early? I remember I was almost nineteen the year I went to college.”

“One year of school in the morning and another grade jump.” He still didn’t smile, but his eyes stayed on me in a cultured way as he spoke. The melancholy look in his eyes almost made me uncontrollable, and I was filled with visions of pinning him to my bed.

“Still getting used to Beijing, right?” I said it so quickly that the word used to was attached to it.

“Hmm?” He blushed a little, and I could tell that he was struggling a little to hear my Beijing dialect.

I laughed: “When I first came to Beijing, I didn’t understand what these people were saying, especially the Beijing men talking, dirty dirty, especially disgusting.” I put the words of my dorm mate, Fang Jian, into my own head.

His mouth moved slightly, a smile if you will, barely.

The food was barely touched in one bite, but he quickly finished two bowls of fried rice and could tell he was really hungry.

“Architecture? That’s great, I’m sure you won’t lack money to spend in the future, I used to have two friends who studied architecture, and when they were juniors, they helped other people to draw the plans, so rich that it made us poor people who studied literature red in the eyes.” While walking out of the restaurant, I made small talk with him.

“What school did you get into?” I asked again.

He didn’t say anything, his eyes were fixed on the elevator door. I was a little taken aback, it looked like he didn’t want to answer that question, did he take everything else he said seriously? In my experience, that’s unlikely.

We didn’t say anything in the elevator, but I suddenly remembered that I had brought a girl from the “outside world” here more than half a year ago, not a virgin, but a child prostitute. I had no shortage of experience with prostitutes, but it was the first time for a boy.

It was then that I noticed his clothing, dark blue cloth pants with a white crew neck undershirt, very simple and clean, except that the pants were rather short and all old. Also, I realized that he had been watching me, even if it was a very subtle movement.

When he entered the room, he looked more formal and stayed standing against the door without moving.

“Feel free to sit down, it’s a suite, it’s kind of a living room plus dining room on the outside and a bedroom on the inside.”

Lan Yu was still standing in the doorway.

I turned on the TV and casually handed him the remote.

“Let’s watch TV, there are a lot of cable programs.” I paused for a moment, my eyes staring at him: “As you like it, if you do not  want to forget it, I never force others to do things. Eat, chat, make a friend or not.” I said with a smile.

He took the remote control, his melancholy eyes fell onto my face and quickly scrambled to avoid it: “I, I’ll watch TV.”

“Suit yourself, I’ve been running around this afternoon and I need a shower.” I said going into the bathroom.

Beijing in July is humid and hot, the bright sky is also particularly long, it is already more than nine o’clock in the evening, outside the genius just dark. I was sitting alone on the sofa in my bathrobe wondering how to get this kid to hurry up and give in.

He’s in the bathroom at the moment. I asked for two glasses of wine, something sweet but strong, and put a disk of “porn” into the VCR. I’m a little nervous and excited.

He came out of the bathroom, dressed in pale orchid-colored, somewhat frumpy pajamas, (I always have brand new bathrobe pajamas on hand here) with his wet hair in the front in bits and pieces on his forehead.

“Would you like some wine, it’s very relaxing.” I said, handing him a glass of wine.

He took the drink and remained standing there with his hands full.

“Sit down.”

He sat down and seemed to sneak a sigh of relief. On the TV screen a beautiful, completely naked foreign girl was licking the pussy lips of another vigorously, and the one being licked was rubbing her big tits with both hands and wailing.

He sat motionless as if startled by something, his hands clasped tightly around his glass. I knew it must have been the first time he’d seen a porno.

“Ever had a girlfriend?”

“Ever had a girlfriend?” When he didn’t say anything, I asked again.

“No.” You could tell by the sound of his voice that he had messed up.

I looked back at him, he was very red in the face and flustered. I gently put my hand between his legs and rubbed at the crotch area. It was almost as if his body froze and he didn’t move a muscle. His cock was already hard as hell.

I turned off the TV first and he turned his eyes to look at me, bewildered with shyness. I unzipped my own bathrobe, revealing toned, smooth skin, and his eyes locked onto my body. He gulped softly as I leaned down and unhurriedly removed his pajama pants. His cock wasn’t too big, but it wasn’t tiny either, and his body had the look of a teenager who wasn’t fully developed, slightly skinny. I started to masturbate him and then laid him flat on the couch, I kept looking into his eyes and he looked at me as I tongued him and gently stroked him with my hand.

“Let me know if you’re not feeling well.”

He looked at me and wondered if he could. I know that the first time you fuck a virgin or a boy you have to be gentle and considerate, it will make them remember it for the rest of their lives, and in the future they will be obedient.

I moved my mouth slowly to his and ran my tongue over his lips. His mouth was stiff at first, but soon he began to kiss me as well. To be honest, his body wasn’t particularly appealing to me at the time, it was his clean boyhood that excited me, I guess I was narcissistic and self-pitying about my past. And the look in his eyes, that’s what I can’t forget.

I was frantically kissing him all over his face and stroking his penis, balls and anus, and he seemed to be getting into the swing of things, his eyes closed tightly and he was breathing heavily. Suddenly his hands grabbed my shoulders violently, a low male moan escaped his lips and he ejaculated. His demeanor looked quite repressed.

I kind of wanted to laugh, I didn’t think he would be so quick.

That night we fucked twice more, the second time I sucked him off and he ejaculated again. The third time he sucked me off and we orgasmed together. I didn’t ask him for anal sex. Because it was too early.

Maybe it was the wine, maybe he was too tired or too young, he quickly fell asleep. I looked at his young and handsome face, still with a childish spirit, thinking: I really have to invite Liu Zheng for dinner.

The next morning I got up very early, said at eight o’clock and construction bank credit office director together to see the governor, about a 50 million loan. See Lan Yu sleep is still very heavy, I did not wake him up, first asked for a breakfast to the room, and then left a note to the effect that: if there is anything to be done to help through the Liu Zheng to find me, and let him eat breakfast before leaving. I left two thousand dollars, more than the promised one thousand, originally I wanted to leave three thousand, but also want to later he “lion’s mouth” I’m not good at talking.

The loan is basically finalized, at noon I invited everyone to dinner. At this time, Liu Zheng called: “When you left this morning, the boy did not wake up ah?”

“Yeah, what’s up?”

“The hotel called and said a thousand dollars was left in the room with a note.”

“What note?”

“He said to take a thousand dollars, as a loan, and that he would have money to replace you in the future. He also said he’d be in touch with you again.”

I pondered for a moment, not knowing what to say.

“Okay, that’s it, I’m extra busy right now, let’s talk about it when we get back.”

Turning off my cell phone, I had a vague feeling in the back of my mind that there might be more interaction between myself and this boy.

Chapter III

Hao Mei should be regarded as a kind of white-collar beauty type of girl, she does sales management in a joint venture company. There are only two types of women I like, one is the campus girls, and the other is like Hao Mei. I hate those singers and models and so on, they want more, but the goods and not fresh, and temperament is poor. Boys I like those who play music, get painting, most of them are temporary guest, or for money, or for a moment of fresh excitement. I didn’t fuck any of the campus boys. It’s actually much harder to find boys than girls, and the high caliber ones are even rarer. Maybe that’s why I favor the latter.

What attracted me most about Hao Mei was neither her pretty and playful appearance, nor her smart and sensitive mind, but her plump and fat ass. Her ass is not flat like the average oriental girl’s, but round, thick and delicate skin, even when she walks, she puckers up. Of course I wouldn’t let her know these things, otherwise she would think I’m vulgar. I’ve been dating her for the past six months or so, and the messy gifts I buy her alone amount to eight or nine thousand dollars a month.

It wasn’t even November yet and the leaves were falling off the trees. On Sunday morning I was sleeping soundly under the covers, with one hand on Hao Mei’s white ass. The phone rang loudly, I had to open my eyes to answer the phone, it was Liu Zheng called: “I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I’m sorry.

“What the hell is wrong with you? Calling me this early.” I muttered vaguely.

“Morning? Look at what time it is. It’s almost twelve.”

“Yes?” I was a little impatient.

“Ranyu called me this morning and said he had just finished his midterms. I guess probably missed you.” Liu Zheng was also a bit nonchalant.

“┅┅”

“You forgot?”

“I know, you tell him to…” I looked at my watch: “Two o’clock, I’ll wait for him at two o’clock at the ‘hyung’.”

Putting down the phone, I was instantly aroused from the sleepiness I had just experienced, and I got up and started putting on my pants.

“Who’s calling? Are you going out?” Hao Mei lay on her back and looked at me.

“Get up, I have some urgent business this afternoon, let’s go eat first.” I said as I threw him her clothes.

“It doesn’t matter, does it?” Hao Mei asked a little uneasily.

“It’s fine, business, but I have to make a trip.”

Hao Mei didn’t ask any more questions, she knew the score.

At two o’clock, the front hall lobby of ‘Hyung’s’ was quiet, with only a few scattered tables of people chatting away. Nearly twenty past two, I saw Lan Yu walk in. He looked a little different from last time.

I signaled to him, who was looking around, and he saw me.

“Sorry to be late.” He didn’t explain much.

“How did it come about?”

“Take the bus.” His Mandarin was a big improvement.

“I don’t know all of Beijing yet and made one wrong turn.” He added.

I listened to him while sizing him up, I really didn’t expect that in just four or five months, he had grown a knot taller, and his face wasn’t as dark and thin as it had been last time, especially the demeanor on his face, which was completely free of that tense and heavy feeling, and although he still wasn’t smiling, he was smiling. But the eyes have not changed : melancholy and restless.

“You can just take a cab from now on, if I have time, or I’ll pick you up.”

He didn’t say a word.

“Do you still like it there at school?”

“It’s horrible, everyone used to be the best student and now everyone could be last.

It’s all secretly more than that.” He smiled as he said it, it was the first time I’d ever seen him really smile, it was big and still sweet.

“And don’t put too much pressure on yourself, just keep up. How’s the cafeteria? Is the food tasty?” I have the advantage of always making others feel that I care and am sincere, so I have a lot of friends and a lot of ‘look-alikes’.

“Delicious, all northern dishes, the buns are huge, it’s the noodles that are bad.”

“Ha,” I laughed: “Cafeteria noodles do not buy, all soaked. I remember I once hit half a catty of noodles at noon, and ended up going to the toilet five times, not even two o’clock on the hungry, but to be honest, I went to many schools to eat, ‘South University’ cafeteria is not bad, the worst is the ‘University of China.’ “

“I’m right here at ‘UW’.” He said with pride. The look on his face was like the truth.

I was a little surprised, was he telling the whole truth? Was he really a college student, and a good one at that? I was still skeptical. Almost to my room, I suddenly remembered something and asked, “Where did you come from? Have you eaten?”

“No,” he was a little embarrassed: “I had a tutor in the morning, and I was afraid I’d be late, so I came straight here.”

For some reason, he always surprised me a little.

We got pretty into it that time. We kept looking at each other while we ate, and if he had been a chick, I would have touched him right then and there. Hastily eaten, we can not wait to come to the room, we are a little pressed, I undress him, while coming up for air, said: “Why so long to find me, want to die.”

“School just started and classes are so busy, I always want to call you and I’m afraid…” his voice was a little shaky.

The almost frantic rush of two men making love is unmatched by heterosexuality. The zipper on his pants wouldn’t open, so I yanked it open in a single motion, and soon he was completely naked in front of me, his fine, smooth, bronzed skin full of elasticity, his broad shoulders and narrow hips, a typical inverted triangle. We kissed, stroked and orally masturbated each other. I tentatively inserted my finger gently into his anus a little, his body shivered a little but didn’t reject it, still kissing me furiously, and when my hand went in a little further he jerked away and stopped kissing, and I glanced at him, and that dream-like melancholy came back to his face. I kissed his face again, whispered in his ear.

“I really like you, and you  can do whatever you want.”

It worked and he became more aroused. I ejaculated under his oral sex, then I helped him masturbate, he also ejaculated quickly. We showered and lay down again, this time he didn’t fall asleep quickly, we started chatting, I asked him not to call me Mr. Chen from now on, just call me Defend Dong, meaning Defend Mao Zedong Thought. I gave him a little about myself, he looked pleasant and relaxed listening. I feel that there are some things that need to be clear to him earlier.

“We know each other quite destiny, but you are too small, I am a bit too much. In fact, this kind of thing is nothing in the West, but here it’s still a hooliganism offense. Anyway, this kind of thing be careful, this is only between two people, don’t tell outsiders. In addition, play this all by self , get along with together, feel bad even if.”

He listened attentively and did not speak.

“Actually, if two people get too familiar with each other to the point where they’re embarrassed to play anymore.” I laughed and said that it was sort of implied. He was kind of like one of those girls in love, and I was afraid he’d take it too seriously.

We had two more dates after that, and each time the fuck was great, just nothing new, and I really didn’t want to push him, it’s only enjoyable when both feel good. I was patient and interested in him instead. He never opened his mouth to ask me for money, and never talked about himself, and I didn’t ask. On the contrary, Liu Zheng helped me to ask him if he had enough money, and he said that this semester was no problem, and that the money from the bursary plus the two tutoring jobs was enough.

He was indeed a “natural beauty”, and grew taller, the charm of a young boy is even more, but his clothes to him a lot of color, even at that time the level of the Beijing boys are not up to. I let Xiao Min (my former boyfriend) in Hong Kong to buy a dozen pieces of that kind of clothes designed for young boys, at that time there was no foreign specialty stores in Beijing.

After we finished that day, I pointed to a pile of bags in the closet and told him they were the clothes I bought for him, and he said, “Oh,” and didn’t even say thank you. The next morning he got up at 6:00 a.m. and said he had a class at 8:00 a.m. I said I’d give him a ride, but he said no, the bus was fast. I asked him to take his clothes with him, but he hesitated for a moment, took out a pair of jeans and a jacket and put them on, saying that he would leave the rest here first. After he left, I didn’t go back to sleep. When I got to the office, I told my secretary and Liu Zheng that if there was a call from Lan Yu in the future, I should tell them that I wasn’t in. I was glad I didn’t tell him my cell phone number.

In December, because of business to go to the “Czech Republic”, I did not want to go, I hate flying, my friends say I “old-fashioned”. But that time I went, because Beijing is not interesting, Hao Mei let me completely dumped, her big ass like my childhood longing for popsicles, and later looked disgusting.

She is the kind of girl who doesn’t argue with me, but it’s much harder to get rid of her. After staying in the Czech Republic for six days, signing a contract, and settling the goods held by customs, I didn’t come back right away, wanting to have a good time there, but I was afraid of uncleanliness, which I was very concerned about. Later decided to exercise their courage, let the people with the first to go back, their own flight to Hong Kong. Until the middle of January to fly back to Beijing.

I haven’t forgotten about Lan Yu, but no one has mentioned it to me. That year’s Spring Festival came particularly late, the end of January, the company is also on edge, everyone is thinking about the holidays.

Every day watching foreign students and migrant workers carrying small bags, resistance to large bags to the station, I think: Lan Yu should also go home for the New Year.

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“I just saw Lan Yu.” Liu Zheng casually added after finishing the company’s business.

“Where?” My heart skipped a beat.

“You know that Liu Hai Guo has opened a company on a street in the North Village, right, where does that kid work?”

“Strange, he’s not coming home for the Spring Festival? He saw you?”

“No, as if it’s helping to load the machine.”

“Has he called me in the last while?”

“Holy shit, that’s twenty less.”

“What did he say?” I said, my eyes narrowing into slits as I smiled.

“Just say looking for you, nothing.” Liu Zheng looked at the way I laughed and also laughed: “You girl teasing people to play na? I thought you really tired of playing.”

“I’m going to go find the boy and tease him some more.” I laughed even harder. I didn’t tell Liu Zheng why I was “teasing him”, in fact, even I couldn’t tell myself.

Liu Hai Guo is busy, I do not know where to get a batch of waterborne computer parts busy Zhang Luo moving box assembly. I don’t bother to greet him, as soon as I entered the door, I looked around.

“Sir, want to buy a computer?” A young man greeted me warmly.

“Feel free to look around, I have some business to discuss with your boss later.”

The young man saw that I was coming and didn’t dare to talk to me any more.

“Watch where the fuck you’re going, man. Where are you going? Can you work?” A typical Beijing gangster cursed.

“It was the boss who told me to move here.” It was Ranyu who spoke, his voice was not loud, but his tone was quite hard. It was the first time I had ever seen him argue.

“Put it right there, and move this box over there as well.” Liu Hai Guo commanded.

“Stupid ass.” I heard the ruffian mutter in a small voice.

Lan Yu glanced at him, didn’t say anything, turned to get another box, suddenly he saw me, he froze for a few wonderful minutes, then smiled.

“You two unpack the boxes, there’s no way to walk with them piled up here.” Liu Hai Guo impatiently urged at Lan Yu and the other boy with glasses. He turned around and saw me standing there: “Hey! Brother Chen, what brings you here? You’re a rare guest.” Liu Hai Guo’s face instantly piled up a smile.

“Giving you business ah, want it?” I flirted with Liu Hai Guo on one side and swept at Lan Yu with the rest of my eyes. He was still busy, only his eyes were looking my way from time to time, and an excited expression appeared on his face.

After chatting with Liu Hai Guo for a while, I turned to say goodbye. This kid was a bit bewildered, not sure of my intentions, which I found amusing. On my way out the door, I gave a wink to Lan Yu and pointed across the street to my dark orchid colored ‘BMW’.

About ten minutes later, Bluu ran over and quickly got into the car.

“I was afraid you were already gone.” He said under his breath.

“I just happened to be passing through here today, running some errands, and I’m fine now.” I felt hypocritical even as I spoke. Then I asked.

“You work here? You’re not going home for the New Year?”

“I’m not going back this year with another student, his family is in Hainan and there’s not even enough time on the road to go back.”

We were both silent for a while. I spoke first and changed the subject.

“You came out to take a vacation from your boss?”

“I asked him for a vacation and he said no, I said it was an emergency and he scolded me, I said I quit my job and got out.” He said while laughing happily. I laughed too, and he added.

“Beijingers are all particularly fiery, as if they are quite marvelous, and they especially bully outsiders.”

“Are you cursing me? I’m from Beijing!” I laughed even more.

“I thought you said you got in from out of town.” He was quite serious.

I suddenly remembered a saying: “You can’t lie in front of children”, and I couldn’t help but laugh out loud, I don’t know if it’s possible.

The car just turned out of a street in the North Village, Lan Yu called me.

“Could you go to our school for a bit, I’d like to change my clothes, they’re dirty from work.”

It was an acrylic cotton jacket, very dirty indeed.

“The only way to get into the car is the south gate, do you know how to get there?” He asked.

“‘SDSU’ and ‘UW’ are neighbors, I’ve been hanging out here for four years, can I not know that.”

The campus of the University of China is also very large, but it is far less beautiful than the campus of the University of Southern China. The car parked in front of the eighth building, he has gone in, I am a little confused: he really is here to go to school, he does not lie too much, if he does not want me to know he does not say, now this kind of person is too rare. Think of yourself, nine and a half out of ten sentences are false, so what, there is no treachery is not business!

When he came out again, it was completely different, baggy jeans with a gray and blue jacket, unbuttoned, turned out collar and sleeve edges dark brown, the same outfit he’d worn away the last time.

My face had been washed, too, and the hair on my eyebrows and forehead still held moisture. I squeezed the steering wheel hard with both hands, and it suddenly felt very high between my legs.

“I can’t wear these clothes at school, they’re different from everyone else’s, and there are international students looking for me to speak Japanese!” He was a little shy and a little smug.

We kissed, masturbated, sucked each other off, and then ejaculated separately, just like before. After the end of the blue Yu lying on his side on the bed, is watching the two disk I just got from the United States to bring the gay “porn”, the two hot fuck the young man is quite handsome. I handed him a drink, he raised his eyes, looked at me and asked.

“You’re mad about the clothes, aren’t you?” The tone was apologetic.

“You think I’m a grade schooler and getting mad about something?” I smiled to cover it up.

“I didn’t mean anything else, I was afraid you’d think I was coming to you for money.”

“I didn’t even think about it that way.” He’s so pure, I don’t even know what to say.

He went back to watching TV, still lying on his side. I turned all the bedside lights to dim, and hugged him from behind, also lying on his side in the same way, my hands began to gently caress the front of his shoulders, he was fitter and much sexier than before. Then slowly slid down to the thick pubic hair in front, his cock was hard again, rubbed it for a while, full turned to both balls, and further back went the anus, my fingers stopped there and started to rub gently, got some more of my own saliva on my fingers and tried to slowly push in. His body stiffened a bit, but one hand clutched my other hand in a death grip. I had put my whole finger in and was slowly thrusting in and out. I went to his ear and asked.

“Does it hurt?”

He shook his head. I couldn’t see his face. I rolled over and took the lubricant I’d already prepared from the pillow and smeared a lot of it on my own cock, then helped him into his anus, and his muscles shook slightly.

“It’s a little cold.” I said as he still had his back to me.

I signaled for his top leg to lift a little. My cock slowly tried to push in. This position is difficult, but he has been lying like that, I can not force. My “dick” just entered a head, and then all of a sudden crooked out. The younger guy on TV was already screaming from the penetration. Lan Yu turned his face, tense with excitement. I had him kneeling on the edge of the bed with his legs apart and his shoulders pressed down, the easiest angle to fuck, especially the first time, but it looked a bit cheap. My cock started to slowly work its way in, his hands gripped the sheet tightly and there wasn’t a sound. When I was all the way in, he let out a barely audible moan as his hand gripped tighter. Fantastic! It wasn’t just the reaction of his sex organs, it was that very painful endurance of his that moved me to near madness. I wanted to thrust as slowly as I could in order to ease the pain of his first time. But my consciousness was already confused, and I couldn’t help screaming, “Ah… I miss you every day, I miss you so much, I miss you so much! It’s wonderful! It’s so fucking good.

…” I didn’t think twice about it, and I thrust as hard as I could, but even though I had enough lubricant, it was still very tight. One of my hands subconsciously touched his dick, masturbating him… “Mmm…” He made that suppressed excited sound again. Suddenly I felt my hand getting wet and slippery, and his penis was twitching violently, oh my God! He actually ejaculated before I did. And I ejaculated too…

We didn’t even shower after sex that day, leaving it dirty. Instead of falling asleep, as I always did, I wrapped my arms around him and caressed him like I would a girl.

“Does it hurt there?” I asked softly.

“Kind of!” He finished by turning his back to me and making like he was going to sleep.

“If you hate that, you won’t play like that in the future.”

“Pretty good, go to sleep.” He turned off the light.

I’m already sure he doesn’t hate anal sex, it’s just that male pride is hurt, like a girl losing her virginity for the first time, or maybe even more so than that. I genuinely like him a little bit, and anal sex is just a way of having sex, especially among gay men, does he get it?

The boy is too simple and reticent and introverted.

As the Spring Festival approached, the hearts of the employees were scattered, and I, the boss, didn’t have the heart to work. Lan Yu was with me almost every day. I didn’t always stay with him in the hotel, too regular a male companion would make people suspicious, I took him to a very large two-room apartment I had in the ‘temporary village’. He loved it and said it was more comfortable than a hotel. I often take him to play, but at that time Beijing does not have too much fun places, just in the hotel “disco”, or karaoke, bowling, wash “sauna” swimming and so on. I subconsciously have an evil idea: let him learn to enjoy, to these, he will no longer be “arrogant”.

He still tutors two students on the side. He said they were both sons and daughters of ‘UW’ teachers, and that he was embarrassed to quit when he had already agreed to do so. I didn’t agree that he should look for another job, but he hesitantly acquiesced, what was he thinking? What was he thinking? Living expenses for the next semester?

In two days it will be New Year’s Eve, and firecrackers are going off sporadically outside. He had to go to a senior’s house that day and came back late, he said he went to the post office to call his home, it was crowded and the wait was long. I dismissively told him that he could call long distance from either his home or hotel phone or my cell phone.

“I thought you were the Monkey King, popping out of a rock.” I was curious about his family.

He helplessly laughed a little: “My mother died a few years ago, I do not want to go back, that woman, is my father after marrying, also do not  mean I go back.”

“Is your dad okay?” I wanted to know more.

“Well, the family is fine, and I have a three year old sister…” He had that moving melancholy in his eyes again, and it was deep, like he was remembering something, but he never said anything further.

On New Year’s Eve, at my insistence, he came to my house. It was very risky, but I really sympathized with him. The whole family was kind to this “brother of my friend”. Especially my mom, who was always warm and welcoming. I was like her in this respect, and my two sisters were like my dad, hypocritical and indifferent. Lan Yu told me afterward that he did not expect our kind of high-ranking family is also very cozy, I told him that is because the old man is now out of power, useless. But he said I should be satisfied.

Almost twelve o’clock, the sound of firecrackers, I looked at my little sister, Lan Yu and the eldest brother-in-law together with the firecrackers, thought: if the family knows that I and Lan Yu relationship, not to kill me.

Chapter V

The spring of that year was a good thing, first of all, I made a fortune in business, and made friends with a big man, and in the future I will rely on him to do it all together, and I will have a great future. Then I met a drummer in a band.

Early has already started school, Lan Yu began to busy, usually two weeks to come to me once. Before the start of the school year, I handed him a 20,000-yuan bankbook, which he opened and looked at.

“There’s still six hundred left from that last thousand dollars.”

“You are too frugal, should spend money to spend it.” After a moment’s pause, I said: “I borrowed this money, when you graduate and work to pay me back, but it is usury ah!” I joked.

Looking at him a little reluctant  to take it, “Fuck, sick!” I cursed angrily in my heart.

That drummer called Zhang Jian, mold can only be considered okay, but the bed of kung fu is really first-class. He evening me very love , even I want him to first physical examination of this unreasonable request he also readily accepted.

He likes to wear a little light makeup before he fucks, especially a little purple eyeshadow on his eyes. I’m not really a fan, I like a man just because he’s a man and a woman because she’s a woman.

But Zhang Jian doesn’t make people sick. He also likes the dark environment, he has two sides: sometimes into the state, with a kind of gentle, teasing look at me, began to use his tongue to lick me, he was as gentle as a pool of water, with me rubbing and pinching, really enjoyable. He licked every inch of my skin, he was able to pick up my pubic hair with his tongue, it didn’t hurt at all, it was so cool, then he took my scrotum in his mouth, it didn’t touch his teeth at all, then he teased it with his tongue, and then finally he circled around to his cock, he swallowed my long, thick dick whole in a single go, he had a really thick throat. He was constantly going up and down, and every time he took my dick in his mouth, I couldn’t hold it in, so I pushed him away.

But sometimes he was wild as hell. We changed positions constantly, I rarely sucked him off, and he licked around my anus so much that I wanted to laugh. I’ve always refused to have anal sex, and I’ve hurt several of my “partners” with this kind of come-hither behavior. Luckily, Zhang Jian didn’t care, he preferred to be fucked. Every time the end of the action is always on his knees, his back to me ass up high, to meet my “dick”, then I have a kind of pleasant conquest desire: to get rid of a pussy is nothing, even the man is not a problem. I love to see the look on Zhang Jian’s face when he climaxes, he never condescends, moaning, screaming, babbling, sweating, writhing his body: I love to see his face when he climaxes, he never condescends.

“Let me die!!! Fuck me to death! Oh!” Those were his favorite words.

If his hand happened to grab me somewhere, he could choke me bloody… until he ejaculated. I felt a special sense of accomplishment.

Early in the morning, I woke up in a daze to see that Zhang Jian was looking at my body with a smile on his face, my body was covered with lipstick marks left by him last night, he especially likes to put on heavy lipstick then kiss me all over my body.

“You’re fucking sick!” I scolded with a snort.

He immediately snuggled into my arms with a pouty demeanor. He said it was great to play with me, and that he could play the drums really well. He also said that if people who play music don’t know how to play, they can’t make good music.

“Bullshit.” I scoffed inwardly.

At the end of April, I missed Lan Yu for a few days and couldn’t help but call him at his dormitory, and he answered the phone after waiting for five minutes. But he said that he had midterm exams next week and he would call me the following Saturday. I was a little disappointed. I’m not used to being rejected.

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“This position is fucking awesome, let’s try it tonight!” Zhang Jian said to me, pointing at the TV.

On “porn” one boy is down there and another is sitting on his cock with his asshole in the same direction as him. It’s a real high roller!

“I’ve seen that drum set, it’s superb! Imported from West Germany.” Zhang Jian continued his conversation, he asked me for a drum set of some kind this time, four thousand dollars. He’s asked for a lot of things before this, he wants a car, I haven’t promised him yet.

The doorbell rang, probably a dinner delivery, Zhang Jian asked for two western food, he is particularly foreign, only eat western food, and I do not know what good flavor he can eat.

“I’ll open it.” Zhang Jian put on a bathrobe and went to open the door with a big grin.

“I’m looking for Chen Deodong?” It was Lan Yu’s voice.

“Holy shit!!!” I was in a state of shock. Putting on my coat, I rushed to the door.

Lan Yu stared at me deadpan, no anger, only bewilderment. Zhang Jian glanced at Lan Yu hostilely and with a bit of contempt

Chapter VI

The hot summer is here again and business is in the off-season, but the clothing business is making good money. I had a good plan to take Lan Yu to Southeast Asia and Hong Kong, both public and private. I even talked to someone at the immigration office, and they promised to get Lan Yu a passport in three days, without having to go through his school. What pissed me off was that he told me he found a job this summer as a laborer at a construction site.

It was as hot as a fire. I couldn’t leave the house at all and hid in my room every day. The radio station reported thirty-eight degrees every day, and it was actually forty degrees. Lan Yu went to the construction site every day, from ten in the morning to ten at night. He said that he was in a hurry to meet the deadline and worked two shifts, and he did the day shift. He wasn’t white in the first place, and after a few days, he was as tanned as a black man. I couldn’t stand it any longer, and we argued again: “What’s the point of your job? Do you think you want to be a construction worker in the future?”

“It’s good to know more at the construction site.”

“How much money can there be?” I asked.

“It’s a thousand dollars for two months.”

“Hmph! One thousand dollars!” I sneered, “The ‘chickens’ in the restaurants open their mouths for two thousand more!” I blurted out without thinking. “And besides, is that human work? Twelve hours a day, outside in this heat!” I saw that he did not make a sound and then asked: “I did not give you twenty thousand dollars? Isn’t that enough?”

“I’m going to pay you back for that money. Did you think you could play with me for a few months even for twenty thousand dollars?” He was very sensitive.

I really wanted to hit him, why he is so ignorant! I really got angry: “You’re looking for a fight! You’re too much for yourself!”

He was silent for a while and raised his eyes to look at me: “You still have a lot of ‘chickens’ in ‘hyung’, don’t you?”

Days! I can’t believe he’s still holding a grudge. “It’s out of your hands!” I looked at him fiercely. Actually, Zhang Jian and I haven’t seen each other for a month.

“Then you can’t control my business!” He was kinda mean.

It just didn’t work out. He said he wanted to live at the site and I said then you should never come. So he still went back to the ‘temporary village’ every day. By the time he got home it was almost eleven, he looked exhausted, but I felt an indescribable pleasure. After a bath, I began to touch him, teasing him, although very tired, but after all, he was young and vigorous, soon excited, but after a while, he wanted to rush through. After each ejaculation, he fell asleep in a few seconds. Looking at his sleeping appearance, I do not know whether it is heartache, or resentment.

When I got home that day, I saw a bankbook tucked away in a pile of Bluewoo’s books, the 20,000 dollars I had given him, and there was no record of a single withdrawal.

“Well, Lan Yu, if you think I look up to you without taking my money, you’re not playing with you, as usual! Playing for nothing! I’m not a decent man.” I thought hatefully, I’ve never been so angry over an ‘evening family’ before.

That night he came back at ten o’clock or so with a bad face and a mess of sand cloth wrapped around one finger, which he said was scratched by glass. I ignored him and waited until he came out of the bathroom and lay down on the bed, I put my hand between his legs and rubbed it up and down.

“Defton, I’m too tired today, let’s play tomorrow!” He begged.

“I’ve been thinking about you all day!” I simply ignored his plea and continued my kiss.

He lay flat on his back with his eyes closed, letting me touch him. I saw that he was falling asleep and pushed him heavily, “Wake up, hey! Wake up, you’re too weak, right?”

He opened his eyes and I kissed him on the mouth again, he kissed me helplessly and before long his cock was hard. I straddled his face and knelt in front of him, forcing him to suck my cock, which he did quite seriously.

He saw that I wasn’t cumming.

“You come from behind.” He signaled me for anal sex.

“No, I’ll see if you can make me cum today.” I laughed and teased him.

He jumped up, very energetic, and smiled and started kissing me, making cute winks. A few minutes later, we came again almost simultaneously…

In the middle of the night, I got up to use the restroom and looked at my watch, it was after two. I washed my face, went back to bed, and rolled the sleeping Lan Yu over, lying on top of him with my whole body. He was woken up by me: “What are you doing?” Voice slurred, some impatient.

“I can’t sleep, play with me for a while!”

“Get some sleep! I have to work tomorrow.”

“It’s almost seven, and it won’t be long before we sleep.” I lied to him.

“It’s still dark!” He said as he brought the pillow up over his head, pushed me down, and went back to sleep on his back.

I got up, turned on the small TV in my bedroom with a “porno” on, turned it up loud, and lit a cigarette. I thought I was being perverse.

He rolled over a couple times and finally sat up at the noise, staring blankly at the TV. Ignoring me.

“You’re so young, you’re not as good as an ‘old comrade’ like me! It’s too bad! Are you trying to make me impotent?” I started teasing him again.

He snorted and laughed softly with a helplessly sleepy expression; he was surprisingly pliable and easygoing. I was just tossing it around mischievously, but I really got excited again. I let him lean over me to watch TV so I could stroke him easily, and once again he was flirting with me, which was a lot easier than getting a tired woman. Within a few minutes, we were both leaking.

We couldn’t sleep anymore. He looked out the window.

“It’s so dark!”

“It’s only three o’clock, go to bed! I’ll call you when it’s time.”

“You’re so…!” He laughed helplessly, and even learned a “Beijing curse”.

We chatted and watched TV until after five before falling asleep again. In the morning, I was disoriented and heard him shuffling around, very softly. The bedroom door was closed, probably for fear of waking me. I heard him closing the door softly and going out…

Lan Yu didn t come back until eleven thirty in the evening. The originally handsome face became dark and thin. He said he fell asleep on the bus and sat there until the terminal. He had to take a cab to get back. I really didn’t expect him to take the bus to work every day. I hate his stubbornness. He went to bed without even taking a shower, covered in dirt and sweat. I felt sick.

“Get up! Get up! Go take a shower! Don’t be a folkie.” I said reaching out to pull him.

He mouthed something unhappily and walked into the bathroom in a daze. He came out in less than five minutes and fell back onto the bed. As I watched his every move, a strong desire for abuse and revenge washed over me, and I finally spoke up.

“Lan Yu, I think it’s quite pointless, let’s just separate. You can also study hard and be decent. Find another girlfriend in college. Don’t come to pester me.”

He frowned slightly, lifting his sleepy eyes to look at me quizzically as he sat frozen on the bed.

“If you need money, go to Liu Zheng, he’ll give it to you.” I intended to irritate him.

His eyes were blank and overwhelmed, and he still hadn’t said a word.

“I can’t play this kind of thing for more than a year at most, we’ve been together long enough, you’re getting me bored.” I thought: it would be more fun if he lost his voice and cried or argued hysterically like a girl.

But he was still silent.

“I’m going out tonight, so pack your things away tomorrow and don’t come back in the future.” I was afraid I’d burst out laughing in amusement, and without daring to look at him again, I pushed my way out the door and closed it heavily behind me.

It was so hot outside, but I was quite happy that the grievances of the past few days were finally out of the way. I drove aimlessly along the newly rebuilt ‘Sixth Ring Road’, the more I walked, the heavier my heart became.

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“He’s still working at the construction site.” Liu Zheng told me. I asked him to inquire about Lan Yu for me.

“Fuck! This kid is so rare.”

“Forget it, deferred east, if a girl is more or less, you are not a waste of feelings!” Although I did not tell Liu Zheng specifically about these things, he can guess a few points.

“Who’s feeling with him! I’m the one who doesn’t feel like laying this kid out.” I laugh, purposely saying it in a flirtatious tone.

“It’s not easy to get rid of him, send him a car and go to the United States to have some fun. If that doesn’t work, we’ll find a group of people to shake him up and see if he’s still even!” Liu Zheng was amused by his own joke and made to laugh.

Since Lan Yu left, I neither stayed in the ‘temporary village’ nor did I want to stay in a hotel, but went home for a few days. My not-so-happy expression was probably seen by my mom. That night Dad had gone to meet a war buddy, my little sister had gone on a date, and my mom and I were the only ones left at home. I was chewing on my mom’s cucumber in oil.

“Xiao Dong, why did you remember to come home to stay these two days?”

“I miss you and Dad!” Ever since I grew up, I’ve never had a serious conversation with my mom. It’s all about making the old lady happy.

“Did that girlfriend blow it?”

“No, couldn’t get rid of it.”

My mom smiled, knowing that her handsome and wealthy son had no shortage of women.

“I heard from Sign that you have a girlfriend with a good last name.”

“Yeah! Still stalking me.”

“Zhang Haihong came to you again yesterday, that girl is good, her father is going to be promoted again this year, and may be in charge of the foreign trade and economic cooperation that side.”

“Why are you always in love with that ugly girl? I don’t want to buy my way out of it, there are plenty of nice girls out there.”

“You can find whoever you want, just don’t put it off any longer, it’s time to get over it. It’s good to have a home of your own, like Xiaozheng.” My mom said, and went back to the kitchen to direct the maid to work. I thought about my mom’s words: ‘Whoever you want’? If I went to Lan Yu, she’d be furious.

More and more, I felt that what happened with Ran-woo was too ridiculous, too outrageous. I even thought of a ridiculous word: “in love”. I can’t be so ridiculous as to fall in love with a boy. I’m sure I’m a very normal man, just too much fun. Luckily, it’s good for him and for me to part ways like this.

And yet I can’t help but think of him.

Chapter VII

Lan Yu thing makes me upset, but the business thing more headache: a batch of imported cars smashed hands. Because of the policy, I have to get rid of it before next year’s Spring Festival, and I have to sell it even if I lose money. Saturday noon, I was about to go out, Liu Zheng told me that Lan Yu a week did not go to the construction site.

It’s been almost two weeks since we last broke up. At first I was surprised that he was still working at the construction site, and he could really handle it. But now that he suddenly stopped, I was a little confused. It was almost dusk when I decided to call his school. Maybe it was because of the vacation, I waited for a long time before someone answered the phone, and then waited for another ten minutes, and the result was that no one was living in Room 815, and they had all gone home for vacation. That night I had agreed to meet some clients, guys who wanted to buy a car. I changed my mind on the fly, I had to make a trip to the ‘UW’.

Into the eighth building, a stench greeted me, really a long-forgotten smell, I remembered my college days, that is the boys dormitory public toilet from the unique stench. The light is a little dark, I followed the number to find the “eight one five”. I knocked a few times, but no one answered. I knocked a few more times, but there was still no sound. A little disappointed, I casually twisted the doorknob and was about to turn around and leave when I realized that the door was unlocked.

The room was dark and silent. By the light of the moon, I saw that the room was full of eight beds at the top and bottom and a long row of tables in the center. Suddenly I noticed what appeared to be a person lying on one of the lower bunks by the window. A strong feeling of fear came over me, and I was almost afraid to go forward.

“Ranwoo! Ranwoo!” I tried, calling out sharply twice, with no reply.

I was even more terrified. I had to desperately suppress my fear as I walked over to the bed. It was him, and although it wasn’t particularly clear, I concluded that it was Lan Yu. I had never been so scared in all my life. I calmed myself and reached out to touch his face, and instead of being cold as I thought it would be, it was rolling hot.

I found his hand again and felt his pulse, weak and rapid. I could hear him breathing, he was alive, I breathed a sigh of relief. I wanted to pick him up, but I couldn’t. I rushed down the hallway and shouted, “Anyone? Is there a student to help?”

“What’s going on?” From one room two heads poked out at the same time.

“Do me a favor, a classmate needs to be rushed to the hospital.” I said.

They were helping me set up Ran-woo while talking to each other.

“How many word classes is this?”

“It’s from ‘Build A’, his name is Lan Yu, and he didn’t come home this year either.”

“Oh! That’s the one dressed like a Jap, he seems to have relatives in Beijing?”

“As if there was, the man is not a talker, not much to go on.”

“Are you his family?” One of the boys asked me.

“I’m his brother.” I didn’t have the heart to listen to their arguments.

It was already past nine in the evening, and the emergency room of the ‘Third Hospital’ was still crowded. A young, pretty, female intern doctor with glasses was examining Lan Yu.

“Why did you send it so late?” The little doctor said in a thin, disgruntled voice. It sounded so hopeless.

Looking at Lan Yu’s tightly closed eyes and dry, cracked, white lips, I really couldn’t restrain myself, and I grabbed one of his hands, my eyes reddening.

The young doctor gave me a strange look, which I had to hide.

“This is my brother. If he dies, what will I tell my parents?”

The young doctor quickly understood and sympathetically told me that he was probably in a coma with a high fever caused by suppurating tonsils and was severely dehydrated. As she spoke, she swept her eyes over Lan Yu’s handsome, though extremely emaciated, face.

It was a sleepless night. I stayed by Lan Yu’s side all night, constantly rubbing him with alcohol and physically cooling him down. I watched his expression, listened to his uneven and rapid breathing, and watched the IV drip. The little doctor was very responsible, taking Lan Yu’s temperature every half hour. It wasn’t until after five in the morning that the little doctor smiled and said that the temperature had dropped to thirty-eight degrees and was not in danger. I was so relaxed that I felt so sleepy that I couldn’t open my eyes…

He was so young that by noon the next day he was sitting up and hungry for food. I got him from the hospital observation room to the ‘temporary village’ in the afternoon. I turned down the air conditioning and made him drink a large glass of water before laying him down and tucking him in. I told him to get plenty of rest and sleep some more. I felt his forehead and it was cool. I clutched one of his hands and sat on the bed to read a sketchy agreement Feng Yi Kuan (one of my assistant managers) had given me about thirty imported cars, the result of their battle the night before.

Ranu was lying flat on his back, and after a few minutes he turned around and faced me. I felt his hand on my cock and he rubbed his foot against my leg.

“Stop it! Sleep well!” I laughed at him fiercely.

Not only did he not stop, he ran his hand up and down my dick.

I looked down at him and he was smiling at me.

“Why are you being a hooligan?” I smiled back at him.

He got the better of me and started to sheathe my cock.

I grabbed both of his hands violently, lifted them up, spread them apart, pressed them firmly against the pillow, and rolled over on top of him. This position is a bit of a rape.

“Where are you looking for death? You’re asking for it, don’t blame me!” I laughed, my eyes locked on him.

He had that mesmerized look again, but with more delight: “What do you want?” There was a manly tease in his voice.

“I want to fuck you!!!” I said fiercely as I leaned down and kissed him on the mouth, very roughly…

He rarely made a sound when he made love, and the more excited he got the less he spoke, just panted sharply. Perhaps because he had recovered from a major illness, this time he was almost out of breath.

I kissed his face, I kissed his neck, I kissed his chest, I kissed his pubic hair, I kissed his… I grabbed his back with both hands, I parted it roughly, and I quickly buried my head and licked him…

His hand went into my hair, grabbing at it haphazardly, and I had a pleasant twinge of pain.

I signaled him to turn over and lie on his side with his hips arched and his upper legs slightly raised. My hand touched his anus, and as my hand moved, he gently twisted his body and added his tongue to my arm. He turned his head, his mesmerized eyes observing my expression…

I knew I shouldn’t have anal sex on him, who was still weak, this time, but my desire had long since overwhelmed the thought.

…I dabbed enough saliva and slowly pushed my prick into…

I lay down on my side at the same time and wrapped my arms around his shoulders and then my entire skeleton around his upper body as I held him in a death grip with all my strength. I started thrusting my lower body and he actually moved his lower body slightly in response to my movements. This is the only anal sex position he likes, and probably this one doesn’t embarrass him.

I grabbed one of his hands and said.

“Try not to ejaculate or you’ll be too consumed.”

“No way!” He didn’t listen to me in the slightest; he was completely lost in sexual madness.

With my thrusts and his own masturbation, we both ejaculated… He looked exhausted, lying motionless on the bed, desperately gasping for breath. But the spirit was so good.

In the bathroom, I laid him down in the tub and gently scrubbed him. We talked about the little girl doctor.

“That girl couldn’t stop looking at you, it was kind of ‘interesting’.” I teased him.

He looked unimpressed: “She’s so old!” As if remembering something, he continued, “In the hospital, she told me: ‘When you were in a coma, your brother was about to cry’.” He spoke with a bit of childlike smugness, and his eyes were intentionally staring at me, as if to see my reaction.

I avoided his eyes and smiled to myself. My heart was a little sour: he was so easy to satisfy!

It’s true that he doesn’t want much, but it’s what I’m most afraid to give.

My relationship with Ran-woo has entered a whole new state. He will be starting school in a little over a week, and although I’m distracted by business, I’m still spending a lot of time with him. He began to accept my money and my gifts with pleasure, but my feeling was: he was making me happy.

He never mentioned the day I kicked him out or how much it hurt him…

I finally found a “sucker”, an acquaintance of sorts, who bought all my tricky cars. “I don’t like to do this kind of thing, but sometimes I have to do it. I accidentally told this story to Lan Yu, he said mockingly: money can make people crazy.

The bells of the New Year rang out in the midst of my revelry in bed with Ranyu, and in my excitement, I vowed that I would always be with him and no one else. But I didn’t keep that vow.

It was a remarkable year, both for me and for the whole country… Chapter 8

On February 16th, I got a call from my little sister.

“Brother! Dad is dying! You come quickly!” My little sister sobbed.

“When? What’s going on?” I couldn’t believe that two days ago he had called me out for not doing my job.

“He was fine last night, but in the wee hours of the morning Mom realized Dad wasn’t going to make it!” My little sister cried harder.

Two days later, my father passed away, he died of a cerebral hemorrhage. Before I, his eldest and only son, could cry for him, I was busy with his affairs. My father had been an influential figure anyway, and I was exhausted from the memorial service, condolences, sympathies… I had no time to spare. My mom, who was twenty years younger than my dad, had aged so much in a few days that I had to stay at home every day to give her some comfort.

It was a weekend when Lan Yu called and asked me if I was coming back to the ‘temporary village’, I did want to avoid the sad atmosphere at home and I told him I would come over in the evening.

I opened the door and saw Lan Yu sitting on the sofa reading a book. When he saw me come in, he put down the book in his hand and looked at me with concern and asked.

“Is our mom better these days?” He used to call my mom ‘Auntie’ and I told him that buddies in Beijing call each other’s mothers ‘our mom’.

“Not bad!” I said listlessly.

“Come on, go out and get some dinner.” I added.

“Forget it, I bet you’re not in the mood. I’ll buy some deli food and just eat at home!”

I saw so many paper packages on the dining table, and there was actually a case of ‘Yanjing’ beer on the floor. He is so meticulous.

I grabbed a beer and laughed: “We tossed it around in college.”

“It’s still the same.” He smiled back.

After a few drinks, I felt as comfortable as I had ever felt in days. My dad was always on my mind, he did die so suddenly.

“In the past, the old man always had a tense face, and I felt comfortable without him at home. But now I feel really cold.

“I said, as if to Ran-woo or to myself.

“I didn’t like him when I was growing up. He used to lecture me and hit me, and he didn’t know where to hit me… I grew up, and he was much better. He still talked to me, but I didn’t care for him… I remember that year when I got into the University of the South on my own, he was so proud of himself that he got drunk, and said that of all his buddies, his son was the only one who got into the University himself… I never thought he was nice to me, but now that I think about it, during the years when I started my business, the Master helped me a lot…”

I took a sip of wine and glanced at Lan Yu, who was listening intently. He was the best listener, so I went on: “Before he died, his eyes suddenly opened, and I think it was a flash of light. He looked at all of us, and finally he looked at me, and he must have wanted to say something, but he couldn’t, and in his heart he probably really liked me…” I got a little excited and couldn’t go on.

After a long time, I heard Lan Yu whisper.

“I don’t think he was too sad when he died, with our mom, you and your two sisters by his side. He should have been content…” he paused for a moment, “My mother had no one with her when she died, and she took a bottle of sleeping pills by herself…”

I looked up at him, it was the first time he talked about his mother’s death, she killed herself, no wonder he never talked about it. He had a strange look on his face, though sad, but with indifference.

“Although my parents live in the Northwest, neither of them are from there, my mother is from Hangzhou, and my father is from the Northeast…” so he looks both like a northern man’s silhouette and a southern man’s clean cut, I thought as I looked at him.

“They were all teachers at the ‘IIT’. My family was always good when I was a child, and my father especially loved to play. He always took my mom and me to play, he taught me to play the erhu, took me stamp collecting, and did arithmetic application problems with me, I had finished my second year of elementary school by the time I finished elementary school, and it was all because he taught me. My mom didn’t like to talk, she was nice to everyone. I’ve never heard them fight before, the only time was when my mom said my dad was macho and didn’t help at all with the housework, but then she laughed at my dad and said ‘I’m ignoring you’.”

He said and smiled sweetly. He took another sip of his drink.

“With the reform and opening up, my father was considered one of the first intellectuals to jump into the business world, as if he had developed a wind turbine and was employed by a township enterprise. Our family became the richest on campus, we were the first to have refrigerators and color TVs, and the whole campus envied us…” I could already guess how this story would end, there were many such things nowadays.

“My father was not like you businessmen, he didn’t know how to play, and when he did, he got serious. I met that woman before my mother died, and she was actually very pretty, but to me she looked ugly… I was twelve years old and insensitive to what was happening in the family until my mother had a stroke. The doctors said she was too young for that at just forty. I went to the hospital every day after school to see her; my father rarely went.” Bluu had been visibly drunk or he wouldn’t have said so much. I didn’t urge him to stop, it was too rare an opportunity.

“She was actually fine, discharged from the hospital, but she still died. She left a very long letter addressed to me and to my father: she hated money, she said it made people cold, selfish and heartless. She said that the most precious thing to her was her feelings, and that she would rather be broken than be broken.” As I listened, my heart couldn’t help but shake.

“She instructed me to study hard, and in the future, I must get out and leave the environment of the ‘University of Technology’, she wanted me to stand on my own two feet, and wanted me to be a man of the heavens and the earth in a dignified manner.” Lan Yu said this, suddenly stopped, slightly reddened eyes stared at me. It was as if I saw resentment.

“It’s simply not possible anymore.” He lowered his head, holding his glass with one hand and playing with the cap of a bottle with the other. He went on to say.

“My mother must not have realized that not even a year after her death, my father’s ‘business’ was in tatters and he even lost his savings. But he and the woman were already married and had a girl.

He went back to work as a college teacher, and everyone laughed at him: he forced his wife to die and became poor again. I think they were laughing at me too…”

“That woman was nice to me at first, then very bad. When I was in my senior year of high school, I did practice tests every day in school, and the teacher asked for money to pay for the printing, for which she had a big fight with my father, saying that she didn’t have the money. Then I got into ‘UW’ and she couldn’t tolerate me anymore, she told me that my family was in trouble and that her and my father’s salary was only enough for food. My father doesn’t care about anything but indulging in Go, he’s already an amateur sixth dan” Lan Yu smiled helplessly and poured another glass of wine.

“Drink less!” I discouraged.

He didn’t pay any attention to me, then said: “I borrowed a hundred dollars from an uncle who lives in Hangzhou and came to Beijing, and then I met Liu Zheng, and met you.” He said and looked at me, and smiled at me, meaningful.

“Fuck, why am I so unlucky?” He suddenly cursed hatefully. I wasn’t sure if that was in reference to his parents or meeting me.

“Stop drinking, you’ll get drunk if you drink any more.” I said as I took his glass away.

“It’s okay, I’m not drunk.” He stood himself up and held onto the wall to go into the restroom.

When he came back, he lay down on the sofa and looked at me with a charming look and asked.

“Want to have some fun?”

I shook my head: “No mood.” I was indeed in no mood.

“No one’s been this nice to me since my mom died.” He muttered to himself again.

I think that must mean me!

┅┅

Strong sunlight came in through the window  and lit up the bedroom so brightly. It was already eleven in the morning and we were all awake.

“My head hurts, I really drank too much last night.” He said.

“No, you’ve been pretty sober.”

“That wine was supposed to be for you, and I ended up getting drunk backwards.” He smiled in embarrassment.

I didn’t take his words. I scrutinized him from the side, looking at his thick dark eyebrows, bright eyes and long lashes.

He noticed my eyes and turned to look at me, asking.

“What’s wrong?”

“It’s okay. Look at you.” I said.

“Sick!” He said with a little blush and a smile, totally like a Beijing boy.

“I’m sick, I’m really sick!” I said as if to myself.

He looked at me and then came over and kissed me lightly on the mouth, we kissed delicately and gently, he looked at me from time to time as he did so. He left my mouth and began to suck me off. I closed my eyes and felt the dream-like swoon…

“Defendon.” He called me softly.

I opened my eyes and saw that he was looking at me quizzically; it must have been my unusual demeanor that made him strange.

“Go on!” I encouraged him, closing my eyes again.

He continued to perform oral sex on me. After a while, I asked him to come closer to me so that I could also suck his cock… Within a few strokes, he ejaculated.

I still hadn’t cum. He had a guilty look on his face and was going to continue sucking my cock when I stopped him. He laid down, his body pressed against mine, and he was imploring me for anal sex.

I wrapped my arms around him from behind and said I didn’t want to cum, I just wanted to hold him like this.

He didn’t say anything. We stayed like that for a long time…

I really don’t want to have sex. I was thinking about what he said last night, he was getting more and more confused afterward and said a lot of things about how he was afraid of the teachers and classmates around him and that they would see what was going on with him. He said he only relaxes when he’s with me. He said he was hopeless…

He shouldn’t blame me, if I was the one who dragged him down in the first place, then this time, I’ve been dragged down by him too. I admit it!!!

I thought of my dead father and my grieving mother…

Chapter 9

It was indeed an uneventful year. On April 15, Lan Yu excitedly told me that they had gone on strike and hunger strike.

“What are you doing? You’re tired of the good life, aren’t you!” I said to him disdainfully.

“You were a college student once upon a time, you should have a sense of worry too.”

I couldn’t help but laugh at his innocent words.

“If you are really worried about the country you should study hard, and us, do business.” I was teasing him.

“It’s people like you who are the country’s assholes!”

“This is thanks to the fact that it’s not the ‘Cultural Revolution’, if it were the ‘Cultural Revolution’, you wouldn’t have pulled me out and paraded me around.” I said to him with a smile while driving the car.

He smiled back, and then worriedly asked.

“Is this messing around affecting you?”

“Yes, if I can’t do business in the future and have no other skills, then won’t I have to beg on the streets!”

“I feed you!” He smiled smugly.

“Forget it! I’d rather go begging.” I paused for a moment, and added in a more serious tone: “You don’t want to go too deep, there are times of bad luck. Look at the ‘Cultural Revolution’, there are a few good end.”

“I wouldn’t, I’m not even in the Jedi Order, I’m kind of on the outermost periphery.”

At that time, most students were in the midst of the “revolution”, but a few took the opportunity to do their own thing. Lan Yu said that the “TOEFL school” (those preparing for the TOEFL exam), the “mahjong school” (those playing mahjong) and the “butterfly school” (those in love) were the biggest beneficiaries of the “revolution”. I told him he was in the butterfly and mandarin duck school, but he said he wasn’t. He was in the serious relationship school. He must have thought we were having an illicit affair.

It didn’t matter what we counted together anymore, what mattered was that we were together almost every day. School had been completely shut down and he had nothing going on, all I did besides having fun with him in bed was take him to restaurants, I would be careful to change places often. I knew a few GAY places, but I never took him there, he was like a flawless piece of jade, I was afraid that someone else would leak their fingers. Once we went to a “three accompanied” concert hall, I deliberately find a young, innocent-looking girl to accompany him, but the whole night he looked a bit formal. After going out, I asked him with a smile.

“What’s wrong? Scared?”

“No, it’s not fun, I don’t like it!”

“You should practice being with girls, otherwise how will you find a wife in the future?”

“┅┅”

I know him well enough by now that his silence is often a sign of unhappiness: “You’re young now, you’ll think about these things in the future.” I added.

“Why do we have to get married? Aren’t we fine the way we are!” He said.

I smiled weakly and didn’t make a sound.

“Do you want to get married?” He asked me suddenly after a long pause.

“I’d like to! Maybe I’ll find a wife in a couple days!” I intended to tease him.

It was midnight and we were standing in a dark, silent parking lot. There was no one around. In the darkness, I couldn’t see his eyes clearly, but I could already feel his sad, frightened eyes.

“Defiant East, I’m at my wit’s end!” He whispered.

We stood close and I hugged him fiercely, tightly. “Me too”, I thought to myself. I was going crazy for him… I was thrilled at the smell of him… I pressed my mouth to his, and I kissed him furiously… It was the first time we kissed and hugged outside, in a public place… Unfortunately, there was no bright sunshine, just a long dark night…

On June 3rd, just as I stepped through the door of the office, I received a call from Cai Ming, who mysteriously and excitedly told me that he was going to make a move at night. The accuracy of his information was ninety-nine percent. I also felt that it was long overdue.

Towards the afternoon I got another call from my mom, she wanted me to never go out tonight, I laughed and asked her why would I want to go out? I didn’t want to stir up trouble either. Putting down my mom’s call, I called the ‘temporary village’ and told Lan Yu not to go out in the afternoon and to wait for me to come home. But two hours later, he told me on the phone that the situation was urgent tonight, he was going to go to the ‘Great Front Door’ with a classmate, I was anxious: “You absolutely can’t go out tonight!”

“We’ll just go check it out, and we’ll be back tonight.”

“No way! I’m telling you, something is definitely going to happen tonight!”

“How do you know?”

I was so annoyed that I had to patiently explain to him, “It’s 100% accurate, so don’t ask!”

“Then I must go!” He said becoming excited.

“What the hell is wrong with your brain?!!!” I started to get nervous.

“I’ll be back by ten. I’ll be careful!” His mind was made up. I wondered why he was so stubborn sometimes.

I dropped everything I was doing and drove back to the ‘makeshift village’ at a gallop, but he was gone.

“That’s the ‘good’ thing about liking a boy!” I thought anxiously and exasperatedly.

I drove around Beijing in my car, everywhere was chaotic and full of tension. It was eleven o’clock in the middle of the night, and I was tiredly sitting in front of the campus of the University of Heaven, with the international song and the national anthem playing on the loudspeaker, and the voice of a very provocative girl constantly ringing out, asking everyone to go and show solidarity with the ‘Daqianmen’. The air was full of humidity, and there was not a single star in the sky, making it extremely depressing. I kept calling the Temporary Village, but there was no answer.

I had to go back to the ‘temporary village’, and instead of going into the house, I sat on the cliff of the road, which was a mandatory route into the ‘village’. I kept smoking one cigarette after another. I hadn’t eaten a thing since the afternoon, but I felt nothing… I was desperate as I saw that the sky was about to dawn. I couldn’t help but mutter to myself.

“Ran-woo, Ran-woo…”

“I have to get out, dead or alive!” I thought this and prepared to go start the car.

In the distance, a man half-walking, half-running came this way, it was Ranyu, and I didn’t need to look to know that feeling.

His white clothes were dipped in blood, and even his face was speckled with blood. I was so shocked that I couldn’t say a word…

“It’s just fascism, it’s animals!” He cursed indignantly.

“What’s wrong with you?” I had been stupid.

“I’m fine.” He said while looking at his clothes: “It’s all someone else’s blood!”

When I heard that, I felt dizzy…

He was walking back from the Bekka, and he kept telling me what had happened: “When the first shot was fired, everyone ran backwards, and I was on the ground. When the shooting stopped, I saw a man at the front door who hadn’t moved, so I went to pull him out, but I grabbed him with a handful of blood… There was a girl beside me, but she was so scared that she didn’t move… I tried to pull her away, but she was so scared that she didn’t move. When the shooting started again, I jumped on top of her and pinned her down…”

As Ranu narrated, my mind was a bloody picture. I looked at him… I could hardly imagine that the submissive, refined, mercurial man had gone to protect others in the midst of gunfire.

We were so excited that we couldn’t sleep, even though we had been nervous all night. He lay in my arms: “I thought I was going to die and not see you again.” He said.

“Humph! You’re really selfish too, I almost went to the ‘Great Front Door’, that is, if you don’t die I’m afraid I’ll have to die too!”

“Do you really like me so…?” He said the word “like” very softly, as if he was ashamed to say it.

“I hate you! I want to kill you!” …

Having just said goodbye to the fear of death, we began to touch each other. We were both using each other’s flesh to prove that the other was still alive. I rubbed my face against his sexy skin, it was hot and alive, I still had him! He rubbed me the same way and looked up at me from time to time, he loved it. His beautiful eyes were filled with infinite intoxication. He stopped and knelt on the carpet, and I got off the bed and walked over to him. He put his hands around my hips and sucked my cock with his mouth… I grabbed him by the hair and looked at his vivid face, and there was only one thought in my head:…

“I can’t lose him! I can’t! I can’t!” I almost shouted. I smoothly pressed him to the ground and took his face in my hands. I looked into his eyes∶

“I love you!” I uttered what I had never said to any woman before, in what I considered to be very meaty words.

I spoke naturally. It was the only language I could think of… We were once again in the throes of love…

It was love, not just sex. No matter what the world thinks, I really did feel it once, and I still get excited when I remember it.

My love is visible and audible, but Ranyu’s love, I can only feel.

Chapter 10

From June to September, Lan Yu was even more idle with nothing to do. He asked me to help him find a job to do, saying that it was not for the sake of money, but only to have more practical experience. I agreed to this on the condition that he went to driving school to learn how to drive. He got a lot of design and drawing work from my friends in the construction company, and he became busier than me again.

The day he got his license, I gave him a Lexus as a gift. When he accepted, he smiled and said, “That’s great!” And that was it.

My business was in bad shape, and there were “sanctions” everywhere, but I didn’t care because everyone was the same, it was temporary. But then, to add insult to injury, there was a fire in a warehouse and all the small home appliances worth more than 7 million dollars were burned down. Liu Zheng has an unshirkable responsibility.

While chatting, I told Lan Yu that I was going to fire Liu Zheng.

“Is it worth it? You’ve been friends for so many years.” He said to me while looking at a rendering he had just finished.

“He’s gone too far, tearing me down when he knows this is the worst of times!”

“It’s not like he’s directly responsible.” Lan Yu was still tinkering with the drawing. It was a pen-and-light-color drawing of a building, that’s what he told me.

“I knew beforehand that there was a problem on the circuit in that warehouse and told him to get an electrician to fix it.”

“Didn’t you say he’s had a very sick child for the past two days? He must have been busy and confused.” Lan Yu had always been forgiving.

“That’s his own business, who’s going to make up for my loss? I’m doing him a favor by not suing him!”

“You businessmen can be so unfriendly.” He chuckled.

“The mall is all about profit, not friendship. Learn from it!” I had a lecturing tone.

“What about outside the mall? What about friends?” He casually asked again.

I didn’t say anything. I don’t know.

“You just can’t make up for the damage by firing him. He’s quite nice. If you spare him this time, he’ll be grateful! … I’m fucked! It’s bad! … “It’s as if he’s smudged a piece of the painting…

I didn’t argue with him any further, I did think about what to do about it. I gradually felt that Ranwu was having a big impact on me, but he hadn’t changed at all, he was still the same as he was when I first met him, except that he was taller and more handsome, and more skillful in bed.

With a soft knock on the door, Liu Zheng entered my office. He used to not knock.

After a moment of silence, Liu Zheng opened his mouth first.

“Dong Dong, please stop, I know I’m responsible… I’ve saved a few tens of thousands of dollars over the past few years working for you, even if I have to pay for the company’s expenses… I only ask you one thing, don’t take back the house yet, you know my brother is living with my parents, and I can’t go back there either. When I find a place… either Shi-Ling and Xiao Wei…” Liu Zheng also lived in a flat in the ‘temporary village’, and like my flat, it was in the company’s name.

He said it the hard way, and for the first time it was so awkward between us.

I interrupted him: “Now is the company’s most difficult time, already business is not doing well, this fire burned even more trouble, it is difficult to maintain.” I intentionally exaggerated.

“I’ve asked Xiao Zhou to type up a notice that Zhang Ming and Zhang Shunguo are both fired. They are directly responsible.” I paused for a moment and then said, “As for you, I’ll deduct your salary for three months, you’ll work for me for three months for nothing, I’m hoping that you’ll learn a lesson. This matter will not be spread in the company, I directly let the financial deductions.”

Liu Zheng’s expression looked a bit surprised.

“How’s Wei doing?” I asked again.

“The fever hasn’t gone down yet! It’s been almost two weeks.” He frowned.

“I’ve got someone to talk to the head of internal medicine at the ‘pediatrician’, you’ll have to hurry up and get the kid transferred this afternoon, that little hospital won’t do.”

Liu Zheng looked at me even more blankly and said, “That’s Shiling’s contract hospital, I’m afraid I won’t be able to transfer.”

“It doesn’t matter, just transfer yours, the company pays for the expenses in the ‘pediatrician’, why do you still think about this?

Wouldn’t it be a shame if something happened to the kid if he really got burned out?” I said to him gruffly.

He didn’t look up and didn’t say anything. I said again.

“You must also be busy these days, I don’t ask you to go to work on time, from eight o’clock in the morning to two o’clock in the afternoon, you can just keep an eye on it for me, and I’ll keep an eye on it for the rest of the time. Now that people are on edge, I don’t feel at ease with others.”

He didn’t look up half the time. When he raised his head, I saw red, moist eyes. He was speechless.

“Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â All right! Then I’ll go.” He turned and opened the door and went out.

I put up a debt of gratitude, which was taught to me by Lan Yu. I didn’t realize that after four years or so, I’d get it back at an interest rate many times higher.

Winter came again and there was a heavy snowfall. Liu Zheng invited me to his house for Sichuan hot pot and asked me to bring Lan Yu. It was a wonderful evening.

Lan Yu also quite a child’s edge, Xiaowei quickly and he got acquainted, but also pulled him to his room, to show Lan Yu he got the “little red flower”. Liu Zheng watched them enter Xiaowei’s room and said to me, “It would be nice if he were a girl!” I know what Liu Zheng said is true, I do not blame him.

“If he was a girl, I wouldn’t want him.” I intentionally said in a joking tone, “I really think he’s interesting.”

“This is normal, not to mention that this kid is really nice, it’s just raising a cat or a dog, there are still feelings after a long time!” Liu Zheng kindly explained for me. He couldn’t understand my feelings for Lan Yu, he would never understand.

“But you boys are amorous, too!” He added with a grin.

Liu Zheng’s wife, Shiling, is from Sichuan and used to be the flower of a famous school, but she actually “married” Liu Zheng. Sometimes when I see them in love, I almost envy them. She is very well educated, warm and decent. She must know about Lan Yu, but she did not have that kind of curiosity, scrutiny, or sympathetic attitude, no matter what she thought in her heart, on the surface she was like an ordinary friend to him. Late at night, Xiaowei had long been asleep, the four of us were drinking and chatting, we were all a little drunk, I habitually grabbed Lan Yu’s hand on the table and put it on my lap, I clutched his hand and talked to everyone, none of us minded this, it was a kind of recognition that had never existed before, we no longer needed to cover up or hide, everything was so natural and harmonious.

But it was still snowing outside…

“On May Day and the school festival, Lan Yu had almost a week’s vacation, and his and my trip to Southeast Asia finally came to fruition. We had a great time. No one knew us. We could even show a hint of intimacy on the street. I always thought that regular change of sexual partners would be interesting and exciting, but I never thought that having a regular partner would be equally happy, even the strong possessiveness and jealousy was exciting.

Once in a restaurant, I went to the restroom, and when I came back, I saw Ranu gazing at a rather handsome Singaporean lad. I walked over and gave him a hard slap on the head. He was very embarrassed. I told him I would never allow him to like anyone else, not even for a glance, or I would kill him. He blushed like hell and didn’t say a word for half a day. Later, the whole night he was pleasing me.

He is actually much more sensitive and critical than I am, and it’s getting worse. If he sees me talking to other pretty young boys or girls, he becomes serious and silent and I have to coax him. Also if I want to be a little “cheating”, I do it very carefully and discreetly, and I can never let him find out. I don’t complain about this.

I had Ranu as a regular partner, but I didn’t completely stop sleeping with women. I didn’t sleep with them out of physical need or because I liked them, it was a psychological need. I just wanted to prove that I was a normal man.

I remember when we went to see a “siren” show, he asked me what the difference was between them and women, and I told him that they were all men, and that most of them still had their bottoms, and some of them had been done away with. He said it was disgusting. I asked him if he wanted to find a game, he looked at me with surprise and said, “What’s wrong with you?”

I know that Ranyu is a pretty conservative, traditional guy, but I’m not sure how he feels about what he’s doing right now. I haven’t discussed our relationship with him, but I get the feeling that we both agree that this is in no way normal behavior.

China was much more closed then than it is now, and it was difficult for us to find an outlet to properly understand our feelings, and we unconsciously avoided understanding them.

Chapter XI

In August, I went to the United States with a government business delegation. I wasn’t very interested, I didn’t have much business on the American side. But I didn’t realize that I had found a big buyer, and I started to do business in textiles to the United States. When the American asked me about the “quota”, I told the interpreter that it was a piece of cake, and the interpreter told the American that it was a peanut.

I could have stayed there for a few more days and gone to Los Angeles and Vegas, but I didn’t feel like it because I’d already been there, and because I missed Lan Yu, especially him, and I wanted to come back alone… I saw Lan Yu from a distance in the Beijing airport. After the summer, he was a little darker, but even more attractive. He was wearing a pair of dark blue shorts and a loose-fitting gray collarless T-shirt with a few small buttons on his chest near the collar, which were untied and spread out. I could see his smooth, healthy, youthful, vibrant skin, and I was already tingling and my heart was racing. His hair was a little long, parted very inconspicuously down the middle and resting fluffily on his forehead. It was the haircut I’d asked him for, and he didn’t like it, saying he looked like a Taiwanese. But he never obeyed me in these matters. He stood there conspicuously, and the two girls who came out with me kept staring at him. He saw me and waved…

Before I left the airport, I could barely hide my impulse to look at him with “that” look in my eyes, and when I was getting my car and putting my luggage away, I intentionally got so close to him that I even rubbed my face against him a little bit. He also started to breathe heavily. We were silent in the car, he gripped the steering wheel, eyes looking ahead, but his heart must have been beating wildly. I reached out and gently put my left hand on his crotch and slowly rubbed it, it was already very hard.

“Defendon! Don’t! Let me drive properly.” He said in a panic.

I continued to touch him, knowing that he was a man of great self-control and that he would drive with all his heart. “I’m going to torture him so much he won’t be able to stand it!” I thought excitedly and frantically.

He pulled up in front of a restaurant and I asked.

“What?”

“I can’t drive back!” He said looking at me.

Without another word, we quickly went to the lobby and got a room. Just as we closed the door, Ranwu hugged me fiercely and at the same time his mouth pressed against mine, kissing me desperately, and I did the same by wrapping my arms around him and kissing him… I put my hands inside my clothes and touched him, and I felt his broad front and smooth spine.

I pushed him down on the bed and started ripping his clothes off, I started with the few buttons that had stumbled open, I wanted to see his body that I couldn’t hold myself from. I peeled his shorts off, not caring if the belt and zipper scratched his skin and made him ache. He’s so beautiful, the body of a man already ripe with the scent of a teenage boy, I can’t wait to see the look on his face, I’m going to strip him naked, I’m going to possess him, that handsome boy from the airport, I’ve paid too much for him, he’s mine! …

Once again, I knelt above him, my hands gripping his hair, and I pushed my thick dick into his mouth, probably too hard and too deep, and he almost gagged. But he looked at me, ever so mesmerized…

I had him roll over and kneel on the bed, I pressed him hard, his head went to the bed, and without even dabbing at my saliva, I sent my cock in raw in one stroke, my dick felt sore from the lack of lubrication. I thrust vigorously. I still felt a little pain, but the more it hurt the better I felt… “Oh… Oh! Ranwu! Ranwu!” I finally ejaculated in my extreme excitement!

He also collapsed on the bed, exhausted, and he hadn’t come yet. He looked at me and smiled hopelessly, “It hurts so much! It’s never hurt so much, I’m sweating from the pain!” He gasped.

I climbed up next to him, I put my arms around him and kissed his face and said.

“I’m sorry! I’m sorry! I… I just missed you so much that I couldn’t control myself any more.” Knowing that he was in so much pain, I really felt a bit apologetic.

“I thought you were going to get me killed!” He wasn’t happy, but he wasn’t really angry.

I started licking him and sucking his cock. My mouth was busy and my hands were stroking his body. After a while, I stopped, looked up at him and asked.

“Do you want to come from behind?” I meant anal sex on me.

He was surprised: “I’ve never tried it!”

“I’ve never tried it either! First time for you to try.” I made up my mind that I would  do anything to make him happy.

I taught him to rub enough saliva on his cock, and then I lay on my back like he had just done, and I felt him hesitantly try to thrust in.

“Harder, harder only!” I was like teaching a child what to do.

He came in really hard, all at once.

It hurts! It really hurts! I didn’t like it at all. But I endured it, if he could endure it for me, why couldn’t I? He finally ejaculated and I felt like going to the bathroom.

“Did you like it?” I asked him when it was over.

“It’s not as comfortable as when you get it with your hands and mouth.” He said. Good, I was glad he thought so. It was the only time I’d ever been “fucked” and I didn’t like it, but I didn’t regret it.

Half an hour later, we started fucking again. This time we did it very gently, we sucked each other’s cocks and masturbated… we both found it so pleasurable… I can’t remember how many times we did it that day… I only remember that we were so tired and hungry afterwards that we didn’t even have the strength to eat the food we called into the room… The textile business was doing very well, and I was thinking of buying a villa in the ‘northern suburbs’ as a home for me and I was thinking of buying a villa in the northern suburbs as a home for me and Lan Yu, or maybe just giving it to him. I was never shy about giving him anything.