I have a girlfriend and I love my girlfriend very much, but we live apart, I am in Shanghai and she is in another city not far from Shanghai. We see each other about once a week or two weeks. And the opposite sex to share a room, I would like to tell her, but, after thinking about it, or forget it, for fear that she thought too much, and did not say anything, just tell her I am outside and others share a room, she did not ask more questions. Just lived in the time, we do not understand each other, each other, are more careful, are also on guard against each other it, because, the lonely boy and girl live together, personal safety is the most important. Time is long, but also slowly understand, she has a nice name called Caiyun, after graduating from college, a person to Shanghai to fight. Late at night, we talk about life, of course, familiar with each other, but also say some intimate topics. We all know each other by heart, look at each other and smile.
Time quickly, it came to summer, Shanghai’s summer is very hot, the evening back home, always hot, wearing very little, I basically wear a shorts, and she, too, is wearing a very loose T-shirt, because, familiar, she sometimes even do not wear a bra, sometimes, inadvertently, her entire chest scenery on the glimpse, I was careful to remind her many times, and she is always unimpressed. We are basically the same time off work, the first thing after work is to grab a shower.
That day back from work a little late, she first went inside to wash. I arrived home, heard the sound of running water inside, at first, did not feel anything, but sitting in the living room, the more you listen, feel, the more itchy heart, the heart of an inexplicable desire slowly climbed to the heart, the heart of the heart as if there are 10,000 ants, so that I am stupid. I suddenly had a strong urge to see how this girl bathed.
Let’s start by describing the girl’s appearance. She’s about one meter six and a half, short hair in her ears, looks very spiritual, her eyes are very beautiful, flickering and blinking, there’s always something elusive in them. Snow-white skin, when the two of us are in, we usually wear very little, a super short skirt, just cover the most intimate parts of the body. And the white thighs are so unashamedly exposed in front of me, like beautiful snow, as white, and like the sun, as dazzling. And, more importantly, she has a pair of beautiful feet, I don’t know if you have ever noticed, a pair of beautiful feet especially in the summer, often greatly increase the charm of the girls.
In fact, when I came home, opened the door and then closed it, Caiyun inside already knew that I was back. I sat on the sofa in the living room, making loud noises, I believe she can also judge from the inside, I sat there, the sofa constantly making loud noises, because, I can’t help but need to desperately repress the lust, repress this close to the temptation. But, what struck me as odd was that the door to the restroom shower, had been left open. If I change my angle, instead of sitting on the couch, but, instead, stand up, move my body a little bit, through this unclosed door, and the light of the restroom, I can see everything I want to see. That’s a big dare girl, I thought. And there I was, frozen on that couch, not moving the feet I should have moved. The clattering inside faded away, and I knew that this ordinary scene that happened every day was about to end. Sure enough, Caiyun came out of it, girls are such natural beauties. She froze as she came out of the shower, giving me such a cool feeling on this hot summer day. A faint fragrance filled the air, I don’t know if it was the aroma of the shower gel or her body scent, she wore a long t-shirt that hung all the way down to her thighs, making it impossible to tell if she was wearing panties underneath. The bulging nipples, however, made it obvious at first glance that the bra inside was non-existent. I was surprised at her beauty, so much so that, her a Hi, I did not listen to please, still sitting there in a daze, I realized my outburst, panicked to cover up said, too hot, are dizzy, ha. She said understandingly, sorry, I took the lead, you quickly go wash it.
Standing inside the still fragrant bath room, I inside the uneasiness and came on, think just a few minutes ago, a beautiful girl, naked here, that full breasts, that round buttocks, that staggering figure, staged here, but unfortunately, the audience is just lifeless wall. So, a beautiful scene, but no one to appreciate, I do not know if it is a waste of beauty, and that natural carcass, is not also like this water, crystal clear. Unconsciously, my penis is also up, I know, this is not an evil thought, is the normal reaction of people to beautiful things. I heard the sound of walking inside the living room, know, she is also outside to listen to my clattering water. Sometimes, it feels like things are strange, the same space, the same bath room, the same living room, but it’s like being in two time zones. You can’t be in the same space and time and have everything together, just like the resources of a computer, you can’t share them. And at this moment, sitting on the sofa, she heard, the sound of the clattering water, is not also like me to have an unspeakable impulse to have a kind of want to rush into the bath room impulse.
The door of the bath-room, which I had not touched, remained as it had been when she first went in, not fully open, not fully closed. Had I been inside at a different angle, or, turning round, I could have seen the drawing-room through this door, too, and though I could not see the sofa, I knew that if I could have seen it, I might not have had the courage to do so. The water was running mechanically, and rather than bathing, I was using this water to lower my inner desires. I had, in fact, been thinking that the water would flow faster, when I would be able to be a little more violent as well!
It was destined to be a difficult night. After washing up, I hurriedly ate some food and went into my room. Lying on the bed, my mind was filled with Caiyun’s figure. By all rights, I shouldn’t have such thoughts. I tried to convince myself that we are just passing through after all, don’t have any unorthodox thoughts. You have your own girlfriend, you should love her well. Just like this thought thought, fell asleep in a daze, woke up, it was late at night almost twelve o’clock. I sleep with the habit of sleeping in the nude, because today is an early bedtime, but unprecedentedly did not sleep in the nude. Get up and walk around, feel some discomfort in the penis, so, habitually and casually take off the underwear. I just finished taking off my underwear, and then I remembered that I hadn’t peed yet. At this time a, take off all off, just lazy to wear, but also afraid of accidentally by color clouds see. In my heart, I said to myself, “What are you afraid of? It’s almost twelve o’clock, it won’t be such a coincidence. So, quietly opened the door to the room, nip hand nip foot ready to go out to the toilet. I first opened a crack, observed, feel very quiet, should be all right, then rest assured boldly went out, who knows, there really is no coincidence on this matter. In I just want to enter the toilet when, just heard the toilet door, squeak open, my head a big, coaxed a moment, at this time, want to hide has been too late, my whole body is completely presented in front of the colorful clouds. Although it was already late at night, but through the light outside the window, all parts of my body were still unreservedly presented in front of her.
In a panic, I scanned her, she too was wearing only a nightgown, one of those very thin silk ones. The rest was unreadable, and I rushed into the restroom, the urge to pee long gone, only my hard dick. When I was quiet, only to suddenly remember, in our momentary encounter, her eyes still can not help but look at my penis, I do not know her this action will be on the later occurrence of those things, is not to make a pavement, or, it is precisely because of this action, but also gave me a huge courage, for the future, we happened the story, made the ambush.
Next, I made a bold move, I have never tried before, I do not know, so there will be no risk, just, I feel that people should constantly change, should make some waves in the ordinary life. I decided to spy on Caiyun’s bedroom life. I have a computer, and pinhole cameras are sold everywhere these days, so I decided to buy one and install it. I decided to execute my plan. One afternoon, I left work early and told my boss that I had something to go back and do. Then I ran to the Hongtu Sanbao near Dongchang Road and bought the pinhole camera, all ready to go.
The next step was the wiring. Since her rooms were all unlocked so that I could just come and go freely, I decided to put the camera in the window because, for one thing, the light was brighter that way, and then again, her bed just happened to be by the window as well. The house was one of those old-fashioned houses where the wires were laid up, well laid up, and they were furnished with that kind of fabric, just so that the wires could pass through it without being detected. In this way, in a very short time, I laid the line, connected to the computer, debugging, all OK.
Peeping this paragraph omitted to write it, later on, what happened to us, also completely do not need to go through the peeping this kind of means. In the end, I gave Caiyun to tell this experience, she pinched my nose and said that my kid is so bad, should be beaten, with this means to see the body of others. The next few days, I actually have a very strange feeling, usually think about my girlfriend the most, and since this incident happened, the day shift, surprisingly full of Caiyun’s figure. It lingered, I wanted to go further so badly, so badly, to kiss her sexy lips. But what should I do, I was in deep confusion.
In the middle of the night, I often sleep alone, and whenever I hear some slight noise in the room across the hall, I start to think about her. Think of her sexy body, think she is not masturbating. And she at this time, also seems to have a full heart, see me, but also want to talk about the appearance, I decided to next, find a romantic time, a good chat with her, such an opportunity for us is as easy as a slap in the face. When I thought about it, we have lived together for almost three months, but I can’t believe we haven’t had a good chat a few times. I thought it would be a good time to take this opportunity to present myself properly as well. Because, I think, I have to admit that I have the urge to have contact with Caiyun. Really!
I decided to test her bottom line, I want to know, in the end, she is in the heart is a kind of what kind of idea. Because, I know, in Shanghai, the higher the degree of knowledge and culture of the people tend to have a more open mind, they instead of the more importance of the pursuit of personal life, and, they are generally single, daytime dress noble, speak English, carrying a notebook, and at night, the lights and wine, enjoy life. In such an open city, having a sexual partner is probably kind of expected. I’ve always wondered how, how to be unobtrusive, how to express my thoughts without being so revealing.
I found a weekend, found a very old-fashioned reason, said that day I got the praise of the boss, promotion is in sight, want to find someone to celebrate, looking around, and there is no suitable person, so I found you. When I told her, she gave me a bad smile, not to be denied, and could not see any happy or unhappy look. She snapped her fingers and said OK, then hemmed and hawed and said, “You can do it all. That is to buy food, cooking, all belong to me, she is bold. I made a joke to myself and said, “It’s all on me, who let you be the little girl, ha. Although the mouth said so, but the heart is happy. As soon as I got off work on Friday, I ran to the grocery store. When I get good food, she also bath finished, already almost eight o’clock. Outside the window is already the beginning of the night, all kinds of pedestrians, their night life may have just begun. And our nightlife is about to play out.
Today, it’s just the two of us, of course, the atmosphere is also very casual. She still wore the long T-shirt that she had worn countless times, and I still couldn’t tell from her standing position what she was wearing underneath, and her spirit flew, and her conversation was quite intense, and all over, there was a kind of vitality emanating out of her body, and there was still a light fragrance flowing through the air.
I purposely bought a bottle of red wine today, a Changyu Cabernet. To add to the atmosphere, I even turned on the stereo and the music started. I smiled and poured the wine. Raised the glass, said: beautiful sister Yun, for you to find such a good heterosexual co-rental partner Cheers, ha. Tonight red wine good people, would like to pull you out, but a thought, although, my handicraft is not good, but after all, this has a home warmth, so if feel tonight dishes have bad place, but also please do not take offense ah, ha. Come on, she finished Er smile, said, little brother ah, tonight is not wine and beauty ah, but beauty and beast ah, ha. With the opening of the joke, the atmosphere gradually began to be active. A few cups of wine down, the face felt began to red up, her face is also, in the soft light, the face of the redness, exudes a charming color, and her beautiful smile, but also like, March spring rain, let the heart and soul swing. I joked with her, why, you dare to live with me a piece of it, not afraid of me, ha. She said, there is no way ah, I do not want to choose you ah, but I am not the landlord, have no right to restrict you to come in ah, however, the words back to say, you this kid is not bad, that is, what do you want to do, thanks to you also have the heart and not the guts ah, ha. As the topic deepened, our conversation began to involve both sides of the family.
She said, she is 28 years old, in that beautiful campus in Beiwai, she had a carved first love. The two had also met under the moon, to meet that belong to the promise of the mountain and the sea. However, not long after graduation, the boy in order to their own careers, can have a turnaround and breakthrough, and the granddaughter of the general manager of the relationship, she had gone to question him why, he smiled helplessly, said, I’m sorry, in order to be able to make a name for myself, I have no choice. She was speechless. Once the appointment into the appointment into the empty, simple Beijing into her dream place, the heart has been hurt, hurt Wu and Wu, they came to Shanghai, with the prosperity of Shanghai to forget the simplicity of Beijing, but the more you want to forget, but the more it is remembered over and over again, she said that sometimes, her thoughts will not be able to involuntarily fly to the campus of Beiwai, perhaps only at that time, only then, there is a tangible part of her happiness. When the memory is only left Beiwai, but found that the whole memory but no color, she said, the appearance of colorful clouds, originally rely on the sun, and now the sun is gone, why colorful clouds.
I was speechless, not realizing that such a usually smiling and beautiful girl could be so sad. She violently poured a glass of wine into her mouth, her face is still smiling, but clearly there is a kind of sour things in the flow. She said, in their beautiful first night, was in that unforgettable summer vacation, that time, most of the students are home from vacation, and they are not ready to go back, ready to use a summer vacation time to work to earn some money. It was in that cool night, his boyfriend, with a pack of red candles, they came hand in hand to the center of the playground of the North, the night has been like water, everything is full of peace. His boyfriend said he wanted to give her a surprise, let her close her eyes. After five minutes, her eyes suddenly felt a bright, unconsciously opened his eyes, just opened his eyes, immediately hot, it turned out, his boyfriend, has put a bed sheet spread in the center of the playground, and the bed sheet around the red candles, the shape of the candles, just the shape of the heart of love. Beautiful candlelight in the watery night color looks so moving, his boyfriend gently picked her up, said, darling, tonight the candlelight for us to light, the moon will also be round for us. And at this time Caiyun has long been touched by a mess.
His boyfriend slowly retreated for her, her short skirt, unhooked her bra, and kissed his burning lips to hers, in such a romantic setting, but the red color on the sheets turned into a heart shape as well. It was a red heart. Speaking of which, she was already crying out in pain. Instead, she got confused as to what to do. The only thing I can do is to gently put her arms around the chest, said, look, the night outside Shanghai is so beautiful, I would like your heart like the lamp in the night at this moment, the night with the black, as your heart, but as long as there is a lamp in the heart, will drive away the darkness, bring hope and light. She was moved to look at me, I said, the past let it go, perhaps, your boyfriend is now suffering more than you, perhaps he also has a compulsion to suffer. At this time, I felt, Caiyun instinctively embraced me strongly, said, I feel so cold. I turned around and hugged it tightly to my chest, I smelled the aroma emitted by her body, close to her gentle face, I can feel her breath, has passed through my heart. I just held her tightly, my hand in hers, wanting to say nothing.
At this time, the stereo is ringing Luo Dayou’s, Luo Dayou the singer who influenced several generations, and now is also influencing us, he sang with that low and helpless and rebellious voice flowing water it with the story of time and change a person. I do not know, how time should flow, if it can flow to the past, I think Caiyun still have no choice, choose to belong to her boyfriend, choose to belong to her that romantic night. If the time can be stopped, I think, I would rather, embracing Caiyun’s boyfriend, not me. I think, if my embrace can bring Caiyun a little bit of comfort, I think I have no regrets. The only thing left in the room was the music flowing, Caiyun in my arms was in a deep sleep, looking at her sleeping appearance, my heart surprisingly had a kind of inexplicable warmth. I suddenly had a great sense of accomplishment, this sense of accomplishment, not from I embrace this girl I have long wanted to embrace in my heart, but, I feel, I can give this wounded girl a little care, so that her wounded heart can even feel a trace of warmth, even if it is silent, even if it is just to give her a shoulder, so that she can lean on it, so that that wandering heart has a harbor that can be temporarily stayed. I think I’ve done it. I think I did, at least now, I did.
The time is almost two o’clock at night, the pedestrians outside the window gradually sparse, noisy all day Shanghai also began to slowly quiet down. I was also gradually getting sleepy, but Caiyun in my arms was still sleeping heavily. I decided to carry her to her bedroom, see her appearance, I have only feelings, and can not bear to disturb her good dream, perhaps, people can do a good dream is not easy, and why be so cruel to break people’s good dream it. I hesitated again and again, or decided to send her back to the bedroom, regardless of whether it will wake her up. Because, I think, good dreams will wake up, people should face reality, why must be immersed in a dream of nothingness. I slowly carried her to the bed, just put her down when she suddenly woke up, probably because of the alcohol, her consciousness is not fully awake, in the haze, heard her saying, memory, do not go, memory is the name of her former boyfriend. Memory, hold me tight. I still put her down, but always felt too cruel, just at the moment I left, but she suddenly embraced me, fiercely began to kiss me, I clearly feel her plump and elastic breasts are so warm and powerful, the kind of dreamy moan, let my heart flaccid, I dreamed of everything, I want the result is actually in front of the eyes, I’m within reach, but, my will is so awake, inside there is a clear voice telling myself, you are not a decent person, but you must not take advantage of others. I firmly pushed her away, said, you sleep, too tired. I slowly tucked her into bed until she fell asleep again, I gently turned around and slowly brought the door to my room with me.
I went back to my room, thinking back to the scene that just happened, and regretting it a little. What an opportunity, what a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity, and I just missed it. Although physically I was still impulsive and still wanted company. But psychologically, I was immensely satisfied. I’ve never claimed to be a decent man, but tonight, at such a moment, I gave a wounded girl a warm place to rely on. I don’t know, tomorrow when she wakes up, how will she think about it, or maybe just pretend that nothing has happened, but, no matter what, after all, I gave someone love, and this kind of love, even though it’s not sexual, I, think, at this time, Caiyun needs more love, right, while I want to start from the sexual one.
I gently walked to the window, eyes looking out of the window, and then, a few hours, the dawn that is, a new day will begin again, the life of the people should have a few tomorrow can go to wait, should have a few today to cherish it what in the end we should pursue, abandon his beloved girlfriend to pursue a dream of excellence, in the end, is it worth it. Losing you, winning the world and so on. Their beloved girlfriend in the city not far from Shanghai, why the heart has been some kind of expectation, looking forward to a kind of thing that should not happen. The so-called passion and romance is expected to get the passion, and how. In the days like plain water, in the passionless life, how do we go to improve, with the heart or with the body I actually do not know.
Finally, I drifted off to sleep, and since the next day was a weekend, I didn’t have to worry about going to work. I slept until the next morning, when I heard the clear sound of rain outside the window, and then I heard the sound of packing inside the house. I thought maybe Caiyun had gotten up and packed her things, I jerked my head and remembered what happened last night, I didn’t know what she thought, whether she would be embarrassed or not, I couldn’t care less. I put on a pair of shorts and went out.
She took the initiative to greet me and said that she was too embarrassed last night, she drank a bit too much and was in trouble or something like that. I waved my hand and said it’s okay. A small matter, take care of girls is my strong point. She said, you kid is a flower thief, I joked that the flower thief can not be called, flower thief can still be used in my body, ha. In this way, we have a piece of health cleaned up, just as last night’s dishes did not eat too, just as it is, eat it, as lunch, I joked and she said, you see how good I am, all of a sudden did two meals, ha. She said, you bad guy, let people drink now, ha.
As we ate, we reminisced about last night again. Caiyun said, you are right, one needs a lamp, one can’t always live in the darkness of the past, or in the shadow of the past, only with a lamp, a lamp of hope, can we drive away the darkness, can we drive away the shadow. I want to open up, thank you, and my life will begin again. I said, it may be important that we need a heart that is uplifted, the past does not mean the future, just like this rain, after it will be sunny, believe you!
Since it was raining outside and we had nothing to do at home, we started talking again. After last night’s hug, no matter what was going on in my heart, the hug was actually happening. We were looking at each other with a little bit of confusion in our eyes, our hearts were tickled, and I could see that she didn’t resent me, as evidenced by her still smiling face. A word popped into my head at this point to describe our current relationship, and I thought that it might be apt. That word was the fourth emotion. The first time I knew this word was from Huang Lei. At that time, Huang Lei and Liu Ruoying have cooperated to shoot, April Day, like water and other TV dramas, there are legends that they work together quite well, rumors of the two people. In a press conference, a reporter asked Huang Lei, you and Liu Ruoying is what relationship. Huang Lei said, exactly, I and Liu Ruoying should be the fourth emotion. What is the fourth emotion? Simply put, it is greater than friendship, close to affection, there is a little love, in addition to affection, friendship, love outside of the fourth kind of emotion.
I then told her about the fourth emotion, about Liu Ruoying and Huang Lei. I jokingly said to her, Caiyun, will we also be Liu Ruoying and Huang Lei ah, ha. She said, is not it, who with you is ah, you this flower thief, ha. Looking at her gentle and lively appearance, my heart a burst of excitement. I violently grabbed her hand and said, Caiyun, let me hug you. She drew her hand back, and I don’t know where I got the courage to stand up, sit down, and hold her in my arms. Outside the window was the sound of dripping rain, and inside, dripping gasps. Caiyun was speechless, letting me hold her in my arms. At that moment, I believed that we both felt something.
Since that hug, it feels like we’ve had some subtle changes in each other’s mindset. In the past, when I went to work, it was as plain as water, I went into the company to do something, and then I went home from work to eat and sleep. Now there is a new content, every day when you go to work heart is happy. Feel every day’s work have a kind of expectation, occasionally in the idle time, will also recall, this change of life brought about by the pleasure. There are times when I think, life may be very plain, this is not to blame life, life may be very boring, which in fact has nothing to do with life itself, because life itself will not go to change their own, and we can change the way we treat life, even a small change, may bring the effect of four or two to a thousand pounds.
There is a kind of expectation at work, looking forward to going home from work, can chat with Caiyun, and then do a hug. Since knowing her past, there has been a sense of guilt in my heart, such a good woman, I even spied on her, I decided that some time later, when the time is a little more ripe, to have a guilty conscience. Tell her this my dishonorable experience.
We are all adrift in Shanghai, can be said to have no one to rely on, in the 8 hours of work, our hearts actually need to comfort, lonely hearts need to go to soothe, and since Adam created Eve means that men and women began another sense of love, this love may not be sex, but a kind of dependence, a kind of, from the heart of the spirit of the food. Two people get along and feel pleasure, but at the same time, that pleasure comes from the heart and doesn’t interfere with their respective homes and the lives they each have. We come from two time and space, but somewhere in the convergence of the intersection, after the intersection, only change their own speed of rotation, but does not change their own trajectory. Thus increasing one’s own energy to go and run better, I guess.
We both agreed that we wanted to change this lifeless life, especially at night, and we decided to open our hearts and reveal ourselves to each other without reservation. Of course, what I’m talking about is not, in fact, sex. Rather, figuring out how to make the night a catalyst for delighting our spirits and increasing our energy. We do it in a way that is healthy and acceptable to ourselves, but without crossing ethical boundaries.
We decided to start by playing. We started with playing poker. In the beginning, we just worked out some rewards and punishments, like, first we counted points, one point for a win, no points for a loss, and we’d see who lost the most for the night, and naturally, the more you lost, the more you took over all the chores. I’m not sure if I’m going to be able to do that. Then, after a few days of playing, it didn’t feel very invisible. We changed the rules again. Said that day, if whoever loses more, a punishment, is to let the other party, the losing party to kiss a mouth. Of course, the part of the kiss has to be proposed by the winning party. As a result, after the implementation of the new rules, the first night, I won, I cheeky bad smile, said, Xiao Yun, I’m not polite. She ducked and flapped her hands and said, “You kid, don’t take advantage of me, beware of flattening you. I said, that can not ah, we have spoken well, since you say so, then I will not kiss you, give me a hug. She reluctantly said, okay. I opened my hands and made a very exaggerated hugging gesture. I hugged down at once, I didn’t expect this guy to be smart, a flash, I hugged a blank, almost hugged the wall. I said, Xiao Yun, you’re not decent, see me clean up your ah. She suddenly got off the bed, ran to the living room, I hurriedly chased out. She chased her to the sofa, and hugged her again, at first she was laughing, suddenly as if she got warm, slowly leaned in my arms, there is a kind of contentment, like a day of labor birds returned to the nest, there is a kind of weary bird returning home comfort. And I, the original that distraction has long disappeared, just look at her in the arms, so beautiful, feel this moment, I want to be forever and ever so quietly stop.
These days, the card luck is better, the second night, I won again, or maybe it is her poor card skills, ha. I deliberately took a deep breath and said, tonight, I’m going to do a bold move, surely let you can not guess, and will make you shocked. She said, “No way, you’re the one, ha. I said, I’m the winner, you have to listen to me. She said, alas, who made the little lady not contend enough, well, you tell me. I said, I want to want to want to, kiss your MIMI. she ah ah, huh, laughed, said, you this little pervert, no, not to give you it. Her delicate red shy face is really like a colorful cloud, let a person look, can not stop, excited. I said, people should be faithful ah, you just said to listen to me. She said, no, just said it does not count. A woman a petulant, a trick, really can not take her. I said, let it be. She sneaked a look at me, said, I do not let kiss, then let you this little colorful full of eyes. When she said this, she also had a frank face. I let you see mine, ha. She said, boy, you turn around ah, really, so uninformed. I ah, my heart thumped.
I slowly turned around, the thud that had been pounding my heart. In fact, I wanted to see it, whether I recognized it or not, but one always wants to find a grand excuse for oneself to keep one’s heart from feeling uneasy. People sometimes have primal desires that they just refuse to recognize. I heard a gasp, and the sound of a skirt being removed, and a heavenly voice that wanted to say, “Turn around. Okay. Once I turned around, she was like a blooming rose, fiery red and colorful, plump and pert breasts, full of elasticity, and seductive flavor. The black and red nipple beads, like a drop of dew on a rose, crystalized.
I said you put on your clothes, thank you for trusting me so much, I am really touched. People sometimes really strange, obviously pressed in the bottom of the heart want and do not dare and not good to say to others things really appeared in front of you, you do not have that kind of evil thought, there is, just, to the kind of trust between people grateful, and, is because the other party did not treat themselves as outsiders touched. And that kind of muscle man kissing, that kind of simple lovemaking rather unimportant. At this time, the heart has just that kind of pure feeling. Just want to maintain this kind of emotion. I get spiritual solace, I think she is also, this is enough.
She got dressed and I leaned in close to her and softly told her, Thank you. Really. I am very touched today. Thank you for being so trusting, and to be honest, your body is really beautiful, so beautiful that people do not have evil thoughts. I am very strange, I help slowly sat down, I said, frankly to you, before I saw you, the heart has been itching, always want to see your body, including you wear wide clothes, inadvertently exposed spring light. At that time there are uneasy ingredients, but, when the real look after, I instead of that kind of uneasy thoughts, I do not dare to say that I have been from the spirit of a big change, but I said, from today onwards, I will be destined to take you as the best of the best of the best of the best of the best of friends, there is something, do not hide from you, do not lie to you, to take you as the fourth emotion, redoubtable friend. Next, I decided, to be honest with her, to tell her about that voyeuristic experience, because, at this point in time now, any hiding of feelings would be disrespectful to her. Because, I am a not so native, but absolutely truthful person.
Although I don’t know what the consequences will be after I tell her, but I always feel that, comparing heart to heart, if I hide this matter again, not only I am sorry for her, but also I am more sorry for myself. I took her hand and said, Caiyun, there is something that I have to tell you, no matter if you hit me or scold me, I am willing, but I really don’t want you to stop caring about me in the future, because, if that’s the case, I’d rather choose not to tell you, and let me bear it alone. She gave an oh, and two red clouds rose again on her face. I said, I have done you a wrong, and was, at the time, very curious, and I know it was wrong, and I ask your pardon. That is, I once installed a camera in your room, once spied on you. She suddenly blushed and tensed her face, a look of fury, I knew that what was to come was to come. Even so, I won’t regret it.
Who knows just when I was ready to endure her big accusation, things took a dramatic turn. She suddenly Waner smile, shy and infinite, said, you this guy is so bad, just like this peeped at the body of others. I was shocked, said, why are you not angry? I thought you were going to be very angry? She also fluttered red a smile, said, and former boyfriend broke up, I have been running away, but also hate men, in fact, should thank you, is that night, you unlocked the knot in my heart, so that I understand, no matter what, life goes on, hate a person in fact, the most tired or their own. Compared with hate, I would rather choose to forgive, because, I found, forgive a person than hate a person to let their heart more peace, more solid. I appreciate your honesty and courage, I think, people who can not make mistakes, who can always be immovable in front of the temptation. The key is that we have to be honest about what we have done and be brave enough to take it on, and you have done that, so I don’t blame you.
Caiyun continued, in fact, according to the perspective of human nature, all people have an evil side, but some people just refuse to recognize this side, always labeling themselves as very noble. Comparing hearts to minds, it is not strange that people have evil thoughts, I think the most important thing is how to treat this evil thought. The biggest difference between human beings and animals is that human beings can hide, but at the same time, human beings can face up to their inner world. How to deal with the real voice from his heart, some people dare to take the responsibility of what they do, I think, such a person is a brave person, he has a brave heart.
How to deal with people from the bottom of the voice, Caiyun continued, from a woman’s point of view, I think, is to be appreciated, to be sure. What woman in this world doesn’t want to have a moving body, and what woman in this world doesn’t want to have a man look at her more and praise her more. This is the most real voice from the bottom of the human heart. In fact, I have long discovered your camera. But, for one thing, you don’t feel bad, for another, in such a need to be cared for atmosphere, that kind of desire to be cared for, to be appreciated by the bottom of the heart voice finally let me have no reason to expose you, because, need to be loved curtain, is also the woman issued the most real voice.
I was surprised at Caiyun’s frankness, and my heart was once again greatly moved. It is really hard to find a soulmate in this world, and it is even harder to find a sincere and frank redhead. From the perspective of the red face, I do think, looking for a red face is not for sex. Simple sex is very easy, two minutes can solve the problem, but the problem is that people can not always live in that primitive desire for sex. People desire to be loved, desire to be communicated, desire to get other people’s appreciation and respect, two people sympathize with each other, no caution, will make in this prosperous world, to the heart to leave a warm corner, let the heart to stretch and release, this is the highest state of the red face of it. And not simply for that kind of physical indulgence. Flesh indulgence can only please in a moment, and the release of the mind can warm a world. There will be that kind of anger for the red face of the bold it.
The next thing was logical, we decided to be the best and truest of partners, not sexually, of course. Similar to a redhead, I guess. The two of us defined this relationship as undefended, that is, home is where we both live and rest together. It is also the place where our souls are released to be quiet and comforted, and in this home, we both can do whatever we want, without any avoidance. There is no longer any shyness or uneasiness either. We can communicate freely in spirit, and we can face both of our bodies openly. In this home, there is no privacy in our spiritual world. There is only sincerity and love. There is transcendence, beyond the physical, beyond evil thoughts. We were both a little excited in making this bold decision, after all, neither of us had ever experienced anything like this before, it was a whole new life for both of us, and we were both thrilled by it. But we decided to carry it out, and of course, it was all a secret, told to no one on either side.
We don’t want any blocking mixing, the next very real problem is bathing. Previously, both of us have this feeling that, when bathing, both feel inconvenient, because if it is in their own home, there is no one else, or rather, only their own lover, we can not sneak hiding in their own bedrooms to change clothes, and also change twice, in their own bedrooms to change, but also to enter into the bath room and then take it off, that, and so on, is the trouble of two times. It doesn’t pay for itself, since, we have decided to implement it, let’s start from here, everything has to have an entry point, right? I said, Cloud, let’s be bold and start with the shower, let’s pretend this is our own home, let’s be brave and face each other’s bodies. This would have been nothing. Cloud agreed with alacrity. We finally took this step, and I happily walked over and gave Caiyun a hug, and of course, she happily gave me a hug back. So, I opened the door to my room wide and stripped myself naked, and since I was going to be honest, let’s start with me. I walked out graciously, by this time, was completely naked, for the first time, always, a little shy. Heart also thumping in the jump. I walked to the front of the color cloud, said the name HI, I can see, she is also a little shy, after all, before, in addition to the boyfriend, have not seen the body of the other sex. And I, likewise, had never exposed my body in front of another member of the opposite sex other than my girlfriend, and so thoroughly.
Such a feeling is really good. I feel as if I have taken off a shackle, the window of the soul suddenly opened at once. Originally, also just realized that, originally, the mind, should have long been put it out for air, in this world, we are in the pursuit of material things, but ignored this spiritual pursuit, this relaxation of the mind. There is an old saying, called no greater sorrow than the death of the heart, that is to say, the power of the heart is the most important, is the foundation of a person to achieve any achievement.
The shower room was still clattering with running water, this kind of clattering water, compared to that kind of excitement for the first time, it was more of a calm, the door of the shower room was just wide open, and Caiyun was also outside. I was facing the door head on, but instead I didn’t have any trace of evil thoughts, and felt more relaxed and at ease. I don’t know, outside of her in hearing the sound of rushing water, what is thinking, is not also a kind of unspeakable relaxation, don’t have to worry about peeping, don’t have to think about what personal precautions, we have to be free of mind.
After a while, I finished washing, and I no longer had to put on a pair of underwear after washing like before, which was not comfortable at all. Draped a bath towel, while walking and rubbing, that feeling is really good. Caiyun sat on the sofa to eat, saw me out, blushed, suddenly ran into the bedroom, but inadvertently or gently made a movement, the bedroom door slightly, the door gently turned, turned halfway to the direction of the stop. Probably a subconscious action. Ha. At this time, I have dried myself and sat on the sofa, through this half-open door, I can still see, Caiyun familiarly undressing inside, because it is summer, not many clothes, in the time she undressed bra, I saw her undressing bra easily a throw, the bra crossed a beautiful arc, the book of the one time drilled into the closet. I turned on the TV, no longer pay attention to the inside, not long after, Caiyun came out, I can not help but be stunned for a moment in spite of having seen her breasts, only, this time, this first time, she did not take off so thoroughly, and left a panty, on top. I laughed at her, and hung a cloud over it. Ha. The colorful cloud laughed a little, and literally flew into the shower room, like a cloud. A moment later, the sound of running water came.
The clattering sound this time was indeed a lot less than the shock that the most impressive one had given me, but I can’t say that it wasn’t there either. I still imagined her in there with her panties off, still, the feeling of the hot water rushing over her body, especially over her breasts. Imagining her movements in the shower. Actually, there was no need to imagine it, the door to the shower room was still open. Caiyun was facing me sideways at first, but, after a while, she didn’t care so much, and adopted the most comfortable bathing position, and at this time, it was also the first time to really see Caiyun’s beautiful body.
I sat on the sofa in the living room, listening to the clattering water flow, my eyes can not help but look, Caiyun exquisite figure, round buttocks, and the most intimate place of the smear of the forest, although it is not the first time to look at this place of a woman, but there is a kind of throbbing. I admit, this is still the most primitive kind of human throbbing it, this is also the most real voice from the bottom of the human heart.
Not long after, Caiyun came out from inside, draped in a long bath towel, her hair was still wet, but her eyes were bright, and the previous kind of elusiveness was gradually less and less, replaced by a kind of crystal that could be read, with something called clarity written inside. The bath towel is gathered, but there is still a big gap, the two breasts are hidden, there is a feeling of calling out, bulging, like two little rabbits ready to leap up and jump for a moment. Caiyun smiled and said, what to look at ah, not by you have seen it, really, still look, also not shy. I face a hot, said, we talked about it, frank and sincere, you have seen others ah, now pay attention to equality between men and women. Caiyun mischievous made a wrapped tight action, said, is not for you to see, do not give, do not give, see how you, ha. Looking at her happy look, the heart is so relaxed, and began to understand, let a person happy, in addition to other people happy, in fact, the biggest happy or in their own.
At this time, Caiyun constantly picked up the bath towel to wipe the dripping water in the ears, and at this time, the spring light inside will inevitably leak. After a while, may be rubbing well, or may be to drum up the courage, because, or to finally step out of this step. He said, quickly, close your eyes, not allowed to see ah. I thought, she might be teasing me again. Just when I closed my eyes, she gently retired her body towel, retired a girl’s shyness, retired a long winding shackles, and she finally gave me the most real gift, gave me the greatest trust, also gave me great honor. I know that from this moment on, we are destined to face all of this openly, openly face a new self. Redheads don’t need to be naked and bare, but we do need to lift the scars on our hearts and expose you to the sunlight, and I know that this retreat, finally, glues our hearts together.
While she was in the shower, I fixed a couple dishes and got the rest of the red wine from that night out again for another go at it. I also made two red candles, the art candles. I was going to have a candlelit dinner tonight, so we could take a mental leap in such a beautiful atmosphere. In fact, it was all ready when she came out in her towel. Only, the candles weren’t lit. I said, Ms. Yun Yun, let’s have a beautiful naked candlelight dinner tonight, let’s have a red candlelight, red wine reflecting our hearts and candlelight reflecting our faces.
Your kid is quite creative, this lady will follow you I got up to turn off the fluorescent lights, light up the red candlelight, in the red candlelight, the beautiful body of Caiyun looks more charming, the whole body seems to be covered with a layer of red halo, full of breasts, with the jump of the candlelight, but also as in the movement, and the dynamic sense of the full. Highball glass of red wine in the candlelight reflection, appear, more red, more charming. It also makes people’s hearts flutter. I said, sister Xiaoyun, tonight, the wine is not drunk but people from the drunkenness, look at the wine and beautiful people, my heart has been drunk ah. Unfortunately, there is no handsome man here, this lady is a little bit, tonight’s theme is called Beauty and the Beast. Really have not seen the world, you have seen this world has such a handsome beast even if it is a beast, but also the world is the most handsome beast Well I said.
I suggest, Ms. Caiyun, let’s have a romantic theme tonight, let’s call it, Beauty, Handsome & Sex I added. Well, let’s follow you, Caiyun is so understanding every time. I said, I have to be honest with you, or rather, call it frankly, looking at your beautiful carcass, I really want to go up to hug and kiss, I feel so beautiful, I saw your carcass from the first time to the present, I have been relaxing the heart of God which is right, Caiyun giggled, I don’t believe that you are a Liu Xiahui well.
I said, we are very serious tonight to discuss, what is called love, or what is called sex, I think, with love or home, what kind of cheating is considered cheating, body and mind betrayal which is caused by betrayal. I have read an article called, this is called betrayal, from the general sense, should not, because, the body did not betrayal, but, from another sense, I think, this is betrayal, and is the most severe punishment for betrayal, because, the heart has been betrayed, and there is no soul of the body to make love with a masturbator to make love and what difference. We do this is cheating? I saw a traditional sense, I should not look at a woman, and naked, but my eyes are innocent, is passive reception of the outside world, if this is considered cheating, then the reality of watching other people have sex, watching the third level, watching porn, that is not a greater cheating.
Then again, if we two like before, not like now, not like a red face, not so sincere relative, my eyes did not see your naked body, but my heart, but has been imagining the look of your naked body, although, I can not see through your clothes to see your carcass, but I have the heart, I have the mind but has been thinking of having sex with you, you say, this is not betrayal. And on the contrary, I saw your carcass, but did not start to think, the heart also do not want to have sex with you, I love my girlfriend, I cherish my family, then this is not betrayal. On the surface, the latter is more serious, but, in my opinion, the latter can not be called betrayal. Because, there is no betrayal of the heart.