Picked up AV actresses

Today is a little different, I want to drink, alone, but do not want to drink alone at home. Office romance is sometimes really troublesome, obviously is the girlfriend cheating, but leaving is me, just because I do not want to face her in that environment, face her pretending to be pitiful gesture, and face the colleagues all kinds of whispers.

The breakup, separation, and re-instatement were torturous enough for a few months before and after. But today is different. I’m going to report to my new company next Monday, so I can finally break away from the past and start over. I should be happy, but I still feel a little empty inside, and I want to drink, but I can’t get drunk because there’s no one to take me home.

Nightclub is an interesting place, where people seem to spend their youth in a big way, they get happy, but leave all the loneliness and isolation in the store, more and more. For me, a nightclub will always be a lonely place, even though it’s loud and dark with bad air and the occasional guy or girl who comes to hit on me, but if I want to be alone, I can still be. I sat in the corner of the bar, sipping my second Heineken of the night. “Alone?”

I followed the sound, a woman with two glasses of wine in her hand stood not far from me, wearing a lavender seven-minute sleeve shirt and a knee-length A-line skirt of the same color, her half-length hair was already showing loose. It didn’t look like someone who was used to clubbing in any way. “Yeah.”

I surveyed her curiously; she appeared to be already intoxicated. “Drink with me.”

She puts a drink on the bar and handsomely shakes the other glass she’s holding at me. Looking at the drink on the bar, “Moscow Mule?”

I can’t help but frown, she doesn’t look like she’s much of a drinker, why is she drinking this kind of wine? I could see her having trouble even drinking Manhattans! “You’re drunk.”

I didn’t really want to pay attention to her. “Bottom line, drink or not?”

She chirped impatiently. Perhaps it was the fact that her dress was clearly out of keeping with the atmosphere of the place, or perhaps it was the fact that I could see that there was something of loneliness in her face besides drunkenness …… I took the glass of Moscow mule without a word Is this why she came to me? Two wayward beasts with the same odor? She was happy to have someone willing to drink with her, and she said loudly, “One, two, three!”

The two of them drank it all in one go. One mule down, I instantly felt like my whole stomach was going to burn, “I’m sure it’s a bit much.”

I thought. Looking at the woman, who was already a little drunk, she was even more staggering at this point. Afraid she’d fall, I reached out to help her and sat her down. “Stay with me.”

She was really drunk and talking like a little schoolgirl willy-nilly. “You should go back.”

I don’t want to invite trouble. “Stay with me!”

She reached out and grabbed me, coming down on top of me with an unsteady hand. “Where are you staying? I’ll take you back!”

A wave of anger up, what the hell ah, where this inexplicable woman? A fishing over her hand, the two stumbled out of the pub, “Hey, where do you live?”

I was busy stuffing her into my car, but she just giggled, asked half a day and couldn’t ask a ghost, and can’t just go through people’s purses, so I had to pray that I wouldn’t be examined by the police, while racing home. I could have left her alone, could have let her lie drunk in the pub, let so-and-so take her away, or wait for the bartender to wake her up; but perhaps the smell of loneliness is too similar and too familiar, I couldn’t leave her alone, even though I grumbled about my own nuisance after I brought her out……. Helping her up the stairs, she smelled of vodka all over her body, smelling like I was about to get drunk. , smelling like I was about to get drunk.

I wanted to leave her on the bed quickly, but she pushed me against the wall after entering the door and started to kiss me madly. She is a woman who is good at kissing, wet tongue flexible like a snake, in my mouth constantly in and out of the hand also restlessly in my chest messy touch, my whole person was kissed by her dazed and crunchy, the lower half of the body also began to have a reaction. She seems to notice my changes, very provocative with the tip of the tongue licking my earlobes and the corners of my mouth, while not forgetting to charm said: “Accompany me …….”

“Don’t you do that!”

I wanted to push her away, but my body couldn’t. It turns out that men can be dominated by women. She knelt down on the floor, and with a smooth hand, she unzipped my pants and pulled out my erect penis, first using her glove to manipulate it, and then when it got hard, she actually stuck out her tongue to lick it! She licked it from root to tip before putting it in her mouth and sucking on it. How could I possibly stand this kind of stimulation, my hands pressed down on her head, letting my part in her mouth, as her tongue moved, I felt more and more excited, and my heartbeat and breathing started to become irregular. “Ahh ……”

I growled softly and lowly, and the speed of her sheathing gradually increased, before I felt that I was about to cum, and tried to pull my cock out of her mouth, but she had no intention of letting go, so I had to just cum in her mouth. Semen overflowed from the corner of her mouth, she gently wiped off with her hand; misty eyes looked at me, like staring at the prey that was not easy to reach, she took off my blouse, and also took off her own blouse, and even the bra was removed, a pair of snow-white round breasts were exposed in front of me, and my penis, which was just ejaculated, started to harden again. She took my hand and put it on one of my breasts, and her other hand went directly underneath me, and she had already stripped down almost as much as she could, and she got close to me, and mouthed the same two words, “Stay with me!”

“Stay with me!”

She kept repeating this, and since this was the result she wanted, I had nothing to worry about. I kissed her roughly, wrapping one arm around her waist and kneading her breasts hard with the other, never having been this rough with a girlfriend before.

She was very sensitive, my fingers gently drew circles around the tips of her breasts, and the buds on her chest stood up all of a sudden; probably because she felt pleasure, her expression became even more tantalizing, and she kept on wriggling her body, as if begging for my pleasure. Remove her short skirt and panties, raise one of her feet around my waist, fingers gradually moved down, directly seeking her pussy nucleus, fingertips in the pussy nucleus on the force, or light or heavy, or slow or fast, love liquid will be from the nectar Miluo out, her mouth also issued a nice moan: “ah …… hmmm …… Uh-huh ……”

Although she was made to feel so horny by me, her hand still didn’t forget to lasso around my penis; taking advantage of her surprise, she stabbed a finger into her vagina and started to thrust …… “Ah!”

She screamed out, her hands climbed onto my shoulders, as my fingers moved, her waist bobbed involuntarily, as her body bobbed, those beautiful pair of breasts bobbed up and down along with it, the desire in my lower body swelled more and more, hold back a little longer, I love to see that look of obliviousness on a woman’s face when she’s in foreplay. “Cool?”

I exhaled in her ear, “Like it?”

“Well ……”

I could tell she was sinking on a wave of lust. She was simply a wet mess. I aimed the tip of my painfully erect cock at the opening of her vagina, letting only the tip enter, gently grinding against her pussy as her body squirmed even more, “Come on ……”

She gasped sharply for me to enter. “Say ‘I want’!”

At the moment I’m no different than a bad person. “I want …… I want …… to come in …… I want!”

I heard “instructions.”

of her without hesitation, let me have to wonder if I picked up an AV actress home. My waist pole was raised, my penis immediately didn’t enter her, she really couldn’t wait, without waiting for me to pump, her waist moved first on its own, but it was hard for me to apply force in this position, while I was thrusting her, I picked her up and let her lie on the dining room table, with her two feet dangling in the air, and I grabbed both of them and started to thrust hard. “Ah …… ah …… mmmm …… oh …… ahhhhh ……Don’t stop……Don’t stop……”

She was very involved in screaming the bed, either she was a woman who loved and was used to having sex, or …… she really was an AV actress. “Ahhhh …… can’t do it la …… so deep …… ah …… can’t do it …… going to orgasm la ……”

Her voice started to sound like a cry, but I knew she wasn’t uncomfortable, she was super comfortable. After a few moments of pumping, I felt her orgasm inside her, and soon I came too, pulling out before I could cum and “launch” in the other direction!

, and then all shot on her chest …… This …… is not exactly the same as the porn? After the orgasm, she was helplessly paralyzed on the dining table, and I seemed to be slightly sobered by the venting of my desire: “What am I doing! Fucking her without even knowing who she is?”

I was tired, partly physically and partly because I had just been so mentally tense that the moment I relaxed I felt tired. But couldn’t just leave her there like that! Carrying her, who doesn’t know whether she’s tired or drunk, into the bathroom to clean herself, I sit on the edge of the tub so that she’s sitting on top of me with her back turned, and I pick up the body wash and gently scrub her. “Hmph! You’ve earned it, not only do you have an absentee guy to have sex with, but you also get a bath!”

Looking at the still groggy her, I can’t help but grumble a little inside. But this position is really dangerous, her groin rubbing against my penis, and my hands in order to clean in her chest and private parts of the wandering, if not careful may have to fight another three hundred rounds. As the water jet rinsed down to her lower body, she gently moved her waist, and with this movement, my dick followed and became restless. (Hey! Brother, I never knew that you are a seven times a night ah!)

The chain reaction caused by one small action was that she was wet again and I was hard again. She started wanting it again, writhing impatiently, and I nibbled on her earlobe, caressing her tits with one hand and kneading underneath her with the other, feeling her love juices flooding her, and I stood up so she was leaning forward a little, and this time I didn’t have to ask her if she wanted it, and went right into her from behind. “Ah!”

She either didn’t expect my sudden action, her expression and body obviously stiffened for a moment, I held her waist, the speed of thrusting was faster and more violent than just now, probably every time there was a top to the center of the flower, her expression was even more lewd than just now, “ah …… ah… . don’t …… ah ……”

Her voice echoed in the bathroom, the echo even more hypnotic, her body surrounded by the dense water, her whole body a pretty pink color. Her hands seemed to be trying to hold onto something, but there was nowhere to put them, so she rubbed her breasts, but that just made her come faster. The advantage of having sex in the bathroom is the convenience of rinsing, after doing the second time today, I quickly rinsed both of us all over, I am absolutely not going to come back for a third time, are you kidding me, I don’t want to not be able to think about thirty years old on the exhaustion of the man.

Move to put her clothes back on, let her lie on the bed, I quietly look at her, plain face how to see how to see will be such a passionate show, sleeping her body still exudes a kind of loneliness around the smell, that kind of loneliness is deeper than me, so deep that perhaps even she herself did not find that she turned out to be lonely.

Clearing the floor, I nestled into the couch with a blanket and drifted off to sleep before I could think about anything more.

It was nearly noon when I woke up the next day, and I got up and sat still for a moment to find an extra note on the coffee table from her. “I’m sorry for the trouble.”

Turning the note over and over again, just like that? The AV actress I picked up and took home twelve hours ago just disappeared. Think of it as a one-night stand! Two strangers who had never met before met by chance in a pub and had a physical relationship catalyzed by alcohol, that’s all, not something so unusual in this city. But I still remember the feeling of loneliness that seemed to escape from the pores of her body. After a quiet weekend, Monday morning I went to my new company for my official debriefing, a place that knew only my work history and nothing about my life’s past. “I’d like to introduce you to our new colleague, Youning Zhang, who also worked as a Programmer at her previous company, so I hope you’ll all get along.”

The manager of the engineering department introduced me aloud to my coworkers. “Hello everyone, I’m Zhang Yuning, Bow Long Zhang, Yuk as in Zhongling Yuxiu, Ning as in Anning, and my name is a bit girly, but I promise I’m a 100% man.”

This is the usual phrase I use every time I introduce myself, and if nothing else, such an introduction not only makes it easy for everyone to remember me, but also helps to ease the atmosphere. The manager took me to visit the seats of my colleagues one by one, and shook hands with everyone, although there are not many people in the engineering department, only ten or so, but it is still a bit tiring to exchange pleasantries all the way down. Finally, I returned to my seat, and the manager “appointed” me.

The Tall, Thin Man next door to me.

coworker, asking him to help me familiarize myself with the environment and the job description. “My name is Lin Weicheng, just call me Weicheng; just ask me if you have any questions, don’t be polite.”

Weicheng extended his hand, and the strength of his handshake was as warm and sunny as his appearance. Weicheng spent the whole morning taking me through the work, including the current case and the part of the programmer to be responsible for, etc. Although the tools and language used to write the program are similar, the complexity of the program is different for different cases, and the program is not written just because it’s good, it has to go through repeated tests to make sure whether it can be delivered or not. All of a sudden, it was noon, and my stomach was so hungry that I felt faint. Weicheng patted my shoulder, “Let’s eat first! I’ll take you to other departments in the afternoon.”

We settled for lunch at a noodle store near the office, and the two of us chatted about my previous job. I’m a cautious person, to put it bluntly, I have a heavy heart; I’m not accustomed to revealing too much about myself to someone I’ve just met, so when Weicheng asked me why I left my job, I only said lightly, “The people above me are too pigheaded.”

Weicheng is different, sunny as hell, smiling as if the corners of his mouth will shine with light kind of, talking and thinking straight, “So I can only obediently sit in front of the computer to write programs, if it’s any other job ah,”

Weicheng shook his head, “Probably fired in less than three days.”

He said and laughed again. I looked at him and laughed bitterly, it’s true that his kind of personality is prone to suffering, but at least I don’t have to worry about someone next door to me pulling my leg. The afternoon’s working hours had only begun when Weicheng dragged me to go to the other floors. “Ugh! It’s not like there are many girls in the engineering department, and one is less like a woman than the other!”

He said mournfully. I was amused by him, “You watch out for the female coworkers hearing you!”

“Oh, they’ve heard it all before!”

Weicheng spread his hands with a hopeless expression. As I walked along, I listened to Weicheng introduce me to other departments on other floors, and he didn’t forget to remind me which unit on which floor had young girls; I didn’t think he was here to give me an overview of the company, but was basically intent on fooling around and not wanting to work, “Did you find out?”

He scratched his head, “Writing programs can be tiring!”

When I returned to my seat, I remembered that when I met with everyone in the morning, one seat was empty, and I opened my mouth to ask Weicheng, “A coworker took the day off today, didn’t he?”

“Wow, yeah! Didn’t I just say that one of the girls in the engineering department is worse than the other? But yeah, there can be one exception ……”

He nudged towards the empty seat, “That’s Du Lei’s seat, Du Fu’s Du, Lei’s Lei, she’s a great beauty and a great person! And she’s super capable, she has a way to catch all the bugs that others can’t!”

Weicheng’s eyes showed a look of adoration, and I mischievously insulted him, “What’s the matter? I’m not going to do that!”

“Are you kidding me?”

Weicheng quickly denied, “I’m the one who has a girlfriend hey! And although this Du Lei is a great person, but only in general conditions; if you want to take her ah, tsk tsk …… she will immediately turn into an iceberg!”

“So proud!”

Listening to Weicheng’s description, I couldn’t help but frown; I don’t like this kind of people, as if they are how great they are …… just broke up with my ex-girlfriend is like this, but in the past I thought it was a kind of daughter petulance, is cute, until she cheated on her legs by me caught, personally admitted it, I understand that I am only glorifying her shortcomings. “You’ve got it all wrong la! The ‘iceberg’ I’m talking about isn’t the kind of pride that’s out there, she just doesn’t want to have an office romance! She just doesn’t want to have an office romance, and she has a boyfriend in the US! How can she look at us Taiwanese?”

Weicheng saw that I misunderstood and was busy explaining. “Wow.”

I looked at Duley’s seat and wondered what she looked like: long flowing hair and a waist? Eyebrows like diadem, lips like dan? A wry smile and beautiful eyes? Or …… was she simply a spicy character like Wang Xifeng? When he arrived at the office the next morning, Weicheng was already buried in front of his computer, “Wow! So serious!”

I sour him jokingly. “Go on! Seriously!”

Wai Shing turned the computer screen toward me. “New solitaire?”

I almost fainted. “Hey, don’t look down on the new solitaire, okay? I rely on it when my head is in knots!”

Weicheng gave me a look of disdain. I sat down and started nibbling on my ham and egg sandwich and iced tea, which had pretty much become a regular part of my breakfast routine, a habit I’d picked up since living alone; there were a ton of breakfast places, from the good ones to the bad ones to the terrible ones, but the ham and egg sandwiches usually didn’t taste too bad. “Hey, Dulé’s here!”

Weicheng whispers and I look up, but all I see is her back as she sits down. “Come on, I’ll take you to say hi to her!”

Weicheng didn’t care that I hadn’t finished my sandwich yet, and walked over to Du Lei. I saw him say something to Du Lei, and hurriedly stuffed the last bite of my sandwich into my mouth before I stood up to walk over to her. Du Lei stood up and looked back at me, and her expression instantly froze, her face turned white, and I almost choked on my sandwich–it was her! The AV actress I picked up that night!

The lustful and indulgent scene of that night all came to mind at once; now she, with her half-length hair neatly tied behind her head, wearing the same shirt and knee-length skirt, it was totally unimaginable that she would be the one to get a drink from a stranger in a pub, let alone enjoying sex underneath me. I walked towards her with a feigned composure, and the nervous Weicheng didn’t seem to see that both Dulee and I had strange expressions on our faces, “Youngin, this is Dulee, the one I told you about yesterday,”

He then proceeded to say to Du Lei, “Du Lei, this is our new coworker from yesterday, Zhang Yuning.”

I held out my hand, “Hi, I’m Zhang Yuning, Bowmaster Zhang, Yuk as in Zhongling Yuxiu, Ning as in tranquility.”

Dulee visibly hesitated, and smiled stiffly at the corners of her mouth, but held out her hand; the two of them shook hands shallowly, and went back to their respective seats, and before I sat down, I deliberately glanced at Dulee, who was still looking my way, and seemed to have forgotten to sit down, and her face, which was still as pale as paper. I don’t think I cared very much about Duley; I should say, I didn’t care much about her when she was sober. People are fake, and I’m not saying that everyone deliberately creates an illusion to face the world, but it’s undeniable that once you have the “I’m facing the world”

After this realization, we can no longer face other people with our original selves, and this is true for all of us, but only in varying degrees. Like me, the degree of disguise may be a little more; like Weicheng, it may be a little less. As for Du Lei, I don’t know because I haven’t seen her wearing a mask yet, but I must say I’m very impressed with the lonely messages she sends out when she’s not sober. Ex-girlfriend cleave for up to a year, and then caught by me, cleave object is obviously inferior to me, girlfriend cried pearly, but completely no intention of wanting to get back together, disappointment, I was furious and geologically asked her how she could betray me, her eyes stared into the distance, with a very hurt tone: “I’m too lonely.”

“Are you lonely?”

I couldn’t understand it at all, “We’re together every day and you’re actually saying you’re lonely?”

“I was not so easily lonely at first, but after being with you, I realized that your loneliness is simply a black hole that will suck everything out of me with nothing left; I used to try very hard to fill your loneliness, but I simply couldn’t do it…… “

I froze. In over two years of dating her, this was the first time I’d heard her voice her opinion of me, and the first time I’d sensed that she was actually a self-assertive person. The breakup was final, but I still did enough to save face for her; never mentioning the reason for the breakup, automatically handing in my resignation, and refusing any retention. After leaving the previous situation, everything became clear as if the scales were falling from my eyes: I was a drowning man who had to hold on to something if he wanted to live, and “girlfriend” was the only thing I could hold on to.

It’s my driftwood, this “girlfriend.”

, actually anyone who can. Even more amazingly, after breaking up with my girlfriend, I realized that I had learned the art of swimming. Perhaps because of this, I didn’t feel embarrassed to face Dulee, despite the surprise; she was nothing more than someone in this city who carried a deep-rooted loneliness. And Duley, quiet all day, dialed me on the intercom near the end of the day. “This is Dulé.”

She deliberately lowered her voice. “Wow.”

“Could you please be on the top floor in five minutes? I have something I want to talk to you about.”

“Wow.”

I responded with an expressionless face. Hanging up the phone, I saw Dulee leave her seat immediately afterward, she didn’t want anyone to know that she had approached me to talk, I guess! Five minutes later, filing the half-written program, “I’m going to go to the HR office for a bit, it seems like some of the information isn’t quite there.”

I told a little lie to Vicente. “Wow, go go go!”

Simple-minded Weicheng waved his big hand as if telling me not to bother him to concentrate. Taking the elevator to the roof, which is the only legal smoking area in the building, cigarette butts were thrown all over the floor. Du Lei had her back to me, leaning against the fence in a very lazy position, her tightly tied hair now scattered in the wind, I’m not very good at describing the scene in front of me, but I had a feeling that if I hadn’t looked at her properly, she might have disappeared just like that too. Looking at her quietly for a moment, “Dule.”

I called out to her. Duley turned around, her face had a completely different expression than in the office: no panic, no shock, just flatness. “Sure is kindred spirits with me.”

I thought so, walking slowly towards her. “Want to tell me something?”

I looked at the forest of office buildings in the distance. “Last Friday ……”

She seemed hesitant to say anything. “Last Friday?”

I took her words, “You brought me a glass of wine, forced me to drink with you, and then you got drunk, and then I took you back to my house after you got drunk! You woke up and left, didn’t you?”

I only got to the point. “That’s it?”

She did not believe it at all. “Just now that is the focus of ah, as for the details of ah …… you have been noisy ah, the whole night to say ‘with me’; back to my home after the forced kiss me, take off my clothes, rape me ah! What else do you want to know?”

I looked at Duley, and her face became tense for a moment, her face a shade of green and white. “I raped you?”

Duley said out loud, then realized she seemed too loud and lowered the volume again, “I rape you?”

“Indeed you undressed me first.”

I emphasized the “you.”

This word, “Well, I say a little more carefully; you kissed me, seduced me erection, and then took off my clothes to help me oral sex, and then you still do not think it is enough, on their own clothes off, pull my hand to touch your breasts, but also touched my penis, of course, to do well! After that, I thought I can’t just leave you like this, so I helped you take a shower, and then you wanted to do it again, so what could I do? I just did it again! But it was only twice that night, plus you sucked my dick only twice and a half, and it was all because you forced me to ……”

I carefully watched the changes in her facial expression, it was really better than a Sichuan opera face change. Du Lei’s face had turned red beyond recognition by the end, “Stop it!”

She interrupted me loudly. “You’re the one who wanted to hear it.”

I shrugged. “What do you want?”

Duley’s arms crossed over her chest, her mind seemingly made preparations to negotiate. “I don’t really want anything.”

I looked at Duley with a blank face, frankly I didn’t like her attitude right now, not everyone grabs someone’s weakness to use as a weapon. “Don’t want to what?”

Duley looked disbelieving. “I mean it.”

I let out a long sigh, “It’s just an accident that I happen to be in the same company as you, I had already decided to come to work in this company before I met you, and …… just treat it as a one night stand between two strangers, and I’ll still be a stranger after dawn, I’m not so sinister as to use this as a handle to threaten you or anything; which. I just met you on the first day, what is there to threaten? No one knows about me and you, and even if I did, it’s doubtful anyone would believe me! What’s more important to me is that ……”

I paused to organize my thoughts. “What’s more important?”

Duley’s expression was much more relaxed at the moment, and her hostility toward me wasn’t as pronounced as it had been just moments before. “More importantly is the reason why you approached me at the pub.”

I look at Duley, “Why are you going around alone with two glasses of wine looking for someone to drink with you? And why did you come to me? I saw the way you got drunk in the pub, and I thought you were a good, lonely, lonely person, so lonely that you had to find someone who was as lonely as you were to keep you company, and yes, it just so happened to be my people who were under me. Then I saw you asleep and I started to think that loneliness is simply a part of your body composition, it’s so ingrained, it’s unbelievable how I think about it.”

Dulé looked at me and said half a word, “I think you’ve been reading too much Haruki Murakami.”

She dropped that and turned to leave the penthouse. Too much Haruki Murakami? I shake my head. Don’t hear “lonely.”

These two words, just think it’s Haruki Murakami’s monopoly, okay? I actually like Banana Yoshimoto better! Du Lei is still wary of me. She hasn’t spoken to me again in the past two days, but from the look in her eyes, I know she still has doubts about me.

It didn’t matter to me, though I admit I was interested in Dulé; my interest in her was based on her unseen side, not the beauty or competence that everyone could see. The engineering department had an orientation meeting for me on Friday night, and when I first heard that there was going to be an orientation, I was indeed dumbfounded for quite a while; what’s an orientation when you’re not a college student anymore?

However, I heard that our manager is a lively person, coupled with the fact that colleagues eating and drinking together can indeed shorten the distance between us, we are also very happy to have the opportunity to use public funds to eat and drink in a dignified manner, even though I’m not too fond of pretending to be acquainted with other people, there is no need for any objection or questioning. Orientation will find a restaurant with private rooms, booked two tables, a group of people closed in the box screaming and making noise.

It was already very late after the meal, some coworkers were yelling to go to the booth again because they didn’t have to work tomorrow, everyone left in twos and threes, and the drunken manager also took a taxi to go home. I was a little too drunk to drive back in the evening, and my head was slightly dizzy. I tried to move in the direction of the bus stop–“Zhang Yuning!”

Someone behind me called out to me. I turned around and it was Dule. “What’s up?”

I thought she’d never speak to me again in her life! “How are you going to get back?”

“Take the bus! It’s not good to drive when you’ve been drinking.”

I said quite matter of factly. “I’ll take you back!”

Duley said as much as a matter of course. “Give me a ride back? No, no, thank you kindly.”

I refused. The last time I brought her to my house.

I still remember it vividly, although this time it was me who drank more, but if I did something to her again, it would really jump to the Yellow River can’t be washed away; the first time can also be said to be “accidental”.

, but accidents don’t usually happen twice. “Where do you park?”

Duley didn’t seem to want to pay any attention to my refusal. “You haven’t been drinking?”

Yes, if she’d had a drink too, just one drop, I could have turned her down. “Not a drop.”

As if she had recognized my ploy, “There are more girls at our table, everyone drinks tea.”

Seeing that his coworkers were almost gone, “You didn’t have to do that.”

I was starting to lose my scruples when I spoke. “It’s my freedom to do what I want, I just wanted to give a drunken coworker a ride home, and I realized we live pretty close to each other;”

Dulé glanced at me, “What, no?”

“That’s it?”

I asked her. “What do you think?”

She looked me straight in the eye, “Although I’ve only been observing you for three days, I don’t think you’re a bad person, and, in a way, I recognize that we’re kindred spirits. What you said to me on the roof that day, I thought about it, and it does make a lot of sense, and even though our first meeting wasn’t very good, I wanted to thank you.”

Duley’s tone grew gentler, her expression more relaxed. “Sincerely? Not trying to take the opportunity to send me home and then poison my house?”

I deliberately joked at her. “Hey, hey, if you want to be poisoned by me, get in line behind you!”

Duley wrinkled her nose at me. After getting in the car, “No wonder Weicheng said you were a great guy.”

I said. “Whoa?”

Duley raised an eyebrow, “He said that about me?”

“He says you’re good for everyone.”

I closed my eyes, a little tired. I heard her sneer and didn’t say anything else; I didn’t want to bother her with anything else, even though I had so many more questions I wanted to ask her, but …… now wasn’t the time. Back downstairs in my apartment, Dulé insisted on walking me up, “Thank you, you can go home now.”

Honestly, I don’t want Dulé to stay here for too long. Dulé nodded and stood there in the foyer to put on her shoes, “Let me ask you–“

She turned her head suddenly. “What?”

“You said my loneliness was pretty ingrained,”

Duley bit her lower lip, “Why do you think that?”

I told you, even she didn’t feel like she turned out to be lonely. “It just feels.”

It’s the truth. “Wow.”

Duley obviously couldn’t be satisfied with my answer. “Just go back, it’s okay if you want to take my car.”

I urged her once more. Having only just ended a relationship, I didn’t want to too quickly establish another relationship with another member of the opposite sex other than a friend, especially one that lacked an emotional foundation; there had already been a bad example between Du Lei and me, and there couldn’t be a second one, not to mention that I wasn’t exactly a man of unimaginable sanity. “Then …… lend me the car first, and I’ll return it to you tomorrow.”

“Uh-huh. Thanks for the ride home today.”

Verbally, I still want to thank people. After Du Lei went downstairs, I watched her leave from the balcony, and my heart began to be complicated. I actually want to know where her loneliness comes from, I want to ask her why she ran to a nightclub that she doesn’t often go to that day, but …… she and I are just coworkers, we’ve only known each other for a week, any more those questions are too personal; not to mention that her loneliness should be handed over to her boyfriend to solve, not me. “Bell …… bell ……”

“Who is it? Calling early in the morning? Grandpa I haven’t slept enough!”

In a daze, I heard the sound of the phone, was woken up by the heart of the mess upset a hand, would have liked to ignore it, but the phone seems to know that I intend to ignore, ringing did not stop the intention. “Ugh, noisy!”

I lost it and impatiently kicked off the covers and walked to the living room reaching for the phone. “Hello!”

What kind of guy with no common sense is that! “Hello?”

The other person’s voice cringed as she heard the anger in my voice, “I’m Duley.”

“Huh?”

I froze, not expecting it to be her or for her to call so early. “Dulé? What are you calling so early for?”

I looked at the clock on the wall, “Miss, it’s only nine o’clock!”

“I’m sorry, I didn’t think to wake you up.”

Duley was on the other end of the line and apologized profusely, “I’ll bring the car back to you, it’s downstairs at your house right now.”

“What?”

I was shocked, really defeated by her, “Then …… you come up here!”

Duley was dressed in a simple t-shirt and jeans, still looking a bit student-ish, quite different from her usual smart and capable look at the office. “Sorry to wake you up.”

Duley apologized when she saw my sleepy, pudgy face. “Ah …… it’s okay,”

I shook my hand and told her not to mind, “It’s just that I sleep late on all my holidays.”

“Wow. ……”

Duley didn’t look much like she was just here to return the car. “Come on in first, I’ll change and freshen up real quick.”

I figured she had more to say and invited her into the living room to sit first. After freshening up, I went into the kitchen and poured her a glass of water. “What? Something else you want to ask me?”

“Ah …… yeah.”

Duley took a sip of water and licked her dry lips, “I want to ask you …… what kind of person you think I am? And, I think you’re very defensive of me, why? Is it because of my bad attitude in talking on the roof that day?”

“Huh?”

How can someone come early in the morning and ask such a clueless question? “I …… I actually don’t really like to get too deeply involved with anyone, so when you told me that Weicheng said that I’m good to anyone …… I was actually surprised.”

Duley gulped a little. “What brings you to ask me?”

Dulee’s attitude puzzles me, at first it was so cold and unattainable, how come she was so kind to send me home yesterday? And then early this morning to ask me these strange questions? “I don’t know you at all, and I don’t know you very well, aren’t you just making friends?”

I look at Duley, “Why don’t you go ask other more senior colleagues who have known you longer?”

“It’s just that you can’t ask because you’ve known them for so long.”

Duley looked at me steadily, “I’m at work with my other face.”

I looked at her without a word. I understood what she meant. “You’re right, I’m lonely. Even though it looks like I’m good at what I do, I’m nothing when I’m away from the office.”

Duley was waiting for my answer. “If you’re using your other face at work, why don’t you just face me with that face too and forget about it?”

I couldn’t guess Duley’s intentions yet. “As for what happens after you leave the office, it shouldn’t be my business either, you have a boyfriend don’t you? Even though he’s in America, but with technology being so advanced, it shouldn’t be that difficult to maintain a long-distance relationship!”

Dulère heard “boyfriend.”

Three words, a blush spread across her face, but her tone was bitter, “I can only wait for him to contact me.”

“What kind of reasoning is that? You can only wait for him to contact you?”

I hate this kind of man from the bottom of my heart, unable to help his beloved, but let her go to the passerby to complain, what is this? “I’m the third party.”

Duley said it, five words, but it was enough to say it all. Duley was the third party? “What’s he going to do?”

In my perception, it’s the attitude of the cheater that’s the key factor in determining how things play out. “He asked me to be patient, he would divorce his wife.”

Duley said, and I could sense that she still had expectations. “And yet it won’t let you contact him?”

I questioned, “I think he’s simply lying to you.”

“Sometimes I feel the same way.”

Du Lei laughed bitterly. “But as soon as I receive a phone message or e-mail from him I will be so happy, so happy, and feel that my wait is worth it; if I don’t hear from him for a long time, I will feel so lost, and think that I am not being cheated? Maybe he’s just trying to fool me ……”

“Do you understand the saying, ‘A home flower is never as good as a wild flower’? What you can’t have is always best.”

“Of course I know that.”

Duley spoke faintly, “So when you said the other day that the first time you saw me you thought I was a good and lonely person, I suddenly had a feeling of being struck; I know I’m lonely, but if that loneliness can be seen even by a stranger, then it’s really lonely.”

She looked at me, “No one has ever told me that I’m actually a very lonely person, so you make me feel …… different, and I don’t know …… know if I should… …”

I held out my hand to stop Duree from saying any more. “You don’t have to say it. I can tell you’re lonely because I’m the same kind of person, it’s just a form of discrimination between kindred spirits, don’t think too much about it.”

“Yesterday ……”

Duley spoke to herself again, “I don’t really want to go home.”

“Jesus! Not again!”

I thought to myself. “Every day I come home and rush to turn on my computer, listen to my answering machine, and then look at my home where no one is there ……”

Duley’s eyes began to redden. “You’re not getting it right at all.”

I stood up, my tone deliberately icy, ”This relationship was your own choice, it was you who wanted to put the decision on that man to decide whether you could continue to love him or not; when you decided to love him, you should have considered that this loneliness was unavoidable. In other words, it is you who allow him to cause your restlessness and loneliness, and instead of going to him, you come to ask me, a person who is half acquainted with you, why I can see your loneliness? That’s not right, is it! If you don’t want to wait anymore, if you don’t want to go on, then break up!”

“But I really love him ……”

Duley lifted her face, a helpless look on her face. “You can only choose one.”

I’m helpless, too! I was dug up early in the morning to listen to my coworker’s relationship troubles. “Either you keep waiting until one day the light will come on, but at the same time you have to carry the loneliness of waiting; or you say Bye-bye to him and don’t have to suffer so much, but at the end of the day you’re still alone.”

Duley didn’t say a word, and I could tell was seriously thinking about what I was saying. “What’s the worst part you know?”

I paused for a moment to look at Dulé, “You’re the one who spent a lot of your youth on him, and in the end he gave you nothing, leaving you lonely and alone at the same time.”

Duley continued to be silent. “Lonely enough to have to go to a pub and get a drink from a stranger? Lonely enough to get a one-night stand? That’s what he gave you?”

I said disdainfully, for the kind of people who want to please both sides, but refused to eat half of the loss, I despised from the bottom of my heart, especially if it is still the same as my male compatriots, ughhhh! The shame of a man …… heard “one night stand”

Three words, Du Lei’s face immediately reddened, “Don’t talk like I’m slutty, okay? I’ve only looked for it a hundred and one times!”

She furrowed her brow as if she was offended by my statement. “How dare you talk about it! Kissing me forcibly and raping me the other day, I thought I picked up an AV actress and took her home!”

I choke back nonchalantly. “I’m not!”

Duley choked back. “Good …… good ……”

I’m hitting the brakes in case she says, “Well, let’s try it.”

What the hell, that’s a real shot in the dark. “Going back to your original question, you asked me what I thought you were like, and I said that you were a very capable person at work, and pretty, and got along well with your coworkers; except that being in love made you lonely, that’s all.”

“As for you asking if I’m defending you ……”

I thought about it for a moment, “Yes, I did defend myself against you. I’m a person with a heavy heart, and I don’t know you well at all, one minute you ask me coldly ‘what do you want’, the next you take the initiative to say you want to send me home, and now you’re at my house telling me a bunch of things that you should say to a handkerchief friend, I really can’t figure out what you want to do hey! In addition …… frankly speaking, I was my ex-girlfriend cheated on me, just broke up not long ago, so I now do not want to have a relationship with any of the opposite sex other than friends, OK?What happened between me and you is just an accident, I need to keep a distance from you, so are you satisfied?”

“I’m really sorry about that time on the roof …….”

Duley saw my anger bubbling back up as I spoke and quickly apologized. “I just got a little flustered and didn’t think I’d turn into a coworker with you.”

“So …… basically you’re a gracious person who just doesn’t get too deep with others?”

I half-expected it. “I guess so!”

Duley cocked her head with a serious look on her face. “Okay. I’ve answered your questions, and you know I want to keep my distance from you, isn’t that okay ……”

I politely asked her to leave. “One more thing.”

Duley sat on the couch, not at all inclined to leave. “What?”

How come it’s not over yet? “I’m hungry, let’s go have breakfast together!”

Dulee said in a matter-of-fact tone. Dulee forced me to go out, thinking that all I had to do was to go to the neighborhood Mei What’s Beautiful, but she said that she wasn’t used to western breakfast, and had never been a fan of soybean milk burritos, for which we drove (yes! Drive my car!)

To a certain soymilk store she said was very good, while eating, while not forgetting to count down my ham and egg sandwiches and iced tea is how how nutrient-less, I came to eat breakfast or to listen to the lesson ah? But Dulé has been quiet ever since; no longer mysteriously looking for me to go to the roof to negotiate, and no longer inexplicably early in the morning to kill my house to ask some inexplicable questions.

I seemed to be treated as one of her trusted friends, but usually at the office she still wore a smiling mask at work, busily circling between programmed language every day, trying to maintain her image among her colleagues.

I’m still interested in her, but the interest is more like the relationship between a researcher and an experimental subject. Duree’s story seems like an old bridge between the young, beautiful woman who falls in love with a married man, and the man who is forever placating her with the sweet lie: “I’ll divorce my wife.”

But the wait is as long as eternity, either the wife comes to the door and calls the young woman a vixen, or the man is just lusting for youthful flesh from the beginning to the end; and it is possible for “lovers to come together.”

There are very few of them. Intelligent as Duley is, why would she still fall into this trap? “Love sickness, no cure.”

This statement is not without merit. What exactly had been going on between Duley and her boyfriend? Teach her to die like this? You can only wait, you can’t take the initiative, if you really love each other, why should you be treated so unfairly? Every time I looked at Du Lei’s back, I couldn’t help but speculate about what had happened between her and her boyfriend; although I had always told myself to keep a distance from her, the physical entanglement between the two of them was still fresh in my mind; I seldom got such a great physical satisfaction from sex, and my ex-girlfriend didn’t like strange gimmicks, not to mention doing it in the living room or the bathroom, and she complained about it half the time when she changed her body position. Did Doreen’s skills come from her boyfriend’s conditioning as well?

What kind of person is she? On the surface, she is no different from a normal strong woman, but after work she becomes the heroine of a bitter love story, in front of me she is like an unguarded little girl, and when she has sex she becomes a skilled AV actress …… In the end, how many other faces of hers have I not seen?

Halfway through writing the program, I couldn’t help but stop and think, just in time to see Du Lei come in from outside, just in time to meet my eyes, she secretly threw me a sweet smile that I wouldn’t have had in the office, I hurriedly avoided her gaze, my fingers unconsciously moved on the keyboard, but I didn’t realize that my momentary lapse of temper, and I deleted half of the program I had written… … “Ah! My program!”

I was shocked to realize that I had played a big piggyback and held my head and screamed. “Whoa, whoa, whoa! What’s going on?”

Weicheng heard me wailing and was ready to come and gloat a little. “I’m pigheaded! I can’t believe I Delete things myself, ah ……”

I looked at the computer screen and screamed, still unable to believe the stupidity of what I had just done. Weicheng saw Du Lei, who was just about to sit down, with an unkind look on his face, “Are you looking at Du Lei to see a lapse of concentration ah? Lol…… have to concentrate at work, do you know?”

He patted me on the shoulder to chat about his condolences and retreated back to his seat. “Where am I!”

I gave Wai Shing the middle finger and greeted you for the rest of your life! Damn it! This program will be tested in two days, and I’m already behind schedule, so I can’t afford to slow down the rest of my colleagues! Even if I have to work overtime, I have to make up for it! Overtime has indeed become an unavoidable destiny……. The office became less and less crowded, and in the end, I was the only one still struggling with the computer. Finally, I finished writing a paragraph and filed it first, “Whew!”

I exhaled and looked at my watch, it was after nine, “Let’s test it later, if it’s okay, we can continue tomorrow.”

I thought to myself. Walking over to the window, there were still a few scattered lights in the other buildings, probably people who were working as hard as I was working overtime, I just don’t know if any of them were as pigheaded as I am is all …… “It’s hot as hell!”

I loosened the first two buttons of my shirt, it’s ever so hot in the summer! I remember when I first came here everyone was still wearing coats, gloves and scarves! Half a year has gone by, and my girlfriend and I have been broken up for more than half a year. …… Occasionally, I hear from former coworkers that she and her new boyfriend are not getting along very well, and her coworkers are getting cold feet, which means “I’m still the best.”

? I was dumbfounded. When we broke up, it was because I knew that she had long since stopped loving me, and I wouldn’t love someone whose heart was no longer in me. Despite this, I wanted to fulfill her choice, and still hoped that she would be happy, so why was she unable to cherish everything? Is what you can’t get, the best? I thought of Dulee. How is her love affair going now? Is she still waiting hard for just a word from the other side? “Yuk Ning!”

I turned my head and it was Dule. “How do you ……”

She was wearing a T-shirt and seven-quarter pants, and she knew at a glance that she had gone home. But, how did it appear here again? “Haha!”

She raised the plastic bag in her hand, “I heard you wailing in the afternoon and knew you’d definitely be working late at night, luckily you haven’t left yet, so I brought you some snacks over.”

Duley looked like he was taking it for granted again. Yeah! I can’t get over how she takes things for granted.

, as soon as I encountered that look on her face, I had no choice but to surrender. “Wow, thanks.”

I head towards my seat, “But that’s pretty much it for today, I’ll do a test later and continue tomorrow.”

Duley stared intently at my computer, her fingers moving over the keyboard. “Hey! You’re writing this command wrong!”

Wrong instructions? “Cry me a river!”

I thought darkly, rushing back to my seat. “Where?”

Duley pointed his finger at a particular line, “Here, see?”

She stood behind me and her hand went right over my shoulder to point at the computer screen; she’d had a shower, hadn’t she? It smelled like soap, a pleasant scent …… “What am I doing?”

Mentally screaming, I rushed back to my senses. I fixed my eyes, “Ah wow! Probably just dozed off ……”

The difference of just one key can make a world of difference in the program, luckily Dulee found it, so she didn’t have to waste tomorrow’s time by hurrying to correct the mistake while she could. “Thank you, thank you, thank goodness you caught it.”

I let out a sigh of relief. I pushed back the chair and stood up, but I didn’t count the distance between me and Dulé, we almost collided, I grabbed Dulé to prevent her from falling or bumping into me. Dulee was less than twenty centimeters away from me, her soft hair was right next to my lips, and the air she exhaled tickled my neck; usually when a movie comes to this point, the male and female protagonists will separate a little, and then smooch together. The smell of Dulère’s body seemed to be getting closer and closer, which brand of soap is this? Messy good smell a handful of it, should have asked her where to buy it …… Alarmed at my loss of composure, I hastily pushed Dulee a little further away, my breath still confused. “You’re okay!”

“It’s okay!”

Is it the low light or the heat? Duree’s face is so red. It’s true that I should have kept my distance from her, the moment I get close to her, I don’t even know what I’m doing. “Uhm ……”

I tried to lighten the awkward atmosphere between us. “I happen to be hungry then! Thanks for taking the trouble to bring a snack.”

When he finished speaking his hand went into the bag and looked through it. Duley stood by and just smiled. Handing her a tin of canned tea, I took my own drink and bread out of the bag and helped myself; the two of them were silent for a while, and I started trying to find something to talk about to break the status quo. “You seem to be in a good mood lately. Boyfriend writing in?”

I dropped the subject to Duree. “Huh?”

She blushed again, “Well …… yeah! Letters every day for a week straight!”

I look at her, the heart actually a little bit not taste; Du Lei is facing may be a period of no end of feelings, and may even let her lose a lady and soldiers, why she can be like this has been waiting for all the time to wait, no complaints? If it were me, I would never have done that; I could not have waited like that, and I could not have let my beloved live in a state of anxiety all the time. “How long have you been with him? How did you get together?”

“Huh? Why do you have so many questions today?”

Du Lei smiled loss me. “I’ve been with him …… for about two years now; he was a coworker in my previous company, a very classy and handsome man who always spoke softly, and then the company sent him to the New York branch, about a year or so ago, and by that time I had already left the company.”

“Did you know he was married when you were with him?”

“If I had known from the beginning, I wouldn’t have gotten in so deep!”

Du Lei shook her head and sighed softly, “It was only by chance and accident that I found out he was married, and at that time I was too worried about my coworker’s finger pointing, so that’s why I chose to leave there. Originally wanted to just give up and forget about it, after all, to be a third party needs a lot of courage ah! But he said he and his wife are not in a good relationship, and he also said that he loves me very much, so ……”

“You’re really getting ripped off.”

I think I kind of purposely made Dulé think that, “If he and his wife weren’t in a good relationship, would he still go to America together?”

“He said it was his wife who insisted on tagging along!”

Duley retorted. “Is that really true? Then why aren’t you allowed to contact him?”

“He said his wife is a very jealous woman, and that if his wife found out I was with him, his wife might turn on me.”

Duley perked up. “Alright, alright! Whatever you say. So is he working things out or not? When are you going to get a divorce so you can put a name to it?”

I was a little irritated, watching Duley keep falling into the trap, and when I tried to pull her up with good intentions, she refused to appreciate it in the slightest. “I’m sure he’s trying! It’s just that the whole divorce thing isn’t going to happen that fast. Ah! Right.”

Duley’s expression brightened for a moment, “That’s what I wanted to talk to you about.”

She broke into a happy smile, “He said he has a chance to go to LA next month for four days on business and that his wife won’t be there, he told me to meet him in LA then!”

“You’ll be there?”

I suddenly found everything boring, “What is it! Just now, she looked so sad, but it turns out she’s going to America to meet her lover! I’m the one who’s worrying and playing the bad guy, what’s wrong with that?”

I got up and approached the wall, throwing the empty can into the trash can with great force and making a loud noise. Duley was startled by my sudden reaction, “What’s wrong with you?”

“No!”

I gave her a wicked glare, “I just feel like a complete idiot!”

“Hey, what the hell is wrong with you?”

Duley approached me a little fearfully and placed her hand gently on my shoulder. Feeling her body heat, the emotions smoothed out quite unbelievably, “No, it’s really okay; it’s my fault for scaring you just now.”

I pawed off Duley’s hand. “You always thought my boyfriend was cheating on me, didn’t you?”

Du Lei explained up my party’s behavior, “I know I’m very stupid, but I’m also very thankful that you think about me like this …… My friends are very few, and the one who knows the most about this matter besides me is you, and it’s really a rare thing to make a friend like you in the workplace …… No matter what, I thank you very much.”

I look at her, “When are you going? How many days?”

“Going at the end of next month, probably four or five days’ vacation, the details of which he and I haven’t discussed yet.”

I pursed my lips tightly, not wanting to make any more comments on Dulee’s romance. After archiving the program, shutting down the computer, and organizing the desktop, I patted Du Lei’s shoulder, “Let’s go! I’ll give you a ride home.”

Neither of us said another word along the way, only Duley occasionally instructing me which way to go and such. When we got to the floor of her house, we realized it was really close to my house. “You should go up, it’s late and you have to work tomorrow!”

The car was only parked when I spoke up and asked her to go home quickly. Duley looked at me with a look of lust, “Uh-huh.”

She unbuckled her seatbelt, “I’m going up.”

She opens the door, gets out, closes the door and goes around the front of the car. She knocked on my side of the window, something else to say, I guess, and I pressed the button to let the window down and poked my head out. “What–“

Duley sidled up to me and gave me a soft kiss on the cheek, “Good night.”

I froze on the spot and could only look at her back as she walked up the stairs, but I couldn’t say anything; when she finally disappeared in front of me, I don’t know why, but I had the urge to cry. I had wondered what had happened to my behavior of slamming the can at that moment, and the urge to cry when I sent her home; I didn’t think I was an easily emotional person, nor did I think I was ready for another relationship, let alone one that would rub off on me and Duree, and after thinking about it for a long time I still couldn’t come up with a satisfactory explanation for myself. “Shit! Hormones are acting up!”

That’s all I could convince myself of. In fact, Dulee and I still got along peacefully in the company, work went on day after day, and we both seemed to be just very busy Programmers. In the blink of an eye, Dulee was going to the United States. The fact that Du Lei was going to take a leave of absence to go to the United States caused quite a commotion in the Engineering Department, and colleagues cast envious glances, “Ugh, so enthusiastic! Going to America to find a boyfriend!”

“I envy you! I’m so jealous of you!

“Don’t forget to find me a nice blonde!”

“Have fun!”

The day before the trip, my coworkers were all gathered around Duley’s seat talking about it. I leaned on the table near her seat, crossed my arms over my chest, and just watched Dulee quietly. Dulee actually showed some concern for some reason when her gaze turned to me. I just smiled at her, even I didn’t know the meaning of that smile, and went back to my seat, continuing to fight with my program. It wasn’t long before everyone returned to their seats, and the office returned to its usual state. After working on the computer for a while, a small e-mail icon appeared in the lower right corner of the screen.

I opened my mailbox and there was a new e-mail from Duley.

“Yuk Ning: Are you free tonight? Can we have dinner together? Please come back soon. Dule.”

I look at Duley, who has her back to me, looking like she’s trying to work. “Why did you want to see me for dinner? What did she want to talk to me about?”

I couldn’t guess. “No problem, after work please go ahead and meet me at the exit of the parking garage on the fourth basement level.”

Fingers tapped on the keyboard, hit Enter, and mailed the reply. It wasn’t long before I got an “OK” from her.

The Answer. The main reason why we met at this kind of place is because both Dure and I don’t like to have strange rumors spread about us. The parking spaces on our floor are all on the second basement floor, so dating on the fourth basement floor is rather a safer and more convenient choice for the two of us; although I’ve thought more than once that we’re very much like cheating dogs and men …… sitting in a restaurant, both of us quietly eating what’s in front of us, and if Durei didn’t have the intention of speaking up first, then I think it’s likely that I would have followed the silence for the entire evening.

“Why don’t you say something?”

Du Lei couldn’t resist and opened her mouth first. “You’re the one who found me for dinner, if you want to talk, you should talk first!”

I top it off coldly. “I …… I have a nine o’clock flight tomorrow night.”

“Uh-huh.”

“Tomorrow is Saturday ……”

“Uh-huh.”

“Can you take me to the airport?”

What? You want me to come to dinner so you can get yourself a free chauffeur? I almost sputtered, “Is that why you asked me to dinner?”

I shook my head, “Just say the word on such a small matter, why so deliberate?”

“Of course I don’t just have to say that!”

Duley looked at me with a face that was about to faint, “Can I ask you to pick me up when I come back too? I ……”

She swallowed a little, “I hope the first friend I see when I get off the plane, is you.”

An uninformed person hearing this is going to think it’s some kind of love confession, but I know what she means, whether this trip to the US turns out to be good or bad, she wants to have someone reliable to share everything with. “It’s also Saturday when you come back ……”

I thought for a moment, “No problem, just remember to leave me the shuttle number.”

“Thank you.”

A smile slowly bloomed on her face, so beautiful that it was hard to look away. “I’m actually scared.”

Duley’s voice was minimal as if she was speaking to herself. “What?”

I couldn’t hear what she was saying. She raised her head and looked straight at me for a while before she opened her mouth, “I’m actually very afraid. I’m afraid that by then he’ll mention to me that he’s breaking up with me, I’m afraid that his wife will suddenly appear in front of me and call me a vixen, I’m afraid that he’ll tell me that the whole thing about getting a divorce is all a lie to me……. Waiting for his liaison here is very hard but at least I don’t have to be so scared……. “

Looking at Duley’s horrified expression, “Don’t go if you don’t want to.”

I said. “Huh?”

Duley hadn’t expected me to answer that way. “But even if I say that, you’re still going to go, aren’t you!”

I shrugged, “Anyway, we won’t know until we go, will we? Anyway ……”

Thinking of what he was going to say next, he couldn’t help but give him a shy, “Anyway …… I’ll pick you up when you come back!”

“Fair enough.”

Duley laughed again. After dinner, as usual, I sent her home. A bad feeling suddenly flashed through my heart, what was it? Not about Dulee, but about myself. What is it? Monday at work, many coworkers face coincidentally show the expression of missing Dulee, I can not help but feel funny, “Hey! What are these people doing! Dulé is just on vacation, why are they all looking like they’ve lost their lives?”

I whispered into Weicheng’s ear. “Do you really don’t understand or are you just pretending?”

Weicheng looked offended, “Don’t you know that Du Lei is the goddess in the hearts of the men in the engineering department and the model in the hearts of the women?”

“Whoo…… is whoo……”

I put on a face like I’ve seen a ghost, “It’s …… that bad oooh ……”

“Everyone is talking about guessing that Dulee went to the US this time, supposedly to discuss marriage with her boyfriend.”

Vaishen said fervently. “Really?”

While pretending to be calm on the surface, in my mind, I kept going back to all the conversations Duley had before she left. How come she didn’t say anything to me? “I guess so!”

Weicheng scratched his cheeks, “I heard that she had a boyfriend when I joined the company, although no one seems to have seen her boyfriend, but Dulee shouldn’t be lying to us, right? And it seems like they’ve been together for a long time, if there’s no problem it’s time to get married, right?”

“No problem if ……”

I thought darkly. “What? Aren’t you curious about Dulee going to America? You’ve been peeking at Dulé a lot ……”

Weicheng gave me a weird look and looked me up and down. “Go! Where Dulee wants to go is her business, whose turn is it for us to care?”

I innocently argued, “Besides, I’m just purely admiring her, I don’t have any evil thoughts at all, don’t make me sound like a pervert!”

“Hey, hey, it better be!”

Weicheng stroked my head. “Screw you, it’s not your son! What are you touching!”

I pluck away Weicheng’s hand in mock disgust. Looking at my watch, this moment is nighttime in America, I guess!

Has she arrived yet? Did you meet up with your boyfriend? What is she doing now? Did she get the answers she wanted? The engineering department went through Monday and Tuesday without Dule. It was hard to get off work, and I dragged my tired body home. It was so hot that I didn’t even have an appetite, so I just took a shower and went to bed.

As I drifted off to sleep, I thought I heard the phone ringing, so I turtle-crawled out of bed in the dark and picked up the phone, “Hello?”

“Hello? Yukonin, it’s Dule.”

“Dure?”

At the sound of her voice, the spirits all came. “What’s wrong? Why are you calling? Is something wrong?”

There was a pang of nervousness, deep in fear that she’d run into something she wasn’t happy about. “No, no, I’m fine.”

Duley said sweetly, “I just really wanted to hear your voice.”

“Have you seen your boyfriend?”

I asked cautiously. “Hmm… He went shopping with me yesterday! But only yesterday, he’s not available Sunday or today; here in LA it’s just after nine in the morning on a Tuesday, and we’ll have dinner together in the evening.”

“Wow. ……”

Los Angeles was fifteen hours behind Taiwan, so while it was already Wednesday in Taiwan, it was still Tuesday there in the United States. “So what were you doing the first two days?”

I couldn’t help but ask. “Just wandering around, shopping, and I went to Little Tokyo and Chinatown! But the Chinese food in America is really bad!”

She sounded as if she was in a good mood. “It’s good to be okay.”

I breathed a little sigh of relief and began to joke, “Those men are all like mothers when you’re not there!”

“Really?”

“What’s the point of lying to you?”

Remembering that she was calling internationally, “Okay, okay, the phone is expensive, stop talking!”

“Well, I just wanted to hear your voice, just to tell you that I’m doing okay so far.”

“It’s good that it’s okay, then ……Bye-bye.”

“BYE!”

Hearing Dulee hang up the phone, I just put down the microphone. Look at the clock, it’s more than twelve o’clock, and I slept all sweaty again, it’s weirdly sad, so I had to go into the bathroom to take a shower once more. I don’t know if it’s because I just slept, or because Du Lei called, or because of the shower, I actually don’t want to sleep at all right now! “Cry prematurely ah!”

I cursed, it’s not like I don’t have to go to work tomorrow, I can’t sleep now, am I told to go to work tomorrow with panda eyes? Forcing myself to lie on the bed to cultivate the mood to sleep, “Shit~”

Still can’t sleep, what’s up with that! With a clear mind, I changed into my clothes for going out and decided to go to the 7-11 at the end of the alley to buy two cans of beer. Drinking alcohol, you can always fall asleep! If I can’t fall asleep again, I’ll just take a wolfsbane and knock myself out! Carrying two cans of beer, I walked down the quiet alleyways on a summer night, and every house had already gone to sleep, so quiet that it was hard to believe that such a moment existed in Taipei.

As I was walking, I didn’t know where the sound of kittens or puppies was coming from. Following the sound, I found two suspicious figures in a fire lane; I leaned over and thought they were thieves, but on closer inspection, they were actually two people “doing business”.

The silhouettes. The girl was lying on her back against the wall, her hips slightly raised, her panties down to her calves, her shirt and bra unbuttoned; the boy was entering from behind, his waist doing a pistoning motion on one side, and his hands not forgetting to caress the girl’s breasts.

Both of them suppressed their screams, but no matter how small the sound was, it was still enough to break the quiet of midnight, and the more they suppressed it, the more exciting it sounded. After peeping for a while, his lower body began to react, already hot enough body is now even hotter; heart secretly screamed bad, or before the erection quickly go home to solve it themselves. Back home, my lower body already felt swollen and painful, into the bathroom to take off his pants, the flag has risen a large part, I close my eyes and glove it, “ah ……”

Many fragments quickly skimmed through my mind, but I didn’t bother to care what I saw. Accelerating the movement of my hands even further, “Ah …… ah ……”

I screamed out in excitement, my mind conjuring up someone’s body, only the lower half, as I entered her from behind, just as the young couple had just done; I invaded with abandon, using all my senses to feel all her reactions, “Ahh …… Almost… …faster ……”

I let out a low growl as white cum shot out onto the floor, and after cleaning up what needed to be cleaned up, I went back into the living room and pulled the tab on the beer–wait a minute! What I was thinking, I don’t think – I downed both cans of beer in one gulp, refusing to think about the images that had just popped into my head.

The drink did the trick, and soon I was back to sleep and slept through the night; but I woke up in the morning still a little sleep deprived, though not too comfortable, but not unexpected. Wednesday, Thursday, and Friday …… I found myself actually counting down the calendar for the rest of the day, and even exactly what I did and who I spoke to in the office was completely out of my mind, with about a minute’s worth of memory left. “Ah ……”

I sighed as I braced my hands on the table. How could this have happened? I knew I was looking forward to Saturday, to Duree’s return; but how could this be? I hadn’t even felt a little bit in love with her yet, so why did I start missing her as soon as she was gone? Why did the world suddenly get so quiet when she was gone? “What are you doing again?”

Weicheng poked his head over curiously when he heard me sigh for I don’t know how many times today. “It’s okay! Just feeling annoyed.”

I waved my hand to show that I was fine. “Big brother, you’ve been mourning for a long time hey! What’s the matter? Is your period coming too?”

Weicheng was probably really tired of hearing it and couldn’t help but choke me twice. “Shit! What’s your period? You’re the one who’s on her period!”

I waved my hand over his head.

Going down. “It hurts ouch!”

Weicheng touched his head, “If it’s not, then don’t complain! If there are any strange bugs in my program, it’s all because of you, you know?”

Weicheng reached out and made a gesture to strangle me. “Alright, alright.”

I responded in a bad humor, “I’ll wail and keep my voice down!”

“Shit, you’re not even listening to me!”

Weicheng had a face full of shit and didn’t want to pay any attention to me. In the afternoon, I found an excuse to go to the top floor to take a breather, where some smokers were leisurely smoking, each chatting about their own office gossip, and occasionally criticizing the supervisor’s pigheadedness. I leaned against the fence, looking at the office buildings, the heart welled up a burst of inexplicable sadness.

I always thought that if I didn’t get involved, those complicated relationships or emotional entanglements wouldn’t come to me, but it seemed that no matter how hard I tried to avoid them, I couldn’t stay out of it. I had promised myself that I would treat Du Lei as an observer, and I thought that my plan would go smoothly, but Du Lei didn’t act according to my plan, she took me as her good friend without permission, and a good friend that she could trust. I, the “watcher,”

She can’t defend herself against her “attack.”

, she treated me with real emotions, of course I also naturally return her with real emotions, but …… that’s not what I want, I don’t want a good friend, I don’t want a lover, I just need an object for me to observe, why is Duree just to come to mess with me? My ex-girlfriend has said that my loneliness seems like a black hole, in fact, I don’t understand what she means at all. Is my mood at the moment a kind of loneliness? Is this mindset of deliberately keeping a distance from people simply my loneliness? It seems dashing, handsome, forthright, and untroubled by external things, but the truth is that I’m probably just afraid of being hurt, afraid that what I’ve given will have no return. I’m reminded of the “Wind Cave” in the manga “Inuyasha”, which is in the hands of Maitreya.

, and once it’s on, it sucks everything up. That’s actually what the ex-girlfriend was talking about, I think! When it’s not open, there’s still peace with the world; when the passage is opened, it becomes a bottomless pit. “So this is what she was talking about ……”

I feel a pain in my chest. If I’m a wind tunnel by nature.

, then so is Dule. When we are face to face, our respective powers can maintain some sort of balance, and once the balance is no longer there, one is destined to be consumed by the other. “We are kindred spirits ……”

I muttered to myself. Thinking so, everything seems to have an answer. Yes, I miss Du Lei, care about her emotions, care about the development of her romance …… Everything is because we are the same kind; because we are the same kind, so we can understand each other’s wounds and state of mind, so it will produce a certain kind of tie that is different from the general relationship. I’m not in love with Duree, I can just relate to her, I can just understand all the struggles in her heart. I was not in love with her. I arrived at the airport early Saturday night, checking my watch, a full hour early, I really don’t know why I was in such a hurry. My eyes were glued to the signage that recorded the movement of the flights, and I watched the flights departing from the “on time” airplane to the “on time” airplane.

Become “arrive.”

Finally, the dynamics of the plane Dulère was on changed to “arrivals.”

I looked toward the exit with anxiety. I looked towards the exit with anxiety, knowing that after the plane landed, I had to wait for all the passengers to disembark, clear customs, collect their luggage, and check their passports, which would take at least half an hour or so, so it was impossible for her to appear in front of me as soon as she stepped off the plane, but I couldn’t help but stare at the travelers coming out of the exit, fearing that I might have missed something. Finally, I saw her dragging her suitcase out. “Duree!”

I screamed her name, waving my hand high in the air and waving hard as I ran through the throngs of people picking her up. “Yukin!”

Duley looked around and finally saw me, leaving the suitcase alone, tossing it aside and running over to me and hugging me tightly. “What’s wrong?”

I was startled by her, the two of us weren’t close enough to hug each other tightly the moment we met, right? Putting my hand on her shoulder, I felt a slight tremor in her body, did something happen? I didn’t get a good look at her expression in that moment, leaving me completely confused. “What’s wrong?”

I asked again. Duley just buried her face in my chest and didn’t say a word. “Dulee ……”

I called to her softly. It took a while for her to bring her head up, her expression indescribably tired. “I’m so tired. It’s been a long, long flight to get here, and I’m really glad to see you’ve come to get me.”

Duley’s tone was smooth, and I couldn’t hear anything out of the ordinary. She just held me, with no intention of letting go at all, and as she watched the crowd pass us one by one, there was the illusion that time stood still for both of us. If she wanted to, I wouldn’t object to holding me like this until dawn. After a while, she finally let go, “Thanks for not being able to afford it.”

I patted her down and picked up her “abandonment”

of the suitcase, “Come on, I’ll take you back!”

Dulé didn’t say a word on the way, the only sound in the car was the radio; although she couldn’t wait to ask her about the “results” of her trip to America.

But looking at her, with her tired face, it was better to keep my mouth shut; hoping that she was just feeling tired purely because of the flight and jet lag. There were no words all the way back to her house, and I helped her haul her suitcase upstairs, the first time I’d ever been inside her home. Duley’s home had a very cold feel to it, was it the extensive use of steel and glass in the furniture? Everywhere I went, I could see them reflecting their own shadows. Even though she and I both lived alone, though a man’s house was different from a woman’s after all; Dulee’s home was two hundred times cleaner than mine anyhow. Dulee poured a glass of water, “Thanks for picking me up today.”

I took the cup from her, “Nothing.”

The two of them sat on the couch and were speechless again for a while. I saw that she really didn’t want to talk, in that case, I might as well let her rest. “Dulee, you must be tired coming back, get some early rest, I’m going back.”

I stood up and walked to the balcony to put on my shoes. Duley didn’t say anything, just stood up and looked at me. Putting my shoes on, I was just about to turn back to say goodbye to Dulee when I was suddenly hugged from behind. “Dulee!”

My heart beat several times faster all of a sudden. Dulé hugged me tightly. She was crying. Her sobs grew from tiny whimpers to louder, and when I heard her breathing hard and sobbing, and tried to turn back to her and hug her, she wrapped her arms tightly around my waist and refused to let me move. “Don’t move! I look ugly when I cry ……”

She choked. “Don’t move. ……”

I looked at her hands around my waist, these hands were so thin and small, I couldn’t tell that they were hands that could write complex programs, these hands had been trying so hard to hold onto the happiness that belonged to her, why, was the owner of these hands now hugging me and crying? “Dure ……”

I tried calling her. “Don’t say anything, please ……”

Her arms held me tighter. It seemed she would not rest until she was tired of crying. I put my hands over her hands and realized that her hands were as cold as her furniture; letting her cry for a while, sensing that the strength of her hands on me had become less, I turned around and hugged Duree, who was still crying, “We’ll talk about what’s going on tomorrow, you’re tired, go to bed! I’ll stay here with you.”

Duley nodded and was pushed into the room to sleep on the bed as I tucked her in under a thin blanket, “Go to sleep! I’m not going anywhere.”

I said. She closed her eyes with a pained expression and nodded, a teardrop sliding down her cheek again. She finally fell asleep, her tiny hand still gripping mine and refusing to let go, and I looked at her peaceful sleeping expression and finally understood what the bad feeling that flashed through my mind at that moment was. “Ugh ……”

I let out a long sigh. As much as I find a bunch of explanations, a long list of reasons to convince myself, all the explanations are redundant when the facts are in front of me. I was in love with Dule. A sleepless night, whenever I closed my eyes, I saw Duley’s crying face. What the hell is going on? When she called me the other day, wasn’t she still gushing about her shopping trip with her boyfriend? Wasn’t she still going to have dinner together? What happened?

Boyfriend breaks up? Or his wife found out? Or by an acquaintance? Maybe by her own family or former coworkers? My mind is in turmoil. Shouldn’t she have come home happy? Who let her cry herself to sleep? What’s going on? Who bullied her?

Looking at her sleeping face, a scene of peace, perhaps only in sleep can she forget all the unpleasantness! Fingers gently slide over her face, feel a long-lost skin touch; when did I fall in love with her? The last time I worked late, when she brought me a midnight snack? When she sent me home on the day of orientation?

Or the next day when she asks me to breakfast? Or when she asked me to go to the penthouse to negotiate?

Or was it earlier, when I found out she and I were coworkers? Or was it earlier, when I found out she and I were coworkers? Maybe …… when she asked me in the pub, “Alone?”

I might have been attracted to her at the time. It was horrible. I suddenly had this feeling.

It turns out that I myself have been deceiving myself and others? Constantly convince themselves will not fall in love with anyone, ask themselves no longer and anyone to establish a deep relationship, as long as there is doubt in the heart to make up a whole bunch of reasons to excuse themselves …… but all the defenses were Du Lei’s a drop of tears to the completely shattered. Everything has long been obvious, only I refuse to admit it.

Realizing that I’m in love with Duley doesn’t help the situation at hand at all. I’m just in love with someone who doesn’t love me, and not only that, I’ll probably never be able to show her that I love her, I’m just a trusted friend to her, and just because she wants to lean on me when she’s vulnerable doesn’t mean I have a chance of “upgrading” from being a friend.

I was so tired that I couldn’t hold on any longer. As I watched the sky lighten up, I was so tired that I could barely hold on, so I walked to the living room and sat on the couch to take a small squint; I don’t know how long I slept, but I opened my eyes and saw that there was an extra blanket on me, and I immediately jumped up from the couch and rushed into Dulé’s room. “Dulee!”

Open the door to the room, she’s not there! Not there? Not there! Where did she go? Where did she go? Looked inside and outside the house, she wasn’t home. “What to do?”

I wanted to calm down and think about it, but when I thought about it, I still didn’t know what to do, “Yeah! Call the cell phone!”

Hurriedly, I dialed Dulee’s mobile phone, but her cell phone rang disrespectfully in the room. While I was still at my wits’ end, I heard the sound of a door opening, “Dulee!”

I yelled, rushing over and hugging her tightly regardless of the fact that she was still holding something in her hand before saying anything. “Where have you been? I woke up and realized you weren’t there, and I was so worried, you know?”

Duley’s silver bell-like laugh rang out, “Don’t be nervous la, I just borrowed your car to go buy breakfast.”

She laughed and pushed the overly nervous me away, raising the burrito fries in her hand. This is really embarrassing. I smiled in embarrassment and took the breakfast in her hand and put it on the table, “Why don’t you leave a note, causing me to worry for nothing!”

Still, I couldn’t help but say a few words about her. “Don’t worry, I’m fine.”

Duley spoke easily. “Look at me.”

She held my face and asked me to look straight at her. “I’m fine, really.”

She wasn’t referring to the breakfast thing, I know. I pushed her hand away, not daring to look at her again. If I looked a little longer, I might have kissed her beautifully curved lips; if I looked a little longer, I might not have been able to stop myself from saying “I love you” to her!

up. “Eat up!”

Duley was busy taking the breakfast out of the bag, “Eat it while it’s hot!”

I nibbled on a burrito while peeking at her out of the corner of my eye, the wet traces of last night’s tears were no longer visible on her face and her demeanor was no different than normal, causing me to want to open my mouth and ask her about it without knowing which seam to start with. “Why did you cry yesterday?”

I thought long and hard about it, and instead of waiting for my chance, I just got to the point and said it. Duley’s expression froze for a moment, her eyes looking at the floor, “Nothing. Just tired.”

“Cheat.”

“Forget it if you don’t believe me.”

Duley returned coldly. I felt incredible in my heart. It was fine just a moment ago, how come her expression actually went back to the icy coldness she had when we talked on the roof of the building? Why did she only show this kind of rejecting look until now? “I’m just being nosy anyway!”

Hearing Du Lei’s reply, all the questions that had accumulated in his stomach turned into words that exploded out, “Who asked me to drive you to the airport? Who was it that said he wanted me to be the first person he saw when he got off the plane? Who treated me as a good friend? Who cried like that yesterday? I’m nosy, aren’t I? Fine! Mind your own business. You think I like to mind my own business? I don’t care! I don’t care if you live or die from now on!”

In a fit of pique, I dropped my half-eaten breakfast, grabbed the car keys that Duley had left on the table, slipped on my shoes, and stormed out the door.

All the way home in anger, do not want to do anything, fell asleep; guarded the duree all night, but also early in the morning to hold a stomach of birds, only sleep can give me some comfort.

I slept hard and woke up in the late afternoon… wow, I have less than eight hours left in my weekend! I turned on the lights and sat alone in the living room. I wish I could stop thinking about Doreen, but my head just keeps thinking about it.

It was me who was too impulsive, I guess! I really wanted to know bits and pieces of her trip to America this time, but I guess it was just to satisfy my own curiosity, not really willing to listen to her and understand her feelings …… That’s why when I waited all night and Duley didn’t say anything, that’s why it made me so angry, right? “Call Dulee and apologize?”

I hesitated; “Better let her rest again!”

In the end, it was decided that if Dulé didn’t want to talk to me, then it was best if I didn’t ask. In any case, it’s a problem she has to deal with on her own, not to mention, I have to pretend to be a “good friend” in front of her.

The look. Monday went into the office and didn’t see Dooley come in until after ten, “What’s going on?”

I’m starting to get antsy, is it a leave of absence? But I didn’t hear any other coworkers get a call from Duree to take a vacation …… “stirrups ……”

I was shocked when my cell phone rang. Weicheng had been hit by my “Bumblebee” more than once.

The ringtone scared him, and I laughed at him for not having the right temperament.

, not recognizing the world-famous song, and now that even he was shocked, it looked like it was time to change the ringtone. “Hello?”

“Hello? Mr. Zhang Yuning …… Oh?”

The voice of the caller was very unfamiliar, only the voice of a middle-aged Obasan could be heard, and from her hesitant voice, I knew that my name was probably assumed to be female again. “I am, which one of you?”

I spoke back politely. “Oh, do you know Ms. Dureedu? I’m her landlord!”

“Dulé’s landlord? Why is her landlord calling me?”

I had a moment of suspicion, “I …… recognize it! What’s the matter?”

“Oh …… Miss Du is in the hospital now!”

The landlady seemed a little bad about starting. “Huh? Hospital?”

My volume unconsciously enlarged, swish sound stood up, coworkers looked at my unusual behavior, everyone froze like a wooden chicken. “That Miss Du oooh …… just …… love sleepy pills too much lah!”

“What?”

The mind went blank. What the hell is going on? Was it suicide? Or did I accidentally eat too much? I asked my landlord about the hospital where Duley was, hung up the phone, turned off the computer, hurriedly packed my things, and got a leave slip from my manager, who had just heard my ghostly yelling and screaming and asked me what had happened. “Manager sorry! My ama passed away, I have to go home now!”

I’m sorry, mom! Your unworthy grandson had no choice but to ask you to rise from the grave and die again la! “Wow, that’s really ……”

The manager thoughtfully said, “Go back soon! Don’t worry about the company.”

Sitting on a small yellow rushed all the way to the hospital emergency room, asked the counter Du Lei’s location, turned a corner, and even walked and ran rushed in – Du Lei sleeping peacefully in the hospital bed, arm hanging on the drip, sitting next to the bed a slightly fat middle-aged woman, must have just called the landlady it. The landlady sensed someone behind her and turned her head to see me standing in the doorway. “Mr. Zhang?”

She approached me and put her finger to her lips, signaling me not to speak too loudly, making a gesture for me to get out and talk about it. “What’s going on?”

I was so anxious that I couldn’t help but speak up before I reached the hallway. “I don’t know what’s going on.”

The landlady looked at me, “I said to her that I would collect the rent on Sunday night, and I called her yesterday before I went to look for her, and it was strange, the phone rang for a long time before I picked it up, but no one said anything, and then I heard the sound of something falling to the ground, and I called Ms. Du’s name, but she didn’t answer. “

The landlord swallowed his saliva and continued: “In fact, …… because I have someone in my family before who also ate love sleepy pills almost died, so I’m more alert a little bit, I think it’s not quite right, I ran to find her, ah, ring the bell are no one to answer, but fortunately, I have to bring the key over there, and when I opened the door, I saw that she collapsed on the ground, and I quickly called 119 to bring her here. When I opened the door, I saw her on the floor, and I called 911 to bring her here! The doctor said she was found early, so it’s okay, just wash her stomach and she’ll be fine. Ms. Du woke up in the morning, and I asked her if she wanted to notify anyone, and she said your name, and I looked at her cell phone and found your number.

My mind was torn, “If I caused this ……”

I chided myself. “Landlady, thank you really, for saving her life.”

I was so excited I almost fell to my knees and kowtowed. “Ugh, it’s nothing!”

The landlord waved his hand and revealed a warm smile, “Ms. Du has rented the apartment with me for several years, just like my own daughter! It’s only right to take care of her! Then again, if something really happened to her, in my position as the landlord, wouldn’t I not be able to rent out this house in the future? Isn’t that right?”

“That medical bill ……”

I pulled out my wallet. “Ugh, Samba! Didn’t I tell you that Ms. Du is just like my daughter? It’s only right for a mom to pay for her daughter’s doctor’s appointment, so don’t mention it!”

The landlady held down my hand as I pulled out the money, and spoke very asari. “Thank you, thank you.”

I couldn’t think of anything else to say other than thank you. “I don’t know what your relationship with her is,”

The landlady sighed, “But she will want to notify you at this time, it means that you are very important to her, ah there is something to talk about, don’t move like this to seek life and death …… very bad na!”

“I know, thank you.”

I nodded. “Now that you’re here, I’m going back. Remember, something good to talk about na!”

The landlady finished and turned to leave the emergency room. I went back to the bedside where Duley was lying on the hospital bed, her face still pale, and I looked at her painfully, remembering once again how we first met on the roof of the building. “If I hadn’t watched her properly, she might have just disappeared. ……”

I muttered to myself. Dulé, can you give me some answers, don’t give me endless questions? Dulee finally woke up, perhaps still confused about where she was, her eyes looked around, left and right, finally focusing on me. “Yukonin ……”

She whispered my name. “I am.”

I took her hand, “How does it feel?”

“Where is this place?”

“Hospital.”

“I …… seem to have slept for a long time ooh!”

Duree struggled to get up and I rushed to help her sit. “Uh-huh.”

I nodded. Duley took some time to gather her thoughts before she seemed to remember why she was here, and she looked at me, her emotions rising as her eyes gradually filled with tears. “I ……”

“It’s okay, don’t be afraid, it’s okay.”

I hugged her and spoke kindly. “It was the landlady who thought you weren’t quite right and rushed you to the hospital, I didn’t know anything had happened to you until she called me in the morning. But it’s okay, you’re safe, it’s okay, it’s okay.”

In fact, the one who needs more comfort is me! When I received the call in the morning, my soul was about to be scared away, and all I wanted to do was to hurry to the hospital, not only was my mom dug up and died again, but I also forgot that I drove myself, and spent the money on the yellow car for nothing, and that I had to keep my mouth shut, or else my heart might jump right out of my mouth. See Du Lei safe and sound, heart on that big stone really put down. Now I’m more worried, is to sleep at night in case of dreaming of ama how to do …… “I’m sorry! I’m sorry ……”

Dulère’s head was on my shoulder, crying and repeating “I’m sorry” over and over again.

Three words. “Okay, okay. …… It’s okay.”

My big miss, don’t cry, when you cry I also want to cry hehe! I let go of Dulee and took out a tissue to dry the tears on her face, “How do you feel now? The doctor said as long as you feel fine yourself, you can go home.”

“I ……”

Duley’s voice was still breathless. “It’s okay, don’t force it, just take care of yourself and nothing else.”

I don’t ask her for anything anymore, instead of having to taste the pain of losing her, it’s enough for me to be able to stay by her side as well as I am now; as for the things I want to know, they don’t mean anything to me now, unless Dulee herself wants to talk about them, then they don’t mean anything to me at all. Though I still wanted to know why she had to take her life in her hands. “I want to go home,”

Duley shook her head, “I’m tired, but I want to go home.”

“Then go back.”

I picked up her shoes and helped her put them on, and helped her slowly leave the hospital. When we got back to her house, we realized that neither of us had a key on us; of course I wouldn’t have one, and naturally Dulee, who was being carried in the ambulance, wouldn’t have one either, so we had to dial the landlady and ask her to make a run for it. I let Du Lei sit on the motorcycle parked by the side of the road to rest, her head was resting on my chest, I had to hold her properly, otherwise she might fall off in less than two seconds. Watching her close her eyes and fake sleep, my hand gently smoothed down her hair, there was nothing I could think of right now except for letting her rest properly. But …… “What the hell are you going to teach me to do?”

I asked silently, wanting to see me, wanting to see me, wanting to see me, and she always said it with such justification, but in her heart I was “nothing more than”.

It’s a good friend. “Forget him!”

How many times I want to say this to her, but the reality of the situation …… is too much not allowed. From afar, I saw the landlady jogging over. “Sorry, but also trouble you to run.”

I said. “It’s nothing.”

The landlady was still Asha’li, “How’s Ms. Ah Doo? Feeling better?”

“Well, that’s better, go up there later and let her get a good night’s sleep.”

I picked up Dulee on my back and prepared to go upstairs. The landlady opened the door for us, and I carefully backed out as I laid Duley, who had fallen asleep again, on the bed. “Asleep?”

It seemed the landlady was worried too. “Asleep.”

I nodded. “Ugh …… what does that say …… If you’re alive, it’s bound to be good anyway!”

The landlady said something awesome and lovely, “I’ll go back in a little while and get her something for her health, you’ll stay the whole time, won’t you?”

“Uh-huh.”

“Okay then, I’ll come back later.”

After sending my hot-blooded landlady away, I walked into the room and took a seat on the edge of Duley’s bed. “Forget about him, okay? He’s not worth being nice to, and he’s not someone you should love. You’re hurting yourself like this, and have you ever thought about who it’s going to hurt the most?”

I whispered softly, trying to say it to her face even though she couldn’t hear me; only, as I said it, I couldn’t help but hide my face and whimper. “Where on earth have you put me?”

In the evening, the landlady brought a pot of steaming fish soup, stewed to the bone and flesh, not to mention the aroma of fish, ginger and wine is even more appetizing, just look at it feel so delicious. One foot sent the landlady away, and the next foot Dule paced out of the room. “You’re awake?”

Her face was noticeably rosier, and she was in much better spirits. “Hmm. I woke up just now when the landlord came, I was just too embarrassed to come out and talk to her.”

Duley walked slowly towards the living room and sat on the couch. “Whoa. Are you hungry? The landlady just brought over a pot of fish soup, it looks delicious! Have some, okay? Otherwise your body won’t be able to take it if you haven’t eaten anything.”

I took a soup bowl and served some to her. “Thanks.”

Dulé finally broke into a smile as she took a few bites and couldn’t help but praise him hard, “It’s so delicious! It’s been a long time since I’ve had this kind of mom’s flavor!”

Watching her smile like a child, another big stone fell from my heart; the Dulé I knew was finally back. Dulère quickly “solved” the problem.

Dropping two bowls of fish soup, as if remembering something, naggingly spoke, “That day …… I’m sorry ……”

“That day?”

I joked with her, “What day is it? You’ve apologized to me for so many things, which one is it?”

“I ……”

Du Lei was snatched by me, just drank the hot soup and rosy cheeks at this time even more beautiful. I got up and walked towards her, sat down beside her, and once again held her tightly in my arms, “Don’t have a next time, I’m really scared to death by you; if you really …… go away like this, what do you teach me to do?”

I couldn’t hide the excitement in my heart after all, and my whole body couldn’t stop trembling. “Yukin?”

Duley was taken aback by my reaction, her hands stopped in mid-air and didn’t know where to put them, after a moment I felt them rest lightly on my back and I held her tighter. “I’m sorry, I promise it will never happen again, I’m sorry ……”

Duley said and soon my shoulder was wet with her tear drops. I let go of her, “Don’t cry. You didn’t do me wrong.”

I was going to dry the tears on her face with my hands, but looking at her, once again, I recognized that I loved her so deeply, with a depth that was far beyond my own imagination, and far beyond the weight I could carry on my own. I lowered my head and gently kissed away her tears. “Yukine!”

Duree was surprised at my move, but she is a smart person after all, and immediately realized how I felt about her, “I’m not worth …… it.”

She cried again as she spoke. “No one deserves it more than you.”

I captured the tears on her face with my lips, and Dulee closed her eyes, letting my lips hover tenderly over her face; one drop, two drops, three drops …… My lips lightly touched the corner of her mouth, and she realized that I was trying to kiss her, and her face immediately parted. “Don’t …… just ate the fish’s …… have a fishy odor ……”

I just realized that Duree blushes super easily and simply looks like an apple when she blushes, “Never mind ……”

I gently wrenched her face, “That fish looks delicious anyway.”

Duley was all smiles and tried to say something, but I quickly sealed all her words with my lips. Gently prying her teeth open to find the softness and fragrance inside her mouth, as if I wanted to pump the air out of her, I plundered her with extremely aggressive kisses. My body was heating up, from my toes to my heart, and the lust in my body was waiting for me, making my whole body itch, and my breathing and heartbeat were all out of order. A kiss, just a small prelude. “I love you ……”

I finally said it, and my lips still didn’t forget to tap on her lips. Looking at her lips being red and swollen from my kisses, a sense of accomplishment inexplicably arose in my heart; and my hands had long been restless, wandering up and down her back, “Ah! She’s lost weight!”

I thought in my head. “Yukonin ……”

Duley’s mind went blank from my kisses, unable to say anything but my name. “I want you.”

With my head equally blank, I could only comply with my body’s cravings at this moment. Hearing my bold confession and revealing invitation, Du Lei’s not only reddened like an apple, it was on par with a boiled shrimp. Instead, she put her hands against my chest and shook her head vigorously, “No.”

“No?”

I hadn’t expected that answer from her, and the spermatozoa that were just about to rush to my brain all died in an instant, and my sanity, which was almost abandoned, snatched back into the city at the last moment. “You have no idea what kind of person I am, I have no qualifications at all, it’s fine to love or be loved by someone else, I have no qualifications!”

She started to cry out, pushing me away with all her might, standing up and yelling. “What are you talking about?”

I took her hand, “What are you talking about?”

“He doesn’t want me …… He says he doesn’t love me ……”

Duree’s tears collapsed and she cried uncontrollably. I couldn’t help but resent a lot of things. I resented the man who started it all, and I also resented my own recklessness, focusing only on satisfying my own desires, but forgetting the reason why Du Lei wanted to go on a desperate path. Pulled Du Lei than shoulder to sit down, so that her head against me, not forgetting to carry over the tissue box on the table, for the “victims”!

Use. “Say it! Say whatever you want!”

I drew a Kleenex and shoved it into her hand. “I thought he really wanted to divorce her wife ……”

Du Lei said while crying. “I was so happy when he went shopping with me that day, I waited for a long time for this moment, and we bought so many things together …… went to so many nice places …… he said he was busy and only had Tuesday nights free to Accompany me …… Later I realized …… everything was just an excuse ……”

“Hmph! I told you that man was no good!”

I thought darkly. “Tuesday night …… he stayed over at the hotel I was staying at, I was so happy, he kept saying he missed me, he said he missed me so much ……”

Du Lei again agitated, “early Wednesday morning he disappeared, only to leave a word treaty I evening dinner together again, of course I sympathize with him, he has to work, very busy; evening meeting, but he said I actually do not love him anymore …… what with what … …If I don’t love him, why did I go to America to find him? Nuts …… And he also said that his wife was pregnant …… He thought breaking up would be good for me and him …… That’s when I realized… …he didn’t want me ……”

Duley’s head leaned on my shoulder and cried in pain. “If you don’t love me, just forget it! Why don’t you just say it! ……”

Du Lei said angrily, “And said he didn’t love his wife …… didn’t love her and got her pregnant …… What is this …… what am I …… It was him who asked me to go and I went …… Why are you doing this to me ……”

As I said this, the tears began to flow out again like a broken faucet. I heard the little mystery in Duley’s words, “I don’t love him anymore?”

I speculated as to why the man came to that conclusion. Just …… now should I be happy for Duley to regain her freedom, or sad for her emotional frustration? “I really can’t stay a day, at that time I just wanted to go home quickly, when I saw you at the airport I was really so happy so happy …… but I didn’t know how to open my mouth to say to you, and I didn’t want you to worry, a good sentence was messed up by me, and as a result, I made you angry; I cried all day at home, and I was so sad. I cried all day at home, so sad, so sad …… Why is it like this? I really don’t know what to do for good …… I just …… got confused for a moment ……”

Duley hid her face and cried, unable to even speak fully. “It’s okay, it’s okay ……”

I took Dule in my arms, “Nothing is wrong. It doesn’t matter if he doesn’t love you, it’s fine if I love you. Don’t you say anything about qualifications or not, if he doesn’t want you, it’s because he has no eyes, understand? Don’t belittle yourself, you are the best in my mind, do you know?”

Although it is a very small thing to take advantage of the situation, …… small people still have to do it once in a while. Duley reached out and hugged me, crying more and more miserably, “How can he say I don t love him? Obviously he didn’t love me first ……”

“Why would he say that?”

“I don’t know, I don’t know …… how could I know ……”

“Okay, okay. ……”

I smoothed her hair, “Then I love you, okay?”

I’m such a little man for saying something like that when someone is sad. “Uh-huh.”

Duley looked up, like a helpless child, and then hugged me again. “Don’t leave me alone again …… Everyone doesn’t want me …… I’ve had enough ……”

What’s that? That’s how you get it? Is it real or not? I’m a little bit secretly happy, but I really don’t know if Dulé really knows what I mean, “So …… I can love you?”

“Uh-huh.”

Embracing Dulé’s softness, the spermatozoa couldn’t help but start creeping up again, “Hey! No!”

I warned the dick underneath me, “Not today!”

Although I can’t call myself a gentleman, I can’t be that thorough in my villainy either! Despite my efforts to convince Du Lei to take another day off, she insisted on going to work. She’s not so bad. When faced with questions from her coworkers, she just says, “I’ve got a cold.”

Such reasons can be excused, I will be miserable. When the manager asked me how things were going at home, “Uh …… got it wrong, we had thought Amma had passed away, then …… she woke up… . right ……”

Said even himself Pipi filed. Ama, I really didn t mean it, I really didn t …… Seeing as your grandson is happy, spare me this time, and don t ever come to me at night …… Hearing my coworkers ask her about what she saw in the United States in seven words, I was so worried in my heart, which undoubtedly forced her to go back to the Recall everything that she does not want to remember.

Dulee smiled on one side and took out the chocolates she bought in the U.S. to share with everyone. She pretended to be fine on the surface, pretending to be Everythingisalright, but looking at me, it gave me an indescribable sweet and sour feeling. Is she really willing to accept me? How much of my words did she really take seriously? Even if I get her approval in words, what does she think in her heart?

Can she accept the love of another man? Willing to open her heart? Can I really go from best friend to boyfriend? Will she suddenly send me a good guy card and sentence me out? Where exactly does she place me in her heart? I’m in her heart …… Ugh! The more I think about it the more questions I have.

Probably seeing me staring at Duree until I was out of my mind, Weicheng reached out his palm and waved it in front of my eyes, snapping me back to reality. “Let me ask you something, honestly, no hollering me.”

His tone was serious, so serious that it didn’t fit at all with his usual image of being so sunny that he had few roots. “What’s up? So serious.”

Suddenly, I felt like Pippi was possessing him, right? Come to question I have nothing to do why dig her up and not allowed her to die. “Do you and Dule …… have something?”

Weicheng deliberately lowered his voice, but to my ears, it seemed to be audible throughout the office. “What are you talking about? I’m just a coworker with her ……”

I looked around. “Hey, no hollering at me. You really think I’m a healthy, happy, sunny little idiot! You often look at Duree and see that you’re lost in thought, and Duree often smiles at you, and it’s not even in ‘business mode’, so other coworkers can’t see it, and I sit next to you every day, so it’s hard not to see it.”

Weicheng was offended by my attitude and simply told me all he saw. “I ……”

What can I say? There’s too much between me and Duley that isn’t enough to talk about. “It doesn’t matter if you don’t say anything,”

Weicheng shrugged, “Anyway, that’s between you and her, I can’t interfere. But I saw her talk to the manager for a long time today, I don’t know what they’re talking about, but if I find out one day that Du Lei has resigned, you’d better tighten your skin a little bit, if you dare to deprive this master of the pleasure of going to work, you’ll be dead!”

Weicheng pulled on my earlobe and whispered a warning to me. “Okay!”

I rubbed my innocent ear, “Actually, you’re the captain of Dule’s personal guard, aren’t you!”

Weicheng retracted back into his seat and only extended one middle finger to me. Back to the daily work track, I was still a Programmer, still had endless programs to write. I don’t know why, I care about what Weicheng said about Du Lei talking to the manager, what needs to be talked about for so long? Could …… Du Lei really want to resign? But it’s unlikely, she still has several cases in hand in hold, there is no way to find someone to replace her for a while, she should not resign; even if she has this intention, that hot-blooded manager can’t easily let go of Du Lei such an awesome Programmer, and …… she didn’t say anything to me.

Duley and I, again, spent a week like this, with little chance for her and I to speak except to meet in the office.

This is actually quite funny. Obviously, the phone is very convenient, the Internet is very convenient, and I know where her home is, as long as I want to, I can always meet her and talk to her. But I still have doubts in my heart. Was my confession that day taken as a joke by her? Was her promise that day just a perfunctory answer?

Even if you pick up the phone and meet her, you don’t know what to say to her …… and didn’t talk to Du Lei for the whole day, and when you got home in the evening, you just felt hot and tired. Casually ate something to fill up dinner, look at the TV, holding the remote control to turn around and around, and finally gave up, went into the room to open the computer to find some funny articles to amuse the mood; only by the Internet jokes to make the stomach ache, the bell outside the door suddenly rang. “Coming, coming ……”

I ran to the foyer in my slippers and opened the door. “Dulé? What’s up?”

I didn’t realize it was her and my whole body froze in place. Duley stepped forward and reached out to hug me, “I missed you so much.”

Didn’t think she was telling the truth one hundred percent of the time, but it was still darkly cool. “Come in and talk!”

I noticed that she was carrying a small bag that I didn’t normally see. “What’s wrong? So sudden?”

I said. “Want something to drink?”

I opened the refrigerator and rummaged around. “Don’t want it.”

“Wow.”

I returned to the living room, Duley still looked a little haggard, it seems that the problem between me and her is not so fast to be solved. “So …… what’s the reason for coming here today? Really just miss me?”

I joked about her, but her expression didn’t give her any credit at all. “Can I …… stay? I …… brought my clothes for work tomorrow ……”

Duley hugged me once more, talking and blushing from her neck to her ears. “You ……”

I swallowed, “Do you realize what you’re saying?”

“I want to be with you tonight.”

Duley spoke slowly. “Do you really know what you’re talking about?”

I cupped her face to make sure once more. “Do you have any idea how serious it can be to say something like that to a man?”

“I know what I’m doing with myself.”

Duley pulled away from me and kissed me without a second thought. I quickly grabbed back the reigns and pinned her down on the couch, dropping countless small, soft kisses on her brow and forehead, earlobes and the nape of her neck after her lips were bright red from my kisses. “Ah ……”

I nibbled on Duley’s earlobe and flicked it with the tip of my tongue, causing her to let out a nice moan. Taking off the t-shirt and bra she was wearing, I kissed her collarbone and the skin on her chest without any hesitation, holding her beautiful breasts in both hands, my fingers restlessly kneading those two tiny buds, watching them red and swollen and standing up, Du Lei’s expression became excited, but she still gently bites her lower lip, as if she was suppressing herself from making a sound. Once again, he bullied her lips, letting his tongue flourish inside her mouth, “Scream out, it’s okay, I like to hear it.”

I blew softly in her ear. “Mmmm ……”

Dulé’s starry eyes were half-open, her mouth gently opened, and an uncontrollable sound escaped. I took off her skirt and rubbed her honey hole through her bottoms, my hand only touched her delicate skin and already felt the wetness between her legs, slipping my fingers through the edge of her panties and indulgently tickling the little nucleus inside her, “Ah …… don’t… …”

She clenched her legs together, not realizing that doing so would double the pleasure. “It’s too late to say anything.”

My fingers continued to move, feeling the love juices continue to gush out, and her skin was sprinkled with a layer of color as beautiful as cherry blossoms. Taking off her panties, which were wet with love juice, I gently spread her legs apart, letting her warm tunnel unfold in front of me; I lowered my head, and my tongue invaded the honey hole and flipped it around, and Duree’s sensitive body immediately reacted violently. “Ah …… ah …… no …… ah …… can’t do it ……”

She screamed and tried to get away, but her body reacted against her wishes, and the more her body squirmed, the wetter it got and the more it favored whatever was going to happen next. “Ahh ……”

An unusual tightening rose in her body and she climaxed. The tongue left the warmth of her lower body and carried the panting Dule into the room, the couch too small to do it comfortably. “Open your eyes and look at me.”

I said. I straddled her, removing all clothing from my body, and I wanted Dule to get a good look at who I really was. Maybe this is the selfishness of being a man, although I understand that I may be a substitute, but even a stand-in actor should have a name. Du Lei half opened her eyes, “Ning ……”

She called my name softly. I kissed her, one hand moving down to explore her dampness, the mere vibration of my fingertips lightly pressing against her nub could turn her on, reaching out and thrusting my fingers into her honey hole, deliberately slowing down my pumping, I wanted her to crave me, I wanted to draw out all the desires that were lurking in her. “Ah …… hmmm …… ah ah ah …… me …… hmmm …… Faster ……”

The sounds coming out of her mouth were the best aphrodisiac, making my lower body swell with desire to the point where it was almost too much to hold back. I wanted her so badly that one more minute of patience was one more minute of torture, lifting her hips up slightly and parting into her without resistance. “Ahh ……”

Duley sighed softly and frowned slightly with an expression that was both loving and pitiful; obliviously pumping inside her, watching her beautiful body sway with my movements, I couldn’t help but speed up the depth and speed again. “Ah ah …… ah …… so deep …… can’t do it …… it’s going to be bad ……”

Duree let out a mesmerizing moan and her legs clamped my waist tighter. I picked her up and raised her back slightly, her vagina naturally narrowing and of course doubling the pleasure of each thrust. “Don’t …… don’t …… mmmmmm …… ah …… don’t …… Ahhhh ……”

She let out a scream and soon reached her second orgasm. “Oooh ……”

I let out a sound of comfort, “Almost there …… it’s coming …… ooh ……”

Feeling like I’m about to cum, and wanting to pull my cock out before I do, Duree stops me in my tracks, and I can’t react fast enough, “Ahh ……”

It all shot up inside her. “It’s safe today …… it’s okay ……”

Dulé was sweating profusely and panting. I leaned down to kiss her again, and Dulé’s hand rubbed over my chest, her fingertips touching me inch by inch, and I realized that a woman’s fingers could make a man sexy, and I realized that being touched turned out to be so teachably irresistible. “Ahh ……”

The desire in his lower body began to burgeon again, “You’re going to make me want it again.”

I didn’t want to tire her out too much. “It’s okay, I want to.”

She smoothly pushed me down on the bed, reached down and took hold of my cock and stroked it, and by the time I felt my lower half was already burning, Duley lifted her hips and sat up. “Ahh ……”

The two moaned almost simultaneously, Duree swinging her hips, seemingly satisfied with this position where she could control the speed, angle and depth on her own; her hair fluttered sensuously up and down, and her beautiful breasts jiggled fiercely, the sound of her flesh slapping against each other symbolizing the frequency of burning lust, “Ah …… Ah …… so good …… can’t do it …… mmmm ……”

She let out an oblivious, “Ah …… here we go again …… ah ……”

Duley seemed particularly passionate today. When I had ejaculated inside her for the second time, both of us too tired to fight anymore, I lay down on my side, took Dulee in my arms and just went to sleep naked. When I woke up again, I looked around in a panic, “Good thing you’re still here.”

I breathed a sigh of relief that Duley was still beside me, looking right at me. “I thought you were gone.”

“I’m not leaving.”

Du Lei buried her face into my chest and said sweetly. For the next two weeks, we acted like an ordinary couple, although we worked in the same company during the day and still acted as if nothing was wrong on the surface, but after work, Du Lei transformed herself into my lover, eating together, chatting together and making love together. I’m still a little uneasy, afraid that all this is just a mirage, are all illusions, I do not know why, every time I look at Du Lei’s back, there is a kind of indescribable sense of transparency, like her figure gradually dissolves in the air as slowly become transparent …… that Saturday, Du Lei again to my place to spend the night, the two experienced a few times of intense sex, and as usual, I fell asleep with my arms around her, feeling each other’s presence with my body heat. When I woke up rubbing my eyes, Duley was gone from my arms. “Rae?”

I searched inside and outside the house and she was gone, literally gone, transparent. I tried calling her cell phone, but it always went to voicemail; no one answered the door when I went to her house and rang the doorbell, and after a whole day of searching, I still found nothing. I simply do not know what other friends she has …… until Monday, from the mouth of the manager to know, Du Lei transferred to the Kaohsiung branch, and still her own request to please transfer. This matter, as early as before she went to the United States has already applied. Why?

What was all this warmth and affection for the past few weeks? Was it a parting gift? I felt my heart being torn apart by her. She said she wouldn’t leave, didn’t she?

Why can’t you just stay with me?

Haven’t I loved her enough? Why did she leave me with unanswered questions in the end? I still tried to contact her, but it was only by cell phone, SMS and mail; however, there was no answer on the cell phone, I don’t know if she saw the SMS, and there was no reply on the mail. I thought of calling the Kaohsiung branch directly, but maybe I am only half as brave as other people. I didn’t have the courage to call, and I was even more afraid that she would hang up on me as soon as she heard my voice. When I came home that day, I saw a letter in the mailbox. Although there was no indication of the sender, it was postmarked Kaohsiung, so it was 100% from Dulee.

I hastily hinged the seal, even if there was a bomb inside I didn’t care. “Yukin: I’m sorry for leaving without saying goodbye like this. You should know about my arrival in Kaohsiung! I’ve been working on the transfer for a long time, but only after I came back from the U.S. Although I wanted to find a chance to tell you, I couldn’t open my mouth, I’m sorry. You may think that I only became your lover for two weeks to make up for the shortcomings in my heart, if you think so, I don’t blame you, but, it’s not true. Every minute and second with you is an important treasure to me, a beauty that I can’t part with or forget for the rest of my life. The reason why I want to leave Taipei is because there are too many memories with him here, and continuing to stay here will only make myself weaker and weaker; and yes, “he”

s name is Karen. Maybe Karen is right, I have long since stopped loving him, I just can’t let go of everything I’ve ever given; and, what can’t be denied is that you’ve already lived in my heart, in a very important place in my heart to live. When I’m happy or sad, fortunately you’re there, and it’s a blessing to have a reliable arm to rely on; I know you really love me, and I’ve considered whether to just let nature take its course and develop with you, but I don’t know if I’m just throwing myself into your arms in order to forget about Karen.

If that’s the case, then I’m so bad. After knowing you, I really know what it is to be loved and protected, and this feeling is addictive, so I can’t go on like this, and the transfer of duties is just enough to give us a period of time and a space to let each other think again, especially me.

In the face of your wholehearted love, I need to measure whether I have the ability to afford it. I don’t ask you to wait for me, nor do I have a position to ask for it, I wish you a good and happy life, and I will naturally go to you after I think it over; maybe you’ve left your job and gone elsewhere by that time as well, but I’m confident that I can find you, as long as you’re willing to believe in me one more time. Thank you for loving me, and I love you too; even if I can’t quite clear up the ingredients of this love yet.

Really love you, Dulé.”

“This Duley woman is just too capricious ……”

I clenched my hand harder, the letterhead crumpling in my hand, creasing into a ball. What’s wrong with just being loved? It’s okay to love or be loved and be happy as long as it’s worth it! Even if I am in her heart, what’s the use? The position is ambiguous, even the ingredients of love are also ambiguous. What do you mean, “Let’s think about each other”?

Only she needs to think, I have long thought clearly, this life, I want only her, why she is not able to understand? The cost of two weeks of lingering is actually do not know how long to wait, if I had known that, I would rather continue to be her good friend, but also do not want her to leave me half a step …… “Lei Lei ……”

I screamed her name in an empty house. Dulé was never to be seen again in my life, not in the way she was seen in the way she was seen in the way she was seen.

The feeling also faded; I learned to trust her choice, believing that one day we would meet again, and that even if I was at the end of the world, if she wanted to find me, she would be able to do so. This kind of thinking brings me great courage and comfort. Although my favorite person is not with me, my heart does not feel lonely or sad because of this. My “Wind Cave”

It seems to be filled, the old me seems to be long dead, the lost corner of my heart is quietly filled by Dule, and all my current efforts are for the future, hoping that the next time we meet again, I will be able to turn into a more reliable man, able to make her truly trust me, determined to rely on me, and feel at ease to give herself to me.

I stayed here quickly filled up one, two, three years …… without contacting Dulee again during these years, only occasionally I would hear her name from the mouths of my coworkers or supervisors, and it was enough for me to know that she was performing at work and that she was doing well. Before she was always waiting, now, it is my turn to wait for her.

Even though I said I believed that wherever I went, Dulé would find me, I pretended to be cordial, but in fact, I was very petty and clinging on to this job just because it would be easier for her to find me when she needed me. Another small person’s action is that I made a habit of going to the pub every Friday night at 11:00 to drink two bottles of Heineken; yes, the pub where Dulé and I first met, so much so that the bartender recognized me, and as soon as he saw me coming, the Heineken was immediately brought out and put on standby.

I often think back there to everything that happened between Dulé and me: the first time I met her, she was capricious with two glasses of wine and said “Stay with me!”

The way she looked at me the first time she saw me at work; the way she drove me home the first time; the first time she heard herself talked about; the first time she realized I was in love with her; the first time she said, “I love you.”

; the first time I cried for her …… and the last time I made love to her with passion …… the more I thought of her, the more I loved her; the more I loved her, the more I wanted to see her. I sat in a fixed seat at a fixed time, drank a fixed drink, and wished in my heart that one day she would come here to see me. I don’t know how many Fridays it was, but anyway, I patronized the pub on time again, and the bartender brought out the Heineken, still badgering me with his mouth, “Here we go again? How long do you have to wait?”

I shrugged, the bartender had heard bits and pieces of what Dulé and I had done, and in his mind I would have been categorized as an obsessed man! Only this “obsessed”

Maybe it’s not “obsession.”

It’s “idiot.”

. After finishing the first bottle, the bartender pulls out a second. Gulping down my drink, I thought to myself that Dulé was not going to show up today. The young men and women behind me were squandering their youth hard, their whole bodies seeming to have an inexhaustible supply of energy, and I watched silently with my bottle as they writhed their youthful flesh to the music. “Alone?”

I looked at the voice, a young woman with long hair down to her waist, wearing a lavender seven-quarter-sleeve shirt and a knee-length A-line skirt of the same color, with a lush body and two glasses of wine in her hands. “Drink with me!”

She put one of the drinks on the bar. I looked at it, “Moscow Mule?”

Looks at her again and shakes his head at her. Approaching her, he snatched the other drink out of her hand as well and placed it on the bar, instructing the bartender, “Replace both of these with GinTonic.”

I looked at her and couldn’t help counting, “You don’t even know you’re a bad drinker, do you? A Moscow mule? I think you even have trouble drinking Manhattans! If you want to drink, just drink GinTonic!”

“I love the Moscow Mule!”

She beamed defiantly. “Do you have a problem with that?”

I rested one hand on my cheek, “If you’re drunk, then how am I supposed to know what the answer is that I’ve been waiting years for?”

The woman in front of me looked at me with a hidden smile in her eyes and at the corners of her mouth as she approached me, “I’m only going to say this once whoo!”

“Uh-huh.”

“I love you.”

She finished quickly, blushing and snickering down. I reached out and hugged her close, “Welcome back, Rae.”