See so many people write out their own sexual experience, I also decided to put myself in these months of distress and repression, trapped in my experience to write out. First of all, make a self-introduction, I am 29 years old this year, and my husband has been married for three years, one year after marriage, go abroad to study, so far two years abroad, my husband is still working at home, has always been, although there is the pain of lovesickness, but it is also considered peaceful, but in recent months, due to my lust, so that I make a lot of sorry husband’s things, so far still struggling with anguish … …
From childhood to adulthood, I am the good girl in the eyes of the people, because my parents are very strict tutelage, my thinking is also very traditional, junior high and high school classmates began to fall in love early, I feel that this is a shameful thing, very unimpressed, the mind is in the study, and ultimately to excel in the Shanghai Jiaotong University, my parents are very happy about this, I am also very honored. So came to Shanghai to college, many students in the university began to fall in love, that time, although it can be accepted, but I have not had a boyfriend, not no one chased me, the university chased me a lot of people, but I always think that the first love must find a very like themselves. Has been to the third year of college, only to make the first boyfriend, we love each other at first sight, together for two years time is really very happy, although so, I have always held fast to their own line of defense, only to offer my first kiss, because I have always thought that their most valuable first time must be left to their husbands, we are now still in college, for the future can not be sure, although we are very much in love. Sure enough, graduated from college, each go their own way, he went back to his hometown of Qingdao, my parents insisted that I stay in Shanghai development, so forced to break up.
My luck is not bad, with excellent grades in college and excellent foreign language, in foreign companies to find a white-collar job, as my parents wish to stay in Shanghai. After the start of work there are men chasing me, coworkers and friends also help me introduce, but those people in the community do not have the kind of feeling of love when the university. I have been relatively high on the emotional requirements, rather than a rogue is my purpose, and I’m still relatively passive in terms of feelings, even if I look at the good feeling, if people did not take the initiative, I will not go to fight. So working in Shanghai for two years, has been single. Slowly with the growth of age, the family began to be anxious, especially the mother, has always hoped that I can find a Shanghai locals to settle down.
26 years old that year, my friend introduced me to a, this time without a serious introduction, we go out together to play, her boyfriend’s friends, but we all know know is to bring each other to see, just did not explicitly say. This man is a year older than me, Shanghai locals, work well, engaged in the IT industry, looks although not handsome, but the size is okay, Sze Wen Wen, wearing a pair of glasses, talk is also more decent, so the first impression to me is quite good. After meeting, he did not like those men in the past, rushed to about me, every day to send SMS, call, so that people hair and let me feel very hungry, random is a woman to be a man, I do not like this. He is always just right, occasionally about me to eat a meal, see a concert and so on, every time I get along with the feeling is quite pleasant, so for his date, I am happy to accept every time.
Over time, it worked out, and we were officially together.
My parents are very satisfied with him, people honest and decent, work is also good, there is a matrimonial home in Shanghai, look is also good, all of his conditions are in line with the requirements of my parents. More rare is that his parents also like me, Shanghai people are willing to find a foreigner as a daughter-in-law is not much, good in his parents are intellectuals, probably see my appearance gentle and virtuous, education and work are good it, but also very much in favor of our marriage. To put it mildly, like his condition is also considered good, I still pick what it is, they are not young, do not look forward to the wind and snow night? Moreover, this year to get along with down, his character is good, to me is also very good, we are together although there is no kind of sensational love, but also warm and happy, I am not also should be contented. So at the urging of both parents, we got married after a year of love. I finally realized my principles, to give myself intact to the husband, when he found me or a virgin, very touched, seriously did not expect like me, looks and body are not bad girls, to the age of 26 years old can still remain is a virgin body, he felt very lucky, said he would be good to me for life.
Married one year of life in general is still very loving, he does care for me in every way, I also love him with all my heart. But I am still very eager to have been the desire, I would like to go abroad to study, the university has this desire, then looked at a classmate to study abroad, heart envy, a heart also hope to take advantage of the young to go out to see, but the cost of self-funded study is really too high, although my family conditions can also be, but a year more than 100,000 cost is really a little bit too much, and my parents think that I Shanghai Jiaotong University graduates can stay in Shanghai to work is also very good, a girl does not have to go abroad. I think it’s good that I can work in Shanghai after graduating from Shanghai Jiaotong University, so it’s not necessary for a girl to go abroad.
But after I graduated from college, I still went to New Oriental on weekends while I was working, and New Oriental was full of people who wanted to go abroad, and under that atmosphere, my desire to study abroad became stronger and stronger. Eventually, I took 630 TOEFL, and secretly hid my husband to declare many foreign universities for graduate school, and I didn’t expect that the OFFER really came down, and one university even gave me a full scholarship, and I was really excited to tell my husband about this news. Although I knew that my husband did not want to go abroad very much and did not want me to go, I still did not want to give up this opportunity, and hoped that my husband and I would study abroad together, and I also intended to help him apply for a school, but my husband said that he had a good career in Shanghai, and he did not want to go abroad, and my parents-in-law were not too happy, so I was very disappointed.
After a few days, my husband took the initiative to tell me that he had thought about it and that studying abroad was what I had always wanted to do, and that it should support me, but for the time being, for the sake of our future, he would rather stay in the country to develop his career first because there was a career for him here. He will make money to support me to study. My husband also tried his best to help me convince his parents. To tell you the truth, I am really grateful to my husband, but I didn’t ask him for a penny, I think it is already very rare for him to be so tolerant of me and think about me, and I can’t take his money to study anymore. So I took my savings of two years since I started working and left the country alone.
When I went abroad, I had a scholarship for tuition, and I worked in a Chinese restaurant after school, plus I was usually quite frugal, so I was able to take care of myself financially and didn’t need my husband’s financial support. After I started attending classes, I met a sister, Fang, who was about the same age as me and had just come from China to study. The difference was that she and her husband were both skilled immigrants, but her husband was still working in China, and it took a whole year before he could come over to get together, so she came over to study on her own first. The two of us are almost the same situation, so it is also relatively close, so the two of them shared a two-room apartment to live together, usually a quick cooking, eating, shopping, chatting, life is not boring. So we lived together for a year.
In this year my life is very simple, every day is a class, part-time job, chatting with my husband on the Internet, telephone. Occasionally have the time to root fang together shopping, watch a movie, but we never bubble bar. But there are times, especially late at night, or will be very lonely, very think of my husband. Although my husband often call me, video, but still can not solve the pain of longing. A year abroad, I went back to China twice, once in the summer vacation went back for 2 months, Christmas went back for 20 days, as long as there is a holiday, I will go back to see my husband. My husband also said he missed me. Married for a year, I do not feel that I need sex very much, every time is also the husband’s request, the most wife, I think I should cooperate, although my husband can often make me reach orgasm, but I do not particularly want. But after going abroad, perhaps with the age, perhaps with the husband too long separation, feel the desire for sex increased quite a lot. Sometimes late at night I actually think about it, and so does my husband.
Once we video, my husband said especially want, let me take off my clothes, with him video sex, I understand my husband, heartache husband, just do it, my husband said he looked at my body in the masturbation, but also let me masturbate with him, before this, I never masturbate to myself, also do not think that women masturbation can bring pleasure for themselves, I said no, let you comfortable on the good, but my husband bias does not comply, and had to make me to the The camera also began to rub their own pussy, for the sake of my husband, I also began. Hubby masturbated himself while teaching me how to do it, but also said those words of love to me, let me close my eyes and imagine that we are having sex, I followed my husband’s method, slowly rubbing his own pussy, imagining having sex with my husband, listening to my husband’s increasingly rapid breathing from over there, I unconsciously rubbed my clitoris harder and harder, and actually orgasm came, and it was the first time that I knew that masturbation can also bring orgasm to a woman. Hubby said he also ejaculated.
Since then, we often rely on video sex to solve each other’s needs, and I feel so sorry for both of us. But since I started masturbating myself, I think about it a lot, but sometimes my husband is busy at work and I can’t touch him online, and when I want it for myself, I start masturbating, lying on the bed imagining what it would be like to have sex with my husband, masturbating myself, and having an orgasm. In spite of this, I have never thought of going out and looking for a one-night stand. Nor did I ever want to go out and have sex with random men. It’s not that I don’t have people chasing after me. Since I don’t dress particularly maturely, many people can’t tell that I’m 29 years old and don’t know that I’m married. There was a man who worked with me in a Chinese restaurant who desperately wanted to pursue me. In school, there were also men who made advances to me, but I rejected them one by one and told them that I already had a husband. I have been abroad for more than a year, my husband and I have a very good relationship, I never thought I would one day betray my husband.
In January of this year, Fang said she had a college friend who had recently changed jobs and wanted to come from another city to work in our area, so she asked Fang to find him an apartment, and Fang said he was a nice guy, so let’s rent him the living room so we can save a little bit of rent. I don’t have a problem with it. Anyway, I’m not at home during the day because I usually go to class and work part-time, and most of the time I go home at night and stay in my room, so the living room is just empty. So he moved in. His name is Feng, one year younger than me, big eyes, tall, more knowledgeable than my husband, already an immigrant, working in an accounting firm.
Fang said he was very good, college or basketball team, a lot of girls obsessed with him, but I think he does not say much, as if he is very busy at work, always leaving early and returning late, sometimes Fang and I made a meal called him to eat together, he rarely come out, many times said that they ate outside. Usually the opportunity to meet is not too much, meet and greet, exchange a few pleasantries. However, his overall impression is not bad, he is very quiet, never bring friends home, but also quite clean, free will also help do a little bit of hygiene and cleanliness of the home, and he does not smoke, which is a roommate is indeed very good. In this way, the three of us live together for 3 months, more men at home is also really good, what light bulb is broken, screws loose also do not need us two women climb up and down.
In April, Phuong’s husband finally came over, so Phuong found another house to live with her husband. We didn’t want to rent the house to anyone we didn’t know, so he moved from the living room to Fang’s original room, just as he had a friend back home, leaving him a sofa, a coffee table, a TV stand, TV, DVD player and some other things, he said that otherwise he’d just put it in the living room, and his friend would have a place to stay when he came over, and that the living room wouldn’t be rented out. After Fang moved out, we began a life of two people, at first a little unnatural, after all, a man and a woman. Friends come to play at home, sometimes will also quietly joke with me, you live alone with a man, not afraid of ah? I said not to pull, and he also lived for a period of time, but also understand, he is not the kind of poor character, will mess with the man.
Indeed is also, we two people live together after, and the past is not different, he is still early morning and late at night, I can not see him in class, see also casually chat a couple of sentences, but also is his work, I study. I have never seen him deliberately close to me, probably also know that I am also a married woman, will not have any interest in me. Most of the time he comes back to stay in his room, I also stay in my room, we rarely come out. Occasionally, on weekends, we make a meal together, eat a meal, but also very serious and casual chat a couple of sentences, after eating, he washed the dishes and went into his room. Usually he even jokes rarely open to me, perhaps after all, we are not so familiar with it. So we live together for 2 months and nothing happened, I will still be in their own room at night with my husband video sex, sometimes a person masturbation.
But one day, two months later, something unexpected happened, and since then I have fallen into an irredeemable abyss ……
May when he said he was going to go abroad on a business trip for a week, the first two days I was a little scared, after all, never lived alone it, although usually the night are each to their own, but after all, there is someone at home, now suddenly quiet. But after two days, I got used to it, and felt that living alone is not bad, quite free, and want to do what I do. That week just finished the midterm exams, but also relatively free, I rented some of the disk home to watch, anyway, he is not at home, I simply get the living room, with a DVD to play, watch the big TV than the computer is much more addictive, watch two days of those TVB serials feel a little bored.
That night with my husband had said good video, when I was ready to go online to warm up with my husband, but I saw my husband’s message, said today to work overtime, can not go online to accompany me, I’m sorry. At that time, especially disappointed, so picked a piece of pornography themselves to go to the living room to watch, look at, more and more want to, is enjoying, I was too lazy to go back to the room, thought anyway, he came back the day after tomorrow, the home on my own, I lay on the sofa, while watching, while their clothes are off, began to masturbate to themselves.
I lay naked on the living room couch, closed my eyes, imagining the feeling of having sex with my husband, his own hand rubbing his labia, clitoris to the nucleus, slowly rubbing, slowly rubbing, but rubbed 20 minutes, the orgasm has not come. In the past, when I started to masturbate, a few minutes on the feeling, but with the number of masturbation had more and more, more and more does not matter, before several times, and husband video are for husband cool, pretend orgasm, in fact, did not come. But today especially want to, I do not give up continue to rub, suddenly, the door opened, peak back, he entered the door to see the TV playing the porn, I was naked lying on the sofa, is closed eyes, intoxicated to their own masturbation. He froze and stood there looking at me. I too was suddenly startled and ahhed, immediately covering my chest in shame. He suddenly approached me and said to me, Want it bad? Let me help you.
I scolded him for being shameless and told him to leave, he didn’t say anything and went back to his room. I sat on the couch by myself and froze for two minutes, I was about to go back to my room, but I didn’t realize that when I walked to the door of my room, Peak was also standing naked, blocking my doorway and not letting me in. He begged me, to help him, he was so hard, so hard. I looked down his body, such a big and stiff DD, bigger than my husband’s and thicker. The reddish glans was so itchy to look at, it was exactly the big meat stick I had longed for, I wanted it so much, but my reason told me no. I still insisted on telling him no, I said I can’t apologize to my husband.
He said, I know you want it badly too, let’s comfort each other with a little bit of each other, I promise not to go in there, so you won’t be sorry for your husband. Looking at that big meat stick, I was a little tempted, but still a little hesitant. He repeatedly assured that he must not insert, just do some edge sex, we caress each other a little, give each other masturbation to orgasm on it, he said he is really hard to be very hard, begged me to help him solve it. I finally relented, but made him swear he couldn’t penetrate me for a while.
So, in my bed, we began to entwine, hot two naked bodies cuddled together, I helped him jerk off, he rubbed my pussy lips. But we all feel not enough, he said mutual oral sex it, that will be more intense, I refused, never oral sex, with my husband have not had, how can I give other men like that, their own has not been licked by her husband, and I have always felt that oral sex is very dirty, I do not agree. He did not force me, we were like that with each other for a while, he said he still can not come out, up hard, said can not in my vagina handful of a little, he guaranteed that he will not go in, I agreed, he put the big stick to my vagina, so hard, so hot feeling, wet and slippery, he sometimes grinding my pussy lips, sometimes with the glans pounded two of my pussy, and from time to time with the big stick knocked two of my pussy, constantly in my pussy, and then the big stick in my pussy, and the big stick in my pussy, and the big stick in my pussy, and the big stick in my pussy, and the big stick in my pussy, and the big stick in my pussy, and the big stick in my pussy, and the big stick in my pussy. He kept rubbing around my pussy and sucking my nipples with his mouth, I couldn’t stand it anymore, my BB was itching, but he didn’t shoot, he was still so hard, he was really strong, and his big rod was still twisting in my BB, I finally couldn’t control it, I shouted to him, “stick it in, I’m so itchy, please stick it in me”.
He slammed into my body, I was a twitch in my heart, I know it’s over, husband, now I’m sorry for you, I still betrayed you, he pumped back and forth, I already can’t care about so much, enjoy it to the fullest, that feeling is really lustful, the first time I feel so cool and comfortable making love, I climaxed, especially strong. He also said he wanted to shoot, I hurriedly let him take out, because beforehand said not to go in, we did not bring a condom, but fortunately he controlled also good, pulled out, poured on my breasts, hot, so comfortable …… After the passion passed, I cried, I said I betrayed my husband, and I also scolded him for lying to me, said not to go in.
He said that he didn’t mean to do it, he couldn’t control it, he wanted to put it in so badly, and that I asked him to stick it in me, and that I yelled several times, begging him to stick it in. I had nothing to say. But he still said a lot of sorry to me, said never again.
After this incident, I blamed myself so much that I didn’t dare to contact my husband or answer his calls in those days. I really especially regret how I let myself fall. Those days he also try to come home very late, we almost do not meet, avoid each other, both sides are deliberately avoid it. I agonized for several days, feeling that I could not live here any longer, then I would never forget this incident, and could not face him. So I hastily found an apartment online, and a week later, I moved out, and he helped me move in, without saying anything.
I moved to a geezer’s house, a HOUSE this time, with a nice old lady landlord and a couple of other tenants. I tried to keep myself as busy as possible every day, hoping to fade away from the incident as soon as possible. At first it was fine, but it wasn’t long before the lust in my heart was eating away at me again like a poisonous bug. If this kind of thing happens once, it will happen a second time, a third time …… Chapter 2
It’s amazing how many people understand me after reading the replies I’ve gotten from everyone, it really makes me even more ashamed of myself because I didn’t restrain myself out of bitterness and self-loathing, and became more and more out of control with the indulgence of my lust. Continuing my story ……
It’s been more than a week since I moved to the old lady’s house, I try my best not to think about these things, but it’s still hard to control, especially at night, when I masturbate, I always think of that day when I had sex with Peak, and masturbate myself while thinking about it. In the past, when I masturbated, all I fantasized about was having sex with my husband. Now my mind is actually filled with scenes from that night with him. Even when I was having video sex with my husband, all I could think about was having sex with Peak. I know it’s not right, but I don’t know why, maybe it’s because I find it exciting, and only thinking about the feeling of Peak penetrating me can make me masturbate to an orgasm.
Now video with my husband doesn’t work for me anymore, and I have to pretend to satisfy him every time. But who will satisfy me? I was really getting horny, but still resisted not going to him. Two weeks after the move a night, peak suddenly call me, I saw his phone is very excited, picked up, his voice is very low, said that he misses me, hesitated for a while, and then asked if you can come over to see me. I do not give myself time to consider flatly refused, he closed the line. Hang up the phone, but I was very lost, and had to fantasize about having sex with him to masturbate, but the pleasure of masturbation is less and less. In this way, another month, he did not call me again, we have not seen each other, I thought our things should end here.
Suddenly one day, Fang called me, said her birthday weekend, intended to call a few friends to go to the house to get together, and by the way, also take a look at their new home, of course, but also called me and peak. Originally I did not want to go, but Fang’s birthday, do not go to too say too, think about it anyway, so many people together, it’s not a big deal, so I agreed.
That day when I arrived at Fang’s house, I really saw Feng, I hadn’t seen him for more than a month, and it was a bit embarrassing to see him again, but every time he looked at me his eyes were like fire, making me feel as if I were standing in front of him without any clothes on, which was very unnatural.
Luckily, there are many people, we did not speak alone, so we all ate together, and after dinner, playing cards, losing and drinking. Later, I look at the time is not early, thinking of the weekend also with the old convention of the Internet, said to go first, the peak said he also want to go, because he has a car, said by the way to send me back. I said no, I’ll just take the bus. Fang and her husband disagreed, saying that it was so late, and I drank a little wine, although not very drunk, but also a little dizzy, do not feel comfortable with me to take the bus back. It was raining heavily outside, so I couldn’t insist on anything else and agreed to let Feng send me.
On the way, we both did not say anything, he drove the car, I sat quietly, just hope that can quickly to home. Finally arrived at the door of my home, I said thank you, was ready to get off, peak suddenly a pull me, crazy kiss me, hold me hard to grab my tits. He said that this month he wanted my body wanted to go crazy, he ignored my resistance, roughly peeled off my clothes, sucking my nipples with his mouth, I finally could not stand it, I also wanted to a long time, under the stimulation of alcohol, began to respond to his kisses, his hand involuntarily reached down to his bottom, couldn’t wait to pull out his JJ, his bottom is already on top of the top of the tent like a tent. I finally pulled it out, the jock I’d thought about for countless nights, already hot and wet and sticky, and I held his cock. He stopped suddenly, leaned in close to my ear, and asked, “Is it very much wanted? I was already so wet down there that I had to nod, and he said, Satisfy you.
So drove the car to an empty parking lot behind my house and stopped. All I could say to my husband was in my mind, I’m sorry, husband, just let me relax one more time, one last time. At 12:00 midnight, we were having crazy sex in the car. It was pouring rain outside, but we were sweating and lusting in the car. Maybe it was because it was the first time I had sex with a man in a car, it felt especially exciting and awesome. I realized that I turned out to be so fond of exciting sex too.
That night, we did in the car for more than 2 hours, he made me 3 consecutive orgasms. The 2nd orgasm just finished, my husband’s phone rang, I know he must see me still not online anxious, so pick up the phone, weakly answered, when the peak of the JJ has not been pulled out, is still in my vagina resting on it. Hubby asked me how, said waiting for me for a long time, how are not online, I had to excuse that a little cold sick, so early rest. Hubby was concerned and told me to get some rest and pay more attention to my health. While talking to my husband, I felt the peak is slowly starting to twitch again, I can not stand more and more, exhale are going to start to rush up, had to hang up the phone immediately. Hubby’s call did not remind me to stop, hair but more and more stimulate my pleasure.
Hang up the phone, the peak asked me is not my husband phone, I said yes, he said, you talk to your husband on the phone, vagina is still stuffed with another man’s cock, is not it very cool, I listened to him this, suddenly feel strengthened, feel that I am really very lewd, began to moan, he saw my reaction, continued to say, your husband just watched you in the car with other men in the heat of the dry, I want to be in front of you! I’m going to fuck you in front of your husband, fuck you to death, he said as he pumped his cock harder and harder, making my B water flow.
Silent night, just hear us plugging the sound of meat grinding. I lie in the car seat, twisting the body, he continued to say, you look outside the gentle and virtuous, I did not think that the bones of such a lecherous, you slut ah, behind the back of her husband in the car to other men plug, do you want me to plug ah? I don’t know why, I heard these words, especially hard, before having sex with my husband, my husband will never say these, I’m also at most En En grunts implicitly called a few times. Today in the car, I actually like Feng said I was slutty, called me a slut, and begged him, told him to fuck me hard, fuck me, plug me to death. I didn’t even think I’d say those words. But it was really enjoyable, it was so good that I was a mess, I had another orgasm, and Peak cummed, this time he cummed inside me, and he fucked me so hard that I had 3 orgasms in 2 hours, and I was almost about to pass out.
We lay back and rested for a few moments, the chair in the back seat of the car was already lewd. We finally did get up and straightened out our clothes, both of us dripping with sweat. I was embarrassed and anxious to get out of the car, Peak said he would sit with him for a while, he said he knew I would not be able to sleep when I got back tonight either, and that I would be bitter and blame myself again, and that he didn’t want me to go home alone with my thoughts, and said to stay with him and talk for a while. We just sat in his car and talked. This is the first time we formally chat, before we chat are a hit and miss, after the last time to have sex, but also just he apologized to me many times, and then went back to the house, and then has been avoiding each other, not even said.
Today after we had sex for the 2nd time, we actually sat in the car and started talking. I asked him what impression he had on me before, he said he thought I was a gentle and virtuous woman, the brain should also be quite smart, should be good grades, often see me to Fang lecture, but I absolutely nothing non-thinking, he never have thoughts about married women. And I’m too civilized to be considered an attractive woman to him, he likes more lively girls. Before he saw me masturbating that time, he really didn’t care much about me. But when he saw that scene, actually especially impulsive, but also with me to do, is his own did not expect things.
He always regretted it afterward, so he didn’t stand in the way when I moved. But after I moved away, he said that when he closed his eyes, he remembered that I was naked, lying on the sofa, closed his eyes and masturbated to himself, too charming. I said your condition is not bad, why not find a girlfriend, he said before there were a few, split. Currently in our city has not been a few months, coupled with busy work, did not find. And now the start-up stage, for the time being, do not want to find. I’ve always felt that I could get by without a woman. Although he knows that he is very strong, but did not feel that he has a lot of sexual needs, but that time with me did, he experienced a never-before-seen pleasure, said with a few previous girlfriends do, do not have that kind of feeling, I do not know if it is because I am someone else’s wife, so I feel stimulated.
He said that in the days after I moved away, he masturbated significantly more often, every time he masturbated to himself thinking about me naked, lying on the couch masturbating to myself. A few times he even lay down on the couch in the living room where I used to lie to smell me. One night he couldn’t help himself, the night he called me, he wanted to come to me, but I flatly refused, and he didn’t think he should think that way about me again. So for the first time in his life, he went to find a prostitute, but when he did, looking at the prostitute, he said he had no feeling at all, he finally did not do it, he said that only when he saw me to have such a strong desire, and only with me to make love to let him experience such a thrill.
He said quite frankly, I know you have a husband and love your husband, it’s not right for us to do this, and I’m not sure I really love you, all I can say is that I’m hopelessly enamored with your body. He said, I can see that you are the same, and although you are trying to restrain yourself, we do manage to satisfy each other. In itself in a foreign country is very lonely, why do you have to suffer yourself, we are already like this, I do not want to deliberately restrain myself anything, let’s be happy one day at a time, and give each other comfort when we need it, okay? I am silent, he said those feelings, said to my heart, I am not it, but the conscience of the condemnation let me do not agree with him quickly. We sat in the car and talked until more than 3:00 am, I went home to sleep, lying in bed or tossing and turning can not sleep, feeling another man in my body body fluids, I even worried that I will not be pregnant, right, fortunately later on the period came, so that I often breathe a sigh of relief.
Since then, two sex, coupled with that night of deep conversation, so that I and the peak of a lot of familiar, he also became more reckless, no longer call me to ask me if I can come to my house, but every night want to directly rushed to my door, and every time to come, we are bound to do, I can not resist him, in fact, if he does not come, and sometimes I would even want to, but never again took the initiative to ask for it. Later that week, he came 3, 4 times a week, he said he saw me want to do me, every time I came to my house, the first few times into the room can not wait to strip my clothes, hard to do a pass, every time we are very dedicated, very satisfied. Then began to sometimes after work directly over, come to my home to eat together.
Since that time in the car he found that I like him to talk about my husband to fuck me, sometimes come to my house, I am cooking in the kitchen, my husband called me, as long as my husband called, if he is next to me, he began to kiss me, touch me, and then slowly touched to my bottom, I while my husband coped with him, while pushing him away, but it is no use, he can every time to touch me down there out of the water, I can not stand it so I had to hang up the phone, and then I especially like that feeling, the more I feel my inner slut, the crazier I get. We are still so every now and then, usually he came to my house, sometimes we do in the room, he inserted me, while saying that I guess my tenants know that he came, just to fuck me, that are listening outside the door, the more he said that the more excited I am, and so is he, but afterward, every time I ran into the old lady and the tenants are afraid of them to really hear it, and I feel embarrassed.
This went on for another month, and although I refused him first every time he came, I still put up a fight every time. He suddenly stopped coming and didn’t come for a week, I kind of couldn’t take it anymore, and now even though I still video with my husband sometimes, every time it’s just a pretense to satisfy him. A week did not do with him, I can not stand it, but I still held back not to call him, and after a few days, he still did not come, I think she probably tired of me, or not, can not always go on like this. I want to forget, but lust always grows in my heart, I really want to take the initiative to go to his home to find him, but still hold back. But the weather is getting hotter and hotter, when moving in a hurry, a lot of things did not take over, the fan is still in the original house, I do not know whether to make excuses or what, but that night is really hot, I plan to go to get the fan, I still have the key, so I did not notify him, went directly to get it, I think if he really lost interest in me, I took the fan will also be gone.
Besides, he may not be at home, maybe he found the right girl, went out on a date. So I went by myself, a door, no lights in the living room, I think he really is not at home, a loss, so drilled into the locker to find a fan, after a while, was suddenly behind a hug, turn around and look at is the peak, he said you finally came, want to die I started kissing me, I pushed him away, said you are at home a, what are you doing these days, he smiled obliquely, and said that is not think I want to want to, I did not pay any attention to him, he said These days I deliberately do not look for you, I just want to try you can bear how long not to look for me, never I take the initiative, as if I go to your home every time you look for you, just to take you to vent a bit, you always have to resist a couple of, so I feel like a special beast, there is a feeling of forced good for a whore. We are together is mutual need, is mutual, is not it? I said, thought you had a favorite girl, make girlfriend.
He laughed and said, after being with you, my mind is all about you, how can I be interested in other women ah, said hugged me, began to kiss me, unbuttoned me, removed my clothes, this time I was very meek, very cooperative, he pulled me into the bathroom, we both took a shower together, and then finally for the first time in his home, our former home, and again, this time we suck each other for the first time lol first time giving a man a blowjob, and it wasn’t actually my husband. The oral sex felt really good, I actually enjoyed it. I greedily sucked his big glans, he also licked my B, sometimes slow, sometimes fast, we played six or nine, after the orgasm, we are all hungry, go to the kitchen to get something to eat, after eating was going to let him send me home, he said that we are also romantic, go to the balcony to look at the stars, so took two deck chairs to sit on the balcony and look at the stars.
Tonight the moonlight is very beautiful, he looked at me, and began to kiss me, hold me, gradually we breathe again sharply, I want to go back to the room, the peak of a pull me, the two of us in the balcony of the sky on the floor of the dry, and let me stimulate to the extreme, with the peak of the together, he can always let me experience a different kind of stimulation, that night I did not go home, the two of us for the first time in the night, woke up the next morning, open your eyes inevitably again! The next morning, I woke up, opened my eyes and had to do it again, we did it 3 times that night. I went to class the next day, the whole person is weak, no strength, peak said he liked to see me being his dry exhaustion, rolled his eyes look, he is particularly cool. I told Feng that we should be a little more moderate in the future, too often is not good for the body.
He said he could not help it, as long as he was with me, he had a sex drive that he could not restrain, and blamed me for turning him into a sex-starved man. In fact, I’m the same, he said we may be born in a previous life, touching together is a dry fire.
So far we have been in this relationship for over 3 months now. Touching together will have sex, and began to change different positions, front, back, standing, doing, he held me I leaned against the wall of the bathroom to fuck me, have tried, I think I am more and more slutty, but also learn the heroine inside the film, sitting on the peak of the glans, wriggle body crazy shouting, their own back and forth pumping. Whenever this time, the peak let me think of my husband if he saw this scene will be how, he kept calling me a slut, slut, the more I crazy.
We also did in many occasions, my kitchen, bathroom, and once in the cinema, foreign theaters at night, we sat in the last row, the film is also a bit of restriction, while watching, the peak has a side to touch me, looking at the look have a feeling, the peak so that I sat on him, I wore a skirt, he unlocked the front of the leakage of the penis began to insert me, that time is also super exciting. Although I am now enjoying sex to bring me happiness, but still inside the conscience of the condemnation, I began to push the study of busy, and husband contact becomes less.
Originally, the summer vacation in August intended to go back to a month, but also TO said to review here CA can not go back, when I told my husband can not go back in the summer, I can hear my husband is very disappointed, but I really do not dare to go back to face my husband, I feel that I am now already broken, my husband knows that this is certainly not forgive me, I want to confess to my husband and thought of divorce, not for the peak, I know that the peak with the peak will not have a result. There will be no result, he never said he wanted to marry me, I have not asked, maybe we are not sure each other in the end love each other, or love each other’s body it.
But I really think that I am no longer worthy of being my husband’s wife, think of when I married him or a pure virgin, after marriage abroad for more than two years actually turned into a slut. I can’t go back, I don’t have the courage to tell my husband, because it’s really shameful, and I know that my husband will not be able to say it when he hears all this, I don’t want him to suffer so much hurt and shock, I don’t know what to do, I can only live one day at a time, so I mustn’t take the first step in the wrong direction, once my own defenses are open, I’ll be more and more degraded… …