I met my first girlfriend Rainbow in high school, she was a grade below me. Always treated me well and took care of me. It felt like she was treating me like her own brother. Maybe it is touched or other reasons, high school life is almost over. I fell in love with her, at that time do not know what is called love, not clear about their feelings for her can not be called love. But I had gotten used to her care, and at that time, I simply wanted to wait until I was old enough to get married, so I could get married to her. And then the rest of my life, plain and simple, I like that kind of quiet life without desire.
The most intimate behavior with Rainbow stops at kissing. I’m more of a traditional kind of guy, wanting to save the most beautiful moment for the wedding night. And she also said that this life is my person, no matter when in her heart my position is irreplaceable. Touched by her this turn of phrase, but also in the heart secretly vowed that this life must be good to Hong. Almost without warning, Hong and a friend of mine, Hai, had sex. I couldn’t even believe my ears when people told me about it. The words that came to me, which I still remember clearly, were that Hai told everyone at a party that he had fucked my girlfriend and was actually a virgin. Then my girlfriend went to his house every day at noon to ask him to do that, so that he could not afford to come. I asked rainbow, she did not recognize and said I do not believe her, angry at me. But in the end, I was allowed to see this with my own eyes, and Hong still didn’t give me any explanation. That was the most embarrassing day of my life, long so big few ever suffered such an insult, angry I found someone to beat them both. After that, I went to the field, really do not want to stay in that place. To this day, I still do not understand why Hong did this, no matter from which side, the sea is not comparable to me. In fact, half a year after I left, Hong got married to a man more than 10 years older than her. Before I got married, Hong called me and said only one thing, it seems that we really do not have a destiny. I’ve been thinking about where I went wrong, and for the first time I understand why people say that a woman’s heart is like a needle in the bottom of the sea.
It didn’t end there, soon after I had another girlfriend, Nee, I should say it was love at first sight, I was totally attracted to her and she liked me a lot. At this time, my heart is not like before, after I have reached a certain level of relationship with her, I began to think about how to ML with her, one day in my home, after I finished undressing her, she asked me to respect her, said that before marriage can not ML, but also said that sooner or later, she is my person, don’t rush in the moment. I was so embarrassed by what I said, and thought about it. I try to control myself when we are alone together in the future. I did not expect in our marriage, but she and a stranger ML, according to her words, the man just fell out of love, she just want to comfort her, I did not expect to later have sex, she said she did not want to, at first completely stupid. She asked me to forgive her and said her favorite is still me. I’m going to faint, this is a reason, women really fucking shameless.
Two lessons, enough for me to understand one thing, never to care about what women think in their hearts, the key is what men think in their hearts, think and do. Women do not deserve respect, in a word, women are used to day, you do not day others on the day. To the mouth of the meat, you do not hurry to eat, and finally regret are too late. Later on, proved that I was right.
I have never been in a serious relationship, always go to seduce those women who have boyfriends, maybe it is revenge, maybe it is trying to understand more deeply the heart of women. I remember once and a man and four women to play, the night we live in a private house, six people crowded in a bed, sleep to the middle of the night. I began to touch the girl sleeping next to me Juan, see she did not react, the courage to slowly bigger some to. Later I undressed her clothes, climbed on her body, only to find that she was awake. At that time, I did not care about the other person is awake without, she is very cooperative with me, but also with the hand to cover their mouths, so as not to make a sound. After finishing, I went to relieve myself, and I saw that my JJ was covered with blood, and my heart thumped. The next day, she quietly pulled me aside and told me that I had taken her first time. At first I thought she was going to say let me responsible for the words, I did not expect, but she said that this do not go around to say, and I will end here, because she has a boyfriend, and soon to be married.
The history is amazingly the same, only the roles were switched, and I wonder if it was ever like that with my girlfriend. When I got home, things had been quiet for over a month, and I never told anyone about it. Instead, she called me and said she wanted to see me. Then we went to a hotel room, and after that it’s been five or six years since then, and she and I have been coming out for a night every two or three months, and she got married four years ago. I’ve asked her a couple of times what this is, and asked her what’s really going on in her mind, and if her husband can’t satisfy her. She said her husband was great at that and that I was just a lover. She said she didn’t know why, but in her mind she was always looking forward to meeting me. She also thought about ending it, but just couldn’t do it. I asked her what she would do if her husband found out, and she said that if she found out and if he wanted a divorce, then she would divorce. But even if he did, he wouldn’t marry me. In fact, I have the same kind of feelings for Juan. I really don’t understand what women are all about, and the more women I come into contact with, the harder it is to understand.
While maintaining this relationship with Juan, I hooked up with quite a few more women. It wasn’t until one time later that a woman, after ML with me, lay in my arms and called her boyfriend as if I didn’t exist at all, women are natural actors. That phone call lasted a whole half hour, especially when she told her boyfriend to pay attention to the weather and put on more clothes, did her boyfriend ever think that his girlfriend was lying naked in another man’s arms. This woman also told me that she had never given her boyfriend a KJ and thought it was disgusting. But she wondered why she was willing to give me a KJ, and it felt so natural and agreeable. To understand a woman’s true inner thoughts, it seems that the only way is to be a lover, not a husband. As a lover you can know exactly how many men she has had relationships with and how many one night stands she has had, but a husband can never know these things.
I really feel so sad, what is wrong with women. In their mouths say that men are bad, have they ever thought of themselves, maybe they just want to use men’s bad to cover up their own inner turmoil, a slap in the face, there is a bad man, there are 1 + N bad women with which to pair up this is the fact of the reality of the society, women you can deny it? I don’t know if I will fall in love again, I believe there are good women in this world, but I can’t meet them. I’m afraid, really afraid.
Woman, please give me a reason to believe in you.
I’m numb to the fact that the women I’ve laid underneath have told me about their men’s faults. That he’s not gentle, not romantic, broke, and looking for a woman outside. It seems she’s forgotten that she’s lying under a man who’s not her husband. Women always forget what they’re doing when they talk about men. I just smile and understand.
What can I say? After a man found out about his wife’s relationship with me, her wife actually explained to her that she was playing cards with me, and the loser gave the winner a massage, and she won. Then she couldn’t control herself, so she… I can imagine her husband’s face when he heard that.
Although it’s the man who loses out, these experiences are enough to make me realize that it’s really easy to ML a woman, and that she’s a slut at heart. A little bit of seduction is enough to make her surrender. I know very well that if the woman herself is not willing, unless she has no way to resist, the woman in this regard has no self-control, as long as the love to her up, she is absolutely cater to you. I never force women, I only seduce them.
Then I met a girl six years younger, in ML, and I didn’t look for her anymore. She called me and asked me why I stopped seeing her, but I didn’t answer. She asked me if it was because she wasn’t CN and I said no. I was shocked by her answer: “I know men care about this, they always think it’s good luck to see red. I like you, I will help you find a CN.” God, what is she thinking? Women are so weird. They’re all different.
I’m getting really old, and I’m starting to get scared. Am I just going to live my life like this until I’m old? Maybe I’ll never have the chance to do the “most romantic thing” in my life.
I often have a heartbreaking feeling when I see young people in their 20s these days. They are squandering love and ignorance at will. As a generation of only children, I really don’t know how their parents are teaching them, the idiocy is scary. They themselves don’t even know it yet, thinking it’s all fashionable and trendy. The future of the Chinese people is dark. But it’s out of my hands, that incident a decade or so ago changed the previous method of education and turned this generation into snobs, idiots, cold-blooded and heartless.
Here are a few examples, a while ago a girl in the Sichuan Division of the online acquaintance, called me out for a drink at night. They said that eight girls from their two dormitories were coming, and specifically mentioned that a few of them were big girls. At first I thought it was really just to come out and drink, but when I arrived I realized that the place was not right. It was a club that specialized in getting high. The girl asked me if I had connections to buy drugs. I called my cousin, who gave me the phone number of a teammate he knew from his time at the club. I still haven’t figured out what goes on in these little girls’ heads, a guy a shake, not a top. But also to suck a few road K, what not good to play this, students can have how much money, parents’ money is really so good to earn?
Calling them idiots might not have felt right, and the guy I called was honest at first. Later, a few of that group of girls were given a black ball-shaped pill, I didn’t know what it was at the time. Later, the man on the phone said to me that it is an aphrodisiac, but also said that in the future there is such a thing, just look for him, the drug 50% discount. Those girls did not even look at the take over and put into the mouth. Like this club room have a bathroom, I called the man, in those girls drug up, dragged two into the bathroom, what happened I don’t need to say more. What’s more, the girls called me to come out and play again a few days later. I don’t get high on drugs, and I remember when I said that, those girls looked at me like I was an alien. As if I wasn’t an earthling. I also really doubt that I’m from this era.
What happened later was even more surprising, I remember one time I asked if the men would be happy in your school where there were more women than men. One of the women said, “Do you know our motto? Our motto is not to let a single virgin graduate from our school, and at that moment I was dumbfounded. What kind of world is this, I asked tentatively are you not afraid of the future marriage, the husband cares about you are not CN anymore? Early to do early to enjoy ah, now what era, who still care about that. If I cared, I would have kicked him out. Who taught them to be like this. I’ve been thinking about whether or not to extend my sinful hand to this kind of girls, and finally when I haven’t thought about it clearly, they reached out to me first. Have you ever had a threesome or a foursome? Let’s not go back to school tonight, let’s go to a room, okay. The three of us will play 4P with you. Although I think I have had countless experiences, I have never seen this kind of situation. Facts have proved that I do not have the ability to play three at the same time, the last shot out of the water and scarce, that night made me a whole month do not want to touch a woman again. One girl told me that there were several guys after her at the same time, and that she was planning to marry whichever guy worked the hardest when she graduated. If those guys knew she was like that, would they still be looking for her?
Within a few days of this, a girl called me and said she didn’t want to live at school and wanted to move in with another girl at my house. I really didn’t have the language, they all had boyfriends and the guys didn’t know what to think. I can’t believe they are not jealous of their girlfriends when they know they are living in my house. One day when we went to a disco together, I hugged their girlfriends in front of them and kept sanding their asses. Those boys actually smiled sunny smiles one by one. Luckily, it didn’t stay at my house for long or I wouldn’t have been able to live with it. The only good thing about being with these college girls is that it doesn’t cost anything? This point they are still very conscious, every time is AA, even the room is also AA. maybe they really just looking for excitement, looking for enjoyment it.
Many people may not believe these things, and I don’t think I would believe it if someone else told me, but it’s true. Even if I have experienced it, I often feel like I am dreaming, the Chinese people are really finished. A while ago I read a posting about a girl who was still a CN when she graduated and felt that she could not hold her head up in front of her classmates. As if it was a shame for her to be a CN, she went to a guy in her class who was not usually a womanizer and asked him to break her C. It was so unbelievable, but I believe it’s absolutely true. It’s not at all surprising that such a thing would happen to this generation of idiots.
Other people’s wives lying in their own arms, the beginning of the time I was very excited, the world and one more man cuckold. A long time on the numbness, no matter I slept with more women, I still feel lonely, so many women in no one is really belong to me, I need a stable and detailed emotions, but so many years I have done something. I think, I will still get married, will not ask her to be faithful to me, as long as she remembers and I have a family, willing to accompany me until old age. In the decades of years, and who dares to guarantee that they will not be tempted to not make the slightest mistake, people are precisely because of the feelings so it is more difficult to do this.
If there’s a man out there who doesn’t believe that women are the same as men, go ahead and give it a try. If you don’t look disgusting, as long as you have a couple bucks in your purse, act funny, and be confident. It’s easy to hook up. Even if you meet a pretty girl on the street, it’s no problem at all. And the eyes are very important, even if she is beautiful, you need to look at her embarrassed, close look. Don’t look at her with lust, but with confusion and sincerity. Try a few more times, you’ll get better with experience. As for money, you don’t need much. At least you should have money in your purse for dinner, fun and a room. Don’t be afraid of rejection, if you like one, you can keep her company every day, but don’t let her feel annoyed, this is the degree you can control. Women’s hearts are actually very soft, a lot of women do not know how to reject people, and women’s vanity is too strong, someone to appreciate her she will be very happy. Especially after a year or two of marriage is the best to get, if the newlyweds will not be easy to hook up. As for why, I don’t have to tell you, you should understand.
I met a woman three years ago and almost changed the trajectory of my plans for the first half of my life for her. I guess I really was bad to the bone, and for the first time I felt like my heart was being stabbed with a knife.
I picked her up at the dinner table. That year when my family was having a birthday dinner at the roast duck restaurant on General Mansion Road, my mom said something like, that girl is so pretty, it would be great to be my daughter-in-law. When we finished eating, I walked up to her and looked straight at her for a long time before I said to her, “You’re so pretty, my mom wants you to be her daughter-in-law. She smiled faintly, I was really mesmerized, I have not seen such a beautiful woman since I grew up, even smile can smile so beautiful, the original real people can be as beautiful as the painting. In fact, I don’t look good myself, it’s just that my guts are practiced and my eyes are practiced straight.
I said to her to take the phone to me to leave a number, she hesitated to hand me the phone, I dialed one back to myself, and then told her to buy her dinner some other day. I called her the next day and told her where I would wait for her after work, and hung up without waiting for her to say yes.
At the time I didn’t even think about whether she would come or not, but I know women are curious. If you are obedient to her, she ignored you instead, if you have been in the momentum overwhelmed her, then you have everything for the woman is tempting. Colleagues used to give me a nickname ─ ─ Ximen pure, meaning the first pure Ximen, pure nature is false pure, irrigation to Ximen two words is not all due to the fault of Ximen Qing, because at first my family lives in Chengdu Ximen, meaning Ximen the first rotten people. Later, people said I don’t need to bait also have temptation, so renamed for the temptation without hooks. So then when she came to me, I was a little surprised but not surprised. Women are so strange, when a man makes a good start, she comes to seize the initiative. And without consulting me, she asked me to go with her to Ito supermarket to buy food then go to her house to make it herself.
I’m someone who likes to cook for myself but not eat, and she was very appreciative of my handiwork until it was time to eat, when we introduced ourselves to each other.
I told her about my past, my experience. Should not say, I drum brain all said, in front of a beautiful man will become retarded, not to mention that she is so beautiful and domineering, so that people can not bear to say panic, hate can not be pulled out of the heart to her. I spoke painfully, and she listened intently. The feeling of tearing off the mask is so easy, do not believe in friends, do not believe in women, have been living in a self-enclosed world. Inside is lonely, someone to listen to your story is your honor, let alone a beautiful woman. She asked me if my mom really wanted her to be her daughter-in-law, and I said yes, it was my mom who gave me the courage to come to you. Still that faint smile, I like women who love to smile. I’m such a lousy person, in front of her also did not have half a little uneasy thoughts. Maybe I really love it again, not sure if I still have love cells.
A few days later she asked me to see a movie with her again and she asked me if I liked her. I said yes. She also said then why do you not even hold my hand, everything is so natural descending. I asked her, I have no money and no appearance, why do you see me. She said, because of my naked way of speaking, because I dared to look her in the eye to speak, in her contact with men, I am the only exception. Unexpectedly, I guess, this can also impress a woman’s heart. When I really got in touch with her, I realized how good she was. She had a good job, her salary was more than ten times of mine, and her looks were so different from mine. But she is really good, go out to play when she always grabbed the money, very considerate to say that you have a little money or keep it. Later see my face can not hang on, only to say so that we pay a person once in the future. Then the situation has not changed, always in the money when she pays, when the money is less by me to pay. How could God let me meet such a woman? My coworkers all said that there was no justice in the world. I said, God is fair to people.
During that time I always restrained my urges in that area, respected her from the bottom of my heart, and never asked for too much. Although we had many times in the same house. As if back to the first love, everything is so beautiful. Three months later, she played late in my house. Arranged for her to sleep in the guest room, I just wanted to go to sleep, she walked into my room, without saying a word into my quilt, and then embraced me and whispered, do you want me? If you do, I’ll give it to you! I was out of my mind looking at her not knowing what to say, I thought maybe I should really go out of my way to love, to love this woman in front of me, I started kissing her, kissing every inch of her body, I slowly removed her pajamas, caressing her, she blinked her big eyes and looked at me, I was a little bit embarrassed, she said, you’re still shy ah? I entered her body in the moonlight, she softly “ah”, this is her first time. Afterwards, I saw a piece of red on the bed sheet, she even kept her first time. That night, I cried for the first time in front of a woman. She said what I had done in the past she did not care, but in the future, if I dare to do something wrong to her, she will never forgive me.
Yet again, everything that happened behind me was the same, and I was completely disillusioned.
A lot of people say I’m being vindictive, and I personally affirm that I’m definitely not. Even if there were no me, there would have been another person to fill my role, and there is no way to say who is hurting who. In a money-oriented society, who really respects who? If you have money, you have status and honor.
I can’t convince you either. That being the case, there’s only one thing that’s right, and that’s to make yourself happy. Everyone has different standards, and what is good for me may not be good for you. Men and women are different in many ways, women cheat a lot not their man is not good to them, some instead are very good. Regularly good, so that women do not feel this good, but rather feel that it should be. And a lover’s a hug, a kiss, a bouquet of flowers or even a false sweet words will let the woman touched for a long time. Men are easier to satisfy than women, and what men want from women is simple. And women are different, sometimes they don’t even know what they want. What you can’t get is the best.
I admit that my title is a bit radical, but the content is not.
In fact, the reality makes people feel a lot of confusion, I surrounded by friends, classmates there are a lot of once also had a heartfelt love, but with the passage of time, very few people can do it single-mindedly. Marriage for a long time, that love will be transformed into an affection, more responsibility, rather than love in the maintenance. You can say what kind of people teach what kind of friends, in my friends, no matter how decent they used to be in school, or before they got married, society is a big dyke, what I know besides me, I know of no men who do not go to prostitutes, and when he comes home he is still a good husband. The world is changing fast. People nowadays are not only developing physically, but also thinking ahead.
My cousin is only 20 years old, he and his friends will often go to the prostitute, according to their words, prostitute than find a girlfriend to row, find a girlfriend is too expensive. This is the truth, in the school that relationship is more or less pure, once into the community, or soon to enter the community, those women looking for a boyfriend standard amazing one to. At least are required to have a male house, monthly income shall not be less than a lot. This I do not understand, why the women’s mouth calls for equality between men and women, in these areas but are not willing to go to equality. It is important to realize that in China, the rich are after all a minority, so the creation of those men, at the same time have a few women.
I also remember a cousin’s female classmates, said to me want to do my girlfriend, I said that how can you, you younger than me more than ten years, she said age is not a problem. She also said that she likes to go to the high, asked me to go, do not mind his girlfriend to go to the high drug. I said mind, she said is not afraid of the future birth of children unhealthy, high drugs where only this little harm, I have seen a very full girl, a year and a half down to thin even MM are flat. There is another one, even without drugs, now as soon as you hear the music, the brain to shake. Of course one could argue that they are high as hell, but no matter how much, this stuff does far more damage to the brain, and far more damage to the body, than #4, just due to the fact that it’s not as far away as #4, and doesn’t need to be smoked every day. I asked her if she loved me. She said no love, do not love that why do my girlfriend, now women have most of them are so realistic, they married money, not feelings, so cheating is inevitable.
I see a lot of conceptual switching from women, what with men thinking with their lower bodies and women with their upper bodies. Men love because of sex and women love because of love. Is this really true in reality? Nowadays, many women have had sex with several men before they get married. If it is true as they say, then women are too fraternal to fall in love with a man so easily. What is a good woman? In my opinion only a good woman will love only one person for long years. Men and women are actually the same, just focus on a different point, a beautiful woman, there will always be a lot of men around, men are because of appearance and love. A rich man will be surrounded by a lot of women, the woman is because of the money and love. We all take what we need, but is this love?
Now and how many women have had sex, I really can not remember, even on their own on a few virgins can not remember all, can remember only their first, the first person to have sex with me, the first one-night stand woman, after that I seem to understand why so many people want to find virgins, because the first impression is always the most profound, men in this area are very selfish always want to make themselves in the woman’s The first is the most impressive impression. Many friends say they have no woman’s love, ask me how to find women, I am not a saint of love, this kind of thing depends on the main or guts and experience, and not all women can be hooked, but there is a little bit of colorful women is the most easy to pick up. On the contrary, the kind of appearance of the woman, on the contrary, is not easy to get on.
I remember my first one-night stand, when the heart did not think to find what one-night stand, purely just a joke. At that time the network has just begun to popularize, the first time to the chat room, see a number called Zixia Xianzi, I secret her that I am the supreme treasure, to give her a nostalgia for a million years of the night. Just like this and she chatted for about five minutes, left contact information and about the location of the meeting went directly to the meeting. She looks quite beautiful, about 165CM height, body shape is more plump and proportional, quite good at that time their hearts are also very happy for the first time to meet such a special thing. We went to a fast food restaurant to sit for a while, because the time is still early to the bar to drink will drink. Through the conversation know that she has a fixed boyfriend, two years ago to meet, is his first love, brought her to the city, because the boyfriend often travel, so rarely at home. She did not work, all day long time is soaked in online games, the first time into the chat room met me, and I proposed a one-night stand feel very fresh, since I have never tried, agreed. I asked her if she wasn’t afraid of meeting bad people. She said no. We kissed at the wine bar, and my hands moved restlessly. Waiting to drink almost time, I took her to the hotel to open the room ……
The next morning she gave me a deep kiss and then said thank you for leaving her with such a memorable night. And hurriedly left me alone.
In fact, there was more than a one-night stand with her, and then we did it again at her house, and I asked her at the time how she wasn’t afraid of me and trusted me so much. She said she felt that I was not a bad person, and would not do something unfavorable to her. She is a beautiful girl, a girl who knows how to live, at least when it comes to sex, she enjoys it. For my comment, she said I am a clean and fresh guy, and I can bring her a new feeling and pleasure in sex, and I am also a very good sex partner. I said that we could keep the relationship,she refused, she said that although it was enjoyable with me, she couldn’t escape the guilt of that amount of heart. I am not the kind of stalker, although later I still often think of her, but then never went to her, because of such an experience, the back of my guts are much bigger. Actually, it’s just a lot more confidence.
Now when I look back at all the things I used to do, I don’t have a single sweet feeling in my heart. What is happiness? An ordinary love, a person who is willing to live with you in an ordinary life, I am just an ordinary person, for me an ordinary life is what I want the most in my heart.
A lot of people say I’m immoral, at least I’ve never gone out of my way to lie to anyone, and I’ve never hidden from anyone what type of person I am and what I want. I’ll say what’s on my mind. What I want is understanding, so I’ll give you understanding first. I for myself in the past by women betrayal, I really did not hate them, I for which I can not let go of just why they betrayed you, but also not tell you the truth. Isn’t it good to be clear? Put what you want to say out, you want to do say out, clear is not good?
Don’t blame the openness of sex on the openness of society, the openness of society is just tearing away the veil of women’s disguise, why just tear away women’s disguise, because men have always been like this. (There are too many temptations of all kinds in the world, destined to make love changeable.) This is obviously an insult to love, there are not many things in this world that can last forever, love is one of them, if you say that because of the temptation to change heart, that is not true love. People who have love in their hearts will have the ability to resist loneliness and temptation! If you can’t then all you love is yourself. I wrote these things, there are a lot of women in saying that men are not the same, say what good women or more. There is no need to argue this issue, I just want to say, in reality, women on the conditions of love requirements far more than men, this point if there are still people risk murmurs, then she is purely afraid to face their own people. Love in too many conditions naturally deteriorated, today’s society has become so, men and women who’s fault is big we should naturally understand.