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I have a family of three, my mom is 42 and I’m 20.
I’ve been hopelessly in love with my mom for about six years now, and thinking of her as a woman and not just a mom was something that happened my freshman year of high school.
It was one day in physical education when the girls were practicing the high jump, and our teacher, a woman in her thirties, was giving a demonstration, and I noticed that her breasts bounced and bounced and were so attractive, and her legs were white and long, and she was very pretty and fit. I couldn’t stop thinking about it until I got home. I realized that my mom was not only prettier than my teacher, but also more feminine, with her sexy breasts and long legs. That’s when I fell in love with my mom.
For the next few months, I was bedeviled by this impossible love affair. I would often look at my mom obsessively for half a day, and I would take her clothes out to masturbate when no one was home. My mom loved me so much that she would often have physical contact with me, and I endured it so hard that I nearly collapsed.
Finally I couldn’t help it, just as my father went on a business trip for a day, driven by crazy thoughts I went to the drugstore to buy a few sleeping pills, and that night I deliberately asked my mom to cook a few more dishes, and my mom bought a bottle of wine to drink together, and put the pills in my mom’s wine. Soon after dinner mom said she was sleepy and went to bed. I waited patiently for half an hour, guessing that mom was sleeping deeply, so I unlocked the front door, turned off the lights, and walked to mom’s room.
I was very scared and very excited, but desire overcame reason. I got on the bed and carefully undressed my mom, I kissed her on the lips very, very carefully, my heart pounding, just afraid that she would suddenly wake up, but she never woke up. I also caressed mom’s breasts and thighs, this was my first time touching a woman’s body. I also gently kissed mom’s lower pussy and touched her vaginal opening with my tongue, the whole time I was excited and scared.
I loved mom’s legs so much that I kissed almost all of her lower body with my mouth, and especially licked and fondled her feet for quite a while. I saw that even licking the soles of mom’s feet mom did not wake up, judging that mom should be sleeping very, very deeply, so I stripped myself naked and pressed on top of mom. The feeling of full contact between the whole person and mom is very warm, my cock at once pushed against the mouth of mom’s vagina, where the soft and a bit of hot feeling makes me instantly can not help but to ejaculate, I was busy lifting up, and shot the cum on mom’s belly.
Maybe I was too nervous, I felt very tired, and that cock couldn’t get hard anymore, so I didn’t really have sex with my mom that night even though I touched her body.
It was an opportunity I regretted very much when it was lost, for I never had such a chance again for the next three years, and while my father never traveled again, and I was afraid to take such a risk, my love for my mother grew with each passing day.
About a month ago, I came to The Incels chat room to chat with a guy who said he had done it with his mom and it started with rape and kept encouraging me to rape her. It was early Saturday morning and I was so hot from the encouragement that I decided to take action while my dad went hiking for exercise every Saturday morning when my mom was the only one home.
At that time it was already about five o’clock, the sky is hazy, I sat in front of the computer for another hour, finally my father got up, he hurriedly ate milk and bread and left. Hearing the sound of dad closing the door to his room, I was so excited that I couldn’t hold myself, I immediately shut down the computer and undressed in my room first, while doing so I encouraged myself that no matter how the day would end up, even if it meant death I would have sex with mom first.
I approached my mom’s bed, only to see her side facing inward still asleep, her figure beautiful. Cautiously and apprehensively, I gently got into the bed and lay down close to my mom, my heart beating wildly and indisputably.
Since it was summer, mom only wore a loose nightgown, but also some transparent, you can vaguely see mom inside only wear a pair of panties. I carefully lifted up the train of mom’s skirt, mom’s white and plump buttocks appeared in the bottom of my eyes, I reached out to remove mom’s white panties down to the ankles mom did not notice. I was secretly grateful, mom suddenly rolled over, I was like being struck by lightning, was stunned, time seems to have stopped. I saw mom’s eyelashes fluttering and twitching…
Finally, the thing I was most afraid of happened, my mom slowly opened her big beautiful eyes, and that moment seemed to be as long as a thousand years. Looking at my mom’s big, beautiful, familiar eyes, I really didn’t know what to do, and I could really feel the great fear in my heart. I knew I was facing the biggest decision of my life, and I really didn’t know what to do, even though I had made up my mind beforehand.
At that moment, I could clearly see my mom’s red lips slightly open, and she was about to let out the syllable “no”. If I had been hesitant before this, this tiny movement prompted me to make up my mind, and knowing what would happen if she screamed out, I quickly moved.
Before Mom could make a sound, my lips sealed hers, and I decisively pressed myself on top of her, spreading her legs apart with my feet. Mom’s eyes were wide open, and she was making “whimpering…” noises, and her body was writhing as she tried her best to get out of my grip. Mom’s hands flailed against me, but at the moment, I couldn’t care less, I was just eager to become one with her warm body. The unprecedented sense of excitement and fear caused my desire to reach its peak, and I anxiously searched for a cathartic breakthrough.
Mom was struggling more and more anxiously, her breathing was getting more and more rapid, and I felt two strings of salty tears running down my cheeks as my lips kissed them. I couldn’t help but pivot and look at my mom, the way her eyes were slightly closed with teardrops hanging from the corners of her eyes made me pity and love her, almost giving up on the idea of violating her further.
Just as I was in the middle of a heavenly battle in my mind, my body instinctively pushed forward, and I violently felt myself entering a new world of warmth and wetness, a feeling so cozy that it made me want to cry. And mom is like an electric shock, was shocked frozen there, eyes wide open, incredibly looking at me, body all of a sudden frozen.
I thrust instinctively, and although this was my first experience, I had long ago learned what to do from books and movies. My chest was overflowing with happiness, joy, and at that moment I completely forgot where I was, knowing only that I was floating in a paradise of pleasure.
I had absolutely no control over my pleasure, and in a drenching spurt I tasted an orgasm like no other. I lay helplessly on my back on top of my mom, who seemed too lazy to push me off, so I lay still.
After a while, I felt my mom’s chest rise and fall, and then I heard a low, suppressed sob: my mom was crying.
I was so weak and panicked that I got up, only to see my mom in tears. I panicked and wanted to comfort her, but I didn’t know what to say, so I just called out timidly, “Mom, Mom…”
Mom turned her face away from me and ignored me, her body shaking even more from crying.
I really didn’t know what to do, and overwhelming remorse flooded my mind. I was a little embarrassed to find myself still on top of my mom, and feeling a little bored myself, I slunk down and lay on my side.
Mom turned her body sideways into the bed, her shoulders shaking violently as she cried silently. I reached out to caress Mom’s shoulder, Mom twisted and dodged away, I reached over again, and again Mom dodged away. I simply pressed my whole body up and wrapped my mom in my arms. Mom struggled a little, found that I was very determined, and did not move.
I felt remorse and pity, but I found my desire surprisingly high again, my penis hardened again and pushed straight against mom’s ass groove. Mom must have also noticed the changes in my body and consciously moved her body forward to avoid it. I thought that since I had already done it the first time, it would be the same to do it again, so I wrenched mom’s body over and pressed up again.
(to be continued)